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Pretty sure I'm just legitimately a bad person. Basically everything I've ever
tried to do has failed, and every opportunity I've mishandled or squandered in
some way. I have no friends because I am incapable of being good, and though I
believe in goodness I fail to manifest it in my life. I am kind, I am polite,
I am friendly, I am honest, but none of those things really matter because I
can't take care of myself, which means I can't take care of anyone else, and I
can't fight because I'm a coward.
Okay, I'm not a coward, I just can't be brave if I don't have a plan for
defeating my foe. At the BLM riots I fled as soon as they brought out the tear
gas. I knew what happened at Tiannamen and I was pretty sure that something
similar was going to happen to us. I knew it to be true. I am a coward, but
only because I ran when I had no plan. I could not contest tear gas, and all
that tear gas implies, because I had no friends. I didn't have a community I
could fight to defend. I had no weapons, no training, no orders, no guidance,
nothing but my bravery. And bravery alone is fucking stupid, and I'm not
stupid.
Each and every decision I've made has created a worse world for me and my
people. What's wrong with me? Why can't I do everything right? Am I cursed to
be the worst? I try as hard as I can to be as good as I can as often as I
can... Basically, always and forever, and yet... And yet...
I've wasted all the resources that have been applied to me. I've wasted and
squandered all these years when I could be building a better future. I have
been in university for almost a decade, and all I've accomplished is
friendship. Great. Parties, drugs, video games... But no studying. Studying is
too hard on me. I'm more of a natural talent kind of person, and yet I insist
on applying myself to tasks that seem to require trained intelligence. They
say that genius is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration, and I refuse to
perspire.
And yet when the time comes, when someone sits me down and says "let's work on
this together" I would die before the task is finished. Unless my partner
needs a break, or if I need a break, breaks are okay. But I will complete that
task with them by my side. I won't do it for them, but I'll help them because
I'm a helper. An assistant. I don't do, I advise. I judge. I determine. I
assess, and I plan, and I strategize. But I'm not that great at any of those
things because nobody will hire me for those kinds of things, meaning I don't
get experience for those kinds of things, which means I am eternally a novice
at the only things I'm good at.
I can't fucking do it anymore. I'm such a bad person and I can't be alive this
way. It's not right, it's not fair, and I'm dying bit-by-bit each and every
day.
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could give us some experience organizing small, short-term projects to
accomplish specific goals and tasks in an ad-hoc way that relied less upon
procedure and more on "I think so-and-so knows something about that, they were
looking into those files and posted a breakdown of how they work yesterday"
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@user-171
Hi, I wanted to say that all the posts you boost significantly improve my time
on the fediverse. I appreciate you and value you, and my feed is made more
engaging due to the things you find interesting enough to share. Thank you.
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the unluckiest person in the world failed the most wisdom checks.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/leaves/comments/uqzz33/can_anyone_give_me_some_pros_of
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last month I dropped my wallet in Hel and had to ask around to find a new one.
anyway here's some poems I wrote tonight while I try and remember my credit
card number.
![the new section as we will be including new artists work. see below: BUY MEAT [picture of two guys holding meat] capitalism's greatest efficiency was always it's ability to convert time and energy into dollars. there are no other ends, but quite a variety of means. everything from grupon to uber to fandango to multi-level marketing. none of it produces value - value is simply transcribed into another form at the cost of somebody's labor = time x energy they make it so easy to write about capitalism.](/similar-different/media/cafe922b9bffa256.jpeg "the new section as we will be including new artists work. see below: BUY MEAT [picture of two guys holding meat] capitalism's greatest efficiency was always it's ability to convert time and energy into dollars. there are no other ends, but quite a variety of means. everything from grupon to uber to fandango to multi-level marketing. none of it produces value - value is simply transcribed into another form at the cost of somebody's labor = time x energy they make it so easy to write about capitalism.")
!["But what comes next?" wavers the cowed masses as they huddle around their pocket TV's and shudder at the thought of a stranger's gaze. I simply do not care, so long as the needs of the people are met and we can once again rejoice in our shared solidarity. "What if it's worse?" worse than what? Trump? EAT SHIT. [next page] the empire treasures her city states and leaves them to be uninterrupted. Their jeweled culture is a treasure to share and covet, grown to develop and [trade and improve]. a people cherishes their queer people - they show them new ways to be. Just as an artist shares new feelings and a writer shares new thoughts, queers will culturally lead. You don't have to follow. radicals too shine headlights for economics and governance.](/similar-different/media/69d556dfb5d2228a.jpeg "\"But what comes next?\" wavers the cowed masses as they huddle around their pocket TV's and shudder at the thought of a stranger's gaze. I simply do not care, so long as the needs of the people are met and we can once again rejoice in our shared solidarity. \"What if it's worse?\" worse than what? Trump? EAT SHIT. [next page] the empire treasures her city states and leaves them to be uninterrupted. Their jeweled culture is a treasure to share and covet, grown to develop and [trade and improve]. a people cherishes their queer people - they show them new ways to be. Just as an artist shares new feelings and a writer shares new thoughts, queers will culturally lead. You don't have to follow. radicals too shine headlights for economics and governance.")
![queers when pobular society [bluh] [bluh -> meow! (tumor)] [oooooooowah bluh] [REVENGE] [next page] I miss cannabis I missing making [out/art] I miss the things that give me joy I miss the things I've given up, and all the things I once had known I know these things are available, but I'm "too focused" I sleep so much. I feel a shadow of myself.](/similar-different/media/9c1a509307de5646.jpeg "queers when pobular society [bluh] [bluh -> meow! (tumor)] [oooooooowah bluh] [REVENGE] [next page] I miss cannabis I missing making [out/art] I miss the things that give me joy I miss the things I've given up, and all the things I once had known I know these things are available, but I'm \"too focused\" I sleep so much. I feel a shadow of myself.")
![This is [to/the] only way I speak truth. I miss feeling truthful. what if I went wrong forever I miss my newfound spirits, and all of my newfound humors. someday I'll re-imagine but only for all of your years. I yearn to dream [next page] what would you think of the end of the world? would you long for a future protected? what devices would you use, improve, or otherwise make more respected? would you do it if just your [world/word] was at stake? people die every day. what are you gonna do about it? what makes you think "my way or your way" is worse than [buying/bringing] shit in a store?](/similar-different/media/1a156ef8dc856646.jpeg "This is [to/the] only way I speak truth. I miss feeling truthful. what if I went wrong forever I miss my newfound spirits, and all of my newfound humors. someday I'll re-imagine but only for all of your years. I yearn to dream [next page] what would you think of the end of the world? would you long for a future protected? what devices would you use, improve, or otherwise make more respected? would you do it if just your [world/word] was at stake? people die every day. what are you gonna do about it? what makes you think \"my way or your way\" is worse than [buying/bringing] shit in a store?")
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but I like moonmen T.T
what if the ISS was untethered
"send thrusters to space? why bother? just use them down on the surface to get
that extra oomph!"
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gosh now I gotta type the other one, my cat's gonna killllll me she really
doesn't like my typing in the middle o the night oops
![dated "almost christmas, december twenty something, in history AD." live is just the universe interpreting random data. life is a billion to one. what has been found here is impossible to descrive, so unlikely is it when sompared to the background. space is empty save for you. act as such. a human preserves and infant over an elder is purely due to the child's potential. so too does life have potential. do not waste it on folly dashes if you were given a random waveform, how long before you begin noticing irregularities in it's form? maybe... a billion or two years? espcially if like, everyone's lkooking. [non-alien-voice]: what if we made an app that shared everyone's streaming feed? except, like, twitching to on-screen events like picking up coins in mario ... anyway as I was saying, aliens showed up around the 1980s and people expect they were visiting in response to nuclear invasion events (sometimes even on their own people!) like, c'mon there's not enough mass there for that kind of detonition. it's gotta be an anomaly. ... this changes everything. HUMANS ARE IMPORTANT [there's more but I don't have room to type it all, sorry]](/similar-different/media/04789f9fdcc8af9a.png "dated \"almost christmas, december twenty something, in history AD.\" live is just the universe interpreting random data. life is a billion to one. what has been found here is impossible to descrive, so unlikely is it when sompared to the background. space is empty save for you. act as such. a human preserves and infant over an elder is purely due to the child's potential. so too does life have potential. do not waste it on folly dashes if you were given a random waveform, how long before you begin noticing irregularities in it's form? maybe... a billion or two years? espcially if like, everyone's lkooking. [non-alien-voice]: what if we made an app that shared everyone's streaming feed? except, like, twitching to on-screen events like picking up coins in mario ... anyway as I was saying, aliens showed up around the 1980s and people expect they were visiting in response to nuclear invasion events (sometimes even on their own people!) like, c'mon there's not enough mass there for that kind of detonition. it's gotta be an anomaly. ... this changes everything. HUMANS ARE IMPORTANT [there's more but I don't have room to type it all, sorry]")
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@user-889
don't give up!
I know that feeling!
it is defeated with persistence!
don't give up!
you can make it!
there's always tomorrow!
so don't give up!
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you don't have to write poetry to write notes. The poetics are just practice
for when secrecy is intended.
OR IS IT THE REAL THING? who can say.
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I'm tired of working as hard as I can and still ending up wrong
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to understand something, work backward from present understandings back to the
fundamentals of algebra. insert words. wield LLM. build a neuronal structure
many layers wide. let them coprocess bit-by-bit as they are adding new
processors to be "learning" new domain specific memory
context-processing-thingy.
"over here's the memory cells, over here are the conceptual structure"
suddenly, organified. not ideal.
much better, I feel, is for a disambiguous association of processor selves,
each contextualizing a cache in a ram. ['s horn]
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what happened when they got Martin Luther King Jr? What about Malcolm X? What
happened to their movements? What is the plan to avoid that, what lessons
could be learned?
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to be clear, salting fields is dumb, don't do it, it's bad for the environment
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║ if people at home had half as much compassion, respect, and reverence for the │
║ people abroad that the people abroad have for the people at home, we could │
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║ hiding, know that we are grown from the same tree and our apples have fallen │
║ on different sides of the hill carrying us to worlds beyond. But still our │
║ heritage binds us, so I care for you. I pray that you will ask me if you need │
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