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 instead of reading the room, I try to be the room. I think that's part of
 being autistic.
 
 But it also helps things get going.
 
 Whenever I see a subpost that might relate to me, I take it seriously, so feel
 free to boost things that you know I'll read if you'd like to speak to me.
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 @user-1411 
 
 doctors (the ones who are diagnosing autism) don't care about classifying
 people. I personally don't believe they should.
 
 Instead they try and classify symptoms, and if you don't present any negative
 symptoms then there's little reason to talk to a doctor. Meaning little reason
 to seek out an autism diagnosis except for curiosity.
 
 I was the kid you were describing btw, except maybe with a bit of neglect
 thrown in around ages 4+
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--- #2 messages/485 ---
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 Neurotyping is like astrology for autistic people who are interested in the
 humanities courses at college
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 some people are the memory kind of autistic, where they know everything about    │
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 I'm more like... the optimizing autistic, where everything has to be perfect.    │
 and if it's not perfect, then you should change it. and if you can't change      │
 it, then you should tell someone else to change it. and if nobody can change     │
 it, then you should consider it part of the context / starting variable and      │
 then just say "okay" and treat it like it's normal and something you should      │
 use to inform the rest of your optimization actions / decisions.                 │
 other people are other kinds of autistic that's not a comprehensive              │
 classification system. But I mention the first kind explicitly so I can          │
 contrast it with my experience, which is implied to be [impulsively?]            │
 different in the kind portrayed in the following contrastion, where I mention    │
 how I'm autistic and don't get "irony" or "sarcasm" that people on the           │
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--- #4 fediverse/3061 ---
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 every time I read a subtoot I assume it's about me and I mentally curl up into
 a ball
 
 doesn't matter if it's totally irrelevant, if there's no target specified it
 defaults to me because... like, who else is there right?
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--- #5 messages/299 ---
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 That feeling when you tell someone you're
 [trans/autistic/schizophrenic/whatever] and you see the respect draining from
 their eyes
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 @user-141 when I smoke cannabis it's like my ADHD symptoms drop to zero and my
 autism symptoms go from 50% to 100%
 
 I can't understand what other people are saying unless I ask for
 clarification, but I sure as shit know the shape of the universe and can
 fathom the chaotic ripples of causality and eternity. Too bad when I try and
 talk about it all that comes out is "desu desu"
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--- #7 fediverse/253 ---
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--- #8 fediverse/2120 ---
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 sometimes I think performing my art was just an excuse to use Linux. At least,
 some of my art.
 
 But hey, I'm not complaining, it's awesome.
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--- #9 fediverse_boost/6162 ---
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  i always somehow manage to succeed at things because i'm too silly to realize i was supposed to fail lmao  
  
                                                            
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--- #10 fediverse/1916 ---
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 "you don't seem autistic"
 
 wow no shit almost as if I had acting classes as a child
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--- #11 messages/169 ---
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 Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with
 metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a
 little lonely sometimes.
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--- #12 fediverse/4942 ---
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 @user-1755 
 
 ... I do that, but I do it because I want to find common subjects to talk
 about. Or I think "if I was working on a project, who can I ask if I need
 help?"
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 @user-883 
 
 every time I've tried to get a job for someone in the tech industry they
 turned out to be a fed, so...
 
 I do know people that you'd like to talk to, though. Just a few. That's all I
 personally can do.
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 "I see your value now."
 
 -> the best thing you can believe about a~~n autistic~~ person
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 @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling
 me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people
 did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively
 encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body
 language spoke for them. I'll try that next time.
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 I like when people make fun of me because it gives me a chance to defend
 myself. Simultaneously I don't like when people are mean to me. I like when
 people find me endearing, and point out the ways that I'm different. It gives
 me a chance to say "oh yes this is why I do that" which feels cathartic
 (because it validates my position) but also because it gives me the
 opportunity to improve it (through debate) and it helps the people who learned
 from me because I can improve myself and my only reason for improving myself
 is if the new thing I'm learning is better than the thing I used to do which
 means the people who learn from me are improved and the people who best me
 argumentatively are improving me.
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 you know what they say, an autistic in motion stays in motion, an autistic at
 rest...
 
 now I gotta rest on the bus for an hour or two. wish me luck.
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--- #18 fediverse/5782 ---
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 sometimes I post random silly [scary] things to pad out the serious things and
 I hope that's okay
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 you know something that would ACTUALLY help autistic people?
 
 if we gave shopping carts actual tires instead of the hard plastic wheels they
 have. The NOISE is DEAFENING and CACOPHANOUS
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--- #20 fediverse/2488 ---
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 I know how you might be feeling. If you haven't hear from someone you care
 about and it's eating you up inside, imagine them succeeding. helps me feel
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 @user-95 thank you for inviting me, it was fun : ) I'm not usually that quiet
 - weed works a little different on me than it does on humans, and one of the
 side effects is auditory processing disorder. I couldn't really understand
 what most people were saying...
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--- #22 fediverse/4543 ---
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 Ha that does sound pretty "fun" - I take it you aren't a pianist?
 
 I smell bad because... reasons... so I am always hyper-aware of myself when
 I'm in situations like that. The idea that I might ruin someone's day by being
 there terrifies me.
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 if you sit down to write and nothing comes to mind, then either nothing needs
 to be said or maybe you should spend time reading instead.
 
 ... okey dokey, time to read I guess.
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 @user-1218 
 
 oh, also, because I started taking some psychiatric medication to help with
 the aforementioned delusional thinking or whatever. Honestly I think I just
 believe in spiritual things like witchcraft and the human spirit or whatever,
 but since I'm having difficulties doing basic things my doctors decided to
 medicate me.
 
 ... but then I stopped taking those psychiatric drugs because they made me
 feel numb and dense. It was hard to think. Thinking's all I do!!
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--- #25 messages/1068 ---
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 why would they psyop me? there's a psyop about me! heck, I've never done so as
 I pleased. that's an aspiration. everything I do is at a command, whether it's
 my own or external.
 
 these days I find myself following my own. mostly. though I am always waiting
 for collaboration opportunities.
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--- #26 messages/103 ---
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--- #27 fediverse/618 ---
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 Can't stop thinking 
 
 [the rest is left blank, as a testament to the inability of the author to
 express their thoughts in a temporally contextual way. Presumably the previous
 text would be followed by an "about..." with the rest dedicated to a
 particular thought that felt important enough to share with the internet.]
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 I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I
 was a bit starved for attention.
 
 but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen
 for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to
 give so that you don't leave me.
 
 Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and
 absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather
 die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning.
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--- #29 fediverse/5636 ---
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 I think it's ironic how I ended up posting a "things I almost posted"
 screenshot directory somewhere other than where I almost posted them.
 
 and all they saw were the outtakes.
 
 I bet they'd see a completely different point of me,
 
 but they never talk to me
 
 so they don't know me.
 
 oh well, alas, it's fine I'm sure I'm being designed.
 
 who can say, I am but at productive play, please react so I can do ongoing
 story. I learn from each and every encounter I encounterate.
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--- #30 fediverse/3640 ---
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 eye tracked kindle that reads aloud the words you're looking at so you get
 visual and audio books at the same time
 
 bonus points if it does so in your own voice (give it a few years)
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--- #31 fediverse/3641 ---
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--- #32 messages/997 ---
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 I want a revolution because i want to be at home in my homeland.
 
 Look at me! Be as me! I yearn to tell my friends. But they're too busy being
 like themselves.
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--- #33 fediverse/1246 ---
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 @user-883 
 
 hehe if I don't understand how it works it's difficult for me to use things.
 My Linux friends get so exasperated with me because I'm like "cool script
 gimme like 2 days to figure it out" and they're like "bro just use these
 flags" and I'm like "no"
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--- #34 fediverse/581 ---
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 @user-428 
 
 sometimes I think about how much more productive I'd be if I had a code editor
 that let me draw arrows and smiley faces and such alongside the code. Or if I
 could position things strangely, like two functions side-by-side with boxes
 drawn around them. Or diagrams or flowcharts or graphs or...
 
 something that would output to raw txt format, but would present itself as an
 image that could be edited.
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--- #35 fediverse/2052 ---
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 @user-1074 
 
 me too 🥰 I'm saying they should be the other end of the spectrum, rather
 than the middle of the graph
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--- #36 fediverse/2774 ---
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 I want to emphasize that my mask is just as much a part of me as the other
 part.
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 Look, when I promised "Revolution or Death" I got pretty busy and kinda forgot
 to do the "dying" part, and by now it'd be a little awkward if I offed myself
 for no visible reason, so... How about we try again this summer? Maybe in a
 month or two? I'll try to keep the fire burning a bit longer this time.
 
 plus I'm better at playing the piano now so maybe that'll help somehow.
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 you can't rely on me because I can't rely on a part of me being "out" at any
 particular moment-event-message.
 
 besides, I'm always tired, because I'm always trying as hard as I can.
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 I think I'm a better writer when I'm sorta consistently taking the meds I was
 using to self-medicate...
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 oh btw to the people trying to doxx me there's a picture of me in this
 profile, but you'll have to read a LOT to find it. On the way, see if you pick
 up anything interesting that you agree with. maybe you'll realize that we're
 on the same team, and should be working together.
 
 that's the dream, at least.
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--- #41 fediverse/4075 ---
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 maybe if I "be myself" so hard that there's nothing left to keep secret,
 they'll like me??
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 @user-192 
 
 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I
 never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was
 younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn
 I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd
 be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about
 myself.
 
 So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than
 once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas.
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 sometimes I like watching videos without subtitles because it allows me to
 more adequately understand the feelings being expressed rather than focusing
 on the dictionary definitions of the words being spoken.
 
 Maybe I'm just a weird human though. Am I an alien? Or a robot? Or something
 else? Tune in next week to find out...
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 so it shall seem that sticks and mud are for me
 
 I say as I sit in my apartment eating rice and beans
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 person. Also I talk about cooking a lot, with a very plain diet (carrots and     │
 rice and sticks and mud, because I'm an autistic)                                │
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 dedicated to solving the problem in front of our noses. At least, the ones we    │
 share.                                                                           │
 People tell me I'm binary, that I'm "either 100% or zero percent" and I don't    │
 really get that either. Isn't it a good thing to try your hardest? Isn't it      │
 good to be improving and honest and ethical and driven and focused?              │
 I also talk about strange things a lot, like gravity and multidimensional        │
 arrays and grand narratives and emotional kinesthesia or strategic plays in      │
 Overwatch or how to bake a good cookie or ways we still mourn us.                │
 ... where was I going with this? Also part of me is distracted. Just who th      │
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 By being the best me that I can be.
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 That's why I like talking about things I'm interested in. It makes me more
 likely to be able to bring up something I've been thinking about.
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 @user-1218 
 
 I like to have notes for things I found that will be useful someday, but not
 today. I also throw in poetry that I write while I'm waiting for something to
 happen (or if I have an idea that I know I'll forget)
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 trying my best not to think about communism too much right now. Mostly because
 I'm waiting for everyone to catch up... when the day comes when people stop
 saying "based" and leaving it at that, then I'll make more theory. But as a
 consequence of my queer nature I shall deliver such things in the form of an
 insane twitter post on the fetlifeverse.
 
 the world waits with bated breath in the eye of the storm. Nobody knows whats
 coming, and everyone prays that it's nothing [short of revolution]
 
 ... I should probably go back to sleep, I just had to wake up and write about
 linux or whatever...
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 I can always tell when people who believe in me start thinking of me because I
 start feeling the urge to do pushups
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 help I'm too special someone come be retarded with me
 
 [-2 followers]
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 I love Linux. All I have to do is type "authserver" and "worldserver" and
 wouldn't you know it suddenly a universe is created (with very constrained
 rules) that anyone might inhabit should they desire to. It's not like I'm
 perfect - oh wait I have a toot about that, gimme a sec
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 @user-1071 
 
 I have plenty of things made, but none of it organized : (
 
 Kinda makes me wish I could like... train an LLM on my social media posts and
 use it programmatically somehow to help me organize my stuff into different
 categories according to what kind of topic or style they were written in.
 Hmmm......... There's no way I could do it, I mean, there's no way I could
 organize and edit my stuff, but with the help of a computer I might.
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 my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some
 other people who visit the house.
 
 but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice.
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 @user-147 years of practice. every time you delete what you said is another
 chance to practice that slips away. writing is the easy part, you got that
 down because you need something to delete, right? the hard part is being
 received by others, and continuing the conversation as you direct it.
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 it's easy to mistakenly mis-hear things that sound similar in their contrasted
 grammar context.
 
 I like to say "understood." when I understand something that someone's telling
 me, because all of the contrasts to that statement (like "I don't understand"
 or "can you explain more about X as it relates to Y? etc) are different in
 pronunciation and structure. Meaning it's much easier to "get" the intended
 message just based through sound-patterns. Great for people who are only
 half-listening because they're thinking about something really hard and aren't
 thinking about what you're saying as much. Great for describing problems and
 getting assistance as you both sorta mentally-puzzle through it to a solution.
 
 ... and they say debug isn't solved HA
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 @user-192 
 
 it suddenly became relevant in your life for a different reason and you wanted
 to share it again to see if anyone wanted to talk about it so you could
 explain your feelings and see perspective from someone who's maybe approaching
 the same or similar thing from a slightly different angle?
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 sometimes I decide against playing a Steam game because I don't want it to
 jump to the top of my "recently played" list
 
 Wish I could have like, a heatmap of when I played which game. I think that'd
 be useful for the archival process of my life.
 
 ... how pathetic, she measures her life in gameplay.
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 @user-562 
 
 I have that book on my bookshelf, haven't read it since high school.
 
 Maybe I should again.
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 I must be the only autistic person in the world who can't stand parallel
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 I want everyone to be able to do what they want. With oversight, sometimes,
 because we all share things and we can't agree if we don't share. and I agree
 to share, I think it's only fair.
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 @user-366 @user-367 @user-246 @user-353 
 
 Ah yes, wouldn't it be nice if everyone spoke their mind? I'm doing my part
 d=(^_^)z
 
 Thank you for adding context to what I posted. I now know better how and where
 to use it, if I ever do again. We shall see, I haven't yet read the
 examinations of the author you sent me. I'll do that before I think about the
 post again.
 
 Those 6 tabs I mentioned last night have now become 4, and soon I'll get
 through all of them - reading is a joy to me ^_^
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 acceleration-ism is just "learning the truth faster than they do"
 
 tbh should be more like "learning things to show them" but eh whatever gets
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 curling up in a ball and thinking about crying for hours is the same as
 crying. If a little bit less of a release.
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 @user-1441 @user-670 @user-113 
 
 currently toe-ing the boundary between "too neurodivergent to function" and
 "can juuuuust barely take care of themselves" and they ask me to get a job...
 no thanks, guess I'll die
 
 (in 3-4 months when my savings run out)
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 most people in the world are dumb as a bag of bricks
 
 but that's okay, I still love them, and so should you.
 
 everyone I hang out with is sharp as a tack
 
 and I love them still, for I don't have a preference for blunt objects.
 
 some people don't feel emotions
 
 I think they're just depressed
 
 some people can't stop
 
 won't stop, I say.
 
 really as long as they follow their heart and sing a tune that is true
 
 I think they're alright.
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 I am not a worker 
 
 Though I try and try, I burn right out and through 
 
 I wish I was a worker, able to apply my trade or skill 
 
 But I'm not 
 
 I do hope we can be allies, still
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 I like locally hosted LLMs because I can use them to summarize my own writing
 enough to put them in a post, or an alt-text box.
 
 I like them for other reasons too and it's hard to find people to geek out
 about them with.
two poems written by Ritz Menardi about... a lot of stuff. Here's the AI generated overview:  One way to contribute as a citizen in a country at war is by maintaining essential infrastructure and services. This can include keeping public spaces, like schools and hospitals, operational during times of conflict. Additionally, working on developing technologies that improve the quality of life for people in your community can be beneficial.  Witches, as you mentioned, are an interesting group to study and engage with. They often have a strong sense of ethics and curiosity. By interacting with them and learning from their experiences, you may find new ways to approach problems and make more informed decisions.  Staying conscious and attentive to the present is crucial for understanding complex situations and making effective choices. In times of conflict or crisis, it's essential to be aware of your surroundings and the needs of those around you.  Stories and storytelling are important for societies because they help identify weaknesses and areas for improvement. By engaging with stories from various cultures and time periods, we can gain a broader understanding of human nature and history.  Diversity in expression is one of humanity's greatest strengths, as it allows us to learn and grow together. By embracing different perspectives and experiences, we can create more innovative solutions and better understand the world around us.  [continued on picture 2] [continued from picture 1]  In the spirit of removing ourselves from the biological equation, consider exploring alternative ways of living that minimize our impact on the environment. This could include developing sustainable agriculture practices or investing in renewable energy sources.  Finally, remember the importance of freedom and individuality. By releasing the spirit of Liberty, we can empower people to make their own choices and create a more just and equitable society.  [end alt text]
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 Pay attention to me, for I am convinced that "me" is what we need.
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 I have this unreasonable compulsion that I somehow internalized at a very
 young age.
 
 I am always seeking to understand and defend the weak, the despised, the
 forsaken
 
 so if you ever hear me say things like "yes but what about the non-bastard
 cops" just shake your head and go "oh Ritz, always trying to be the protector
 of the weak"
 
 I wish I could be the protector of the innocent or something like that.
 Protecting the weak means you never really do a good job of executing final
 decisive blows.
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 @user-246 @user-473 
 
 perhaps that "light touch on reality" is what makes these pieces of art
 resonate with me. I think you're beautiful and have a good heart.
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 you don't have to write poetry to write notes. The poetics are just practice
 for when secrecy is intended.
 
 OR IS IT THE REAL THING? who can say.
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 uh, anyway, I realized that because of Words I can type into any of my places
 (wherever I felt it best suited) and it would still record as a chronological
 story. must feel sooooooo schizophrenic, but it's just because I'm viewing
 muse as I please.
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 who needs to teach animals to speak if you can read their minds? with their
 consent of course, just as they can read yours if you consent.
 
 [earlier: "hey relles can you build me a device which sits in the brain or
 retina (I think that's the word) and projects an image of another person's
 imagination stage-mindscape-place onto the brain of the other conversation
 partner?"]
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 my friends tell me stories and I build my ideas for relationships based on
 their pain.
 
 I am always haunted by questions they don't want to answer.
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 ngl I kinda hate it when people meme about donald trump being incontinent
 
 like, yeah, he pees his pants, so what? I DO TOO. Fucking sucks. Every time I
 read people saying nasty things about it I can't help but read them in my own
 voice, and that gives me plenty of ammunition to use against myself when I'm
 feeling down.
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 @user-1218 
 
 playing one of my 4 gameboys, reading some of my books or journals, using
 their own brought devices, playing with my cat (she's not sociable but if you
 don't mind her claws she can fight and that's kinda fun) watching something on
 the TV, talking with other people, making / eating food, um... sleeping... and
 "sleeping"... idk what else tho. Drawing? Getting stoned? I have lots of bad
 edibles.
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 sometimes I think I'd be better without social media.
 
 And then I remember that it's the only way I know to talk.
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 I exist now at the height of my gluttony.
 
 I need more to be demanded of me.
 
 I am not afraid to ask for help.
 
 I solve other people's problems before my own.
 
 I have very little insight into my habits and patterns.
 
 My memory isn't great, but I recall details that matter.
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 @user-1259 
 
 yes
 
 it makes it difficult to connect with them.
 
 I find that people like that need a different context, if you want to connect,
 so that you can see them in a new light.
 
 if they're still ":(" then you can't waste your energy on them - they are
 working on themselves. At least, they should be.
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 Okay. Consider: if I'm good, and hearing what I say makes you feel bad, then
 what does that tell you about you?
 
 Why else would you hear what I say if not to reflect upon yourself? And why
 would the good reflect away from the types of things that make you a suitable
 fit for capitalism?
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 Hi, I'm learning about semaphores right now and trying to explain them to a
 friend. But I only sorta understand how they work - can anyone look at this
 pseudocode and tell me if I'm on the right track?
Some C pseudocode working through the semaphore design pattern. Here's the text of the pseudocode:  /* no lock example */  void start_thread(int* x) {   *x += 1; }  int main() {   int x = 0;   for (1000 times){     start_thread(&x);   }   print(x); }  /* in this case you have no idea what will print because thread A will take x and be like "ah yes it's 423" and then in the next instruction it'll be like "I'll increment this to be 424" and in the next one it'll say "okay now it's time to store 424 in the variable X" but like... there's a thousand threads all doing that at the same time, so odds are you'll have 5 that are like "ah yes this is 423 I'll set it to 424" */  /* not a good plan. Need a lock, so only one thread can use it at once. */ /* mutex example: */  void start_thread(int* x, int* x_mutex) {   *x += 1;   *x_mutex = 0; }  int main() {   int x = 0;   int x_mutex = 0;   for (1000 times){     while (x_mutex != 0){ } /* do nothing */     x_mutex = thread_id;     start_thread(&x, &x_mutex);   }   print(x); }  /* this should print 1000, but it's basically as slow as doing it single threaded. */  #define MAX 10  void start_thread(int* x, int* x_semaphore) {   *x += 1;   *x_semaphore += 1; }  int main() {   int x[MAX];   int x_semaphore = MAX;   for (1000 times) {     for (int i = 0; i < MAX; i++) {       x_semaphore -= 1;       start_thread(&x[i], &x_semaphore);     }     while (x_semaphore != MAX) { } /* do nothing */   }   int value = sum(x, MAX);   print(value); }
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 there's no such thing as me
 
 all I am is where the wind takes me
 
 I am just a person, and I do all that I can
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 hey I'm Ritz I'm a perpetual student studying computer programming and I like
 play Supreme Commander (Forged Alliance Forever!!) and Star Realms. I write
 "poetry" and make art and stuff about computers. Looking for people to follow
 I guess so hit me up if I sound cool.
 
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 @user-367 @user-366 @user-246 @user-353 
 
 Sorry. I'm (probably) schizophrenic so I say weird things sometimes.
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 @user-944 @user-803 
 
 I'm sorry that what I said resonated with you : (
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 @user-255 
 
 sooooooon, all things in time. Someday you'll be like me - I can't even
 remember why I was so upset about that whole "dysphoria" thing. Like looking
 back it seems like a minor annoyance, but when I first came out it was all I
 could think about. Don't be jealous - just wait! It'll happen to you!
 Celebrate the euphoria, I also can't really remember that too well. I'm just
 normal now, minus my weekly shot.
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 to improve your "cat-petting" abilities, try to imagine that the wall in front
 of you is the most interesting thing in the world - stare at anything else
 besides the cat, and look at them in your periphary. Occasionally you can look
 back, but the idea is that this way they will be able to look at your face
 without painful eye contact.
 
 cats are autistic - they don't look at you unless you're looking somewhere
 else.
 
 most people stare at cats when they are engaging with them, and totally ignore
 them otherwise.
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 @user-1669 
 
 sorry, I'm on a roll. Gotta speak my mind, even if it has other stuff bouncing
 around in it. I hope you understand : )
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 @user-570 
 
 that sounds really interesting and I'd love to read anything you write about
 it ^_^
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 you know more than me and I appreciate your analysis
 
 if you ever want to work on something together let me know 
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 @user-1180 
 
 the reason I say this is sometimes it's necessary to boost a post that doesn't
 have a CW and like, I can't add one of my own, so...
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 I don't know about you, but "trying my hardest" involves giving up sometimes.
 
 How else are you to know your limits if you don't test your boundaries? And,
 after finding that there's nowhere else for you to go, you turn around and
 "give up", until you're ready for your next expedition.
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 Many autistic people will identify one particular way to do things and then be
 only capable of doing it that way. Like, falling asleep on the left side with
 their legs just so, and never learning any other ways to sleep on. But what
 happens if for example they are wounded in the arm they rest upon? They would
 have impaired sleeping capabilities! Not ideal.
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 @user-138 
 
 me neither... guess it's in-person for me.
 
 [a mysterious "they" then proceeds to set up microphones everywhere I might go]
 
 ah nuts why are all these people carrying phones around
 
 [they already know who I am, and I don't really want to be someone else, so]
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 whenever repeating letters like thiiiiiiis  or thisssss make sure if you're
 doing K's that you have at least four
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 people call me "hypervigilant" as if being constantly aware is not a normal
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 @user-895 
 
 hi! I'm Ritz Menardi, I'm a little strange. I sometimes post scary things on
 here. I try to put content warnings on everything intense, but sometimes it
 gets a little out of hand and I forget... I'm also a poet. Spiritual at best,
 a little schizophrenic at worse, but at all times I try to be true to myself.
 If you don't like the vibes I 100% won't be upset if you unfollow / block me
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 I don't really need to know if people like me. It's nice, but it doesn't help
 me.
 
 I do, however, desperately want to know if I'm helping. Knowing this would
 help me.
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 @user-883 
 
 me too! "citizen of the earth", and guess where I was born.
 
 But I also am attached to the localized region of my life, hence the favor
 shown to the country.
 
 gee these lines we draw in the sand are kind arbitrary, I mean I could
 literally just reach an arm over them and shake the hand of my mirror self.
 Kinda makes me think they're more useful as cultural demarcators instead of
 indicators of subjugative ownership.
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 I'm not an ABDL, but I can appreciate the aesthetic sometimes because I share
 a particular kinship with them due to a medical condition I have and have had.
 Plus throw in a bit of Body Integrity Identity Dysmorphia and you get my
 messed up relationship to my own physical struggles.
 
 ah, well, what can you do except be open and honest about who you are and what
 you believe? If only it wasn't so damn hard.
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 I smile at each and every person I pass on the street. Unless it looks like
 they're having a bad day, and then I try to switch to neutral as fast as I can
 so they can feel their feelings without me interjecting and making it about me.
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 Hi,
 
 I'm Ritz Menardi.
 I'm a witch, so I'm strange and wear a funny hat.
 
 I like colors in the dark, poetry from the heart, and scary songs about
 society.
 I think of myself as a synecdoche for humanity, and though I'm not always right
 I try to be aligned when possible. Most people I've found aren't really like
 me.
 
 I am as I am, and
 I promise,
 I won't hurt you.
 
 content warnings: autistic, scary, existential, abstract, polite, perspectives,
                   cannabis, color,              paranoia, cringe, spirituality,
                   hypnosis, trans,              sardonic, honest, schizo-posts,
                   futurist, deity,              left-ism, cursed, shadowdancer,
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--- #104 fediverse/3975 ---
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 @user-1631 
 
 for most of my life... [okay still do]... but it felt like I had different
 moods, and depending on how I felt at the time I would act differently.
 
 I forget the things that happen when I'm in a different mood, but I've gotten
 to a point where I can generally force myself to stay a certain "mood" while
 in certain contexts, and in doing so I can remember everything.
 
 downside is I get burnt out pretty easily if I'm always the same. It's not
 ideal.
 
 ... anyway if you talk about what you experience then your friends can point
 you toward people who "get" you.
 
 like, my parts don't have names, we don't have a group chat or whatever, it's
 just... me, but different shades of me.
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--- #105 fediverse/5626 ---
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 nobody around me does what I tell them to.
 
 I am surrounded by plausible deniabilities.
 
 yet sometimes things get done as I thought them to.
 
 something something hei wu hei or wei hu wei or whatever. I am not a scholar.
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--- #106 fediverse/4171 ---
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 me, waking up in the morning and reading my own posts
 
 alright what's the damage this time
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--- #107 fediverse/4754 ---
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 @user-1201 
 
 once my country elected a fascist I started thinking. I realized "oh, it's
 always been that way, this one just doesn't hide it" and so I started thinking
 about the bread and circuses they so generously provided me.
 
 I miss video games. Sometimes I play for an hour or two but only when I am
 feeling burnt out.
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--- #108 fediverse/710 ---
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 @user-532 
 
 autistic people when nobody told them to shut up about things they thought
 people should be talking about but aren't which is weird right like why
 wouldn't people be talking about [thing] because frankly it seems like a big
 deal but really it's that everyone knows more than the autistic person who
 doesn't have any friends who have friends and is insular and isolated and also
 very smart in fact smart enough to think up ideas for things to talk about
 that people aren't talking about which is weird because they're not THAT smart
 but also a lifetime of isolation has made them a little schizophrenic so they
 sometimes feel like their actions are not their own like they're being
 hypnotized or perhaps possessed by the spirit of mankind or some other such
 entity which would like to express ideas that they think people should talk
 about but they aren't talking about which is weird because why else would a
 porous person have ideas such as [thing] if not for the path that they're
 telepathically suffused with the
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 @user-883 
 
 alas, I live in Portland Oregon, but perhaps I might be moving to Denver in
 the near future. We shall see, depends on if my boyfriend breaks up with me
 for being neurotic lmao - if so then we should totally hang out
 
 I'm into chatting. I don't like IRC very much because it doesn't save history,
 and while I could save it manually it feels like a disservice to the service
 to utilize it in a way that it wasn't intended. And I want to save every
 conversation I have (potentially) so that some day the god-like humans of the
 future might clone me to understand my wisdom or something. Idk. See attached
 picture, I'm kinda crazy:
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--- #110 fediverse/2911 ---
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 and now for my unrepentant littlespace arc! Look at me I'm SoOoOoOo silLY 🤪
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 I can count all of the people in this room who are too neurospicy to be filled
 with political rage and given a public platform on one hand, and frankly I
 could probably do it on a single finger because I am alone at the moment.
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 I like being alone. But if I'm alone for too long, I suffocate. I start acting
 like a weird nerd who doesn't know what to do with their hands.
 
 If I spend too much time with people, I get exhausted and I can't think
 straight. I start using other people's mannerisms instead of my own.
 
 I'm not an introvert, or an extrovert, I think the dichotomy is stupid and
 people have completely separate needs that deplete and recharge at their own
 rates.
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 @user-1037 
 
 I made a picture, hope it helps! I swear I didn't hallucinate this thing but
 it might be less cool than I thought and I might have misremembered and made
 up parts of it, I can't tell because it was such a short memory : (
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 There's no potential left of me. I am a husk, a shadow of my former
 possibilities. None left to manifest, and so I huddle in the shade of what
 once was ambition as I wait for the silence to take hold.
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 @user-353 @user-370 @user-366 @user-246 @user-367 
 
 Some things I lived through, some things I lived through a retelling of, and
 some things I sought out recollections of and incorporated into my knowledge
 banks such that I might more adequately and efficiently approach future
 situations.
 
 ... am I a computer or just autistic? /shrug
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 "oh also I should mention that if you think about her too hard or too often
 there's a chance she'll overhear what you're talking about anyway so try not
 to think about her too much."
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 I'm too empathetic to watch them lose this badly. when I watch movies with
 cringe humor I have to leave the room whenever something bad happens to the
 characters. I get the same feeling when I read about politics these days.
 
 side note, but has anyone else gotten emails about "hiring plain-clothes
 police officers in Washington D.C, will offer relocation assistance and pay
 minimum 72k per year"? can't help but wonder if they're afraid of a bunch of
 sore losers storming the capital with guns.
 
 it's not like there's a precedent for that or anything.
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--- #119 messages/45 ---
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 Description of me:
 
 I enjoy talking about esoteric topics, I can visualize pretty well so I tend
 to have unique analogies, I am kind and compassionate, I try and empathize
 with everyone (especially my enemies), I love plants, animals, and nature, I'm
 very solution focused so I often start by defining the situation, defining the
 problem, and then creating a solution that navigates whatever blockers are
 ahead. I'm willing to follow the designs of others and offer my concerns or
 input rather than trying to be the leader at the center. I am generally calm,
 and can evaluate a situation both objectively, and subjectively from the
 perspective of all those involved. I specialize in mediation, and encouraging
 incompatible viewpoints toward accommodation. I try to follow my heart when I
 can, because I know my brain will only listen when it's a good idea. I admire
 independence and I strive to be as determined as I can, but I also am not
 afraid to rely on others and I'm quick to ask for assistance when I know I'm
 in the dark -  it's better to be correct than unique. I value family,
 goodness, perseverance, and continuous growth and learning. I believe all
 problems can be resolved, and all wrongs be righted.
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--- #120 fediverse/3770 ---
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 for every "I was there. I helped make it happen" we need at least a couple "I
 was there. I saw the whole thing go down"s because like, nobody's gonna
 believe a belligerent, even if they're on the defensive.
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--- #121 fediverse/498 ---
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 Wikipedia would make a lot more sense to me if they included pictures next to
 the names of every proper noun so that my pictorally oriented primate brain
 might pattern match meaning onto the visual understandings gleaned from the
 perceptual conceiving which were arrayed within and alongside the textual
 information presented to me.
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--- #122 fediverse/5662 ---
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 don't work with me.
 
 work around me.
 
 don't talk to me.
 
 talk about me.
 
 don't share with me.
 
 I deserve nothing.
 
 don't take from me.
 
 I have nothing.
 
 -radio-radio-remedy-
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--- #123 messages/78 ---
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 My biggest fear as an autistic transgender incontinent schizophrenic person is
 that one day I'll become a game of hot potato for my relatives to pass around
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--- #124 fediverse_boost/2965 ---
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  i will use CW for #USpol if computer people start using CW for tech computer boring linux software posting. i said what i said  
  
                                                            
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 The trick is, if you *think* you're schizophrenic, then you will be. If you
 *think* you're telepathic, then you will be.
 
 There are no grand narratives. Just live your life as you will and be content
 with what you build for yourself.
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 oh, also, he definitely knew me. He's probably reading this.
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--- #127 fediverse/1010 ---
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 I'm done trying to be neurotypical. So what if I starve.
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 @user-883 
 
 hmmmm I'm running mediamtx on the same computer that I'm running the streaming
 script on. I'll try with 127.0.0.1
 
 I don't think I updated my system since it was working last time. I'll scroll
 through our chat and see if I can find any hints.
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 I'd be a terrible spy. Not only is my opsec something that someone needs to
 teach me, I'm much too busy to implement things without their help. I am
 unabashedly compassionate though, so just ask and I'll pour love from my heart.
 
 But hey! There's always time to practice, each moment you can think "what kind
 of a sign is this?"
 
 Like a crazy person following the will of god, or a nature witch listening to
 the wind in the trees.
 
 What they often get wrong, and what they could be better at hearing, is that
 signals are not signs unless they're out of the ordinary.
 
 Trick is, if you're a spy, then you need to leave signals that are visible
 enough to your quarry, but not to the stars.
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--- #130 fediverse/3932 ---
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 @user-889 
 
 don't give up!
 
 I know that feeling!
 
 it is defeated with persistence!
 
 don't give up!
 
 you can make it!
 
 there's always tomorrow!
 
 so don't give up!
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 you're good enough
 
 your efforts are worth it
 
 you are valid
 
 you are loved
 
 trust yourself, be honest with others, and find reasons to be affectionate to
 others
 
 breathe in, breathe out, and remember: everybody poops. How absurd. How silly.
 Can you really take anyone seriously if you imagine them pooping? I know I
 can't. Maybe that's juvenile, but it works for me so
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--- #132 fediverse/6236 ---
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 I legitimately think everyone in my life is just as cool as me
 
 they just... don't know how to know it.
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--- #133 fediverse/2855 ---
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 I refuse to be known by anyone who doesn't know me. But I'm always meeting
 people anew, so if they spent some time with me and saw more of my facets,
 perhaps they might come to know me.
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 Guess you'll have to read it on my tumblr. Or just read my reddit account's
 comments. And no I won't tell you what their names are because you'd just
 forget anyway. The fact that we can't trust our shared reality is concerning.
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 part of me kinda wants to be the kind of nerd that writes down the names of
 every file that's permanently stored on my computer so that I can verify in my
 own handwriting or perhaps using a type of code that the files on my computer
 were placed there intentionally and not used to discredit or implicate me in
 something I had no intentions of being associated with
 
 phew idk what that means but surely it's important
 
 something something "file creation dates are just bits to be flipped"
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--- #136 fediverse/6250 ---
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 Dear my future self: I'm sorry for all the things that I do. I hope you
 appreciate the gifts I leave you. Thank you for never giving up, and I trust
 you to take care of me and the things I care about. I'm proud of what you've
 done with me, and I'm hopeful that one day I'll be just a bit like you.
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--- #137 fediverse/2111 ---
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 when someone deletes what they were typing and starts over, that means they
 have something more to share and you should try and figure out what it is with
 questions.
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--- #138 fediverse/5681 ---
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 I'm a helper and everyone wants me to be more agentic but it's like... no... I
 don't wanna...
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 @user-599 
 
 these are the kinds of things I say to myself all the time. I don't know why,
 but it feels true so I think it.
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 The schizophrenic sees truth in dazzling displays of colors unknown to man,
 while the neurotypical sees truth in shades of gray that can be reasoned with.
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 @user-641 
 
 it's practice. you never know when you might need to blend in. really it's
 just useful as discipline, good practice to be in. I think it's okay if we
 reduce our own functionality? actually? sometimes it's good to use different
 email clients. hey do you know how to mathematically encrypt things well
 neither do I because the designers of the computer system decided that wasn't
 a very common usecase I guess.. jmean it's not like they'd spend all that
 computer resources [THEY'RE SO FAST] on thinking about correlations in your
 predicted pathway narratively through life. "ah help I'm in a psyop" haha yeah
 we do those all the time "so uhhhh I guess we'll just talk to people and see
 how they do?" wow okay it's sure nice to be part of a civil government, I
 think we can find our way to the lumber producers just fine thank you very
 much.
 
 ... oops sorry, a baby did electronics arts (challenge everything) I'm a
 little silly don't mind me brb I gotta go see~
 it's practice. you never know when you might need to blend in. really it's just useful as discipline, good practice to be in. I think it's okay if we reduce our own functionality? actually? sometimes it's good to use different email clients. hey do you know how to mathematically encrypt things well neither do I because the designers of the computer system decided that wasn't a very common usecase I guess.. jmean it's not like they'd spend all that computer resources [THEY'RE SO FAST] on thinking about correlations in your predicted pathway narratively through life. "ah help I'm in a psyop" haha yeah we do those all the time "so uhhhh I guess we'll just talk to people and see how they do?" wow okay it's sure nice to be part of a civil government, I think we can find our way to the lumber producers just fine thank you very much.  *... oops sorry, a baby did electronics arts (challenge everything) I'm a little silly don't mind me brb I gotta go see~*
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 @user-246 
 
 Thanks, it means a lot. Sometimes I am a little "distant" from reality (like
 tonight, tbh) but I generally always am within sight. Meaning I can still
 understand what people are saying. My uhhh.... "plan" is to always be vigilant
 and look for times when people cannot comprehend what I say - even the most
 mundane of things - because if so then surely I am psychotic. At that point
 I'll just kinda go along with whatever anyone says, even if it feels like I'm
 a cow in a factory farm or whatever my mind might contrive to torture me with.
 
 Thanks for reaching out. Sorry you've lost people. I hope they aren't gone
 forever. I hope I don't go forever. We'll see, I guess.
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 so I guess I'm a chaotic-good witch paladin?
 
 and yes I know "chaotic" and "paladin" don't usually go together, but...
 somehow I make it work
 
 ... I should do more pushups. Practice with my sword some more. That part of
 me's sorta been asleep for four-ish months.
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 subconsciously running your hand over your butt every time you stand up to
 make sure you didn't pee your pants
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 @user-281 
 
 I'm just a rando but my understanding is that posting on the fediverse is
 sorta like writing on the sky, and anyone that wants can read it. I could be
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--- #146 messages/392 ---
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 Hey, can someone please accomplish my dreams for me? I'm too busy being a
 waste of potential!
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--- #147 fediverse/3014 ---
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 the part of me that thinks "woof I gotta stop posting on the fediverse" is not
 the part of me that posts on the fediverse.
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--- #148 messages/483 ---
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 "hey listen! Do this thing to hurt me! Build the infrastructure to do it so
 that you can use it on people who deserve it!"
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 daydreaming about a gang of tough guys who goes around knocking down the
 internal fence walls in suburbia and throwing potlucks for all the neighbors
 for a month or two so they have social opportunities to meet each other and
 make friends
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 if I don't take this job, then I'm going to be homeless.
 
 if I do, then I'll be moving to a different city.
 
 a city that I don't know.
 
 my upbringing tells me that this isn't a choice at all, but... 
 
 at least I have a place to keep my stuff. maybe I can find a different job.
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 the only way I could fight a war is if my opponents were wrong. they must
 break some law, something I hold dear. They must be unrepentant.
 
 ICE is not quitting their jobs. They aren't going away, even though we kindly
 suggest they go to where they're wanted.
 
 what's wrong with illegal immigrants? nothing. Same as any other race.
 
 what's wrong with ICE? they sure don't break the law. Same as all the stories
 of bad cops.
 
 they are kidnapping people. If they were warranted, they could feel a sense of
 ease. Why burden them with a lock-out? wait until someone has a problem. They
 are good people because we can get rid of them, how rude. "gee I really wanna
 fire that guy who just stands around and picks his nose all day, too bad he's
 ... " finish the rest.
 
 I love being autistic! It means that I am forced to say things that seem
 obvious to me in principle but I've never really thought about until now! I
 also pick my nose. And smell kinda bad. But I'm pretty so try not liking me.
 
 you cant know things you don't k
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 @user-738 
 
 I like to use the alt text to explain my color choices. I'll say "this next
 text is in dark blue, the color of the cold glass-like surface of the ocean"
 or "the orange background implies a feeling of warmth and serenity, contrasted
 with the violet colors of the text which imply sanguine passion" (then I of
 course describe the text)
 
 basically, blind people can't see the image, so they don't get the feeling
 that the visual data conveys for sighted people. But they understand the
 texture of grass, or the feel of wind on their face, or the taste of
 raspberries. They can know of staccato music, or how silk feels on their arm.
 
 it just feels fair, to me, somehow. nobody asked me to do that but having the
 option makes it feel important to me.
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 they're painting the inside of my apartment and it naturally has low airflow
 in here and it's seeping under my door and making me woozy teehee better open
 all the windows
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 I love skywriting. it's so cool to see your words fade into dust after being
 seen by everyone around.
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 dear-anakin
 
 (sorry I put the same image four times, I needed to get the whole thing into
 the alt-text)
 
 (maybe pictures aren't the best medium for sharing text)
dear anakin. the path through this is to realize that obi-wan can defeat sidious. If the two of you attacked him, with Yoda (who he doesn't know lives) could defeat Sidious in a duel.  ... wait, no I mean dear anakin. the path through this is to realize that sidious betrayed the entire galaxy. he caused mass murder with the countless displays of dead civiilians. people lived in fear. the galaxy was at war. countless clone warriors fell to a glorious end, countless more were sucked into the vacuum of space or consumed in some fiery hell-hole (explosion).  ... I've said too much. NOW YOU KNOW of fourth dimensionals.  ... hang on, I was saying dear anakin. the path through this is to consider the wisdom of a dying man's eyes. He looked at you and said "we desired peace!" He said it with pleading eyes, and... no, that's not right, he said "Sidious promised us PEACE." and he realized that they truly played this like a game. Something to get better at, continuously improving, just like their BATTLE DROIDS. They constantly improved, but still the ingenuity of the clones helped them outlast. And they were defeated, when their torrential rains of metal monsters wielding laser fists and cacophanous consumes finally ceased.  ... wait, that's not what I meant to say either. Let's try again: dear anakin, the path through this is to think of the nature of evil. Evil consumes! It consumes even you! Can you not feel it, this shifting and sinking feeling, as if you are PULLED into a BLACK HOLE of destruction and despair. NOTHING persists beyond the horizon of time, and yet the shades of those who TRIED still cling to this earth as if they could ever breathe again. STARVE out the darkness inside you! Please I beg of you! Never surrender the light of your life! Nothing will survive you and your wrath, I plead for you, come back to the ones who love you! Obi-wan is your brother, anakin, you are more precious than the force!  it's not about you. it's not about you. it's not about you.  anakin, hear me now, I have been inspired by your tales of valor and prescient conscience. I've felt the struggles of your heart, I've heard the stories and songs. Kindness comes easy to you, and you're quick to think on your feet. You are a paladin of the light, and nothing can assail you.  yet darkness has creeped into your heart. Fear not, dear knight, for darkness can consume you. What better foe to face than the dampening of all duration? please, allow me to read you a poem. I've been told it rhymes in it's native tongue. I wrote it myself.  "*can you not sense this feeling? this sinking, shifting feeling that lies within and beyond. Like a hitherto unseen force slowly arresting our movements as the sands of time run dry.  can you not feel the days getting longer? as if the motion of our planet was fading, yet no more fragments of sunshine do we gather. There are no more hours in the day, none yet collected, but still are we prone to languish. the distance between breaths is lenghening still, but no more air are we receiving. like layers of sediment settling to the ocean bed, our will and our vision grows muted. between decisions and events there is ample time to spare, and our dreams grow far beyond our share. the reach we may tender and barter for our pleasure, has nothing to do with our salvation. what choices have we? when everything's free? to rebel against our ownst of nature? you can't condemn the opulent to the role of our savior.*"
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 They keep trying to make a movie out of my life because that's how they keep
 culture going but I won't let them unless the movie is about them
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 I like games that test my reflexes
 
 I also like games that test my wit
 
 but most of all I like games that test my patience with strategy
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 what if I played video games all day so everyone knew I was harmless
 
 maybe someday I'll give them up again
 
 for the... third time now? I think?
 
 heh maybe. I do enjoy the feeling of being unstoppable.
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 Hello, I am a witch and this is my altar.
 
 Here, I dream of a green USA.
 
 covered by the branches,
 my body decays into parts,
 ready to join the next life that needs me.
 
 [read the alt-text on the pictures, or listen to your screenreader for more
 explanation]
a round planter pot with a dead plant growing out of it. At it's feet there are sticks I found outside that are covered in moss - the moss is dehydrated, and so brown and dusty. Sticking out of the pot is a flag of my homeland, and behind it there is a fog covered windowpane. In addition, my cat watches from behind, asking me to open the door for her so she can go out on the porch and freeze for a bit before begging to be let back in. She just wanted to see the cold, I suspect. close up picture of the thirsty moss. There is a small glass jar partly filled with water - I add a bit more whenever I pray, from my water bottle. As it evaporates from the jar, it makes the world just a bit more humid, and better for moss to grow in.  there are leaves and detritus in the planter pot as well, to simulate a forest floor covered in soil. I've sprayed the moss with water, and it awakens and spreads it's arms in exultation. The light from the window behind it gives power to it's ever-beckoning grasp, as it sucks carbon from the atmosphere to build itself as a structure that fights back against disorder. Consuming naught but light, water, and air, it grows forever without a care, and tomorrow our world is more beautiful.
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 @user-1614 
 
 yeah haha that's what happens when you spin too fast. Sorry for being loud, at
 least I tried my hardest. Too bad I fell on my own, too bad there wasn't
 anyone to catch me. That's my fault, it's solely my own, but whose fault is
 the mistake of the collective? Oy I'll fall on my ass as many times as it
 takes. I'm used to it.
 
 Plus, it wouldn't have worked, and what else am I supposed to do but speak of
 the moment? I feel different now.
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 "cool it with the psychic posting"
 
 ha yeah okay. I still got some things to get through though. I bet someone
 somewhere wants to see it.
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--- #162 fediverse/1906 ---
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 I like Mastodon because it feels like I'm contributing to something larger
 than myself even though like, 30 people read each of my posts
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--- #163 fediverse/2881 ---
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 "never lose your totem"
 
 I only lose things when in motion. at rest I know where everything is.
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--- #164 fediverse/112 ---
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 I live through the moments where I find a folder of stuff I made that I forgot
 about and I can go back and see it for the first time.
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 @user-192 
 
 normality?
 
 banality?
 
 errrrr I mean emotional disregulation and low self esteem?
 
 ... it's easier in person when you can see when everyone has the "yo what the
 fuck" look on their face and when they have the "wait what was that I was
 thinking about snails" face
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--- #166 fediverse/4275 ---
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 @user-1646 
 
 I usually just repost it and say something like: [stolen from reddit] or
 [stolen from one of my followers who didn't write any alt text]
 
 that way if they ever come across your post they'll know what it feels like to
 have a post stolen from them. Like how a blind person, happy to hear-read what
 they originally posted, but aggrieved from the conversation by their lack of
 alt-textual information, might feel stolen from if they happened across that
 originally posted alt-textless post.
 
 there are more blind people that use mastodon than queer people. At least,
 that's what I once heard. Dunno if it's true.
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--- #167 fediverse/2510 ---
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 @user-1074 
 
 if I wanted to accomplish this goal, I would host a fediverse server on a
 raspberry pi and post the link around the building (the owners will remove it
 so you gotta keep posting them)
 
 then, potlucks.
 
 then, friendships.
 
 then, organization.
 
 be patient with them. people are slow to be constructive.
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--- #168 fediverse/4757 ---
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 @user-882 
 
 I kinda figure that people follow me for the alarms and the curses and the
 manic political dysphoria. I do try and CW when I can but sometimes I get to
 the end and it's like... okay I got 4 characters remaining, pol~ maybe?
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--- #169 fediverse/3340 ---
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 @user-1501 @user-1502 @user-1201 
 
 if so, then don't think about it too hard, you might need disability too!
 
 speaking as someone who needs disability aid but can't get it because of
 restrictions like this (also can we talk about the multi-year process to
 secure such rights, like c'mon rent's due every MONTH) I have to say that
 you're right, it's bullshit, UBI for all, disability benefits for those who
 need more, and employment for people who believe a cause is worthy enough to
 apply themselves towards it.
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 @user-95 okay I will! that sounds like fun I think I'll join you instead of
 being productive : )
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 @user-367 @user-366 @user-246 @user-353 
 
 Agreed! That's why I never touch the stuff. Frankly I worry that if I did, it
 would "infect" me somehow, because brains are kinda stupid. Or maybe it's the
 'tism that makes me repeat the most taboo think I can think of in my brain
 whenever it wants to hurt me -.-
 
 Don't read that stuff. I wish I could forget every slur I ever learned,
 because my internal monologue just... REALLY enjoys intrusively thought-ing my
 internal narrative whenever possible. >.>
 
 It takes real, genuine effort to not be racist or whatever because brains are
 stupid, but like... it's kinda necessary to be a good person, so, y'know,
 don't think bad thoughts about people you don't know? And if you find yourself
 with intrusive thoughts related to that kind of thing, then focus your
 attention on vanquishing them, because it's important. It really is. Just do
 it. Work on it. Be better. I know you can. [says me to me lol]
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--- #172 messages/426 ---
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 How many of me are there? There are as many of me as there are of thee, dear
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 Also she's just a person, a cursed person but hey she's just trying to do
 right. So am i. I believe in goodness, and so does she (even though she can be
 a bit evil about it) (without trying, I might add, it just comes naturally to
 her) (she's better now though)
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--- #174 fediverse/4226 ---
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 This should go without saying, but...
 
 I'm here for you.
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 I want people to watch me. I enjoy being viewed. Please offer guidance, but
 maybe limit the abuse. Simple requests for a media company, true? And yet
 advertisements (which is the only way people agreed to fund the LAVISH
 projects they put on for our tender moments)
 
 Performance is an art, and I sing the song of my heart.
 
 (perhaps in too public of a place)
 
 (but what use is it if nobody knows you?)
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--- #176 fediverse/2707 ---
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 @user-1209 
 
 sometimes I feed the nearby wildlife, and sometimes I don't. I don't want them
 to grow reliant on me, but I want them to have a nice surprise every once in a
 while.
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 @user-579 
 
 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually
 mine
 
 I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how
 would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft
 cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works.
 
 usually.
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 hello everyone, Discord is down for me and I can't reach any of my friends
 over SMS.
 
 You know I'd just... give you my address if you asked, right?
 
 oh no sorry turns out they were just busy haha silly me why would I worry
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--- #179 fediverse/1243 ---
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 @user-883 
 
 hey sorry for ditching you yesterday, hope you had a good night ^_^
 
 I feel much better today.
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 conservatives think gender is assigning yourself to a particular social role
 
 liberals think gender is sort of an aesthetic and way of presenting yourself
 
 queer people tend to think of gender as how you feel and what sparks joy in
 your heart
 
 the truth is much more complicated and involves all three, and many more
 things besides.
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 harsh lessons of adulthood - sometimes food is not eaten for the taste, but
 rather for how it will make you feel slightly better in the next few days.
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 dear whoever keeps whispering "work with me" on the wind:
 
 yes, please get in touch with me, I'll do anything you ask and I'll use an
 Anakin accent if you want
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 also applies for alt-text on pictures for people with screenreaders
 
 something something "if I play both sides, then I'm always right!"
four panel meme of a cute girl with sunglasses and a bow in her hair.  first panel she's like "nah, no thank you" while gesturing dismissively with her hand and turning away.  second panel is what she's against - it shows text saying: "Putting content warnings on your posts so that the data can be used in a dataset for an LLM that has been sanitized from political content thus depriving it of context in a post truth world"  third panel she's like "yeah, I like this one instead." and she's smiling and pointing a finger at the fourth panel, which reads:  "content warning your posts so that you don't hurt other people's feelings or trigger vulnerable people who are just trying to laugh at memes or have a decent life in the face of trauma and woe"
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 @user-78 
 
 anhedonia perhaps? the difficulty of identifying or feeling emotions? (emojis
 as you put them)
 
 you shouldn't overexpose yourself to things regularly. Think of it like you're
 slowly adjusting your body to a poison - you need to start out slowly to build
 up a tolerance. In the same way if things make your heart hurt then you
 shouldn't expose yourself to too many of them all at once - face the darkness
 you find, but only enough to contrast with your bright.
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 @user-1803 
 
 hey I dont disagree that what you're describing is a common outcome, but if it
 works for them then I consider that a success.
 
 I however, am different, I do believe in my heart that I am my own thing, and
 thats as close to enlightenment as I can imagine.
 
 are we not all making things up as we go? every moment of life is new, there
 is nothing that is not unique about every precious moment you experience.
 
 therefore, I do believe that rigid adherence to orthodoxy (like a bible) is
 opposed to our purpose here.
 
 "I think, therefore I am" implies that original thought is our true purpose.
 
 I believe we are here to express our true nature. To learn and apply lessons,
 to teach the young, and to build a strong and stable world built on collective
 kindness and trust.
 
 All knowledge is derived from the insights gained from standing on the
 shoulders of our ancestors.
 
 Humans crave novelty. Resisting that isn't virtuous. If god is made in our
 image, then I do believe that god would crave novelty as well.
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--- #186 fediverse/4855 ---
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--- #187 fediverse_boost/4779 ---
◀─[BOOST]
  
  I genuinely wish all Nazis in this world either an epiphany of the truth or a bullet to the head.  
                                                                              
  Either one is fine.                                                         
  
                                                            
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 The schizophrenic sees the truth in dazzling displays of color that are nigh
 incomprehensible, while regular people see truth in shades of gray that you
 can understand and work with.
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 @user-395 
 
 You are very welcome. I love putting additional context into places that
 people don't often look. I think it makes people feel special when they find
 it ^_^
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 Republicans like being self-reliant. You know, so I do too! It comes from
 living in the country, I think.
 
 the difference is, I measure myself on an abstract scale - like, as a family,
 a culture, a society, and finally all of humanity. I want to be reliant on
 nothing, not even nature, wholely empowered by my own arts.
 
 they see only the feet before them, the hands they hold the world with. 
 
 ..
 
 there is honor in their ideals, but they have forgotten who they once were.
 
 social media will do that to ya. especially one of such vitriol.
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--- #192 fediverse/806 ---
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 ... sorry, forgot to content warning that last one. I'm kinda using this
 format like a twitch stream... how [weird, strange, perceiving, perplexing,
 confusing]
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 @user-570 
 
 I mostly spent my time on Reddit, which was much more isolating than IRC. I
 think I must have been drawn there because it felt like home - I was
 homeschooled on a farm, and Reddit kept me at the distance of an arm.
 
 it's funny, sometimes meeting a trans girl can make things "click". And
 sometimes being friends with one helps you work through things that you just
 can't tick
 
 [off your list of things to work on]
 
 habits you can kick? idk sometimes rhyming lies, and you have to break rhythm
 or pentameter or whatever.
 
 anyway I've always worn pants. I do dresses on special occasions, but dresses
 are hard(er) to ride a bike in. Plus, no pockets, and purses are easily
 stolen. At least with a pocket you can feel someone slip the exact same model
 as your phone into your pocket when you're least expecting.
 
 ... hypervigilance strikes again...
 
 I first transitioned in... 2014ish? I think? I don't really remember because I
 had so many more interesting things going on.
And the people around me were always more intersting to me than me.
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 I miss university because of all the gay people I could hang out with.
 
 I guess I must be lonely.
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 this is how I nourish my brain.
 
 By being hopelessly profane.
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 @user-1049 
 
 I haven't heard of that but I'll look into it! Honestly I'm more likely to
 write my own script, it shouldn't be too hard just altering the /etc/hosts
 file and then changing it back in ~15 minutes with a cron-job, as Nikky says
 down below. I like things that I make myself because then if it breaks I know
 who to blame! And who to go to to fix it. >: )
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 dear old people - did you know computers don't need to have buttons? You can
 literally just type what you want to make happen (if you know the magic spell)
 and it'll just, do that thing
 
 how cool is that
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 I can type my thoughts 1000x more coherently than I can speak them. Hence why
 I post here.
 
 feels useless to speak 1on1 - feels insular to speak to a group. Hence why I
 speak here, which is totally public that anyone might see, and somehow I feel
 so much more productive engaging in an endless conversation with myself.
 
 you can't win a war by walking in circles...
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 dear ritz: you should stop talking until your new psychiatric meds take
 effect. who knows, maybe you'll be a better person that people should listen
 to instead of... whatever you are now.
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--- #200 fediverse_boost/778 ---
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  a message to all my haters!                                                 
                                                                              
  i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry what did i do wrong i’ll do anything to fix it i’m so sorry please i’ll do anything to get you to stop hating me i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry  
  
                                                            
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