=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───── gen.nvim crawled so that cloud-code could stand I trust my allies more than I fear my foes, which is why I make ][myself vulnerable/friends]/myself [vulnerable/friends][ everywhere I go. I remember distant pasts where I dreamt of every movie I saw. Myself, and the outdoors. Portrayed on stages of blocks-by-the-candle ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 messages/206 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── The whole time I was camping on Wyoming, I never once felt scared. As a kid I was a hero, an adventurer, a warrior and a director. I'd plan out engagements and fight as an actor. It was fun! And I never was afraid, so I never got possessed by a forest spirit or anything like that. No evil witches either. No, the witch came later I think. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 messages/159 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── Only the good die young, and I'm 29 It can't be much longer, can it? What do you want from me? Must I prove myself, or am I just fated to be as I am? Every lesson I've learned pales in comparison to the lessons presented to me, but still I ponder. I've grown myself into a corner, and now I am empty. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/4026 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── why is everyone so confused about how I turned out? I literally spent my whole childhood telling stories to myself (inspired by the world, and stories I had read, with mechanics like games I had played) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/5650 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I exist now at the height of my gluttony. I need more to be demanded of me. I am not afraid to ask for help. I solve other people's problems before my own. I have very little insight into my habits and patterns. My memory isn't great, but I recall details that matter. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/3061 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── every time I read a subtoot I assume it's about me and I mentally curl up into a ball doesn't matter if it's totally irrelevant, if there's no target specified it defaults to me because... like, who else is there right? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #6 messages/155 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── You care too much about what other people think of you. Remember the dream, remember the horseflesh, the miles of trash, the doctors probing cheeks, the game of thrown baseballs and sad muppets in popcorn, remember the spirit guide, remember how you we're distracted by human. Be not afraid, follow. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/3444 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-mentioned-police-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm too empathetic to watch them lose this badly. when I watch movies with cringe humor I have to leave the room whenever something bad happens to the characters. I get the same feeling when I read about politics these days. side note, but has anyone else gotten emails about "hiring plain-clothes police officers in Washington D.C, will offer relocation assistance and pay minimum 72k per year"? can't help but wonder if they're afraid of a bunch of sore losers storming the capital with guns. it's not like there's a precedent for that or anything. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3925 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── most people, when they run out of toothpaste: "oh huh I should buy more" me, when I run out of toothpaste: "verily in three monthes time, when I shall next possess toothpaste, I shall forsoothe brush TWICE as hard and TWICE as often, to make up for the holes inflicted upon my teeth. Innest addittioneth, no more candy shallest be eateneth untileth ye toothpasteth be acquiredeth" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/5904 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────┐ ║ I'm a programmer, but I'm not great at writing code. I mostly use AI to │ ║ generate it. │ ║ │ ║ The "artificial" in AI here refers to the extra levels of capability that are │ ║ granted to me by the computer and it's software. I am artificially more │ ║ productive because I am using the tools of big tech to create small things. I │ ║ am artificially more capable, artificially more intelligent, but it's still my │ ║ intelligence - the system would not be useful in someone else's hands. I built │ ║ it myself, but I never have to write code myself. │ ║ │ ║ It's perfect for a witch. I call to the spirit of the machine and it figures │ ║ out how to make it so. │ ║ │ ║ [someday, the wizards of ancient lore will be reading through the POSIX │ ║ specification trying desperately to understand while the witches burn the │ ║ world down in their lust for power and everyone cries and yearns for a better │ ║ future where everything was just a bit harder but genies don't go back in │ ║ bottles, cassandora and pandasandra cannot relinquish her charge and her │ ║ curse.] │ ║ │ ║ I have a fun cackle~ │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧═─────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/4200 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: drugs-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ "doing too many drugs" is a traitorous act, abusive really, to your past self, and their hopes and dreams. or maybe your past self owes you a debt, for they never thought to think of you. What are you to aspire to if not the dreams of your past? and now you're here. wherever "here" is here... ... ... wait, you wanted me to talk? it's now! It's the present! ah nevermind. you were twelve years old when you first set eyes upon this game: https://youtu.be/qeNhQQXvpxQ bam, there ya go, there's yer story, he was gonna give all the imp balls to the last one at the end, to say "you were truly the strongest, here, have these precious stones of your kin" but he never got there, so they died with him, a thief. ... the end... (too final, I think - maybe we could spin it into a "part two"?) ah, I'll try I guess? dunno how. maybe he could wander the spirit world and find his traitorous body, the one that kept his soul as a home. Somewhere it'll turn up, and then he'll be ready and free from his roam... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/2386 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── Tee, hee, look at me, I'm a witch who writes nothing but kookie-dookerie I pee my pants and stare at trees, what's less harmful than little old me? The best smokescreen I can think of is to be true to your heart, to be weak, to be vulnerable. Then you get put on the "worry about later" list, and not the other kind. I never lie. When convinced I am wrong, I change my mind. I am always listening, always ready to hear where I'm flawed. I do my best every day, and that's enough for me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2530 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ I want to go out on the town with my cute friends and wink at boys at the │ ║ other end of the bar │ ║ │ ║ I want to climb mountains and see how far I can see, while walking past trees │ ║ that are new to me │ ║ │ ║ I want to spend hours thinking about a map while my friends plot behind my │ ║ back, searching for an advantage we can use to succeed in a game of traps │ ║ │ ║ I want to visit five different restaurants in a day, and try a bit of each │ ║ that the chef wants to display │ ║ │ ║ I want to stand in a choir and feel my soul aspire, to bend in the wind of │ ║ rhythm like the melody of grasses at play │ ║ │ ║ I want to see people on the train that I know from somewhere, and to step out │ ║ into the rain to meet new friends of mine │ ║ │ ║ I want to pet a cat I've never met. │ ║ │ ║ I want to build computers that are larger than a room but small enough to │ ║ carry, with thoughts on their mind that are far to great for mine │ ║ │ ║ I want all these these things and more, but I'm far too busy these days. │ ║ Perhaps I've had enough of these things and more, or perhaps there's more in │ ║ store. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/1261 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ sometimes I run this WoW server with only like, 10 username and passwords. And │ ║ they're all public. As far as I can tell nobody's ever tried connecting │ ║ (whatever >.> ) but rather than set up a way to create your own │ ║ credentials I just said "yeah pick one at random and play whatever someone │ ║ else was doing because I like the idea of that" │ ║ │ ║ somehow, it felt right. │ ║ │ ║ most of my passwords (not all of them) are hacked and visible on the clear │ ║ net. Like you could probably google my usernames and get my current passwords │ ║ for things like, social media or my banks or whatever. I kinda like the idea │ ║ that "you cannot trust anything I say, so think of the ideas behind my words │ ║ and decide whether they hold meaning to you" rather than "execute these │ ║ particular thought patterns in your mind as if they came from my voice" │ ║ because one implies an exertion of control over the mind of the recipient │ ║ -> obey my thoughts as I broadcast them into your mind, that kinda vibe. │ ║ And I feel like you have to consent to that kind of thing hehe │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/2326 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I'm not afraid to die, but if I was I'd probably just lie. Fear is the mindkiller, and to share it as terror and not caution deals morale a blow. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/5686 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── my friends tell me stories and I build my ideas for relationships based on their pain. I am always haunted by questions they don't want to answer. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #18 messages/1427 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ the people around me are my understudies. I guess. unbeknownst to me. somehow that makes me feel more vulnerable? like gee there's people who want to kill me, great. scary. and they all hate me, but lust for what I might let them become. All they have to do is master me, and then they can kill and replace me. great. I think I'll continue to scream, thank you very much. PLEASE PLEASE GOD OH GOD HELP ME PLEASE yeah yeah, heard it all before. what's up this time my child? uhhuh, have you tried turning it off and on again? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #19 fediverse/1259 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-895 hi! I'm Ritz Menardi, I'm a little strange. I sometimes post scary things on here. I try to put content warnings on everything intense, but sometimes it gets a little out of hand and I forget... I'm also a poet. Spiritual at best, a little schizophrenic at worse, but at all times I try to be true to myself. If you don't like the vibes I 100% won't be upset if you unfollow / block me ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/562 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── Why do I feel like the only one who's resisting fascism (and what exactly do you do? Make friends) *yes* I'm too scared and tired to do anything else or less Like seriously what else could I do ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ |