=== ANCHOR POEM === ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────────┘ @user-579 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually mine I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works. usually. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4255 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── I think a lot of my problems would be solved if I could internalize the thought/feeling of telling yourself "stay focused" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/581 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── @user-428 sometimes I think about how much more productive I'd be if I had a code editor that let me draw arrows and smiley faces and such alongside the code. Or if I could position things strangely, like two functions side-by-side with boxes drawn around them. Or diagrams or flowcharts or graphs or... something that would output to raw txt format, but would present itself as an image that could be edited. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/2991 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── okay so if yesterday was a "everything sucks and I'm the worst ever" type of day, and today is a "whatever mom I don't even care" type of day, that means tomorrow will be a "I can't believe how absolutely absurd I am" type of day, and the day after a "I am indomitable nothing can stop me" kind of day, with the following being wildcards ... right? here's hoping. I like that trajectory. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/1293 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: fedi meta, the bad space, fediblock, misleading and untrue cw, uspol, speedrunning discourse, industrial revolution, aquarium tips │ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-921 where tf is all this discourse I always hear about like what are ya'll talking about ... are you talking about me [silly intrusive thoughts teehee pay no mind] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/4706 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: cursing-mentioned-nazis-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────────┘ "oh also I should mention that if you think about her too hard or too often there's a chance she'll overhear what you're talking about anyway so try not to think about her too much." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/1609 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mh- │ └──────────────────────┘ @user-1043 I have intrusive thoughts almost constantly that take over my train of thought and make it difficult to focus. Like suddenly I'm thinking about something completely different, and I realize no, it wasn't suddenly, I actually just stood there and thought and then I think "what was I thinking again?" sometimes when I write these strange uncontrollable spirals down it makes poetry. Which is kinda neat I guess. Sometimes I just wonder about how DNS can be a singular point of failure in our networking infrastructure or whatever haha ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/4024 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some other people who visit the house. but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/2104 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-192 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about myself. So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 messages/312 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────── Okay. Consider: if I'm good, and hearing what I say makes you feel bad, then what does that tell you about you? Why else would you hear what I say if not to reflect upon yourself? And why would the good reflect away from the types of things that make you a suitable fit for capitalism? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 messages/267 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── I wonder how many things I've forgot? More every minute, I'd say, and though I try and chronicle them all... What's there to say? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5782 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────── sometimes I post random silly [scary] things to pad out the serious things and I hope that's okay ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/4744 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cat-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?" me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just puke, okay?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/1880 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── sometimes I decide against playing a Steam game because I don't want it to jump to the top of my "recently played" list Wish I could have like, a heatmap of when I played which game. I think that'd be useful for the archival process of my life. ... how pathetic, she measures her life in gameplay. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2954 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── whenever my cat is whining I walk around doing things that she might want until she stops trying to claw me - oh you want your litter cleaned? yeah sure I gotchu. oh you wanna go outside? nah okay how about playing with this yarn? no? okay let's see... oh dear you can see the bottom of your food bowl, conveniently forgetting the other mostly full food bowl over there... 😅 ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/3462 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────┘ "why didn't you say anything? why didn't you ask for help?" because then you might have done something about it, and don't you know I deserve to decay? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/723 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── Honestly if anyone wanted to just... take any of my stuff, even if they were just going to sell it, I'd probably give it to them? People in my life say I don't function well in a capitalist society. I guess I just trust everyone equally. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/4526 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health │ └──────────────────────┘ most people get intrusive thoughts like "punch that baby" or "drink some gasoline" my intrusive thoughts are like "who is she" and "we need you" and "lead us" and "their strength is imagined" and stuff like that gosh I don't know how ya'll handle it I'd be dead in a ditch if I was neurotypical. ... intrusive thoughts are not typical ah. Right. Nevermind then. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4849 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────── sometimes I'll hear my cat meow the way she does when she wants something but then I turn around and she's halfway through giving herself a bath /shrug ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/2466 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── do as I say, and as I do. or don't, do as you want to. I hope you do want to do what I say to do. I wouldn't say it if I didn't think it was right. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/1866 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: sexuality-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────┘ listen, girls are cute and all, but have you considered... boys? and I mean yeah, true, but listen boys are cute and all, but have you considered... girls? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ |