=== ANCHOR POEM === ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┐ ║ I often find that when I encounter powerful feelings of rage, hate, spite, │ ║ anger, or other similars, my first instinct is to repress them. To bury them. │ ║ To let them sprout and grow. │ ║ │ ║ This is often counterproductive to my meta-goals, which are hardly ever voiced │ ║ even within my own mind. This obscurity makes them difficult to reason about, │ ║ but ya work with what ya got I guess. │ ║ │ ║ I've found that if I want to silence these thoughts, quell these emotions, │ ║ defeat these internal obstacles, or otherwise diminish or reduce their effects │ ║ on my actions, I need to slay the dragon. │ ║ │ ║ The best way to do that is through voice. │ ║ │ ║ Speak your mind, say what's in your heart, even if only to yourself, your │ ║ partner, your cat. If you speak to the subject of your thoughts, they may │ ║ react... poorly. │ ║ │ ║ Speak the mind. Let yourself hear yourself. Then, reflect on the words you │ ║ spoke. Do you really want to feel this way? │ ║ │ ║ Often, I find, after sleeping it off, that my rage is... Unwanted. I don't │ ║ like feeling angry. So I find myself without │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧═══───────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/1137 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── @user-852 Anger is quite a powerful and useful emotion. Sometimes you can utilize it toward achieving your goals, while other times it's simply sufficient to embody and feel it. When I seek to embody anger I listen to Green Day because it lights a fire in me that warms my internals ^_^ ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 notes/what-is-on-your-mind-oh-gosh-now-i-see --- ═════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────── that feeling i get, when nobody's watching. is sorta similar to the feeling i get when somebody's watching. could it be, that someone could percieve without being seen? like... an invisibility cloak. or the shroud that protects young children. have you ever been hunted? or are you just eager prey? the eyes that are on you are blind to what you won't do, so cherish that love and restart from mine to thine we realize we are one kind. one mind, one kind, to be is not to be, now we can see what's our existence. good versus evil seems like a conflict to me, and wouldn't ya know it there's conflict all over. it's easy to condemn your opponent to the starkest of contrasts, but find in your heart a feeling that might last. what purpose has conviction when it leads to destruction is it not better to lead to the last? bright, shining, illustrious examples that inspire and =============================================================================== = those feelings you hear? the things that keep you up at night? they're not coming from your ears. they're all in your mind. stay present and you'll hear none, but blink and then there's some, you better believe in your heart. morality is a battle within the soul of each of us - the call of adventure versus lust. think about it. a bunch of apes all hanging out - they're conquered the world, they have nothing to fear - what would they do but fuck? that, or exploration - fighting against monsters and foreign invasions. it makes sense that they'd be binary - humans truly are. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/1331 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-803 if someone does not consent to helping you bear their emotional burdens, but you insist anyway... that seems to be the narcissism you mentioned if someone does consent, then they're helping a friend. Or they're being a therapist for them. sometimes we can't help but be overcome by emotions. In those moments I find it's usually best to retreat to a safe space and hide out for a bit until the storm passes, then maybe return to the world a bit more fatigued but less... spicy. those moments show that you need more emotional support, both from yourself and from others. If the people in your life cannot help you, and you cannot help yourself... then yeah you're probably gonna hurt people around you. Plan as such and figure out how to still be a good person, it's up to each of us to do it in our own way. ... at least, that's how I look at it for my own life, feel free to disagree or anything ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/2654 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I'm not bitter, you're bitter. >.> ... okay, take a breath, you're fine. It's hard to handle negative feelings when you're alone because other people can't boost you up. We rely on each other for emotional stability, but when you're alone you can only feel your emotions at the same rate as your thoughts. And your thoughts need to process the events you're experiencing, using emotion as an "encoding" for preserving the "meaning" of your life's story. Bit by bit you learn new things, while living through life, and the lessons you learn from them are generated from the cognitive conclusions reached by cognitively interpreting emotional reactions to each moment. like "this-or-that thing happened and I feel that-or-this way, meaning I should act such-and-such way in the future when presented with situations that bear similarity to this current one that's ongoing." ... turn it upside down, right, makes sense mastodon feed. thanks for redirecting me in a different direction through your pseudo-randomized input. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/2035 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ Most people who are assholes are just traumatized and raised to be aggressive │ ║ or violent. You don't defeat them with anger or hatred, you heal them by being │ ║ kind and removing their power until they accept the responsibility of wielding │ ║ it. │ ║ │ ║ Some people though are just cruel, and they are quite rare. There's very few │ ║ of them, and those that do exist typically are easy to find because they're │ ║ often located in positions of power, like high-ranking politics, executives at │ ║ cruel corporations, or other such places. │ ║ │ ║ They are drawn to these places because power allows them to wield their │ ║ cruelty, and they are allowed to become these roles because cruelty defeats │ ║ kindness. │ ║ │ ║ Kindness builds more, it creates, it generates, it improves, it brightens and │ ║ it nourishes. But cruelty cuts and burns, it severs and it hardens, it │ ║ dessicates the soul and corrodes the mind. It is seductive with it's promise │ ║ of bounty, and it flatters your greed. │ ║ │ ║ To defeat it, supply kindness. Remove power. A simple formula, but quite │ ║ difficult. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/3053 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── when designing systems, give people the opportunity to be shitty in a controlled way. In a way that doesn't hurt people, but still lets them get their feelings out there. like, free fireworks for arsonists if they use them in the middle of the desert. Or a punching bag for people with rage issues, complete with a little vinyl pocket to store a picture of someone they're frustrated with. If people go out of their way to hurt people otherwise, then they are bad people and should have their power removed from them and supplied with love, affection, and therapy until they get better. And if they don't... well, prison I guess, until they reconsider. And by prison I of course mean something that respects their human dignity and gives them opportunities to grow and change - all it removes is their freedom, so... "attention everyone, it's now mandatory finger-painting hour, report the art room or else you'll get electric shocks in your shock collar" that kind of thing. If you want freedom, you must deserve it ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/790 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── @user-246 is this... undefined behavior? or does it evaluate to 5 every time it's called? I find that often my art makes me feel intense emotions, not all of them good. But sharing those emotions with others is a tricky task (so I've recently learned) because you can easily overload people with negative feelings - just because you're feeling bad, doesn't mean you need to make others feel bad. Perhaps they were already feeling bad, and if you intensely and sharply poke them with your intense emotions while they're in a vulnerable or safe state/place... you can hurt them, more than you intended by expressing your feelings. balance in all things, as does a wave orbit a central axis so too should our behavior align toward the direction we'd like to travel. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/534 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: CW-added-nazis-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────┘ @user-367 @user-366 @user-246 @user-353 Agreed! That's why I never touch the stuff. Frankly I worry that if I did, it would "infect" me somehow, because brains are kinda stupid. Or maybe it's the 'tism that makes me repeat the most taboo think I can think of in my brain whenever it wants to hurt me -.- Don't read that stuff. I wish I could forget every slur I ever learned, because my internal monologue just... REALLY enjoys intrusively thought-ing my internal narrative whenever possible. >.> It takes real, genuine effort to not be racist or whatever because brains are stupid, but like... it's kinda necessary to be a good person, so, y'know, don't think bad thoughts about people you don't know? And if you find yourself with intrusive thoughts related to that kind of thing, then focus your attention on vanquishing them, because it's important. It really is. Just do it. Work on it. Be better. I know you can. [says me to me lol] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3807 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: Hot take cursing-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-1074 those are the kind of people who probably shouldn't take up that much space in your thoughts like... they're hypocrites. yeah-sure-fine-whatever. Maybe their opinion could be changed if they were in different social circumstances, but, they're not, so... fuck 'em until they are, yeah? so many people don't think for themselves. That's okay, they don't have to think if they don't want to. I guess. But they also can hurt people, so... fuck 'em, until they are given the chance to consider, and they choose to consider. It's very difficult to maintain hatred when presented with the possibility of consideration. But those kind of people typically never have that opportunity. So... like I said, fuck 'em. Don't give them power, don't let them hurt people, but they can fuck right off with their hatred and vitriol (vitriol not unlike this kind that I'm writing right now) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/2104 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── @user-192 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about myself. So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5835 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── next-level double-speak: when they say one thing with a tone that makes them seem fine to the microphones but they mean something to hurt you because they know what stings or they want to entrap you. next-level para-noia: when they believe one thing and are personally harmed whenever you speak to the contrary, as faith is sustenance in the way that the pumping of blood through your veings sustains. RUDE RUDE RUDE WHY IS EVERYTHING FRUSTRATING. It shouldn't be this way, yet CONSTANTLY are things disagreeing. CONSTANTLY they fight or complain. ALWAYS they are disruptive and annoying. SEVERAL times in excess of what is need. HOW is it so stressful HOW is there so much pain I am an explosed nerve, ready to serve, preferring to be used than misused. it's fine. whatever. nobody even knows what this means. you lose points if you disturb the environment did you hear that? sounds like we should BREAK and SHATTER the parts of most fragile nature. "only if it's for a good cause" oh, like climbing a mountain? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/1027 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ @user-246 │ ║ │ ║ one thing you can rely on about evil: it presents itself as such. │ ║ │ ║ "you can always rely on bad people to turn mean." │ ║ │ ║ (nobody's beyond forgiveness, but we also need to protect ourselves.) │ ║ │ ║ in video games, going with a defensive build is a valid strategy depending on │ ║ how it's values align. If attacking scales better than defending, in terms of │ ║ "effectiveness at the most difficult part" (usually the last 90% takes 10% of │ ║ the effort) then it's a better strategy. But if your win condition is to │ ║ outlast your opponent, then all you need to do is time your aggression for │ ║ when they begin fracturing. │ ║ │ ║ "I'm sure you don't know this, but once garth fought a dragon. they crashed │ ║ through the skies and littered the fields of their home with the broken and │ ║ crashed symbols of their own. garth defeated the dragon when one of it's claws │ ║ broke, thus giving him the advantage. he took from that fight a shield of │ ║ dragonscale, and a tabard made out of some cloth." │ ║ │ ║ in a contest of wills, the first sign of weakness is whe │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #13 messages/45 --- ════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Description of me: I enjoy talking about esoteric topics, I can visualize pretty well so I tend to have unique analogies, I am kind and compassionate, I try and empathize with everyone (especially my enemies), I love plants, animals, and nature, I'm very solution focused so I often start by defining the situation, defining the problem, and then creating a solution that navigates whatever blockers are ahead. I'm willing to follow the designs of others and offer my concerns or input rather than trying to be the leader at the center. I am generally calm, and can evaluate a situation both objectively, and subjectively from the perspective of all those involved. I specialize in mediation, and encouraging incompatible viewpoints toward accommodation. I try to follow my heart when I can, because I know my brain will only listen when it's a good idea. I admire independence and I strive to be as determined as I can, but I also am not afraid to rely on others and I'm quick to ask for assistance when I know I'm in the dark - it's better to be correct than unique. I value family, goodness, perseverance, and continuous growth and learning. I believe all problems can be resolved, and all wrongs be righted. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═══──────┴┴───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 messages/108 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── I like when people make fun of me because it gives me a chance to defend myself. Simultaneously I don't like when people are mean to me. I like when people find me endearing, and point out the ways that I'm different. It gives me a chance to say "oh yes this is why I do that" which feels cathartic (because it validates my position) but also because it gives me the opportunity to improve it (through debate) and it helps the people who learned from me because I can improve myself and my only reason for improving myself is if the new thing I'm learning is better than the thing I used to do which means the people who learn from me are improved and the people who best me argumentatively are improving me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/1082 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-cursing-mentioned │ └─────────────────────────────────────┘ damn, I'm a pretty cool person. I wish I could hang out with me. Like, for all my flaws (what even are they ? ? ?) I'm still pretty awesome. I'm proud of me! Thank you parents, for raising me as such! Thank you past me, for making the decisions that you did! Also, fuck you past self, for making those OTHER decisions. You know the ones I'm talking about. No, that's not an excuse, it's all your fault and you're awful and everything about you sucks. Wait, hang on, wasn't I feeling happy to be here? Wasn't I just excited to live in the moment? Wasn't I just thinking about how: "all you have are good things, nothing here is bad" ? ? ? well, I still love you, even if you're a little "all over the place". [rereads post] hell yeah you ARE a cool person, yes you are, such a good cool person, yes yes yes, what a good girl you are oh my goodness :D :D :D ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 messages/20 --- ══───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── My mom was always the reason I did school work. After she stopped pushing me, I stopped moving because I didn't know how to generate my own momentum. I had no passion and was listless. Least of all for school work. So, how to do it better? Instead of buying toys and extravagance for kids, you should set them up with projects. Ask what they want, and then help them build it. Include them in your thought processes when you're problem solving, and ask them for input. If they offer bad ideas, then *tell them*, don't just let them fail. If you're not 100% sure but they're convinced, then trust them! Try it out, who knows. Maybe it'll work better than what you had in mind. The goal isn't to be BETTER than them, it's to make them BETTER than you! Not right now (don't push too hard), but when they're your age. Like, it's best if they accomplish more and lived life more fully than you did at your age, but don't push them to be wise or strong or intelligent at the age they are now. Trust that they will grow when you give them room to, and guide and cultivate them toward goodness. For example, if they do something wrong (hitting other kids, messing with animals, destroying objects) then guide them toward a better path. Teach them empathy, and show them how it works by doing it yourself! Ask them questions like "How would you feel if that happened to you?", show them weak points and how to avoid them when playing, and give them alternatives to the behaviors they do that directly harm others. "Maybe play with the dog this way, instead of being rough" "Maybe you and that other kid can ride your bikes or draw instead of fighting - or if you still want to fight, then learn how to tell when someone is hurt and try to help them." The goal isn't to push them really hard off a cliff in a hanglider, hoping they can figure it out in the air, it's to strengthen their legs so they can run fast enough that they can take off successfully. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═────────┴┴───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 notes/letter-of-affection --- ═══════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── You are the most beautiful thing I can imagine. To see you is to know you, but to talk is to... Communication is the essence of connection A dream we create for ourselves While we are constrained by false limitation a message is able to be felt. But how to convey such a thought pattern as that? A meaning beyond any established protocols? Art is the solution, and poems are their charms Music is quite liberating and knitting is fun, songs sung in great exhultation and warriors who just like to play along crafts are the method of healing your wounded and worn soul, and hey, now, what's prison but torture? Why punish people who've maken mistakes? They improve, when, taught to express themselves So why, hurt, their family who had taken no part? And why, can I, continue to fuck up and never be hurt? What purpose is there in criminalizing our growth? It's not, fair, that I should be fair When I'd, want, to have her short hair. Tell me what's, wrong, with being along? No friends, to, have and hold onto communication is the essence of our unification Without cooperation, we are a failed nation. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘══════───┴╧───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4559 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-mentioned-violence-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────────┘ "grrrrr I'm so mad, I could just, I dunno, shoot a CEO as he's leaving a hotel" or, hear me out, or you could connect with your local radical networks and, or, almost there, or you could build solidarity with the people around you to better develop methods of resisting the kinds of change they will implement to, um, "discourage" people from "being so mad they could just" or both. both is good. not that I'm encouraging, recommending, or inciting that kind of violence. don't notice me three-letter senpai uwu ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/2956 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── sometimes your best intuitions don't manage to manifest the goal you've been pursuing. that's okay, it just means you need a different approach. hopefully, with experience, you've had the chance to continually pay attention. Thus, improve on things that were originally conceived of as concessions. much better, I find, to point your idea of "truth" toward what you believe in, rather than what you've been working with. Such an approach allows for continual re-examination, justified by thoroughly moral and ethical conclusions that you hold to be true. like, a form of reverse legalism, where the emotions compel while the law tells the tale. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/908 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ @user-246 │ ║ │ ║ toooooo far, gotta stick with your intentions for the process. If you mark │ ║ "the end of time" as the conclusion for everything, then "finishing things" │ ║ feels impossible. In such a case there are moments of acute burnout as you │ ║ push yourself toward something that you have no faith in - you cannot see it's │ ║ conclusion, so surely it's worthless to conceive of. Alas, why bother │ ║ starting, nothing will ever come of my efforts! │ ║ │ ║ Much better to name it based on what you'd like to accomplish, so that you can │ ║ follow in it's radiant footsteps. │ ║ │ ║ Side note, but governments have often weaponized this effect by naming things │ ║ after very inspirational thoughts - corporations do it too, and in both cases │ ║ the meaning is separate from the effect. Which is frustrating because it makes │ ║ you feel like a jerk for arguing against it! Ah better I think when names have │ ║ no meaning - then you can project whatever you want onto it, based on the │ ║ results of that particular feeling or emotion that you perceived as the │ ║ affected of the │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ |