=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── okay so if yesterday was a "everything sucks and I'm the worst ever" type of day, and today is a "whatever mom I don't even care" type of day, that means tomorrow will be a "I can't believe how absolutely absurd I am" type of day, and the day after a "I am indomitable nothing can stop me" kind of day, with the following being wildcards ... right? here's hoping. I like that trajectory. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/3437 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────────┘ @user-579 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually mine I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works. usually. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/5157 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────┐ ║ "everything sucks and I'm not okay" │ ║ │ ║ okay, but, it's okay. we're all in the "everything sucks" mode. we'll get │ ║ through it together. Okay, so, what can we do to make things better? what's │ ║ the solution to this issue over here? do you know anyone who can do │ ║ such-and-such, gosh it seems like the biggest problems people have are they │ ║ don't have enough time or they don't have enough roof for a money. which will │ ║ you trade? will you do one then another? maybe one way suits you, maybe you'd │ ║ prefer the other. either way, pentacles, swords, cups, and... the other one │ ║ (she's a bad witch as in she's bad at being a witch which means she witches in │ ║ bad ways and should be kept from punishment but instead guided toward where │ ║ she was wrong so she might improve upon it) │ ║ │ ║ that is to say, it's okay that you're not okay. I don't know who needs to read │ ║ this but just know that it's not so sad when everything's bad, because you're │ ║ just trying to do the best thing for the moments. │ ║ │ ║ does anyone wanna make a movie about me? I can be the │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┴──────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/1317 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ... if I don't do this deadline by tomorrow they'll kick me out of school. │ ║ again. │ ║ │ ║ how am I going to be a programmer without a degree? feels useless to be me. │ ║ wish I could code my own horoscope >.> │ ║ │ ║ o wait dummy that's called "motivation" and "the ability to follow through on │ ║ your ideas and planned machinations" - yeah can I get some of that, if you │ ║ please? surely just a taste of discipline, through laboring to alter │ ║ conditions, surely a bit would suffice. │ ║ │ ║ c'mon don't fail me now. I can do this. I know I can. I know because I've been │ ║ told that I can, now and again through time and time yet again, always I seem │ ║ to [stack overflow] │ ║ │ ║ what's time if not the present amiright │ ║ │ ║ ... │ ║ │ ║ anyway... │ ║ │ ║ it's just git, how hard could it be? it's just calculus, it's just java, it's │ ║ just... well, it's not any of those things, not really. it's memorization, │ ║ it's application of tools that you've been shown (not that you've grown). It's │ ║ a lack of responsibility, where is my honor? ah but I digress, I'm a carpenter │ ║ at heart I guess │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4540 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── most people in the world are dumb as a bag of bricks but that's okay, I still love them, and so should you. everyone I hang out with is sharp as a tack and I love them still, for I don't have a preference for blunt objects. some people don't feel emotions I think they're just depressed some people can't stop won't stop, I say. really as long as they follow their heart and sing a tune that is true I think they're alright. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/5853 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── everyone's all like "everything sucks" but I'm feeling confidence and a kind of... externalized vigor? that's sweeping me off my feet. We'll see what tomorrow brings, in the general sense. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/3117 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursed-uspol │ └──────────────────────┘ hey. wanna know what would be really cursed? -- if trump dropped out and musk took his place -- good thing it'll never happen because those dinguses can't accept defeat and will never tactically retreat -- maybe something to keep in mind for 4 years from now. eyes on the prize for now means our eyes aren't to our flanks. what else could they do that would come out of left field? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5334 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned │ └───────────────────────┘ every value judgement is a "hell yeah!" from those who already agree with you and a "aw fuck off" from those who don't. this is probably either a good or a bad thing, who can say. if you don't take a stand, nobody will like you, but if you aren't careful, you'll poison your well of support. "why can't it be easy" because then it'd be done. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/5329 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: the-world-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────┘ trying my best not to think about communism too much right now. Mostly because I'm waiting for everyone to catch up... when the day comes when people stop saying "based" and leaving it at that, then I'll make more theory. But as a consequence of my queer nature I shall deliver such things in the form of an insane twitter post on the fetlifeverse. the world waits with bated breath in the eye of the storm. Nobody knows whats coming, and everyone prays that it's nothing [short of revolution] ... I should probably go back to sleep, I just had to wake up and write about linux or whatever... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/4654 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cannabis-and-other-drugs-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ gonna quit drugs for a bit, gotta recover from a recent haste spell that I cast. Probably a bit earlier than intended I should add. Next time I'll definitely say "keep this in your back pocket" instead of "hey here's a haste spell for no reason at all" like what the heck were you even thinking, powers that be?? [that guide me??] who has power over you? If someone bears responsibility but not fault for a mental illness, then surely those who are set to a task bear responsibility for it's completion if not for it's ideation. Ah, who can say, maybe me from a year ago might have some thoughts but I sorta ground them into the dirt until I couldn't walk. [girl what are you even talking about go to sleep] yeah yeah okay ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/4526 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health │ └──────────────────────┘ most people get intrusive thoughts like "punch that baby" or "drink some gasoline" my intrusive thoughts are like "who is she" and "we need you" and "lead us" and "their strength is imagined" and stuff like that gosh I don't know how ya'll handle it I'd be dead in a ditch if I was neurotypical. ... intrusive thoughts are not typical ah. Right. Nevermind then. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1157 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-woe │ └──────────────────────┘ oh no, apparently I'm gonna be forced to drop out of university again in 9 days unless I do half a course and a final exam before then. Tell me again why I spent the last 6 months doing nothing? Oh yeah the mental illness, that's it. Yeesh you're such a drama queen, just do your work and you'll be good. what's that? intrusive thoughts time? Don't you mean "nap until they go away" time? oh yeah that's probably at least part of the problem with the whole "dropping out" thing. If only I didn't have the same reaction to "doing things I don't want to do" that most people have to "touching hot stoves", that'd be nice. my mother's voice ripples across space and time "you're such a smart boy, if you just apply yourself you can do anything! You can do anything you put your mind to. I believe in you and I love you." thanks mom brrrrr it's so cold here. wish I could afford to run the heater. - actually no I don't because it's not solar powered and I refuse to use fossil fuels if I have blankets >.> ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/1950 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I honestly don't care if someone deadnames me, or calls me the wrong pronouns, or forgets to put me in the girl section, or asks me to sing baritone like... I don't give a shit, why are you so worried about all this vapid nonsense like yeah I get it, being disrespected sucks but like... why do you want the kind of respect that is a forced platitude we could all do with being a bit more radical, it's not a race and everyone's roles are important. Be yourself, and follow people you want to be like. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/2352 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: pol │ └──────────────────────┘ Nobody will tell you what to do, at least not until you ask. Be where they can see you, and you'll be given a task. If you can do it, say "BRB" - one moment, let me handle that for you. If you can't, say "good luck", and they'll find someone else who can. It's okay to pass a task off - if someone says "Here's what I need, gotta go" then you say "sure, yeah, I'll get someone on it" - then, go find someone to do it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 messages/303 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── Most of my magic is based on communicatuion. Why the fuck doesn't anyone want to sit down on a bunch of drugs and attempt to figure out telepathy with me? It's literally all I want! Though I can't say it's all I'll ever want. I'm sure I'll want more, but like... It's not that hard, conceptually, so... Let's just fucking try it please? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/4486 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── gonna go on a walk. my cat is missing because I let her out last night. I'm worried sick! this morning I almost puked all over my toes. she'll probably show up when it gets dark. I bet she's hunkered down somewhere. Ah, well, might as well walk around my neighborhood actively searching bushes and such. Why not? It's not like I got anything else to do right now. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/4098 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-mentioned-ableism │ └────────────────────────────────┘ ngl I kinda hate it when people meme about donald trump being incontinent like, yeah, he pees his pants, so what? I DO TOO. Fucking sucks. Every time I read people saying nasty things about it I can't help but read them in my own voice, and that gives me plenty of ammunition to use against myself when I'm feeling down. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/549 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: pol-socialism │ └──────────────────────┘ ngl I kinda want to see what conservatives would riot over in a socialist system. Like "oh no we have healthcare! that sucks, so I'm going to burn down a police station" like bro what your basic needs are met and you're encouraged and enabled to pursue your passions and personal desires, are you still hung up on that old capitalist stuff? get a life my guy that's soOoOoOo 21st century of you ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/219 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: time-and-death-and-stuff │ └──────────────────────────────┘ sometimes I feel like I'm a simulation of my past self based on my future writings reconstructed by a backward looking computer calculating forward into the present, which would then be the future to the now, which is different than the NOW now, because the now that they're calculating from is temporally both then (the future) and now, meaning that the NOW now is something that transcends time, or perhaps if not time then it defies our expectations of time, and you know what they say, you can't (or shouldn't) cheat death ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/4179 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── okay, so, you could spend the next couple hours scrolling social media or you could go for a walk in the rain ... is it raining where you're at? I forget. Ah well whatever. You could go for a walk, whether or not it's in the rain, which surely would be a better use of your time. What are you gonna find on social media that you'll remember in a week? Hell, what will you remember tomorrow? my mother used to tell me that "television rots your brain" and, yeah, social media counts for that too. Thanks mom. I miss you. ... I could just call you, but it's the middle of the night for you. And probably for me, I guess, WINK in any case there's little to do today that can't wait for tomorrow. So why not go on a walk? Even if nothing happens, especially if nothing happens, it'll be good for you. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/834 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ wonder if any autistic peeps can relate: │ ║ │ ║ growing up, my mom would chastise me for doing "the bare minimum" when │ ║ completing tasks. │ ║ │ ║ yes, mom, I fulfilled the requirements of the task. I have a lot of other │ ║ things to attend to, like remembering how to tie my shoes and measuring things │ ║ using a ruler. why would I waste effort that wasn't necessary? │ ║ │ ║ when I grew up, I had a mentor, who told me to "never half ass things, because │ ║ then someone like me will have to do it again." │ ║ │ ║ and that makes sense to me because context switching requires effort and it │ ║ doesn't make sense to leave something half-finished because then there's │ ║ wasted effort spent on things that don't matter. All of the tasks have to get │ ║ done, so why bother doing them in a mixed up order? │ ║ │ ║ wish I could study things in school like that. just... focusing on one thing │ ║ at a time, learning it to completion, and moving on to the next. I feel like │ ║ I'd develop a better understanding than only knowing like, 1/3rd of CPR or │ ║ very vague understandings of plate tec │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ |