=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I was such a different person a year ago. And I was twice as different two years ago. Throughout it all, I am connected by the thread of my life, and I could be those people again, if only the context would present itself. Who was I when I met you? Eh I think I'll be this way today. The clothes make the man, and I wear a hat. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/3426 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-of-a-family-member-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ my grandpa died. now I have none. I realized I miss old people. I miss their friendly culture. I realized I hadn't talked to him for a decade or so. He didn't know I transitioned. I wonder if he missed me. I realized he missed seeing who I became. Is it unfair of me to not give him the opportunity to know me? truly? ... I am quite different now than I was 10 years ago. He probably doesn't remember. I miss him, but I hardly knew him. I don't like that feeling. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/3077 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── @user-246 If I didn't stop searching for a place with people like me, I'd be searching until the day I die. And besides, I wouldn't want to be in a place like that anyway. I am defined by my contrasts. ... I'm thinking back to my memories of when I arrived here. It was a much different place, and I was... a little too loud, I think. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/2855 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I refuse to be known by anyone who doesn't know me. But I'm always meeting people anew, so if they spent some time with me and saw more of my facets, perhaps they might come to know me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/3975 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── @user-1631 for most of my life... [okay still do]... but it felt like I had different moods, and depending on how I felt at the time I would act differently. I forget the things that happen when I'm in a different mood, but I've gotten to a point where I can generally force myself to stay a certain "mood" while in certain contexts, and in doing so I can remember everything. downside is I get burnt out pretty easily if I'm always the same. It's not ideal. ... anyway if you talk about what you experience then your friends can point you toward people who "get" you. like, my parts don't have names, we don't have a group chat or whatever, it's just... me, but different shades of me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #6 messages/143 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── I always figured if people didn't like what I was saying they'd contest me so I could change it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5860 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── Hey, life is better on my side. If you wanna renounce your beliefs, please do, and tell me how and why you changed your mind. tell me it was wrong. tell me how. confess. confess confess to me. I will listen and I will hear you and I will be the mercy for you. confess and I will forgive. show me how you are wrong. give grace to those who are wronged. take as much time as you need, but, there's only so much time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/1714 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┐ ║ @user-246 │ ║ │ ║ most artists get around that by posting everything they make everywhere they │ ║ go. │ ║ │ ║ I tend to be a bit selective, because I'm different things to different │ ║ people. All things I care for and own, but designed for different context. │ ║ │ ║ for example, I rarely share what's in my journals, but that's about half of │ ║ what I've made. I show them to basically everyone I know IRL, but very few │ ║ people actually understand or are into them. When I find someone who does it │ ║ fills me with hope, that perhaps I'm not as lost as I had thought. │ ║ │ ║ perhaps it makes me less trustworthy, but I'm not used to being exposed. I │ ║ never used Twitter, I don't use Facebook (not that often) so my "self" was │ ║ something I preferred to perform as on a stage of my own design. │ ║ │ ║ Like wearing different clothes to express yourself, or performing gender in a │ ║ certain way, I am myself when I am most expressful. And I do that in different │ ║ ways in different contexts. I'd love to show more, because I'm a performer at │ ║ heart, and a performer of the heart. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/112 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── I live through the moments where I find a folder of stuff I made that I forgot about and I can go back and see it for the first time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 messages/182 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── @sperm baby siblings: is it weird that I dream about you all significantly more often than the people who are actually in my day to day life? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/4026 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── why is everyone so confused about how I turned out? I literally spent my whole childhood telling stories to myself (inspired by the world, and stories I had read, with mechanics like games I had played) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/1721 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── I'd like to apologize to everyone I've ever interacted with in the past. It was unfair of me to interact with you, and I will do my best to not hurt you again in that way. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2381 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I smile at each and every person I pass on the street. Unless it looks like they're having a bad day, and then I try to switch to neutral as fast as I can so they can feel their feelings without me interjecting and making it about me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/2372 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: pol │ └──────────────────────┘ I had a job lined up, but with great personal change came great societal change. And I got swept up. Now here I am, somehow finding myself blown on the winds of fate to stand atop a mountain and survey the lands below. I see the path to our bright future, and it is wide enough for us all to walk. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/1263 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-883 My friends and I decided to hang out for two days in a row, I guess they aren't tired of me yet hehe - I might be around tonight but I'll let you know! ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/5129 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────── @user-1698 I am a strange person, which is why I live in the strange city for strange people. though recently it's gotten a lot more liberal. Kinda sucks. I miss the anarchist vibes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/3833 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── there's no such thing as me all I am is where the wind takes me I am just a person, and I do all that I can ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #19 messages/146 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── maybe if I slept until the end of time, I'd do better on the way back. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/130 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── Last night I dreamt of the gravestones that bore their owner's mind. I dreamt of a life well lived, and how it was taken from them. [something more that I forgot because I don't have a prophecy transcriber] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ |