=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── @user-1411 doctors (the ones who are diagnosing autism) don't care about classifying people. I personally don't believe they should. Instead they try and classify symptoms, and if you don't present any negative symptoms then there's little reason to talk to a doctor. Meaning little reason to seek out an autism diagnosis except for curiosity. I was the kid you were describing btw, except maybe with a bit of neglect thrown in around ages 4+ ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4483 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── instead of reading the room, I try to be the room. I think that's part of being autistic. But it also helps things get going. Whenever I see a subpost that might relate to me, I take it seriously, so feel free to boost things that you know I'll read if you'd like to speak to me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/146 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-138 if you don't want feedback then why don't you just... not open the replies? leave them unread? if you feel the need to justify your actions (such as not reading replies to your controversial posts) then somewhere deep down you feel like those actions are unjustified, and needing an explanation. which makes your point feel less valid to others, since even you don't believe in it enough to guarantee it to be the truest expression of your soul. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4540 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── most people in the world are dumb as a bag of bricks but that's okay, I still love them, and so should you. everyone I hang out with is sharp as a tack and I love them still, for I don't have a preference for blunt objects. some people don't feel emotions I think they're just depressed some people can't stop won't stop, I say. really as long as they follow their heart and sing a tune that is true I think they're alright. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/710 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── @user-532 autistic people when nobody told them to shut up about things they thought people should be talking about but aren't which is weird right like why wouldn't people be talking about [thing] because frankly it seems like a big deal but really it's that everyone knows more than the autistic person who doesn't have any friends who have friends and is insular and isolated and also very smart in fact smart enough to think up ideas for things to talk about that people aren't talking about which is weird because they're not THAT smart but also a lifetime of isolation has made them a little schizophrenic so they sometimes feel like their actions are not their own like they're being hypnotized or perhaps possessed by the spirit of mankind or some other such entity which would like to express ideas that they think people should talk about but they aren't talking about which is weird because why else would a porous person have ideas such as [thing] if not for the path that they're telepathically suffused with the ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/4526 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health │ └──────────────────────┘ most people get intrusive thoughts like "punch that baby" or "drink some gasoline" my intrusive thoughts are like "who is she" and "we need you" and "lead us" and "their strength is imagined" and stuff like that gosh I don't know how ya'll handle it I'd be dead in a ditch if I was neurotypical. ... intrusive thoughts are not typical ah. Right. Nevermind then. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/1660 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────┐ ║ @user-1053 │ ║ │ ║ if there's not enough resources allocated for all the autistic people who need │ ║ it (or other disabilities) then perhaps more resources must be allocated to it │ ║ and other things should be sacrificed (like building fewer jets or graphics │ ║ cards) │ ║ │ ║ like, every doctor should have about 3x as many assistants as they do. There's │ ║ already an immense demand for medical expertise (as evidenced by their massive │ ║ salaries) but they can't handle all their patients because they're stuck doing │ ║ paperwork. │ ║ │ ║ part of why people don't join that industry (medicine) (as evidenced by │ ║ doctor's massive salaries as they do wayyyyy too much work) is to help people, │ ║ but they can't if they're so dang stressed out all the time that they're an │ ║ immensely pressured person. │ ║ │ ║ Ah, but if they're not stressed at all, they'll tend to relax on the job. │ ║ Which is NOT something you want when your health is on the line. │ ║ │ ║ ... anyway, more dollars for doctors and education pls so there's more doctors │ ║ so autistic people get more resources, + UBI. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/164 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: recreational slash medicinal drugs and neurodiversity musing │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-141 when I smoke cannabis it's like my ADHD symptoms drop to zero and my autism symptoms go from 50% to 100% I can't understand what other people are saying unless I ask for clarification, but I sure as shit know the shape of the universe and can fathom the chaotic ripples of causality and eternity. Too bad when I try and talk about it all that comes out is "desu desu" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 messages/108 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── I like when people make fun of me because it gives me a chance to defend myself. Simultaneously I don't like when people are mean to me. I like when people find me endearing, and point out the ways that I'm different. It gives me a chance to say "oh yes this is why I do that" which feels cathartic (because it validates my position) but also because it gives me the opportunity to improve it (through debate) and it helps the people who learned from me because I can improve myself and my only reason for improving myself is if the new thing I'm learning is better than the thing I used to do which means the people who learn from me are improved and the people who best me argumentatively are improving me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1950 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I honestly don't care if someone deadnames me, or calls me the wrong pronouns, or forgets to put me in the girl section, or asks me to sing baritone like... I don't give a shit, why are you so worried about all this vapid nonsense like yeah I get it, being disrespected sucks but like... why do you want the kind of respect that is a forced platitude we could all do with being a bit more radical, it's not a race and everyone's roles are important. Be yourself, and follow people you want to be like. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1401 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ some people are the memory kind of autistic, where they know everything about │ ║ a thing and it's the coolest thing │ ║ │ ║ I'm more like... the optimizing autistic, where everything has to be perfect. │ ║ and if it's not perfect, then you should change it. and if you can't change │ ║ it, then you should tell someone else to change it. and if nobody can change │ ║ it, then you should consider it part of the context / starting variable and │ ║ then just say "okay" and treat it like it's normal and something you should │ ║ use to inform the rest of your optimization actions / decisions. │ ║ │ ║ other people are other kinds of autistic that's not a comprehensive │ ║ classification system. But I mention the first kind explicitly so I can │ ║ contrast it with my experience, which is implied to be [impulsively?] │ ║ different in the kind portrayed in the following contrastion, where I mention │ ║ how I'm autistic and don't get "irony" or "sarcasm" that people on the │ ║ internet seem to revel in in a way that makes me feel isolated and anyway │ ║ optimization is great becaus │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/3351 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── privacy doesn't mean anything on the internet to me because privacy on the internet doesn't mean anything to "them" gestures vaguely, maybe winks once or twice and/or presents an emphasis face ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #13 messages/1316 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════── I don't go to protests because they're more like yelling hatred until you get slaughtered, instead of what I want to meet cute trans girls at which is signing up for a militia and hunting [redacted -> their sons and daughters] nobody knows each other on the internet. of course they're gonna vote for individual personal freedoms. What do you mean they voted for a pedophile acrobat? they don't even know each other! [the only reason you said acrobat is because it rhymed] ohhhh no it's supposed to be "autocrat" but they misheard ah right I see I see. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─┘ --- #14 fediverse/1916 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── "you don't seem autistic" wow no shit almost as if I had acting classes as a child ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/3766 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-medical-health-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────┘ gonna ask my doctor for ADHD meds so I can hopefully jump-skip framebuffer divebomb spinadoodle half A press my way over the fucking labyrinth that is my weird and jank af mind and no I don't watch speedruns but my social group hears me a lot of them. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/1339 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: vague-reference-to-politics │ └─────────────────────────────────┘ @user-521 I can't stand mean comedy. Or cringe comedy. It just, doesn't make sense to me? And I get physically upset when people are put in difficult situations that you're supposed to laugh at for some reason. Like my goodness what kind of values are they seeking to instill in their audience with this kind of propaganda amiright ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/3235 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: conservatives-and-liberals-mentioned-gender │ └─────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ conservatives think gender is assigning yourself to a particular social role liberals think gender is sort of an aesthetic and way of presenting yourself queer people tend to think of gender as how you feel and what sparks joy in your heart the truth is much more complicated and involves all three, and many more things besides. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #18 messages/1469 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I'm not JUST a child. I'm also an adult, and I'm also a witch and a judge and a scholar and a wizard and a [well more of an arcanist actually] excuse me do you mind yeah sure sure - and a... where was I? see this is why I don't like distractions! okay it's alright just stay on track-course-target - right and also a technician and a botanist and a logistician and a neuronomist and a mesocyclocodone (I don't know what that means - I think they're referring to when I journeyed to hel? most people never heard the whole story. In fact, I never told it from start to finish. Does that mean I'm still there?) no silly it means you are eternally ~~ consistently dreaming unawares. yep, I refuse to lucid dream because I don't want to lose the capability to hear messages in my dreams. Lucid? there's nothing to be seen. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #19 fediverse/5329 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: the-world-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────┘ trying my best not to think about communism too much right now. Mostly because I'm waiting for everyone to catch up... when the day comes when people stop saying "based" and leaving it at that, then I'll make more theory. But as a consequence of my queer nature I shall deliver such things in the form of an insane twitter post on the fetlifeverse. the world waits with bated breath in the eye of the storm. Nobody knows whats coming, and everyone prays that it's nothing [short of revolution] ... I should probably go back to sleep, I just had to wake up and write about linux or whatever... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/1280 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ I'm like the opposite of a politician. I'm crude and filthy, apsolutely │ ║ reprehensible on main, kinda scary tbh? and overall just a strange and weird │ ║ person. Also I talk about cooking a lot, with a very plain diet (carrots and │ ║ rice and sticks and mud, because I'm an autistic) │ ║ │ ║ but ask anyone who knows me and I'm the kindest person. I am empathetic, I │ ║ think about others needs before thinking of my own. I am steadfast and │ ║ dedicated to solving the problem in front of our noses. At least, the ones we │ ║ share. │ ║ │ ║ People tell me I'm binary, that I'm "either 100% or zero percent" and I don't │ ║ really get that either. Isn't it a good thing to try your hardest? Isn't it │ ║ good to be improving and honest and ethical and driven and focused? │ ║ │ ║ I also talk about strange things a lot, like gravity and multidimensional │ ║ arrays and grand narratives and emotional kinesthesia or strategic plays in │ ║ Overwatch or how to bake a good cookie or ways we still mourn us. │ ║ │ ║ ... where was I going with this? Also part of me is distracted. Just who th │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ |