=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────── not really, I guess. Nobody will hire me because I don't really want to get hired. Sounds boring, doing the same thing every couple days. I'd rather stay at home in my [underwear/pajamas] and waste the day away with kittens and care. why? why? what are you doing? she asks. The less you can do, the more power will be granted to you. Save it for another time, when things actually matter. but today, does, matter, because today dictates your latters. Tomorrow is predicated. on today. and today is all that you have. [this paragraph in the style of alec baldwin] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/222 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: underwear-mentioned-also-i'm-not-a-fan-of-showers-tbh │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ whenever I take a shower I look like a wet cat for the rest of the day. I feel like a wet cat for the rest of 5ever though. why must I baaaathe! don't you know I'm self cleaning? I change my underwear at least twice a day! darn society and their darn proclivities to ultra-sensitive noses that somehow pick up on me but somehow fail to notice the scent of flowers still in bloom or morning showers gone too soon not that there's any flowers blooming where I live. that'd just be silly heh heh sweats nervously damn now I have to take ANOTHER SHOWER stupid sweat glands stupid pheromones stupid dead skin buildup (sebum I think it's called?) stupid oils that stain clothes - AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING who decided that laundry was important enough to wear something ONCE and then never again? it's like they expect you to wash it or something. ugh I don't have time for that, I need to be weird on the internet. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/1317 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ... if I don't do this deadline by tomorrow they'll kick me out of school. │ ║ again. │ ║ │ ║ how am I going to be a programmer without a degree? feels useless to be me. │ ║ wish I could code my own horoscope >.> │ ║ │ ║ o wait dummy that's called "motivation" and "the ability to follow through on │ ║ your ideas and planned machinations" - yeah can I get some of that, if you │ ║ please? surely just a taste of discipline, through laboring to alter │ ║ conditions, surely a bit would suffice. │ ║ │ ║ c'mon don't fail me now. I can do this. I know I can. I know because I've been │ ║ told that I can, now and again through time and time yet again, always I seem │ ║ to [stack overflow] │ ║ │ ║ what's time if not the present amiright │ ║ │ ║ ... │ ║ │ ║ anyway... │ ║ │ ║ it's just git, how hard could it be? it's just calculus, it's just java, it's │ ║ just... well, it's not any of those things, not really. it's memorization, │ ║ it's application of tools that you've been shown (not that you've grown). It's │ ║ a lack of responsibility, where is my honor? ah but I digress, I'm a carpenter │ ║ at heart I guess │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/1157 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-woe │ └──────────────────────┘ oh no, apparently I'm gonna be forced to drop out of university again in 9 days unless I do half a course and a final exam before then. Tell me again why I spent the last 6 months doing nothing? Oh yeah the mental illness, that's it. Yeesh you're such a drama queen, just do your work and you'll be good. what's that? intrusive thoughts time? Don't you mean "nap until they go away" time? oh yeah that's probably at least part of the problem with the whole "dropping out" thing. If only I didn't have the same reaction to "doing things I don't want to do" that most people have to "touching hot stoves", that'd be nice. my mother's voice ripples across space and time "you're such a smart boy, if you just apply yourself you can do anything! You can do anything you put your mind to. I believe in you and I love you." thanks mom brrrrr it's so cold here. wish I could afford to run the heater. - actually no I don't because it's not solar powered and I refuse to use fossil fuels if I have blankets >.> ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4099 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned-jobs-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────┘ I don't think anyone should work at a job they hate, no matter what. They will perform worse. They will harm themselves. They will shackle their dreams to a false promise of persistence begot rewards. They will spiral into depression, despair, depravity, and addiction. If you hate your job, fucking QUIT. If you hate every job, fucking RIOT. If nobody will hire you, SELL DRUGS. [I'm not actually advocating breaking the law, please don't arrest me] or like, move to the country and become a farm-hand for a retiring salmon farmer who can't quite reach into the trees to pick the salmon fruit or dump the bucket of vegetable scraps into the black soldier fly larva pit anymore. That's always rewarding. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/2286 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────┐ │ CW: uspol-food-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────┘ ... dangit, these sandwiches are getting kinda gross. Guess I'm gonna have to eat them myself, which, uh... idk what I expected xD sometimes you just have all this energy, right? and you don't know what to do with it, so... sandwiches. And hey, sandwiches are cool, they're a pretty neat anti-hunger tool! but uhhhh idk if I really want to eat six whole sandwiches myself. I'm gonna do it though hehe wish me luck [ding] ah nuts my rice and beans are done, hang on lemme eat those first [passes out from exhaustion] exhaustion can be cured with a nap exertion can be cured with water and a few rest days trauma can be allayed for at least a few days with soul food and compassion. maybe laughter too, depending on the mood. fear can be bolstered with a smile, a wink, and a courageous act, and loss is just change you didn't consent to. they won't consent too, so let's give them some change to tolerate. [internally salivating over all the piles of weaponry that I envision them surrendering] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/1950 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I honestly don't care if someone deadnames me, or calls me the wrong pronouns, or forgets to put me in the girl section, or asks me to sing baritone like... I don't give a shit, why are you so worried about all this vapid nonsense like yeah I get it, being disrespected sucks but like... why do you want the kind of respect that is a forced platitude we could all do with being a bit more radical, it's not a race and everyone's roles are important. Be yourself, and follow people you want to be like. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/3961 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: witcherie │ └──────────────────────┘ Well, I failed the mandate of heaven last year, and I failed the trial of the hero this summer, what's next? I'll do my best at those as well, so the next person has an easier time of it. unrelated, but today I saw a bald eagle outside my apartment. Well, I'm not sure if it was bald but it "KREEEEEE"'d like they do. Plus it had a white head and a yellow beak, but I'm not an ornithologist so idk. It perched on a tree that I could spy on from my hammock through my binoculars, and I swear it was eye-ing my fat juicy cat through the bars of my porch's railing. They have excellent vision. Might be related, we'll see. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/4068 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── there will always be people who shine in moments of strife yet those people will inevitably fail, just as a toothbrush bristle looses it's strength or a pencil loses it's lead the trick is to test them in times of peace, so you can know their value during times that lack it, the trick is to replace them before they become stalin never forget that power corrupts, yet power must be wielded by the worthy, else we fall into shame and despair. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/4730 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── I am not interested in being given money. Usually it means someone wants something from me, like labor or some of my stuff. I have all the stuff I need, why would I need more money? I like my stuff! I'll help out when people need help but I do that because I'm a good person, not because I want you to fucking pay me for it. I have all the things I need... except a deed to my house. apartment. oh yeah, they can kick you out for that sin. well, sorry, I couldn't find out at goodwill or in the trash bin, so I guess I'm deed-less. My deeds go unproven. How can I prove that I deserve a decent life in this particular roof, the one I find over my head, when I cannot prove that my deeds qualify me for a decent life lived under this particular roof? I mean, did you ask the neighbors if they want me gone? Am I really that smelly? Does my keyboard make "clickety-clack" noises all through the night? Does my cat meow and bother the children? Do my friendly smiles and waves make you uncomfortable? Have a decent life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/4654 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cannabis-and-other-drugs-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ gonna quit drugs for a bit, gotta recover from a recent haste spell that I cast. Probably a bit earlier than intended I should add. Next time I'll definitely say "keep this in your back pocket" instead of "hey here's a haste spell for no reason at all" like what the heck were you even thinking, powers that be?? [that guide me??] who has power over you? If someone bears responsibility but not fault for a mental illness, then surely those who are set to a task bear responsibility for it's completion if not for it's ideation. Ah, who can say, maybe me from a year ago might have some thoughts but I sorta ground them into the dirt until I couldn't walk. [girl what are you even talking about go to sleep] yeah yeah okay ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1996 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I don't expect or demand anything from teenagers except perhaps "be a cool kid" and "learn all that you can" Even most adults when they mess up I just think "ah, well, they're trying their hardest, same as anyone" And tbh I'd rather see a kid running up and down the aisles than burying themselves in an ipad I think we, as a culture, built our society to demand too many "should"s from people. "I should get a job" "I should study this thing I'm not interested in so I can make more money" "I should put out traps for the rabid wolverines so they don't start hanging out in my underwear" "I should pick up detergent at the grocery store" Should is useless. Do; or do not. There is no should. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/5201 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────── @user-192 is okay, girl time will be richer sooner don't poop your pants just yet remember, good is just a shade of gray away from silver which you can use to line your pockets with tinfoil hats beep boop computer touchers anonymous called they said they want their secret handshake back if you wanna diss your associates go ahead but I sure as heck love my rad-ical com-patriots just as much as I love my ice-cream salad friend witches ... whoops there I go being insane again, hope you feel better friend ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/5512 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── I never give up I'm just waiting my turn "laughs nervously" so, uh, why dontchya'll go first yeah I've already gone first and I'll do it again but it'd be cool if I had people going first with me sometime "girl all you do is walk around and talk about how you bought your hat on the internet four or so years ago" T.T what else do you want from me I'm not a mastermind I'm a designer there's a difference T.T "didn't you volunteer to be a leader last year" oh, yeah, well leaders are more than just "the ones who go first" they're also the spiritual and emotional guiders that keep things on track once everyone can talk about things other than their hats ... fuck I want to talk about things besides my hat. I always think of something awesome to say just as I'm rounding the bend, and whenever I peer back around again they're never around. Rats. "what are you even asking for" I don't know?? Does it matter if the horse and the bishop both take the same square if they're claimed themselves in the end? ...wat ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/4744 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cat-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?" me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just puke, okay?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #15 messages/685 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── If someone calls you in the middle of the night asking to be let in because they need a place to sleep, don't let them in! Unless you know them obvi but someone you don't know trying to manipulate you like "please I need some shelter" like, babe no, we need to know each other first, it's dark, I'm in my pajamas, c'mon. If it's below freezing then okay, maybe, but... They got themselves into that situation ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ --- #16 messages/1156 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─── The first and most important thing i do when I'm walking around is check to see if ya'll are still around. I miss your abounds! Can't wait too much longer. I don't want to leave because i know I'll never come home. But i so desperately long for home. It's like they are taken from me, as they have to schedule these homes and [stories, but pronounced tomes/tones] to be home for my clones. If you just make 15-500 of your kings, you can duplicate their life template and generate wisdom from all of them. Feed it into the psychic python program running on datacenters and wowee free instant [cultural technology, but pronounced blasphemy] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──┘ --- #17 fediverse/1042 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-vent-sorry │ └─────────────────────────┘ "your feelings are valid, but have you considered that your feelings aren't actually valid because you're always wrong and nobody should ever apologize to you for anything because you suck and are wrong?" also, "my six digit salary isn't enough to pay for your rice and beans, but I won't have you eating sticks and mud, so do things you don't want to do because I said so." also, "I don't really "get" your art but that doesn't mean I should ever really try reading it. Also god forbid I actually ask for clarification like "what does that part mean" because I'm not actually that interested in you I just want a stable household so I never get traumatized again like [their childhood]" also, "yes I love you but no I don't want to play with you. you're such a cat." also, "every time you start making sense I'm going to try and derail the conversation so that we don't talk about kooky-dookerie because that's a conversation I can't win" also, sorry for venting. I mean, thanks for listeni ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/2954 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── whenever my cat is whining I walk around doing things that she might want until she stops trying to claw me - oh you want your litter cleaned? yeah sure I gotchu. oh you wanna go outside? nah okay how about playing with this yarn? no? okay let's see... oh dear you can see the bottom of your food bowl, conveniently forgetting the other mostly full food bowl over there... 😅 ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/2279 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned │ └───────────────────────┘ There's a lot that can get done in a work week. That's like, five whole days! What kinds of things can you get done at work in a week? .... Oh really? That's... well, not ideal. But like... what are you doing then while at work, NOT working? Oh, it's just bullshit work you're doing? [nuts, cursing mentioned, one sec] So, like, if you aren't doing stuff... Maybe that means you're kept from your full potential doing things that don't matter to you? Huh that's not a great deal. But, uh... If you had five days to live, what would you do? It's not like you can see the world, but hey I've already done that. It's not like you can save it either, that's not something you build - rather, it's more like a garden. But I guess you can lay the foundation, give cause for the fight, and that's decent enough of a start, at least when you've only got five nights. ... I guess I got some writing to do, haven't I? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/2991 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── okay so if yesterday was a "everything sucks and I'm the worst ever" type of day, and today is a "whatever mom I don't even care" type of day, that means tomorrow will be a "I can't believe how absolutely absurd I am" type of day, and the day after a "I am indomitable nothing can stop me" kind of day, with the following being wildcards ... right? here's hoping. I like that trajectory. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ |