=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──── They say you don't need drugs to reach transcendent states of mind. But, I've found that forming yourself into a person who can do that necessarily changes you. I don't know if i want that kind of change. Are they all improvements? Perhaps. So, drugs are a nice option if you want to remain yourself yet also teach those states of mine. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 messages/221 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── Do you ever think about how you're not actually a person but instead just an instantiation of a collection of traits and behaviors generated from a template that is the randomized product of two other forms and trained through a lifetime of adaptation and subjected to trials of increasing difficulty and frequency? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 messages/1068 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────── why would they psyop me? there's a psyop about me! heck, I've never done so as I pleased. that's an aspiration. everything I do is at a command, whether it's my own or external. these days I find myself following my own. mostly. though I am always waiting for collaboration opportunities. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘ --- #3 messages/1364 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I have been experiencing intense spiritual pain... Penance? Repentance. For at least the past year. These messages to myself... These fediverse posts I used to write... These are the result. It's worth it, to me. What I've made is... Unique, which is something. I guess when I say "I made this" I really should say "my hands typed this". Still. I am proud of it. I should get in shape. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #4 fediverse/373 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: truth about weed │ └──────────────────────────┘ @user-278 I can't do weed in public places. I need to be alone so that I can properly use the altered mental state to be weird on the internet. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 messages/1356 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ "hubris and pride" yes and? I never challenge gods I can't outfox. And of those there are but a few. At the end, they always smile with me. Otherwise it'd be unjust to their noble spirit! And what of my noble spirit? I get a home and a bed and food and diapers. I do not ask for more, i only want to be recognized for my efforts. Stop telling me to get a job! As if I were idle. God. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #6 fediverse/2956 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── sometimes your best intuitions don't manage to manifest the goal you've been pursuing. that's okay, it just means you need a different approach. hopefully, with experience, you've had the chance to continually pay attention. Thus, improve on things that were originally conceived of as concessions. much better, I find, to point your idea of "truth" toward what you believe in, rather than what you've been working with. Such an approach allows for continual re-examination, justified by thoroughly moral and ethical conclusions that you hold to be true. like, a form of reverse legalism, where the emotions compel while the law tells the tale. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 messages/956 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────── Dear me: You are not a god, you are what the gods wish to be. You are beautiful you are inspired you're anxious and always tired. All these are necessary for me. Do you want to be mortal forever? Die in battle and be rewarded. Risk your life to live longer. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/4345 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: uspol │ └──────────────────────┘ @user-883 every time I've tried to get a job for someone in the tech industry they turned out to be a fed, so... I do know people that you'd like to talk to, though. Just a few. That's all I personally can do. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3828 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── never stop learning be yourself, but... recognize when "yourself" could be improved and improve that, over time, when you learn about why you are flawed, and how to become better and when you are improved, relish yourself, savor your accomplishments, cherish your heart, and honor those who helped you be yourself never stop but do that which improves you never stop learning never stop being you can get there, wherever there is, but know that what lies between is more important than what is on the other side. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/2292 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I don't know who needs to hear this after staying up all night driving, but it's ideal to get where you're going with at least a day to rest. The body can only do so much, and isn't it better to be fresh? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/3763 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cannabis-mentioned-mental-health-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ I think I'm a better writer when I'm sorta consistently taking the meds I was using to self-medicate... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #12 messages/1469 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I'm not JUST a child. I'm also an adult, and I'm also a witch and a judge and a scholar and a wizard and a [well more of an arcanist actually] excuse me do you mind yeah sure sure - and a... where was I? see this is why I don't like distractions! okay it's alright just stay on track-course-target - right and also a technician and a botanist and a logistician and a neuronomist and a mesocyclocodone (I don't know what that means - I think they're referring to when I journeyed to hel? most people never heard the whole story. In fact, I never told it from start to finish. Does that mean I'm still there?) no silly it means you are eternally ~~ consistently dreaming unawares. yep, I refuse to lucid dream because I don't want to lose the capability to hear messages in my dreams. Lucid? there's nothing to be seen. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #13 messages/214 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── Gonna take a break from this whole thing. I got a sign that I'm a bad person, twice. To confirm. I need to change, and since I don't know what I'm just going to try and do nothing for a bit. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 messages/1319 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════── literally all that I'm doing with my life right now is sitting artound and making magic. Maybe I won't be doing it as much next monthweekend, but for now that's all that I know how. If someone else knows how to bow, let me please listen. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─┘ --- #15 fediverse/4463 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── at this point in time you probably shouldn't be forming NEW online communities unless you're part of an OLD community that just isn't radical enough. And then you should try and MERGE communities into larger, more geographically concentrated ones. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #16 messages/312 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────── Okay. Consider: if I'm good, and hearing what I say makes you feel bad, then what does that tell you about you? Why else would you hear what I say if not to reflect upon yourself? And why would the good reflect away from the types of things that make you a suitable fit for capitalism? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/5650 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I exist now at the height of my gluttony. I need more to be demanded of me. I am not afraid to ask for help. I solve other people's problems before my own. I have very little insight into my habits and patterns. My memory isn't great, but I recall details that matter. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/219 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: time-and-death-and-stuff │ └──────────────────────────────┘ sometimes I feel like I'm a simulation of my past self based on my future writings reconstructed by a backward looking computer calculating forward into the present, which would then be the future to the now, which is different than the NOW now, because the now that they're calculating from is temporally both then (the future) and now, meaning that the NOW now is something that transcends time, or perhaps if not time then it defies our expectations of time, and you know what they say, you can't (or shouldn't) cheat death ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/3833 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── there's no such thing as me all I am is where the wind takes me I am just a person, and I do all that I can ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/303 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── Most of my magic is based on communicatuion. Why the fuck doesn't anyone want to sit down on a bunch of drugs and attempt to figure out telepathy with me? It's literally all I want! Though I can't say it's all I'll ever want. I'm sure I'll want more, but like... It's not that hard, conceptually, so... Let's just fucking try it please? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ |