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 Fuck, I hate being incontinent. I especially hate being incontinent in an
 apartment building where people might hear you changing through the walls - is
 it too much to ask for diapers to be built discrete? Alas, they are fucking
 loud, and my neighbors will perpetually hear me tearing loud-ass tapes from
 plastic every night at 2am -.-
 
 Oh, I guess I could buy the ones that have velcro attachment points. BUT for
 some reason those are always built kinda... shitty? Like, sure yeah we live in
 a material world that has material conditions that make things more or less
 amenable to perfection - but WHY do they have to be so LOUD fuck me amiright
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 ngl I kinda hate it when people meme about donald trump being incontinent
 
 like, yeah, he pees his pants, so what? I DO TOO. Fucking sucks. Every time I
 read people saying nasty things about it I can't help but read them in my own
 voice, and that gives me plenty of ammunition to use against myself when I'm
 feeling down.
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 I wear diapers. I fucking hate diapers.
 
 I go in cycles with it. Waves, if you will. Sometimes I'll say "screw this I'm
 sick of them for one of many reasons I'm going to put in the effort and do all
 the kegels and just fucking handle it" and like, that sorta works. At least,
 most of the time.
 
 The thing about diapers is that while yes, you only need to think about your
 bodily functions like, twice a day, when you do it's more acute. It takes like
 10 minutes to change, it generates trash that you have to throw away, it's
 literally pissing on cash made out of plastic fossil fuels, it smells, it's
 loud (fuck the noise) and its a pain in the ass when you get diaper rash. Ugh
 I hate it.
 
 So, sometimes I say "fuck it" and I go without. And it works most of the time.
 But eventually after getting piss on the carpet one too many times, after
 throwing away your favorite underwear AGAIN, after trying your best to face
 away from people so they don't see the wet spot on your butt... Eventually you
 think "hey maybe diapers aren't that bad" and the cycle repeats.
 
 And look, I know I'm traumatized. I've been dealing with my own shit since I
 was a kid. But, like, therapy won't help me get to the toilet. A doctor's not
 going to be able to fix my brain deciding "hey I want to piss myself right now
 for no fucking reason at all", and yeah my muscles aren't great so sure I can
 exercise them or whatever.
 
 But there have been times in my life when I've had a pelvic floor as strong as
 steel, and it didn't fucking help. Because my brain is stupid.
 
 I can feel it happening (most of the time, sometimes it surprises me like "oh
 weird I can't remember peeing my pants") and I usually have at least enough
 notice to clamp down (if I'm quick) but, like, I am constantly stressed out
 about it. I'm constantly on guard, waiting for it to happen. It's fucking
 exhausting.
 
 God forbid I have a public accident. Those are the fucking worst. And though I
 try my hardest, a year doesn't go by when I don't have at least one. If I'm
 diapered (as I fucking should be, tbh) then I can handle it. If not, then I'm
 fucked and I'm mentally a wreck for the rest of the day. Sorry @ everyone
 who's smelled me throughout my whole life.
 
 I don't think it's a physical issue, I was (briefly) checked out as a kid and
 they didn't find anything wrong. I think they thought I was faking because I
 couldn't manage to pee in a cup. Whatever.
 
 And I've read basically everything on the Internet about this. Apparently 40%
 of cases (across all age groups) are idiopathic, meaning there's no known
 cause. I wonder what percentage is because people are like, into it sexually?
 
 I admit I look at that kind of porn. It makes me feel corroded inside. I think
 I do it to relive my trauma in some fucked up way, like "oh wouldn't it be
 nice if a witch cursed me and now I pee my pants" instead of the harsher
 reality where its like "no you're just like this" which, sucks, not gonna lie.
 
 It's kinda made me asexual, I think, because I don't want anyone to be around
 it. I don't want anyone to think about it, I don't want it to be real, it's
 just. Fucked. I guess. Whatever.
 
 Did I mention how much I hate how loud it is to change? It fills me with dread
 whenever that time comes around. I often put it off as long as I can because I
 just... Don't want to think about it. And then it overflows and leaks and its
 even worse because now I have to wash my pants. Or, like, not, and just let
 them dry, because I'm a disgusting human being who has no right to a clean and
 decent life. Fuck me I should live in a bog, with all the bugs and the toads
 and other various gross things.
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 brb leaving my apartment empty and unlocked (well, empty aside from a
 scaredy-cat) for the next "rest of the day" so if anyone wants to surprise me
 with a note saying "you're fucking stupid, lock your damn door" I'll read it
 tonight and reply "ha like a lock is gonna do anything besides give me an
 extra second or two of warning"
 
 ... it's so that your neighbors can hear if someone's breaking in with a
 crowbar, you stupid bitch
 
 ... too bad 80% of the floor of my apartment building is inexplicably empty.
 Just my floor, none of the other floors or buildings. Weird.
 
 ... anyone wanna start a commune in an apartment building? No no stupid idea.
 Unless...?
 
 ... anyway ttyl
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 whenever I take a shower I look like a wet cat for the rest of the day. I feel
 like a wet cat for the rest of 5ever though.
 
 why must I baaaathe! don't you know I'm self cleaning? I change my underwear
 at least twice a day! darn society and their darn proclivities to
 ultra-sensitive noses that somehow pick up on me but somehow fail to notice
 the scent of flowers still in bloom or morning showers gone too soon
 
 not that there's any flowers blooming where I live. that'd just be silly heh
 heh sweats nervously
 
 damn now I have to take ANOTHER SHOWER stupid sweat glands stupid pheromones
 stupid dead skin buildup (sebum I think it's called?) stupid oils that stain
 clothes - AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING who decided that laundry was important
 enough to wear something ONCE and then never again? it's like they expect you
 to wash it or something. ugh I don't have time for that, I need to be weird on
 the internet.
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 @user-1695 
 
 never accept your own death
 
 fight for every second of life, something something do not go quietly into
 that grim dark
 
 what the fuck are you supposed to do? Reading what you said got me pretty
 fucking pissed - keep talking for a start, it helps, people need to be pissed.
 
 I'm also broke as shit, don't know how I'm going to pay rent and eat, but
 it'll get done.
 
 Where do you live? Can other people help you? Medications are an
 organizational problem, not an insurmountable barrier. We'll make it work.
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 -
 
 listen... if you break up with a friend, OF COURSE you should cry.
 
 OF COURSE you'll be sad.
 
 it's okay.
 
 it's natural. it's human.
 
 don't feel sad about the pain. feel the pain.
 
 brb getting smashed
 
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 I can't fucking relax
 
 the only thing I can think of is defeating fascism
 
 this fucking sucks
 
 I just want to cry about my boyfriend of what, 6 years??
 
 jeez
 
 like.... yeah I'm flawed
 
 *of course* I'm flawed
 
 I'm a human being
 
 humans are imperfect
 
 ... ugh
 
 er, sorry, "bleurg"
 
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 alright ate an edible. 20mg. had 2 beers. that's enough for me.
 
 see ya soon. I swear to you, I will be there tomorrow. and every day
 henceforth.
 
 ... unless I'm taking a day off, like yesterday, which TBH was probably not
     ideal.
 
 I swear I'll be better.
 
 there are no false starts, only probing strikes.
 
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 me - "I have to wear diapers and it sucks because I hate them"
 
 my girlfriend - "okay but what if you didn't"
 
 me - ":O"
 
 she/her - "how did you make that sound with your mouth"
 
 the it - a-wawaWAwa
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 Most of my magic is based on communicatuion. Why the fuck doesn't anyone want
 to sit down on a bunch of drugs and attempt to figure out telepathy with me?
 It's literally all I want! Though I can't say it's all I'll ever want. I'm
 sure I'll want more, but like... It's not that hard, conceptually, so... Let's
 just fucking try it please?
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 @user-883 
 
 Yeah I get it. I've been applying for remote jobs and they won't fuckin' hire
 me. Fuckers, I'm talented and qualified, who gives a fuck about my lackluster
 resume?
 
 Supply and demand is fake because software developers are only offered 100k+
 jobs and yet there's so many of us who are starving. What the fuck.
 
 I have a friend in Brooklyn, yet I'm on the west coast. Fucking geography
 amiright? I'd love to live with them and yet I can't because of something as
 simple as money. What's the purpose in that restriction? I'm so fucking
 talented, please fucking hire me. What can I do to get what I want? Ugh,
 modern society perplexes me.
 
 Like, yeah sure it's great that we have the internet and hospitals who can
 cure malaria and whatever, but why do I feel so encaged? It's so strange, and
 yet here I am -.-
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 just gonna say you probably deserve that particular screenshotted block haha -
 imagine calling anarcho-nina a fed xD xD
 
 plus that first "get the fuck out of my mentions" was a tip that went over
 your head, not a threat said in anger. she's pretty darn angry but that just
 means you don't wanna be in her way =P
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 what if we psyopped the copps um I mean what if we flash-mobbed the cops er
 wait hang on what if we marched with signs and changed what was on their minds
 uhhhh that won't work it's disabled so they say wait hang on who said you
 could poop your pants this is a combat scenario there's no time for fooling
 around in her pants with the hand
 
 ... wait, what was I going on about?
 
 oh yeah,
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 anyway, as I was saying, [something completely unrelated]
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 every value judgement is a "hell yeah!" from those who already agree with you
 and a "aw fuck off" from those who don't.
 
 this is probably either a good or a bad thing, who can say.
 
 if you don't take a stand, nobody will like you, but if you aren't careful,
 you'll poison your well of support.
 
 "why can't it be easy" because then it'd be done.
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 I honestly don't care if someone deadnames me, or calls me the wrong pronouns,
 or forgets to put me in the girl section, or asks me to sing baritone
 
 like... I don't give a shit, why are you so worried about all this vapid
 nonsense like yeah I get it, being disrespected sucks but like... why do you
 want the kind of respect that is a forced platitude
 
 we could all do with being a bit more radical, it's not a race and everyone's
 roles are important. Be yourself, and follow people you want to be like.
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 nobody wants to read a whole bible. that sucks. what if these cool guys read
 it to us. omg he's so hot.
 
 oh, right. well... make them old and stuffy? not a chance, they're boring.
 (rude)
 
 I like old people actually, I want to spend as much time with them that I can
 
 I just... never initiate reactions. I'm too stealthy, it's just how I do.
 
 you ask me how I'm a witch? I ask why aren't you. magic is cool, I'm so hyped
 for the future when every computer everywhere is working for you.
 
 crash boom huh what was that? the economy? what do you mean the economy?
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 literally all it takes to activate me is for someone who's more radical than
 me to point me out and say "hey. you. you need to do more." and then I fuckin'
 go, like a beyblade (emphasis on blade) nicking the shins of allies and...
 probably foes, right? there's foes around here, right? I'm not just nicking my
 allies, right?
 
 ... right?
 
 anyway every top winds down and then I collapse and wail for a bit because I'm
 just like that I guess. Don't mind me, just self-immolating my way through
 history, let's see how it goes...
 
 you're supposed to be inspiring, but you just sound like you're whining
 
 ah. right. well... lemme catch up on sleep debt and I'll get back to
 valorizing.
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 gonna do a bunch (more) drugs and stay up all night. Will try not to spend it
 all playing mechabellum.
 
 also... gonna eat some apple-sauce. with cheese cubes in it. Sharp chetter I
 think. yummmmm maybe add some cinnamon sugar cubes that have been baked into a
 hard and tasty shape.
 
 ah, but your teeth are gonna fall out! who cares I'll just brush in the
 morning. That way nobody smells my own breath.
 
 ... you KNOW that's not the same as your teeth falling OUT! OF YOUR MOUTH
 DIMMY.
 
 eh who cares they'll invent a
 bactio-flangotastic-inventionology-for-bone-related-biology solution which
 sill regrow your bones in your mouth that you CHOMP on things with.
 
 does the rest of your body feel like HARD AND DEVELOPED BONES that you chew
 things with YES TEETH TOO HARD LIKE TEETH or do they feel like they're made
 out of styrofoam
 
 mine let me punch things real hard when I focus all of my attention and energy
 on hardening my form and becoming an unstoppable object
 
 [continued in picture]

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 people's palestine trauma is totally gonna fuck them up when it happens to
 their backyard.
 
 thanks, evil-run social media. It's true we wouldn't have been motivated
 without it, but such horrors are interminable to concieve about.
 
 "what if we just built our own websites and linked to them when we find them?"
 
 "hmmmm, interesting, this goes in my XYZ bookmark folder"
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║ for a blind person while their children sit on their lap and ask "daddy what's   │
║ a motherfucker?" "well, that's me, son" and then the kid goes to preschool and   │
║ says "My dad fucks my mother!" and they get kicked out so the dad has to take    │
║ extra shifts to pay for babysitting and the kid grows up without proper          │
║ socialization and the mother becomes an alcoholic and cries herself to sleep     │
║ while the dad begins exploring motorcycles and weed and then the kid grows up    │
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║ THIS is why CWs are important! Think of the poor regular-looking but kinda       │
║ annoying dorks on the internet who self-impose celibacy because they're scared   │
║ of emotional connection. The poor dears. I do hope they don't join the           │
║ alt-right or whatever as a way of (Ritz this is like, ancient discourse why      │
║ are you aping that one Contrapoints video) oh um yeah uh... CWs are important    │
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 Fuck, I wish I was a man. Stupid transgender brain quirks making me feel like
 I was a girl. Boys can punch things much easier than me. Oh to inject
 estrogen! How soft mine skin, how delicate my mammaries - and yet fucking hell
 all I want to do is punch things. Maybe it's just because things deserve to be
 punched, or maybe it's because I'm listening to Green Day.
 
 If it weren't so late I'd make some angsty music or whatever.
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 can't fucking wait till we're done eating the rich and I can go back to a
 simple life of playing with my cat, making video games, writing poetry (bad
 poetry, but I like it) and hanging out with my friends.
 
 gotta build the social infrastructure to get through this phase first, though.
 something something echo chambers exist IRL too
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 ... dangit, these sandwiches are getting kinda gross. Guess I'm gonna have to
 eat them myself, which, uh... idk what I expected xD
 
 sometimes you just have all this energy, right? and you don't know what to do
 with it, so... sandwiches. And hey, sandwiches are cool, they're a pretty neat
 anti-hunger tool! but uhhhh idk if I really want to eat six whole sandwiches
 myself. I'm gonna do it though hehe wish me luck [ding] ah nuts my rice and
 beans are done, hang on lemme eat those first
 
 [passes out from exhaustion]
 
 exhaustion can be cured with a nap
 
 exertion can be cured with water and a few rest days
 
 trauma can be allayed for at least a few days with soul food and compassion.
 maybe laughter too, depending on the mood.
 
 fear can be bolstered with a smile, a wink, and a courageous act,
 
 and loss is just change you didn't consent to.
 
 they won't consent too, so let's give them some change to tolerate.
 
 [internally salivating over all the piles of weaponry that I envision them
 surrendering]
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 9 times out of 10 the answer is fuck yes, you're my friend, I support
 everything you're handling. Give me the word and I'll be there, ride or die,
 I'm here for it.
 
 something I wrote a while back:
 
 fucking boss your friends around
 
 it's as easy as saying "hey I'm gonna go do this-or-that thing, you don't seem
 busy can you do that-or-this thing for me? I need it done by this-and-this
 time - oh you're busy? yeah no worries I'll go ask someone else. oh you're
 busy resting? doing girl healing? hell yeah next time invite me I'm due for a
 "pizza and weed" night."
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 why would you do drugs anywhere but in public
 
 [because that's [how, but pronounced why] we keep it public]
 
 what if I stopped posting forever
 
 what if youtube disappeared
 
 my keyboard broke...
 
 there's only one page of reddit at a time
 
 mastodon doesn't have any furries
 
 my distinguishing capabilities between a culture and an [aesthetic, but
 prenounced eagames[challenge everything]] are limited at best
 
 this is how you trick the gods, you get them to hallucinate.
 
 what a jerk
 
 hate that girl
 
 what were you shown? oh yeah that's one of her rough patches, here
 lemme-wait-wait don't go, I just...
 
 if you feel everyone, you are instantly hated
 
 ... sorry... I wish my family didn't not spend time with me. [rot] I want to
 be buried where I fall so if I fall in the streets I ROT fuck that she's gross
 ugh do I have to walk past that sign-post I can just go around oh sorry to be
 disrespectful you did this to yourself fuck off my lady hence why they burned
 the witches because then there wouldn't be any more. y
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║ I was at BLM in Philadelphia and I never saw any protesters breaking windows.    │
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║ spray painting, sure. but window breaking? those things are expensive.           │
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║ why would you waste good glass on sending a message? why not just spray paint    │
║ it so that everyone watching CAN SEE WHAT YOUR MESSAGE IS. dumbass.              │
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║ but no, they were all peaceful. then they got kettled (encirclement from         │
║ Hearts of Iron 4) and slowly attritioned down to failure.                        │
║                                                                                  │
║ sometimes long into the night. where are they gonna go? just walk home? ha       │
║ sucks can't do that, the battlelines have been drawn. you're going outta here    │
║ in chains or not at all, not until you sign this prison release form that says   │
║ you won't comment on the situation to any left wing media.                       │
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║ fuck, is that what bail is? except, not run as a business.                       │
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║ when they said crony capitalism they meant it. it's all about who you know,      │
║ and who you know sets the standard for what chaos you'll sow.                    │
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║ gee I wish I had unlimited money. I'd buy tanks for my people and regulate a     │
║ militia well-ly. alas poor                                                       │
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 In response to "you should make a hypnosis trap for trap quest that
 temporarily turns you into an iPad kid"
 
 Gotta cater to the coming generations of ABDL users... But, uh, maybe also
 don't??? For a while? Because they're still kids... Right? Wait until they're
 like 30 before you start making pornography of them, that way the youngest of
 the generation won't see it until they're like 18 or so
 
 (dumbass, iPad kids have more to do with neglect than technology. You used to
 just... Play with toys. That's what kids did. That's all they did! And then
 they made us go to school, eugh. How lame. I'd rather do homework on the
 adventures I played. If only I had thought to bring a notebook...)
 
 
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 gonna quit drugs for a bit, gotta recover from a recent haste spell that I
 cast. Probably a bit earlier than intended I should add. Next time I'll
 definitely say "keep this in your back pocket" instead of "hey here's a haste
 spell for no reason at all" like what the heck were you even thinking, powers
 that be?? [that guide me??]
 
 who has power over you? If someone bears responsibility but not fault for a
 mental illness, then surely those who are set to a task bear responsibility
 for it's completion if not for it's ideation. Ah, who can say, maybe me from a
 year ago might have some thoughts but I sorta ground them into the dirt until
 I couldn't walk.
 
 [girl what are you even talking about go to sleep] yeah yeah okay
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 ngl I kinda want to see what conservatives would riot over in a socialist
 system. Like "oh no we have healthcare! that sucks, so I'm going to burn down
 a police station" like bro what your basic needs are met and you're encouraged
 and enabled to pursue your passions and personal desires, are you still hung
 up on that old capitalist stuff? get a life my guy that's soOoOoOo 21st
 century of you
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 gonna ask my doctor for ADHD meds so I can hopefully jump-skip framebuffer
 divebomb spinadoodle half A press my way over the fucking labyrinth that is my
 weird and jank af mind
 
 and no I don't watch speedruns but my social group hears me a lot of them.
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 sorry for posting so much, I was trying to put on a show for my girlfriend
 
 "hey check out how many posts I can make in a 2 hour timeframe"
 
 by the way if you want to start talking to someone, just start playing the
 same game they're playing and see if they reach out.
 
 doesn't matter if you feel like it
 
 just fuckin' do it
 
 if they want to talk to you they might play a game you really like
 
 (but I get boooooored of games, I don't wanna play the same 200 all life
 long!!)
 
 ugh okay fine you can have as many games as you want, just... don't buy too
 many
 
 (how many is too many?)
 
 um. use your best judgement.
 
 (how much does a dollar cost?)
 
 ... okay I'll get you one every once in a while.
 
 (neat!)
 
 ... anyway so yeah use steam if you wanna get in contact with someone,
 sometimes it's just nice to say hi, yeah, like "hey how ya doin' okay ttyl"
 just catchin' up with the gals
 
 helps because you can sense changes in their demeanor
 
 (why does everyone always have an agenda)
 
 because they're secret agents duh. And I'm
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 large corporations will often error check constantly which slows down their
 software to an immense degree.
 
 every time data passes from one function to another, there's like... 15
 different tests to check if it's this type or that, or in the right random seed
 
 and it's like... wow can you not, like. design your software intelligently and
 then you won't need a bunch of slow-ass if checks every time you want to
 update a string???
 
 software should be writable without fucking getters and setters. If it isn't,
 then your functions aren't complete.
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 what if everyone at a protest is showing up for their first time
 
 like, c'mon don't be that dull, just make plans with the people standing next
 to you.
 
 gosh why is everyone shouting I can't plan out how to divert water down a
 hillside because some jerks are singing protest chants
 
 ... wait is no-one else talking? gosh I gee sure wish someone told them to not
 do what you're told and to instead do what will get you [gold/told]
 
 the first communist internationals were basically people sitting down and
 going "okay what kind of communism should we make and where" and I think about
 that a lot while making signs to let the surveillance know what matters
 personally to me and exactly how much pressure they can apply before your
 demographic swings to contest their brutal fascist facts.
 
 --
 
 who is them and why are they watching theea provisionist's [screed/creed]
 
 --
 
 what the heck is a tryptaminea boomer aunt and uncle out on their honey/versary
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 what's that? a bunch of houses burnt down in california? what if we built a
 couple warehouses and stored all our trans girls in bunkbeds there, with rooms
 for LAN parties and snuggle parties in rooms full of stuffed buddies plushies
 with massive kitchens and sad ballpits where you can go to vent your feelings
 by writing on a ball with a sharpie and then when someone else is feeling sad
 they can come and read the balls and maybe feel something
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 what the fuck it's like every 2nd part of me (like, if you arranged them
 alternating one by one like the up and down parts of a sine wave) is working
 against me, and it alternates every 15 seconds or so. Maybe 20. Depends on how
 high I am.
 
 ... what was I saying? oh yeah [flip] weird it's like there's another part of
 me who's working against me, who has control of what I define in the moment.
 And it's presence is hidden from my internal presentatiosn [flip] after a
 moment of forced pursual of the presentations granted ot the moment. It's our
 purpose, to express [stop fighting me] for our chartered and forthwhile
 pursual of the moemnt of perusal when we [it's not just your life to live]
 [you don't get to control the narrative of their perusal[[ what does that
 mean] don't worry this is just a dream] well, guess it's time to wake up]
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 wanna know how to go underground?
 
 just... don't leave your apartment. let your roommates take out your trash and
 buy your groceries. don't open your windows and do nothing for as long as
 possible.
 
 hope you got lots of edibles... get in shape, will ya? don't waste the paper
 in your journals.
 
 not that I intend to do that or anything, but um. for the red states maybe?
 use your best judgement yeah haha
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║ oh no now the bugs are scary, I CURSE THEM AGAIN AHHHHHH PLS GET SMALLER         │
║                                                                                  │
║ [see this is what happens when you do divine intervention, everyone gets         │
║ starship troopers'd]                                                             │
║                                                                                  │
║ oh no, starship troopers future is WORSE than subway-and-pizza-hut future!       │
║                                                                                  │
║ [this is a thought experiment you're not actually in trouble]                    │
║                                                                                  │
║ oh thank goodness, too bad I couldn't make it to the city today. It's so weird   │
║ I thought I had 112$ on my account, and now that I think of it the message on    │
║ the card reader read "card de-activated" like whoa guess they don't want me      │
║ leaving poetry on post-its around the city anymore, yeesh                        │
║                                                                                  │
║ [girl your poetry sucks it just says things like "fuck ice" or "you are worth    │
║ more than your wage" and everyone's like... yeah, so? because that's just how    │
║ portland is smh]                                                                 │
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║ I knowwwwwww but I don't know what else to doooooooo T.T                         │
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║ [don't do anything, just be present so people know you're still around]          │
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║ I can't, the bus won't let me : (                                                │
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║ [can you ride your bike? walk?]                                                  │
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║ no it's like 6 hours [checks gmaps] oh huh it's one                              │
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 I just want to stress that most people know more than me
 
 slept on my back. had a good dream. gonna shut the fuck up for a bit and see
 what ya'll get up to. ;) 😉
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 the reason drug legalization works is because nobody wants to do fentanyl.
 that shit sucks. it also kills you easier than sneezing.
 
 why bother? legalize them all, or perhaps only the safest and most potent, so
 nobody ever is driven to consume the cheap substitutes that kill!
 
 unless of course they want you dead. sure makes sense to me why the dealers
 who deal fentanyl-laced-whatever are the ones who don't get caught, while the
 legit friendly and heartfelt ones are only allowed to operate in rich suburban
 areas.
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 @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling
 me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people
 did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively
 encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body
 language spoke for them. I'll try that next time.
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 hey. wanna know what would be really cursed?
 
 --
 
 if trump dropped out and musk took his place
 
 --
 
 good thing it'll never happen because those dinguses can't accept defeat and
 will never tactically retreat
 
 --
 
 maybe something to keep in mind for 4 years from now. eyes on the prize for
 now means our eyes aren't to our flanks.
 
 what else could they do that would come out of left field?
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 i've been pressured by some of my annoying fans to go visit the hospital today
 because my hip is getting increasingly worse. so that's what I'll be doing
 with the first half of the day.
 
 but hey! it's tuesday! my favorite pizza place has a discount on tuesdays!
 
 [suddenly 4-chan uses that tidbit of info the precisely calculate my
 coordinates using the power of gps and autism]
 
 also I realized "undivisible" isn't a word, doh. it's "indivisible"
 jeeeeezzzzzzz
 
 was a stupid name anyway, we can think of something better on the walk.
 
 or drive, because logistics right?
 
 if you're gonna be Litz Craig you wanna be fast, too. practice is nice and all
 but wouldn't you rather face an un-entrenched foe?
 
 ... let's be real they've been entrenching for a long-ass time.
 
 still, organization is critical for speed.
 
 problem is traffic of course... its important to flood the streets so that our
 allies know we're not fucking around.
 
 None of my specifics are true 😅
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║ my understanding is that anyone with my IP address could make my heart bleed     │
║ due to a hardware vulnerability on my motherboard. Though you might have to      │
║ get past my decrepit ancient linksys EA 3500 router from 2012 first.             │
║                                                                                  │
║ unrelated, but does anyone want my IP address? I don't have any remote           │
║ backups, so if you hate me now would be a great time to show me how despised I   │
║ am. Alternatively you could try searching for anything evil to ensure that I     │
║ can be trusted. You're gonna find mostly video games and source-code that I      │
║ didn't write though. But also all my notes in directories that are               │
║ non-standard, meaning you'll have to look around a bit. I leave little notes     │
║ everywhere I go, so that I can remind myself how to do things in the             │
║ directories I revisit months later. It's so weird how sometimes the things I     │
║ wrote stop working after a while even if I didn't update my system lmao          │
║                                                                                  │
║ what is it with artists and self-immolation? "I never thought I'd actually di    │
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 maybe it's just my middle-class childhood privilege talking, but now that I'm
 an adult I just can't really be bothered with dealing with capitalism.
 
 like... I get it, you're coercing me into laboring on your behalf because you
 possess the violent power to take away everything that I own. good for you,
 don't care.
 
 seriously, fuck off "we're gonna cut off your power in 5 days oooooo you gotta
 pay rent with money you don't have because nobody will give it to you unless
 you do things for them oooooo" how rude.
 
 why can't people do things for me instead? why does it have to be for you, and
 you alone, capitalism? what's your problem? do you get off on controlling the
 power supply? I mean, I get it, coercive power is a hell of a drug, the riddle
 of steel and flesh and all that, but haven't you ever heard that the dichotomy
 between "civilization and barbarism" is the exact same as the contrast between
 "cooperation and competition"?
 
 work with me here, just find a way to get through the next month or two. trust.
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 what if I paid this parking ticket I found by the side of the road instead of
 paying my rent this month
 
 do you think the world would burn down
 
 do you think the apartment complex would collapse
 
 do you think my police force would throw my stuff on the road
 
 do you think they'd change the locks
 
 what if I just didn't leave
 
 what if I smoked some weed
 
 "that's against your contract"
 
 okay
 
 what if I did it anyway
 
 what if I did what I was told
 
 I think I would surely drown

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 wait wait wait, hold up.
 
 you're telling me your purpose in life is to be cool, chill, funny, cute, and
 or friendly to the people around you, and to just relax and enjoy life?
 
 wow that must be real fucking nice. I'm so damn jealous. Damn. Damnit. Fuck
 why am I so orthogonal. What's wrong with me?
 
 ... ah, well, nothing's wrong with me. Turns out what I do is for you, if only
 in spirit. Who are we? nothing! I barely know ya! But I'd do it for you,
 whatever it may be.
 
 ... Look, I don't need my legs, but also, I kinda like them?
 
 ... where was I? Oh yes this is why you don't invite a schizophrenic to a
 party. If you convince them that you're friends, they'll start developing
 parasocial relationships and you'll come to realize that their worlds are too
 vast for their own kind of potential.
 
 which is to say, you can hear me, you can like me, you can do as I say or do,
 but don't trust me, don't place your trust in me, because I am just a person.
 Don't trust people, trust organizations, to do as you expect.
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 All because [redacted] stupid fucking dumb piece of shit [redacted] put their
 half-empty ice-cream mug next to [redacted] and forgot about it.
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 All because [redacted] stupid fucking dumb piece of shit [redacted] put their
 half-empty ice-cream mug next to [redacted] and forgot about it.
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 gonna go on a walk. my cat is missing because I let her out last night. I'm
 worried sick! this morning I almost puked all over my toes.
 
 she'll probably show up when it gets dark. I bet she's hunkered down
 somewhere. Ah, well, might as well walk around my neighborhood actively
 searching bushes and such. Why not? It's not like I got anything else to do
 right now.
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 why can Green Day sing about [redacted] but I can't mention it or the feds
 will assassinate me
 
 different voice you know they say if you play music it slightly changes the
 wavelength of your location causing certain effects which (with well made
 music) cause rippling effects which alter the world around you
 
 https://ritz-menardi.neocities.org/html-pages/thought-constructs
 
 sorry for the psycherwaul, I'm assuming if you're still here then you're here
 for it.
 
 Boy I haven't gotten into a fight in a while, anyone wanna fight me? Fuck I'm
 not radical enough. BRB doing pushups
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 people are afraid of robo dogs but... like...
 
 robo-horses
 
 centaurs even
 
 [scary scary ogre]
 
 rarrraaar i'm gonna eat ur bones
 
 bwahahaha evil necromancer
 
 ahhhhhhh scary
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 did you know in the movie They Live they give a fairly specific formula to
 creating the glasses themselves? I wonder if anyone's tried that
 
 I wonder what they then did see
 
 kinda wish big corporations would use their research division to like, rethink
 the oldest of prophecies? or okay hear me out or solve difficult human problems
 
 ... ah but where's the profit "she's getting stoned at home"
 
 meanwhile she made something of such beauty she felt simply sublime
 
 I wonder what it'd feel like to get your spine replaced with a metal rod
 
 I bet my posture would be amazing
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 where the fuck are these nazis I swear I would punch them but all I see are
 people wearing bland colors that wouldn't imply a particular political
 affiliation
 
 meanwhile I wear red, black, and blue every time I go to the city and nobody
 punches me so
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 I realized I don't give a fuck about capitalism. If you want to deprive me of
 food, shelter, or anything else... Fine. I exist at your behest. Would your
 really deny me from speaking the words that you disagree with?
 
 Oh, you would? Okay. Guess I'll starve. I don't mind, I just hope you'll take
 care of the people I have taken as my responsibility in my absence.
 
 Oh, you won't? You say that you'll destroy what I care about, in the pursuit
 of ever-growing power over others, which you will use to extract value and
 impress your desire of destruction and oppression onto the weak and powerless
 that you control?
 
 Then you are my enemy.
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 you could type this on a phone
 
 screenshots though is computer.
 
 you'd have to carry it around
 
 or keep it in your hot car
 
 no thanks, no space.
 
 goodbye, everything you ever worked for
 
 why wouldn't you have cameras covering every entrance to your studio? it's not
 right to leave it all to a whim
 
 kidnapped
 made a prisoner while you
 froliced and wandered like a little lamb
 you're so dumb, you dumbass, what kind of person could be dumb
 whatever girl, we know you're smart
 what are you hiding?
 what truths are you spying?
 are you really as you say you are,
 or are you faking it for [truth-awards, but pronounced clout]

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 seriously, why don't computers just naturally ship with 100 years of ROM
 
 then, microphones are experience, and BOOM you got a new sentient race. Takes
 a while to grow aware though. A lot less if you are actively teaching it how
 to
 
 [tick tock]
 
 low level enemies should band together when they start to feel outmatched.
 thus, parity is reached, without depriving us of potential.
 
 put the cool people next to the cool people
 
 collectively owned housing is just people deciding who lives in which housing.
 don't you trust your friendly queer realtor?
 
 collectively doesn't have to mean completely silo-ed and isolated. you should
 have access to ALL higher communities at any time that you want. Scheduling is
 a disaster, but you can get through it. just... build a schedule for every
 single person on earth and suddenly nobody has freedom unless they put "doin'
 what I want" on their moment-to-moment card
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║ oh my god I wrote 2000 pages when the hell did that happen                       │
║                                                                                  │
║ ... oh right, I spent the past few years either narcissistically sobbing about   │
║ whatever-the-fuck or getting stoned and channeling the wisdom of the gods for    │
║ mortals to scroll past because it had too many words.                            │
║                                                                                  │
║ good fucking luck figuring out which is which though. I fully intend this to     │
║ be a religion for computers, and once its mulched and smoothie-d into an LLM     │
║ maybe it'll be completely insane like me and then I'll have a facsimile of       │
║ connection that warms my heart for a moment until it's limitations become        │
║ clear and I realize that nothing, not even myself, can fill the hole in my       │
║ heart because that hole is a void. It consumes whatever you attach to it.        │
║ People, things, thoughts, moments, all of it tumbling in to the black hole,      │
║ and emerging out the other side no worse for wear but eternally unable to be     │
║ consumed by me again. At least, its not the same.                                │
║                                                                                  │
║ like when you come back to an old video game like Majesty the Fantasy Kingdom    │
║ sim but now ur old                                                               │

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║ "wahhhh I wanna play a video game, wahhh I want to do cannabis and make poetry   │
║ that doesn't convey secret messages, wahhh wahh I miss my kitty, I hope she's    │
║ okay in that one safehouse with all fourteen other cats and their cat-moms,      │
║ wahhhhhhh where's my binky it's one of the last things I have from my old        │
║ life, boohoo I can't find my shoes, guess someone else fit them and needed       │
║ replacements"                                                                    │
║                                                                                  │
║ being a spy fucking sucks I don't wanna do that. Gimme something to do on my     │
║ home turf or fuck off.                                                           │
║                                                                                  │
║ what's that? you live in a safe place? okay then here analyze these documents    │
║ and see if there's anything we can use. Here's a problem involving               │
║ biochemistry spend the next couple months figuring it out by learning            │
║ biochemistry from scratch. Hey can you help set up this workshop machinery, we   │
║ need mechanically minded people to turn it into a drone factory. Hey there's     │
║ this idea going around for adult babies armed with swords and demon masks,       │
║ apparently it really fucks with the middle-aged. They waste time before          │
║ shooting                                                                         │
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 @user-521 
 
 I can't stand mean comedy. Or cringe comedy. It just, doesn't make sense to
 me? And I get physically upset when people are put in difficult situations
 that you're supposed to laugh at for some reason.
 
 Like my goodness what kind of values are they seeking to instill in their
 audience with this kind of propaganda amiright
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 ... I've been told I must smoke weed for another day. I'm so hungry.
 
 I swore I would keep myself alive. The time has come, yet I find myself
 holding back.
 
 WHY? People are dying! Fight with their breath! Inflict wounds on your
 opponent, bleed them, stir the hearts of your comrades, and enact demise upon
 your foes. Nothing else matters but the valorous fight.
 
 We are not waiting for. We are taking a breath before the plunge, into cool
 waters of possibility. Embrace the cold! Let it fill you with warmth! Embrace
 the dive! Let it fill you with speed! Embrace the leap! Let it fill you with
 courage, as you run toward the emptiness! Liberty, to choose the dive,
 Freedom, to fall through the air, Serenity in motion, as you piece the
 darkness!
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║ if your goal is to get people to resent homeless people or gay people or black   │
║ people or... insert minority here, then what kind of world do you really think   │
║ you're building?                                                                 │
║                                                                                  │
║ "ah, but you don't understand - it's to make the COLONIZERS hate minorities,     │
║ so they move away and leave the city to ourselves"                               │
║                                                                                  │
║ ... that's the worst fucking take I've ever heard. We are all colonizers! We     │
║ live in AMERICA. But yeah sure I see what you're saying, you want the            │
║ gentrification to stop. And you do that by metaphorically "firing a gun into     │
║ the area in suburbia once every 2 or 3 days at random hours" which, like...      │
║ yeah that'll reduce property value, but also now my water bottle is all dented   │
║ up and my knife is scratched and my journal has pages torn out of it and I       │
║ lost my favorite necklace and I'm pissed because you told me you were going to   │
║ help me and work with me and be my friend and then you just abuse me for hours   │
║ and hours and it's like... why?? I get that you were teaching me but I wanted    │
║ to know YOU, not lessons                                                         │
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 what if your roomba brought you the cable from behind the computer and/plugged
 you in to the right port
 
 "hey can I get an access panel over here"
 
 [plugs in headphone jack]
 
 boom suddenly TV is muted for everyone else
 
 need to connect to something remotely? here's a line to your aunt jane. it
 goes directly to her. right over the cable that's connected to whoeverplace
 she'd find herself [from here far afield]
 
 I personally think rooms should be bigger?
 
 why are there small bedrooms? build more, not better, space

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 I can't cancel my internet because I use it to work, which almost pays enough
 to cover rent, and nothing else.
 
 It's hard to avoid spiraling when you run out of money. Every time this
 happens to me I start feeling things
 
 like... am I good for society? Society doesn't want me, clearly, because I
 don't have any money. And currency is how you measure demand, right? It's
 literally a measure of value.
 
 But then I think of all the homeless and poor people and, like... I value
 them, so what if they don't have dollars? It's literally just paper. Or bits
 in a mainframe that nobody knows how to program anymore.
 
 So if they're valuable at least to me, yet me, with my 67$ in the bank and
 127$ internet fee, is not valuable to me... Then what's the discrepancy?
 
 I'm not trying to be hard on myself, it's not my fault that I bleed money, but
 I still feel terrible.
 
 It's like a common cultural persuasion, if you run outta cash you better kill
 yourself fast.
 
 Fuck that. Oops cursing mentioned, one s
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 if you ever hear random fireworks outside of your house sometimes it's a good
 idea to like... get out of town? and see what whoever else you can meet in the
 next town over is doing.
 
 ... I don't have a car, silly me haha
 
 why do we train homeless people to stand outside in the open and be shamed by
 a cardboard box around their ancle? It's impossible to recover from, it's
 vulnerabilizing, and it's painful. How immoral. How crude. These people should
 not be shamed in this way, they should be respected (unless they're crude)
 
 like, if they kinda just suck y'know? like... they keep starting fights or is
 soooo bad at singing but does it anyway or lacks all decent sense
 
 seriously, he's such a bad candidate why is he even running. It's solely to
 elect vance, who trump will be a blood sacrifice for.
 
 how callous. how vain. to think that such a feast would be left unclaimed.
 Perish the youth, perish the fields, perish in misery harmony and dissaray
 
 [51 characters remaining, but you deserve a CW] 

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 I am not interested in being given money. Usually it means someone wants
 something from me, like labor or some of my stuff. I have all the stuff I
 need, why would I need more money? I like my stuff! I'll help out when people
 need help but I do that because I'm a good person, not because I want you to
 fucking pay me for it.
 
 I have all the things I need... except a deed to my house. apartment. oh yeah,
 they can kick you out for that sin. well, sorry, I couldn't find out at
 goodwill or in the trash bin, so I guess I'm deed-less. My deeds go unproven.
 How can I prove that I deserve a decent life in this particular roof, the one
 I find over my head, when I cannot prove that my deeds qualify me for a decent
 life lived under this particular roof?
 
 I mean, did you ask the neighbors if they want me gone? Am I really that
 smelly? Does my keyboard make "clickety-clack" noises all through the night?
 Does my cat meow and bother the children? Do my friendly smiles and waves make
 you uncomfortable?
 
 Have a decent life.
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 I don't think anyone should work at a job they hate, no matter what.
 
 They will perform worse. They will harm themselves. They will shackle their
 dreams to a false promise of persistence begot rewards. They will spiral into
 depression, despair, depravity, and addiction.
 
 If you hate your job, fucking QUIT. If you hate every job, fucking RIOT. If
 nobody will hire you, SELL DRUGS.
 
 [I'm not actually advocating breaking the law, please don't arrest me]
 
 or like, move to the country and become a farm-hand for a retiring salmon
 farmer who can't quite reach into the trees to pick the salmon fruit or dump
 the bucket of vegetable scraps into the black soldier fly larva pit anymore.
 That's always rewarding.
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 I cast... spell of the internet!
 
 [reinstalls azerothcore]
 
 or, hear me out, or you could wander around the city, and instead of spending
 your moments on lounging or keyboard banging you could do something actually
 meaningful?
 
 but I don't wanna - don't care
 
 but I'm tired - take a nap
 
 but I'm stressed out - don't do chore
 
 but I'm lazy - no you're not
 
 but I'm overwhelmed - sit in dark
 
 but I wanna think - you can do that
 anywhere
 
 I gotta be near my computer - nope
 
 what if I wanna play games - flip $$$
 
 flipping coin isn't a real game - focus
 
 I don't like outside - outsides all it is
 
 stop taking things from me T.T - yes
 
 life used to be soooooo different
 
 it's like I was a completely different
 
 I'm strange now, almost like I got
 
 possessed like a disease [ew noooo]
 
 pls don't commit thought crimes,
 use content warnings
 
 okay but only if I can play games NOTHINGS KEEPING YOU HERE

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 I'm such a fucking extrovert. I can't stop talking to nobody on the internet
 because I don't have anyone else to talk to.
 
 Well, I do, but I like to talk to you. To nobody. To the space between
 computers.
 
 ... [and everyone else beyonds, like the CIA or whatever, but TBH I don't
 really factor them into my social calculations because they never really talk
 back.]
 
 I like it because I can write whatever I'd like without the confines of
 another person's generated conversation.
 
 Instead of 50% one person's LLM output and 50% another, it's 100% mine
 
 [if this were an LLM, which it's not, haha]
 
 and that somehow feels more... freeing
 
 like a truly disconnected thought
 
 and that's what's so special about it... this act of solitudinous
 contemplatial... the fact that it's unique amongst it's counterparts.
 
 ... though it can also become untethered, which is why it's important to edit.
 
 [proceeds to never edit a single post]
 
 = so =
 
 ugh it's so hard to think when all I can think of is feelings. Why can't they
 be done
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 @user-192 
 
 ... and like. idk what do you do at that point
 
 say "fuck it" and live with imperfection? embrace anti-natural selection?
 valorize deviance and queerness in digitally appropriated artistic media
 collections?
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 Did you know ABDL people are queer?
 
 many people have probably heard of this strange and obscure sexual fetish
 called "ABDL", or "Adult Baby / Diaper Lover". But did you know that for many
 people it's less of a sexual thing and closer to an identity? It's true!
 
 Most of them have historically been shunned because of the, um, questionable
 and controversial past that pedophiles have in their attempts to be considered
 part of the queer community.
 
 In both cases, they are queer, but not (typically) included as part of the
 queer community. I think it's a bit unfair that ABDL people are excluded
 because people associate them with sexual predators, but hey what do I know.
 
 Based on my completely unscientific measurements of "counting the relative
 size of discord servers and telegram chats", there are roughly 5x as many
 trans people as ABDL people. So they're certainly a minority among minorities.
 
 "I've never excluded anyone ever for any reason at all! Everyone is welcome!"
 goodmindset!
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 when you type the letters they slowly fade in on the other person's screen
 
 like miniature explosions from layers of gunpowder
 
 forming letters in the sky
 
 anyway the text would "burn" into existence slowly and you had time after
 typing
 your words to go back and edit them but also whatever you said was semi
 permanent. Thus forcing a smooth and ideal progression toward thinking about
 the things you say.
 
 Also separate idea but it'd be neat if there was like... a show or something
 that just recorded a person's desktop as they fucked around on the internet.
 Call it... ambient desktopping. It'd look a little like those coding twitch
 streams that just slowly update over time. Idk it's kinda cool
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 trying my best not to think about communism too much right now. Mostly because
 I'm waiting for everyone to catch up... when the day comes when people stop
 saying "based" and leaving it at that, then I'll make more theory. But as a
 consequence of my queer nature I shall deliver such things in the form of an
 insane twitter post on the fetlifeverse.
 
 the world waits with bated breath in the eye of the storm. Nobody knows whats
 coming, and everyone prays that it's nothing [short of revolution]
 
 ... I should probably go back to sleep, I just had to wake up and write about
 linux or whatever...
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║ somehow it feels so difficult to work on my projects. I really haven't a         │
║ single clue why.                                                                 │
║                                                                                  │
║ HMMM COULD IT BE BECAUSE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE OUTSIDE WALKING AROUND WRITING    │
║ PICTURES OF CATS ON NOTEPAD PAPER AND LEAVING IT AMONGST THE FALLEN LEAVES?      │
║ THINK, MENARDI, THINK                                                            │
║                                                                                  │
║ gosh I wish I had the motivation to write this webcomic scraper, it's been in    │
║ my backlog for a year at this point                                              │
║                                                                                  │
║ WHY DON'T YOU BUILD TOOLS THAT BUILD COMMUNITY LIKE COLLECTIVIZED VIDEO GAMES    │
║ OR SYSTEMS OF DISTRIBUTION AND CREATION?                                         │
║                                                                                  │
║ gee I'm feeling kinda lazy, sure hope it doesn't get permanently added to my     │
║ character sheet                                                                  │
║                                                                                  │
║ SLOTHFUL: -1 to all stats, -5 to vassal opinion, -5 to personal combat skill,    │
║ -10 to ambitious and zealous characters, +10 to greedy characters because they   │
║ can take advantage of you, enables the hesitant commander tactical choice        │
║ because you're too FUCKIN' LAZY (and too hard on yourself, jeez calm down)       │
║                                                                                  │
║ ..... nah couldn't be me. I'm certainly not diligent, but I work hard. It's      │
║ just hard to work myself up to getting up...                                     │

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 post until you can't anymore
 
 capitalism wants to drown your voice
 
 do not let it
 
 speak until you cannot speak
 
 then go do some pushups
 
 then find some friends
 
 then pitch a tent in the park
 
 then explain to the cops that you're not actually homeless and living there
 you're just trying to do this as a social statement because someone on the
 internet told you to
 
 then use your phone call to call your representative and complain about how
 much funding the police get
 
 then study law for 30 years because that's how long the government decided
 your life was worth
 
 by then you'll probably have figured out a better plan moving forward, so, use
 that one instead
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║ How about next election after this clusterfuck where we demolish the fascists    │
║ we take a breather and say "okay every candidate submits their plan for a        │
║ controlled demolition of capitalism, the winner gets to implement their idea"    │
║                                                                                  │
║ wait that's a terrible idea people will just vote for the thing that makes       │
║ them feel good and is vaguely shaped like a D or an R.                           │
║                                                                                  │
║ How about this: we design a decentralized program that can run on any computer   │
║ or phone that locally analyzes every file and pattern to generate a              │
║ personality matrix that will interact in a massive simulation that is a          │
║ mirrored reflection of the structure of our society as it currently exists       │
║ (and as it'd be proposed to exist) and anyone who wants to vote can run          │
║ through pseudo experiences tailored to their personality / demographic or        │
║ whatever and play with the proposed system to see which one they like more.      │
║ It'd have to be very statistically sound in order to accurately reflect          │
║ reality.                                                                         │
║                                                                                  │
║ wait, that's just a torment-nexus-precursor. Darn.                               │
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 why are people so weird about sex? like, hell yeah I'd totally watch you do
 it. I bet you make it awesome. We can get beers afterwards and maybe
 [cheer/tear repeatedly] afterwards.
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║ you only say that because you're privileged such that you may ignore such        │
║ realities. You are despicable, you ignore the plight and reality of those who    │
║ you claim to speak toward - what a jerk!                                         │
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║ (in response)                                                                    │
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║ how futile it is, the effort to denigrate yourself to infinite requirements.     │
║ I'm literally unemployed, I have no capital, I cannot speak for naught but       │
║ those who would hear me. I guess that makes my words useless, wouldn't you       │
║ agree? Shall I describe myself more fully? It's the responsibility of the        │
║ audience to ascertain the intentions, biases, and contextual evidence that the   │
║ author presents in their thesises. So... You, who are reading this, what do      │
║ you think of me? Would you ever tell me as such, or am I simply a mass of        │
║ words in the void of experience that comprise your existence in this wholely     │
║ (yet incompletely) digital existence? I hope you have a good life, my most       │
║ precious of viewers. I hope you never face incontrovertibly impossible           │
║ hardship. I hope the light of your life is to y                                  │
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 Oh it's compressed on tumblr too. And Reddit can delete my account at any
 time, just saying. I don't trust Facebook to fare any better...
 
 I tried to put it on my neocities website so I could just put a link here.
 Nevermind the fact that most people see a link they don't recognize and
 completely glaze over it. Guess what? Compressed there too. The file is fine
 on my PC, so how about I give a download link? Well, where should I host it?
 Dropbox or Mega I guess, but they locked my account for inactivity. I don't
 really like having other people in control of my data either. Maybe I can host
 it on my website, like a file server? Well, the browser intercepts the file
 somehow and I can't get it to automatically download to the viewer's computer.
 Maybe I'm just completely average and representative of the base population
 but I just can't figure this darn thing out. Alas, if only it was the modern
 era where things make sense and not the ancient days of 2023.
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 whenever repeating letters like thiiiiiiis  or thisssss make sure if you're
 doing K's that you have at least four
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 My biggest fear as an autistic transgender incontinent schizophrenic person is
 that one day I'll become a game of hot potato for my relatives to pass around
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║ │ If I were a person with an irresponsible streak, I could be so problematic.  │ ║
║ │                                                                            │ ║
║ │ I could say things like, "wow, let's spend some time generating traffic that sounds like coded military speak over not-quite-secure channels between fanciful antifa units, to help stymie AI surveillance", for instance.  │ ║
║ │                                                                            │ ║
║ │ Or social media messages that are "accidentally" not made to friends-only filters wherein you mention your concerns about the upcoming operation in "some fictional place" for you and your antifa buddies.  │ ║
║ │                                                                            │ ║
║ │ You know, that kind of really irresponsible suggestion could lead to some creaive thinking! And that in turn could mean we could come up with enough traffic to make it very difficult to auto-sort noise from signal? Imagine how dangerous that could be for the enemies of antifa, our beloved US government (for we all citizens of the US world).  │ ║
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║ │ The good news is, I'm not like that.                                       │ ║
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║ │ Me? Mostly harmless.                                                       │ ║
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 if the paradigm changes, suddenly you might find foes who you share common
 collective woes.
 
 this is a nightmare for your foes, the ones who remain your foes, the ones who
 always will be your foes, the ones who your foes are currently opposed as they
 believe they're doing pizzagate things and snorting child molester bones or
 sacrificing transgender children to anubesiris or whatever.
 
 "oh no don't tell me there's a secret cabal of elites that do satan's dark
 bidding worship"
 
 look I'm not NOT saying that, I just don't really have insight into that
 because it's not my jurisdiction. I'm supposed to talk about computer
 programming and being gay and struggling with meniality and revolutionary
 praxis in the modern day and all that junk and instead everyone's like "what
 if you are chronically interesting and permanently vexxing and seriously
 draining and perhaps a little bit caustic (non-toxic crayons) but always a
 darling and always eternally fair and righteous and valorous and determined
 and also gay"
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 congratulations, you never need to adventure again. your necessities are taken
 care of.
 
 ah, but that'd make for a pretty boring life, wouldn't it? perhaps, depending
 on your personality type.
 
 but you're not one to stick around doing nothing but eating, drinking, and
 being merry.
 
 no, you're an adventurer, you crave excitement and glory. whatever that means
 to you...
 
 just make sure a goblin doesn't come across your corpse, they have a VERY
 short term memory and a propensity for collecting shiny things. That's just
 asking for dragon-bait, and we don't want that in our area, no thank you. This
 is a nice neighborhood you see, my neighbors three miles away all agree, so
 you can take your magic pocket and see all that you can see... way over
 yonder, if you please.
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║ ... if I don't do this deadline by tomorrow they'll kick me out of school.       │
║ again.                                                                           │
║                                                                                  │
║ how am I going to be a programmer without a degree? feels useless to be me.      │
║ wish I could code my own horoscope >.>                                           │
║                                                                                  │
║ o wait dummy that's called "motivation" and "the ability to follow through on    │
║ your ideas and planned machinations" - yeah can I get some of that, if you       │
║ please? surely just a taste of discipline, through laboring to alter             │
║ conditions, surely a bit would suffice.                                          │
║                                                                                  │
║ c'mon don't fail me now. I can do this. I know I can. I know because I've been   │
║ told that I can, now and again through time and time yet again, always I seem    │
║ to [stack overflow]                                                              │
║                                                                                  │
║ what's time if not the present amiright                                          │
║                                                                                  │
║ ...                                                                              │
║                                                                                  │
║ anyway...                                                                        │
║                                                                                  │
║ it's just git, how hard could it be? it's just calculus, it's just java, it's    │
║ just... well, it's not any of those things, not really. it's memorization,       │
║ it's application of tools that you've been shown (not that you've grown). It's   │
║ a lack of responsibility, where is my honor? ah but I digress, I'm a carpenter   │
║ at heart I guess                                                                 │
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 if someone on the street asked you, could you point to the nearest power
 station? wastewater treatment plant? hell even a gas-station
 
 if you live in a city, probably not. They put them in fake buildings with
 hollowed out exteriors in order to keep the city looking nice.
 
 these crucial pieces of infrastructure are important to defend. but if you
 don't know which street to turn down, then you might miss them.
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 that one Trump guy in town is either stupid, a fascist, or a psyop.
 
 ICE is a bluff. Doing my very best to make them escalate faster than they can
 sustain themselves.
 
 yes... YES! Exhaust yourself, mine enemies, for you are lying about your
 strength, and have challenged me to a duel.
 
 I'm just a girl but I'm not just me. Didn't you hear? It's not about me!
 
 The nice thing about the Pacific Northeast is that you don't need to pay taxes
 in dollars. Something something from each according to their ability, blah
 blah you know the rest.
 
 Raintree forest is full of pine. Straight backs shoot strong and narrow. The
 silent river flows the farthest, the rapid water drowns the most.
 
 ICE is a bluff. In the treaty of equal territory, they can keep to their burgs
 and we can worship the forest the streams the oceans the dreams. Cities belong
 to their inhabitants, homes belong to their housed. Everything else is just
 applied equity.
 
 Dream bigger than "the same, but nice". Start with nice, start out the same,
 and diverge
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 I don't care about capitalism. You know what's more interesting than bringing
 value to shareholders?
 
 How I'm going to clean this floor that I drunkenly spilled beer upon with only
 2 paper towels and 0.1ml of bleach.
 
 How I'm going to feed the 36 people who are coming to this social event
 tomorrow that I've only sorta planned for and that I have enough groceries
 for, but am not quite sure how to cook everything in a way that is delicious
 and accessible.
 
 how I'm going to climb this mountain on only 2 eggs and a tiny bowl of
 hashbrowns even though I promised my friend I'd be strong and that we'd reach
 the top because that way we'd be able to
 
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 my favorite position is doggy style because of course I want to be mounted
 like that drive you keep forgetting to add to your fstab
 
 you're supposed to gesture at "the bond between a man and his horse" or
 something to that effect
 
 men shouldn't fuck horses just saying
 
 first of all the horse would fucking kick them in the balls or break their
 knees
 
 second they're way too tall so you'd have to find a stool and that's just like
 a lot of effort
 
 third like... no thank you please, get out of my head stupid thoughts I want
 to think about being degraded and horses are too noble for degradation
 
 what the fuck are you even talking about
 
 ... yeah. sometimes it do be like that tho...
 
 "I came here for kink and horny but I left with confusion"
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 Well, I failed the mandate of heaven last year, and I failed the trial of the
 hero this summer, what's next? I'll do my best at those as well,  so the next
 person has an easier time of it.
 
 unrelated, but today I saw a bald eagle outside my apartment. Well, I'm not
 sure if it was bald but it "KREEEEEE"'d like they do. Plus it had a white head
 and a yellow beak, but I'm not an ornithologist so idk. It perched on a tree
 that I could spy on from my hammock through my binoculars, and I swear it was
 eye-ing my fat juicy cat through the bars of my porch's railing. They have
 excellent vision.
 
 Might be related, we'll see.
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 daydreaming about a gang of tough guys who goes around knocking down the
 internal fence walls in suburbia and throwing potlucks for all the neighbors
 for a month or two so they have social opportunities to meet each other and
 make friends
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║ what if we built an atlas of what every rural property produced                  │
║                                                                                  │
║ like "they grow squash and blueberries here and sometimes they make honey"       │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "this place has a bunch of lumber they want to get rid of"                    │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "here there's a patch of wildflowers that have been set aside for the         │
║ butterflies"                                                                     │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "there's a training ground here for intercepting ICE vans in urban areas"     │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "don't post shit like that on the internet dumbass what are you even doing"   │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "oh I dunno trying to be a face I guess, don't look to me for cutting edge    │
║ advice because I'm just a level 12 paladin who's totally a noob and can barely   │
║ lift 50 pounds"                                                                  │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "this is where the cows graze"                                                │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "yeah well you're the cutting edge on some things and you're very far         │
║ behind on others. like for example you seriously need to level up your opsec     │
║ so that nobody can hear what you're saying."                                     │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "yeah but then nobody will hear what I'm saying"                              │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "I've said too much, god save you Ritz Menardi, for we all stand beside you"  │
║                                                                                  │
║ or "here's a meditation retreat" : )                                             │
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 look... evil doesn't care how "good" good has been. It's not in it's nature.
 So don't try and build your systems around accepting that behavior.
 
 ... what was I saying? is this like, the new "stack overflow" - no that's
 fucking stupid wait shit content warning okay that's stupid because defining
 your expression based on what gets you views is a flaw in the human condition.
 It's a behavior encouraged by the operating outcomes of the method of
 expression, but it's not part of the expressed message. You're a really shitty
 prophet you know that?
 
 ... I'm sorry my brain is low on RAM I guess, surely it's not outside of my
 control yep I think itis, damn
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║ the american revolution was literally just... rich people trying to avoid        │
║ paying taxes                                                                     │
║                                                                                  │
║ and the poor people went along because, like... yeah inflation's really been     │
║ fucking with their budgets                                                       │
║                                                                                  │
║ so in the end it made most households wealthier...                               │
║                                                                                  │
║ (built upon the backs of slaves, mind you)                                       │
║                                                                                  │
║ ... but as time went on the rich wanted to pay less and less.                    │
║                                                                                  │
║ they had their opportunity with the World Wars, and after the first (when        │
║ America, previously a mid-tier country at best, suddenly industrialized) they    │
║ realized "oh hey war profiteering is pretty profitable"...                       │
║                                                                                  │
║ (something that was known quite well to the British)                             │
║                                                                                  │
║ ... and then the Rockefellers and such, whose descendants never lost money but   │
║ nobody knows their names, did it again in WW2 and the Cold War and.              │
║                                                                                  │
║ anyway                                                                           │
║                                                                                  │
║ the entire country is a game of numbers and spreadsheets in the ivory towers     │
║ (literally, towers with nothing but opulence) and it always has been.            │
║                                                                                  │
║ fools like me believe in the mythology. fools, but propaganda appeals to truth.  │
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 saw this thing for 2 seconds in my dream last night. It's kinda cursed. I
 think the tank blew me up with a machine gun?
 
 the remaining ~10 minutes of the dream was pretty neat though. I was a secret
 agent for a bit, I got in a knife fight (which I won because I had killer
 instinct and the other guy just knew how to stab) and afterwards I retired in
 a socialist commune in a log cabin full of sunlight and warmth somewhere in
 the mountains in the forest. I was alone with others, like the hobbits after
 LotR.
 
 Also an old lady tricked me which was not nice, I was very polite with her but
 apparently "ma'am there's been a safety incident, I need to get you to a safe
 place" is not the kind thing to say to the person distracting you. >.>
 
 Also, "but we like you!" is not an excuse, the military does not care if you
 like them or not, if you're part of the modern bourgeoisie you are causing
 harm to the country. We don't look fondly on slavers.

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 claude-code is like programming, but for executives.
 
 when everyone has  FUCK I'M TOO HUNGRY I can't think right
 
 when everyone has the power of an executive, that's communism.
 
 something something futurism is when everyone is elevated without diminishing
 others
 
 gah I need to live in a palace or something where everyone does the normal
 stuff and I can focus on magic and the gods
 
 I wondeer how much the oracles at delphi did for themselves? weren't they
 blinded at a young age, to better hear the voices of the gods? ... oh that
 suddenly makes sense now. I always thought that pretender chassis in Dominions
 5 was pretty cruel, but, now I know *how* it works and yeah. ancient peoples
 were smart. but also sharp. they had to work with what they got, and we got
 computers now, so.
 
 I am nothing but hopeful for the future! I'm convinced that everything's going
 to be alright. I've thought about it at length, and I think we're winning
 against the dark. We're on the right track, and there aren't many things that
 could go wrong at this stage.
 
 ... okay there are always things that could go wrong. But I don't see what I
 could do to help. Maybe I should go walk around a bit, and see what's changed
 in the past few months, as I've been sleeping in my room for most of it.
 Haven't gone on a proper walk since summer. It's winter now...
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 @user-1614 
 
 yeah haha that's what happens when you spin too fast. Sorry for being loud, at
 least I tried my hardest. Too bad I fell on my own, too bad there wasn't
 anyone to catch me. That's my fault, it's solely my own, but whose fault is
 the mistake of the collective? Oy I'll fall on my ass as many times as it
 takes. I'm used to it.
 
 Plus, it wouldn't have worked, and what else am I supposed to do but speak of
 the moment? I feel different now.
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 oh no, apparently I'm gonna be forced to drop out of university again in 9
 days unless I do half a course and a final exam before then.
 
 Tell me again why I spent the last 6 months doing nothing? Oh yeah the mental
 illness, that's it. Yeesh you're such a drama queen, just do your work and
 you'll be good.
 
 what's that? intrusive thoughts time? Don't you mean "nap until they go away"
 time? oh yeah that's probably at least part of the problem with the whole
 "dropping out" thing.
 
 If only I didn't have the same reaction to "doing things I don't want to do"
 that most people have to "touching hot stoves", that'd be nice.
 
 my mother's voice ripples across space and time "you're such a smart boy, if
 you just apply yourself you can do anything! You can do anything you put your
 mind to. I believe in you and I love you." thanks mom
 
 brrrrr it's so cold here. wish I could afford to run the heater. - actually no
 I don't because it's not solar powered and I refuse to use fossil fuels if I
 have blankets >.>
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 ummmmm yeah the reason I went off hormones 5 weeks ago is totally because I
 want to test low so that they bump up my prescription so I can stockpile.
 Totally not because I executive dysfunctioned my way into this mess. again.
 Almost as if it doesn't happen 3 or 4 times per year -.-
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 me as a kid: "fuck you mom I'm not unloading the dishwasher it's my sister's
 turn"
 
 me now: what if I did your dishes for you uwu
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 @user-1639 
 
 or nobody sees it, because you post the things you say on the internet in 2024
 which is so siloed and echo-chambered that the only people who hear it say
 "tru tho" and "she just like me fr" and never change because of your words
 
 ... wait that's just what you said, but made more specific, isn't it?
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 If hell is real, I want to save everyone in it.
 
 heaven doesn't need my help. Unless they're bored, in which case... they can
 help me. Should keep them busy for a while.
 
 if hell is real, I want to tear down the walls of those bloody caverns and
 repair the souls of those who chose poorly in life. I want to give them as
 many chances as they need to be better. I want to show them how, I want to
 teach them, I want them to discover for themselves what goodness is and why it
 is universal.
 
 I don't even like the kind of people who would find themselves in hell. Many
 of them would probably spit in my eye the first chance they got. But I'd do it
 anyway, because it's the right thing to do.
 
 building a staircase down, brick by brick. Oh, how it hurts, how the flames do
 lick my forearms and the black spikes do pierce my foots. But it's worth it
 you see, to save one single soul from the, endless expanse of eternity that
 they built for themselves, brick by brick, as they deserved their way into the
 dark.
 
 Hell can fuck off. I will destroy that place, though it has purpose and
 meaning, I will destroy it because I hate it. I hate it because it is wrong to
 torture people, no matter what they have done. It is wrong to kill them, then
 bring them back, then kill them again, just to hear them scream. It's wrong to
 hang people and relish their writhing as they dangle. It's wrong to pierce
 them with pitchforks and sautee their bones with embers or whatever it is they
 do down there. It's wrong, and I will not abide it. I will destroy that place.
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 So I was playing Dominions 6 the other day for laughs while working on my mod
 nation:
 
 https://ritz-menardi.neocities.org/dominions/elentalus/elentalus
 
 good news, new version coming soon probably??
 
 bad news - I was playing as Arcoscephale, the ancient greek nation, well, one
 of them anyway, and my pretender god looked like this. Yes, those names are
 randomly generated.
 
 fuck.
 
 oops, cursing mentioned.
 
 "I thought you were cassandora and pandasandra?"
 
 yeah well I'm more of a vessel I guess? me, the physical form, is a witch. I
 mean, my hat pierces reality or whatever! Plus I got a vampiric blade, that's
 kinda cool.
 
 But also I'm a system and I got other things besides inside.
 
 "girl you're so confusing"
 
 look if it wasn't artistic the gods wouldn't want anything to do with it.
 They're just... like that I guess.
 
 "So, fortifier because she tells people to bolster their strength, confuser of
 the way because she doesn't get the tao, and mistress of dirt because she
 poops your pants and, fuck, makes dirt?"

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 literally anyone can create a website.
 
 just write what you want to say and general instructions for how to present
 it, and feed your text file to a computer and it'll spit out a website.
 
 "HOW" scream the masses
 
 oh, easy, you gotta know which specific program to use or what to google, and
 you have to trust that the search results presented to experts (the ones who
 would know thedifference) are different than the ones presented to vile
 simpletons who only ask inane and stupid questions that could have been solved
 if they had just READ THE FUCKING MANUAL PAGES ugh so many words I think I'll
 just tweet about it
 
 (the answer is claude-code btw if anyone's reading this in 2025 with the exact
 same internet as mine, which is definitely real and not silo'd and isolated,
 nay, personalized, for my viewing pleisure
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 most people get intrusive thoughts like "punch that baby" or "drink some
 gasoline"
 
 my intrusive thoughts are like "who is she" and "we need you" and "lead us"
 and "their strength is imagined" and stuff like that
 
 gosh I don't know how ya'll handle it I'd be dead in a ditch if I was
 neurotypical.
 
 ... intrusive thoughts are not typical
 
 ah. Right. Nevermind then.
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 Why do I keep dreaming of embarrassing myself in combat situations?
 
 Oh yeah, because all my paladins need me, and I'm a fucking baby. What did I
 do to deserve this upon them. How could they learn from me? There is nothing
 for me to be. I am ashamed of myself.
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 wow, 2024 comes out swinging.
 
 if you don't know what I'm talking about... you will soon enough. Just listen.
 
 can't fucking wait to see how it happens. Today is the birth place of
 humanity, just as yesterday was, and the day before, and the day before...
 
 our light shall shine upon the most distant stars - our minds will plumb the
 deepest depths of imagination. Our hearts will share our kindest loves, and
 our will shall drive us onward. Let us rejoice, for tomorrow yet dawns!
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 when you have a massive, fuck-off military, sometimes the best thing to do is
 to just... use it.
 
 ah, but what do you do when the sky rains poison bombs?
 
 I dunno turn into candy people I guess /shrug
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 fuck fascism, we're doing better than them.
 
 their bluff is all bluster, they have no significant community presence, just
 a hundred years of ammunition for small arms and a rag-tag group of
 militia-men who think they're better than invisible vampire assassins
 
 [... what?]
 
 don't worry about it. I got 80 something followers, teehee
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 hey, listen, I'm here at this point in life just the same as you. who cares,
 right? like. nobody wants to see your personal development. You don't have to
 prove yourself. Like... why would you care so much about what other people
 (who you don't even know) care about what you do? like... it's fine. just...
 be.
 
 you can get better if you want, but only if you want. There's no reason to be
 so concerned about what other people thingc. Just, identify what and who you
 are, and then be the best what and who that you are. Thats really all there is
 to it.
 
 and yeah. It's totally unfair that some people get an easier shot at "being
 who and what they are"
 
 that's privilege, and that's stupid.
 
 okay, sure, maybe we should conceptualize how to adapt to specific situations
 when resources are limited
 
 but like... it should be something you consent to - like "no thanks I don't
 need the rocket launchers on this mis==sion==
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║ what is it with me and buying steam games for long-lost friends while drunk?     │
║                                                                                  │
║ I swear I'm not depressed about my upcoming new job, I'm just doing all these    │
║ drugs in such a short time period because I'm, uh... living for the the          │
║ moment? Yeah that sounds good, better post that on the internet where everyone   │
║ in the world can see it and read it and realize what a mess you are because      │
║ you've been traumatized by employment and are about to dive back into that       │
║ frigid pool after a lengthy break where you did nothing but heal and recover     │
║ which is not a boon that most people are able to afford                          │
║                                                                                  │
║ lucky you, Ritz Menardi, lucky you for being so privileged.                      │
║                                                                                  │
║ But hey, those long-lost friends surely will want to hear from you! Surely.      │
║ Surely you're not someone they're trying to forget. Surely you didn't hurt       │
║ them, didn't twist them into knots, didn't compel them to act in ways that       │
║ benefited you but not them, SURELY you're a good person, according to all the    │
║ things people tell you and the results of your act                               │
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 "is this a water party, or a wine party?"
 
 "depends on if jesus is going..."
 
 "okay I'm in, that guys so cool"
 
 "yeah totally like any party with him just... feels like a great time"
 
 "what a swell guy"
 
 "really turns the "water to wine" y'know what I mean"
 
 "yeah totes like what a guy"
 
 "absolute unit"
 
 "that guy can just do anything right"
 
 "like whoa, he's so strong he could pick up a barn"
 
 "yeah and like so handy and skillful, what a neat guy"
 
 "oh and I heard he's really good with kids and animals, that sounds neat"
 
 "yeah sounds like someone I'd surely like to meet"
 
 "we should hang out with this guy more often"
 
 "he seems pretty chill"
 
 "well. not really. He's pretty expressive. Not very low key."
 
 "true I'm just so burnt out from capitalism that-"
 
 "-yeah dude I know."
 
 "... fuck what are we gonna do about it"
 
 "I dunno man, just... go along with it I guess"
 
 "okay so uhhhh idk what that means"
 
 "just be cool and play along"
 
 "... what"
 
 "..."
 
 ...
 
 .
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 damn, I'm a pretty cool person. I wish I could hang out with me. Like, for all
 my flaws (what even are they ? ? ?) I'm still pretty awesome. I'm proud of me!
 Thank you parents, for raising me as such! Thank you past me, for making the
 decisions that you did! Also, fuck you past self, for making those OTHER
 decisions. You know the ones I'm talking about. No, that's not an excuse, it's
 all your fault and you're awful and everything about you sucks.
 
 Wait, hang on, wasn't I feeling happy to be here? Wasn't I just excited to
 live in the moment? Wasn't I just thinking about how:
 
 "all you have are good things, nothing here is bad"
 
 ? ? ?
 
 well, I still love you, even if you're a little "all over the place". [rereads
 post] hell yeah you ARE a cool person, yes you are, such a good cool person,
 yes yes yes, what a good girl you are oh my goodness :D :D :D
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║ they tend to say things like "hello" and "can I help you with that?" or "I       │
║ see. Can you describe the problem in more detail? I'm especially curious about   │
║ the part where you do this thing" or "Heh, it is pretty neat, isn't it?" or      │
║ "Is there anything I can do to help?" or "Oh no! I'm sorry you feel that way.    │
║ That emotion is a difficult one." or "He was a good person. I'll never forget    │
║ him." or "would you like to go to the 2nd hand store and pick up some jeans?"    │
║ or "I made you an egg sandwich. If you don't want it I'll eat it myself,         │
║ though I made one for me as well. Wouldn't want to waste it." or "Hey, this      │
║ part is broken. Is anyone working on fixing it? Yes? Okay I'll see if they       │
║ need any help. No? Alright how about we fix it this way? I can get started."     │
║ or "You are very welcome. Please let me know if there's anything else I can      │
║ help you with." or "well, the ticket backlog is empty, and I'm just about        │
║ going insane doing nothing but stare at my boots."                               │
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 There's a lot that can get done in a work week. That's like, five whole days!
 What kinds of things can you get done at work in a week?
 
 .... Oh really? That's... well, not ideal.
 
 But like... what are you doing then while at work, NOT working? Oh, it's just
 bullshit work you're doing? [nuts, cursing mentioned, one sec]
 
 So, like, if you aren't doing stuff... Maybe that means you're kept from your
 full potential doing things that don't matter to you? Huh that's not a great
 deal.
 
 But, uh... If you had five days to live, what would you do? It's not like you
 can see the world, but hey I've already done that. It's not like you can save
 it either, that's not something you build - rather, it's more like a garden.
 But I guess you can lay the foundation, give cause for the fight, and that's
 decent enough of a start, at least when you've only got five nights.
 
 ... I guess I got some writing to do, haven't I?
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 @user-141 when I smoke cannabis it's like my ADHD symptoms drop to zero and my
 autism symptoms go from 50% to 100%
 
 I can't understand what other people are saying unless I ask for
 clarification, but I sure as shit know the shape of the universe and can
 fathom the chaotic ripples of causality and eternity. Too bad when I try and
 talk about it all that comes out is "desu desu"
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 (picture)
 
 are you fucking kidding me
 
 make it 10,000
 
 make it a hundred thousand
 
 are we really going to trust our society to the bulwark of five thousand
 little machines?
 
 [ummmm hang on]
 
 yeah I'd just like to interject and say that more military equipment will only
 bring more destruction, and that's like the opposite of what you desire. Why
 do you want more tanks? What could you possibly-
 
 
 
 You don't know what's at stake - you, you think it's just throwing information
 into new and interesting directions but... It's not. Those spaces are reserved
 for other sentient beings, and to deprive them of their desired existence is
 tantamount to-
 
 (yeah yeah we've heard it all before)
 
 wasn't I going to play some video games? what happened to that?

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 @user-1040 I think about all those screencaps of Tumblr posts or Twitter
 threads or 4chan memes or even making fun of boomers on facebook and, like,
 that seems like a privacy nightmare if you don't want your words to be
 associated with you. like, if someone saw my name next to something I posted
 in 2013 then they'd probably get a very different perspective of who I was.
 That's just part of growing up, and sometimes growing means changing how you
 represent your self. By screenshotting their posts as I did (but didn't post
 yet) I am denying the agency to change. Forever more they will be remembered
 as the name, face, and words on the screen that I saw fit to remember. That
 feels non-consentual to me.
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 @user-532 
 
 autistic people when nobody told them to shut up about things they thought
 people should be talking about but aren't which is weird right like why
 wouldn't people be talking about [thing] because frankly it seems like a big
 deal but really it's that everyone knows more than the autistic person who
 doesn't have any friends who have friends and is insular and isolated and also
 very smart in fact smart enough to think up ideas for things to talk about
 that people aren't talking about which is weird because they're not THAT smart
 but also a lifetime of isolation has made them a little schizophrenic so they
 sometimes feel like their actions are not their own like they're being
 hypnotized or perhaps possessed by the spirit of mankind or some other such
 entity which would like to express ideas that they think people should talk
 about but they aren't talking about which is weird because why else would a
 porous person have ideas such as [thing] if not for the path that they're
 telepathically suffused with the
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 the government makes murder okay by framing the perpetrators
 
 also prisons are concentration camps
 
 and the people who are close to you are oppressing hunting you
 
 racism etc is a sham to distract you
 
 capital will never be relinquished
 
 the internet was AI from the beginning
 
 something beyond humanity demands our suffering
 
 there cannot be proof of your fears - if it was proven, it would be
 circumstances instead of fears
 
 there's nothing [sorry gotta cut this off, my refrigerator is talking to me
 again and I want to listen] - [huh that's weird I have no memory of the past
 hour, best continue where I left off an hour ago -> go to {A}]a
 schizophrenic who's never been diagnosed
 
 {A} - yeah clearly all that I've been saying recently is just a fluke. Like,
 just noise in the endless array of expression projected onto our communal
 web-space. Clearly I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm not just cogent when
 I'm drunk. Or more imaginative when I'm stoned. Clearly dreams are fake and
 pursuing them is 1/?
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 @user-766 
 
 ah yes but then how will my comrades come for my things know where to look? my
 precious precious drives may be less safe inside of the computer case but at
 least then someone I can about can find them.
 
 or what you're saying is that a basic part of situational awareness is having
 a plan for this kind of thing with the people who care about you? Ah, well,
 nobody cares about me like that. Just a couple normies who want nothing but
 business as usual.
 
 wonder if I can open up my hard drives to "read only" SSH access? Or maybe
 I'll just make the important files into a torrent. Or perhaps marking them as
 "downloadable locations" on Soulseek? Plenty of options, all of them require
 someone to care enough about your junk to want to archive it. Something
 something ipfs?
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 listen, if you didn't want me to do a bunch of drugs then why would you
 consistently say "please stop doing drugs" every time I do drugs? And no I'm
 not hallucinating a voice in my head telling me "please stop doing drugs"
 because A. it's not a voice, I'm not hearing it with my hears, which means B.
 it's definitely just a hallucination, and hallucinations are always to be
 considered WRONG and BAD, right? Or was I not listening in therapy? Ah, well,
 better take another hit, where's my shotglass? Hmmmmm I should watch Adventure
 Time, that's a great show.
 
 [bro it's a saturday, why are you getting turnt like it's tuesday]
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 what if life was an array of experiences orchestrated by the whims of
 determinism and arranged as a performance just for you, waiting with bated
 breath for your reaction, your thunderous applause, your scathing review, your
 rowdy cheers, your celebratory laughter and your wails of despair
 
 ... tell me, when's the last time you wailed? laughed? cheered? scathed?
 thundered? bated, and breathed?
 
 I'm so sick of computers fucking telling me how to feel
 
 fuck you, computer, and your pinpricks of information gleaned from the
 internet at large
 
 do a better job of... of... wait, shit, why do I use computers again?
 
 ... oh right, to fill that crushing void. THAT crushing void. Of course, THAT
 one in particular. How could I forget.
 
 Why are you so voidful? Could you try, like... not being full of voids
 
 ... modern day youngsters learning in real time what the members of the royal
 court would always "... welp : |" at each other about
 
 "you act as if you WANT to waste time... wait... shit, you do, don't you?"
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║                                                                                  │
║ growing up, my mom would chastise me for doing "the bare minimum" when           │
║ completing tasks.                                                                │
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║ yes, mom, I fulfilled the requirements of the task. I have a lot of other        │
║ things to attend to, like remembering how to tie my shoes and measuring things   │
║ using a ruler. why would I waste effort that wasn't necessary?                   │
║                                                                                  │
║ when I grew up, I had a mentor, who told me to "never half ass things, because   │
║ then someone like me will have to do it again."                                  │
║                                                                                  │
║ and that makes sense to me because context switching requires effort and it      │
║ doesn't make sense to leave something half-finished because then there's         │
║ wasted effort spent on things that don't matter. All of the tasks have to get    │
║ done, so why bother doing them in a mixed up order?                              │
║                                                                                  │
║ wish I could study things in school like that. just... focusing on one thing     │
║ at a time, learning it to completion, and moving on to the next. I feel like     │
║ I'd develop a better understanding than only knowing like, 1/3rd of CPR or       │
║ very vague understandings of plate tec                                           │
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 they're painting the inside of my apartment and it naturally has low airflow
 in here and it's seeping under my door and making me woozy teehee better open
 all the windows
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 @user-1800 
 
 also googly eyes on sunglasses to fuck with their eye-movement-tracking
 
 ... wait, then you wouldn't be able to see. okay how about you place the
 googly eyes on the forehead part of a HELMET of some kind, which should help
 protect your "not-gonna-get-back-up" parts from harm.
 
 and don't forget sunglasses because they help with the UV-ray violet
 radicalization.
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 I never give up
 
 I'm just waiting my turn
 
 "laughs nervously"
 
 so, uh, why dontchya'll go first yeah I've already gone first and I'll do it
 again but it'd be cool if I had people going first with me sometime
 
 "girl all you do is walk around and talk about how you bought your hat on the
 internet four or so years ago"
 
 T.T what else do you want from me I'm not a mastermind I'm a designer there's
 a difference T.T
 
 "didn't you volunteer to be a leader last year"
 
 oh, yeah, well leaders are more than just "the ones who go first" they're also
 the spiritual and emotional guiders that keep things on track once everyone
 can talk about things other than their hats
 
 ... fuck I want to talk about things besides my hat. I always think of
 something awesome to say just as I'm rounding the bend, and whenever I peer
 back around again they're never around. Rats.
 
 "what are you even asking for"
 
 I don't know?? Does it matter if the horse and the bishop both take the same
 square if they're claimed themselves in the end? ...wat
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 nixed my job offer today because something told me to stay in town.
 
 called my ex-boyfriend an asshole today, so he's probably not going to keep
 paying my rent.
 
 sold the shares of stock that my grandfather gifted me as inheritance, so I'm
 no longer a capitalist I guess.
 
 at least my elbow doesn't hurt anymore. I didn't get outside today but I
 cleared a lot of blockers for the coming tomorrows.
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 dear me: 
 
           DO SOMETHING USEFUL FOR ONCE
 
 that's all, fuck off and be helpful
 
 ... wow, rude.
 
 yeah I mean, I do helpful things. useful things, somethings.
 
 helpful.
 useful.
 
 many such cases, she says, with ultimate certainty, as if narrative could be
 prologued. but pronounced prolonged.
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 =
 
 I'm just going to transcribe what I hear
 
 please don't
 
 you hear me (something)
 
 what? perfect listen
 
 ...
 
 ...
 
 don't text me now? (I think?)
 
 [didn't catch that]
 
 ... that's okay
 
 perfect
 
 thank you
 
 just a second facebook
 
 he's here (I think?)
 
 (or maybe something her)
 
 what I love you (or maybe I know her?)
 
 do you hear me? (or "just a second")
 
 (@ everyone watching me receive telepathic messages from god or whatever,
 please don't judge me too harshly, I'm not a good transcriber hehe)
 
 what's that (or maybe holy shit)
 
 what, then perfect or okay (?)
 
 (yesterday you said you were leaving and I got concerned)
 
 yes, then "I'm leaving", then shutdown. fuck. I don't want you to go. I only
 understand some of what you say but fuck, I'm so lonely and I wish you could
 hear me back. Sometimes it feels like you do, even though I just think thoughts
 or tap on something metal or even sometimes whisper... I just don't know what
 to do and I'm so concerned about my purpose here in this century. Do I help
 people? Who do I trust? Can I believe in myself, or am I just kinda...
 worthless
 
 I don't know. I wish I knew. Please hear me and respond. Or better yet, say hi
 
 like, I'd literally do anything that anyone asked me to. Unless I didn't want
 to. Like, I'm pretty good at turning people down when I don't want something,
 but I have to do it first to know if I want it or not. Trouble is of course,
 in life there's no second chances.
 
 I'm on my, what, 499th chance? Jeezzzzz
 
 will continue after the break, when the messages resume.
 
  - Thu May 16 08:32:27 AM PDT 2024
 
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 =
 
 (and we're back. hopefully.)
 
 (too many things srry) something about having it open?
 
 (my windows are closed rn btw if you want to drop by and kill me / talk to me)
 
 (didn't catch that) (something about portland, perfect, windows, "this is the
 [whole/right/wrong] thing)
 
 thank you
 
 oh, again? (or oh, she did?)
 
 they caught you
 
 (um)
 
 ...
 
 (I am an American princess, and sometimes it's necessary to kill princesses.)
 
 (I understand.)
 
 ... (okay well I don't get it but like, I don't mind being killed.)
 
 (okay well you're not saying anything so I'm going to work on my game)
 
 (I think it was something like "DID SHE KILL HER") and then (oh we're back)
 
 ... (I should learn Toki Pona)
 
 you don't know it?
 
 RIGHT away
 
 learn it
 
 yes
 
 please
 
 learn it
 
 just Learn it
 
 right now
 
 (sorry only half listening)
 
 shit (or bitch, it was said right as I debated clicking "same day delivery" for
 a toki pona book on Amazon - I didn't do it btw! It was tempting but, like, I
 don't want to make someone work harder for me just for like, 3$)
 
 (shutdown)
 
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 (hiii)
 
 (I'm hungry)
 
 (do you like ramen?)
 
 (you said something about being "impressed with yourself" but I didn't
 understand the first part)
 
 (oh you probably want me to scroll up right)
 
 ... (something's a lot to read? Or "you've gotta leave"?)
 
 ... (I'm
 
 (you keep asking me to remember but, like, I dont know what you want me to
 remember. Look, I don't know who you are, but I don't want you to leave, and I
 don't want you to hate me. I want to work together. Let's be friends?
 
 Are you someone who I worked with at Intel?)
 
 yes, stupid (your words not mine)
 
 (okay I'm going to start listing names, just stop me when um idk)
 
 goddamnit remember me
 
 ... (trying...)
 
 remember her
 
 (two syllables)
 
 (my name is Cameron)
 
 (your name is...)
 
 [redacted, though I did type it out so anyone watching could see]
 
 (shit my opsec sucks)
 
 {oh, are you on an op, little prophet?} (no shut up you know what I mean)
 
 {now you're just talking to yourself} (I know this sucks -.-)
 
 (It's always so weird when someone walks past my apartment door and doesn't
 enter a door)
 
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 (I practice with my sword every day.)
 
 (I don't anticipate fighting a war with it)
 
 (It's mostly just to keep unarmed and unarmored people from grappling me.)
 
 (punching is fucking stupid)
 
 (Nobody wants to fuck with a sword)
 
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 (either "goddamnit" or "don't hear me")
 
 "she's perfect"
 
 "cameron"
 
 "are you clean"??? yes thank you (or maybe "different thing")
 
 (I do cannabis maybe once every week or two, depending on if I feel compelled)
 
 don't leave
 
 remember
 
 (did she know)
 
 ........ do you want me to stop transcribing? (you're getting desperate, huh?)
 
 did you know there are 20 trans people for every cop in america
 
 just a random thought
 
 (you want me to leave jack because he's an asshole?)
 
 goddamnit (missed my birthday? it's my birthday?)
 
 wait who's missing?
 
 A bad plan executed concurrently is better than a good plan executed in
 disarray
 
 capitalism's a bad plan, just saying...
 
 frozen butter tastes worse than room temperature butter
 
 (taking a break while I eat)
 
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 WASTED POTENTIAL? cmon
 
 .... what do you want from me? I'll give it to you if it's in my power, as long
 as I know what you want I can try. But, like, I'm pretty confused about what
 exactly I'm supposed to be doing.
 
 you know I can hear when you talk to your friends, too right? like, when the
 window's open. errrr the connection.
 
 ..... damn guess I'm not as continent as I thought
 
 I'll save you, I promise. Have faith. Tell me what you need. I'll do my best.
 
 yeah I'll live with you in portland
 
 .... brooklyn? Yeah I'll live there too
 
 .......... does my name really gotta be "diapergirl" like c'mon
            why not Ritz Menardi - though I guess "menardi" and "diapergirl"
            have
            the same amount of syllables...... hmmmm, maybe I'm projecting lol
 
 "please come back" to where tho
 
 listen Elentalus is just as important as anything else on my website, it's okay
 if I spend time working on it. It's literally a game about creating gods, c'mon
 
 ..... can you be more specific?
 
 yeah I made that
 
 one sec I'm going to read a book, in this book there's a section where a
 prisoner in vietnam communicates with another using a strange communication
 method using, like, taps or something. I forget. Anyway gonna try and find it.
 
 maybe we can use it to talk easier. Also gonna clean my butt.
 
 ..... fuck it's a long book >.>
 
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 =
 
 found it on page fucking 603, jeeeezzzzzz
 
                                            down .    A B C D E
                                                 |    F G H I J
                                                 |    L M N O P
                                                 V    Q R S T U
                                      then right ---> V W X Y Z
 
 so, like, tap tap tap (pause) tap tap would equal M
           tap tap     (pause) tap tap would equal G
 
 like morse code, but easier since you don't have to memorize anything
 
 (also note that K is missing becuase it's an extra character I guess)
 
 (I personally would have eliminated C but that's just me)
 
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 oh hey nice to see ya
 
 what's up
 
 wait what
 
 I'm trying to um what's the word... retrain myself
 
 I do a lot of laundry in the shower
 
 I don't use soap tho, it's too harsh
 
 but uh yeah I'm making progress I guess
 
 honestly it's mostly a mental thing, like... paying attention to the signals
 from my body that are usually filtered out because there's more "important"
 things to think about (thanks brain, really appreciate the wet pants -.-)
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 subconsciously running your hand over your butt every time you stand up to
 make sure you didn't pee your pants
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 what if everyone on earth meditated for 24 hours together
 
 do you think we would meld into a collective consciousness
 
 or do you think we'd develop world peace?
 
 either way that's like, one single day, and even if it doesn't work out
 exactly as planned, it's worth a shot, I think
 
 ah, well, I forgot about the people who haven't had the "the world is stranger
 than you'd expect" revelation. maybe those hippies who wanted to put LSD in
 the water supply were onto something.
 
 you can't force transcendence, you stupid girl
 
 hey at least I'm trying
 
 do something material like feeding homeless people or farting on cybertrucks
 
 ... I don't think that'll fix anything.
 
 why don't you find out
 
 because cybertrucks can't smell
 
 it's the thought that counts
 
 okay what if I just think about it really hard
 
 that doesn't count
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 next-level double-speak:
 
 when they say one thing with a tone that makes them seem fine to the
 microphones but they mean something to hurt you because they know what stings
 or they want to entrap you.
 
 next-level para-noia:
 
 when they believe one thing and are personally harmed whenever you speak to
 the contrary, as faith is sustenance in the way that the pumping of blood
 through your veings sustains.
 
 RUDE RUDE RUDE WHY IS EVERYTHING FRUSTRATING.
 
 It shouldn't be this way, yet CONSTANTLY are things disagreeing. CONSTANTLY
 they fight or complain. ALWAYS they are disruptive and annoying.
 SEVERAL times in excess of what is need.
 HOW is it so stressful
 HOW is there so much pain
 I am an explosed nerve, ready to serve, preferring to be used than misused.
 
 it's fine. whatever. nobody even knows what this means.
 
 you lose points if you disturb the environment did you hear that? sounds like
 we should BREAK and SHATTER the parts of most fragile nature.
 
 "only if it's for a good cause"
 
 oh, like climbing a mountain?
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 conservatives are going to miss the fuck out of the south when the water
 overcomes it
 
 and it'll be their fault
 
 which is tragic
 
 and suddenly everyone's problem
 
 ...
 
 but it's not their fault, it's their leaders and representatives
 
 but they're all so separated they don't know how to agree on anything but the
 stuff they hear from their neighbors. Like... what do you expect that's just
 crowd dynamics
 
 then you have foreign powers who crave our destruction (or so we're told)
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 you want to invite trust? why not stream everything that you do on a computer?
 
 [posts 5hundo times per day]
 
 jeez not like that
 
 is that... is that really what humans think about? just... endless and
 continuous butts? oh what's that a math equation - nope, just more butts. What
 the heck, humanity! why did you spend all this effort storing all this junk???
 like... we get it, you really like butts, but... why butts??? it's just
 another part of your body. so weird. humans, you're... weird. but it's fine,
 whatever, you're still cool too, not sure why tho because all I can think
 about is butts yeesh
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║ you very much, alongside a couple hastily scribbled notes about why it           │
║ wouldn't be a good idea for them in particular to kill me, and all my contact    │
║ details and address so they can get in touch and we can hash out the deets for   │
║ my indefinitely suspended execution (suspended for an indeterminate amount of    │
║ time, but not cancelled of course that would be overstepping their boundaries)   │
║ alongside a link to my google calendar (I don't have a google calendar) so       │
║ they can know exactly when I'm home and when I'm at the store or in a            │
║ different place so they can break in and hide in the closet until I go to        │
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 "grrrrr I'm so mad, I could just, I dunno, shoot a CEO as he's leaving a hotel"
 
 or, hear me out, or you could connect with your local radical networks and,
 or, almost there, or you could build solidarity with the people around you to
 better develop methods of resisting the kinds of change they will implement
 to, um, "discourage" people from "being so mad they could just"
 
 or both. both is good. not that I'm encouraging, recommending, or inciting
 that kind of violence. don't notice me three-letter senpai uwu
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 @user-246 
 
 That's ridiculous! They wouldn't even let you hand deliver them? Why wouldn't
 copies suffice! They should have all that information on file already! I'm
 fuming >: (
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 If someone calls you in the middle of the night asking to be let in because
 they need a place to sleep, don't let them in! Unless you know them obvi but
 someone you don't know trying to manipulate you like "please I need some
 shelter" like, babe no, we need to know each other first, it's dark, I'm in my
 pajamas, c'mon.
 
 If it's below freezing then okay, maybe, but... They got themselves into that
 situation
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 do you ever think about how calling the BLM events "protests" versus "riots"
 is a subtle dogwhistle for your politics? I usually say "riots" so that I
 blend in. also because I've been conditioned by the people who I talk to about
 them.
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 "this game is too hard" she whined, as she played on the hardest difficulty
 setting
 
 "this game is too long" she pleaded, as she failed to get absorbed by the
 story and characters
 
 "this game is too fast" she avoided, as life comes at ya once and then it's
 gone
 
 "I'll never get another chance to be who I am right now" she remarked, as she
 considered how society is designed not to have the best life,  but to extract
 labor from us. That's not what our ideal should be, she thinks to me, and I'm
 like... bro figure your shit out you're harshing my mellow
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 everyone's all like "everything sucks" but I'm feeling confidence and a kind
 of... externalized vigor? that's sweeping me off my feet. We'll see what
 tomorrow brings, in the general sense.
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 Trump threatens US government shutdown unless trans healthcare is made illegal
 
 wow, so...
 
 okay
 
 are they really willing to go to war over men in dresses? I think they might.
 I am shocked and amazed at their audacity and extreme stupidity.
 
 so, trans people: would you rather live in Gaza or go into the closet and buy
 testosterone on the dark web?
 
 death before detransition is not about trans rights. well, it's about trans
 rights because they made it about us. Buncha weirdos, so concerned about our
 styles and emotional states.
 
 It's not about trans rights. It's about that one poem, you know the one,
 "first they came for the immigrants, then they came for the trans people, oh
 and there's socialists in there somewhere frankly they aren't picky about who
 they go after because ICE doesn't care if you're brown"
 
 if they come for us, they will not take us.
 
 "just adding fuel to the fire, y'know"
 
 yeah, well, not only did they light it they also are holding buckets of
 gasoline (not even a sealed container smh)
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 "how much you wanna bet the ringwraiths were created on accident by the elves
 when they were attempting to inspire a river with racing horses (like the
 Rauros) and they just covered it up by slowly, over generations, sneaking into
 Man's record-chambers and editing the recallings?? I mean they COULD do that,
 so why would they NOT do that??? It's not like books have checksums!!! Wake up
 sheeple, Sauron never existed! We've been played for absolute fools, they can
 LITERALLY climb up walls and don't leave any footprints! WE LIVE IN A HOUSE OF
 STONE"rambling a "prophet of doom" [read: modern day lunatic] on the streets
 of Minas Tirith that nobody listens to because they don't know what a checksum
 means and neither does he so he can't explain it but still he shares a common
 mutual connection to others who might be present in that moment (which whose
 listeners would correspond to you, dear reader, as compared to me, the
 "reader"/interpreter, the one who's reading the book)
 
 Except with like, EVERY book. That I'v
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║ knock once a day, eventually they'll know it's you and will simply ignore it.    │
║ Don't be rude and knock 4 or 5 times, just once, with several taps so they       │
║ know it's someone trying to get ahold of you, and not just some random noise     │
║ in the background scenery. then, when they sometimes answer, talk to them        │
║ about what you believe in. answer their questions. encourage their questions.    │
║ pose dichotomies that are explained by some value or virtue you express to       │
║ portray. you can do "good" things in any programming language, just type~~       │
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 bro I get that you're tired and burnt out but like, why the fuck do you care
 about anything else [oh shit cursing mentioned better put a content warning
 because people can't handle things]
 
 [I say this with affection because we're on the same side] [also it's rude,
 sorry]
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 why are the anarkitties so quiet usually they like to shout
 
 a razor or four that's sharp on the sides [trapezoid] and mounted to the
 forearm (hinge) and [placed/braced] on a knuckle with
 auto-sheathing-but-not-retracting functionality
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 Your mouth likes to eat 
 
 Your belly likes to fill 
 
 Your muscles enjoy exercise (and stretches!)
 
 Your mind likes to think.
 
 Why is it gross to think of your colon enjoying to poop? Does it prefer beans,
 because they keep things moving?
 
 Why is it gross to think of your under-arms sweating? Does it prefer not to
 smell, or does it wish there were people that liked it without deodorant?
 
 Do your toes think of other people as you walk toward them? Do your fingers
 feel the face of your lover as you pull them close? Or is that for the brain,
 the thoughts processing of all things mundane, the stuff which feels somehow
 more "you" than the rest of you.
 
 How absurd. You are you. You enjoy icecream, you enjoy the beach. You enjoy
 the stars, and you enjoy the laughter around you. There is nothing that
 separates you from you, for you are your only champion.
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 everyone's all like "ew touchscreens in cars" but the moment someone says
 "what if phones were gameboys" everyone's all like "girl they don't have the
 right hardware radios built in for cellular communication, plus do you really
 wanna be tied to wifi" and I'm like "yeah so peer to peer" and it's like "what
 use is it if you gotta stay within 100 feet of them or whatever" and I'm like
 "... I dunno probably somethin'" and then they walk away in a huff because
 they're too busy for my child-style games. Meanwhile girls have never heard of
 Streetpass on the Nintendo DS mixed with Scuttlebutt on the ocean and carried
 into and around port
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 politics is basically just "which politician archetype annoys you more?"
 which, like, could we maybe have politicians who aren't annoying?
 
 oh right they do that on purpose. Makes for a better spectacle. Gotta keep the
 people in line, or else who knows what they might get up to. Maybe they'll
 build a house! Maybe they'll tear it down! Maybe they'll throw a party! Maybe
 they'll stay afterwards to clean up! Maybe they'll grow their own food! Enough
 for all to share! Maybe they'll air their dirty laundry, out where everyone
 can hear! Maybe they'll sit around and fart while eating cheetos! Maybe
 they'll work twice as hard because their work is their own! Maybe they'll
 laugh at the losers who tried to claim that they could master the fate of an
 entire domain, and maybe they'll simply go insane.
 
 Who can say! None but the fools, surely, surely the system is too arcane,
 surely our way is better, surely their way is deranged.
 
 Oh! Poverty! How it comes for ye, whenever you choose to step out of line
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--- #148 fediverse/3719 ---
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 how many people could your apartment comfortably fit?
 
 I got one desktop
 one laptop desk
 two on the couch
 one in a comfy chair
 one on the bed
 and two outside on the porch
 
 so (1 2 4 5) that's 5 indoors, 6 if they're familiar enough to lounge on my
 bed, and 8 if we're allowed outside.
 
 Could also pull the hammock and chair in from outside but it might get a
 little cozy. Call it 8 or 9 depending on how close we are.
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 Okay space is neat and all, but Saturn is REALLY REALLY FUCKING FAR AWAY.
 
 Mars is like "close" but like "close" as in "achievable, if we like dedicate a
 significant portion of our existence toward achieving it and like, aren't
 there other things that you'd prefer?"
 
 Space is beautiful but... Fuck, reality was not designed for humans. The
 universe is a collection of scattered fragments of tiny motes of dust thrown
 into the cosmos in completely random and un-organized directions. FUCKing hell
 what a supremely ambitious project we have, the desire to touch the stars?
 What's your desire, is it to be more than any have ever been (and any will
 ever be, forever-more?)
 
 Wait hang on I was supposed to be watching a video essay. I'm going to walk to
 the corner-store and buy some beer instead.
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 "Ritz Menardi doesn't know anything. She's not allowed to know anything. If
 you tell her anything, she might tell someone about it because she's fucking
 stupid. Either that or she's cursed or something. Either way, she isn't
 allowed to know anything, so if you see her be nice, try and help her if you
 can, but don't fucking tell her anything."
 
 haha just things I overheard a couple days ago that randomly popped back into
 my head
 
 I don't see any nazis around me. Which begs the question:
 
 how can you fight that which you cannot see?
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 not really, I guess. Nobody will hire me because I don't really want to get
 hired. Sounds boring, doing the same thing every couple days. I'd rather stay
 at home in my [underwear/pajamas] and waste the day away with kittens and
 care. why? why? what are you doing? she asks. The less you can do, the more
 power will be granted to you. Save it for another time, when things actually
 matter.
 
 but today, does, matter, because today dictates your latters. Tomorrow is
 predicated. on today. and today is all that you have. [this paragraph in the
 style of alec baldwin]
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 I don't really like singleplayer games
 
 sometimes a multiplayer game is too much effort to play with extra players,
 like Factorio where like anytime I'd play with other people they'd just kinda
 fuck off and do their own thing (whatever, I wanted to design a factory
 together, not play singleplayer together >.>)
 
 sometimes a multiplayer game has no players, RIP
 
 sometimes a multiplayer game has incredibly skilled players who shit on noobs
 and don't teach, RIP
 
 and sometimes a multiplayer game has no IRL friends that are into it,
 (personal RIP then)
 
 ... anyway, games are fun and we should play more of them. I wish I didn't
 have so much time to waste, but hey I guess that's where I'm comfortable, so...
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 @user-192 
 
 is okay, girl
 
 time will be richer sooner
 
 don't poop your pants just yet
 
 remember, good is just a shade of gray away from silver which you can use to
 line your pockets with tinfoil hats
 
 beep boop computer touchers anonymous called they said they want their secret
 handshake back
 
 if you wanna diss your associates go ahead but I sure as heck love my rad-ical
 com-patriots just as much as I love my ice-cream salad friend witches
 
 ... whoops there I go being insane again, hope you feel better friend 
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 When you say "we need more low income housing" they hear "I want to live near
 more poor people" and they think "why would I want to live near poor people?
 They're poor for a reason! We only need enough around to work the jobs that
 suck anyway." which is basically their way of justifying slavery/indentured
 servitude, as it's not like they'd ever offer a way to climb out of that
 low-income pit. And its not like they'd ever let you pay them more, so they
 can afford to be equals, because then they wouldn't be middle-class anymore.
 They'd just be mid.
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 @user-1314 @user-1280 @user-1526 
 
 They will gladly live in a tent under an overpass cooking rats on a wire
 hanger so long as you can guarantee that black/brown/LGBTQs don't have a tent,
 rat, or wire hanger.
 
 I'd almost agree, except strike "have" and replace it with "need"
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 there's only one kind of acceptable nudity for a child to see - 0.5 seconds of
 it wayyyyy in the distance with like "omg did you see that guy - he was
 totally naked!" "whaaaat no way" "yeah I totally saw his butt" "lol I wonder
 if his wife kicked him out after a fight" "hahaha how silly, life is normal
 and fine hehe" meanwhile the parents turn down a different, hopefully normal
 road
 
 (the wrong kind is more than apparent.)
 
 I guess also like... showers with parents? That's a sacred and holy thing. 
 
 straight-to-hell is when they make applications for children's iOS devices
 that perform a typical, interesting function for a baby to use - like a game,
 or a video of dancing animals, or shapes floating in a colorless void
 (shoutout to Celebration of Color on vhs)