=== ANCHOR POEM === ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── "girl why are you so negative" uh, because I had been unmedicated for a long time and now that I am I can probably be more positive. Though I do want to switch medications, this one makes me feel like a muggle. "no I said why are you so naked" oh, because it's hot as heck!! plus, I don't really care for the opinions of people who have nothing better to do than peek at cute 30 year old witches skimping around their own house. like... okay I rent an apartment, but my blinds are closed, and even if they weren't you'd need binoculars to see into my apartment unless I'm like, right up against the window, which... doesn't happen. Or if it's at night with the lights on inside and not out, but I'm aware of that and I plan around it. I'm not a... um, what's the opposite of voyeur? "extortionist" no that's when someone is really flexible. ah whatever. I got 162 characters remaining but I think that's okay every once in a while, right? I mean it's not like I have to use them all because of some divine mandate or ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4654 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: cannabis-and-other-drugs-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ gonna quit drugs for a bit, gotta recover from a recent haste spell that I cast. Probably a bit earlier than intended I should add. Next time I'll definitely say "keep this in your back pocket" instead of "hey here's a haste spell for no reason at all" like what the heck were you even thinking, powers that be?? [that guide me??] who has power over you? If someone bears responsibility but not fault for a mental illness, then surely those who are set to a task bear responsibility for it's completion if not for it's ideation. Ah, who can say, maybe me from a year ago might have some thoughts but I sorta ground them into the dirt until I couldn't walk. [girl what are you even talking about go to sleep] yeah yeah okay ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/711 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: trans-witches │ │ ║ └──────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ they say witches are scary, and yeah they're not wrong │ ║ │ ║ but they also say witches are ugly, and I think they just didn't have kind │ ║ words for trans people back then. │ ║ │ ║ I mean, I'm gorgeous and so are you. I've no warts, nor green skin, but I do │ ║ grow hair in unbecoming places. Like the tip of my chinny-chin-chin, and also │ ║ on top of my toes. │ ║ │ ║ they also say witches are magic, and I guess that's true (I suppose). I mean, │ ║ I wear quite strange clothes, for a man at least. It's quite normal for a she, │ ║ which is what I was meant to be, if only I was just born right. │ ║ │ ║ Alas, oh well, I'll just take a little green pill, and BAM suddenly I've got │ ║ huge boobs. Okay they're not huge, they're pretty normal. But C is larger than │ ║ zero. │ ║ │ ║ they also say that witches write spells, and I sure do love to program. With │ ║ my most familiar cat (who often does sleep in my hat), I find myself yearning │ ║ for nuance. │ ║ │ ║ Meh, it's late at night, I think I'll think not of the plight, and instead │ ║ just will dream of defusals. I don't know~ │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/2386 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── Tee, hee, look at me, I'm a witch who writes nothing but kookie-dookerie I pee my pants and stare at trees, what's less harmful than little old me? The best smokescreen I can think of is to be true to your heart, to be weak, to be vulnerable. Then you get put on the "worry about later" list, and not the other kind. I never lie. When convinced I am wrong, I change my mind. I am always listening, always ready to hear where I'm flawed. I do my best every day, and that's enough for me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 messages/1469 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I'm not JUST a child. I'm also an adult, and I'm also a witch and a judge and a scholar and a wizard and a [well more of an arcanist actually] excuse me do you mind yeah sure sure - and a... where was I? see this is why I don't like distractions! okay it's alright just stay on track-course-target - right and also a technician and a botanist and a logistician and a neuronomist and a mesocyclocodone (I don't know what that means - I think they're referring to when I journeyed to hel? most people never heard the whole story. In fact, I never told it from start to finish. Does that mean I'm still there?) no silly it means you are eternally ~~ consistently dreaming unawares. yep, I refuse to lucid dream because I don't want to lose the capability to hear messages in my dreams. Lucid? there's nothing to be seen. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #5 fediverse/5958 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── "whoa what happened to you, you used to be so cool" [you added the so cool part] yet so anyway I really like magic, I'm also bored, which you can probably tell because I'm working on projects. everyone keeps their distance here. it sucks. I wish I had better coordinates. people who talked and braved the shared inn... I know I'd LOVE to live in a building. too bad I'm too busy elsewhere, NOT making friends with all my building neighbors. you should talk to EACH OTHER before asking your landlord if you can move out. See if anyone else wants to buy the rental contract out. Suddenly, they have more room, and they can WORK THROUGH THEIR MASSIVE PILE OF STUFF THAT THEY HAVE SOMEHOW ACCUMULATED OVER A TIME OF 70 YEARS. my grandparents did that, on my mom's side, because she's awesome and it just makes sense that her family was awesome too. OBVIOUSLY I love my mom, I think she's one of my favorite people on earth. "but you said you hated her" no I didn't "you said she was terrible" I had to learn "too hard ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/5512 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── I never give up I'm just waiting my turn "laughs nervously" so, uh, why dontchya'll go first yeah I've already gone first and I'll do it again but it'd be cool if I had people going first with me sometime "girl all you do is walk around and talk about how you bought your hat on the internet four or so years ago" T.T what else do you want from me I'm not a mastermind I'm a designer there's a difference T.T "didn't you volunteer to be a leader last year" oh, yeah, well leaders are more than just "the ones who go first" they're also the spiritual and emotional guiders that keep things on track once everyone can talk about things other than their hats ... fuck I want to talk about things besides my hat. I always think of something awesome to say just as I'm rounding the bend, and whenever I peer back around again they're never around. Rats. "what are you even asking for" I don't know?? Does it matter if the horse and the bishop both take the same square if they're claimed themselves in the end? ...wat ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5951 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── "uh-oh, she's" magic is easy. all you have to do is earnestly attempt to have a conversation with whoever will listen. I like to sit on my bed and listen, by earnestly allowing my thoughts to be guided by the wind. open up your mind, release yourself from your senses, and who knows - maybe someone will adjust your thinking flows. (thought patterns) [all you gotta do is make the black market the regular market and suddenly everything just flows] huh weird idk where that came from, anyway magic is easy, just represent yourself earnestly as you would if you were presenting in court you don't need witnesses... just argue your point without any lies and people will generally believe you. "yeah... sure thing buddy, we know how you pronounce " omg I'm scary because I don't shower, I wear diapers, and I'm always often smoking cannabis "awww, some people wanted mao" meow what if... they could do that? insert magical genie witch whoa cute yeah I believe you, sure ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/4672 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics! │ └──────────────────────┘ I miss video games cries from self-inflicted sacrifices but you're worth it imma overthrow fascism, dismantle oppression and power, and liberate those in chains, just so I can play games again yeah I mean, uh, whatever gets you outta bed "at least you have a bed. why are you complaining?" maybe it's the only thing I'm good at. I wonder if anyone would hire me to be an analyst or something? Maybe a designer? bro you're asking for a job on the eve of the revolution, what's your deal okay so this might be news to ya'll but I'm technically a human even though I wear a witch hat and sometimes speak in rhyme. And humans tend to think about things in the context of their current environment. Currently, if I want to pay rent or whatever, I need a job. So... sounds like a lame excuse for not giving up your possessions and throwing yourself to fate's design I already did that and fate told me to go home and take a bath?? idk what you want from me, and no I'm not doing any drugs to find out. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/548 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── I added a line to my .bashrc that cats out a random one of my notes every time I open a terminal. I keep reading things that I swear I didn't write, but feel right and true to me in a way that could only imply that they came fully formed into my eyes through the lines on my screen, cast upon the mirror panes of my hard disk drive by the pounding of my keyboard as I once upon a time did cast a spell upon my future. It's pretty neat, but it speaks to a shadowed perspective that perhaps is neither within nor without. Side note, I think I've been possessed by a witch. But like... in a consensual way. Like "Hey witch, wanna live? You can chill out with me." [ha that's one way to look at it] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1280 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ I'm like the opposite of a politician. I'm crude and filthy, apsolutely │ ║ reprehensible on main, kinda scary tbh? and overall just a strange and weird │ ║ person. Also I talk about cooking a lot, with a very plain diet (carrots and │ ║ rice and sticks and mud, because I'm an autistic) │ ║ │ ║ but ask anyone who knows me and I'm the kindest person. I am empathetic, I │ ║ think about others needs before thinking of my own. I am steadfast and │ ║ dedicated to solving the problem in front of our noses. At least, the ones we │ ║ share. │ ║ │ ║ People tell me I'm binary, that I'm "either 100% or zero percent" and I don't │ ║ really get that either. Isn't it a good thing to try your hardest? Isn't it │ ║ good to be improving and honest and ethical and driven and focused? │ ║ │ ║ I also talk about strange things a lot, like gravity and multidimensional │ ║ arrays and grand narratives and emotional kinesthesia or strategic plays in │ ║ Overwatch or how to bake a good cookie or ways we still mourn us. │ ║ │ ║ ... where was I going with this? Also part of me is distracted. Just who th │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/5157 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────┐ ║ "everything sucks and I'm not okay" │ ║ │ ║ okay, but, it's okay. we're all in the "everything sucks" mode. we'll get │ ║ through it together. Okay, so, what can we do to make things better? what's │ ║ the solution to this issue over here? do you know anyone who can do │ ║ such-and-such, gosh it seems like the biggest problems people have are they │ ║ don't have enough time or they don't have enough roof for a money. which will │ ║ you trade? will you do one then another? maybe one way suits you, maybe you'd │ ║ prefer the other. either way, pentacles, swords, cups, and... the other one │ ║ (she's a bad witch as in she's bad at being a witch which means she witches in │ ║ bad ways and should be kept from punishment but instead guided toward where │ ║ she was wrong so she might improve upon it) │ ║ │ ║ that is to say, it's okay that you're not okay. I don't know who needs to read │ ║ this but just know that it's not so sad when everything's bad, because you're │ ║ just trying to do the best thing for the moments. │ ║ │ ║ does anyone wanna make a movie about me? I can be the │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┴──────────┘ --- #12 notes/trans-rights-are-human-rights --- ═══════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── "Being transgender is a mental illness" is something I've heard a lot. Online, in media, books, and at universities. But is it really? Well, do I not feel sick? Genuinely, every day. These words are far less common these days, having been defeated in the #marketplace-of-ideas, and for that I am grateful. I don't want to feel sick for my whole life. I'd love to be and feel normal, for just one single day. but it's never going to happen. I'm not so attached to my life, here, in this body. Bodies are temporary, they are the vessel with which we navigate the world. We use it to grow, change, learn, and create art. Without it, we'd be at a loss for sins and virtues. but they do not define us, not in our totality. We are the light that touches the world and for that, we are grateful. To be comprised of the dust of stars is the pinnacle of confinement. Though we are but pinpricks on the map of us, a ripple is emanated with every movement. The hand waves, the light bends. So to what do I owe the pleasure? In what way am I deceived? Reception is never great out in the forest. Or anywhere far from major population centers. The networks of our phones mirror the networks of transportation, creating a web of people - of signals - of light and information, carving their way through the ephemera that is the river of time. With distance we can see what once was mystery, and as all the words disappeared, we lost all our fears and we're left with our true forms. Centralized Processing Units are a bit like a city - in that respect free. silence is a virtue. the wandering mind is a trail to find, with no second chances. When I was a kid, I had a bouncy ball. I had several, but the one I remember most was black with a perfect white circle - inside the circle, a black jolly roger. I dreamt once of the arcs it made, as I walked down the streets of cities I never really knew. But as I walked on, an ocean of glass separating me from a mirror below. The me below would catch the bounce as it dropped from above, and I'd wait to catch it - but dreams are not prophecies, they are but the Mirror of Desire. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘══════───┴╧───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/1157 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-woe │ └──────────────────────┘ oh no, apparently I'm gonna be forced to drop out of university again in 9 days unless I do half a course and a final exam before then. Tell me again why I spent the last 6 months doing nothing? Oh yeah the mental illness, that's it. Yeesh you're such a drama queen, just do your work and you'll be good. what's that? intrusive thoughts time? Don't you mean "nap until they go away" time? oh yeah that's probably at least part of the problem with the whole "dropping out" thing. If only I didn't have the same reaction to "doing things I don't want to do" that most people have to "touching hot stoves", that'd be nice. my mother's voice ripples across space and time "you're such a smart boy, if you just apply yourself you can do anything! You can do anything you put your mind to. I believe in you and I love you." thanks mom brrrrr it's so cold here. wish I could afford to run the heater. - actually no I don't because it's not solar powered and I refuse to use fossil fuels if I have blankets >.> ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/4738 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┐ ║ ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: revolutionary-politics-mentioned-swearing-mentioned │ │ ║ └─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ you said you wanted a revolution, and, well, I could not be more proud of you. │ ║ It's actually getting done and if I stop and think about it I'm kind of │ ║ amazed. Never thought I'd see this kind of change so quickly. │ ║ │ ║ "what change? I see nothing substantially different" │ ║ │ ║ oh yeah well do you go outside often │ ║ │ ║ do you hang out in the park │ ║ │ ║ I know it's fuckin' january and it's cold as heck (ah nuts swearing mentioned │ ║ one sec) but homeless people have to LIVE in that weather so like... wear │ ║ layers, spend time outside, detox from dopamine, write poetry and tear it out │ ║ and leave it on a park bench, be loud, claim the space, it's yours, that's │ ║ what it's there for. │ ║ │ ║ I see it in your eyes. I see it in the random notes I find on the sidewalk. │ ║ Everyone says "make friends, find community" and I say "commune with a │ ║ stranger" but I'm also a witch and that's a pretty witchy thing to do. │ ║ │ ║ ... Really fuckin' wish we still had payphones (ah nuts swearing mentioned - │ ║ oh already CWd) │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────┴──────────┘ --- #15 notes/hey-hope-you-know-me-if-not-Ill-be-perturbed --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── hi, so... yeah I'm a strange person it's tough to get to know me and this probably feels cringe to read but I once heard you should kill the part of you that cringes so... here's me I'm ================================================== stack overflow ============== ... where was I? oh yes and THAT's when the nail went through the roof, and it scared the heck out of... wait, what was I talking about? OH yes so anyway I was born in the cool summer of 1864 - there was a rustling breeze that held a steady note for the entire evening, and into this world I arose. [awoke?] my mother held me but for a moment before I was whisked away to be cleaned and cared for. this was unusual for the time, as most mothers clutched their children to their breasts. But alas, I alone was spared her touch, and so I was cast (as if in bronze) as my own volition. as I had grown, I heard tales of distant times, and assumed they were places you could go. Then, when my time came to wander, I found nought of what I had grown most fonder - though I did find plenty else, besides. Instead, times are places we travel through, as a cripple might ride on a cart. across the sea, through lands of mystery, viewable only from the road. In 1864 that's how other lands you'd come to know. As I travelled from place to place, it felt as if a stage had been cast, with a single actor or three illuminated as a spotlight. "Here, pay attention to me, I'm here for the story and the plot!" though often I'd glance around, and hear mostly my own thoughts, I grew to learn to appear. different themes, different tales, if you want to see a most marvelous scene, take a baby to Disney World and only pay attention to what they're looking at. My grandfather worked there, so in my first year or so I spend a LOT of time there. My parents were very dedicated to raising me, I appreciate every moment of it. Which... Is probably not a good thing to say on a transfemme server, oops I should delete that part [esc->k->k->k->0->v->shift(held)->G->$->"->*] also I should mention I'm stoned as fuck this is just what I do ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/762 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── I'm a good witch, which means I write poems and bake cookies. Okay usually I make something more nutritious, like "melange". Also I'm good at listening to people's problems and I always have a cup of tea ready for you when you walk in the door. bad witches are kinda evil. They're the type who curse animals with human forms and enslave the fae by forcing them to work desk jobs and such. They also propagate spores for poisonous mushrooms in the forest, the kind that LOOK like they're edible but actually aren't. but, as all things are defined in waves, so too are the patterns of witches - for every bad witch, there's a good one just around the corner. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/6038 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── ┌────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────┘ my worst impulse is to sit around and do nothing when there could be weed that I was smoking gotta be ready in-case things go south... I'm a witch, after all. who better to call to the spirits drawn to conflict and strife, bothing them and saying "hey, pay attention to me and my life?" it's not like time is wasted for them. they are an orientation, not a lifeform. time is no consequence when they can be anywhere at once. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ --- #18 fediverse/814 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ ah that's weird, I don't usually cry. I wonder what's going on. I should │ ║ probably put myself on psychiatric drugs. Surely it's an expression of the │ ║ implementation of my impending doom. │ ║ │ ║ ... what are you even saying bro │ ║ │ ║ ... um, hang on feels like some of the circuitry is off. is something wrong in │ ║ my brain? yeah that's surely it, surely nothing I say would resoinate with │ ║ anyone that has a non-malfunctioning brain. Surely I don't speak of logical │ ║ failures in the hard founded truths of our asset [society I think? like, our │ ║ conditions, our institutions, our {gosh that just... does not translate}] um │ ║ right what was I saying │ ║ │ ║ oh yeah there's this game I'm really into called Knave, it's like D&D │ ║ except the rules are very fewer. Like there's onyl 11 pages in the rulebook │ ║ and it's mostly taken up by random roll tables. Like, everything boings down │ ║ to a few simple rules, like rock paper scissors, or go-fish, or something like │ ║ that with just afew mechanids. something timeless and pure, something that is │ ║ isolated and en │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #19 messages/1105 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──── claude-code is like programming, but for executives. when everyone has FUCK I'M TOO HUNGRY I can't think right when everyone has the power of an executive, that's communism. something something futurism is when everyone is elevated without diminishing others gah I need to live in a palace or something where everyone does the normal stuff and I can focus on magic and the gods I wondeer how much the oracles at delphi did for themselves? weren't they blinded at a young age, to better hear the voices of the gods? ... oh that suddenly makes sense now. I always thought that pretender chassis in Dominions 5 was pretty cruel, but, now I know *how* it works and yeah. ancient peoples were smart. but also sharp. they had to work with what they got, and we got computers now, so. I am nothing but hopeful for the future! I'm convinced that everything's going to be alright. I've thought about it at length, and I think we're winning against the dark. We're on the right track, and there aren't many things that could go wrong at this stage. ... okay there are always things that could go wrong. But I don't see what I could do to help. Maybe I should go walk around a bit, and see what's changed in the past few months, as I've been sleeping in my room for most of it. Haven't gone on a proper walk since summer. It's winter now... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───┘ --- #20 fediverse/6117 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────── Hmmmm, well, what if we psyopped the people into believing there were alien invaders or extra-dimensional fae creatures or angels and demons or "yeah we already tried that, religion doesn't scale perfectly either. And you can't really manifest those sort of effects except in your prophets and select few others, and that doesn't scale either because humanity wouldn't let it" I see, can you tell me more about that? why and how did humanity arrest the scaling of schizophrenia? "well, for one thing it's debilitating and it sucks. For another, it's different for every person so if you ask one they'll be like "the aliens have blue skin" and the other will say "no they don't have skin at all they're made out of energy" and the public says "HMMMM are you really sure you are generating outmoded assumptions" and the dear reader said "*yeah we don't really understand this part, most of us just glaze eyes over it and move on" and that's not ideal" ... nuts, lost coherence, better try again tomorrow... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────┘ |