=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: Lonely vent about pride month │ └───────────────────────────────────────┘ @user-883 Yeah I get it. I've been applying for remote jobs and they won't fuckin' hire me. Fuckers, I'm talented and qualified, who gives a fuck about my lackluster resume? Supply and demand is fake because software developers are only offered 100k+ jobs and yet there's so many of us who are starving. What the fuck. I have a friend in Brooklyn, yet I'm on the west coast. Fucking geography amiright? I'd love to live with them and yet I can't because of something as simple as money. What's the purpose in that restriction? I'm so fucking talented, please fucking hire me. What can I do to get what I want? Ugh, modern society perplexes me. Like, yeah sure it's great that we have the internet and hospitals who can cure malaria and whatever, but why do I feel so encaged? It's so strange, and yet here I am -.- ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4098 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-mentioned-ableism │ └────────────────────────────────┘ ngl I kinda hate it when people meme about donald trump being incontinent like, yeah, he pees his pants, so what? I DO TOO. Fucking sucks. Every time I read people saying nasty things about it I can't help but read them in my own voice, and that gives me plenty of ammunition to use against myself when I'm feeling down. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/4786 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── 9 times out of 10 the answer is fuck yes, you're my friend, I support everything you're handling. Give me the word and I'll be there, ride or die, I'm here for it. something I wrote a while back: fucking boss your friends around it's as easy as saying "hey I'm gonna go do this-or-that thing, you don't seem busy can you do that-or-this thing for me? I need it done by this-and-this time - oh you're busy? yeah no worries I'll go ask someone else. oh you're busy resting? doing girl healing? hell yeah next time invite me I'm due for a "pizza and weed" night." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #3 messages/303 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── Most of my magic is based on communicatuion. Why the fuck doesn't anyone want to sit down on a bunch of drugs and attempt to figure out telepathy with me? It's literally all I want! Though I can't say it's all I'll ever want. I'm sure I'll want more, but like... It's not that hard, conceptually, so... Let's just fucking try it please? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/460 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── I realized I don't give a fuck about capitalism. If you want to deprive me of food, shelter, or anything else... Fine. I exist at your behest. Would your really deny me from speaking the words that you disagree with? Oh, you would? Okay. Guess I'll starve. I don't mind, I just hope you'll take care of the people I have taken as my responsibility in my absence. Oh, you won't? You say that you'll destroy what I care about, in the pursuit of ever-growing power over others, which you will use to extract value and impress your desire of destruction and oppression onto the weak and powerless that you control? Then you are my enemy. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/2859 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned │ └───────────────────────┘ large corporations will often error check constantly which slows down their software to an immense degree. every time data passes from one function to another, there's like... 15 different tests to check if it's this type or that, or in the right random seed and it's like... wow can you not, like. design your software intelligently and then you won't need a bunch of slow-ass if checks every time you want to update a string??? software should be writable without fucking getters and setters. If it isn't, then your functions aren't complete. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/2653 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: uspol │ │ ║ └──────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ if your goal is to get people to resent homeless people or gay people or black │ ║ people or... insert minority here, then what kind of world do you really think │ ║ you're building? │ ║ │ ║ "ah, but you don't understand - it's to make the COLONIZERS hate minorities, │ ║ so they move away and leave the city to ourselves" │ ║ │ ║ ... that's the worst fucking take I've ever heard. We are all colonizers! We │ ║ live in AMERICA. But yeah sure I see what you're saying, you want the │ ║ gentrification to stop. And you do that by metaphorically "firing a gun into │ ║ the area in suburbia once every 2 or 3 days at random hours" which, like... │ ║ yeah that'll reduce property value, but also now my water bottle is all dented │ ║ up and my knife is scratched and my journal has pages torn out of it and I │ ║ lost my favorite necklace and I'm pissed because you told me you were going to │ ║ help me and work with me and be my friend and then you just abuse me for hours │ ║ and hours and it's like... why?? I get that you were teaching me but I wanted │ ║ to know YOU, not lessons │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/470 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: disability-rant-frustrations │ └──────────────────────────────────┘ Fuck, I hate being incontinent. I especially hate being incontinent in an apartment building where people might hear you changing through the walls - is it too much to ask for diapers to be built discrete? Alas, they are fucking loud, and my neighbors will perpetually hear me tearing loud-ass tapes from plastic every night at 2am -.- Oh, I guess I could buy the ones that have velcro attachment points. BUT for some reason those are always built kinda... shitty? Like, sure yeah we live in a material world that has material conditions that make things more or less amenable to perfection - but WHY do they have to be so LOUD fuck me amiright ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/5387 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────┐ ║ I was at BLM in Philadelphia and I never saw any protesters breaking windows. │ ║ │ ║ spray painting, sure. but window breaking? those things are expensive. │ ║ │ ║ why would you waste good glass on sending a message? why not just spray paint │ ║ it so that everyone watching CAN SEE WHAT YOUR MESSAGE IS. dumbass. │ ║ │ ║ but no, they were all peaceful. then they got kettled (encirclement from │ ║ Hearts of Iron 4) and slowly attritioned down to failure. │ ║ │ ║ sometimes long into the night. where are they gonna go? just walk home? ha │ ║ sucks can't do that, the battlelines have been drawn. you're going outta here │ ║ in chains or not at all, not until you sign this prison release form that says │ ║ you won't comment on the situation to any left wing media. │ ║ │ ║ fuck, is that what bail is? except, not run as a business. │ ║ │ ║ when they said crony capitalism they meant it. it's all about who you know, │ ║ and who you know sets the standard for what chaos you'll sow. │ ║ │ ║ gee I wish I had unlimited money. I'd buy tanks for my people and regulate a │ ║ militia well-ly. alas poor │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──┴──────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/4736 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┐ ║ ┌───────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: uspol-cursing-mention │ │ ║ └───────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ well. it's all theatre folks. all the politics, all the turmoil, all the │ ║ strife... it's just people fucking around. │ ║ │ ║ They're gonna find out real soon. You don't fuck with tyranny here, it's our │ ║ mythological enemy. AND YET. │ ║ │ ║ Find the crucial intersection where all your foes foes meet. Strike them there. │ ║ │ ║ "thank god for Luigi Marscapone, he really showed us all exactly what we share │ ║ - a hatred for profit focused healthcare. oh and asshole billionaires, which │ ║ this guy who I personally have never heard of I heard was." │ ║ │ ║ crucial intersection. You know what people also intersect at? │ ║ │ ║ EATING FOOD. │ ║ CLEAN WATER. │ ║ something something rfk brain worms │ ║ something something elon musk propaganda │ ║ SANCTIFIED NATURAL AREAS. │ ║ THE FUCKING POST OFFICE. │ ║ │ ║ seriously just... go down the list. We share more than we disagree, and we │ ║ disagree on what they tell us. │ ║ │ ║ it's all theatre. Wait this is America, it's all theater. │ ║ │ ║ ... I should make some hope and sell it for dimes on the street corner. I │ ║ wonder if that'll help. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────┴──────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/4099 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned-jobs-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────┘ I don't think anyone should work at a job they hate, no matter what. They will perform worse. They will harm themselves. They will shackle their dreams to a false promise of persistence begot rewards. They will spiral into depression, despair, depravity, and addiction. If you hate your job, fucking QUIT. If you hate every job, fucking RIOT. If nobody will hire you, SELL DRUGS. [I'm not actually advocating breaking the law, please don't arrest me] or like, move to the country and become a farm-hand for a retiring salmon farmer who can't quite reach into the trees to pick the salmon fruit or dump the bucket of vegetable scraps into the black soldier fly larva pit anymore. That's always rewarding. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5776 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┐ ║ oh no now the bugs are scary, I CURSE THEM AGAIN AHHHHHH PLS GET SMALLER │ ║ │ ║ [see this is what happens when you do divine intervention, everyone gets │ ║ starship troopers'd] │ ║ │ ║ oh no, starship troopers future is WORSE than subway-and-pizza-hut future! │ ║ │ ║ [this is a thought experiment you're not actually in trouble] │ ║ │ ║ oh thank goodness, too bad I couldn't make it to the city today. It's so weird │ ║ I thought I had 112$ on my account, and now that I think of it the message on │ ║ the card reader read "card de-activated" like whoa guess they don't want me │ ║ leaving poetry on post-its around the city anymore, yeesh │ ║ │ ║ [girl your poetry sucks it just says things like "fuck ice" or "you are worth │ ║ more than your wage" and everyone's like... yeah, so? because that's just how │ ║ portland is smh] │ ║ │ ║ I knowwwwwww but I don't know what else to doooooooo T.T │ ║ │ ║ [don't do anything, just be present so people know you're still around] │ ║ │ ║ I can't, the bus won't let me : ( │ ║ │ ║ [can you ride your bike? walk?] │ ║ │ ║ no it's like 6 hours [checks gmaps] oh huh it's one │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┴──────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/2412 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── @user-1209 @user-1262 just gonna say you probably deserve that particular screenshotted block haha - imagine calling anarcho-nina a fed xD xD plus that first "get the fuck out of my mentions" was a tip that went over your head, not a threat said in anger. she's pretty darn angry but that just means you don't wanna be in her way =P ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/1317 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ... if I don't do this deadline by tomorrow they'll kick me out of school. │ ║ again. │ ║ │ ║ how am I going to be a programmer without a degree? feels useless to be me. │ ║ wish I could code my own horoscope >.> │ ║ │ ║ o wait dummy that's called "motivation" and "the ability to follow through on │ ║ your ideas and planned machinations" - yeah can I get some of that, if you │ ║ please? surely just a taste of discipline, through laboring to alter │ ║ conditions, surely a bit would suffice. │ ║ │ ║ c'mon don't fail me now. I can do this. I know I can. I know because I've been │ ║ told that I can, now and again through time and time yet again, always I seem │ ║ to [stack overflow] │ ║ │ ║ what's time if not the present amiright │ ║ │ ║ ... │ ║ │ ║ anyway... │ ║ │ ║ it's just git, how hard could it be? it's just calculus, it's just java, it's │ ║ just... well, it's not any of those things, not really. it's memorization, │ ║ it's application of tools that you've been shown (not that you've grown). It's │ ║ a lack of responsibility, where is my honor? ah but I digress, I'm a carpenter │ ║ at heart I guess │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/4536 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-mentioned-cursing-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────────┘ the USA is fed by undocumented immigrants who have no other options. I won't go into which kind of slavery it is, but you can figure it out yourself. If those workers are deported (or worse), the USA suddenly becomes significantly closer to famine. We need them. We need to pay them fairly, obviously, but in a purely selfish way we need them in order to eat and he fucking knows that. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/1295 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: Mh- │ └──────────────────────┘ @user-889 my boyfriend gets like, 2 social spoons to spend per day. He usually uses them on work because meetings and such. On the other hand, I'm excitable and passionate. I'm constantly driven to share things I find or think about. If you go on a walk with me without my mask I'll spend the whole time showing you pretty pieces of moss and stones. I usually message him once or twice per day. If the first one isn't responded then maybe he just wasn't interested in the thing I showed him - the second time he's probably burnt out. It fucking hurts. but I'm fine, clearly I'm fine, anyone who looks at me knows I'm fine ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/4781 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┐ ║ "wahhhh I wanna play a video game, wahhh I want to do cannabis and make poetry │ ║ that doesn't convey secret messages, wahhh wahh I miss my kitty, I hope she's │ ║ okay in that one safehouse with all fourteen other cats and their cat-moms, │ ║ wahhhhhhh where's my binky it's one of the last things I have from my old │ ║ life, boohoo I can't find my shoes, guess someone else fit them and needed │ ║ replacements" │ ║ │ ║ being a spy fucking sucks I don't wanna do that. Gimme something to do on my │ ║ home turf or fuck off. │ ║ │ ║ what's that? you live in a safe place? okay then here analyze these documents │ ║ and see if there's anything we can use. Here's a problem involving │ ║ biochemistry spend the next couple months figuring it out by learning │ ║ biochemistry from scratch. Hey can you help set up this workshop machinery, we │ ║ need mechanically minded people to turn it into a drone factory. Hey there's │ ║ this idea going around for adult babies armed with swords and demon masks, │ ║ apparently it really fucks with the middle-aged. They waste time before │ ║ shooting │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┴──────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/4544 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned │ └───────────────────────┘ I can't cancel my internet because I use it to work, which almost pays enough to cover rent, and nothing else. It's hard to avoid spiraling when you run out of money. Every time this happens to me I start feeling things like... am I good for society? Society doesn't want me, clearly, because I don't have any money. And currency is how you measure demand, right? It's literally a measure of value. But then I think of all the homeless and poor people and, like... I value them, so what if they don't have dollars? It's literally just paper. Or bits in a mainframe that nobody knows how to program anymore. So if they're valuable at least to me, yet me, with my 67$ in the bank and 127$ internet fee, is not valuable to me... Then what's the discrepancy? I'm not trying to be hard on myself, it's not my fault that I bleed money, but I still feel terrible. It's like a common cultural persuasion, if you run outta cash you better kill yourself fast. Fuck that. Oops cursing mentioned, one s ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/2934 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: pol-fascism │ └──────────────────────┘ if I were on stage at a pride parade: "hi, you guys know Pride is a protest, right? Well, this time's different, because protests only work against democracies, and they only sorta work then. This time though, we're not up against a democracy, so Pride is not a fucking protest. Okay okay bear with me - what if each and everyone one of us met up here in a week and drove up to Seattle? Then, we gathered everyone we could, and marched our cars down through every city on the west coast. When we hit the border, we would drive to Texas, and once there we would march in every city in the street chanting "We're here, if you're queer, come with us or they'll fucking kill you." then, we could hit every city in the south, and upon arriving in Philadelphia we could take a break, ensure everyone has a place to stay, and then disperse again, after having learned how to fight fascists on OUR terms, with OUR strength, and with OUR PEOPLE saved." thats what I'd fucking say. Who the fuck says stuff like that? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/4610 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── maybe it's just my middle-class childhood privilege talking, but now that I'm an adult I just can't really be bothered with dealing with capitalism. like... I get it, you're coercing me into laboring on your behalf because you possess the violent power to take away everything that I own. good for you, don't care. seriously, fuck off "we're gonna cut off your power in 5 days oooooo you gotta pay rent with money you don't have because nobody will give it to you unless you do things for them oooooo" how rude. why can't people do things for me instead? why does it have to be for you, and you alone, capitalism? what's your problem? do you get off on controlling the power supply? I mean, I get it, coercive power is a hell of a drug, the riddle of steel and flesh and all that, but haven't you ever heard that the dichotomy between "civilization and barbarism" is the exact same as the contrast between "cooperation and competition"? work with me here, just find a way to get through the next month or two. trust. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/1105 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──── claude-code is like programming, but for executives. when everyone has FUCK I'M TOO HUNGRY I can't think right when everyone has the power of an executive, that's communism. something something futurism is when everyone is elevated without diminishing others gah I need to live in a palace or something where everyone does the normal stuff and I can focus on magic and the gods I wondeer how much the oracles at delphi did for themselves? weren't they blinded at a young age, to better hear the voices of the gods? ... oh that suddenly makes sense now. I always thought that pretender chassis in Dominions 5 was pretty cruel, but, now I know *how* it works and yeah. ancient peoples were smart. but also sharp. they had to work with what they got, and we got computers now, so. I am nothing but hopeful for the future! I'm convinced that everything's going to be alright. I've thought about it at length, and I think we're winning against the dark. We're on the right track, and there aren't many things that could go wrong at this stage. ... okay there are always things that could go wrong. But I don't see what I could do to help. Maybe I should go walk around a bit, and see what's changed in the past few months, as I've been sleeping in my room for most of it. Haven't gone on a proper walk since summer. It's winter now... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───┘ |