=== ANCHOR POEM === ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── ummmmm yeah the reason I went off hormones 5 weeks ago is totally because I want to test low so that they bump up my prescription so I can stockpile. Totally not because I executive dysfunctioned my way into this mess. again. Almost as if it doesn't happen 3 or 4 times per year -.- ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/6458 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───── gonna pre-emptively backup my fediverse archive haha just-in-case I get banned for spamming or something teehee (totally reasonable teebeeh) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┘ --- #2 fediverse/3766 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-medical-health-mentioned │ └───────────────────────────────────────┘ gonna ask my doctor for ADHD meds so I can hopefully jump-skip framebuffer divebomb spinadoodle half A press my way over the fucking labyrinth that is my weird and jank af mind and no I don't watch speedruns but my social group hears me a lot of them. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/4605 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── I want to cry and I know why should probably have gotten my estrogen prescription refilled back when it ran out in october ah, well, the queue for planned parenthood is fifty feet high better start stockpiling production capabilities to be deployed when the time is right ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4486 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── gonna go on a walk. my cat is missing because I let her out last night. I'm worried sick! this morning I almost puked all over my toes. she'll probably show up when it gets dark. I bet she's hunkered down somewhere. Ah, well, might as well walk around my neighborhood actively searching bushes and such. Why not? It's not like I got anything else to do right now. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/4843 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────── just because someone did something one way and it worked, doesn't mean you have to do it that way again. but you should have a reason why you aren't doing it that way. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/4744 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cat-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?" me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just puke, okay?" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #7 messages/546 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── I always disappear right when you need me the most because you're supposed to take the next step. The reason I do that is because...? You fill in the blanks. Tell me why I do that. I know, and I want you to know, but I can't say it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/6096 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: poop-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ OKAY FINE I'll take fiber supplements. Don't blame me if I poop my pants though. can't stand the constipation anymore. Hurts too much. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3717 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────┘ hey, you know how historically they used to lobotomize young women who were too fiery, passionate, independent, driven, motivated, and clairvoyant? they did that on purpose. that was less than a lifetime ago. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/3613 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: trans-hrt-graphic │ └───────────────────────┘ did my hormone shot and now my leg feels funny -.- ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #11 notes/what-are-breakups-for --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - listen... if you break up with a friend, OF COURSE you should cry. OF COURSE you'll be sad. it's okay. it's natural. it's human. don't feel sad about the pain. feel the pain. brb getting smashed (okay but please put some clothes on) -.- fine ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I can't fucking relax the only thing I can think of is defeating fascism this fucking sucks I just want to cry about my boyfriend of what, 6 years?? jeez like.... yeah I'm flawed *of course* I'm flawed I'm a human being humans are imperfect ... ugh er, sorry, "bleurg" I'm going to eat a burrito ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - alright ate an edible. 20mg. had 2 beers. that's enough for me. see ya soon. I swear to you, I will be there tomorrow. and every day henceforth. ... unless I'm taking a day off, like yesterday, which TBH was probably not ideal. I swear I'll be better. there are no false starts, only probing strikes. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/5602 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── "so wait why can't we go outside again" "I'm huuuuungry" girl we just ate "I'm tired" girl it's like 10am "can we snuggle?" yeah okay. that's why haha ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/470 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: disability-rant-frustrations │ └──────────────────────────────────┘ Fuck, I hate being incontinent. I especially hate being incontinent in an apartment building where people might hear you changing through the walls - is it too much to ask for diapers to be built discrete? Alas, they are fucking loud, and my neighbors will perpetually hear me tearing loud-ass tapes from plastic every night at 2am -.- Oh, I guess I could buy the ones that have velcro attachment points. BUT for some reason those are always built kinda... shitty? Like, sure yeah we live in a material world that has material conditions that make things more or less amenable to perfection - but WHY do they have to be so LOUD fuck me amiright ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 messages/523 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── You know all those times you did really horny things for no reason? Those are times when someone was having a wet dream to your life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/2979 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── what if we made a hormone that bolstered your bones and did all the gender-neutral things that Estrogen and Testosterone do without any of the feminizing or masculinizing effects ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #16 messages/1224 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════── when I go out on walks before I set out again I wait until my blisters healed again ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─┘ --- #17 fediverse/3058 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── @user-1441 @user-670 @user-113 currently toe-ing the boundary between "too neurodivergent to function" and "can juuuuust barely take care of themselves" and they ask me to get a job... no thanks, guess I'll die (in 3-4 months when my savings run out) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/3776 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────── whenever repeating letters like thiiiiiiis or thisssss make sure if you're doing K's that you have at least four ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/169 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────── @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body language spoke for them. I'll try that next time. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/303 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── Most of my magic is based on communicatuion. Why the fuck doesn't anyone want to sit down on a bunch of drugs and attempt to figure out telepathy with me? It's literally all I want! Though I can't say it's all I'll ever want. I'm sure I'll want more, but like... It's not that hard, conceptually, so... Let's just fucking try it please? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ |