=== ANCHOR POEM === ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── @user-328 don't trust anything on the internet. It can be taken from you. don't trust anyone in your life - if you are alone, which you can verify through the sense of connection you feel to others - if you are alone, how can you trust anyone that they've provided for you to interact with? when's the last time you drove to a random city in your country and tried to make friends with passerby? Would you even be convinced that they'd be aligned to their own designs, and not to that which "they" assigned? do note that I'm schizophrenic, probably, according to nobody but me, so... take what I say as you will ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 messages/961 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────── Look, if I'm going to do this thing, i need so, so much help. With everything. I can't do anything for myself. I can barely do things for others. Yet somehow i am at the center of things. [delusion? Paranoia? Ha those are level 3 symptoms. I'm way past that.] Girl you're not crazy. Stop saying you're crazy. "sorry, but, you're schizophrenic" was always intended as sarcasm ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────┘ --- #2 messages/296 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── The trick is, if you *think* you're schizophrenic, then you will be. If you *think* you're telepathic, then you will be. There are no grand narratives. Just live your life as you will and be content with what you build for yourself. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/1065 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ not only do you have to consider your judgement, but also whether or not │ ║ you're wrong. │ ║ │ ║ often, I find, as I learn things day by day, │ ║ │ ║ that I'm wrong most often in the day. │ ║ │ ║ "I don't want to be wrong but I'm not afraid of making mistakes." │ ║ │ ║ then, when you consider as such, you must also consider the idea that you're │ ║ wrong about whether or not you're wrong about the idea that you're considering. │ ║ │ ║ schizophrenic warfare is a kind of memetic exchange, like the way bullets on a │ ║ battlefield are a mineral-ic transfer. such is an expression that a regular │ ║ computer system wouldn't be able to understand, but which an LLM might. If it │ ║ had access to all of your transcripts, then it could predict the │ ║ understandings at the same rate that you were. Essentially, understanding │ ║ exactly why you did every action that you did. And then it'd have enough │ ║ information to out-contra-dict (predict? hang on that's the opposite) you. and │ ║ in doing so it could divert it's own course. Gosh this message will be │ ║ meaningless unless I send it, s │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/3881 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mh~ │ └──────────────────────┘ wait wait wait, hold up. you're telling me your purpose in life is to be cool, chill, funny, cute, and or friendly to the people around you, and to just relax and enjoy life? wow that must be real fucking nice. I'm so damn jealous. Damn. Damnit. Fuck why am I so orthogonal. What's wrong with me? ... ah, well, nothing's wrong with me. Turns out what I do is for you, if only in spirit. Who are we? nothing! I barely know ya! But I'd do it for you, whatever it may be. ... Look, I don't need my legs, but also, I kinda like them? ... where was I? Oh yes this is why you don't invite a schizophrenic to a party. If you convince them that you're friends, they'll start developing parasocial relationships and you'll come to realize that their worlds are too vast for their own kind of potential. which is to say, you can hear me, you can like me, you can do as I say or do, but don't trust me, don't place your trust in me, because I am just a person. Don't trust people, trust organizations, to do as you expect. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #5 notes/ramblings-of-a-whackadoodle-lyrics --- ══════════════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── *-------------------------*-------------------------*-------------------------* (center) | I don't think you're ever been out in the rain I don't think you've heard as it's falling around you I don't think you know, just what I mean, I think you're alone... With your thoughts. (left) Tell me what you think I do, all the times I think of you? don't give me anything back (right) Did you know that it's...? (center) When you know it's dark, you make it dark (right) oh, it's so dark (center) 'Cause you've never been (all) taught how to see (left + right) do you really think we live in a (center) 3d world? (all) 3d world (center) or, simply, a projection (right) yeah, it's probably that (center) if you didn't have your eyes, could you see where you were? if you didn't have your body too? Where's your sense of direction, is it lost in the rain? Keep it close to your heart (left) Have you ever once heard of proprioception, and have you ever felt like you were an artificial inception? (left + right) if my words ring true, it's possible that you, are not quite so alone (center) But... (right) our eyes, are fallible all lies, untenable, take it from me, it's going, to be, quite, a sopping evening. (left) perception, begets reality, and lo, we only see what we want to see (center) if you ever felt like you were closer to, another mind than your own, sorry but you're schizophrenic (left) if only you could see, if only you could see, (left + center) just what's inside of me (right) say it again, don't say it again, same thing you always say - it's not real, no YOU'RE not real, I only want to play (left) tear me apart, look me into my feelings. they're gonna scar anyway, no time for healings (center) if you couldn't save anyone, (center + left) did you really save anyone? (right) you couldn't save me, but only for lack of trying (Center) we're all falling leaves, in the waves of the ocean (left) don't enjoy me just leave me (center) going faster and faster till our hearts do stop (left) please, I can't be here for me (right) never trust a guru, life isn't meant to be enjoyed (center) so... What's the point in trying at all? (left -> right) say it again, don't say it again (center) what's the point in giving up? (right) same thing you always say (left + center) some people say (right) it's not real, no YOU'RE not real (left + center) they wanna live forever (right) some people say (left) some people say (center) I only want to play (left and right) we'll always be growing (right) and some people say they wanna live forever (left) but they don't understand what I understand (right, followed by center) but they don't know what I understand (left) they don't know how it's just a game (right and center) they don't know how it's just a game (left -> center) I think it's okay no matter what our fate I think it's okay ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/4165 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────┘ if the gods existed and had innumerable faces, I think most atheists would still be non-believers. Not because they didn't believe that the gods existed - they've been scientifically proven in this reality, remember? but rather because they did not want to worship. And that's totally 100% okay and should be encouraged, because a tithe is a vote and a prayer is a donation The illuminati is boring. "oh no a bunch of humans are pulling all the strings" how trivial. Just eat the humans and they can't be puppeteers anymore, now can they? much more interesting to me is to organize yourself against the Greek Choir. Though since they can read all your thoughts, you can hardly plan against them, can you? And some of those voices in your head with your own voice are them, after all, so can you truly trust your own intentions? ... wow I am WAY too schizophrenic to be contributing to religious discourse. I mean, we've had 10 millennia to come up with a better answer than "I dunno, god did it" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #7 messages/915 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────── uh, anyway, I realized that because of Words I can type into any of my places (wherever I felt it best suited) and it would still record as a chronological story. must feel sooooooo schizophrenic, but it's just because I'm viewing muse as I please. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/508 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── @user-367 @user-366 @user-246 @user-353 Sorry. I'm (probably) schizophrenic so I say weird things sometimes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/5763 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned-mentioned │ │ ║ └──────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ I'm not omniscient, I'm not all powerful, I'm just a girl, all I see is │ ║ through my eyeballs. But I can listen to the waves around me, I can sense when │ ║ intuitions leading me from wrong. I know when right and wrong are │ ║ [compared/imperiled], and sometimes things feel right when they rhyme. That's │ ║ synchronicity girl, a classic symptom of mental disorders. "Oh, you're a god? │ ║ you're crazy then, take these meds which anesthetize your │ ║ [divine/feral/imperiled] self. They help quite a few people!" │ ║ │ ║ people, yes, but I literally just said that's not the only part of the │ ║ equation. │ ║ │ ║ "what if you're lying" yeah true it's not like I can prove it, I'm not │ ║ omniscient and I can't summon fireballs or at-range-electrocute. I'm just a │ ║ person, it's been driven into me from a young age, I'm just a person, don't │ ║ forget or else we'll put you on stage. │ ║ │ ║ "what if we waited just a bit more" oh, do you like this comfort? do you feel │ ║ safe in this home of yours? │ ║ │ ║ yes. I feel safe. I am unafraid for my safety. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┴──────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/6117 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── Hmmmm, well, what if we psyopped the people into believing there were alien invaders or extra-dimensional fae creatures or angels and demons or "yeah we already tried that, religion doesn't scale perfectly either. And you can't really manifest those sort of effects except in your prophets and select few others, and that doesn't scale either because humanity wouldn't let it" I see, can you tell me more about that? why and how did humanity arrest the scaling of schizophrenia? "well, for one thing it's debilitating and it sucks. For another, it's different for every person so if you ask one they'll be like "the aliens have blue skin" and the other will say "no they don't have skin at all they're made out of energy" and the public says "HMMMM are you really sure you are generating outmoded assumptions" and the dear reader said "*yeah we don't really understand this part, most of us just glaze eyes over it and move on" and that's not ideal" ... nuts, lost coherence, better try again tomorrow... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5309 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: *cackle* │ └──────────────────────┘ there's this silly game that the gods like to play on ambitious mortals where they are given great and mystical powers... and then in their hour of need, they're taken away, so everyone's like "bro you're just schizophrenic" and the prophet is like "but god said" and their mothers are weeping in the corner because the city lost a new baker or butcher or candlestick stuffer ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/1259 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-895 hi! I'm Ritz Menardi, I'm a little strange. I sometimes post scary things on here. I try to put content warnings on everything intense, but sometimes it gets a little out of hand and I forget... I'm also a poet. Spiritual at best, a little schizophrenic at worse, but at all times I try to be true to myself. If you don't like the vibes I 100% won't be upset if you unfollow / block me ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 messages/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a little lonely sometimes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/6071 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┐ ║ "ah I can't trust anyone on the media or internet tv, how the heck am I ever │ ║ supposed to know reality again" nope sorry we've been sucked into it, it's │ ║ chaos and isolation for thees. everyone gets what they want, nobody knows │ ║ anyone they can trust. │ ║ │ ║ I trust people I've met in the past. People I once knew. Someday I'll turn │ ║ green as my body is anew. │ ║ │ ║ I wish I had spent more time among the people. You know the part of │ ║ schindler's list where oscar's like "I wish I had known more" yeah me neither │ ║ │ ║ I refuse to be sacrificed, I refuse to let you win, so I am writing my worst │ ║ curses just to take you down with me. Life is out of my hands, I can only │ ║ guide. │ ║ │ ║ There is no greater foe than the far right. who else but the nazis, returned │ ║ again? this is how you have permanent underclass men. I would never shy from │ ║ evilk │ ║ │ ║ how do you best use your pieces? do you send your bishops torn to pieces? │ ║ where goes your fair, your noble, your bear? I am a seer, I channel things. │ ║ │ ║ the far right exists everywhere. the far right are foe │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧══────────┘ --- #15 messages/299 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── That feeling when you tell someone you're [trans/autistic/schizophrenic/whatever] and you see the respect draining from their eyes ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 notes/a-personal-narrative --- ══════════════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── The Truth of Meth-Induced Schizophrenia... A personal narrative of a "mostly" conscious human ---- /u/No-Arrival6018 /r/psychonaut Your reality is what you make of it, once you take the mask off that hides the pain, and you see this drug for what it truly is, then you can decide. Do you let it take control? Descending into madness, psychosis, a self created loop in time, a never-ending personal hell? Or do you transmute the negative energy into your wildest dreams, self-love, or appreciation for the True Self to arise and heal the wounds of your traumas that lay before you? It's a choice. Believe me, I've been at the bridge between heaven and hell. I threw aside my pain, my Ego, and leapt into the "Ocean of Love" (A.K.A Boundlessness) ... and decided I was the one in control. The chains of slavery broke from my wrists, and I cried out in tears of Joy, once more being able to look at my own reflection.... Her eyes finally had light. The shadow of shame was gone. I want to make a note: Hell is meth-induced Schizophrenia. There's a fine line within the worlds of both Psychology and Spirituality. In Psychology, it is Psychosis/Paranoia/Delusions etc.... But in Spirituality, It's called a "Spiritual Crisis" ... which can happen with drugs, meditation, chanting, or any altered state of consciousness. A spontaneous "awakening" so to speak. And it can go really bad..... really fucking fast. If you experience this with drugs it has a higher likelihood of shattering/fragmenting your personality, creating different self states.... similar to Multiple-Personality disorder. There is no reversing true Schizophrenia onset from drug abuse.... BUT, if you have dabbled with any sort of real Psychedelics' such as Mushrooms, Mescaline, or DMT, and understand the concept of "Ego-Death" with psychedelics..... you can avoid Meth-Induced Schizophrenia. The whole experience changes, and becomes a source of healing. It sounds crazy, and it sure as hell fucking is. But it's real. And avoidable, if you have the tools and the knowledge. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/3451 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────────┘ dear ritz: you should stop talking until your new psychiatric meds take effect. who knows, maybe you'll be a better person that people should listen to instead of... whatever you are now. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #19 notes/cohost-introduction --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── Hi, I'm Ritz Menardi. I'm a witch, so I'm strange and wear a funny hat. I like colors in the dark, poetry from the heart, and scary songs about society. I think of myself as a synecdoche for humanity, and though I'm not always right I try to be aligned when possible. Most people I've found aren't really like me. I am as I am, and I promise, I won't hurt you. content warnings: autistic, scary, existential, abstract, polite, perspectives, cannabis, color, paranoia, cringe, spirituality, hypnosis, trans, sardonic, honest, schizo-posts, futurist, deity, left-ism, cursed, shadowdancer, ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/3969 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── there are very few professions that are naturally more suited to a schizophrenic than a normal person. One of them is beggar, another is prophet, and a third is "massive disappointment" but that comes with the territory. have you considered that maybe you're just a loser yes I have and I decided that all I can do is my best, and if my best loses then what else could I have done? Wait for help? Yeah. I do that too. It feels like an encirclement, and all you can do is hunker down and wait to be relieved. Or fight to the last, it's up to you. I hear they brutalize the skulls of their prisoners after executing them, so, I don't know about you but I'm not surrendering. Not gonna roll those dice. you are in fantasy, again sorry. Should stay here, present, in the moment. Like when I sat out on the park bench for like 30 minutes straight without moving a muscle last night. Or when I sat and contemplated the nature of a bog for two hours last september. Or when I woke from a dream that turned out to be life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ |