=== ANCHOR POEM === ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: death-of-a-family-member-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────────┘ my family has always been the black sheep of our families. I've never lived in the same state as my extended family (with a few minor exceptions) I was raised to know that family is an earned status, and my mom took us on road trips every year to visit them, to give us kids the chance to earn that affection. and for them to earn it from us. I guess it wasn't enough. I wonder if they think of me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4024 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some other people who visit the house. but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/3426 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-of-a-family-member-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ my grandpa died. now I have none. I realized I miss old people. I miss their friendly culture. I realized I hadn't talked to him for a decade or so. He didn't know I transitioned. I wonder if he missed me. I realized he missed seeing who I became. Is it unfair of me to not give him the opportunity to know me? truly? ... I am quite different now than I was 10 years ago. He probably doesn't remember. I miss him, but I hardly knew him. I don't like that feeling. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/5704 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── we've been in a state of revolution for hundreds of years and you think it's okay to just slack off? [I'm resting] [life is hard] okay then don't psychically promise to be somewhere for something if you're tired [okay mom -.-] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4976 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────┐ ║ ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: revolutions-mentioned-housing-mentioned │ │ ║ └─────────────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ Somehow, I always become more revolutionary when my home is threatened. I │ ║ wonder why that is? Perhaps adversity breeds courage. Perhaps necessity does. │ ║ In any case, I can't pay my rent again, so prepare for me. │ ║ │ ║ Sometimes, I feel like my country is my home. Not the lines we drew on a map │ ║ some hundreds of years ago, but the land itself. I am a witch, I hear it call │ ║ to me. I know the land is kind, for we are kind, and plenty more of us have │ ║ lived here than those who currently do. Perhaps our ancestors don't need to be │ ║ related by blood to be listened to and respected. In any case, I lend my love │ ║ to them, and I pray in return so that they might hear themselves through my │ ║ voice. │ ║ │ ║ My home is not safe. There are capitalists all over the place. They wont see │ ║ what isnt theirs to behold, and alas, they've been alienated their whole │ ║ lives. I do believe that state may be ended, and a new one may first take it's │ ║ place. We are alone together, and perhaps we will not be alone for long. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────┴──────────┘ --- #5 messages/1343 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I've never been a fan of the democrats. From a young age, I remember my father talking about how spineless they were, and how cruel and shortsighted the republicans were. I have since come to learn that democrats, as an economic class, are also shortsighted, and their lack of foresight causes their "triage" to have cruel effects. We could do so much better, and it's not because everyone wants something different as they say. The reason is because they are spineless. They don't want to rock the boat because they're afraid of death. Remember, most of them are so thoroughly traumatized having lived in the era of nuclear threat (which isn't over, I might add) and post-911 hysteria (which they contributed to, I might add) and it makes sense that they act so conservatively. They feel such immense pressure to keep the ship sailing but if your rigging is secure and you've got enough control over the boat, you can pull down the sails and wait out the storm. T.T too bad j+j I bet we were in love in the original timeline. The me from then was different than the me from now, so I don't know if it could ever work out. Talk to me after the war, maybe it'll toughen me up a bit. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #6 messages/268 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── I love all humans. It is unconditional. The kind of love I have for nazis is a kind of vengeful love. Like, the way you might love a family dog who recently got rabies, bit two more dogs, and is currently eyeing you with terror and malice in its eyes - the kind that only comes from the loss of compassion. "you were kind once, as all humans are, but sometime in your life you made choices. and now you are here. I burn thee for my fathers I spite thee for thine mothers And I slay thee to fight the dragon of hate." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 messages/175 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── I love my mom. She has never once harmed me. I love my dad. He is so precious and important to me. I love my cat, my sisters, my friends and my lovers. I love my cousins and my half-siblings and all of them put together. I love every human I meet, there's nothing but kindness [replete], so why am I unendingly [yearning for] purchase? [a sense of stability or hand hold that a climber might use to put one foot in front of another] In all of my trials, the errors of my denials, here on this earth I am defeat. Goodnight, sweet moon, my dearest precious boy. Goodnight, for tomorrow's your beckoning ploy. [pillow?] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/4273 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┐ ║ Some of my most wanderful times were when I lived in a gated community. │ ║ │ ║ My parents were dumb, and thought, as most people thought, that harm to a │ ║ child can only come from outside of the community. │ ║ │ ║ But they fell for the lies of property, where "community" means less of "a │ ║ group of people who cares and tends for one another" the kind of which my │ ║ parents had never truly known, and more like "this particular residential area │ ║ on the map" │ ║ │ ║ which means I could walk around in this gated "community" where the gates are │ ║ little more than security theatre for anyone who says "Hi I got a pizza here │ ║ for this address which I found on google maps" or "hey I left my sweatshirt at │ ║ my sister's house and it has my phone in it, ummmm no I don't remember which │ ║ number her house is, nor do I remember her last name" │ ║ │ ║ in those times, I developed a sense of freedom, caged as I was, that for most │ ║ comes much later in their time. │ ║ │ ║ Some o my favorite places were part of the golf course next door, where I │ ║ found a nigh endless river delta. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┴──────────┘ --- #9 messages/518 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── African Americans have done more than enough to be considered native to America. Stop treating them as second class citizens just because you are different. They are the same as you in some respects, better in others, and worse in others. That is what it means to be *similar*, yet *distinct*. Deal with it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/5339 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── @user-1803 hey I dont disagree that what you're describing is a common outcome, but if it works for them then I consider that a success. I however, am different, I do believe in my heart that I am my own thing, and thats as close to enlightenment as I can imagine. are we not all making things up as we go? every moment of life is new, there is nothing that is not unique about every precious moment you experience. therefore, I do believe that rigid adherence to orthodoxy (like a bible) is opposed to our purpose here. "I think, therefore I am" implies that original thought is our true purpose. I believe we are here to express our true nature. To learn and apply lessons, to teach the young, and to build a strong and stable world built on collective kindness and trust. All knowledge is derived from the insights gained from standing on the shoulders of our ancestors. Humans crave novelty. Resisting that isn't virtuous. If god is made in our image, then I do believe that god would crave novelty as well. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/2333 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: pol │ └──────────────────────┘ If you go back far enough in history, you'll find that all peoples were once enslaved. My people, the people I am of, and that I am sworn to, will not be slaves again. In time, there will be no more slaves, not in the fields, not in the sweatshops, not in the grocery store. We will not go back. We will take no steps backward. We move forward. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/5048 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────┐ ║ ┌───────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: capitalism-mentioned-personal │ │ ║ └───────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ "capitalism brings real value into the world" says my father, in my words, the │ ║ millionaire who lost his retirement to the jaws of 2008 and its "recession" │ ║ │ ║ "oh the people are having too much fun, let's recede back to a more plaintive │ ║ state" │ ║ │ ║ when we raised cattle on the farm I grew up on, we produced enough meat to │ ║ feed our friends and family. That was enough. That was more than enough. They │ ║ gave us whatever they made, and it worked out. Everyone could specialize, and │ ║ everyone got fed, with plenty to spare. │ ║ │ ║ then, wanderlust tempted him, and we lost what we had. I'm not bitter - I know │ ║ now that place would have kept me and never let me go. But I still miss it. │ ║ │ ║ "you know, you can do projects and make companies of workers who do projects │ ║ and bring real value into the world even if you live in the middle of the │ ║ desert" │ ║ │ ║ ah but what if nobody really socializes outside of their church and your │ ║ family happens to be atheist? │ ║ │ ║ ... ha, ironic. Well, they deserve to have their own culture. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┴──────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/4470 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── to be "rich" is to have more than another. if you are happy, they are happiness poor. if you have community, they are alone. if you have serenity, they are chaotic. I am rich in very little but fire in my soul. I have enough in most cases, but I still struggle to pay rent. I am warmed by the pearl my swirling darkness has coalesced into. It nourishes me and keeps me aligned. Never forget your purpose and your truth. It will not abandon you, so long as you do so too. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/6384 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: usa │ │ ║ └──────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ I love californians. I think they belong in their own cultural category. │ ║ They're so cool. │ ║ │ ║ Washington and Oregon feel so different. │ ║ │ ║ Colorado, Wyoming, and Montana have different kinds of cowboys │ ║ │ ║ (they also have some of the same) │ ║ │ ║ Nevada is neat. I love to pass through. │ ║ │ ║ New Mexico is a spiritual place, for it is replete with beauty │ ║ │ ║ Arizona... Hmmm I'm sure there's something about Idaho. │ ║ │ ║ oh, uh, mountains!? uhhhh, sure I guess. │ ║ │ ║ people from Chicago seem like hard workers who could all get along │ ║ │ ║ I've never met a bad man from Kansatexas. │ ║ │ ║ The far-east is on double speed, yet somehow there's twice as many hours. │ ║ │ ║ uh, florida is hot I guess? but it's like always being in a blanket. Just, │ ║ stay in the │ ║ shade, and eat cold things like frozen grapes or fridge pemmican (GROSS) │ ║ │ ║ there's lots of orange juice in the south. I bet that's thanks to Georgia. │ ║ │ ║ the North-East is like Oregon to the south. Boston is cold! │ ║ │ ║ philly is nyc's trashy sister (she's cool though) │ ║ │ ║ what if we made mount rushmore in the appalachians │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧═════─────┘ --- #16 messages/1352 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ My girlfriend buys me diapers and food. She has occasionally given me small gifts, but nothing more than what i would give to her. I'm not some silver spoon prince. I'm barely getting by. I feel suffocated at home and drowning when I'm out and about. Sometimes I don't know whether staying alone or going out is more strain, so usually I just fall asleep to the tune of my swirling black thoughts. Save me! Surrender me! Give me all that you own! I do not waste things. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #17 fediverse/1280 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ I'm like the opposite of a politician. I'm crude and filthy, apsolutely │ ║ reprehensible on main, kinda scary tbh? and overall just a strange and weird │ ║ person. Also I talk about cooking a lot, with a very plain diet (carrots and │ ║ rice and sticks and mud, because I'm an autistic) │ ║ │ ║ but ask anyone who knows me and I'm the kindest person. I am empathetic, I │ ║ think about others needs before thinking of my own. I am steadfast and │ ║ dedicated to solving the problem in front of our noses. At least, the ones we │ ║ share. │ ║ │ ║ People tell me I'm binary, that I'm "either 100% or zero percent" and I don't │ ║ really get that either. Isn't it a good thing to try your hardest? Isn't it │ ║ good to be improving and honest and ethical and driven and focused? │ ║ │ ║ I also talk about strange things a lot, like gravity and multidimensional │ ║ arrays and grand narratives and emotional kinesthesia or strategic plays in │ ║ Overwatch or how to bake a good cookie or ways we still mourn us. │ ║ │ ║ ... where was I going with this? Also part of me is distracted. Just who th │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #18 notes/my-oath --- ══════════════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Family, Duty, Honor My family is my people and my people are who I choose. My duty is to serve, and I serve who I will. My Honor is respect, and that belief is my own. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 messages/76 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────── You know all those companies who say "we're a family" well... I wish they would adopt me. I want a family that I work with. But it kinda feels like... if I say anything personal they'll use it against me? What's the point? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/1844 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┐ ║ I got a job offer for a job outside of my state. But I don't want to leave my │ ║ home. I feel safe here. I know people. I know the places around me. │ ║ │ ║ The one perk is that goods and services are easier to acquire, but I don't │ ║ need much. I'm fine where I'm at. But where I'm at has rent. │ ║ │ ║ What a plague is it, that we must suffer for life! │ ║ │ ║ there's no entry-level jobs for working with our sight. │ ║ │ ║ only when youre too tired to complain will they let you direct others, or │ ║ share creative ideas for fixing the problems you're paid to assuage. │ ║ │ ║ Alas, that my life had meaning. That my words were better off spoken. Maybe │ ║ then Id live as I define, designing a world of my own hearth. │ ║ │ ║ but if a king lives in decent frugality, are they really so bad for our flock? │ ║ │ ║ and if a wizard spins tales that are weird to consider, but not much else... │ ║ are they better off starved in the dark? │ ║ │ ║ no-one likes me. computers are paper-weights given light. sure would be nice │ ║ if none but the fools went wanting. │ ║ │ ║ I mean yeah I'd live in a treehouse │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴──────────┘ |