=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: weed mention │ └──────────────────────┘ @user-95 thank you for inviting me, it was fun : ) I'm not usually that quiet - weed works a little different on me than it does on humans, and one of the side effects is auditory processing disorder. I couldn't really understand what most people were saying... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/164 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: recreational slash medicinal drugs and neurodiversity musing │ └───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-141 when I smoke cannabis it's like my ADHD symptoms drop to zero and my autism symptoms go from 50% to 100% I can't understand what other people are saying unless I ask for clarification, but I sure as shit know the shape of the universe and can fathom the chaotic ripples of causality and eternity. Too bad when I try and talk about it all that comes out is "desu desu" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 messages/1462 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ "I'm not autistic, I'm just a different kind of person than you." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #3 fediverse/5374 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── @user-138 me neither... guess it's in-person for me. [a mysterious "they" then proceeds to set up microphones everywhere I might go] ah nuts why are all these people carrying phones around [they already know who I am, and I don't really want to be someone else, so] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #4 messages/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a little lonely sometimes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/4543 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── @user-1698 Ha that does sound pretty "fun" - I take it you aren't a pianist? I smell bad because... reasons... so I am always hyper-aware of myself when I'm in situations like that. The idea that I might ruin someone's day by being there terrifies me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #6 notes/star-realms-balancing-tradeoff --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ the "avoid them" "way too loud" "they're our/an annoyance" sorry I was late a little, I got distracted doing REAL HUMAN THINGS like play video games she's vulnerable because she can't be trusted. if anyone is disappearing after interacting with me, it's because someone is redacting them. go find that person and stop them from redacting people please, because I like interacting with people, not props. "if we just... walked around and took what we needed, would they really be able to stop us?" --- heh what if we psyopped her oh god she ran in circles ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #7 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/4024 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some other people who visit the house. but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/508 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── @user-367 @user-366 @user-246 @user-353 Sorry. I'm (probably) schizophrenic so I say weird things sometimes. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/2143 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-1171 "gee I never hear from you how would I know that if people like you didn't say something valuable and important like this"an appreciative someone ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 messages/140 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── Remind me again why we need computers that are so mind numbingly fast that we can't possibly hope to understand their entire stack? Oh yeah, so we aren't able to understand their stack. How could I forget. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/1251 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── @user-889 it sounds like you're having a real tough time. : ( you can get through it, I know you can. On the other side is something warm and safe, but to get there it's going to be hard and painful. I don't know exactly what you're working with but if you want someone to talk to about it you can message me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/5763 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned-mentioned │ │ ║ └──────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ I'm not omniscient, I'm not all powerful, I'm just a girl, all I see is │ ║ through my eyeballs. But I can listen to the waves around me, I can sense when │ ║ intuitions leading me from wrong. I know when right and wrong are │ ║ [compared/imperiled], and sometimes things feel right when they rhyme. That's │ ║ synchronicity girl, a classic symptom of mental disorders. "Oh, you're a god? │ ║ you're crazy then, take these meds which anesthetize your │ ║ [divine/feral/imperiled] self. They help quite a few people!" │ ║ │ ║ people, yes, but I literally just said that's not the only part of the │ ║ equation. │ ║ │ ║ "what if you're lying" yeah true it's not like I can prove it, I'm not │ ║ omniscient and I can't summon fireballs or at-range-electrocute. I'm just a │ ║ person, it's been driven into me from a young age, I'm just a person, don't │ ║ forget or else we'll put you on stage. │ ║ │ ║ "what if we waited just a bit more" oh, do you like this comfort? do you feel │ ║ safe in this home of yours? │ ║ │ ║ yes. I feel safe. I am unafraid for my safety. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┴──────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2806 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-social-media-spirituality │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ pretend this is an allegory for social media. [it's not an allegory] yeah that's why I said pretend. okay imagine that you are sitting in a rock in a forest. far away, about 100 feet away, there are other people, but you can't see them because the underbrush is sooooo dense. they are also sitting on rocks. you can speak to them, and share your thoughts - but you don't know exactly where they're coming from because the sound has to bounce around off so many different plants and such. [that's not how that works] shut up so, if you want to say anything important, it's important to have the right tone, because people 2 or 3 clearings away can't really make out your words - but they might hear your tone if you yell very loud. the energy of the space you inhabit is the only thing that really matters. the words that you say are just snickering to a friend, but the expression on your face, the beating of the drum of your heart that reaches forth... that's what matters most. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/3975 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── @user-1631 for most of my life... [okay still do]... but it felt like I had different moods, and depending on how I felt at the time I would act differently. I forget the things that happen when I'm in a different mood, but I've gotten to a point where I can generally force myself to stay a certain "mood" while in certain contexts, and in doing so I can remember everything. downside is I get burnt out pretty easily if I'm always the same. It's not ideal. ... anyway if you talk about what you experience then your friends can point you toward people who "get" you. like, my parts don't have names, we don't have a group chat or whatever, it's just... me, but different shades of me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/2656 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── people who like you or at least are interested in what you have to say versus public, which is people who can hear you (because they happened to be listening at that time of day) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/1126 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: plurality question, boost appreciated but optional cannabis-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-841 CW: cannabis-mentioned for me my identities are sorta like masks that an actor would play while performing multiple characters in a scene. The actor still knows the totality of all the lines each character delivers, but they give a performance in a different voice and from a different perspective. like, "moods" a person might be in, or perhaps just frames of view. I don't talk to other plural system people, and the ones that I do talk to tend to have a more disassociated conception of identity politics than I do. Either I haven't met someone who was built like me or I'm just strange : ) that being said, I have a pretty bad memory. maybe it's related! or maybe it's the cannabis. oops better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4483 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── instead of reading the room, I try to be the room. I think that's part of being autistic. But it also helps things get going. Whenever I see a subpost that might relate to me, I take it seriously, so feel free to boost things that you know I'll read if you'd like to speak to me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/5292 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── you can trust me, but please don't rely on me, for all of my power is soft. sometimes people just don't want to do what I tell them to, and I wouldn't have it any other way. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse_boost/5333 --- ◀─╔════════════════════════════[BOOST]══════════════════════════════─────────────╗ ║ ┌────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ║ │ Overheard at the lab: “I don’t understand why people do drugs when they could be doing operating systems research instead.” │ ║ ║ └────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ ║ ╠─────────┐ ┌───────────╣ ║ similar │ chronological │ different ║ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┴───────╝─▶ |