=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mh- │ └──────────────────────┘ @user-8 I get that. I don't cry anymore except in my imagination. Sometimes it helps to imagine myself doing it though, like some kind of mental catharsis. the body gets left out but at least the mind is soothed. I usually am most upset when I'm lonely. Maybe you could find someone to hold you close? I hope you feel better sooner rather than later. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/2488 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I know how you might be feeling. If you haven't hear from someone you care about and it's eating you up inside, imagine them succeeding. helps me feel better. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/4189 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── when people are kind to me, I start feeling sad. I don't know why. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/3605 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── I think I'm okay no matter my own fate I think I'm okay. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/3823 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── "sometimes I don't want to be optimistic sometimes I just want to complain" oh yeah well what if I want to be optimistic at all times as a coping mechanism huh you don't have to agree with me ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/1281 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-883 okay I'm down (a little stoned tho, was talking to my soul hehe) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/6018 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── I feel so sad, like I'm missing something precious to me... I hope someone knows who to take it to. Like the world is just a bit darker and more mundane. ah, well, maybe it's just perception bias. When things leave your timeline (temporarily or permanently) they take their inertial influence with them. It's okay to mourn the loss of a friend, of a relic, or an opportunity. So long as you continue to nurture light, life, and hope wherever you go, the magic will return and continue to flow. If you believe that, then you know what faith is. easy enough... please be worth it ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/2634 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I don't have anyone to vent to but you, fedi ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/88 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-92 I haven't received a single knock, I'm kinda broken up about it : ( ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3483 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── sometimes I think about how it'll never be yesterday again and that makes me kinda sad. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #10 messages/1336 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ Somehow, it feels like nobody is all that interested in me. Like nobody wants me, that they want me to disappear and stay hidden. This is of course just dark whispers trying to be purified by me. Surely, surely that must be so. Maybe I'm depressed. This happens sometimes. Maybe I'm feeling threatened. This happens sometimes, especially when things are uncertain. Is this the day when my food will be poisoned? Is tomorrow when i get kicked out of homeschool? Maybe I forgot something important yesterday but I can't recall whether I'm at liberty to recall. Maybe I'm feeling lonely. I am feeling lonely. Yep that's probably it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #11 fediverse/1445 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── I miss university because of all the gay people I could hang out with. I guess I must be lonely. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/6282 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────── I wish I knew every time someone had been hurt by me. I'd probably cry. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘ --- #13 messages/903 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── It's better to cry when sad than to sing a life with a heartful of tears ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2986 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: negative-mental-health-mentioned-police-mentioned-cursing-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ I think the reason I feel so lonely is because I don't feel wanted. people tend to like me, but that just means I'm acceptable to their social standards. I don't think I improve rooms that I enter. I think I make them worse. or maybe I'm just upset because capitalism. When I run out of savings in a few months, I'm going to kill myself, unless something changes, which I'm sure it will. Gonna try and say yes to things - suddenly receives a text message recruiting for uniformed police officers at the department of homeland security wait shit I take it back ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/4190 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── I also feel other things, like compassion and warmth, but... still a little bit sad. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/3262 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── when I complain about being lonely, it's not because I want followers. it's because my family doesn't use Mastodon. :'( ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/2104 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-192 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about myself. So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/6042 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── my bodyguard leaves me. not that I need one. just... feels comforting [ooh ooh then what happened next] my bodyguard leaves me. not that I needed one... just, felt comforting. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ --- #19 messages/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a little lonely sometimes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/4551 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-mentioned-in-relation-to-resisting-capitalism │ └─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ oh no I'm feeling, uh... "depressed" or "manic depressed" or something else, you pick this time, better go hide and work on organizational technology which utilizes Risc-V hardware, fediverse software, LLM based anonymization, and SoCs with multiple ethernet ports, oh nooooo how boring and depressing, if only someone or several people who were bored and feeling like resisting capitalism wanted to help out, all they'd have to do is get in touch with me anyway bye ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ |