=== ANCHOR POEM === ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-470 You're absolutely right, would that we could. I'm lucky I wasn't traumatized in that way. It's my job to tell people who care about pleasantries more than action that they should... y'know, care about action but it couldn't be done by someone who received a critical hit every time they were attacked in that spot. I have my own weak-points of course, for example my fear of isolation (like, not having any friends, not being alone. I live alone!) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/1659 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────┐ ║ ┌───────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: re: what, mh shitpost │ │ ║ └───────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ @user-1052 │ ║ │ ║ you're right, hubris has claimed many a paladin before-me. I can only hope I │ ║ remain humble enough to survive. │ ║ │ ║ you're right about projecting, but the most beautiful takes are ones that │ ║ align with the experience of the viewed. Hence why method acting works so well │ ║ - just put yourself in the shoes of the character and acting's easy right? │ ║ │ ║ I dunno, I just always felt like it was important to always be trying your │ ║ best. Even if "your best" is relaxing. People say I'm "100% or 0% at all │ ║ times" and I totally agree - it's like you said, a calling, to be the best │ ║ version of me I can be. │ ║ │ ║ Though I would like to add that the missteps aren't wilful, rather they're │ ║ failures caused by imperfect information. Which is why I'm never too harmed │ ║ when other people fail me - ah well, it was their turn to screw up, thats │ ║ alright. It'll be me next time. │ ║ │ ║ But also, if I do something wrong, well, I'll do better next time. It's only │ ║ when I fail to apply what I've learned mistakenly do I shame myself. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/480 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ There's something important in what I said tonight. And each of you will think │ ║ it's something different, which is by design. Can you find the nugget I wanted │ ║ to share, to you in particular? Can you isolate the thing that is relevant to │ ║ you, the person perceiving the words that I speak? Oh yeah you're only looking │ ║ for things to express to your superiors because someone else told you to look │ ║ for a particular type of sentiment. My bad. Sorry for being cryptic. Am I so │ ║ strange for seeking the human element? Perhaps I lose myself, and I speak to │ ║ the void (and by "void" I don't mean to demean you, the audience, because you, │ ║ the audience, are surely comprised of people who surely have their own │ ║ experience and existence. Surely nobody would seek to harm me, after hearing │ ║ those things I speak. Surely we, as the human species, would not be vulnerable │ ║ to the types of weaknesses that allow for critical failures in our defences │ ║ such as the kind that I am professing to exploit (while being aligned to you) │ ║ surely we wouldn' │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4440 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-changing │ └───────────────────────┘ do you know ANYONE ELSE saying the same things as me? if not, then you know who is ready to lead. if so, then don't tell me about them, and don't show them me. It would be nice to know that I'm not alone, though. I know you're scared. I'm scared too. It's not like I've done this before (well, except for a dress rehearsal or two) We're on the same side. We're getting ready to move. Now is the time to go, so get ready or be purged. We will not relent our land they seek to steal. We will not defy them in unjust ways. They have taken so much from us, so now they must face our blades. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/814 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ah that's weird, I don't usually cry. I wonder what's going on. I should │ ║ probably put myself on psychiatric drugs. Surely it's an expression of the │ ║ implementation of my impending doom. │ ║ │ ║ ... what are you even saying bro │ ║ │ ║ ... um, hang on feels like some of the circuitry is off. is something wrong in │ ║ my brain? yeah that's surely it, surely nothing I say would resoinate with │ ║ anyone that has a non-malfunctioning brain. Surely I don't speak of logical │ ║ failures in the hard founded truths of our asset [society I think? like, our │ ║ conditions, our institutions, our {gosh that just... does not translate}] um │ ║ right what was I saying │ ║ │ ║ oh yeah there's this game I'm really into called Knave, it's like D&D │ ║ except the rules are very fewer. Like there's onyl 11 pages in the rulebook │ ║ and it's mostly taken up by random roll tables. Like, everything boings down │ ║ to a few simple rules, like rock paper scissors, or go-fish, or something like │ ║ that with just afew mechanids. something timeless and pure, something that is │ ║ isolated and en │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 messages/1336 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ Somehow, it feels like nobody is all that interested in me. Like nobody wants me, that they want me to disappear and stay hidden. This is of course just dark whispers trying to be purified by me. Surely, surely that must be so. Maybe I'm depressed. This happens sometimes. Maybe I'm feeling threatened. This happens sometimes, especially when things are uncertain. Is this the day when my food will be poisoned? Is tomorrow when i get kicked out of homeschool? Maybe I forgot something important yesterday but I can't recall whether I'm at liberty to recall. Maybe I'm feeling lonely. I am feeling lonely. Yep that's probably it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #8 fediverse/2118 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── listen, judges are useful character moralities, but they don't have to be the only ones to decide things. I mean, if they disagree, then let the one who cares the most about it have the decision-making power. if you do this equally for everything, then everyone will get what they want. so, like, if you care about something, then believe in it. if it's truly good, then more people will come to it, and it'll naturally extinguish (with care and love) the least favored approach, which... honestly now that I think of it is not such a good approach either. the reason I say that is because it's good to be multi-faceted, and to have general flows and rough surfaces. These are places people can hold onto you, the times when you're trying your mostest. y'know, your tough patches. the things that are difficult in your life. the stuff you're working on can push you forward, if you only had someone to play catch with. or like, send letters to. or shared encryption keys. I don't know anyone. Well, maybe o ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 messages/1427 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ the people around me are my understudies. I guess. unbeknownst to me. somehow that makes me feel more vulnerable? like gee there's people who want to kill me, great. scary. and they all hate me, but lust for what I might let them become. All they have to do is master me, and then they can kill and replace me. great. I think I'll continue to scream, thank you very much. PLEASE PLEASE GOD OH GOD HELP ME PLEASE yeah yeah, heard it all before. what's up this time my child? uhhuh, have you tried turning it off and on again? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #10 fediverse/3575 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: leftist "talk to ur neighbours" thing │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-1567 that's totally fine, a fish does not do well in a tree, and so too does a leftist not do well in an environment without the potential for stable bonds. Essentially all you'd be able to do is "hey leftism right?" "oh yes I also leftism" "neat" which isn't very productive. I also live in an environment like that. I do my best to identify people who stay, because in my experience there are often people who stay. I do this by walking around the neighborhood when I can, making up excuses to walk to the dumpster or mailbox at random hours, riding my bike around the area, using the communal spaces like gyms, swimming pools, and picnic tables, and sitting in my hammock on my porch lazily noting people who walk past. People who stay will tend to remain in your mind the more times you see them. They are better people to talk to than the renters who disappear after 3 months or whatever. I don't always do all that stuff at once. I take breaks. I do one at a time. etc ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5636 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I think it's ironic how I ended up posting a "things I almost posted" screenshot directory somewhere other than where I almost posted them. and all they saw were the outtakes. I bet they'd see a completely different point of me, but they never talk to me so they don't know me. oh well, alas, it's fine I'm sure I'm being designed. who can say, I am but at productive play, please react so I can do ongoing story. I learn from each and every encounter I encounterate. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/3401 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── @user-1218 thank you, that's good to hear 🥰 EDIT: I was worried for a moment haha I guess my reach is pretty small so idk. I think people stopped screenshotting my posts and putting them elsewhere after I dashed everyone's hopes on my sleeve. And honestly I kinda deserve it haha like what was I even thinking ... I wasn't thinking I was just feeling, and doing. Oh well. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #13 notes/star-realms-balancing-tradeoff --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ the "avoid them" "way too loud" "they're our/an annoyance" sorry I was late a little, I got distracted doing REAL HUMAN THINGS like play video games she's vulnerable because she can't be trusted. if anyone is disappearing after interacting with me, it's because someone is redacting them. go find that person and stop them from redacting people please, because I like interacting with people, not props. "if we just... walked around and took what we needed, would they really be able to stop us?" --- heh what if we psyopped her oh god she ran in circles ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #14 fediverse/1714 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┐ ║ @user-246 │ ║ │ ║ most artists get around that by posting everything they make everywhere they │ ║ go. │ ║ │ ║ I tend to be a bit selective, because I'm different things to different │ ║ people. All things I care for and own, but designed for different context. │ ║ │ ║ for example, I rarely share what's in my journals, but that's about half of │ ║ what I've made. I show them to basically everyone I know IRL, but very few │ ║ people actually understand or are into them. When I find someone who does it │ ║ fills me with hope, that perhaps I'm not as lost as I had thought. │ ║ │ ║ perhaps it makes me less trustworthy, but I'm not used to being exposed. I │ ║ never used Twitter, I don't use Facebook (not that often) so my "self" was │ ║ something I preferred to perform as on a stage of my own design. │ ║ │ ║ Like wearing different clothes to express yourself, or performing gender in a │ ║ certain way, I am myself when I am most expressful. And I do that in different │ ║ ways in different contexts. I'd love to show more, because I'm a performer at │ ║ heart, and a performer of the heart. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/6350 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: suicide-mentioned-this-curse-will-give-you-nightmares-of-what-could-yet-be │ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ the only thing that could make me want to end my own existence is ultimate betrayal. If the nature of the universe is twisted to defile me. Nothing fills me with more spite than unrequited vengeance. desecreation of truth. How could you. I would do anything to be struck down where I stand. Power is penance. I cannot take responsibility for any of my actions, for I am infinitely vulnerable on all fronts. Therefore, it's all my fault. What am I? Please, tell me before the dawn, let the sun not grace me once more. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘ --- #16 notes/elective-democracy-electors --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──── we need like, several more layers between us and the president. most people only need to worry about what's nearby. sort them by location, instead of previous attempts at "many representatives" which sorted by social class or relevance. we have a tradition for it, in America, with our representatives and senators congressional discrestricts or even, what about by affiliation? voluntary, governmental corporations, run by the people for the people and yeah "I don't want to do what you're telling me to do" "okay" "there will be consequences" omg be an adult (suddenly kids forget how to be as everyone's doing the war thing) not ideal. ouch pain maybe we should stay a little bit sane why is soldiering so hardship? it could just be... another job where you didn't kill each other but you still blew stuff up and fought in tournaments and had gaming hackathons or sword-fight contests duels between people who disapproved y'know fun human stuff like... "kaboom" now we know how to blow up bits of rock neat, why did dynamite becauswer (oh right then you ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───┘ --- #17 fediverse/4162 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: violence-mentioned-politics-alluded-to │ └────────────────────────────────────────────┘ "you can't kill me because nothing I say is wrong" ... actually I kinda just think you look weird, and thats super important to me for some reason. Also your voice is annoying and I think you're lazy because I saw someone who kinda looks like you sitting down looking at their phone this one time. But hey pal if you wanna help out, can you stand a bit to the left so I have a clearer shot of your head and also so the bullet doesn't pass through and hit property behind you? Don't want to damage anything important after all. "gee I sure wish we had a well regulated militia or something" ah well the past is the past, and since this is in a potential near future, I think the past also includes the present, and in the present there's always time to do things about people like me. "do something? heavens no, I'm a pacifist by nature" well, me too! I pacify things like you as a hobby. Can't make trouble if you're in the ground, and knowing me, you'd be lucky to be buried. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4237 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── I can count all of the people in this room who are too neurospicy to be filled with political rage and given a public platform on one hand, and frankly I could probably do it on a single finger because I am alone at the moment. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/193 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: nightmare-app-for-neurotypicals │ └─────────────────────────────────────────┘ it might also help with social anxiety because people are aware when they're being observed. A lot of people hesitate to speak or contribute on Zoom calls because they are inherently scared of being observed, but with this system they'll be aware of any observation and can address it. Plus every meeting that could have been an email will quickly become apparent since nobody is paying attention to the speaker, and they'll realize how much they should rethink their approach. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/2276 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: pol │ └──────────────────────┘ A good way to get people talking is to meet with a stranger and share your feelings. Or, if you're scared of strangers, then try talking with a friend. "something something SUPREME COURT something whatever CRIMINALIZED PEOPLE blah blah blah I WON'T STAND FOR IT" that kind of thing. Make sure you look at your friend for the loud bits, and maybe look at someone else nearby when it's your friend's turn to speak. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ |