=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I ran myself ragged. Why? Just to get used to the feeling I guess. Probably should have started that kind of training a lifetime ago, but I've learned a lot in the past 5 days. Here's hoping the next 3 or 4 will go the same. I can't wait to be outside again. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 messages/1023 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── I have stalled with such urgency that now i scarcely know how to act. Or rather, how to know when to act. Everything's just... Waiting, butting in and asking "hey how's the readiness?" and then slinking off to yonder and afore. It's troubling to know how little i know. It troubles me still more to know that others expect me to both act, and wait, and i am considering how to move forward. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ --- #2 fediverse/1263 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── @user-883 My friends and I decided to hang out for two days in a row, I guess they aren't tired of me yet hehe - I might be around tonight but I'll let you know! ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/5982 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── when I stretch, it feels like I'm finally getting blood flow to my farthest parts. when I work out, it's like I'm pumping health through my body. but only when I'm in a rhythm. when I'm going for very long, I get hallucinations like I'm stoned. I once walked for 3 days straight with 2 hours of rest, plus standing every time I crossed the street waiting for cars. never sitting though. and a lean was only for laughs. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/2215 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I'm kind of a hermit, but it's sunday and I have nothing to do, so I'm going to get lost on my bike today in a city I've lived near for almost 5 years and really should know better by now. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/3058 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── @user-1441 @user-670 @user-113 currently toe-ing the boundary between "too neurodivergent to function" and "can juuuuust barely take care of themselves" and they ask me to get a job... no thanks, guess I'll die (in 3-4 months when my savings run out) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/2350 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I spent about two hours today (and a good chunk of tomorrow's stamina) chasing a rabbit through a field. Can't help but wonder if that particular lead wasn't as important as leading from the front. Ah, well, we'll see. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5460 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── if you sit down to write and nothing comes to mind, then either nothing needs to be said or maybe you should spend time reading instead. ... okey dokey, time to read I guess. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/5793 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────── I posted my words text file all over the c it y today. not sure why. maybe I'm tired of this course and I don't want to let anyone down? Maybe I don't know what to do yet. Maybe nobody works with me because everyone's keeping it on the DL or whateverr? ... anyway enough typing, I'm going to go play a video game. like god intended. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/1722 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: food-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ harsh lessons of adulthood - sometimes food is not eaten for the taste, but rather for how it will make you feel slightly better in the next few days. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/4085 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── I can always tell when people who believe in me start thinking of me because I start feeling the urge to do pushups ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/4744 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cat-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?" me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just puke, okay?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/4087 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── there's a whole class of things I miss doing but can no longer do because I am not a child anymore. Balancing the weight of the things we miss and the things we believe in is the struggle of adulthood. I yearn for the day I can set aside my teenage-ish toys, but alas, I am but 30. Scarcely a decade away from my teens. Which means I'll be stuck with them for at least a decade more. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/5902 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── if you want to train debug skills to a computer, just train them on every stage of the git commit tree. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/2452 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── fell off my bike today. It helped me get used to pain. When I heal, I'll be a bit stronger. I'm still showing up tomorrow. It was but a scratch. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/5452 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: all-cops-are-bastards-mentioned-personal-ramblings-and-complainings-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ I never rest. Not mentally. I find it sooooo much harder to get moving again once I'm asleep. But I've been sleeping lately, because it's "good for me" or whatever. Because I'm "burnt out and need to heal" or something. Damnit why is it so much harder to stop snuggling someone than it is to pack up a tent? I'm like the guy in Hot Fuzz, that one really good movie about cops. oops cops mentioned one second. I'm always moving, but, I hardly ever seem to be able to get anything done. Why is that? Is the work just... endless? Am I ever a slave to my surroundings? Or am I just cursed with a mortal form, a form destined to toil in whatever way it finds itself contextualized in? Maybe I should just stop complaining. Maybe work is it's own reward or whatever. I don't think I'm depressed anymore, although good luck getting me to feel any emotions except focus, and the call to intercede on another's behalf. I don't have time for this. >. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/537 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── @user-366 @user-367 @user-246 @user-353 Ah yes, wouldn't it be nice if everyone spoke their mind? I'm doing my part d=(^_^)z Thank you for adding context to what I posted. I now know better how and where to use it, if I ever do again. We shall see, I haven't yet read the examinations of the author you sent me. I'll do that before I think about the post again. Those 6 tabs I mentioned last night have now become 4, and soon I'll get through all of them - reading is a joy to me ^_^ ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/5650 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I exist now at the height of my gluttony. I need more to be demanded of me. I am not afraid to ask for help. I solve other people's problems before my own. I have very little insight into my habits and patterns. My memory isn't great, but I recall details that matter. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/2434 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I spent most of today asleep. I guess that's what I get for chatting all night with a stranger. gonna putz around a bit, should be nice. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 messages/304 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── Relax. Take it from me. I won't resist, at least I'll try, and if I start suddenly then it hurts and you should go slower. Unless I do three short, three long, three short. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/1485 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I was such a different person a year ago. And I was twice as different two years ago. Throughout it all, I am connected by the thread of my life, and I could be those people again, if only the context would present itself. Who was I when I met you? Eh I think I'll be this way today. The clothes make the man, and I wear a hat. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ |