=== ANCHOR POEM === ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────┐ │ CW: capitalism-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────┘ oh huh I really don't want to work anymore. I used to, but they wouldn't let me. Then they did let me, but I worked too hard and burnt out. Then I recovered for a while, and asked to work again, and they said no. Repeatedly. I don't think I want to work anymore. It's an abusive relationship. It feels demeaning. I'm better than employment. [rent comes due] oh no ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/2424 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── if I don't take this job, then I'm going to be homeless. if I do, then I'll be moving to a different city. a city that I don't know. my upbringing tells me that this isn't a choice at all, but... at least I have a place to keep my stuff. maybe I can find a different job. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/5452 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: all-cops-are-bastards-mentioned-personal-ramblings-and-complainings-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ I never rest. Not mentally. I find it sooooo much harder to get moving again once I'm asleep. But I've been sleeping lately, because it's "good for me" or whatever. Because I'm "burnt out and need to heal" or something. Damnit why is it so much harder to stop snuggling someone than it is to pack up a tent? I'm like the guy in Hot Fuzz, that one really good movie about cops. oops cops mentioned one second. I'm always moving, but, I hardly ever seem to be able to get anything done. Why is that? Is the work just... endless? Am I ever a slave to my surroundings? Or am I just cursed with a mortal form, a form destined to toil in whatever way it finds itself contextualized in? Maybe I should just stop complaining. Maybe work is it's own reward or whatever. I don't think I'm depressed anymore, although good luck getting me to feel any emotions except focus, and the call to intercede on another's behalf. I don't have time for this. >. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/1818 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── my previous job didn't do anything to harm me. And yet I left. I let them down in a way they could not have expected. Which was unfair of me, but I couldn't resist it. I don't know what I'd do better. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse_boost/5734 --- ◀─╔══════════════════════════════[BOOST]═══════════════════════════════──────────╗ ║ ┌────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ║ │ @user-1865 She didn't deserve a lot of cruelty she received. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ She was a wonderful person, who just couldn't stop talking, never sat still, yelled sometimes and was scared of everything but tried anyway. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ Needed several medications just to sleep or she'd go crazy. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ I am exactly like her, I just found out what was really going on with my body and brain. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ She never got that chance, and things got awful after this. │ ║ ║ │ │ ║ ║ │ I feel like that was when her soul died, and I've missed her since. │ ║ ║ └────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ ║ ╠─────────┐ ┌───────────╣ ║ similar │ chronological │ different ║ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──┴───────╝─▶ --- #5 fediverse/3755 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── @user-1071 hehe it was my favorite job I've ever had downside is... it was hard to get to work every day. I'm not built for long-term dedicated labor. Maybe I should freelance? idk where to even begin with that, though. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/3841 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┐ ║ ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: socialism-recycling-mentioned1 │ │ ║ └────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ "I think I'm going to quit my job at the recycling center. Everyone there is │ ║ just a little too catty for me. I think they like the verbal sparring but it │ ║ just gets a little tiresome after a while." │ ║ │ ║ oh, sorry to hear that. Well if you still want to help out there's plenty of │ ║ work to do. I could set you up at another recycling center nearby too, if │ ║ you'd like...? │ ║ │ ║ "well, I like the idea of universal recycling. It was a little annoying when │ ║ people would put food waste in with the clothing donations, and this one time │ ║ I found like 8 bags of cat litter inside of a washing machine. Spent like an │ ║ hour vacuuming everything out, which... actually wasn't bad. Kinda felt a │ ║ little cathartic to clean it so thoroughly." │ ║ │ ║ "on the other hand I would like to use my mind a bit more, my creative │ ║ projects are kinda in a slump so I figure I could use my body at home and my │ ║ mind at work. I've been meaning to build a desk out of some spare hardwood I │ ║ snagged at work but I haven't gotten around to it." │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────┴──────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/2524 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal │ └──────────────────────┘ nixed my job offer today because something told me to stay in town. called my ex-boyfriend an asshole today, so he's probably not going to keep paying my rent. sold the shares of stock that my grandfather gifted me as inheritance, so I'm no longer a capitalist I guess. at least my elbow doesn't hurt anymore. I didn't get outside today but I cleared a lot of blockers for the coming tomorrows. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/1844 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┐ ║ I got a job offer for a job outside of my state. But I don't want to leave my │ ║ home. I feel safe here. I know people. I know the places around me. │ ║ │ ║ The one perk is that goods and services are easier to acquire, but I don't │ ║ need much. I'm fine where I'm at. But where I'm at has rent. │ ║ │ ║ What a plague is it, that we must suffer for life! │ ║ │ ║ there's no entry-level jobs for working with our sight. │ ║ │ ║ only when youre too tired to complain will they let you direct others, or │ ║ share creative ideas for fixing the problems you're paid to assuage. │ ║ │ ║ Alas, that my life had meaning. That my words were better off spoken. Maybe │ ║ then Id live as I define, designing a world of my own hearth. │ ║ │ ║ but if a king lives in decent frugality, are they really so bad for our flock? │ ║ │ ║ and if a wizard spins tales that are weird to consider, but not much else... │ ║ are they better off starved in the dark? │ ║ │ ║ no-one likes me. computers are paper-weights given light. sure would be nice │ ║ if none but the fools went wanting. │ ║ │ ║ I mean yeah I'd live in a treehouse │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/5227 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┐ ║ why the heck would partners need each other for anything │ ║ │ ║ if you a ren't instable on your own, then it'll cause harm if your partner │ ║ leaves you. which technically qualifies as abuse, so you should assert efforts │ ║ to disengage that hold you have on them by workong on your long struggles and │ ║ love struggles and longing struggles so that they can make moves of their own │ ║ and you can orbit each other in life. │ ║ │ ║ IT SHOULD BE NORMAL TO LIVE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER. The more space the │ ║ better, but still with nothing inbetween. │ ║ │ ║ yeah, sure, let's build more houses. │ ║ │ ║ why don't we build habitat around them? it'd cut down on the necessary space │ ║ required if places which were natural but not really all that sacred were │ ║ converted into mixed-species homing grounds │ ║ │ ║ ... don't humans leave like, trash on the street once a week? sounds like a │ ║ bad idea if you got pandas and raccoons rifling through each other's baggage. │ ║ │ ║ there are people who have been fighting bosses their whole lives. I personally │ ║ play a Paladin, though also a wit │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┴──────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1157 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-woe │ └──────────────────────┘ oh no, apparently I'm gonna be forced to drop out of university again in 9 days unless I do half a course and a final exam before then. Tell me again why I spent the last 6 months doing nothing? Oh yeah the mental illness, that's it. Yeesh you're such a drama queen, just do your work and you'll be good. what's that? intrusive thoughts time? Don't you mean "nap until they go away" time? oh yeah that's probably at least part of the problem with the whole "dropping out" thing. If only I didn't have the same reaction to "doing things I don't want to do" that most people have to "touching hot stoves", that'd be nice. my mother's voice ripples across space and time "you're such a smart boy, if you just apply yourself you can do anything! You can do anything you put your mind to. I believe in you and I love you." thanks mom brrrrr it's so cold here. wish I could afford to run the heater. - actually no I don't because it's not solar powered and I refuse to use fossil fuels if I have blankets >.> ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/2770 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: politics-fascism-sexual-assault-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ now that the pain is healed all I want to do is spend time with him. I learned SO MUCH from him and then I called him a saboteur T.T (babe you're still healing) I forgave him as he was doing it but forgiveness doesn't imply that you're gonna stick around. I feel bad for running through. if a person tells you what to do and then hurts you, you should probably do the opposite right? that's just pavlovian - resist pain, avoid pain, remove pain. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/5136 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────── not really, I guess. Nobody will hire me because I don't really want to get hired. Sounds boring, doing the same thing every couple days. I'd rather stay at home in my [underwear/pajamas] and waste the day away with kittens and care. why? why? what are you doing? she asks. The less you can do, the more power will be granted to you. Save it for another time, when things actually matter. but today, does, matter, because today dictates your latters. Tomorrow is predicated. on today. and today is all that you have. [this paragraph in the style of alec baldwin] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/4744 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cat-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?" me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just puke, okay?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/2104 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-192 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about myself. So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/5292 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── you can trust me, but please don't rely on me, for all of my power is soft. sometimes people just don't want to do what I tell them to, and I wouldn't have it any other way. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/5662 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── don't work with me. work around me. don't talk to me. talk about me. don't share with me. I deserve nothing. don't take from me. I have nothing. -radio-radio-remedy- ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/3823 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── "sometimes I don't want to be optimistic sometimes I just want to complain" oh yeah well what if I want to be optimistic at all times as a coping mechanism huh you don't have to agree with me ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/4099 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned-jobs-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────┘ I don't think anyone should work at a job they hate, no matter what. They will perform worse. They will harm themselves. They will shackle their dreams to a false promise of persistence begot rewards. They will spiral into depression, despair, depravity, and addiction. If you hate your job, fucking QUIT. If you hate every job, fucking RIOT. If nobody will hire you, SELL DRUGS. [I'm not actually advocating breaking the law, please don't arrest me] or like, move to the country and become a farm-hand for a retiring salmon farmer who can't quite reach into the trees to pick the salmon fruit or dump the bucket of vegetable scraps into the black soldier fly larva pit anymore. That's always rewarding. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/239 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── Each of my previous jobs I left because my friends did. I quit of a broken heart. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ |