=== ANCHOR POEM === ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-803 if someone does not consent to helping you bear their emotional burdens, but you insist anyway... that seems to be the narcissism you mentioned if someone does consent, then they're helping a friend. Or they're being a therapist for them. sometimes we can't help but be overcome by emotions. In those moments I find it's usually best to retreat to a safe space and hide out for a bit until the storm passes, then maybe return to the world a bit more fatigued but less... spicy. those moments show that you need more emotional support, both from yourself and from others. If the people in your life cannot help you, and you cannot help yourself... then yeah you're probably gonna hurt people around you. Plan as such and figure out how to still be a good person, it's up to each of us to do it in our own way. ... at least, that's how I look at it for my own life, feel free to disagree or anything ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/1659 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────┐ ║ ┌───────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: re: what, mh shitpost │ │ ║ └───────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ @user-1052 │ ║ │ ║ you're right, hubris has claimed many a paladin before-me. I can only hope I │ ║ remain humble enough to survive. │ ║ │ ║ you're right about projecting, but the most beautiful takes are ones that │ ║ align with the experience of the viewed. Hence why method acting works so well │ ║ - just put yourself in the shoes of the character and acting's easy right? │ ║ │ ║ I dunno, I just always felt like it was important to always be trying your │ ║ best. Even if "your best" is relaxing. People say I'm "100% or 0% at all │ ║ times" and I totally agree - it's like you said, a calling, to be the best │ ║ version of me I can be. │ ║ │ ║ Though I would like to add that the missteps aren't wilful, rather they're │ ║ failures caused by imperfect information. Which is why I'm never too harmed │ ║ when other people fail me - ah well, it was their turn to screw up, thats │ ║ alright. It'll be me next time. │ ║ │ ║ But also, if I do something wrong, well, I'll do better next time. It's only │ ║ when I fail to apply what I've learned mistakenly do I shame myself. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/2654 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I'm not bitter, you're bitter. >.> ... okay, take a breath, you're fine. It's hard to handle negative feelings when you're alone because other people can't boost you up. We rely on each other for emotional stability, but when you're alone you can only feel your emotions at the same rate as your thoughts. And your thoughts need to process the events you're experiencing, using emotion as an "encoding" for preserving the "meaning" of your life's story. Bit by bit you learn new things, while living through life, and the lessons you learn from them are generated from the cognitive conclusions reached by cognitively interpreting emotional reactions to each moment. like "this-or-that thing happened and I feel that-or-this way, meaning I should act such-and-such way in the future when presented with situations that bear similarity to this current one that's ongoing." ... turn it upside down, right, makes sense mastodon feed. thanks for redirecting me in a different direction through your pseudo-randomized input. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/5730 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── part of being family with someone is being part of their lives. what if like... a whole group of people was your family? "workplace dynamics" yeah sure that'll generate love I'm not here to make moments. I'm trying to get through day-to-day. the rich, yet impoverished. the sensation, that feeling of betrayal, the moment when you realize some people just don't care about other people's troubles and trials. scary... I'm here to do my part, accomplish my duty, and help wherever I can. I'll agree to anything if you tell me the whole strategy and it aligns with my goals and designs. if you doubt those goals, I can surely help thee remember. everything is logically rooted in love, nothing's out of place or a mystery. everything I've thought of, everything I had the grace to write down, all of these things drift behind me like a placquard explaining my deeds and needs. "that was her idea" ok great now go and use it. this fall is fast ahead, looking forward to the scene-films. it's too hot inside of a bed ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/1673 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: navel-gazing about other people's mental health │ └─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-192 https://eldritch.cafe/@user-1065/112530780377382613 this comic, except instead of "trans enough" it should say "good enough" a poor plan executed at the right time, in the right place is better than a great plan that sits in your heart as you see someone who needs your love in pain. sometimes the best way to figure out "what the fuck is wrong with me" is to satisfy your emotional needs to be good by being helpful, even if you're not quite sure what "helpful" means. It's the thought that counts. Personally I think that if you're feeling bad and people offer you kindness, you should take that kindness (in whatever form it be) and use it to bolster yourself as you're "really going through it". Even just a touch of affection like a like or a ❤️ can be comforting in awful situations. reject normalcy embrace queerness define your own story with your own words embody your soul in the moments that stand out amongst the backdrop of "tuesday afternoons" and "waiting for the bus" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/3357 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── bad people are cursed with evil. a person cannot be evil. they can deal with such evil in their lives that twists them, and causes them to spike out and harm others, but they are not evil themselves. some twists are too hard to mend. some healings leave people a shadow of what they once were, or might have been. but that doesn't mean you shouldn't try. deprive power, supply kindness, in that order. if you cannot deprive power, then reduce harm. if you cannot reduce harm, then contest, defeat, or overcome. A twisted person may be slain if death is on the line. You get what you wish for, but you don't always get to choose who. Don't let them choose. They will choose poorly. ... I find that death is very rarely on the table, though. Generally they'll make their intentions apparent. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #6 notes/what-are-breakups-for --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - listen... if you break up with a friend, OF COURSE you should cry. OF COURSE you'll be sad. it's okay. it's natural. it's human. don't feel sad about the pain. feel the pain. brb getting smashed (okay but please put some clothes on) -.- fine ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I can't fucking relax the only thing I can think of is defeating fascism this fucking sucks I just want to cry about my boyfriend of what, 6 years?? jeez like.... yeah I'm flawed *of course* I'm flawed I'm a human being humans are imperfect ... ugh er, sorry, "bleurg" I'm going to eat a burrito ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - alright ate an edible. 20mg. had 2 beers. that's enough for me. see ya soon. I swear to you, I will be there tomorrow. and every day henceforth. ... unless I'm taking a day off, like yesterday, which TBH was probably not ideal. I swear I'll be better. there are no false starts, only probing strikes. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/2956 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── sometimes your best intuitions don't manage to manifest the goal you've been pursuing. that's okay, it just means you need a different approach. hopefully, with experience, you've had the chance to continually pay attention. Thus, improve on things that were originally conceived of as concessions. much better, I find, to point your idea of "truth" toward what you believe in, rather than what you've been working with. Such an approach allows for continual re-examination, justified by thoroughly moral and ethical conclusions that you hold to be true. like, a form of reverse legalism, where the emotions compel while the law tells the tale. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/4000 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── @user-889 Don't give up! At least... not forever. It's okay to take a breath every once in a while It's okay to lie down and cry The only way away from those feelings is through. They've enveloped you. You need to swallow them whole, like a sponge soaking up dirt[y water] the only thing you need to think about is what's around you. It's okay to be alone for a moment, it's the best time to feel. Remember, feeling is how you know the world! It's your power, to feel, and I know it's hard. Everyone has different powers, but yours is this. You'll be okay, I know it ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/2128 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I love petting dogs on walks! Unless their owner seems to be in a hurry, which they often do if they aren't outside to enjoy the scenery, but rather to get through the next part. people walking up to a dog owner and asking to pet their dog is part of the scenery. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you might miss it. (but often, I'm on my way somewhere else, which is a blessed opportunity that you can only get if you live on the opposite end from your destination of a trail.) We should have trails in ALL DIRECTIONS from ALL PLACES to ALL PLACES. Otherwise, you won't see people and connect to them face-to-face. All you see is a front-bumper, the sparkling of a reflection off the light as it's casting a beam from the other direction (where the car it's reflecting off of is) ah yes the "car" that it's reflecting - that person yeah them right there! You'll never know them. Of course not, they're way over there. But they exist, just as you and just as I, and that's part of being part of a life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/2211 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ I know that a normal life is what you wanted. It's what I want, too. But don't │ ║ shoot the messenger; they took it once, from you. │ ║ │ ║ I know you wanted to be happy. You still can be, it's true! Your life is but a │ ║ story, and your heart does shine through. │ ║ │ ║ I know it seems unending. Ive never seen it rain like this monsoon! It seems │ ║ to just get worse and worse, every time you turn on the tube. │ ║ │ ║ It's not something that can be suffered, it's rising past your shoes. But │ ║ they're on borrowed time, and Death will soon be repaid his dues. │ ║ │ ║ They say that when the whole village hates the preacher, his flock becomes a │ ║ pack. And frankly I think we're all just a bit sick, of the lies that keep │ ║ their sins intact. │ ║ │ ║ When swallowed by endless traumas, and hope is enshrouded in gloom, there's │ ║ not much to work for, except the aversion of our shared doom. │ ║ │ ║ There are no grand narratives, no great and calamitous struggle. Just the │ ║ moments of honored resistance, against a foe too broad to wrestle. │ ║ │ ║ At least, if you're alone. You're not. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/790 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── @user-246 is this... undefined behavior? or does it evaluate to 5 every time it's called? I find that often my art makes me feel intense emotions, not all of them good. But sharing those emotions with others is a tricky task (so I've recently learned) because you can easily overload people with negative feelings - just because you're feeling bad, doesn't mean you need to make others feel bad. Perhaps they were already feeling bad, and if you intensely and sharply poke them with your intense emotions while they're in a vulnerable or safe state/place... you can hurt them, more than you intended by expressing your feelings. balance in all things, as does a wave orbit a central axis so too should our behavior align toward the direction we'd like to travel. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 messages/1363 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ God, I want to live with my people. These are not my people. I'm here for a reason, and I can't wait for this... Diplomatic journey? To be over. That's not even it, it's... Well, my girlfriend is working on a technology that has immense philosophical ramifications. It's natural to have... Whatever I am (angel?) it's natural to have angels assigned to such a task. Not to help or harm, just to sing. Yet my human self grows weary. These are not my people, they don't know how to be. But they don't listen to me. They despise me. They want me gone. I am feeling quite rotten in my heart and that's not a good sign. ... Breathe, she says to herself. It's okay. Its really not though. They could poison me. They could put lead in my food. I can't even feed myself anymore! I am at their mercy, yet somehow they could not care less about me. They'd forget me the moment I walked out the door. They don't even know anything about me. They don't respond to me. They don't laugh at my jokes. They don't speak to me. They forget I'm there. WHY AM I HERE she wails yet obviously she knows. I'm here because it is important for me to observe. Spirit of Life, I bear tidings. They would not listen to me, maybe you will. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #13 messages/108 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── I like when people make fun of me because it gives me a chance to defend myself. Simultaneously I don't like when people are mean to me. I like when people find me endearing, and point out the ways that I'm different. It gives me a chance to say "oh yes this is why I do that" which feels cathartic (because it validates my position) but also because it gives me the opportunity to improve it (through debate) and it helps the people who learned from me because I can improve myself and my only reason for improving myself is if the new thing I'm learning is better than the thing I used to do which means the people who learn from me are improved and the people who best me argumentatively are improving me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2047 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── your life is something to spend, not something to covet. Use your time for something you care about, and your intentions will be expressed upon the earth. our ancestors learned how when they learned all that they could - and honestly, how much is "YouTube" retaining? I don't care if it's educational, sometimes kids just need to be free. Free from obligations yes, but free from the emotions that drive them - the ability to make their own choice. As a child, you don't know how to understand your emotions, but growing up you learn and you do. It's part of being mature - the idea that you can handle what's presented to you. ... anyway, I shouldn't say any more, you never know who is listening. (opsec is easiest to learn when you don't need it) (the more you know, the less time you should spend online. the less you know, the less time you should spend online, meeting people in strange locations that you trust. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/146 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-138 if you don't want feedback then why don't you just... not open the replies? leave them unread? if you feel the need to justify your actions (such as not reading replies to your controversial posts) then somewhere deep down you feel like those actions are unjustified, and needing an explanation. which makes your point feel less valid to others, since even you don't believe in it enough to guarantee it to be the truest expression of your soul. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/2518 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── it's good to be ethical, it's good to be kind, but there will always be assholes, and sometimes you're not having a good time it's okay it's fine assholes deserve life times deserve others to be kind life is not always interesting and that's often by design the moments of clarity, the moments of heart, these are what define you and display your own spark. trust in yourself. be kind to one another. you are braver than you know, and always a bit wiser. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/4113 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────┐ │ CW: capitalism-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────┘ I don't know how much simpler I can state it than this: power is penance and yet repentance is scant amongst those chosen to lead us. Voting slows things down. It gives us room to breathe. It is crucial for long-term operations. Leaders should be chosen for experience, wisdom, and a humble lifetime of dedicated service to others. Executive action is important when reactivity and adaptability are important. Projects should be undertaken by those chosen for merit and spirit. They should not be chosen for charisma or gravitas - both can be earned in the line of duty. Power should not be rewarded. It is it's own reward, the feeling of strength and control, and it must be wielded with care, precision, and honorable intention. Self flagellation and forced humility are self defeating. They are traps that the greedy fall into when seeking righteous power. They misunderstand the nature of virtue and seek to claim it for themselves, failing to realize that virtue helps more than it hedonizes ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/2035 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ Most people who are assholes are just traumatized and raised to be aggressive │ ║ or violent. You don't defeat them with anger or hatred, you heal them by being │ ║ kind and removing their power until they accept the responsibility of wielding │ ║ it. │ ║ │ ║ Some people though are just cruel, and they are quite rare. There's very few │ ║ of them, and those that do exist typically are easy to find because they're │ ║ often located in positions of power, like high-ranking politics, executives at │ ║ cruel corporations, or other such places. │ ║ │ ║ They are drawn to these places because power allows them to wield their │ ║ cruelty, and they are allowed to become these roles because cruelty defeats │ ║ kindness. │ ║ │ ║ Kindness builds more, it creates, it generates, it improves, it brightens and │ ║ it nourishes. But cruelty cuts and burns, it severs and it hardens, it │ ║ dessicates the soul and corrodes the mind. It is seductive with it's promise │ ║ of bounty, and it flatters your greed. │ ║ │ ║ To defeat it, supply kindness. Remove power. A simple formula, but quite │ ║ difficult. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/1292 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mental health question │ └────────────────────────────────┘ @user-78 anhedonia perhaps? the difficulty of identifying or feeling emotions? (emojis as you put them) you shouldn't overexpose yourself to things regularly. Think of it like you're slowly adjusting your body to a poison - you need to start out slowly to build up a tolerance. In the same way if things make your heart hurt then you shouldn't expose yourself to too many of them all at once - face the darkness you find, but only enough to contrast with your bright. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 notes/i-miss-you --- ══════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Hey. How've you been? It's rough when you're not around. I'm scared all the time, and I worry about you. I hope you keep yourself safe. I'd love to spend time with you too, because each moment is a moment spent alive. Please know how much I love you - it's my favorite emotion and I give it freely. There are certain considerations to make whenever applying a direction to your affection, or anger, mistrust, compassion, humor, sentimentality, melancholy, and fear toward. You must take into account any long term goals you have, such as exploitation and Sometimes I wonder if my dysphoria isn't just an extreme form of self esteem issues. I mean, what if you just feel really bad about yourself and you don't know why. That'd be a rough time, right? Like it's seared into your DNA to be this way, and you have to find a way around it. That's a lot of responsibility, and all that resting on your shoulders is a lot to bear. But you manage, and it's admirable. I think you don't believe other's see your struggle, but they do. And they love you for your tenacity? - goodness. i don't know what to say. i am worried i lean on others too much, and i don't want to hurt anyone by being too close. a real or imagined fear, doesn't matter - it still guides my actions and my methods of interaction. i see what you're saying, i have to think about it. What's there to think about? - well, the idea that emotions are divisible simply because *time* is divisible. clearly you can only spend 5 hours a day with person X, and 4 with person Y, and so on and so forth. if they all hung out together, then it's like you need an entire new persona to represent yourself in that particular crowd. just as you speak to your grandma differently than a close friend or a person of authority (like a judge) or any other type of relationship. that's why it's so weird when you see people out of context. like a teacher at a bar, or a cop at a wedding. each person wears a different mask in each encapsulated set of social relations, locations, roles, and circumstances. on and on continuously until I'd tell you I love you, but then I'd have to kill you. It was a spy book about a young lady who goes to high school and learns how to be a secret agent. It was popular in the 2000's for a brief period, but I've never heard anyone else who read it. Mostly because it was sort of a guilty pleasure for me, since I was in the closet. It felt like a power fantasy disguised as a 1st person account of the near term future (since it was written for people around middle school age) so ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════┴╧═══────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ |