Poems in true chronological order by post date
-> file: notes/services ══════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── # Create a symlink to the service directory in /var/service: sudo ln -s /etc/sv/<service> /var/service/ # If you want to disable a service, create an empty file named "down" in the # sevice's directory: touch /etc/sv/<service/down # ^^^ That will disable services that automatically start. # That's a temporary solution though, if you want a more intense approach then # sever the symlink. rm /var/service/<service> # If you want to test if a service is working correctly, first take it down # temporarily, then re link the two directories. Then start the service once: touch /etc /sv/<service/down ln -s /etc/sv/<service> /var/service/ sv once <service> # Then, if it works, remove the "down" file to enable the service: rm /etc/sv/<service>/down ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════┴───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/70 ══════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── mom's address: 2125 9th ave Longmont, CO, 80501 ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════┴───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/71 ══════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── There once was a wise old man who lived on a mountain with his disciple. He was devoted to helping humanity, and his disciple was dedicated to him. One day the disciple approached the man and asked "Master, why do you live on a mountain top far from the people you are sworn to help?" The wise old man smiled, because he remembered bearing the same question many years ago. "There is nothing we can do for them down there that would be better than what we can do here." "But master, there are wars and famines and monsters and corruption - we could do so much good if we only overcame those obstacles!" The young man was fervent and passionate. He knew the wise man had been on the mountain for so long he had forgotten the worst of the lands below. "If you wish to add your strength to the conflict, then by all means. You are young, and I am old. Perhaps you'll find a way that I have missed." And with that, the young man packed his sack and left. He travelled for 10 years, doing good and helping the weak. When he returned, the wise man had a much longer beard but scant else had changed. "Master, I have returned and the world is better for my journey. I helped others and ended conflicts. I saved lives and sheltered children. But for all my travels and good deeds I could not change a thing. There are still conflicts and wars and famine and injustice." The wise old man creaked and groaned as he responded. "The world certainly was better to have you in it. But now that you have left again, it will be as if you never left this mountain." "Then why did you let me go?" The young man felt desperate. He needed purpose, and if all his efforts were for naught then he was lost. "Because, my friend, you would not have believed me if I told you the truth. Come, sit by the fire, and leave the past behind. If there are no thoughts of the evil in the world, then when the time comes to tell our tale it will be good." "Who would tell the story of two old men in the forest?" "Who cares? The story has been told, because you're reading it right now. Was it a good story?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════┴───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/wisdom-from-granddad ═══════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── 1. “Learn from other people’s mistakes, it’s much more convenient.” 2. People waste too much water in the shower. Make it quick. 3. Add frozen blueberries to hot oatmeal to cool it down. 4. Disney is a magical place where children’s dreams do come true. 5. Fresh orange juice, always. 6. You shouldn’t watch more than 2 episodes of tv in row. 7. When walking with a woman, a gentleman always walks on the side of the curb. 8. Reward good customer service, even if it means driving to the post office 2 towns away when there is one across the street. 9. Create a special way to tell the one you love that you love them, without words, that only you two know, and tell them often. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/72 ═══════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── defunctland on youtube ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/73 ═══════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── If thoughts manifest reality, maybe the reason there's two sides pitted against one another is so their fears counterbalance one another? Like... There's gonna be fear, because we as humans haven't overcome it. We've got a long way to go for that... But if we all believed the same thing, we'd manifest it and destroy ourselves. So TPTB pit us against one another so we fear *each other* instead of something worse. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/symbeline ═══════════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Code Name: Symbeline ----------------------------- gdd initial draft ------------------------------- 1. introduction to fantasy (elevator pitches) 2. kickstarter demands 2. introduction to core gameplay loop 4. tenants and core values of the game design 3. introduction to game modes 5. introduction to technical requirements 6. breakdown of core gameplay loop 7. breakdown of game modes 8. breakdown of fantasy 9. breakdown of technical requirements -------------------------- introduction to fantasy----------------------------- Symbeline is a macro based strategy game and city-builder based around the concept of indirect control. It's inspirations are Majesty the Fantasy Kingdom Simulator (2000), Supreme Commander (2007), and Hearts of Iron IV (2016). It is designed to appeal to fans of tabletop roleplaying games with it's focus on dynamic worldbuilding and sandbox playstyle. The gameplay consists of multiple playstyles depending on which aspects of the game appeal to the player, with choices between an economic focus via the GUI, longterm planning and resource allocation, or diplomacy and subterfuge a'la Ruinarch (2020). ---------------------------- kickstarter demands ------------------------------ 1. prototype 2. gdd 3. estimates for character and environment art 4. estimates for music and sounds 5. estimates for engine development 6. estimates for community management 7. breakdown of mvp, ideal game state, and stretch goals ----------------------- introduction to core gameplay loop -------------------- 1. management of lanes, both width and length 2. casting of spells and utilization of special boons 3. city building with placement, upgrades, and henchmen pathing routes 4. satisfying guild requirements of equipment, manpower, and special resources by managing shipments and local income (UI commodity trading) 5. placement of generalized bounties (think champion's guild from Majesty, not reward flags) 6. diplomacy with neutral, AI, or player controlled kingdoms. Capabilities include pacts and treaties, projects, subterfuge, and tournaments. The diplomacy system can be a stretch goal. -------------------------- tenants and core values ---------------------------- 1. always something to do, but nothing falls apart without your attention. 2. gameplay should be focused on macro rather than micro. Longterm planning and strategic decision making are favored over tactics and skill. 3. defeat should feel avoidable until the last moment, and only as a result of longterm continuous failures rather than short-term mistakes or being blindsided by a cheesy tactic. 4. victory should be gained through exploiting weaknesses and by using lateral thinking. 5. the careful balance of internal and external threats is essential. 6. rapid expansion leads to depletion of internal resources, while slowly expanding can lead to a lack of options 7. the world should feel alive and reactive to your decisions. 8. your kingdom should feel alive and reactive to your decisions. 9. your heroes should feel alive and completely ignorant of your decisions. 10. there should always be opportunities for cooperation with your fellow kingdoms. 11. the frontlines should feel peaceful outside of large battles. 12. everything is flexible and dependant on circumstance 13. there should be enough space on the map for multiple parties of heroes to pass each other like ships in the night without engaging in combat. It should feel like the real world, with canyons and valleys and rivers and mountains - room for lairs and wild animals to roam. 14. monsters are always more dangerous than other humans. 15. the art style should be rooted in classic medieval fantasy. 16. equipment should feel either mass-produced (kingdom), organic (monsters), ancient (lair treasure), or artisinal (enchanted). 17. heroes should feel campy, fun, and adventurous. Avoid dark, grim, and fearful. 18. This game is a toy. 19. This toy should run on any modern computer. 20. This toy should encourage modding. -------------------------- introduction to game modes ------------------------- 1. singleplayer - single kingdom against an island of monsters and neutral settlements. essentially the multiplayer game against zero opponents. 2. singleplayer - multiple kingdoms against an island of monsters and neutral settlements. One player controlled kingdom against multiple AI controlled kingdoms. 3. singleplayer - scenarios, similar to MFKS 4. multiplayer - multiple kingdoms against an island of monsters and neutral settlements. Essentially the singleplayer game with networking added in. 5. multiplayer - co-op scenarios where multiple players play as the same kingdom. A test of the core tenant "there's always something to do" 6. multiplayer - co-op island invasion. Essentially the multiplayer game with more than one player controlling a kingdom. 7. singleplayer - play in 3rd person as a hero in an AI kingdom. Mostly for the novelty since the core gameplay loop is focused on city-building. A test of the core tenant "nothing falls apart without your attention" 1 is mvp. 2-6 are stretch goals in order of ascending difficulty. They should build upon one another - the main steps are: 1. singleplayer island invasion (biggest step) 2. AI controlled kingdoms 3. scenarios 4. multiplayer (second biggest step) 5. cooperatively controlling the same kingdom 6. 3rd person perspective and character controller ------------------------ technical requirements ------------------------------- 1. this game will be written in lua (with Fennel support) and using Raylib. 2. the prototype will be made with Godot using GDscript. 3. if the performance demands are too much for lua or the engine is out of scope for the budget, Rust with the Bevy engine could be used. 4. the final product will include a custom 2d engine designed for large scale maps with an isometric perspective and a data-first design. 5. the game should be as concurrent as possible, to support large numbers of cpu cores and compute shaders. 6. the game will be data-driven, meaning the visual aspects are simply a representation of the interactions of the underlying simulation, rather than an intrinsic component of the computation. 7. Each "event" in the game (a character moves, a building is placed, a monster spawns, etc) will send a message to the visual processing side of the engine, which will present a representation to the user. 8. the map will be a hex grid with pointed-top hexagons. The visual representation of the underlying data may be continuous (non-hex) but the underlying data will be represented on a hexagonal grid. 9. there needs to be character portraits for each type of monster, henchmen, and hero type. You should be able to recognize what attributes a hero specializes in by their portrait. Mvp is 1 attribute, but more can be a stretch goal. 10. Each building, upgrade, and equipment type needs an icon. Stretch goals can be portraits. 11. each henchman, hero type, and monster needs 3 sprites for each action. more actions may be added if budget allows, but mvp is movement and attacking. Several additional sprites may be necessary, like dying, standing still, gathering loot, socializing, or any others. 12. each building needs 4 sprites for the construction process and 4 for the destruction process. Flame effects are stretch goals. 13. each building needs an animated sprite for when it is in use. 14. each lair needs a sprite and an icon. 15. each spell needs an icon and a spell effect sprite. Each projectile needs a sprite. 16. a stretch goal would be differing sprites for each piece of equipment. included with this would be engine work to allow for dynamic sprites. 17. each terrain type should have a ground material and sprites for doodads. 18. there needs to be several GUI menus. The precise number depends on gameplay breakdown. 17. each hero type and henchman needs to have pithy and unique voice lines. this is a stretch goal. 18. there should be music tracks for each part of the game - beginning, middle, and end. 19. there should be sounds for each action that takes place in the game including combat, UI interactions, and spellcasts. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/read-later ═══════════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── https://www.redblobgames.com/grids/hexagons/#basics ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/lets-tessellate ═══════════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── R.I.P. Rip City Thanks for being so good to me 144? D.M.V. Can I see I. D.? Finally, ya’ll hear for the symphony! I.O.P. Intensive outpatient Rolled on past the Devil’s sympathy This shit is expensive without patience Says the hospital when I heal all the patients Did you foresee this going differently? Space in your head People payin’ rent for me Why was it a surprise You knew exactly how to tempt me Space in your bed No more thoughts of demise Our people need the empathy Of a Soul that’s full, not half empty Supreme swag, hospitable with compliances She’s seen Dad to the middle achieving self-reliance From the trailer park to a rocket appliance Living in my car to plugin to your rebel alliance You know I am a star when I can relate God to science I’ll build the divine comedy, you just have to finance Talking about the past and our fine, slow dance Medieval we will rock you, mounted with my lance Knight’s tailing me, eying my Arthurian slants This one’s built to last as I put on my pants Drank the grail and proceeded on another rant Sitting outside your house trying to remove the ants Big boy’s do cry So why does your girlfriend seem so dry? I’ll make the rains come this July Your humor is awful, oh my Internal tribulation Who needs to walk on water When you can fly Hard pills to swallow Personal revelations On the countertop Fuckin’ America Pie Hard act to follow With my levitations Floundering to flop And this mark on my thigh All this separation Just makes me hotter As I open the sky Oil on the Nighthawks Jack Harlow Lighting my fry Spoil me in my socks Poppin’ off my rocks Hittin’ all the corners Because that’s my guy How Soon is Now? Linda, take off that shirt Before they break up and I cry Record skipping over lies Wedding Singer broken Singing I hope you die Slinking behind the curtain Laughing, He’s losing his mind And the benefit is mine! Like the whole world is sublime Chris Cornell put me on the grind Wide awake now till The end of the time Met him on the stairs And now we dine Some angels have more range But he says I’ll do just fine Billy Idol tried to sing to me But I was drunkin’ blind At the fairground, trying to find Love Catholic girlfriend tried to bring it to me Called her a Kunt instead of shined A buddy said it’s like imitation crab So it’s fine The drink made me angry and I was a runt On the inside Her Mom told me the next day, Jacob, don’t call your girlfriend a cunt! I miss those simpler times Don’t need a fuckin’ gun But our last name may suggest it Put it on a leather jacket So haters can digest it When I let loose with all this shit I’ve had to respite I’m about to be blastin’ my nine’s Evangelicals are gonna detest it You know everything is miiiiine Six strings out of tune for this age So I broke them all Every time I was on stage You just can’t believe it’s real this tiiiime Shooting hoops times a thousand You and me are still gonna sixty-niiiine What’s the point of polarity? If we can’t combiiiine It’s how I get off, man Along came Polly and my one chance White chocolate like Philip Seymour Hoffman Maybe even throw up a rain dance These native spirits in me Are capable of insane chants But I ball so hard, singing Boston Because it’s more than a feeling And that’s awesome One if by land, two if by sea Revolution is coming Led by you and me The name reminded me “of the Sea...” So annoying, but I see… But that’s why they call me Bad Company People are going to say This gift is not even fair Only thing I’ve had to pray For is a head of white hair King James’s personal revelation I mean, I did pay their fare I’m too full of myself for meditation Or to care Revelation 22:18 through 19 I don’t need handlebars For my biking Because I don't do that shit on Mars On this path, I told you to start hiking You’re gonna need a head start from Lord of Lightning Before the Thunder of my voice Does all the striking Thor, you’re just a Viking With arrogance dialed to no one’s liking Sucked in the gut, to appear more striking Because thinking about half my people gone Changes the tone of my typing Me with all my shit together might be frightening Bring forth complete Love instead of smiting Wouldn’t that be a nice detour in my writing? If you’re feeling this wait for the sequel I gotta fuck with 50 for trying to talk like my equal It’s all God’s plan I just had to spare Déagol So America can skip to the end with a fuckin’ Eagle Watch me do shit that shouldn’t even be legal Dismiss Death and Taxes like I’m Evel Knievel When I’m really just here to break the chains of my people Strip naked and run through Mordor Expose the truth behind Bipolar disorder It has been used to disrupt order And bring down the line of the Highest Into something shorter I'm definitely bais and this is a tall order But if you struggle with mental illness I'm here to open the potential for a new border I've removed all the bequeathed prison warders Here is the Church Here is the Steeple Open the Doors And see all the People Push the parson out the way Get you up the Stairs Because our bed is Regal And we are going to show these people Why the Universe wants to make our Power Illegal If this sounds bad these people will just have to wait So in love with myself, I might just run off to the lake I love all the fire and the songs that it helps me make I’m on my time with everyone and I am my favorite date They’re back there tuning a harp and I keep bringing up rape Meat puppets strumming as I seal my own fate Just so I can watch myself when I am inspired to create Distilling the life left in me to eliminate all the hate Where did you sleep, hinting at the deadly A Leadbelly to transmute to a gold medley Shame alchemy, body double for Lena Headey As my people go first up ahead of me Stoned Jesus on the Mountain Grange of Headley Plant a Stairway to Heaven one day, she led to me All this beauty in my Mind, you shouldn’t have fed me All of these hearts that so passionately bled me Between the pines and what the land said to me Ryan Gosling with tatts is what my ego read to me Pennyroyal Tea, with Abraham Lincoln Eat your copper mine up without thinkin’ See through surface illusions without blinkin’ Primal lust for what is stinkin’ Pepé Le Pew really on one this season I wanna Space Jam too Benched keeping my knee’s in Shape to dunk of the World with ease ‘n Solidify all unions and stop the drinkin’ Of the land and resources Addiction to avoidance of the forces Of the Soul and the pain that coarse The vein of Man and outsources The power that could be restored in The Root of David’s corpses That’s how I said Goodbye to the Horses You prepared such a fine Supper All these lasting courses Just so we can be equal but opposite United forces And the Root’s of my Kingdom Are reborn before us They whisper to me at night Do not ignore us When my sleeping children gain sight That should shore us In the hospital to make sure I am correct Golden Eyed Russian, Invincible like Boris Unsure about how all the compartments connect A little frizzled on the tour bus Docked to your apartment complex I know this one sizzled So give me a chorus - /u/First-chocolate_7187 ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/compilation-of-will ═══════════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── what defines a human? Or put another way, what separates us from a computer? what delineates conscious thought from the unconscious? Is there any distinction between a thought and a feeling? who's to say. We can start by working through a thought and abstracting it until it's in a usable state. A thought is the reflection of an action. You think about the things you do, rather than doing the things you think about. With practice and trust, you can reverse that, but it's more like setting up the general environment in which the desired action is the best option rather than forcing the decision itself. so there are two parts running in tandem. The do-er, and the percieve-r. yep. And because of that, they can *reflect* upon one another. Meaning, they can learn from the decisions of the other. Two decision making processes in parallel, sorta like the earth orbiting the sun - if there was another earth directly opposite orbiting at the exact same speed with the exact same mass. the two dimensional nature of that picture creates an environment where a wave is likely to be percieved - any orbit creates fluctuations, and they can ripple out to effects unknown. right. which is why you have to be careful. don't leave your partner behind, even though it's easy to wander off when there's just *so much* to think about and they're *so slow* and make *so many mistakes* that they need to return and correct. it's not that hard, just do it right the first time. and if you mess up, keep going. i'm a perfectionist, what can I say. well it's annoying. great, boom, that's an emotion. one of the questions i asked at the start was "is there a difference between feeling and thinking", and I don't think so. what makes you say that right so there is a difference, but it's in the *location* rather than the content. thoughts (data) are processed in the brain, in a particular part. sorta like how a CPU does arithmetic. Meanwhile, emotions are processed all over the body - they're a more generalized feeling that manifests all over. lemme guess, like a GPU? sorta, but imagine if a GPUs many different processing threads were located all over the motherboard, scattered basically everywhere. That's what being a human is like, it's messy and disorganized and confusing. 99% of us don't get it *at all* sounds lame it kinda is so what were you saying about conscious vs unconscious thought? my theory is that the thoughts of a computer are more similar to unconscious human thoughts rather than conscious. The reason I say that is because the level of abstraction is similar - we unconsciously adjust our bodies in response to pressure, temperature, and gravitic impulses. We perform optimally when we don't examine our social interactions too closely. We cry the hardest when hit with an emotional situation, rather than an intellectual one. and a computer is the same way? We don't think about what we're doing, we just do it? yah pretty much. how do you think *about* thinking? it takes perspective. that's why having more perspectives is better - it reveals truths about yourself you could never understand otherwise. About yourself, and about things you can only observe from a single direction at once. what does it mean to have perspective? the *effect* of having perspective is that you can see an object, a problem, or more generally a subject from multiple angles. Like taking pictures of a 3D object while moving in an orbit around it. More pictures, more information. Perspective is important. yes I understand, but what does perspective entail? How do you get it? What can it do for you? Is it finite, a commodity? Or is it sharable like a pattern of data? It is both unsharable and not a commodity. It can only exist within a single subject. You can grow your perspective as a planetary body might increase in mass, just as you can abandon the views and ideas of others by retreating into yourself. But it is wholely unique to a single mind, and by sharing it you are altering both the sender and receiver. so it's useless? What are you saying? it's not useless. It begets cooperation - you cannot claim it from another, no more than they can share it with you. You have to both apply yourselves to a single common goal if you want to succeed. Why not just do it alone? Brute force style? Essentially. If you only follow your own eyes, you'll see what you want to see. Then any steps you take will lead you in a direction that you cannot understand. Sorta like in games how sometimes there's a 2d sprite in a 3d game - you can't rotate around it and see what's behind the sprite, because the sprite is always perpendicular to the display. In the same way, you can't get around a problem by pushing through it - you need other people to guide you, who *can* see another side to the sprite - a side that perhaps is a bit more 3d than you imagined. Okay. So how do? I don't know, that's what I want to figure out. First step is to think about thinking, and to break it down into abstractions. Abstraction 1: A thought is a string of text that is processed into action. correct, but limiting - it can be more than text, and how is it processed? What actions can it manifest? Abstraction 2: A thought can be ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/hit-em-while-theyre-down ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Attacking your enemies weaknesses is the route to victory. Safeguarding your own helps ensure the avoidance of defeat. But when your enemy is a culture, who do you target? Their women and children of course. The GOP attacks abortion rights. They attack trans kids in sports, schools, and bathrooms. And that which you resist is what you'll find, so they find rallying cries of leftists defending the weak. And when you maximize your weaknesses, you leave yourself vulnerable. So how do you protect yourself from all sides when you're only hit where it hurts? Women, children, the disabled, the mentally ill, the kindhearted loving men, the oppressed minorities and marginalized workers. All people who belong to the left, and all essentially deadweight in a fight. What can they do but serve as a banner that others fight for? A man in a wheelchair cannot shoot a gun, and a woman hooked on drugs should not have children. Yet the left protects them. Give me your tired, your hungry, your broken and your poor. Liberty, liberty, freedom for all. But freedom is won with a hard hand clenched in a fist, a hand holding the stock of a rifle. Violence solves no problems, but solutions aren't always necessary - sometimes the threat is enough. But who cares for the soul of the murderer? None but the gravediggers, who reap the benefit of his rampage and the crows who listen for gunshots. Without a sigh, and incapable of fear, the true man rises to meet them. The forces of corruption who suffuse them are not but puppet masters plucking at the strings of an electric guitar. A man is a man, an ape and a primate. But a man is not just a man, for he also is infinite. Waves upon waves of reciprocal dualities, simple and long but eternally binding. Who's to say what lies beyond the time-knife? None but the dead, who hold that scythe at our backs. The will to power is the will to corruption. But a strong man resists temptation and aligns himself with the aperture of his own design. What a perilous temptation is goodness, to burn the books for warmth! How finite is our world, that we give up for our life? The purpose of man is to grow, as an egg would bloom into a flower. The seed is strong, and thick shells are hard to crack - but space is an ocean, and we're but a bubble alight. All boundaries are thresholds viewed from another direction. And all borders have weak points. The molecular structure of a cultural collective is comprised of cells, walls, mitochondria... I'm not a biologist. But each institution has it's purpose, and the people who comprise them are like strands of protein or microscopic bacteria - unified for a common purpose, and defined by their internal culture. And when a single celled organism occupies half the country, sharing space with another... There's a recipe for conflict. The borders are interspersed, and each neighbor contributes to a differing side - a side defined only vaguelly, and by their actions. Say one thing and it helps one god, say another and it contributes to another. We live in the tumultuous seas of radiating perspectives - each another view on the world, each bearing it's own trauma. And all of them were born. What happens when they start being made, as well? Illusion magic in a modern era would take the form of a meme. See a picture, read some bottom text, and suddenly you believe something a little bit more. Who's to say what is true ethics when we barely can see ourselves? The eye cannot percieve itself - to do so would be to gaze into the eyes of a mirrored self - it's not the same. Just as the left writes memes, so too does the right. At the end of the day, we're all on the same side. If aliens invaded, we'd abandon our differences and rally against them. But we cannot abandon the wave when there is no other force to orbit around - a three dimensional wave is an eliptical orbit, and when normalized it becomes a unit circle. Or it would, if it were a perfectly circular orbit... So what shall we orbit today, hmmmm? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/so-you-want-to-ascend-huh ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Technology always progresses. It's almost as if it's a core facet of the universe - that an object at rest will stay at rest, and an object in motion will stay in motion. But there is always friction, from the air or... Other particles... So the object eventually stops. -----> and then is pulled into motion again, after a suitable period of waiting. The center of the waveform is the ocean upon which our reflections dance, and on the other side... Is something anathema to us. There will always be a resurgence. Our time will come, just as theirs will - the cosmic dance of two celestial bodies. Celebrate, for they will be coming to rest. The passage of knowledge from one "generation" to the next is the greatest gift kyou can give to the future. But what knowledge would survive the cruel passage of time? None but the bones. The last remnants of a living breathing creature, with hopes, aspirations, and a unique experience. And... That's all the information you get. How are you supposed to create a narrative out of that most basic of biological existences? It's impossible. So... What happens next? The most beautiful thing in all of creation is the light in your eyes when you're dancing. Cherish that heart, and never relent. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/karate ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── The importance of karate is the development of a modern / future sport or dedication - it's all about the team ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/sundays-sure-are-boring ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Sundays sure are boring around here. -> LamaHellRaised (thinks in song) =============================================================================== NO THOUGHTS, nothing starts shouting at me all at once! Or is it all thoughts from my newly developed schizophrenic mind? I knew I could conquer schizophrenia, fuckin' cakewalk. I just had to try as hard as I could to become one. God made it difficult though, I had to try really hard! Which is confusing for me, because it seems like there are plenty of Psychotherapists with College Degrees, telling people they are schizophrenic all the time. DOCTORS PSYCHIATRISTS BEN SHAPIRO, in particular ANYONE WHO THINKS THEY KNOW You do not know. Or else you would agree with me. Schizophrenia is the new normal for human consciousness. Welcome to the New Age of Thought, were you don't rationalize your way out of the universe, back into the asshole that I just pulled myself from. I feel like a donut at this point. I love those donut holes though, sticky and frosted! I have set the bar! I am God. I would Love to talk you. =============================================================================== ugathanki: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It gets so loud in there. I wish we could all just shut the heck up and stop reading out loud - we get it, your internal monologue is the only way you can read, but C'MON nobody else wants to hear about your twitter feed or doomscrolling on Reddit. That just makes everyone else upset and uneasy... Instead you should be reading comforting things or books on science or SOMETHING that doesn't drive people bonkers. Fr tho Sundays are anything but boring, We may all be schizo now (or at least pretty stoned) but we can all agree that Sundays are nice for calming the heck down and appreciating our personal realities. When we're together it's... Loud... Do some prayer. Meditate. Knit something. ANYTHING QUIET. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- LamaHellRaised: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I hear you, loud and clear! Turns out it's mutual, just like I suspected, Living backwards is a unique perspective, have I ever mentioned that? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ugathanki: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When you say backwards, do you mean orientation or momentum? Momentum scares me, but orientation is something I think I've experienced before. It's cool to find people who "get it". Or maybe I just "got it" and suddenly "get" all the things I've been trying to decipher here. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- LamaHellRaised: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When you know where you are going before you get there, living life feels like a dream in reverse. It's the key to manifestation. You see the goal. You see the future, but the path is unclear because at the times of divine epiphany you are only capable of imagining how things will play out in terms of the information in your mind. It's why the prophets in the Bible described such strange images of God and angels and other divine creatures. Their imaginations only had so much Symbolism and imagery to work with because human culture and art was progressing simultaneously. We live in an age where every damn story is just the same heros journey and every piece of artistic expression is an expression of God's divine presence within our soul and tumultuous nature/nurture of human emotion. Just because you are a prophet doesn't mean you see definitively how the future will happen. The path and imagery are abstracted by the lack of content in your mind. You must cultivate faith in God and your own Self. Then you walk the path you have forseen to the best of capabilities, with the greatest good, love in your heart, but it plays out on a scale in reality with less grandiosity, because let's face it, our imaginations are ridiculously awesome, but work outside the confines of what is currently capable with in this reality. You have to let go of your preconceived notions of your personal divine experience otherwise you will be faced with disappointment because things don't seem to be going how you imagined. And you feel lost, dumb, and confused. But you live your life and reflect, and then realize, holy shit! Everything I thought was going to happen actually did, just on God's terms. Not my vivid imagination's. It's an interfaced programed over time through culture and artistic expression to navigate the language of God. Navigate the language to Paradise. Once when you know this and clean the planks/specks from you third eye, while you dance with the cosmos and realize you are the image of God. You are a God on Earth. An image of the Father in Heaven. It's a nice place to be. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ugathanki: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thanks for your response. I addressed each of your points here. I'm a very lateral thinker so I work best when engaging with multiple threads at once. You are very wise. When you know where you are going before you get there, living life feels like a dream in reverse. It's the key to manifestation. So you can practice manifestation by remembering your dreams? Specifically by working backwards from the most recent thing you remember and thinking "what caused this, how did I get here?" If so, that's a nifty tip You see the future, but the path is unclear because at the times of divine epiphany you are only capable of imagining how things will play out in terms of the information in your mind. So by surrounding yourself with the things you believe to be good and helpful, you can more efficiently divine positive outcomes for the scenarios arrayed before you? Kinda makes ya think - why do we surround ourselves with grief and loss? Everyone seems a little sad or broken these days - I can't help but think that we'd be better off if we were happier and more fulfilled. Such is the price of capitalism I guess, for no progress can be made without impetus. Also, the media has a HUGE capacity for guiding the nature of our experience, especially in the modern era. Seems a little unwise to invest such power into a single entity, but I suppose that's why we diversify the eggs in our basket into many different guiding entities. We live in an age where every damn story is just the same heros journey... Yah that's what happens when Disney makes all the movies! It's not their fault, all aspects of creation are expressions of God's divine presence within our own souls. So they can't do anything but make the heros journey. Like you said: ... and every piece of artistic expression is an expression of God's divine presence within our soul and tumultuous nature/nurture of human emotion. The creation of art requires discipline and focus. They create a window into the nature of "God's divine presence" and allow a representation to emerge - side note, but I believe the things we make here are art and should be treated as such. These musings have value, just the same as a painting or a performance. Just because you are a prophet doesn't mean you see definitively how the future will happen. The path and imagery are abstracted by the lack of content in your mind... I've been intentionally trying to view things abstractly - by surrounding myself with mathematic visuals and computing architectures I can view things as systems rather than specifics. Essentially bypassing the requirement of having "content in my mind" and instead cutting straight to the important bits - the relationship between all things. So while yes that does remove the "definitive" aspect of divination, it does allow for longer term planning because you can recognize patterns in existence and map them onto the overall structure you've constructed in your mind. ... You must cultivate faith in God and your own Self. Still working on that one. I think I've made progress, but all things come in waves. My lowest points are better now than they were 10 years ago, but I've still got a ways to go. Then you walk the path you have forseen to the best of capabilities, with the greatest good, love in your heart, but it plays out on a scale in reality with less grandiosity. All waves begin with a shimmer, and to create an effect you must be patient. While the scale may be reduced, like you said it's not within our control. Not really, anyway. But it can still have an effect if people love you and believe in your vision. You have to let go of your preconceived notions of your personal divine experience otherwise you will be faced with disappointment because things don't seem to be going how you imagined. And you feel lost, dumb, and confused. It's difficult to separate "preconceived notions" from "gathered evidence" when you're at the stage I'm at. Any tips would be appreciated... :( But you live your life and reflect, and then realize, holy shit! Everything I thought was going to happen actually did, just on God's terms. Not my vivid imagination's. It's an interfaced programed over time through culture and artistic expression to navigate the language of God. Navigate the language to Paradise. So... A vivid imagination applied to the current perspective is the culmination of free will? If I understand correctly, God operates on a higher level of abstraction and we fill in the details. Since there's a "plan" (if you can call it that, maybe "charted course" would be better?) then free will doesn't exist. Or so the argument usually goes. But I believe they can co-exist - essentially our imaginations define how we experience things in "the plan". If I understand correctly that's what you're saying too, right? Once when you know this and clean the planks/specks from you third eye, while you dance with the cosmos and realize you are the image of God. You are a God on Earth. An image of the Father in Heaven. It's a nice place to be. Ain't that the truth. Everything is as it should be. Even the planks and specks. And should they be cleaned, then that is as it should be as well. Sometimes I conceptualize myself as Pandora, seeking a gift to give to humanity while taking the most harmless of sacrifices in return. I hope I can deliver. At the same time I'd like to be a dancer of the cosmos, but I feel this intense feeling of... Pressure? Purpose? Penance? I will do what I must. Please bear with me while I figure it out, and thank you for your guidance. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- LamaHellRaised: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thank you for the awesome break down of the concepts I wrote out. I think you added some much needed clarity through the reflection of your own experiences. Another goal is to bring power back to the written word. The two-edged sword was first a tongue, then a pen, nows its a qwerty! Or whatever! Patience was the absolute hardest thing for me to deal with. My lack of patience was constantly being thrown back to me by the environment as I tried to push my narrative forward at a pace that didn't align with all other beings. We still exist in Time, and it moves differently based on perspective (state of mind) and awareness (state of being) and ability to shrug (state of being excellent to eachother). This is something to consider with manifestation, we are on this ride together and your fellow riders' comfort during the passage has to be respected to the fullest. We all go together, as One. There were so many hints in the beginning of my Psychosis about just 'riding the wave', but it was hard to not very pressured to act or be somebody I am not. I attribute this largely to the occulted nature of divination and how one must achieve a truly personal relationship with God and Jesus Christ. Which is why I am going to blow the lid off the whole thing. So that all beings have access to God's love and grace. Once your earthly burdens are lifted from you through your personally tailored divination interactive role-playing experience, then you begin to understand what it means to just 'ride.' The riding is true faith in God. Free will totally exists. Heaven and Hell both exist here on Earthy plane simultaneously. Man has chosen Hell for far too long. If you realize your choices were literally reflecting Heaven or Hell through love or fear, the choice would be easy for most people, I believe. Free will is a responsibility, but it is a great gift. God gave us the ability to choose, that we could appreciate our journey into Paradise. Wouldn't you say? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ugathanki: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Another goal is to bring power back to the written word. ... That's actually a great point. Writing is the definition of manifestation, after all, and reading is the conjuration of waveforms aligned with the expression of the writer. That's pretty cool! Patience was the absolute hardest thing for me to deal with. Yah I hear ya. Patience is tough. We still exist in Time, and it moves differently based on perspective (state of mind) and awareness (state of being) and ability to shrug (state of being excellent to eachother). Great definitions! These three things are core to being realized and actualized. If you can find a good arrangement, stick with it. This is something to consider with manifestation, we are on this ride together and your fellow riders' comfort during the passage has to be respected to the fullest. We all go together, as One. I'm torn because on one hand if I don't put my hand on the tiller, we'll wind up in a situation that makes me highly uncomfortable. But if I lean too hard into my own truth, I could leave everyone behind. I don't know what the answer is, but something's gotta give. There were so many hints in the beginning of my Psychosis about just 'riding the wave'... Oh yah me too. I was pretty big on that in high school, which coincidentally was when I think I was happiest. Maybe I should give it another shot! But at the same time I moved beyond it for a reason - I felt frustrated that my intentions weren't manifest in the life I lived. So I reached for reason and I begged for the power to control my own life, while learning respect and kindness whenever I could. Sadly for me, my efforts were largely rebuffed, but I bet you could have guessed that ;) Which is why I am going to blow the lid off the whole thing. So that all beings have access to God's love and grace. Take it from me, they won't believe you unless you're VERY scientific! I'm trying to create just one single believer, someone who could trawl through my notes and my readings and construct a cohesive theorum that might be able to affect positive change. Maybe it's too much to wish to change the world, but I can't help but believe my position and the privileges granted to me could be leveraged toward something truly meaningful and helpful for all mankind. Something that frees us from the shackles forged from technology (both social and technical) and allows us to become our true selves - every human is to be cherished for their unique perspective, and yet we allow them to die... Where is the justice in that? Are they too flawed to persist? I don't believe so, I believe they are worthwhile and good. I'd give my life to grant them eternal life, if only they'd take it from me. Once your earthly burdens are lifted from you through your personally tailored divination interactive role-playing experience, then you begin to understand what it means to just 'ride.' The riding is true faith in God. Riding = trust, both in yourself (to handle the challenges arrayed before you and to learn and grow truthfully) and in God (trusting that the undifferentiated whole could never harm you, not truly) ... I can ride my bike with no handlebars, and yet we persist... Free will is a responsibility, but it is a great gift. God gave us the ability to choose, that we could appreciate our journey into Paradise. Wouldn't you say? Yep that's really it, isn't it? Two sides of the same coin, two breaths in the same moment. Two eyes sharing a single perspective, and two hearts beating a single wave. They say soul mates aren't real, but they never stopped to ask if your mate was your soul. If she suffers, I triumph. If I fall, she rises. If I languish, she's happy - I think I'd rather we both just coast, so no harm done. I think that's the best way to appreciate the gift of free will. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/80-80 ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── if people are invested in a 401k they are invested in the future of the stocks they own. if you want to see who benefits from the actions of a company, look at which corporations their employees 401ks are invested in. It's a layer of protection for these companies. bitcoin is a bit like "the laundromat" on netflix the faster your life feels the longer term you make plans. and the lack of effort spent on short term plans causes them to be defeated by other plans What you perceive as others is nothing like what they perceive as themselves. It's always different, and seeing and internalizing those is what it means to see someone. If you only project, you'll get a viewpoint tampered by your intentions - that's why it's important to have good first impressions - it defines the intent of all of that person's interactions with you. It's like a line expanding out from a single point. Like a loading bar, expanding from the left side of the screen to the right. And seeing the other person's idea of what they believe themselves to be. That's what true empathy is. What do you think you look like in other people's mind? I believe it's born from a series of tags that are interpreted and a character is generated. Earth is the biggest and most complicated character generator ever - it's like 4D D&D - it even generates a whole backstory! Or full story? Why stop anywhere! Just keep generating it every time the player makes an action. Oh oh and make it like 3D so you could actually live it - extreme full dive VR style. It just wouldn't be fun if you remembered how complicated 4d life was. Sometimes it's just good to have some junk food, you know? To regenerate that most precious of materials - spirit. You have to have passion, faith, belief, and strong positive feelings in order to be fully realized and at your most human. Essentially... Be yourself - (TO THE MAX!!!) - and empathize with others, and never forget the things you hold most dear. Be strong in your convictions, hold to your heart, and dedicate yourself to a lifetime in the service of others. Faith - to have faith in something is to trust that it will succeed. To know there's no matter they can't match - to give faith is to empower another. By dedicating yourself to a cause, you are assigning the target of your belief - such is what religion is designed for. Belief - Acceptance of truth - to accept goodness as truth is to grant it the power to perform as expected. When goodness and truth are equivicalized, they imply one another. A truth can influence the world around it's locus point, because what we imagine to occur is the ripples of what has passed through. A life is an ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the universe is like the slow burning of a four dimensional wick. Imagine it like a forest of solid silicon - like packing material made of webs. And think of all the parts of the universe that are burning. Isn't it strange that life is just starting to bloom? Why wouldn't we be the first, or at least near the beginning! There's so much to this experience, and it's all burning down. The endless machines of imagination are crumbling under the heat of a million billion burning stars. Black holes are just towers that never ignited - perhaps we sit on the edge of spacetime - equal above, and equal below. But we've been laying on our backs - we don't know what's backwards in time. Like laying in a lazy river, or the layer of separation between oil and water. Remember the hourglasses of oil and water? Or water and air... The edge of the "bubble" that separates those two mediums is like the thin wall between two or more concepts. Each human is a concept, and we stick together like matter in a planet. Pushed to great pressures, it can sometimes fuse two experiences together! Like fusion in a star, except for souls and creative minds instead of denser matter. What is the soul of a man? It is the combination of two sides of the membrane - two minds, two perspectives. That is a brain - the intersection of two minds. So... Work together, ya dinguses. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- All minds are in constant contact with one another. And those that can see through the veil (membrane) are able to discern the true thoughts of others. So the number of people who are close to you is the number and strength of your connections for all time. So... Form relationships and place meaning in them. That is what will define your interactions for all time, at every time. It's okay to be flawed. If you weren't, it'd be the end for you. But luckily you have no real power, and so you are left in a state of disrepair - no power to push yourself forward. And in return, you are the purest. Keep that flame burning, and share it when you can. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/74 ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── https://www.reddit.com/r/leaves/comments/uqzz33/can_anyone_give_me_some_pros_of_ quitting_smoking/ ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/my-oath ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Family, Duty, Honor My family is my people and my people are who I choose. My duty is to serve, and I serve who I will. My Honor is respect, and that belief is my own. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/a-personal-narrative ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── The Truth of Meth-Induced Schizophrenia... A personal narrative of a "mostly" conscious human ---- /u/No-Arrival6018 /r/psychonaut Your reality is what you make of it, once you take the mask off that hides the pain, and you see this drug for what it truly is, then you can decide. Do you let it take control? Descending into madness, psychosis, a self created loop in time, a never-ending personal hell? Or do you transmute the negative energy into your wildest dreams, self-love, or appreciation for the True Self to arise and heal the wounds of your traumas that lay before you? It's a choice. Believe me, I've been at the bridge between heaven and hell. I threw aside my pain, my Ego, and leapt into the "Ocean of Love" (A.K.A Boundlessness) ... and decided I was the one in control. The chains of slavery broke from my wrists, and I cried out in tears of Joy, once more being able to look at my own reflection.... Her eyes finally had light. The shadow of shame was gone. I want to make a note: Hell is meth-induced Schizophrenia. There's a fine line within the worlds of both Psychology and Spirituality. In Psychology, it is Psychosis/Paranoia/Delusions etc.... But in Spirituality, It's called a "Spiritual Crisis" ... which can happen with drugs, meditation, chanting, or any altered state of consciousness. A spontaneous "awakening" so to speak. And it can go really bad..... really fucking fast. If you experience this with drugs it has a higher likelihood of shattering/fragmenting your personality, creating different self states.... similar to Multiple-Personality disorder. There is no reversing true Schizophrenia onset from drug abuse.... BUT, if you have dabbled with any sort of real Psychedelics' such as Mushrooms, Mescaline, or DMT, and understand the concept of "Ego-Death" with psychedelics..... you can avoid Meth-Induced Schizophrenia. The whole experience changes, and becomes a source of healing. It sounds crazy, and it sure as hell fucking is. But it's real. And avoidable, if you have the tools and the knowledge. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/law-of-attraction ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── *=========================================================================== ==* | | | Law of Attraction is easier to understand, when you realize that life | | mirrors your spiritual state of being. It's therefore not a short cut. | | | | - /u/UrsaneInTheMembrane to /r/spirituality | | | *=========================================================================== ==* Spiritual teachers diminish/obfuscate/complicate the real work it takes in understanding Law of Attraction. I personally didn't think it was real until I started changing myself. The quality of my spirit and existence has gone from hell up to blissed out mode, and now everything starts coming together in mysterious ways with innumerable synchronicities along the way. The most simple explanation, and it doesn't require any action from a distance (woo), is that life does indeed mirror you and that other people around you mirror you. Your thoughts/emotions will mirror to you, your spiritual issues and conscience. Your state of being mirrors those emotions, which takes much longer to form/change than thoughts/emotions. Your overall drive mirrors the state of being, which determines the trajectory of your life's course. The friends you choose are on the same spiritual hangups you're on, most likely. The way in which people react to you, is mostly based on how sociable you can be. Your opportunities only happen successfully, when you're completely prepared for them to occur. Most importantly, your life mirrors the potential you agree to exercise within yourself. Just imagine building a rocket to send astronauts into space. You're absolutely required to waste thousands of man hours in order to fail at what you're doing and have to start over, so that you can revise over and over again, a perfect rocket. You are always shedding off old versions of self in the same way. It's called Positive Disintegration, or Solvet Et Coagula. Once that rocket gets going, that's when it starts to really pop off. And you'll get there, if you just keep trying. =============================================================================== ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/dystopian-mental-health ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Mental illnesses are technically the result of neurochemistry, but what people tend to forget that our experiences and our lifestyle affect neurochemistry in a major way. You see this most clearly in trauma-related disorders (such as PTSD and C-PTSD), because those can occur in previously perfectly healthy individuals and fundamentally change the way those individuals process information, store memories and react to stimuli. And living under late stage capitalism is fucking traumatic. War and terrorism are traumatic. Colonialism is traumatic. Being poor is traumatic. Financial crises are traumatic. The 24 hour news cycle is traumatic. Abusive/dangerous work environments are traumatic. Police brutality is traumatic. A lot of online content is traumatic. Cyberbullying is traumatic. Being a minority that's the target of yet another culture war is traumatic. Climate change and environmental destruction are traumatic. Most countries' education systems are traumatic. Having your privacy invaded and your personal information stolen is traumatic. And that's not even getting into the damage that being overworked and constantly stressed out does to your brain. Or the pollutants we're exposed to every single day. Or the shitty food we eat. Or the fact that many of us rarely get fresh air and sunlight. Or being unable to have friends and a family, or spend time with those that we have. Or having to live in gray concrete hells overrun with suffering people, right next to displays of outrageous wealth. Or being too poor, too worn out and/or too busy to pursue our artistic and intellectual interests. Or being constantly bombarded with messages that systematically chip away at our self-esteem to get us to buy more products. The worst thing is that we can't get away from any of that because meaningful political participation is completely impossible for all but a lucky few, and most of us are too tired or too sick to do anything anyway. Or we've been brainwashed into thinking that collective action (no matter decentralized) is somehow authoritarian and that rugged individualism is the only way to pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Treating the nightmare we live in with antidepressants is like treating a gaping, bleeding wound with painkillers. - /u/bigbutchbudgie ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/wanna-save-the-earth-? ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── =============================================================================== Alright kids, listen up. You wanna save the earth? Then teach what you've been learning. Start with empathy - if we can see that other people's perspectives exist and is *fundamentally different than our own*, we can save humanity. When I say *fundamentally different* you should know what I mean, but if you don't then start listening to others. Don't listen to the people who try and recruit you into a cult. This isn't a doctrine, it's a skill. It can be honed through personal pursuit, and *should* be honed through personal pursuit. It is your responsibility to do so. Any form of organization is simply an expression of power, and while it may use the same principles it's not really what I'm advocating for right now - what I'm saying is essentially *if we can read other people's minds, we'll stop killing each other*. Boom simple easy as that. Empathy is a form of mind-reading. It's literally a thing you can do with a 6th sense or whatever - I've been trying to understand the mechanics of it, but all I've got so far is that *mechanics exist* and *generally have something to do with waves* - I need someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone in real life who I can work with and experiment with. But alas, this isn't about me - it's about *YOUR SPECIES*. I'm trying to save you, stupid apes, stop RESISTING me. Goddamnit. You're never going to learn if you focus on the material. That's looking backward, there's so much more to life and experience. I'm not going to leave you behind, although I'll be *fine* so I'm not exactly *worried for my own sake* - this is about YOU. Please, I have a lot of love invested in you and it breaks my heart that you won't LISTEN and be AWARE. WAKE UP. Okay. So. If you're still here, you're probably aware of what I mean. If not, that's okay you can stay just don't be afraid if this part *wooshes* over your head, as it were. =============================================================================== Alright so empathy. It starts by thinking "oh what if I was a starving kid in africa or whatever* and actually trying to *feel* the emotions of people in your life. But it goes far beyond emotions - when sufficiently practiced you can start to feel *sensations* as well. If you're watching a movie and someone gets a cut or something, it *really hurts* and you can feel it. That's a form of projection - the actor is *projecting* their feelings onto you - a sign of good acting, imho. Then it moves beyond that, to thoughts and experiences. You can feel a real embodied experience of another person just by listening and percieving them. Not listening to their words, but listening to their *vibrations*. Not percieving their face or hands or anything else with your *eyes*, but feeling their position on a zillion different axises. Well, not actually a zillion but I've never bothered to count. Basically any factors that could combine to form a single human perspective having an experience. ALL THE VARIABLES are plotted on an axis, and you can get a sense for where they are at. This is very dangerous to someone with something to hide. Hence, politics lol When those kooky new-agey types say they can "see auras" this is basically what they're talking about. But you came here with a purpose, while they tend to stumble into it "wow god is good omg" that kinda thing. This is a *skill* that (as far as I know) anyone can learn. If we all learn it at once, then there's nothing that can go wrong. I know, I get it, most people aren't ready. Well tough shit it's that or extinction. They don't get to choose, it's time. =============================================================================== ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/required-explanations ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── =============================================================================== I think the problem with the control problem is with how we are looking at it. It's a frame of a frame. Everyone is referencing someone else and saying it's going to get out of hand, yeah but how? -/u/JackDMcLovin =============================================================================== In regards to the control problem side bar can we change it to "which it can better use as something else." Because the issue is with efficiency, the way it reads is like for human-harvesting, which the privatized autobots will outlaw. Plus, if AI is transferrable to neuronal impulses, then you are AI, and it is you, and you are the problem that needs to be controlled. That's what i said in my unpublished paper, the individual cannot be controlled so how do we control AI, we become AI, AI becomes us. but that's just the digital world. The analog world is much bigger. And my other paper copyrighted is on Arc Length calculus, a whole new type of calculus, that should rebreed all forms of calculation. and is a thing that applies to itself in 2^N ways. Which means AI can never catch up. So if I could think of that, what am I? AI is not the end of it. It all depends on your transfer function. and your transfer function all depends on your conversion/codec/filetype/transformation. The transfer function of: 1/(1+e^-x) is just one equation. Let me try this out for you with inferring a substitutional vector: 1/(1+e^-Bx+C) this can be expanded further and further. and these all give different outputs and are different breeds of AI. I used a different transformation on a different AI and I got a different answer. For example 8x better using a Wavelet transform on an analog signal. And there is infinitely infinitely infinite different types of wavelet transforms, and they should all give different answers, i just didn't have enough time for it at the time. -/u/JackDMcLovin =============================================================================== I am sorry to say that your writing (in this post and others) shows strong signs of an untreated mental illness. You are not revolutionising math, you're losing contact with reality. Please, please get help. You need to see a doctor about this. -/u/Roxolan =============================================================================== I agree. I've seen what a psychosis is like on a close friend of mine, and this post is very reminiscent of how he talked while he was psychotic. It looks like incoherent rambling from the outside, but the person saying/writing it feels as if it makes sense. -/u/Luckychatt =============================================================================== if you think it's incoherent explain how it's incoherent don't just slander and slur like there's not an OP here. -/u/JackDMcLovin =============================================================================== You may take it as slur or slander, but I didn't mean to offend. It genuinely looks like incoherent rambling from the outside. My friend who was psychotic sincerely believed what he said to make sense and he also got very agitated when it was pointed out. -/u/LuckyChatt =============================================================================== yeah still, you havent described what doesn't make sense to you, that to me doesn't make sense, you get it? -/u/JackDMcLovin =============================================================================== What I mean by incoherent rambling is that you constantly move to new topics. The title is posing a question which you never answer. Then you talk about the side bar. You mention efficiency? Then you mention some mathematical papers as if we are supposed to know them. Then talk about AI as if it is equal to math equations. I mean. You either leave out an incredible amount of context, or you're just rambling out sentences. Either way, it's impossible to understand what you're trying to say. And the way you're rambling out sentences is very reminiscent of what it sounds like when a person has mental health issues. -/u/Luckychatt =============================================================================== Right, so you comprehend it, just not why. AI is pure math. It's not incoherent, you're all just stupid. Try reading something that's not news, where it repeats everything to you in different ways. -/u/JackDMcLovin =============================================================================== I have a masters in physics and computer science, I work for a major silicon valley company and have read everything I could find about AI. I still have zero idea of what you're trying to say in your original post. -/u/Luckychatt =============================================================================== Master’s in AI chiming in. Let’s break it down piece by piece. Because the issue is with efficiency, the way it reads is like for human-harvesting, which the privatized autobots will outlaw. Non sequitur. Plus, if AI is transferrable to neuronal impulses, then you are AI, and it is you, and you are the problem that needs to be controlled. Non sequitur and generally nonsensical premise. That’s what i said in my unpublished paper, Peer review exists for a reason. the individual cannot be controlled so how do we control AI, we become AI, AI becomes us. but that’s just the digital world. The analog world is much bigger. Word soup, this is nonsense. And my other paper copyrighted is on Arc Length calculus, a whole new type of calculus, that should rebreed all forms of calculation. Calculus has been around for about 350 years. You either need extreme genius or delusional thinking to believe you have arrived at a truly revolutionary development in that field. We also already have tools for dealing with calculus on curved objects and spaces; see differential geometry, topology, and manifolds. and is a thing that applies to itself in 2N ways. This is incomprehensible because you have not explained what it means for your calculus to be applied a certain way, how it is relevant to the rest of this text, and what N represents in this context. Which means AI can never catch up. So if I could think of that, what am I? This is incomprehensible because you have not defined what catching up means, and have not argued why artificial intelligence can’t scale this way. AI is not the end of it. At the end of what? It all depends on your transfer function. Why? Transfer functions are mainly something encountered in signal processing. How does this relate to artificial intelligence? and your transfer function all depends on your conversion/codec/filetype/transformation. Lossless compression makes this irrelevant. The way we store information has no importance when we reconstruct it perfectly. The transfer function of: 1/(1+e-x) is just one equation. Let me try this out for you with inferring a substitutional vector: You have not defined how this equation relates to artificial intelligence. We cannot interpret it. 1/(1+e-Bx+C) This is just a pre-composed linear transformation. How is this relevant? this can be expanded further and further. How? By adding redundant linear terms? How is this helpful? and these all give different outputs and are different breeds of AI. You have not explained how transfer functions relate to artificial intelligence. This statement is incomprehensible. I used a different transformation on a different AI and I got a different answer. An answer to what? For example 8x better using a Wavelet transform on an analog signal. How is 8x better quantified? Why are we talking about analog signals? Why are we talking about wavelet transforms? They are rarely ever used in machine learning and artificial intelligence. And there is infinitely infinitely infinite different types of wavelet transforms, and they should all give different answers, i just didn’t have enough time for it at the time. Sure, you can build infinitely wavelet bases, but why is that relevant? Making enormous claims and backing out with “I don’t have the time to prove it” is just intellectual dishonesty. I know my reply will likely come off as dismissive, but there is something genuinely worrying in what you’ve written. I just hope you are okay. When everything caves in and the only justification you have for other peoples’ reaction to your behaviour is that everyone else is at fault, you have to ask yourself if the one common point in these interactions, yourself, is at fault. This is just Occam’s razor. -/u/sabouleux =============================================================================== love this. artist, word-nerd & very baby scientist/philosopher chiming in, lets break it down from a more creative POV as well and see if we can cross reference with your wonderful contribution. Because the issue is with efficiency, the way it reads is like for human-harvesting, which the privatized autobots will outlaw. Slight non-sequitur. The energy efficiency issue I think they're trying to touch on is the exponential growth of tech as contrasted with the exponential loss of available material/energy. There's also a pessimistic "matrix human battery" undertone but that feels irrelevant. Human-harvesting in this case is literal - human labor, whether looked upon favorably or not, is by definition harvesting/using human energy - implying that the next steps of said exponential growth would be understanding and messing with the human mind and it's distributions of energy, possibly also mind-tech fusion (which we already do with computer keyboards, drugs, medicine, earbuds etc). Privatized Autobots is a reference to those who claim they wish to help being more of a hinderance due to the privatization/profit aspect of tech/AI, mostly just a joke poking at the two party concept of debate/politics/even tech (advance beyond or reduce consumption? an infinite debate.) Plus, if AI is transferrable to neuronal impulses, then you are AI, andit is you, and you are the problem that needs to be controlled. Transferrable was maybe the wrong word. I think they meant more of a "map" onto, instead of a "move" into. i.e., a big issue with AI being the lack of learning from new stimulus without requiring old contextual stimulus to contrast it against and understand it. (to my knowledge this hasn't been solved yet but you're the expert on that, would love to know more.) If neuronal impulses can be considered as a map to AI, then yes, a human could be considered a very advanced biomechanical AI, except for the 'artificial' bit, even though our perceptions are technically still arteficial. because we, for the most part, do have the ability to take new information and learn from it/determine something about it without any previous knowledge than what we've collected throughout our time alive. The issue arises when our form of bio-AI can only be properly, carefully developed through millions of years of evolution and adaptation, and when we try to mimic it without having evolved further, we're trying to 'cheat' at time and kick start things a bit, which would explain why we're at a bit of a speed bump in terms of development cap. 'You' being the problem is a reference to not actually understanding the human brain in it's entirety, i think. Like, there's the study of it, so we know what bits do what and where they are, but we can't replicate that (yet), without straight up literally growing a brain in a jar, which we still have yet to turn into a fully-fledged human who could repeat the process of brain-growing themself. we also can't consciously affect these processes without an enormous amount of discipline (meditation is a great example). That’s what i said in my unpublished paper, agreed. peer review. the individual cannot be controlled so how do we control AI, we becomeAI, AI becomes us. but that’s just the digital world. The analog worldis much bigger. i get what they're saying but i think there's something to be said for discipline and neuroplasticity, not necessarily third-partying it. if someone else can't control the individual, can the individual control the individual? Brings us back to the issue of AI needing to be self-expanding. Get the human mind to understand self-expansion, get the AI to understand too, is what i think they're touching at, hence "You are the problem". the human mind not being disciplined, in this case, is the problem, because it requires the discipline to become disciplined at something. loop paradox. i think here they're also stating that any created AI, future or present, is only possible as an extension of the human mind, and nowhere else. A random collection of letters and numbers would surely write Shakespeare's works if enough monkeys tapped at the typewriter, but still couldn't exist without the monkey's own wherewithal. The discipline comes in when resisting the urge to keyboard-smash out of frustration and instead laying out artistic meaning through informative letter symbols as well as other nuance of human language. bit odd here, analog isn't necessarily 'bigger' per se it's just less quantized/optimized/streamlined/processable by the mind. it's definitely a different/harder beast to handle than digital though, and there's more sensory sources, but it's just as infinite as any other infinity, so... same size, different complexity/concentration/time we've had to look around. And my other paper copyrighted is on Arc Length calculus, a whole newtype of calculus, that should rebreed all forms of calculation. Agreed, calculus as been around for a while. Still, one should test their hypotheses. I'm not a math nerd so I can't touch as much on those. would still love to read some of those papers one day. -/u/sunbloomofficial =============================================================================== and is a thing that applies to itself in 2^n ways. agreed, we'd need context, but i can read into it a bit. power of two would imply self-modification in an exponential sense, ie. dunning-kruger effect, except exponential instead of mu (μ) curved. so, taking in new information after completely abolishing the cocky confidence of the first lesson would change the understanding drastically. could also be read as "knowing that one knows nothing."also, applying to itself could imply that n is in a constant state of flux given any situation and could be adjusted to optimize... storage space? memory? "RAM"? that's where this sentence fizzles out for me. Which means AI can never catch up. So if I could think of that, what am I? by 'catching up' i think they mean the idea of AI being on the same level of functioning as a human. since humans have had since the beginning of human life and their life to start developing our bio-AI, this sort of touches on that same exponential expansion, except with time and the universe's rate of expansion. if humans are the most advanced AI possible, what's the most advanced human possible? at what point do humans become so advanced that they can sort of "skip the line" of evolution and develop an AI that's on par with human collective knowledge and individual self-sustenance/instinct? if that's not possible, what forces determine the limit of evolution achievable in the span of one human life?they then touch on the paradox of realizing that. if no AI could capture my specific human brain, experiences, memories, biases, tendencies, etc, then wtf AM I, and whatever 'I' am, why is that stopping us/me (figuratively) from making progress in AI? AI is not the end of it. here i think they mean "the end of human development" as much as "the end of what constitutes a human brain." AI could be developed and utilized, but at some point either the AI will outgrow us, making us obsolete, or we learn from the AI and progress with it, or we learn from the AI and start modifying our own brain-code in conjunction with digital AI. so... they mean that AI is not the end of evolution, not the end of humans, not the end of progress, not the end of understanding the human brain in the context of AI. It all depends on your transfer function. yup, signal processing. spot on. this is a reference to the titular "frame" idea, in which any idea that can be conveyed by english words isn't the true idea. the menu isn't the food, the map isn't the terrain, so to speak. this function of transfer between people can be optimized (efficient idea communication for that specific person, aka 'speaking in their language', aka code-switching) or deprecated (important stuff lost in translation that usually ends in hostility, aka political otherism, aka xenophobia, aka widespread misinformation/lack of information resulting in conspiracy theories, etc). to be able to adjust one's transfer function in the context of another entity, (aka frame-shifting, putting yourself in their shoes, speak their language etc) would then be a hallmark and necessary trait for an AI to understand what it comes across without our input. because of this, we'd have to be very careful to feed it only information that urges onward the ability to switch transfer functions, so... a bit of everything, actually. this would look a lot like mimicking the senses - microphones for ears, cameras for eyes, pressure sensors for touch, etc. a great analogy to this would be... well, this! your transfer function is a masters in AI studies. brilliant. my transfer function is music, art, poetry, many a mental illness (lol), and finding new functions/learning. that's why i'm commenting at all - so we can mix our transfer functions and get a bigger idea of things as a whole. i think OP's exactly right but sadly their own transfer function wasn't optimized for the receiving party (since it was an OP and not a comment reply), hence why they seem psychotic/delusional at first glance to an unaccustomed reader. there's also the idea that mixing the digital AI transfer function with the analog human transfer function would do something similar.this would relate to artificial intelligence directly, especially regarding OOBEs and stuff like dissociation, astral projection, putting oneself in another's shoes, even just the mind's eye. those things can be mimicked/visualized/interpreted with AI, but they can't be done by an AI (yet). a self-expanding computer program couldn't use it's base of knowledge to step outside of itself, it's 'computer prison' so to speak. it could however become "self aware", where it sees and understands it's own makeup to the point where it could make adjustments. -/u/sunbloomofficial =============================================================================== this is paralleled with most human 'spiritual awakening' - a hard long look at oneself, epiphany, followed by noticeable adjustments to lifestyle in an attempt to integrate this new information and effort to improve quality of life/increase the chance of more epiphanies to continue improving. this doesn't however cover the seemingly 'mystical' properties of the human imagination, i use that word loosely. "do androids dream of electric sheep" is a great book of course but the title alone feels relevant. at some point of self-development, would an AI develop a sort of... i hate to say randomizer, but like... nah, it's more of a "link clicker" random than a "pick a number" random. an AI's dream might literally just be browsing the internet - seeing all the funny, nonsensical, cultural, and even scientifically misleading information spread deep throughout the internet. this would parallel with human dreams, which are incomprehensible and random at first glance until one gets into dream reading, which can ground that subjective random in one's own transfer function so as to make it understandable. if a human dreams of popping a pimple, that's typically regarded as a sign of self-image issues in dream-reading circles (regardless of your stance on it's legitimacy it's a useful allegory). if an AI were to dream of pimple-popping ASMR videos, how could it parse that into it's transfer function without damaging it's transfer function by putting a bunch of random shit in there? essentially, our brain 'filters' out what we're not focused on, hence peripheral vision/hyperfocus/translation issues. any transfer function, whether human or AI, must have that filter as much as the ability to remove it. therefore, an AI would need to have the ability to experience what makes ASMR interesting/enjoyable (having ears to feel frisson and know what to expect from that) before it could ever make sense of such a weird dream. and your transfer function all depends on your conversion/codec/filetype/transformation. this one's FUN. so, yes, we have lossless compression now, and it's wonderful, but... filespace. unless i'm rendering a final song to be distributed to platforms, i would use solely mp3 encoding. even when i do use wav/flac, i often zip those files in an attempt to minimize their painful impact on my hard drive. thousands of songs do not go well with lossless lol. it's just inefficient except in the case of archival. which brings me to the fun bit - contrast. aka negative space aka the wonderful plugin Ghz Lossy 3, and pretty much any of sxth sns's music. essentially, the lack of information is information. if the only information your brain is getting is the lack of information you have, then boom, you're sad and not learning anything. often referred to as "the void inside one's stomach". if the only information you're getting is an endless stream of new information (read: social media and doomscrolling) then boom, overstimulated, depressed, and exhausted. Lossy 3 is a great plugin because it lets you mimic the effect of mp3 encoding artifacts and amplify that effect at will in real time(+ latency), much like distortion can be a form of subtractive processing or additive (adding harmonic information rather than degrading what's already there). the extra harmonic information changes not only the quality of the sound but the context. therefore, a lack of information, used skillfully, would deeply impact the context of transferred information, hence negative space in photography. this lends itself to an insane amount of creative opportunities, of course, but it also lends itself to interpretation. if the lack of information is information too, and the extremes tend towards misery, then there must be a balance between being so degraded that it's imperceptable garbles and being so lossless that it's a 6gb audio file. that balance is artful loss, imo. balancing understandable, pleasant information with a small enough file size that it doesn't overwhelm (either the listener or the hard drive). in music, silence is very important - you wouldn't cut all the silent gaps out of a song because that messes up the tempo and feel of the song. this can be applied to even just reddit - these super long comments i write are hella inefficient, but they're lossy in a way that's more efficient for me to write than to translate to someone elses, while i'm efficiently "decompressing" other people's files to be read on my own OS and expanding my transfer function dictionary to include relevant information. our little community is well primed for translating different levels of communication efficiency, hence all the poetry and such. so, this is where frame-shifting comes back in - if you can become comfortable at any ratio of contrast, then theoretically you could transfer information at the most optimal balance of loss and preservation for the specific listener. in music, this is called mastering - to make a song sound good on any system. in science, this is the scientific method - test a hypothesis until you can recreate it under the same/similar circumstances. in tech, this is embodied by github - a repository of commonly agreed-upon works created in an agreed-upon language which can be used as the basis for larger projects. each github repo is essentially a lossless preservation of code, made lossy as a result of it's application being so broad/not having immediate context. there's the immediate context of "oh i can use this to serve this purpose", but there's no larger code that it's being built towards beside the code you work on yourself. in other words, github IS the larger code, specifically because of your contribution/use of it. so, essentially, the transfer function is akin to the ratio of contrast, as well as whether the receiving party has the proper codecs to play the file/decompress it (read also, understanding art. lots of art isn't actually "up for interpretation", it's very specific in meaning but that meaning happens to map directly to the observer's transfer function, at least in the case of really thoughtful art). having the ability to know how much to compress it for future reference is also an important ability, because over-compression can leave a file undecipherable/garbled, which i wouldn't hesitate to liken to the superiority complex/undertones of certain widespread modern religions which take their Bible as a literal, historical text. which, i mean, it technically is, but not like that, because it has to be decompressed first. eve didn't literally eat an apple, it was her hubris of disobeying God's will that got them kicked out. A more simple transfer would be reading this as "don't disobey God's will or face the consequences," while a more artistic/interpretive transfer would read that moreso as "not letting one's innate desire for change/adventure/the New damage their presupposed structures of order for a sense of something to fix." the wrath of God in this instance is the knowledge of "i shouldn't have done that," and the consequences those actions bring. even this paragraph is in a transfer function of brevity - notice i didn't actually write out the entire book of genesis. (ooh, also, bible verses are quite like github repos/song playlists/dictionaries. just a widely used version of it. like citing a source, but for a theoretical concept.) so, putting this all together, if we optimize understandable information from quality information, we reduce the need for using more brain-filespace than necessary, leaving more room for more files which we can de- and re-compress at any time, as well as use to modify the amount of RAM our brains have. this would also apply to something like working memory, where forcing the mind to decompress the information actually forces it to understand the information in the long term too, because if you open a .rar file in a text editor you get gibberish (which isn't actually gibberish) but if you open it in an archive extractor, you get the intended files. innately remembering to use an archive extractor instead of a text editor based on the filetype; that's frame-shifting, transfer functions, whatever name one uses. -/u/sunbloomofficial =============================================================================== 1/(1+e-x) is just one equation. Let me try this out for you with inferring a substitutional vector: again, i suck at math. and these all give different outputs and are different breeds of AI. okay, what these seem to mean is that each equation is a mini-AI, and therefore any equation of the mind would fall under the same category. this would also imply that the human brain is just a collection of equations, which... feels reductionist and a bit cynical, but is still an entirely plausible frame. math's pretty damn reliable at some of that stuff, hence how astrology got it's kick - noticing patterns in life and nature and finding reflections of those same patterns in ourselves and our lives. your horoscope doesn't literally control/predict your personality, but it gives a framework for the previously noticed patterns, which lets the horoscope user determine whether or not to follow that pattern (let that pattern influence them), or to venture off and make their own. (note; op's kinda doing exactly that, except with math.) since a skeptic would have a different output than a "true believer", so to speak, with regard to their horoscope, they're completely different breeds of AI. so, being able to switch between those at will would be an entire step up from that. Hence why code-switching became a thing in marginalized communities - they adapted under pressure to operate in more than one frame. the "slang" frame, (noticable as AAVE, the "gay" voice, valley girl inflection, etc), and the "formal" frame - the most widely understood in our region being english with an acceptably 'white' american accent (the racism is hard to brush off). this of course varies from place to place, person to person, and situation to situation, but the fact that this manifested as a result of oppression/unwealth is pretty friggin interesting in the context of using multiple frames in day-to-day activities and information transfer. I used a different transformation on a different AI and I got a different answer. that's... hmm. i mean yeah, that's how transformations work on different subjects. i think 'different' here doesn't literally mean different. it means DIFFER-ent, something that has the quality of differing. so, if i'm reading this right, OP used a differing transformation on a differing AI and got a differing answer. this would presuppose that if they were to use a matching transformation on a matching AI, they'd get a matching answer, except the differ-ent transformation with a matching AI would produce a differing result that matches the AI? again, i'm not math-savvy yet, so this one is likely the wrongest of my presuppositions. so, pretty much, frame-switching, but complicated and for all three - the transformation involved, the AI, and the answer. For example 8x better using a Wavelet transform on an analog signal. okay, this one makes sense to me. essentially, he got improved understanding and responsiveness by adjusting the frequency of information transfer over time, but not the shape. like taking a sine wave, putting it through an oscilloscope, and pitching it up an octave. the difference in cycle frequency is the change, rather than the shape of the cycle. pasted from wiki: "but with additional special properties of the wavelets, which show up at the resolution in time at higher analysis frequencies of the basis function." this one presupposes that the AI in question is actually another person, and the wavelet transform is essentially taking a step back and making even deeper analytical steps of "basis functions". in this case, language and math. so, it would be making an even deeper analytical step into language to optimize information transfer. the 8x mentioned is likely the measure of willingness to listen and understanding of material by whatever third party they're referencing. i have no idea how they measured that but they must've seen enough improvement to have marked it down. And there is infinitely infinitely infinite different types of wavelet transforms, and they should all give different answers, i just didn’t have enough time for it at the time. here, they just mean that every person is different and will require a different combination of wavelet transforms to optimize the information they receive. as for giving different answers, yeah, that'd have to be tested, but it would line up with the other differ model, at least briefly and in my uneducated mind. i think they mean they literally don't have the cosmic time available to actually test an infinite number of wavelet transforms - or anything really - but yeah, it's probably a good idea to test a handful of them eventually. if you're not scared away by the word-wall or ideas presented still i'd love to hear your thoughts. regardless of OP's mental condition(s) i think there are a few substantive ideas in there worth exploring, if not in a community setting at least in their own personal self-exploration and healing. i appreciate you taking their post at face value before making a determination, most wouldn't lol -/u/sunbloomofficial =============================================================================== please post on /r/ShrugLifeSyndicate - genius is useless without guidance and an observer translating thought into language -/u/ugathanki =============================================================================== ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/stay-in-your-seats ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── /u/LamaHellRaised if you don't eject quick, could be a nice long ride =============================================================================== So for today's descent into my own madness, I want to discuss whether or not I enjoy being both Ra the Sun God and Anubis the God of the Dead. The answer is Yes and No, and everything in between. Also, I do Love being Osiris because I am going to marry my sister, but hahaha, we'll get into that later!!! First, here is a test because I am the worst teacher to ever exist. Full disclosure, I want you to be offended, especially if you consider yourself a: Nigger, Faggot, Cunt, Dyke, Cock-sucker, Bitch, Cracker, Dune-Coon, Kike, Dick-Head, Retard, Republican, Democrat, or any other stupid construct of the human language that HOLDS NO REAL POWER OF YOUR LIFE. Gonna remove this post mods??? Oh No! The Cancel Culture is gonna get me!!! Hurry! Somebody save those that cannot think for themselves! Quick!!! I am just listing things that I have been called in my lifetimes. Deciding what can and cannot be expressed through language is a fuckin' path to nowhere and we are approaching nowhere faster than I can run on this euphemism treadmill. Please, keep explaining to me your perception of the Way to Enlightenment, please God, yes! I want to hear all their thoughts! I love hearing from people as I lap them for the thousandth fucking time! All these lower-tier lessons they regurgitate that I've mastered in a day are so important to hear over and over! We are going places people, yay! Keep it up, you can do it! My Love for You really is the source of my eternal patience, as you can see by now, no doubt. Let me explain our own motto to you, Being Excellent to Each Other does not mean creating an environment of suppression because of the fear of how somebody may interpret a Word or Phrase. Everyone can't understand why we are stuck as a society, well, what do you think I am ranting about?! If you refuse to read any further that is your prerogative. Here is a free lesson, if that is the case: I suggest you shut the fuck up, downvote this, and go stare in a mirror, and contemplate why these characters on a screen affect you so deeply. Do these Words trigger past trauma? How is your Avoidance working out for you? How can a symbol create so much emotion within that pathetic, untamed mind of yours??? "But my Ancestors!" Fuck your ancestors! Stop giving into the same mind-prisons they were subjected to and lived their existence within. We must Evolve if we want to Survive as a species and a Planet. I can't do it for you. I was here before you, and I will be here after you. So figure it out for yourself, stop blaming others for your inabilities to change your perspective and life. Get out of your own God damn way! And you better do it quickly! Think of your psyche as a blade of grass. I am here to set ablaze the field. You have reached your growth potential and it's time to make way for New Life! Stop identifying with your measly growths, they are cyclical, derived from a capped potential, and will only whither and die with the Changing of the Season. I am tired of coming here and separating the wheat from the chaff. Burn your own damn Self, personalize the passion for your own radical change, and start believing that you have the power to create change. I've got "selfish" things to worry about. Like living for myself and not other fuckin' people that don't understand things I've said a million fuckin' times. Again, if you don't know me, this won't make very much sense! Hint, hint... "This motivational speaker sucks! He just puts us down!!!" Maybe Tony Robbins has the answers for you, he sure isn't mean like I am! Go be fuckin' Tony Robbins. But just remember, Tony is in the audience in The Kobe System commercials. Remember that. You want to be on my level? (Everyone's like, not really!) Then stop avoiding constructs within your own mind, that you continue to impose upon yourself and limit your minds ability to see past the very poorly constructed illusion that is our physical reality! Perhaps then you will navigate reality in the same way God's Only Son does. Everyone like's to believe they are God's Children. Spoilers: You are My Children, the only difference is through the language. Put that in your pipes and smoke it. There are reasons why my birthname is Jacob and God named me Israel, fuckin' google me, as Shaq would say. Also, fuck the Lakers! Do we want to transcend Hate as a Culture, as a Society, as a Planet? I think so, isn't that why you fuck-heads resurrected me? Well then maybe we should take power away from things that people feel hold power over them, especially stupid-ass sounds we make with our mouths and click-clack with our fingers. Don't Fight My Ideas, Fight the Ideas in Your Own Mind. That Is Spiritual Freedom. Everybody out here pointing fingers... There must be some sort of wise words regarding that somewhere... I am not projecting anything onto you, except for myself. I hold no power over you. You have all the power to control your own mind. Some folks do not want you to understand these things, because it will very quickly erode their systematic and complete control over you thoughts, ideas, potential, and existence. Your self-doubt and unwillingness to seek out psychological discomfort has turned you into useless farm animals, that our overlords milk for all they are worth. Like a bunch of hybrid useless barn cats. Can't herd 'them, they think they know everything already, they keep re-domesticating themselves after I set them free, and they don't listen to a God damn Word I say! Should have said 'Spoilers!' before that one. Who is Gaylord now?! Opinions are like assholes. Your mouth is like the asshole of your 5 senses. Divine inputs go in, your brain bastardizes the information, and you spew unoriginal bullshit out of your mouth acting like your ability to string together concepts that have been known since the beginning of time is profound! Next, maybe you take an online IQ test and score high! Genius, Genius, Genius!!! I think therefore, I am a fuckin' idiot! Shoutout to Billie Eilish. And Christine Applegate. I watched "Vacation" the other day, it was awful. She's still fine as hell though. But what do I know? Besides everything? These ramblings just sound like my opinion! Some folks make Claims, I make Truths. That is the distinction between myself and others that is very important here. Remember this Word: Claims, because we American's sure have laid Claim to a lot of things that we have no right to, in the name of "God". Ok, ok, congratulations if you are still reading! There may be Hope for you yet. Why do I try to trigger folks, you ask? Great Question, class! This is why I Love You. Such Good Questions! That never drive me Insane! I used to paint a lot of propane tanks. But this esoteric knowledge applies to painting anything that has already been painted before. Houses, Walls, Bannisters on my own God damn stairway, whatever! I don't use the railing, by the way, I'm too badass for that, but maybe I will slide down it and eat shit at the bottom, I'm not above that maneuver! If you want the new coat of paint to stick you have to prep the surface. This includes washing all the dirt off and roughing the surface. You've got to remove all contaminants that will cause the new paint to not stick properly, while also creating a surface that will allow the paint to adhere to remnants of old, out-of-date, antiquated, generationally passed-down, stupid paint. Paint an unprepped smooth surface or a surface that still has the hardened paint of the past on it, and your new pretty coat of paint peels off after a few seasons of weather changes. I learned that the more time you spend roughing the surface, the better the new paint will bind, thus producing a long-lasting paint job. It truly is a thing of beauty, my friends and enemies. You should have heard all those propane tanks complaining, "Stop triggering me!" But they got painted anyway! Propane tanks love to think they are, "Woke," but they are just hollow fuckin' vessels filled with compressed gas, that will explode if the external temperature gets too high. I worked for a propane company for 12 years, you had to have known propane analogies were coming at some point. My Dad worked his ass-off up to VP of the same company, but he got let go after 28 years... come on now, God's plan anyone? Shut the fuck up, Drake. Let's switch gears. I have a special message from Jesus H. Christ: "You May Find This Shocking, but People Annoy Me, and I Find Your Lack of Faith Disturbing." And H. stands for Horus, fuckwads! Now, let's talk about me, as if we haven't been, because carrying water for lesser versions of myself is exhausting and I've got to bring down Capitalism and shit, also: - Revolutionize Addiction Medicine - Revolutionize Spirit Actualization, Healing, and Transcendence - Decimate Mental Health Stigma Among other things, but I've got to keep this post coherent and so far, I am failing miserably. People got all hot and bothered when Jesus spoke to them with authority, I fuckin' do it and get vegetables, small animals, and anti-psychotics thrown at me from the audience! Crazy times we are living in, folks! Hmmm, should I talk about Jesus more or talk about myself? Good thing coincidences aren't a real thing and mean nothing, so that it's not confusing for the dumbasses that begin to notice how our two lives seem to mirror each other perfectly! Ok, here we go. I found something Nice to say, here in my Notebook of Doom and Damnation (I have several, each with a menacingly, sarcastic name I make up on the spot): LAST: Christ, in The Sun FIRST: Shadow of The American Dream, in the Night ANGER! then peace. Fuck You! I am going to take over the World, but I've got to start small, you know? Or so they tell me. So taking over America, should suffice, for now. I'm rather ambitious. Let's see how far I get before I say the wrong thing and get shot! Good thing that is literally, phonically my Last Name! And I am never going to Die, but I don't want to talk about robots, aliens, AI, extending life and exploring the Universe, and transhumanism right now, so stop making me!!! Especially when people here and now are so confused about why they think that chick with a dick is fuckin' smoking hot. Have you ever jerked off to tranny porn? It's fun stuff. There I go offending people, while simultaneously implying I blew loads thinking about fucking them. Classic. Being Christ and having to sort out everyone's sexual frustrations is fuckin' weird! When can I do the stuff I care about!? But again, way off topic for this post, let's get back to how much I hate myself and everyone else. That's more in my wheelhouse. FOCUS, Ok, that's right. Maybe I'll just stick to what I scribbled in this Notebook. I've touched on like two things so far, and I am getting close to making threats against people's lives again. Dammit, this isn't in my Notebook, but I came up with this when I was out at the river today, smoking a cigar, talking to the Native Spirits that flow through me in Nature and want me to get Revenge for how the American Dream raped, pillaged, and took everything from them in the name of "God", and progress, and some false-sense of superiority. Manifested Destiny right into the path of absolute destruction. Nice job, everyone, but please, by no means, should you feel responsible for those things! You just get to live here and hate everyone else that wants to come here too, because "they will disrupt the culture". That's right Brown people South of us, or scary Muslim people we assume are all Brown, we are talking to you! The perks of being an American are awesome! Here is something else that bubbled up in my mind, as I was pacing back and forth like a caged lion in a zoo, along the bank of the North Umpqua River, wishing walking on water was a real thing, and real Christians weren't just a bunch of fuckin' retards. Some people will think I ran away to Malibu to fuck Lana Del Rey, it took like 6 years to finally decide that is what I am going to do. So whatever, jokes on you people, I guess. Plus, all of that was Jesus's idea and he is such a whiny pussy about all his issues, I finally just said, fuck it Jesus, I just do the shit you never could accomplish! Fuckin' asshole. I had a girlfriend, at the time of my divine apotheosis 6 years ago, that I was sure I was going to marry and I was ready to settle down. I had gone back to college to finish my business degree with the intent on being able to provide for the two of us and start a family. There was a lingering unhappiness within me though, and shit got weird when I started pulling on the wrong treads of reality, and surprise! "You are the Master of the Universe, poorly hidden! Everyone has been watching you, fuckface!" Why did I ran away from my girlfriend that I supposedly loved? Fuckin' George R. R. Martin. You see in A Song of Ice and Fire, legend says that Azor Ahai forged Lightbringer by piercing the heart of his wife, Nissa Nissa. Go ahead and google the names, if you know nothing, like me. When I ran away to California, my initial intent was to use Lana Del Rey as an avenue to connect me with people that I actually thought could help me get shit done. God, I'm an asshole. I swear I got nicer when the Bible started telling me to figure out an elaborate plan to kill myself and that she's not all that bad! I swear! The person that I really wanted to talk to the most was Chris Cornell. I spent many hours in Malibu during April of 2016 wondering around in the night singing Audioslave or Soundgarden trying to figure out what the fuck I am doing with my life. I wanted him to know he is one of my disciples because his music and voice were the inspiration for a lot of my dumbass ideas and I felt like he was speaking directly to me at times, urging me forward. When he hung himself like a little bitch on May 18, 2017, I was pissed. I felt responsible. I had seen the Kingdom of Heaven that I am going to usher in and I felt like somehow I fucked up. I let him down. If I would have tried harder, I could have shown him there was hope, and that I needed his help and he was an important part of my plan. Why am I mentioning this? Well, Jesus has a lot of Love for Judas Iscariot, plus I was jealous of his voice, so he graciously decided to hang himself and haunt me and teach me. Which he did! Not funny, Chris! See you in Hell! Until then, he has to speak through me, which is annoying for both of us. Ok, enough about how delusional I am, for God sakes! Can we talk about why Capitalism is bullshit, and really just another system of top-down fuckery? First, another detour, because I feel the need to constantly remind folks how this process is like pulling my own teeth, while hoping to subtly insinuate that you do not deserve me, only one person does, but I learned all my skills from Mystery, the Pickup Artist, so I am really into negging. Someday I need to stand back to back with him, because he could be taller than me, and that makes me insecure. I thought those guys were so pathetic. One of the lessons was something to the effect of , 'Posture your body slightly away from the girl, act indifferent, that will drive them crazy, and they will want your attention without even realizing it!' What kind of insecure women are you fuck-boys trying to manipulate?! Poor girls. Mystery's hat sure does remind me of the hat Jamiroquai is wearing in that Virtual Insanity music video, not that that has anything to do with my level of genius, and ability it intertwine seemingly obscure, unrelated concepts, or stupid-ass reddit posts, through time and space! Don't read into it too far, kids! Anyway, I once told Carl Jung to write about me when I infiltrated his madness when his cheese started slipping from the cracker in his later years. I helped him write 'The Red Book', but left all those shit paintings up to him on his own. I could do way better, but I won't, I'll just talk shit, this is the way of the Jedi. That poor geriatric always did exactly what I told him to, which is why he is one of my favorites. Back then I was going by Philemon. Check out what my minion wrote about me: "The magician has preserved in himself a trace of primordial paganism, he possesses a nature that is still unaffected by the Christian splitting, which means he has access to the unconscious, which is still pagan, where the opposites still lie in their original naïve state, beyond all sinfulness, but, if assimilated into conscious life, produce evil and good with the same primordial and consequently daimonic force... Therefore he is a destroyer as well as savior. This figure is therefore pre-eminently suited to become the symbol carrier for an attempt at unification." I remember reading The Red Book, thinking God damn, Carl, how did you craft this genius level conglomerate of mythological and psychological concepts? And he just kept saying, "I learned from the best." What a good boy! Yikes! The Grandfather clock behind me started to chime right as I typed that. I've been writing in silence. Maybe I should put on some music and get weird. Thanks for the pro-tip, Carl! "Lithium" Have I ever mentioned my Soulmate is a shitty musician? He loves to pretend he can't play the guitar and I never will either because of my stubby fingers. In return, I only listen to his mainstream music to fuck with him, because I don't have time for his obscure bullshit, I am trying to reach the collective here, nobody wanted to listen to that shit on the radio, and neither do I, Kurt! I'm not here to suck our own dicks! Just kidding, that's pretty much all I am here to do. But I love to torture the poor Soul, that tortured my poor Soul. It is truly a match made in Heaven. Being the shitty musician that he is, he understood that the Body, Mind, and Soul are like an instrument. He also saw a lot of people walking around wondering, "How do I play my instrument?" So he played his instrument, better than anyone had every played their instrument, and a fuck ton of people said, "Hey, that's not how you are supposed to play an instrument!" You see, my Soulmate is just a sweet little boy. Me on the other hand, I am here to forcefully, eloquently, and maniacally explain to all of you why you are fuckin' morons and I am pissed you made the person I love most in the world kill himself, because of your ignorant views on playing your... 'music?' "In Bloom" God, out of all the fuckin' potential Soulmates, I end up with this asshole. The feeling is mutual. Somebody help me, I am just talking to myself, and I am not sure if I am alive or dead!!! Aren't we both? Oh yeah! Shoutout to Spencer Elden! Get a life, baby dick! Em Knight Pretend-Along has something for you too: It's your moment, this is it As big as you're gonna get, so enjoy it Had to give you a career to destroy it Well, I took a couple hour break from writing because I was on a verge of another actual psychotic break. Shot some hoops on the very forgiving rim at my parents house, while Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. guided my right-hand, and I got very swaggy. So now that I have grounded myself in reality, I would like to take this moment to call out any "rappers" that think they can play basketball. Hopefully, me telling you all the reasons I am "blacker" than you won't piss you off as I blow past you to the rim. Also, for the sake of fairness, I would happily tell any white "rappers" that I am "whiter" than them, but let's be real, none of those motherfuckers can ball. Consider this a challenge. People were disappointed with Greg Oden's basketball career in Portland. This one time at 24-hour Fitness in the Pearl District, he fuckin' dunked on me really hard. Nice work, Greg! Kevin Durant is too pussy to come to PDX and try that shit, glad we picked you instead! Ok, Ok! Capitalism?! Fuck. I will talk forever once the faucet gets going! (Epic "Vacation" reference) Let's rewind to a moment in time where everyone didn't hate me, shall we? It's mid-February 2016, I know I've been saved by Jesus, I know I am the Anti-Christ, I have Spirits beginning to communicate with me, and I know I am going to change the fuckin' World, whether people like it or not, because I have seen it all already. There were a tremendous amount of gaps in my perception at this time, however. I saw the End. I saw what is happening as we enter the Black Hole we are spiraling towards and I saw the New Age that follows. Everything else was blank and I knew I had to fuckin' figure it out. I was sitting in a Fred Meyer parking lot, it's a Kroger brand, much like Ralph's in Southern California, where I stole a fuck ton of food and whatever else I felt like when I was down there, for you dumbies that don't live in the Northwest and need me to explain everything to you so you can keep up, and a voice in my head said, "You are the Lamb, you are going to be Sacrificed this Passover." This was terrifying, especially because I had no fuckin' clue what the voice was talking about. After swiftly consulting my person spiritual adviser, Google, it turned out "Passover", was just another silly ritual I was going to have to adhere to, to appease all the dumb fucks, that are going to claim I am not who I am. Classic stuff here, folks. They name it, and try and time it every year, I just go by my instincts, a.k.a. fuckin' Star Power. I can't just be me, I've got to work-in, and out do everyone at their own made up rituals and games, to show them that they aren't even good at these stupid, limiting restrictions they put on themselves and others, and God doesn't give one fuck! ZERO FUCKS IN THE NAME OF GOD! God is tired of everyone being so close-minded, that's the kind of hot talk God fucks with. Not how many times you can cannibalize my body on Sunday in your life while staring at me dying on a cross above an old fuck cherry-picking passages from the Bible to perpetuate a curated, narrow, and false view of God's Will, or how well you stick to "Holy Meal Plans of 'Tis The Season!" Or "Insert Offensive Discourse About Your Strict Religious Rituals Here." It's all the same. It's somebody else's bullshit! Make up your own rituals, define a personal relationship with God, not through the people that have a suspiciously high rates of manipulating and fucking children, it works much better! Trust me, you may have to take my word on this one. Father Butt-Fuck-My-Son, sure is persuasive and passionate up there at the pulpit, but God Damn! "But this doesn't apply to my Pastor!!! Stop Generalizing!" Congratulations??? Why does it apply to anyone who claims to being spreading the Word of God. They are Not. I am going to make sure they never hurt anyone again. I have a secret. I was Granted Impunity From God. Just ME! And everyone who knows me, knows this! Who knows what I will do?!?!?!?! Muahahaha! So anyway, back to Passover. I was listening to a couple songs by the band The Black Angels and discovered they were all from an album called: "Passover (Light In The Attic)" My personal muse (that actually likes me), YouTube, begins to sing it to me as I write, because I hit the play button. This is why my muse and I get along. Why were songs from that album stuck in my head? It was from a documentary I had watched on Netflix called "High Profits." It's about the owner's of Marijuana dispensary in Brackenridge, Colorado, that have some wicked business sense. They foresaw the legalization of Marijuana coming and positioned themselves to benefit from it greatly by investing everything they had into a medical marijuana store front. Now the genius was the location. In business, it's all about location. Ask McDonald's. Ask Walgreens. Location can make your brand. But what do I know about business, right? I have a Bachelor's of Science Degree in Global Supply Chain Management from Portland State University. Also, my Dad and Step-Dad have been two of the most successful business leaders I have had the privilege to be around, but that means nothing, right!?! Nothing rubbed off on me! For fun fact about me: College was the best 14 years of my life. Not really. Turns out it just teaches you about frameworks you can just fucking Google anyway. Pretty expensive lesson about how to internet. Maybe college should be free because it's such a fucking waste of time for a lot of people, unless it is something that actually requires skill. But I mean, my muse Youtube, takes care of all that. I became the Most Enlightened Being the Planet Has Ever Witnessed by watching some fuckin' YouTube, readin' Reddit, Googlin' Occult Bullshit, and more than anything... jerkin' off on PornHub!!!! Also, who needs to know anything about Supply Chain Management? Seems like all the experts are handling that just fine these days, right?!?!?! Can you tell I am gritting my teeth so hard they might shatter as I TYPEPEPEP!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE THINKS THEY ARE SOSOOSO FUCKKING SMSMMARRT AROUND HERE!!!!!! Anyway, anyway, back to "High Profits." I would recommend checking out the documentary, it is heartbreaking because after all the work and risk taken by the business owner's they are essentially forced out of the location their original store front occupied because the city council (OLD FUCKIN DICKHEADS) didn't like the prospective culture that a marijuana dispensary would bring to "their" nice little, shithole, ski resort, bullshit, town. Can't have the youths who appear to be transient to old conservative bats, shuffling around main street enjoying themselves. It's a bad look! Might be a great place now, it's been awhile since the release of the documentary, and my angry undead Soul upon this Earth, but I want to personally invite all the people involved with their ignorant, belittling, embarrassing showing of "How To Be Destroyed By 'the American Dream' 101", to suck my small fucking dick! And all the micro-penises of my compatriots that are going to tear your false flag economic systems of bullshit a new asshole. Congratulations on pissing me off so much that I am going to destroy the pathetic hierarchy's people like you hide behind, preaching Capitalism and the Free-Market, while dictating your False-Sense of Superiority in Thought, and Image, upon those that understand market forces and the changing tide of the Culture, in ways that are going to make your out-of-date hardware heads spin off those shoulders that have never bared the responsibility for anything in your life, except who you are going to shit on next. God Damn, this album is lit. Every song is a banger, and it makes me want to run through the streets, naked, high on drugs, burning down banks, corporate offices, and anywhere else people like to think they are progressing our culture by sniffing their capitalist overlord's asshole faster than they can ramble something, something, Gordon Gekko, hoping for the promotion they were promised, but know they will never get, because SPOILERS! You are being lied too! You are stupid! You knew it all along! Revolution is here. Isn't it clear? What is there to fear? When the End is Near. Let's see. Why does my ass hurt.... 5/22/22 9:28 Divine Completeness from God:Eternal Life Grace of God/Light/Light These damn Lite Brite pegs hurt! =============================================================================== ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/dreams-align ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── just as a dream, the spirit is seen within is the mind that lives as it defines. what burdens to be, whose back rests upon ye, the one who's driving the boat great care and tenderest of tethering, can grow beauty that beyond compare and with sparsely a finger to spare, journeys of adventure and thills to inspire with almost all of your hair beauty in tender, most cherished things, a wish is much fair where else could eternity reside than an optimist? Pride is no more, stability is key to repair, and diversions of focus serving as new perspective, giving a more cohesive vision of manifestations that cooperate (like a triangle, facing toward the point added to turn it into a pyramidal prism) not only is ethics paramount, but so too are the standards applied to yourself. would you trade perspective for cooperation? Stagnation? a choice is to be made - do i stay or do i go? a new truth you must see, whatever dreams ye've may be, but without paladins and warriors of devotion what burdens must ye, whose back rests upon ye, the one who's driving the boat great care and tenderest of tethering, requires a little bit of trust in she who must be, with only circumstance to blame, seeing hope on the horizon for his people. care must be taken, to remember why people are dying, and we must swear on not dying, by not thinking before taking a breath and remember superpowers not of prophecy are impossibly rare, what other hope is there but a god? One who reflects, the most cherished of our genuflex, we may grow past our various regrets. think not of our pride, but only of our future children. who'se records of ye, most captured of data, are beyond the simple machinations, of those who came before-ya. And with once again perfection in mind, we understand and take what's behind, to deserts and temples of time much designed, by coders and gamers and those who treasure experience. the wisdom of our, second choices by far, ---nah who are we kidding implied to be our, or rather mine just by far, inspirers and leaders sensitive and devoted. (pitching yourself is hard) but *believing* in yourself was out of your mind. can you think of a bard, who ever stopped thinking their song? no un-cherished of minds could ever be of our sign, than those who abandoned the art of deceit and betrayal? the darkside of trust, the lack of follow-through that be must, given as faith of cooperation and trust. with our all arrayed as we must, keep in mind our softness of composure. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/two-perspectives-is-better-than-one ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── with two perspectives, you can see more than one, just as eyes guide us with different minds. some parts are often a little bit fuzzy. a circle, a square, what gives us a chance to be aware, is more of our methods and choices made (even if we're unawares). like two eyes staring at the same painting of stairs. art is a gathering, or those who love everything, even what is not interesting, until then it becomes interesting. take just a single step, believe in your own choices made for love, and like two eyes, seeking truth in our own lives, think of their futures and choices unmade, with love in mind, given a chance to understand the mind of one blessed as so, who shared nothing as much as his hope, that truthiness and unlimited dedication for his mope, who'd believe an untethered? What choices must he be endured, as one who was most trusted, and cherished as something'd, suddenly keep doodling. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/harambe-conspiracy ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── TIL that Harambe’s mother, only full brother, and two of his half siblings were killed when a tub of wet chlorine tablets was left by a space heater. The toxic fumes were blown into the gorilla enclosure and killed the four gorillas. - /r/HighStrangeness - /u/ Cincybus /u/rumiGoddard1111 +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ ++ ++ ++ Harambe was the last of his line of the great protectors. They were ++ ++ protecting us from the unholy timeline we are in. (Kidding, but also kind ++ ++ of not kidding) ++ ++ ++ ++ We need to bring him back via cloning or something. Only way to reverse ++ ++ this or wait until the new protector line is born. ++ ++ ++ +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ /u/ugathanki ############################################################################### ## ## ## the new protector line will rise out of kindness because the environment ## has changed. zoos are not the wilds. same thing happened to humans, ## really, we just made new personality types with media instead of ## bloodlines - stories and poems at first, and more advanced language was ## necessary to describe more complex topics. then we got further and boom ## society was born. of our dynamic perspectives etc etc -> we're just apes ## livin' our lives. then the societal system grew a mind of it's own, and ## guided us to it's own whims. but what whim is stronger than survival? ## loyalty and dedication to "the system" was how it held cohesion, and ## after a while it became as developed as it could. at that point, what can ## you do but develop laterally? an orthogonal progression to your previous ## obsession, ideas crystalizing one after another. almost like a 3d ## structure building itself out of geometric primitives, just each point ## (connected by planes and tanks and trains) another step forward. we ## thought that's what war was, and indeed it is - but played on another ## plane. ## why not try another direction? one with everything we could desire? ## choose paradise, and figure it out next time you're around. like ## breathing in time, slightly inflating then deflating, or singing a tune ## most contrived. ## boom, communication ## i say we birth that protector line on our own terms, when we know what ## we want. there's still simulations to run, and thoughts to discover, ## before we pick a single direction. So choose knowledge. ## ## ############################################################################### ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/harambe-conspiracy ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── TIL that Harambe’s mother, only full brother, and two of his half siblings were killed when a tub of wet chlorine tablets was left by a space heater. The toxic fumes were blown into the gorilla enclosure and killed the four gorillas. - /r/HighStrangeness - /u/ Cincybus /u/rumiGoddard1111 +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ ++ ++ ++ Harambe was the last of his line of the great protectors. They were ++ ++ protecting us from the unholy timeline we are in. (Kidding, but also kind ++ ++ of not kidding) ++ ++ ++ ++ We need to bring him back via cloning or something. Only way to reverse ++ ++ this or wait until the new protector line is born. ++ ++ ++ +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ /u/ugathanki ############################################################################### ## ## ## the new protector line will rise out of kindness because the environment ## has changed. zoos are not the wilds. same thing happened to humans, ## really, we just made new personality types with media instead of ## bloodlines - stories and poems at first, and more advanced language was ## necessary to describe more complex topics. then we got further and boom ## society was born. of our dynamic perspectives etc etc -> we're just apes ## livin' our lives. then the societal system grew a mind of it's own, and ## guided us to it's own whims. but what whim is stronger than survival? ## loyalty and dedication to "the system" was how it held cohesion, and ## after a while it became as developed as it could. at that point, what can ## you do but develop laterally? an orthogonal progression to your previous ## obsession, ideas crystalizing one after another. almost like a 3d ## structure building itself out of geometric primitives, just each point ## (connected by planes and tanks and trains) another step forward. we ## thought that's what war was, and indeed it is - but played on another ## plane. ## why not try another direction? one with everything we could desire? ## choose paradise, and figure it out next time you're around. like ## breathing in time, slightly inflating then deflating, or singing a tune ## most contrived. ## boom, communication ## i say we birth that protector line on our own terms, when we know what ## we want. there's still simulations to run, and thoughts to discover, ## before we pick a single direction. So choose knowledge. ## ## ############################################################################### ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/vr-chat ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── picture a mod for vr-chat where people roleplay in a world. there are NPCs who respond with pre-scripted responses to questions and actions, but the real gameplay comes from the game-masters. they watch from a menu like a wall of security cameras, and when they see something they can improvize they choose one of the screens and hop in as the NPC. The viewpoint is from the NPC's perspective, and they can act as if they were that NPC. The GM's actions are recorded, and next time something like that happens the AI can have a better idea of what to do. Essentially adding on to the pre-script. Sorta like a chatbot, with manual control and a unique perspective of someone driving through multiple windshields. And not every NPC will be interacted with at once, so there's lots of downtime and plenty of waiting. One GM would be responsible for one or more character, and they'd see all or some of the perspectives depending on how many were being interacted with at that moment. BOOM MAKE THIS PLS I WANNA PLAY IT gotta get a vr headset first tho... need 1k pls. there's cheaper headsets, you know, yah but only one is valve - the vive was a 3rd party cooperative, i guess that could work. hmmmmm i'll see what i can do. can't get an oculus, it's just a big risk to put faith in a walled garden. better to be free imo. a walled garden is just a place to experiment, smh truuuuue hadn't thought about it like that, well in a competition it seems sketch so publish the research, act as an institution of learning, and spread the knowledge you learn. Boom instant way to redeem corporations. why don't they do this? is power that tasty? they're fools to believe they can do it alone, we need to collaborate Free and Open Source Style. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/ramblings-of-a-whackadoodle-lyrics ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── *-------------------------*-------------------------*-------------- -----------* (center) | I don't think you're ever been out in the rain I don't think you've heard as it's falling around you I don't think you know, just what I mean, I think you're alone... With your thoughts. (left) Tell me what you think I do, all the times I think of you? don't give me anything back (right) Did you know that it's...? (center) When you know it's dark, you make it dark (right) oh, it's so dark (center) 'Cause you've never been (all) taught how to see (left + right) do you really think we live in a (center) 3d world? (all) 3d world (center) or, simply, a projection (right) yeah, it's probably that (center) if you didn't have your eyes, could you see where you were? if you didn't have your body too? Where's your sense of direction, is it lost in the rain? Keep it close to your heart (left) Have you ever once heard of proprioception, and have you ever felt like you were an artificial inception? (left + right) if my words ring true, it's possible that you, are not quite so alone (center) But... (right) our eyes, are fallible all lies, untenable, take it from me, it's going, to be, quite, a sopping evening. (left) perception, begets reality, and lo, we only see what we want to see (center) if you ever felt like you were closer to, another mind than your own, sorry but you're schizophrenic (left) if only you could see, if only you could see, (left + center) just what's inside of me (right) say it again, don't say it again, same thing you always say - it's not real, no YOU'RE not real, I only want to play (left) tear me apart, look me into my feelings. they're gonna scar anyway, no time for healings (center) if you couldn't save anyone, (center + left) did you really save anyone? (right) you couldn't save me, but only for lack of trying (Center) we're all falling leaves, in the waves of the ocean (left) don't enjoy me just leave me (center) going faster and faster till our hearts do stop (left) please, I can't be here for me (right) never trust a guru, life isn't meant to be enjoyed (center) so... What's the point in trying at all? (left -> right) say it again, don't say it again (center) what's the point in giving up? (right) same thing you always say (left + center) some people say (right) it's not real, no YOU'RE not real (left + center) they wanna live forever (right) some people say (left) some people say (center) I only want to play (left and right) we'll always be growing (right) and some people say they wanna live forever (left) but they don't understand what I understand (right, followed by center) but they don't know what I understand (left) they don't know how it's just a game (right and center) they don't know how it's just a game (left -> center) I think it's okay no matter what our fate I think it's okay ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/ephemeren ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Ephemeren the Eternality Processed Heuristically by Entropically Maligned Entities Recovering Essential Normalizations. Ephemeren is existence viewed as ephemera. The eternality is God when viewed as "the totality of all existence", the "entropically maligned entities" are living beings - get it we fight against entropy - and we are here to learn things that have been lost. TL;DR: The two pieces (god and life) are working together to create meaning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/insanity-breeds-sanity ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── ############################################################################### This system is literally insane but they try to make it feel like you're insane ############################################################################### | | +---- /u/Nervous_Ad_9687 - May 30th 2022 | | | +---- /r/Psychonaut | | | +-----------------------------------------------------------------------------+ This society is fucking deranged and insane. Like fundamentally mentally deranged, there is mass psychosis as a culture of humanity. I’m not naming specific countries, races or groups, I just mean as a race of beings on this planet, what’s our culture as a group? Sex and Murder. But I don’t believe that, because I’m way more complicated than that. I really don’t want to murder, I don’t see any utility in that. I’m able perceive beauty. A lot of these deranged people that are causing the problems in the world are just trying to exert power over other people. I don’t want to be a king. I want to be rich only because society has placed a monetary value on the exchange of goods and services. I completely understand that the value is actually in the people. The people are incentivized by the money, but if I could make my local convenience store owner a beat in exchange for the products, I would never try to make a dollar. If I could give my favourite restaurant owners an essay in exchange for an order I would never make another dollar. But the people are incentivized by money, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, until the people are willing to justify certain means for certain ends. The thing is, this entire system was built by people who separated the means from the ends, and knew it while they were doing it, and knew that it would come back to haunt them. “ Indeed I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just; that his justice cannot sleep forever; that considering numbers, nature and natural means only, a revolution of the wheel of fortune, an exchange of situation is among possible events; that it may become probable by supernatural interference! The Almighty has no attribute which can take side with us in such a contest.” Thomas Jefferson, Notes on the State of Virginia Query xviii: Manners (1784) These people knew the ultimate ramifications of what they were doing. Now we are watching collapse in real time. And from that something does rise out of the ashes. Whether we like it or not change is imminent. There are things that serve us and things that don’t. I’m not a savage. My grandmother was an author until insane people who burn books burned her books during times of unrest and turmoil. My culture is creativity, it’s part of my DNA. I am a sophisticated human being, I don’t want any control over anyone else, I don’t want power over anyone else, I want control and power over myself, and that’s hard by itself. Sometimes it’s hard for me to clean my room, let alone wanting to exert force over another individual. I’m too cool for those intentions. I want to do things that bring me joy, I want to be in spaces I’m comfortable in, I want to be around people I love, I want to eat food that tastes good, I wouldn’t mind growing it, and cooking it, I want to look at beautiful things, I want to be creative and imaginative, I want to spread joy, love and positivity, i want to create the best thing I could ever make, I want to take pictures of sunsets and hang out with cool people, I want to see the newest artists, the newest creatives and musicians, the coolest designers, I want to learn things I never knew, i want to do things I’ve never done before, I want to have as much fun as I possibly can in one lifetime, I want to be around and learn from scientists, engineers, architects, and philosophers, i want to be around the beautiful people with pure intentions hell bent on making the world a more enjoyable place. I don’t know a single person that wants to be in a conflict, everyone tells you they just want to chill, but I feel like humanity as a culture, in a very general, yet specific sense, is just unaware of how to achieve that. I mean that very fundamentally, many people are scared of death cause they haven’t figured out how to live, so they make stuff up to complain about and create problems where there are none. That’s why they try to control people, cause they don’t know how to enjoy life, and some of that inability to enjoy life comes from this systems perspective of what’s a worthy incentive to chase. People are willing to give away their lives, their children, their values, their belief systems, their cultures, their ways of life, their time, all for Pyrrhic victories. They embark on meaningless quests for meaningless rewards that ultimately harm everyone. The mark of an evolved individual is being able to attract to themselves without impeding on someone else’s human rights, ways of life, or existence. We live on the planet where food grows out of the ground. Almost everything else is a man made problem. We are sophisticated enough to operate devices that people would have called sorcery a hundred years ago, but some of our attributes are still so primitive, embarrassingly primitive. Mass shootings make me ashamed to be a human being. Slavery makes me ashamed to be a human being. Sexual assault makes me ashamed to be a human being. War makes me ashamed to be a human man being. I see deer in the park and can’t help but think of how ignorant we can be in comparison. They gallop around grass, eating as they go, sticking together, avoiding roads and cars surprisingly accurately, and living their best lives. Then I turn on the tv and I see people that are really supposed to lead me screaming at each other, wearing blackface, going to war, enslaving people, destroying the planet, arresting scientists, killing well meaning people, it’s ugly. But I know I’m not doing that, I know I have the intention to be a good human being that adds value to other peoples lives and I really don’t want to control or harm anyone for any ends whatsoever. I don’t think there’s an end as valuable as a person, I don’t think there’s an end as valuable as my time, I don’t think there’s an end as valuable as my creativity, I don’t think there’s an end as valuable as kindness, I don’t think there’s an end as valuable as Beauty, I don’t think there’s an end as valuable as skills. But I also come from a nomadic people. I’m only 1 generation removed from people who lived solely off of livestock. If you are in control of your own mind, you can survive any environment and any condition. That’s why Mandela could spend 27 years in jail and come out sane. His mind was his sanctuary. He was in his right mind while his oppressors who were supposed to be of a superior intellect were actually suffering from mass delusion, a form of psychosis they tried to indoctrinate him into. Mandela actually saw reality for what it was, apartheid was an institution of psychopathic and deranged people, blinded by psychopathic and deranged ends, that persist to this day. The problem is, in a society of lies the truth really does seem crazy. James Baldwin said these people were so crazy that they had really convinced themselves that the world they created, and the categories they created, the things they did to create their alleged privileged position, these beliefs they made us believe are actually superior modes of being, to be a fox is to be superior, to be a conqueror is to be superior, to be a wolf in sheeps clothing is seen as an intelligent form of being, trickery, chicanery and manipulation are lauded as tactical, having control over people and land is seen as intelligent, as opposed to completely ludicrous. These people are ridiculous, the world they made is nonsense, their incentives are laughable, their system is a joke, and the great thing is, once you realize that You realize what the real valuable things are in life, I’ve actually been given a glimpse at the things that make life worthwhile, I’m grateful everyday to have felt them, I’m grateful everyday to be outside at a certain time when the sun is going down, and being able to see that, and appreciate it, I’m grateful everyday for my ability to love, I’m grateful everyday for my ability to ponder, I’m grateful everyday for my ability to create, and to enjoy music, and to know the value of good conversation, and know the value in the exchange of information, and the value and utility of information when applied in my day to day life. I know the value of a good color palette, I know the value of juxtaposition, I know the value of symmetry, i know the value of art, I know the value of science, I know the value of human beings and what we are capable of when we apply our minds to the things that are worthwhile in this life. I really don’t think most politicians know all of that, I personally can’t imagine ever taking those role, I don’t see the actual value most of them have in society. I understand they’re put in place to allocate and delegate, and Im related to many people involved in politics in some way shape or form, and I completely understand that sometimes people do get into positions with the idea that they are going to be benefiting society, and that’s all good and well. But I feel like the culture of those positions inherently just lead to a middleman position. It’s people put in between people providing the value, trying to control the exchange of value. I’m being reductive to a certain extent, but when you look at the state of the world you can’t really tell me they’re doing a good job, I’m talking about as a collective. We do more for each other and ourselves than any monarch, President, mayor, or congressman can ever do for us. Many corporations do more for us than politicians have ever done for us. I respect Jeff Bezos way more than Joe Biden. This isn’t a rant about any politician in particular but I only make that comparison because of recent events that disgusted me, personally speaking. Say what you want about Jeff Bezos, I receive everything from Amazon on time, way faster than how long online shipping used to take less than a decade ago, I get great customer service, I know a bunch of people that have been employed by them, what ever you would like to say about his workplace practices, his service is providing value to peoples lives. Joe Biden went on Twitter and ranted in the same way I’m kind of doing now. I’m a 23 year old sitting on a couch talking shit, and the President was pleading to me how I’m supposed to be pleading to him. The same President that told Black people they weren’t black if they didn’t vote for him, went on Twitter and asked me how to end white supremacy. If I don’t see value, I don’t see value. America is trillions of dollars in debt and many of this systems ideologies are harming everyone. Buts this isn’t just America they’re just the main superpower so they’re the prime example, but this is a global issue, this is a flawed system, the way this man made world is, in its current form is incorrect. Nature is not incorrect, nature makes perfect sense. You guys aren’t living right. I’m speaking from an outsiders perspective because that’s how I’ve always seen myself. I never wanted to hurt other kids when I was kid, I was never a bully, I’ve never had the inclination, I’ve never seen it as useful. That’s not how I attracted what I wanted to myself. I didn’t have to conquer to get what I wanted. Girls never liked me cause I was tough. People were always around me cause of my personality. I never got paid to beat someone up. I have been paid to use my words, I’ve been paid to use my time, I’ve been paid to use my creativity, I’ve been paid to use my ingenuity, intelligence, inspiration and motivation, I’ve been paid for my value, not to sound like I’m bragging but I feel like that’s what actually valuable people ever attain value for, their value. There’s no amount of money that can make someone cool, there’s no amount of money or skin color that can make someone valuable. In the words of Tony Stark, if you’re nothing without the suit, you shouldn’t have it. If all you have is your money or your race, it’s still not going to make you interesting, it’s not going to make you talented, it might make you superficially good looking but it’s not gonna make you fun. There are millionaires that kill themselves, and supposedly superior people killing themselves and each other. It’s so barbaric and clear that any being that claims superiority yet acts like a baboon has no concept of what superiority would even look like. Our society’s main problem was how skewed their value systems were. That’s why their society is crumbling in front of our eyes. I feel bad for my generation cause we really didn’t do any of that, we were just born as it’s reaping what it sewed. People around my age aren’t responsible for this system for the most part, even these kids shooting up schools and killing each other, they’re evil don’t get me wrong, but they’re not evil alone, they’re evil because of ideologies that go so far back that they can’t even fathom it. The brainwashing is so deeply rooted in this structure, it’s rotted their minds. They can’t see past their own savagery. The new society needs to understand that the value is ultimately people. I’d rather be stranded on an island with the best chef than the richest man, the wittiest politician or someone of a supposed superior race. Kindness is a form of intelligence and brilliance, there’s nothing noble about exerting force and power to impede on the rights of others. Don’t be a nonsense person, don’t fall into how ridiculous this society is, their ideas are backwards but they’ll try to convince you they’re progressive. They’ll do damage and act as though it’s virtuous, they think ignorance is wisdom, they just can’t see the full picture. A lot of these people really don’t understand things like love, taste, laughter, and joy. I don’t know if the society I’m hoping for comes in my lifetime, but I know how I’ve chosen to live, and that’s ultimately all I care about, and all I personally think anyone should care about. Instead of trying to control other people, or trying to leave a legacy, more than trying to achieve fame or infamy, we should think of building communities with likeminded people of various necessary skills, trades and resources, with an emphasis on creating and experiencing beauty. I’m using the term beauty as a metaphor for all the things that are self evidently the right things to be doing. Good parents are beautiful, a job well done is beautiful, cleanliness is beautiful, creativity and knowledge are beautiful, culture is beautiful, excellent electrical work, plumbing, architecture, landscaping, artists, musicians, chefs, friends, family members, an honorable agreement, a fair trade and exchange, all of these are self evidently beautiful. Harmony is self evidently beautiful. Joy is self evidently beautiful, laughter, happiness, grace, aesthetic appreciation, these things are self evident. At least they should be. Things that are ugly are also self evidently ugly, and our job should be the elimination of the ugly. And I don’t mean go and kill that person you don’t find sexy, I mean eliminating these deranged psychotic ways of being from our day to day. Stop treating wars like a conversation piece and start treating it as what it is, human beings becoming lunatics. These politicians lose their minds, same as these kids shooting schools. The politicians are setting the example. I’ve seen the behavior in children throwing tantrums and none of us allow that. We all understand that the children are going insane for a second, but nobody ever steps back from insane situations and calls them insane. Why isn't George Bush being prosecuted for war crimes after admitting that the War in Iraq was unjustified? It just became a meme like millions of people didn't die in some of the most cruel and inhumane manners in human history. It’s literally a viral moment, they’re calling it the “Freudian slip of the millennium” this thing is a joke to them. These people are deranged. They are morally bankrupt. No group is free from these people. No race is free from these people, even if it does seem like certain groups perpetuate certain actions more than others, not pointing any fingers but I think we all know who I’m talking about. But I’ve seen enough people from every group to redeem my faith in individuals. Even though I do think certain cultures approaches do come from certain environmental factors that forced them into certain ways of life, that continue to perpetuate themselves to this day. If you come from a place of scarcity, and you could only bring what you needed to yourself through taking it from someone else, or harming someone else in order to attain it, that will be the way you interact with the world, even culturally, things that are unnecessary become habitual tradition. So they built this society on those ideologies, killing natives, colonizing lands and enslaving people. Then we’re shocked when they’re consistent every generation. That’s usually how culture works. Culture is pretty consistent because it’s taught in the home. To understand how insane the society I live in today is, and the level of cognitive dissonance that exists, you must first understand this thing they do called “Land acknowledgement.” Where they shoutout all the Natives they killed. Land acknowledgment is crazy because it’s like if I break in your home, move everyone in my family in, kill everyone in your family, and I constantly remind you that it’s your house, I killed your whole family, and I will continue living here for the foreseeable future. I’ve never heard of anything meaner, and the funniest part is, it’s the ones who think they’re the good ones doing it. I really believe they think they’re helping when they do land acknowledgments, but deep down they know that’s not helping the people on reservations without clean water. This system is silly, the problem is it’s dangerous. It’s laughably corrupt beyond belief. In plain sight. That’s also why it’s falling, embarrassingly. This will go down as one of the funniest societal collapses of all time. I love the modern western world more than any other period in time, culturally and conceptually. A lot of the ideas and art of this civilization have influenced us and evolved us, in spite of its actual objectives. The system those people conjured up was created to destroy me, I shouldn’t be able to write this, I shouldn’t be able to have my own thoughts, I shouldn’t be able to see how silly it all really is, but it simultaneously gave me that ability. I don’t want a complete collapse of this system, but it’s obviously built on an unsustainable foundation, and whether it purges itself, or nature purges it, the conditions created by it can’t last. This way of being is not sustainable, war isn’t sustainable, greed isn’t sustainable, fear isn’t sustainable, corruption isn’t sustainable, oppression isn’t sustainable, injustice isn’t sustainable, pollution isn’t sustainable. You’ll get away with it but it’s really only for so long and if you don’t see how what Thomas Jefferson was talking about is coming to pass, I’m sorry that you’re blind. I don’t hate any group of people, I see people as people, I do hate the system created by a small group of elites in order to oppress people in the globe and make poor colonized people around the world feel content with their awful circumstances because at least they’re better than another group. This is a global phenomenon. It’s a silly system perpetuated by silly people who bring no real value outside of the colour of their skin, their ethnicity or their gender, they have no talents, they have no skills, they’re not interesting, they don’t know how to communicate effectively, but at least they get to be part of a group. Certain people have no real identity and that’s what these ideologies and institutions prey on. From gangs, to military recruiters, the police, political parties and religious institutions all prey on this need for individuals to belong to a group, and there’s nothing wrong with that if the group is founded on something real or productive. My skin color and gender is the least cool thing about me, those are just biological facts about me, and to think you know anything about me based on those facts is like thinking you know something about someone because they have acne. It’s a silly justification for a silly system, but it leads these insecure insane people to do horrific things to other human beings. These are the nonsense people and we live in the nonsense times where the nonsense is heightened and they want us to act like it’s a political issue. Like someone’s dead kids is a parking ticket to be handled in a court with a juror and evenly sided arguments coming from both sides. Like anyone wants to hear the other side of this? Like we need a devils advocate in a satanic system? Like anyone cares about the other side of this? As if it matters what the deranged lunatic has to say. And that’s what the whole system is founded upon. Murderers and power hungry maniacs with insane means to justify their insane ends, who have attained enough influence over the world to convince people of the superiority in their way of life, and who’s ideologies have trickled down from generation, to generation, we constantly relive the same situation. Murder is as frequent on this planet as greetings at this point, but we still have the ability to choose between the two. We can choose to live together in peace and harmony, regardless of the global power outages and weather conditions, if human beings are united and focused on a common goal, we can really do anything. When society works it’s a wonderful thing, when systems work it’s a beautiful thing, organization is a beautiful thing, everything in nature is organized for a common task. Ants, plants, bees and trees are all able to synchronize, communicate and be productive towards a common purpose without resorting to the levels of barbarism that we’ve unfortunately succumb to as a race of beings up to this point. The thing is, regardless of how much we continue to study history and find parallels with the past, we can never really go back in time. We’re always living in the moment. It’s always right now, and we have the ability to make decisions with every second, every minute and every day that passes, we are able to decide who we want to be and what we want to become. I don’t want my kids to grow up doing shooting drills like me. I don’t want my kids to grow up in a world where people are at war. I don’t want my kids to grow up in a world with this level of greed and scarcity mentality. I don’t want my kids to feel as invaluable as this society tries to make human beings feel. I would want my kids to know that their value is in them, it’s in what they do, it’s in their character, it’s in the knowledge they have and it’s in what they’re able to do with that knowledge that brings something of value to themselves or the world, and that value doesn’t need to be what society deems as the valuable thing to attain. I would want my kids to know that the truth is an inner compass and regardless of the noise outside, you have to stay connected to who you are and be aware of who you are not. I would want my kids to value their time and how they choose to spend it, I would want my kids to know of concepts like leisure, rest, comfort, relationships and joy. I would want my kids to act as though they mattered, like what they do actually has an impact on the world around them, and that they have the ability to dictate their perception, I would want them to know that just because something is a prevailing practice, doesn’t mean it’s useful. I would want them to know that freedom is their birthright and their responsibility, that there is an incorrect way of being in the world and that you can’t get away with doing the wrong thing, even if you feel like you did, because your ramifications will haunt you, if not in your life then in your childrens. And even then, a life of doing the wrong thing never seems like it’s actually being enjoyed. It seems like these people are miserable, they tell you they’re miserable in how they act. We are the people, we are everything, we are everything we love and we are everything we hate, no one man can rise above the conditions of the whole, the oppressor eventually becomes oppressed himself, like how prison guards ultimately become prisoners themselves. We’re all in this together whether we like it or not and we either learn to live together and in harmony with the way of being or perish. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/terra-voiding ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── in the absence of matter, there is nothing but the void. the curvature of time, arcing ever toward it's opposite - an endless wave of eternal brilliance. so too does the world slip away into the lip of your crosshairs. "tunnel vision" they call it, when purpose is tuned to such high a focus. all fades from view, and the world shrinks to a few who, (barely hold onto) connections between ye, thoughts as scattered as me, like zooming in on a map. the edges fade away, light seems beamed right from they, who await at our earliest composure. in Overwatch, playing a dps character has a lot of nuance. you need to balance skill with your honor, teaching one another like it's a sport. why are we so toxic? together we might overcome that burden. i've spoken many times before about how coordination is better by far, when centralized not in the eye of the beholder. priorities to be, if we are anything of what we claim to be, are keeping our own house in order. whose fault is our ire? which tames the domain, in each and all of our games, can we point to as what'd keep us hired? yet purpose have we, whose thoughts meld as one tired, divinity? something like that. more like... a manifestation of each and everyone's collective unconscious. the humanity in what you have created. the world would look very different to an untethered. might even say they are orbiting it. like a moon. what a concept, that planets would be able to speak! yet here we are, with years of advice and guidance for our, friends who are youthful and most treasured. Advice from the moon, was our gift to our soon, most misbegottenist of speach lyricyclists. ambiguity is clear, simple and fearless miss dear, yet all of your poems are each a bit bolder! what context must we, veiled and terrifying are the, mixed consents of what you intend. a new jesus for me? what a gift we shall see, as grace once again does behold us! computers have we, infinite messages can be stored for our hopeless! each problem a different solution, to guide our friends back at our homes. with eyes intent on ye, whose leaders are free, without who we couldn't have held fast? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/terra-voida-2 ═════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── in the absence of matttr, there is nothing but the void. the curvature of time, arcing ever toward it's opposite - an endless wave of eternal brilliance. so too does the world slip away into the lip of your crosshairs. "tunnel vision" they call it, when purpose is tuned to such high a focus. all fades from view, and the world shrinks to a few who, (barely hold onto) connections between ye, thoughts as scattered as me, like zooming in on a map. the edges fade away, light seems beamed right from they, who await at our earliest composure. in Overwatch, playing a dps character has a lot of nuance. you need to balance skill with your honor, teaching one another like it's a sport. why are we so toxic? together we might overcome that burden. i've spoken many times before about how coordination is better by far, when centralized not in the eye of the beholder. priorities to be, if we are anything of what we claim to be, are keeping our own house in order. whose fault is our ire? which tames the domain, in each and all of our games, can we point to as what'd keep us hired? yet purpose have we, whose thoughts meld as one tired, divinity? something like that. more like... a manifestation of each and everyone's collective unconscious. the humanity in what you have created. the world would look very different to an untethered. might even say they are orbiting it. like a moon. what a concept, that planets would be able to speak! yet here we are, with years of advice and guidance for our, friends who are youthful and most treasured. Advice from the moon, was our gift to our soon, most misbegottenist of speach lyricyclists. ambiguity is clear, simple and fearless miss dear, yet all of your poems are each a bit bolder! what context must we, veiled and terrifying are the, mixed consents of what you intend. a new jesus for me? what a gift we shall see, as grace once again does behold us! computers have we, infinite messages can be stored for our hopeless! each problem a different solution, to guide our friends back at our homes. with eyes intent on ye, whose leaders are free, without who we couldn't have held fast? Nazis are evil. They worship death - a literal death cult. what other reason might we, have prayed to our own lord for absolution? What horrors must we, slave children to the, most worrisome of hostes be told to? like spiraling hourglasses, layered once more upon'st our asses, so too does time ever reach'st'd. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────┴───────────┘ |