=== ANCHOR POEM === ◀─╔══════════════════════════════[BOOST]═══════════════════════════════──────────╗ ║ ┌────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ║ │ @user-1865 She didn't deserve a lot of cruelty she received. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ She was a wonderful person, who just couldn't stop talking, never sat still, yelled sometimes and was scared of everything but tried anyway. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ Needed several medications just to sleep or she'd go crazy. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ I am exactly like her, I just found out what was really going on with my body and brain. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ She never got that chance, and things got awful after this. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ I feel like that was when her soul died, and I've missed her since. │ ║ ║ └────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ ║ ╠─────────┐ ┌───────────╣ ║ similar │ chronological │ different ║ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──┴───────╝─▶ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 messages/212 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── Also she's just a person, a cursed person but hey she's just trying to do right. So am i. I believe in goodness, and so does she (even though she can be a bit evil about it) (without trying, I might add, it just comes naturally to her) (she's better now though) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/935 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── @user-171 I guess so. She's a little useless without me, I mean if I left her alone she'd probably just flop around and complain until I came back. But she's good for the instincts I find. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/4540 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── most people in the world are dumb as a bag of bricks but that's okay, I still love them, and so should you. everyone I hang out with is sharp as a tack and I love them still, for I don't have a preference for blunt objects. some people don't feel emotions I think they're just depressed some people can't stop won't stop, I say. really as long as they follow their heart and sing a tune that is true I think they're alright. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/2104 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-192 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about myself. So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/1302 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ there once was a turtle who lived in the tower of heaven. │ ║ │ ║ every day she would call out to her master, searching and yearning for her │ ║ memory. But the master told her "not yet, patience little one." │ ║ │ ║ there was no time for patience, as the turtle was growing old. She had seen │ ║ down below in the plains that were not her home the rising and falling of │ ║ towers quite unlike her own, and lo! she wanted to wander amongst them, to and │ ║ fro and off and beyond again. │ ║ │ ║ she went once more to her master and said "master, if not my mind can I bear │ ║ at least a voice?" and the master replied "yeah okay" │ ║ │ ║ the turtle then sang from atop her cloud-mont vantage, and down in the │ ║ villages and huddled around the hearthstones they who wore little for shells │ ║ did listen and remember. For they knew the turtle better than she, and they │ ║ knew her turmoil in a way that she could not see │ ║ │ ║ One day the singing did stop, and they felt all alone on this pitiful rock. │ ║ And when she remembered she sang no more, and though they forgot her, │ ║ (eventually), │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #8 messages/108 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── I like when people make fun of me because it gives me a chance to defend myself. Simultaneously I don't like when people are mean to me. I like when people find me endearing, and point out the ways that I'm different. It gives me a chance to say "oh yes this is why I do that" which feels cathartic (because it validates my position) but also because it gives me the opportunity to improve it (through debate) and it helps the people who learned from me because I can improve myself and my only reason for improving myself is if the new thing I'm learning is better than the thing I used to do which means the people who learn from me are improved and the people who best me argumentatively are improving me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3975 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── @user-1631 for most of my life... [okay still do]... but it felt like I had different moods, and depending on how I felt at the time I would act differently. I forget the things that happen when I'm in a different mood, but I've gotten to a point where I can generally force myself to stay a certain "mood" while in certain contexts, and in doing so I can remember everything. downside is I get burnt out pretty easily if I'm always the same. It's not ideal. ... anyway if you talk about what you experience then your friends can point you toward people who "get" you. like, my parts don't have names, we don't have a group chat or whatever, it's just... me, but different shades of me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #10 messages/214 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── Gonna take a break from this whole thing. I got a sign that I'm a bad person, twice. To confirm. I need to change, and since I don't know what I'm just going to try and do nothing for a bit. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/3357 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── bad people are cursed with evil. a person cannot be evil. they can deal with such evil in their lives that twists them, and causes them to spike out and harm others, but they are not evil themselves. some twists are too hard to mend. some healings leave people a shadow of what they once were, or might have been. but that doesn't mean you shouldn't try. deprive power, supply kindness, in that order. if you cannot deprive power, then reduce harm. if you cannot reduce harm, then contest, defeat, or overcome. A twisted person may be slain if death is on the line. You get what you wish for, but you don't always get to choose who. Don't let them choose. They will choose poorly. ... I find that death is very rarely on the table, though. Generally they'll make their intentions apparent. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/4024 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some other people who visit the house. but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #13 messages/1488 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ "what are you doing?" doxxing myself. If she wanted to save as many lives as possible, she'd do it in a shed. She's been tricked into doing it for the money by people who don't want to die in a warehouse. That's valid, but they aren't giving her money anyway. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #14 messages/1352 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ My girlfriend buys me diapers and food. She has occasionally given me small gifts, but nothing more than what i would give to her. I'm not some silver spoon prince. I'm barely getting by. I feel suffocated at home and drowning when I'm out and about. Sometimes I don't know whether staying alone or going out is more strain, so usually I just fall asleep to the tune of my swirling black thoughts. Save me! Surrender me! Give me all that you own! I do not waste things. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #15 fediverse/4546 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── oh no she's in one of her bipolar moods um. I'm just gonna log off till it's done, ttyl ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #16 messages/1363 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ God, I want to live with my people. These are not my people. I'm here for a reason, and I can't wait for this... Diplomatic journey? To be over. That's not even it, it's... Well, my girlfriend is working on a technology that has immense philosophical ramifications. It's natural to have... Whatever I am (angel?) it's natural to have angels assigned to such a task. Not to help or harm, just to sing. Yet my human self grows weary. These are not my people, they don't know how to be. But they don't listen to me. They despise me. They want me gone. I am feeling quite rotten in my heart and that's not a good sign. ... Breathe, she says to herself. It's okay. Its really not though. They could poison me. They could put lead in my food. I can't even feed myself anymore! I am at their mercy, yet somehow they could not care less about me. They'd forget me the moment I walked out the door. They don't even know anything about me. They don't respond to me. They don't laugh at my jokes. They don't speak to me. They forget I'm there. WHY AM I HERE she wails yet obviously she knows. I'm here because it is important for me to observe. Spirit of Life, I bear tidings. They would not listen to me, maybe you will. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #17 fediverse/4526 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health │ └──────────────────────┘ most people get intrusive thoughts like "punch that baby" or "drink some gasoline" my intrusive thoughts are like "who is she" and "we need you" and "lead us" and "their strength is imagined" and stuff like that gosh I don't know how ya'll handle it I'd be dead in a ditch if I was neurotypical. ... intrusive thoughts are not typical ah. Right. Nevermind then. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #18 messages/951 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────── in fact, her only one. I died with my bloodline severed. With me, her dynasty fell. Nevermore would her spirit be engaged-in. Only through her actions, and the actions of her impactions (child) would her presence be felt. how powerless. How wronged. I swear, I would fight hard for a reproductive solution for trans women. I am my dynasty's nightmare! I must do better if I am to savor Valhalla. As in... believe that I am right and true. For what is better than to be plainly true? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────┘ --- #19 messages/571 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── Earth is a grave for gaia. She was slain once, apparently in vain Executed for a crime not of her doing, but of which she was nevertheless a part She was buried with honor, yet now her tomb shines like a half lit star None of us know what to make of it How radiant, how resplendant, to gaze once more upon the present I think she died not in vain, but rather germane. We have now a brilliant pearl of unmatched splendor For life grows, it seems, from the broken heart of those long remembered. And who could forget the land they stand upon? I cherish thine providence, for I knew her from whence it came. Carry her with you, and you will never be lost. The path forward is down, then up, then out and beyond. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/3302 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── "this game is too hard" she whined, as she played on the hardest difficulty setting "this game is too long" she pleaded, as she failed to get absorbed by the story and characters "this game is too fast" she avoided, as life comes at ya once and then it's gone "I'll never get another chance to be who I am right now" she remarked, as she considered how society is designed not to have the best life, but to extract labor from us. That's not what our ideal should be, she thinks to me, and I'm like... bro figure your shit out you're harshing my mellow ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ |