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 @user-831 
 
 yeah. I worked as hard as I could at my last job, but I only lasted 11 months.
 
 that's labor to me. Applying yourself toward something doggedly. And I did,
 and then I burnt out and was paid just as much as someone who sat around and
 did nothing.
 
 but I wasn't doing it for money, so who cares right? what matters to me is
 that I burnt out. I need years to rest. I think that's natural. but y'know,
 rent is expensive. You need to be working 24/7 in order to be worth anything,
 and I was just not cut out to do that.
 
 I want to emphasize that I consistently did a stellar job. They gave me awards
 and I fixed difficult problems quickly, efficiently, and with minimal mistakes
 (none of which went undocumented). I was very good at what I was doing, and I
 learned quickly.
 
 but alas, the work was not suited to my abilities. I'm more of a software
 person tbh, and by "software" I mean like... basically firmware.
 
 nobody writes in C these days except for cutting edge stuff. /shrug
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 @user-1461 
 
 my issue is that I've never really had project-mates. Every time I try nobody
 will work with me. I applied to like, fifty different jobs, and nobody
 interviewed me! Sheesh, guess they don't want me. FIFTY JOBS. Entry level.
 Beginner programmer.
 
 ah well. I guess they confused someone who would work for 40,000$ per year
 with someone who was 1/3rd as useful as someone who deserved 120,000$ per year.
 
 I'd love to get experience. I'm sure I'd feel significantly differently with
 as much. Perhaps I'd even decide that programming professionally isn't for me,
 which would feel... quite defeating
 
 who can say. Not I, for I have not experienced it. Though I will say my time
 in hardware taught me that I'm fragile and can't work too much. Like a scalpel
 that dulls when used consistently, I am a scalpel that gets no practice... Is
 that really useful at all? who can say. Not I, for I have not experienced it.
 Though I do like writing logical machines. Laying out data. Picturing
 structures.
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║ how am I going to be a programmer without a degree? feels useless to be me.      │
║ wish I could code my own horoscope >.>                                           │
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║ o wait dummy that's called "motivation" and "the ability to follow through on    │
║ your ideas and planned machinations" - yeah can I get some of that, if you       │
║ please? surely just a taste of discipline, through laboring to alter             │
║ conditions, surely a bit would suffice.                                          │
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║ c'mon don't fail me now. I can do this. I know I can. I know because I've been   │
║ told that I can, now and again through time and time yet again, always I seem    │
║ to [stack overflow]                                                              │
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║ what's time if not the present amiright                                          │
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║ it's just git, how hard could it be? it's just calculus, it's just java, it's    │
║ just... well, it's not any of those things, not really. it's memorization,       │
║ it's application of tools that you've been shown (not that you've grown). It's   │
║ a lack of responsibility, where is my honor? ah but I digress, I'm a carpenter   │
║ at heart I guess                                                                 │
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 Programming isn't technical skill. It's artistic abstraction, like making a
 marble machine that plays the piano:
 
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvUU8joBb1Q
 
 software development is about developing software, like a teacher would
 develop a student learner.
 
 "No, this part is bugged. Here's how you actually do it."
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 the flaw with open source software is also it's greatest strength.
 it is open, so it can be observed by practically unlimited perspectives.
 
 however, it lacks follow-through. a larger, more concerted effort, can often
 bring greater and more efficient results.
 
 the trick is in the balancing, and ideally you'll never falter -
 but it's best when you all get along.
 
 new ideas, new frames of mind, and more of us kept together.
 if one splinters off, the rest are at fault,
 
 and you don't want to lose your finger
 
 so why fight at all? why not focus on our own times? and then together we are
 one
 
 in sight of our homes, is when we're most alarmed, because houses are not for
 your homeless
 
 yet together they might
 have strength for the fight
 that ever bears down on our shoulders
 
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  x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x
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     x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x   x
 
 There was something else, but I can't remember. Something about open source
     software that was important enough to get me to write this note. Somewhere
     along the first line I lost it, or rather felt I needed more context, and
     then when the context was finished the original intent was lost. It's hard
     because when I go for the conclusion first and justify it with context,
     then the conclusion doesn't make sense and the context meanders. I'll try
     harder next time. These notes are my life's work.
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 I feel like the IT people who work at schools should be the ones who teach 
 classes on computer science. I'd much rather have a class taught by a sysadmin 
 than a teacher who can barely teach them excel and garageband. I mean c'mon 
 computers are the future idk why we don't get that yet. Kids need to know this
 stuff. It's not like it's super complicated and difficult, you just have to
 think about it a certain way. Once that "clicks" you have a lifetime to learn 
 about how wonderful they are. Everyone in IT has that moment, for me it was 
 installing (and then subsequently modding) video games. Sometimes I spent more
 time tweaking my system than I did actually playing games - and the kinds of 
 games I preferred were the ones that relied less on agility and were more 
 mental. Strategy games are what inspired me because I could think about them - 
 and that felt somehow more useful. Like I was learning. When I would learn 
 fighting games or FPSs I felt like I was learning a skill, like how to use a
 hammer or how to ride a bike. And idk, I felt like video games could never
 match
 reality. Like "oh boy imma push the B button to swing this sword" versus "hey 
 look at me I'm swinging this stick just like a sword and imagining so hard that
 I can picture it" - but with strategy games, you never really found 
 opportunities to practice that kind of skill. Like how often are you in a 
 situation that demands mental performance? We've sorta optimized our society 
 away from that, and toward a more passive stressed out compliance. like... 
 climate change is a thing, and nobody's doing anything about it? We're still 
 pushing down the levers that cause greenhouse gas emissions to go up? Like
 c'mon
 what's our plan. I think people who guide massive oil companies and such
 should
 be replaced if they're intentionally guiding the ship toward destruction. Like
 that's just dereliction of duty I tell ya. Oh, what's that? They're compelled
 to
 maximize profit by the contracts and restrictions of their share--holders? I 
 mean c'mon it's well past time for that. And what's all this about inequality? 
 Jeez and racism and homophobia and forced contribution - man people really put
 up with a lot of shit. Kinda makes me feel like we should make solving those 
 problems our highest priority? So we can move forward as a species? Like who
 cares about all that other shit. None of it matters. Like, what's even the
 point. We're all just "here", in the now, and what can we do but respect it? 
 It's our duty and our diligence to protect the present, as citizens of the 
 temporal experience of earth. Honestly, if the earth was alive would you be
 fine
 if it died? I can't believe that. It's well past our due date. Just get it over
 with. Maybe it'll be hard for a couple years, but you have the technology now
 to
 completely dominate the earth. No animal besides man proves any threat to man, 
 and we're telling you - you can - and that's something that you gotta remember.
 
 ...
 
 I hear it in the birdsong. I hear it in the air - it rumbles as cries at me
 from
 across and just over there. I hear in it's whispers, in it's most gallant of
 confells (?) (confused scrambling? it's talking about a car crash)
 
 Outside of my window there's a highway. Just on the other side of a concrete
 partition. Between me and the partition there is a lake, with trees and flowers
 and an island where people can picnic or have a barbeque. Around this path
 there
 are walkways, and arranged just so - the trees that have grown here are taller
 than the homes.
 
 I live on the third story.
 
 I absolutely love it. It feels like a treehouse.
 
 But my apartment is near a curve in the highway. It isn't much, nothing out of
 the ordinary, but even still there are slightly more crashes there than in
 other
 parts of the highway. Statistically.
 
 I hear sirens every day
 
 I also live right next to a fire-station. Well, it's on the same block. But
 even
 still it's a very interesting neighborhood. There's shops and food just across
 the highway, and closer to home there's a small section that has cheaper
 options. As a perpetual college student, I appreciate that.
 
 But... I've never really gone and used it? I dunno, spending money at a
 restaurant just didn't seem like a good use of my money. I only have so much of
 it you know. I'd love to be fed but I can't afford it - I wish I could.
 
 I still eat well, I mean I'm not starving over here. I know I've lost weight,
 but I dunno I just forget to eat. It's like... not that big of a deal for me. 
 whatever right?
 
 ...
 
 the birds talk about me behind my back. They think I can't understand them but
 sometimes I can. If I listen. But I dunno it takes a lot of effort. It's...
 sorta like understanding what R2-D2 is saying. Or interpreting the meows of a
 cat.
 
 They know me as the witch. I'm not very good yet, and they know that. But they
 know what to expect. /shrug
 
 I've been working on a video game recently. It's been a lot of fun doing
 programming. I like writing software and developing complex systems with
 interesting interactions. I love designing the machinery that creates a
 program.
 It's like... tinkering. It feels like building with blocks or legos, except
 it's
 for little machine parts. And then there's just sending data to and fro and
 modifying any operations it performs on it, and eventually that data reaches 
 some endpoints that create an effect that is displayed to the player. Or user.
 I should say user. Not all software is video games you know. ... I knowww but
 they're the most interesting! I love how they are designed around mechanics!
 like... game design is fundamentally about breaking down the world into ideas
 for how it should *work*, like how it should behave. It's amazing and I love
 it!
 
 It's all I can think about!
 
 I am utterly consumed!
 
 I'm also pretty sure I'm autistic.
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 I haven't been doing weed lately, which is why I haven't been posting as much.
 I want to be in a good position mentally to, idk, get a job or something? I
 swore I wouldn't, but I also swore to protect my art, and they don't want me
 here. What else can I do? I can't live with my parents or my sisters. I can't
 live with any of my exes. I can't live with randos who support me because,
 well, I'm doing that now, and they don't want me. Where would I even find
 people like that? I walk around Portland and I see people who are hardened.
 This makes sense to me. But I am soft, by design. I am soft so that they may
 be hard, and though I long to join them I cannot, for I must get stoned and
 write. I swore an oath. Yet somehow getting a job is the same thing? Like,
 it's pretty hard for me to get a job. Easy to work, hard to be employed. Can't
 do weed because it requires my full attention, yet I need to in order to build
 the foundations of a new faith. So the question is, do I work and get my own
 place, but not do weed and instead just write when I can (not as much), or do
 I try and power through where I'm at and trust that they won't poison me or
 kick me out? I think... I need to wait. I need to not do weed for now. So, I
 am going to work. But it won't be for someone else. How can I make money doing
 work, when it's my own work? If I could sell everything I made, I would have a
 fortune. I could bankroll a revolution if they paid a fair price. But selling
 it is the hard part... (I say that without pride or hubris - I legitimately
 believe that I have created a Great Work, and am continuing to add to it) so?
 How do I get my own place? The house I live in is free to me, I legitimately
 do love my girlfriend who I live with, but I am still in a tenuous position. I
 want to be alone so I can... Well, it's hard to take care of myself. I want to
 be alone so I can... Well, it's hard to be lonesome. I want to be alone so I
 can... Well, it's hard to get out of bed when you're going right to the
 computer.
 
 Maybe I don't want to be alone. Maybe I want to live in a house that loves me.
 The one that I'm in is haunted by a spirit that doesn't like it when I
 masturbate, which is... Okay. What if I ended all my poems like this?
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 hey does anyone want to hire me to do literally anything?
 
 I'll work for peanuts, and I'm pretty good at programming in C. I write pretty
 well, and I'm excellent at customer service (though my profile would beg to
 differ.)
 
 I have experience at large corporations and small ones, and I live in Portland
 OR
 
 I do game design, and many other things besides, and I'm friendly and kind. I
 promise I won't wear my witch hat to the meeting with investors, unless you
 think they'd be into that?
 
 I'm great with animals, better than people in fact, and I'm quite good with
 people, as they're just animals at best. I'm not as strange as I seem to be,
 at least not when you're dancing with my mask.
 
 I've grown quite bored, you see, and what better thing is there to be? than a
 working professional who knows what's best.
 
 I believe in our shared future, so if you'd like to work on a project just let
 me know - I work hard. A little too hard, because odds are I'll burn out after
 a year or so.
 
 I'm quite sharp, and I learn quickly.
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 ah nuts, they replaced my LLM setup with one that outputs gibberish. I swear
 it was working just a moment ago, and I didn't change it's configuration at
 all, and it's local only... right? so uh that's weird, surely it's not because
 they altered some value somewhere that I have no access to
 
 eh, maybe the newest technologies are overrated. At least, the software ones.
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 I should try putting things on my resume like "vnc" or "Microsoft outlook" -
 you know, the kinds of software that I actually used on a day-to-day basis. My
 resume makes me look very impressive (if a little inexperienced) but none of
 the tools are things that managers have used. Heck they're not things that YOU
 have used, not at work, so it makes you look like you're overselling yourself.
 You're not, but they might think you are. Idk it's late. Go to bed <3
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║ oh look at me, cargo-culting wine commands because I can't be bothered to        │
║ guess whether the windows software running on my computer is doing evil          │
║ microsoft things as part of the drivers or whatever. I mean, there's gotta be    │
║ a reason that microsoft's software runs slower on linux than linux software      │
║ runs on windows, right?                                                          │
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║ ... wait I forget exactly where I was going with this, are you saying there's    │
║ a keylogger built into the wine / windows environment software? no, but I'm      │
║ not NOT saying that. listen I'm too eepy sleepy for hardcore computing like      │
║ that! rubbin' bits between your fingers and twiddling the nose of cutie pies     │
║ is only sorta my jam - the rest of the time I like to snuggle up with a pillow   │
║ shaped like a pillow and then fall asleep to the tune of the tortured souls      │
║ being reaped from the afterlife and given new life as seeds and berries in       │
║ this one. oh, did you think death had no other homes? all things are defined     │
║ in waves, something something samsara but like, different because humans cant    │
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 there's a difference between designing software and using software. Some
 things can be made, and then saved for another day when their implementations
 may be accomplished more ethically. It's okay to say "let's leave this as
 'okay' and work on the next thing we've chosen."
 
 Check out this piece of C code I wrote last night:
 
 it doesn't compile, it's not finished, but I wrote it as-is
 
 [pretend like it was called "main.c" instead of "main.txt" - had to change it
 because mastodon thinks it's an invalid file]
 
 [actually .txt didn't work, try .png]
 
 [hmmm it realized it wasn't a valid png file, okay try screenshotting the
 code, there's only 300 lines]
 
 [sure glad there's only 300 lines]
 
 [too bad it won't let you send .zip]
 
 [won't let me name it main.png, presumably because they already have a
 failed-verified version on their machine. will rename to main-src.png instead]

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 every time a software project changes it's installation method I have to
 update my install and update scripts which I wrote explicitly so I don't have
 to go to their website and tell the world that I'm thinking about using this
 particular piece of software
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 @user-1352 
 
 by making such choices, one by one as they engage with content, they're
 necessarily sorting themselves out in their thoughts (in addition to sorting
 themselves into categories)
 
 they say writing is thinking, but I think "choosing" the most interesting is
 thinking too. Sorta like... deciding, how and what you believe about...
 whatever thing is shown on your screen.
 
 so, when you show the most polarizing options the user gets to clarify about
 how they want to see things when engaging with the software.
 
 I don't know how useful that would be... /shrug
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║ @user-713 @user-714                                                              │
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║ won't be able to meaningfully contribute to ww3                                  │
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║ both sides are slavers. we just don't see it.                                    │
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║ I don't anticipate war taking place on a battlefield, that setting is            │
║ forevermore dedicated to video games and kaiju.                                  │
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║ rather, a silent war where everyone just goes around killing their opposition.   │
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║ for once, the citizens can't help but be armed.                                  │
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║ and in the dark of night, for every time we let plight from our sight, another   │
║ of us is harmed.                                                                 │
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║ I don't know many people who've died. but maybe they're just working through a   │
║ different part of the social network. It's not like any of their technology      │
║ needs to perform as it's been advertised? well, open source does, but open       │
║ source means insecure (as long as you don't get caught, then you need to         │
║ adjust)                                                                          │
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║ of course, sometimes corporate software... kinda sucks. so it's not like         │
║ theyre very configurable away from what capital wanted.                          │
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 hi, so... yeah I'm a strange person
 
 it's tough to get to know me
 
 and this probably feels cringe to read
 
 but I once heard you should kill the part of you that cringes
 
 so... here's me
 
 I'm 
 
 ================================================== stack overflow
 ==============
 
 ... where was I? oh yes and THAT's when the nail went through the roof, and it
     scared the heck out of... wait, what was I talking about? OH yes so anyway
 
 I was born in the cool summer of 1864 - there was a rustling breeze that held a
 steady note for the entire evening, and into this world I arose. [awoke?]
 
 my mother held me but for a moment before I was whisked away to be cleaned and
 cared for. this was unusual for the time, as most mothers clutched their
 children to their breasts. But alas, I alone was spared her touch, and so I was
 cast (as if in bronze) as my own volition.
 
 as I had grown, I heard tales of distant times, and assumed they were places
 you
 could go. Then, when my time came to wander, I found nought of what I had grown
 most fonder - though I did find plenty else, besides.
 
 Instead, times are places we travel through, as a cripple might ride on a cart.
 across the sea, through lands of mystery, viewable only from the road. In 1864
 that's how other lands you'd come to know.
 
 As I travelled from place to place, it felt as if a stage had been cast, with a
 single actor or three illuminated as a spotlight. "Here, pay attention to me,
 I'm here for the story and the plot!" though often I'd glance around, and hear
 mostly my own thoughts, I grew to learn to appear.
 
 different themes, different tales, if you want to see a most marvelous scene,
 take a baby to Disney World and only pay attention to what they're looking at.
 
 My grandfather worked there, so in my first year or so I spend a LOT of time
 there. My parents were very dedicated to raising me, I appreciate every moment
 of it. Which... Is probably not a good thing to say on a transfemme server,
 oops I should delete that part
 [esc->k->k->k->0->v->shift(held)->G->$->"->*]
 
 also I should mention I'm stoned as fuck this is just what I do
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 Pretty sure I'm just legitimately a bad person. Basically everything I've ever
 tried to do has failed, and every opportunity I've mishandled or squandered in
 some way. I have no friends because I am incapable of being good, and though I
 believe in goodness I fail to manifest it in my life. I am kind, I am polite,
 I am friendly, I am honest, but none of those things really matter because I
 can't take care of myself, which means I can't take care of anyone else, and I
 can't fight because I'm a coward.
 
 Okay, I'm not a coward, I just can't be brave if I don't have a plan for
 defeating my foe. At the BLM riots I fled as soon as they brought out the tear
 gas. I knew what happened at Tiannamen and I was pretty sure that something
 similar was going to happen to us. I knew it to be true. I am a coward, but
 only because I ran when I had no plan. I could not contest tear gas, and all
 that tear gas implies, because I had no friends. I didn't have a community I
 could fight to defend. I had no weapons, no training, no orders, no guidance,
 nothing but my bravery. And bravery alone is fucking stupid, and I'm not
 stupid.
 
 Each and every decision I've made has created a worse world for me and my
 people. What's wrong with me? Why can't I do everything right? Am I cursed to
 be the worst? I try as hard as I can to be as good as I can as often as I
 can... Basically, always and forever, and yet... And yet...
 
 I've wasted all the resources that have been applied to me. I've wasted and
 squandered all these years when I could be building a better future. I have
 been in university for almost a decade, and all I've accomplished is
 friendship. Great. Parties, drugs, video games... But no studying. Studying is
 too hard on me. I'm more of a natural talent kind of person, and yet I insist
 on applying myself to tasks that seem to require trained intelligence. They
 say that genius is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration, and I refuse to
 perspire.
 
 And yet when the time comes, when someone sits me down and says "let's work on
 this together" I would die before the task is finished. Unless my partner
 needs a break, or if I need a break, breaks are okay. But I will complete that
 task with them by my side. I won't do it for them, but I'll help them because
 I'm a helper. An assistant. I don't do, I advise. I judge. I determine. I
 assess, and I plan, and I strategize. But I'm not that great at any of those
 things because nobody will hire me for those kinds of things, meaning I don't
 get experience for those kinds of things, which means I am eternally a novice
 at the only things I'm good at.
 
 I can't fucking do it anymore. I'm such a bad person and I can't be alive this
 way. It's not right, it's not fair, and I'm dying bit-by-bit each and every
 day.
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 @user-641 
 
 it's practice. you never know when you might need to blend in. really it's
 just useful as discipline, good practice to be in. I think it's okay if we
 reduce our own functionality? actually? sometimes it's good to use different
 email clients. hey do you know how to mathematically encrypt things well
 neither do I because the designers of the computer system decided that wasn't
 a very common usecase I guess.. jmean it's not like they'd spend all that
 computer resources [THEY'RE SO FAST] on thinking about correlations in your
 predicted pathway narratively through life. "ah help I'm in a psyop" haha yeah
 we do those all the time "so uhhhh I guess we'll just talk to people and see
 how they do?" wow okay it's sure nice to be part of a civil government, I
 think we can find our way to the lumber producers just fine thank you very
 much.
 
 ... oops sorry, a baby did electronics arts (challenge everything) I'm a
 little silly don't mind me brb I gotta go see~

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 There's a lot that can get done in a work week. That's like, five whole days!
 What kinds of things can you get done at work in a week?
 
 .... Oh really? That's... well, not ideal.
 
 But like... what are you doing then while at work, NOT working? Oh, it's just
 bullshit work you're doing? [nuts, cursing mentioned, one sec]
 
 So, like, if you aren't doing stuff... Maybe that means you're kept from your
 full potential doing things that don't matter to you? Huh that's not a great
 deal.
 
 But, uh... If you had five days to live, what would you do? It's not like you
 can see the world, but hey I've already done that. It's not like you can save
 it either, that's not something you build - rather, it's more like a garden.
 But I guess you can lay the foundation, give cause for the fight, and that's
 decent enough of a start, at least when you've only got five nights.
 
 ... I guess I got some writing to do, haven't I?
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║ growing up I frequently bought this magazine called "101 PC games" - it had      │
║ 101 video game demos on a disc taped to the front. It was the coolest thing I    │
║ owned.                                                                           │
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║ each edition had a different set of demos - there were over 14 published! That   │
║ means a minimum of 1404 video game demos available. Unfortunately, I only had    │
║ a few copies. Now they are precious to me, though I've long since lost the       │
║ discs. I can't seem to find a link or barely a reference to it online, so I      │
║ can't help but feel it was defining.                                             │
║                                                                                  │
║ I was given a taste of many experiences, but very few of them really resonated   │
║ with me. The others were good games, and I played them from time to time, but    │
║ my favorites were always my home.                                                │
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║ I had some full games, so I knew what I was missing, but still I looked out      │
║ for cheats. sometimes the writers would leave a hint or a clue to the solution   │
║ to a puzzle in the demo, just incase it was hard to continue. I dunno, I loved   │
║ it and it was special to me.                                                     │
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║ I wonder if you can send radio waves through the earth? Like                     │
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║ I'd like a job where I can make computer programs, write poetry, play video      │
║ games, make food for friends, grow plants and care for animals, walk or ride     │
║ my bike for at least an hour every day, and get stoned on the weekends.          │
║                                                                                  │
║ Is that too much to ask? I have plenty of other skills besides, like carpentry   │
║ and strategic thinking and wilderness survival and situational awareness and     │
║ active listening and unmitigated empathy and a curious and critical mind.        │
║                                                                                  │
║ Am I not good enough for thee? I have many flaws, I lack stamina and memory,     │
║ and while I am sharp and can think quickly and adeptly, the sharpest knives      │
║ are the first to dull, and the most focused minds are those most easy to         │
║ mislead. I trust too easily - if I meet you on the street, I'd offer my soul     │
║ to you if you said you needed it. I put the needs of others over myself, often   │
║ to my own detriment, causing others to need to assist me in turn - am I not      │
║ wretched enough to be?                                                           │
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║ Working for 8 hours a day 5 days per week is not part of my design               │
║ requirements. Alas                                                               │
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