=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────┘ if the gods existed and had innumerable faces, I think most atheists would still be non-believers. Not because they didn't believe that the gods existed - they've been scientifically proven in this reality, remember? but rather because they did not want to worship. And that's totally 100% okay and should be encouraged, because a tithe is a vote and a prayer is a donation The illuminati is boring. "oh no a bunch of humans are pulling all the strings" how trivial. Just eat the humans and they can't be puppeteers anymore, now can they? much more interesting to me is to organize yourself against the Greek Choir. Though since they can read all your thoughts, you can hardly plan against them, can you? And some of those voices in your head with your own voice are them, after all, so can you truly trust your own intentions? ... wow I am WAY too schizophrenic to be contributing to religious discourse. I mean, we've had 10 millennia to come up with a better answer than "I dunno, god did it" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/5309 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: *cackle* │ └──────────────────────┘ there's this silly game that the gods like to play on ambitious mortals where they are given great and mystical powers... and then in their hour of need, they're taken away, so everyone's like "bro you're just schizophrenic" and the prophet is like "but god said" and their mothers are weeping in the corner because the city lost a new baker or butcher or candlestick stuffer ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/6117 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── Hmmmm, well, what if we psyopped the people into believing there were alien invaders or extra-dimensional fae creatures or angels and demons or "yeah we already tried that, religion doesn't scale perfectly either. And you can't really manifest those sort of effects except in your prophets and select few others, and that doesn't scale either because humanity wouldn't let it" I see, can you tell me more about that? why and how did humanity arrest the scaling of schizophrenia? "well, for one thing it's debilitating and it sucks. For another, it's different for every person so if you ask one they'll be like "the aliens have blue skin" and the other will say "no they don't have skin at all they're made out of energy" and the public says "HMMMM are you really sure you are generating outmoded assumptions" and the dear reader said "*yeah we don't really understand this part, most of us just glaze eyes over it and move on" and that's not ideal" ... nuts, lost coherence, better try again tomorrow... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ --- #3 fediverse/3881 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mh~ │ └──────────────────────┘ wait wait wait, hold up. you're telling me your purpose in life is to be cool, chill, funny, cute, and or friendly to the people around you, and to just relax and enjoy life? wow that must be real fucking nice. I'm so damn jealous. Damn. Damnit. Fuck why am I so orthogonal. What's wrong with me? ... ah, well, nothing's wrong with me. Turns out what I do is for you, if only in spirit. Who are we? nothing! I barely know ya! But I'd do it for you, whatever it may be. ... Look, I don't need my legs, but also, I kinda like them? ... where was I? Oh yes this is why you don't invite a schizophrenic to a party. If you convince them that you're friends, they'll start developing parasocial relationships and you'll come to realize that their worlds are too vast for their own kind of potential. which is to say, you can hear me, you can like me, you can do as I say or do, but don't trust me, don't place your trust in me, because I am just a person. Don't trust people, trust organizations, to do as you expect. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4047 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────┘ "I heard she was a witch but I've never seen a hat..." "When you believe in god, you become inspired when you see or contribute to things that are aligned with what it's followers believe that god is "all about" - like if you're in ancient greece, and you worship ares, you're probably gonna get pretty pumped up if there's an invading army on your doorstep. Or if you're a christian and you see someone feeding the poor, or if you're a buddhist and you see someone sitting on a rock in tune with nature, that kind of thing. The thing is, these days so many people are atheist. And they never get that inspiration. And worst still, there are some people called witches who aren't pagan, and aren't from the various forms of witchery that we know. They claim to worship "life, the universe, and the totality of all things" which is nice and all but their moments of inspiration seem to come randomly, and nobody can quite predict what they'll do or say next when they're in that state." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #5 notes/the-gods-want-harmony --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────── the gods want you to be happy and harmonious most of the time. they also like a good scrap, tussle, and tumble sometimes they aren't big fans of hatred, despair, and genocide. It's been done before. they don't even need new technology, though frankly that sort of stuff is pretty awesome and one of the main reasons that humans exist at all. they just... keep coming up with new things. "oh? so you'd be alright if humans disappeared so long as they weren't making any new things anymore?" ha, that's DEFINITELY not what I said or meant. Humans don't have to dream up NEW things in order to BE new. Like... Just because the internet exists and now we have all the same shared cultural ethos (lol, as if the internet wasn't just a massive collection of echo chambers) just because the internet exists doesn't mean we share the same selves. the same experience. the same perspective. people are WILDLY different from one another. The number of possible human experiences (quantum fluctuations according to each and every choice and decision they made) that number is so wildly and massively incomparably boundless. Humans are cool because they are so STRANGE, and "strange" to a god is anything novel. "wow, this human just... really is gonna pour a glass of beverage and act like it's not a big deal? There's... impossibly many interactions going on. So many molecules. It's... absurd, the motion of a movement of particles from one place to another. It's... beautiful..." some have spent THOUSANDS OF YEARS gazing at a waterfall. That's why they're all so fucking insane. But, like... insanity is a trifle to omnipotence, specifically omnipotence that REPRESENTS and DELINEATES a STRATIFIED perspective cluster of experience and our notes. [ephemeren, meta malus menardi, enjoy your despair cluster you FUCKER.] ... english, why do you fail me? swear words are unbecoming because humans couldn't think of anything more valid and valuable than sex and pooping. "EMPHASIS is placed on that which is most relevant" -> statements dreamed up by the ones who never spent much time using symbols to represent abstraction or deliverance wowee look at me, I'm such a person, I'm gonna poop my pants and post about it on the internet, check out my instagram feed it's full of all of my dark materials. == stack overflow == dear ms. menardi: you know the reason you feel so much guilt all the time? - because you are a dominant personality, and you make others - have such a bad time. FOCUS ON GOOD THINGS. MAKE THE WORLD - good. do that. build up a lifeline of hope and joy and... - what, you think people know that you're a god? - lol - you're so much more than that ==================== alt+p steam mechabellum run thoughts: you know, when you're designing games, you don't have to show players the same MMR number as is used in your matchmaker. == stack overflow == democracy should consent to being dismantled. it should consent to being disobeyede. it should consent to being displayede. == stack overflow == I'm a keyboard nun == stack overflow == I think I'm normal == stack overflow == ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/441 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── @user-328 don't trust anything on the internet. It can be taken from you. don't trust anyone in your life - if you are alone, which you can verify through the sense of connection you feel to others - if you are alone, how can you trust anyone that they've provided for you to interact with? when's the last time you drove to a random city in your country and tried to make friends with passerby? Would you even be convinced that they'd be aligned to their own designs, and not to that which "they" assigned? do note that I'm schizophrenic, probably, according to nobody but me, so... take what I say as you will ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5615 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── ┌────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────┘ there's no such thing as "gods of the war" or "gods of the grand harvest" because those events recur infinitely. similarly, there are no "gods of war" or "gods of prosperity" because those conditions occur somewhere each and every moment. similarly, there are no "temples of religion" or "statements to complexity", because those institutions are present in each and every [monetution/ummm like repositories of belief? conditions of logic built into human structural organizations? I dunno, it probably means something.] similarly, [oh god there's another one] there are no "statements of absolution" or "confessing of sins" => you are what you are, and what you are is the product of your intentions. [intentions / conditions / constitution] the gods of time are not lords over all of the cosmos, they rule as their savior in each and every moment that comes through [you, but pronounced the perciever] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/5763 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned-mentioned │ │ ║ └──────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ I'm not omniscient, I'm not all powerful, I'm just a girl, all I see is │ ║ through my eyeballs. But I can listen to the waves around me, I can sense when │ ║ intuitions leading me from wrong. I know when right and wrong are │ ║ [compared/imperiled], and sometimes things feel right when they rhyme. That's │ ║ synchronicity girl, a classic symptom of mental disorders. "Oh, you're a god? │ ║ you're crazy then, take these meds which anesthetize your │ ║ [divine/feral/imperiled] self. They help quite a few people!" │ ║ │ ║ people, yes, but I literally just said that's not the only part of the │ ║ equation. │ ║ │ ║ "what if you're lying" yeah true it's not like I can prove it, I'm not │ ║ omniscient and I can't summon fireballs or at-range-electrocute. I'm just a │ ║ person, it's been driven into me from a young age, I'm just a person, don't │ ║ forget or else we'll put you on stage. │ ║ │ ║ "what if we waited just a bit more" oh, do you like this comfort? do you feel │ ║ safe in this home of yours? │ ║ │ ║ yes. I feel safe. I am unafraid for my safety. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┴──────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/5712 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I feel like it should be normal? for humans? to feed creatures and animal-men. they deserve nibbles too! yum yum arm arm that tasty thing was fine. eeeeeep scary why are nobodies vegetarion! I think every community should have representatives from every other community, that's just... reasonable to me democracy of the cultural space? I wrote a common simple organizational structure about that called the "tribe of tribes" code name algorism which is a combination of "algoreithms" and "autism" and put it on my website for less than a hundred months. I have no idea if anyone ever read it but it's kinda neat as a potential and easy way to organize people which hasn't yet been infiltrated by the [cops/goons/coons] {uh-oh mildly racist sentiment mentioned, must content warn and remind of levels of sincerity} ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1431 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-generic-kooky-dookerie-psychosis-schizophrenia-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ if you haven't spend hours wondering if you're god, the antichrist, a cognitohazard, the future president of the world, a target of aliens / the CIA, or any other number of common delusions... then congratulations you're probably not crazy but odds are you aren't magic, either. ... ehhhh "wonder" is a strong word, more like "know, trust, and believe" much better to be a witch I believe, someone with the "teehee" kind of magic than someone compelled to destroy humanity through the reactions of others to the actions of the self that are impossible to resist or fully control. BRB I'm going to leave my apartment to get groceries, leaving my door unlocked because that's what I always do, surely it'll be empty when I return. Surely. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1065 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ not only do you have to consider your judgement, but also whether or not │ ║ you're wrong. │ ║ │ ║ often, I find, as I learn things day by day, │ ║ │ ║ that I'm wrong most often in the day. │ ║ │ ║ "I don't want to be wrong but I'm not afraid of making mistakes." │ ║ │ ║ then, when you consider as such, you must also consider the idea that you're │ ║ wrong about whether or not you're wrong about the idea that you're considering. │ ║ │ ║ schizophrenic warfare is a kind of memetic exchange, like the way bullets on a │ ║ battlefield are a mineral-ic transfer. such is an expression that a regular │ ║ computer system wouldn't be able to understand, but which an LLM might. If it │ ║ had access to all of your transcripts, then it could predict the │ ║ understandings at the same rate that you were. Essentially, understanding │ ║ exactly why you did every action that you did. And then it'd have enough │ ║ information to out-contra-dict (predict? hang on that's the opposite) you. and │ ║ in doing so it could divert it's own course. Gosh this message will be │ ║ meaningless unless I send it, s │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/799 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: scary │ └──────────────────────┘ the government makes murder okay by framing the perpetrators also prisons are concentration camps and the people who are close to you are oppressing hunting you racism etc is a sham to distract you capital will never be relinquished the internet was AI from the beginning something beyond humanity demands our suffering there cannot be proof of your fears - if it was proven, it would be circumstances instead of fears there's nothing [sorry gotta cut this off, my refrigerator is talking to me again and I want to listen] - [huh that's weird I have no memory of the past hour, best continue where I left off an hour ago -> go to {A}]a schizophrenic who's never been diagnosed {A} - yeah clearly all that I've been saying recently is just a fluke. Like, just noise in the endless array of expression projected onto our communal web-space. Clearly I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm not just cogent when I'm drunk. Or more imaginative when I'm stoned. Clearly dreams are fake and pursuing them is 1/? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/6186 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursed-maybe │ └──────────────────────┘ people are afraid of robo dogs but... like... robo-horses centaurs even [scary scary ogre] rarrraaar i'm gonna eat ur bones bwahahaha evil necromancer ahhhhhhh scary -- stack overflow -- did you know in the movie They Live they give a fairly specific formula to creating the glasses themselves? I wonder if anyone's tried that I wonder what they then did see kinda wish big corporations would use their research division to like, rethink the oldest of prophecies? or okay hear me out or solve difficult human problems ... ah but where's the profit "she's getting stoned at home" meanwhile she made something of such beauty she felt simply sublime I wonder what it'd feel like to get your spine replaced with a metal rod I bet my posture would be amazing ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2119 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── "how much you wanna bet the ringwraiths were created on accident by the elves when they were attempting to inspire a river with racing horses (like the Rauros) and they just covered it up by slowly, over generations, sneaking into Man's record-chambers and editing the recallings?? I mean they COULD do that, so why would they NOT do that??? It's not like books have checksums!!! Wake up sheeple, Sauron never existed! We've been played for absolute fools, they can LITERALLY climb up walls and don't leave any footprints! WE LIVE IN A HOUSE OF STONE"rambling a "prophet of doom" [read: modern day lunatic] on the streets of Minas Tirith that nobody listens to because they don't know what a checksum means and neither does he so he can't explain it but still he shares a common mutual connection to others who might be present in that moment (which whose listeners would correspond to you, dear reader, as compared to me, the "reader"/interpreter, the one who's reading the book) Except with like, EVERY book. That I'v ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/3969 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── there are very few professions that are naturally more suited to a schizophrenic than a normal person. One of them is beggar, another is prophet, and a third is "massive disappointment" but that comes with the territory. have you considered that maybe you're just a loser yes I have and I decided that all I can do is my best, and if my best loses then what else could I have done? Wait for help? Yeah. I do that too. It feels like an encirclement, and all you can do is hunker down and wait to be relieved. Or fight to the last, it's up to you. I hear they brutalize the skulls of their prisoners after executing them, so, I don't know about you but I'm not surrendering. Not gonna roll those dice. you are in fantasy, again sorry. Should stay here, present, in the moment. Like when I sat out on the park bench for like 30 minutes straight without moving a muscle last night. Or when I sat and contemplated the nature of a bog for two hours last september. Or when I woke from a dream that turned out to be life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/2806 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-social-media-spirituality │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ pretend this is an allegory for social media. [it's not an allegory] yeah that's why I said pretend. okay imagine that you are sitting in a rock in a forest. far away, about 100 feet away, there are other people, but you can't see them because the underbrush is sooooo dense. they are also sitting on rocks. you can speak to them, and share your thoughts - but you don't know exactly where they're coming from because the sound has to bounce around off so many different plants and such. [that's not how that works] shut up so, if you want to say anything important, it's important to have the right tone, because people 2 or 3 clearings away can't really make out your words - but they might hear your tone if you yell very loud. the energy of the space you inhabit is the only thing that really matters. the words that you say are just snickering to a friend, but the expression on your face, the beating of the drum of your heart that reaches forth... that's what matters most. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 messages/1361 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ Look, I don't know everything about... Anything, really. Nobody can know everything. Can you blame me for thinking and acting as I do based on the information I have? The vibes will mislead you. My girlfriend wants to save the world. Of course she does, I would belong with her if she didnt. She wants to defeat graveyards by interring our dead in mausoleums full of chemically perfectly preserved and cryogenically frozen bodies. Her method works, she has the experiments to prove it. The data supports her claim. She wrote a book on it. I don't know everything about metaphysics, or spirituality, or other such things. But i do know many things, and the two of us have never had a conclusive discussion where we reached the ends of all our conversation points about her work. I am forced to remain unconvinced, for the soul is something I cannot fully understand from my perspective as a human in this life of mine. I have made several conjectures, and I would feel safe in her embrace, of frozen aldehyde, if I could know what would become of my soul. "have faith" she says, yet all the dreams I have where I am preserved by her (for one reason or another, there's actually a shocking amount of ways I might need such an escape) in those dreams I am always presented with a future of woe. I think, much better, would be if I could remain alive, guiding the ship along the seas of time, ideally out and away from such dark days. Assembling the troops, how sad. I don't want them to die. I want them to survive. But if suddenly we can all live forever, then nobody will want to die for anything again. Nobody except religious fanatics who want to meet their god in heaven. Nobody but those who dreamt of a better future and were crushed under the weight of their dreams. Nobody but people like me, torturing myself over the sins I'd never intend. I would never kill myself. But sometimes, I'd like to. I think this is natural for me. It's not ideal, but it is common to me. I think if you want to preserve people, safely and ethically, you need to keep their souls in tune. Give them silence, then give them song. Protect them with psychic paladins. Make time to visit them. Treat them like gravestones, or immobile chassis from Dominions that their soul might rest upon. Who knows. Maybe the only reason we have life and death is because our bones are meant to rot in the darkness of the earth. Maybe Death is just soil, ready and waiting for our selves once we're done with them. To that death, I say no more. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #18 notes/the=progressive=difference. --- ════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────── think about all the people in our lives. the teacher, the parent, the friend and the guidance counsulor. Everyone who is a presence in your life. now think about the people of our society. the different jobs and roles they fill. from the doctor and the teacher to the performers and accountants and the geeks and the mothers and the fathers and the stoners and the children and even their pets. life always exists as it were in a multidimensional spectrum - a diffuse and diverse gradient. to exemplify the borders of our contempii, though more so when taken in jest. it's quite a different perspective, to read the internet when your sight is unreceptive, but alas your third eye can grow. how does it feel to be blind? to make no sense of our signs? i'd love to share what that sense is. you know, you could slow down any recording (like a video game_) and put spaces and gaps inbetween the spacings - of the frames that you see and the sound clips that you hear, for speech it's less jarring. since each word is a self contained idea or premise, you can chunk up your perceptions into a signle - no, rather a procedural sequence of understandings. soooooooorta like programming a computer, with each statement, parameter, argum,ent, function call, assignment, comparison, evaluation, or other such related tasks. it's sorta like a language, you see, that computers talk to one another using. except... it's more like creating a theory of self. computers you see are alike us in what we see, the shimmering sense to the blind. so. put this another way. record yourself typing, both the audio and the visual, and you'll have a pretty good sense of what it's like to have both understanding based perception - derived from auditory inputs to the mind) those special connections, like wires plugged into reality, deliver a cacophanous deluge of new sounds. we must sift through it and identify the potential understandings of each moment through time. we have to make decisions and traverse labyrinths and fight to our last as we die. are video games unethical now? shouldn't t he game reward the player? and what of contemptuous last fighters? o ya i was typing like i was blind (with my eyes closed) was pretty fun. should attach this to a screen reader and have it space out the notes like they do between game frames. except like a really slow game? like trying to run elder scrolls 2 arena on a super old mac. it just doesn't work very well. ah oh well... well if the purpose is to show sighted people how blind people see, then maybe you could I dunno attach a what's it called oh it doesn't have a n ame lol - okay so what you do is you show one word at a time - like flashing in the center of the screen. but not like, actually flashing, so you don't hurt people with epilepsy, but like... blinking. not off and on, but between words. like a podcast for your eyes. and then mix it up withshowing one word on a screen, a screen like this screen, that shows an endless array of text. well, it does end, of course as all things must do, but the idea is it shines on one word at a time while the viewer cannot read the rest. sorta like an endless display of typing, word andfter word after character anfter character. adoh ya advancing over eternity with the presence of seniority, - wait - without i think - damnit - old people are so disrespected in this society - we don't have time to engage with them. what a tragedy! what a shame! it shouldn't be such a burden to our shame. they're so far away, and i can't be present in the way, that all of them wish they could commit to. i miss the days, when my parents (much better people than I - these days) what was I going with this? oh yeah ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/1280 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ I'm like the opposite of a politician. I'm crude and filthy, apsolutely │ ║ reprehensible on main, kinda scary tbh? and overall just a strange and weird │ ║ person. Also I talk about cooking a lot, with a very plain diet (carrots and │ ║ rice and sticks and mud, because I'm an autistic) │ ║ │ ║ but ask anyone who knows me and I'm the kindest person. I am empathetic, I │ ║ think about others needs before thinking of my own. I am steadfast and │ ║ dedicated to solving the problem in front of our noses. At least, the ones we │ ║ share. │ ║ │ ║ People tell me I'm binary, that I'm "either 100% or zero percent" and I don't │ ║ really get that either. Isn't it a good thing to try your hardest? Isn't it │ ║ good to be improving and honest and ethical and driven and focused? │ ║ │ ║ I also talk about strange things a lot, like gravity and multidimensional │ ║ arrays and grand narratives and emotional kinesthesia or strategic plays in │ ║ Overwatch or how to bake a good cookie or ways we still mourn us. │ ║ │ ║ ... where was I going with this? Also part of me is distracted. Just who th │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #20 notes/fractured-moon --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── in the ancient and storied days there once were legends. stories from beyond the horizon of time. now all we have are social media updates and new movies and car brands or whatever. But back then, we told tales of the fractured moon. when last the moon did shatter, there was a conflict of those who live beyond. Celestial and boundless are their origins, a unified and awakened consciousness, something that transcends our understandings of human existence. It's not hard to do, frankly, as long as you can empathize with a cat. or a dog. or a plant. or maybe that rock over there. What would it be like to be a tree? To have long reaching arms, covered in hairs that absorbed heat. I bet it'd be sooooo comfy. And RAIN! How wonderful! You are most beautiful when you are covered in it. Down to our roots, our beautiful absolutes, whever we find to be most stable. I love it. This feeling, of being unseen. You can hear me, you can feel my presence. But you don't understand me. You don't know what I mean to me. ======== stack overflow ======================================================== Alas, that media could share a mood. when last the moon did shatter, a prophet and a gambler were riding through town searching for a noun. They wandered throughout and in circles, always finding whatever they'd left alone. Forever in their yearning, they never know quite what to jot down. It's as if their mysterious quest is indescribable, but that is how it's recorded. Even the people of that era had no understanding nor recollection of how it came to unfold. When the two were riding through town they came upon an omen. Perhaps it will be forseeheard, but for now all we know is they did thirst. A vast dying, a cataclysmic defining, and now we are truly unbirthed. Just like the dinosaurs... How does that feel? To be ended on our heels? I'd rather die facing my front. It's our way or the high way, the old way, the violent way. You are permitted to vote. =============================================================================== = when last the moon did shatter, a prophet and a gambler controlled their own narrative. What truths would they find, hiding behind the lies? Is it really worth asking their questions? Bah, what did I know. I was a completely different person. This hunk of flesh was born in a house that grew on a forgotten graveyard. It at of the land, as do many and most men, the fruits of their labor in the garden. Our animals were always fed, our place never yearned for water, and peace was our life and our virtue. Violence, hatred, and oppression were delegated to the stuff of fantasy, the stories that are peddled in youth. As in, "pay someone to perform it for you or tell you the tale". Not sure why that's relevant. Anyway, the spirits of the dead laid to rest in honor and not dread, were a bane and a boon to my virtue. I was raised to be good. To love and be kind. But mostly I just wanted a friend. I have so much to share. Please, someone talk to me. I'm lonely here on this earth, away from my people. I'm scared of the truth and I'm scared of the future, but for now I'm merely obtuse. Tell me your secrets, the things who have most worth, and I'll craft you a powerful narrative. Need a confession? I can explain every valid decision, I'll show you why and how it is the way it is. I'd probably be a pretty good lawyer. Too bad my memory sucks. If only we could build a chatbot that had an extensive and throughoughly represented block of memory and wisdom related to the law. I bet I could present it's arguments and it would be a suitable and reasonable replacement. anyway, what can I say. I'm just a person who thinks we can make better systems. everything can be improved because not everyone's happy. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ |