=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── I feel like any family member that cared about another person would forgive them for how they behaved in the past. like... "I was a stressed and depressed little boy, now I'm a blossoming flower. Treat me like a flower. This is who I am." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/4173 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: uspol-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ I swear if kamala is elected I will do everything in my power to actually work on my projects and get a job and be a good human ... wait, I already was doing that. But I'll be less stressed out, so... it'll be easier? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/1801 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── people call me "hypervigilant" as if being constantly aware is not a normal state for them. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/1219 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── @user-883 I might be into that tonight! I'm feeling a little unstable because of life reasons, so I'm debating doing drugs to feel better. Idk if you want to be around that kind of thing. =P ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 messages/1336 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ Somehow, it feels like nobody is all that interested in me. Like nobody wants me, that they want me to disappear and stay hidden. This is of course just dark whispers trying to be purified by me. Surely, surely that must be so. Maybe I'm depressed. This happens sometimes. Maybe I'm feeling threatened. This happens sometimes, especially when things are uncertain. Is this the day when my food will be poisoned? Is tomorrow when i get kicked out of homeschool? Maybe I forgot something important yesterday but I can't recall whether I'm at liberty to recall. Maybe I'm feeling lonely. I am feeling lonely. Yep that's probably it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #7 messages/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a little lonely sometimes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/1953 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-470 You're absolutely right, would that we could. I'm lucky I wasn't traumatized in that way. It's my job to tell people who care about pleasantries more than action that they should... y'know, care about action but it couldn't be done by someone who received a critical hit every time they were attacked in that spot. I have my own weak-points of course, for example my fear of isolation (like, not having any friends, not being alone. I live alone!) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/2688 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── "you are better than fear. I know this for I have seen your soul, as it is the same shape as mine." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 messages/1485 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I was such a different person a year ago. And I was twice as different two years ago. Throughout it all, I am connected by the thread of my life, and I could be those people again, if only the context would present itself. Who was I when I met you? Eh I think I'll be this way today. The clothes make the man, and I wear a hat. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #11 fediverse/3770 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── for every "I was there. I helped make it happen" we need at least a couple "I was there. I saw the whole thing go down"s because like, nobody's gonna believe a belligerent, even if they're on the defensive. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse_boost/5734 --- ◀─╔══════════════════════════════[BOOST]═══════════════════════════════──────────╗ ║ ┌────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ║ │ @user-1865 She didn't deserve a lot of cruelty she received. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ She was a wonderful person, who just couldn't stop talking, never sat still, yelled sometimes and was scared of everything but tried anyway. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ Needed several medications just to sleep or she'd go crazy. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ I am exactly like her, I just found out what was really going on with my body and brain. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ She never got that chance, and things got awful after this. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ I feel like that was when her soul died, and I've missed her since. │ ║ ║ └────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ ║ ╠─────────┐ ┌───────────╣ ║ similar │ chronological │ different ║ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──┴───────╝─▶ --- #13 fediverse/1281 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-883 okay I'm down (a little stoned tho, was talking to my soul hehe) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/1721 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── I'd like to apologize to everyone I've ever interacted with in the past. It was unfair of me to interact with you, and I will do my best to not hurt you again in that way. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/5686 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── my friends tell me stories and I build my ideas for relationships based on their pain. I am always haunted by questions they don't want to answer. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/1889 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-1091 I'm sorry I didn't mean to be upsetting! I'll try and be more considerate. If everyone agrees there's never anything to talk about besides how great everyone else is, and that's boring, so... I'm sorry I thought you liked what I was saying from the stars on my comments. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/4855 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────── "you should be acting like these people want to destroy you."me, to me ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/6282 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────── I wish I knew every time someone had been hurt by me. I'd probably cry. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘ --- #19 messages/177 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── There's no potential left of me. I am a husk, a shadow of my former possibilities. None left to manifest, and so I huddle in the shade of what once was ambition as I wait for the silence to take hold. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/3793 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────┐ │ CW: capitalism-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────┘ oh huh I really don't want to work anymore. I used to, but they wouldn't let me. Then they did let me, but I worked too hard and burnt out. Then I recovered for a while, and asked to work again, and they said no. Repeatedly. I don't think I want to work anymore. It's an abusive relationship. It feels demeaning. I'm better than employment. [rent comes due] oh no ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ |