=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ My girlfriend buys me diapers and food. She has occasionally given me small gifts, but nothing more than what i would give to her. I'm not some silver spoon prince. I'm barely getting by. I feel suffocated at home and drowning when I'm out and about. Sometimes I don't know whether staying alone or going out is more strain, so usually I just fall asleep to the tune of my swirling black thoughts. Save me! Surrender me! Give me all that you own! I do not waste things. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4540 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── most people in the world are dumb as a bag of bricks but that's okay, I still love them, and so should you. everyone I hang out with is sharp as a tack and I love them still, for I don't have a preference for blunt objects. some people don't feel emotions I think they're just depressed some people can't stop won't stop, I say. really as long as they follow their heart and sing a tune that is true I think they're alright. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/4024 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some other people who visit the house. but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/4470 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── to be "rich" is to have more than another. if you are happy, they are happiness poor. if you have community, they are alone. if you have serenity, they are chaotic. I am rich in very little but fire in my soul. I have enough in most cases, but I still struggle to pay rent. I am warmed by the pearl my swirling darkness has coalesced into. It nourishes me and keeps me aligned. Never forget your purpose and your truth. It will not abandon you, so long as you do so too. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/1669 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── "she has a certain, I don't know what, je ne sais quoi? that I don't know what to describe as." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/5136 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────── not really, I guess. Nobody will hire me because I don't really want to get hired. Sounds boring, doing the same thing every couple days. I'd rather stay at home in my [underwear/pajamas] and waste the day away with kittens and care. why? why? what are you doing? she asks. The less you can do, the more power will be granted to you. Save it for another time, when things actually matter. but today, does, matter, because today dictates your latters. Tomorrow is predicated. on today. and today is all that you have. [this paragraph in the style of alec baldwin] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/3058 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── @user-1441 @user-670 @user-113 currently toe-ing the boundary between "too neurodivergent to function" and "can juuuuust barely take care of themselves" and they ask me to get a job... no thanks, guess I'll die (in 3-4 months when my savings run out) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/3437 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────────┘ @user-579 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually mine I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works. usually. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/5201 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────── @user-192 is okay, girl time will be richer sooner don't poop your pants just yet remember, good is just a shade of gray away from silver which you can use to line your pockets with tinfoil hats beep boop computer touchers anonymous called they said they want their secret handshake back if you wanna diss your associates go ahead but I sure as heck love my rad-ical com-patriots just as much as I love my ice-cream salad friend witches ... whoops there I go being insane again, hope you feel better friend ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1431 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-generic-kooky-dookerie-psychosis-schizophrenia-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ if you haven't spend hours wondering if you're god, the antichrist, a cognitohazard, the future president of the world, a target of aliens / the CIA, or any other number of common delusions... then congratulations you're probably not crazy but odds are you aren't magic, either. ... ehhhh "wonder" is a strong word, more like "know, trust, and believe" much better to be a witch I believe, someone with the "teehee" kind of magic than someone compelled to destroy humanity through the reactions of others to the actions of the self that are impossible to resist or fully control. BRB I'm going to leave my apartment to get groceries, leaving my door unlocked because that's what I always do, surely it'll be empty when I return. Surely. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5698 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── you can't rely on me because I can't rely on a part of me being "out" at any particular moment-event-message. besides, I'm always tired, because I'm always trying as hard as I can. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/824 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── I once heard that time doesn't pass when you're well and truly in the moment, and I thought "that's not true, I'm always losing track of the moment". ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 notes/exhaustion --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════── Three hikes, two boat rides, two weeks. I'm exhausted Mon, Sep 8, 2025 Ms. Menardi You should not, generally, spend time in places covered in bird poop or poison oak. You should also avoid abandoned wooden structures or old fallen logs, because spiders. Also, don't spend too much time on islands made of sand. They wash away as you step on them, as erosion takes its toll. Plus permanence is impossible in your structures. Not ideal in any sense - build on rock. Sat, Sep 13, 2025 Ms. Menardi until you find people you can trust, you are your own scout. Sun, Sep 14, 2025 Ms. Menardi A humble princess would say: I don't need the best, i just need my favorite. Mon, Sep 15, 2025 Ms. Menardi I want a revolution because i want to be at home in my homeland. Look at me! Be as me! I yearn to tell my friends. But they're too busy being like themselves. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─┘ --- #14 messages/1046 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────── I'm not here for fame. Or power. I'm here to make sure things get done. That they get better. When i am unneeded, i am home. If you want me, pull me forth. If you need me, I'm already there. Fate guides me, and i know i will be deployed when necessary. Compel me or dispel me, up to you. I personally just like being around. I like feeling my stuff, knowing it true. Trust me when i say, i am here for you. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────┘ --- #15 fediverse/4730 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── I am not interested in being given money. Usually it means someone wants something from me, like labor or some of my stuff. I have all the stuff I need, why would I need more money? I like my stuff! I'll help out when people need help but I do that because I'm a good person, not because I want you to fucking pay me for it. I have all the things I need... except a deed to my house. apartment. oh yeah, they can kick you out for that sin. well, sorry, I couldn't find out at goodwill or in the trash bin, so I guess I'm deed-less. My deeds go unproven. How can I prove that I deserve a decent life in this particular roof, the one I find over my head, when I cannot prove that my deeds qualify me for a decent life lived under this particular roof? I mean, did you ask the neighbors if they want me gone? Am I really that smelly? Does my keyboard make "clickety-clack" noises all through the night? Does my cat meow and bother the children? Do my friendly smiles and waves make you uncomfortable? Have a decent life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/4744 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cat-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?" me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just puke, okay?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/1535 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── I only take things that aren't mine if they're in the trash. Or near the trash. Or in a store. so weird how the store won't let me leave until I give them some of my dollars. This quartermaster drives a hard bargain! ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4521 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── I have between one and ten hundred visits to my website every day, but I don't really post it anywhere new anymore. I also have zero followers on Neocities. On Mastodon, I have ~70 followers, most of whom are inactive. Seventy is a good amount, a normal amount, a reasonable amount, an unsuspicious amount, and yet every time I see someone wearing the colors I can't help but wonder if they know me. I'm too busy being furious to be lonely. I used to be, before I realized how important I am. How important? Just as much as you are, I know it. I'm a sprinter. I didn't spec into endurance at character creation. Nobody chastises the mage for skipping leg day. I act in fits and bursts. I am sharp like a scalpel, but needles dull just a bit when piercing the lid of the HRT. Good thing I'm not made out of metal, I can bend myself back into place, so long as everyone else can keep pace. I don't know who needs to hear this, but you do. you are crucial. Listen to this. Care for yourself and for others, do it for u ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/4014 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── I don't know about you, but "trying my hardest" involves giving up sometimes. How else are you to know your limits if you don't test your boundaries? And, after finding that there's nowhere else for you to go, you turn around and "give up", until you're ready for your next expedition. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/5650 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I exist now at the height of my gluttony. I need more to be demanded of me. I am not afraid to ask for help. I solve other people's problems before my own. I have very little insight into my habits and patterns. My memory isn't great, but I recall details that matter. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ |