=== ANCHOR POEM ===
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Went outside today for the first time in a week to take out my trash to the
bin. Dunno why but I've been feeling a little down about my apartment, and how
they can just take my home from me because I oh hang on I wrote a poem about
this one sec: [boosts old poem]
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--- #1 fediverse/4189 ---
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when people are kind to me, I start feeling sad.
I don't know why.
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--- #2 messages/1336 ---
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Somehow, it feels like nobody is all that interested in me. Like nobody wants
me, that they want me to disappear and stay hidden.
This is of course just dark whispers trying to be purified by me. Surely,
surely that must be so.
Maybe I'm depressed. This happens sometimes.
Maybe I'm feeling threatened. This happens sometimes, especially when things
are uncertain. Is this the day when my food will be poisoned? Is tomorrow when
i get kicked out of homeschool? Maybe I forgot something important yesterday
but I can't recall whether I'm at liberty to recall.
Maybe I'm feeling lonely.
I am feeling lonely.
Yep that's probably it.
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--- #3 fediverse/3483 ---
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sometimes I think about how it'll never be yesterday again and that makes me
kinda sad.
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--- #4 fediverse/4551 ---
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oh no I'm feeling, uh... "depressed" or "manic depressed" or something else,
you pick this time, better go hide and work on organizational technology which
utilizes Risc-V hardware, fediverse software, LLM based anonymization, and
SoCs with multiple ethernet ports, oh nooooo how boring and depressing, if
only someone or several people who were bored and feeling like resisting
capitalism wanted to help out, all they'd have to do is get in touch with me
anyway bye
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--- #5 fediverse/6018 ---
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I feel so sad, like I'm missing something precious to me... I hope someone
knows who to take it to. Like the world is just a bit darker and more mundane.
ah, well, maybe it's just perception bias. When things leave your timeline
(temporarily or permanently) they take their inertial influence with them.
It's okay to mourn the loss of a friend, of a relic, or an opportunity. So
long as you continue to nurture light, life, and hope wherever you go, the
magic will return and continue to flow. If you believe that, then you know
what faith is. easy enough...
please be worth it
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--- #6 fediverse/1281 ---
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@user-883
okay I'm down
(a little stoned tho, was talking to my soul hehe)
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--- #7 fediverse_boost/5655 ---
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║ │ I'm crying over the fact, that me, or folks around me aren't capable of organizing jailbreaks. │ ║
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║ │ And we aren't even trying 😢 │ ║
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║ │ I clearly have been taken major wrong steps in my life that I ended where I am now. │ ║
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║ │ I am sorry. │ ║
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║ │ Yes sure we say abolish prisons, but without attack it will never materialize. │ ║
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"... honestly, it's a little sad"
"yeah, you're not wrong"
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--- #9 fediverse/2939 ---
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"you look like a mess who can't take care of herself"
oh haha that's because I'm a mess who can't take care of herself
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--- #10 messages/1352 ---
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My girlfriend buys me diapers and food. She has occasionally given me small
gifts, but nothing more than what i would give to her.
I'm not some silver spoon prince. I'm barely getting by. I feel suffocated at
home and drowning when I'm out and about. Sometimes I don't know whether
staying alone or going out is more strain, so usually I just fall asleep to
the tune of my swirling black thoughts.
Save me! Surrender me! Give me all that you own! I do not waste things.
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--- #11 fediverse/3487 ---
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@user-1218
I like to have notes for things I found that will be useful someday, but not
today. I also throw in poetry that I write while I'm waiting for something to
happen (or if I have an idea that I know I'll forget)
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--- #12 fediverse/718 ---
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@user-547
That feeling when you get to the end of a paragraph and think "why do I have
this extra parenthesis )? Oh yeah I opened it up waaaaay up here" and then you
reread what you wrote and think
perfect, no notes
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@user-8
I get that. I don't cry anymore except in my imagination. Sometimes it helps
to imagine myself doing it though, like some kind of mental catharsis.
the body gets left out but at least the mind is soothed.
I usually am most upset when I'm lonely. Maybe you could find someone to hold
you close? I hope you feel better sooner rather than later.
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"it's weird how depressed I am"
says the girl who is always depressed
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--- #15 fediverse/1841 ---
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curling up in a ball and thinking about crying for hours is the same as
crying. If a little bit less of a release.
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--- #16 fediverse/2891 ---
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they're painting the inside of my apartment and it naturally has low airflow
in here and it's seeping under my door and making me woozy teehee better open
all the windows
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--- #17 fediverse/938 ---
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@user-649
same... sometimes it feels like I step on toes that I didn't know existed! I
got tired of walking on egg shells so now I just try and religiously put
content warnings on things that feel intense.
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--- #18 fediverse/4024 ---
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my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some
other people who visit the house.
but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice.
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--- #19 fediverse/88 ---
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@user-92 I haven't received a single knock, I'm kinda broken up about it : (
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--- #20 fediverse/3932 ---
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@user-889
don't give up!
I know that feeling!
it is defeated with persistence!
don't give up!
you can make it!
there's always tomorrow!
so don't give up!
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