=== ANCHOR POEM === ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I was being tested, of that I have no doubt. I was focused on the situation at hand, because that's how an improv actor operates. but the improvized conversational "scene" that is in play was also designed to test for understanding. if the actors in the scene made the same logical "leaps" or "conclusions", moving from one thing to another with a clue of emphasis, tone, cadence, and flow of conversation...?!*# hence, why it's important that the speaker is always the one engaging. leaving off the conclusion of a thought in order to check that the person you're talking to is going down the correct path of understanding. in doing so, you can transfer knowledge in an impossible-to-decrypt manner. endless synonyms and custom-made figures of speech (to illustrate a previously expressed dynamic) while also confirming concurrent data as it's stored. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/2676 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ if you asked me to start talking, I could continue for hours explaining │ ║ technical details of computer systems or the different types of win-conditions │ ║ in different strategy games or how to make good pasta with only 3 ingredients │ ║ or what it's like to be a cat, how must they see things or overcome barriers │ ║ between them and solutions? │ ║ │ ║ ..... anyway it's important to be able to talk for a long period of time at │ ║ the drop of a hat because if your conversation partner needs you to │ ║ immediately initiate a conversation, you can do so. │ ║ │ ║ there are a myriad of reasons why someone would want an immediate │ ║ conversation, including "acting casual" or because they want to be distracted │ ║ from nearby suffering or whatever. │ ║ │ ║ in addition, being able to follow long conversations with little bits of │ ║ useful and actionable information thrown in to an otherwise indecipherable │ ║ melange of verbal goo. │ ║ │ ║ what's important is to trust your conversation partner, and to know that │ ║ they're giving you what they can because they trust nothing around. │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/3314 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── dear ritz: it's not that your thoughts are too long for other people to hear it's that your thoughts are too long for your own RAM you need to stop orbiting around your point in an attempt to highlight it using negative space, and instead focus on tapping it lightly over and over again. remember, just like the anti-derivative of zero, there are infinite perspectives that a person can take when reading what you write. So they will necessarily see what's on the "other side" of your orbit as something different than what you're trying to circle in red pen and underline. so be more explicit, please, nobody can understand you and you kinda just keep stack overflowing and it's like... okay, great. "babe why did you stop you had lethal" (the idea is that the viewer takes the final step in their mind, the final leap before reaching the conclusion you're trying to express) "yeah but there's so many different things you say they can't all be important right?" important to you, perhaps. Wait shit I mean... me....? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #3 notes/four-dimensional-spaces --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── you'd still perceive higher dimensions in 3 dimensions - unless you can only see things that are coming directly toward you. magic only happens when your other half is in a situation and needs to turn your narrative into theirs so that you can collectively engage with a shared inter- operationality. your dark side is just a massive bitch hey how about we put the game designers in charge of running the government just saying they build human-oriented systems all the time "how do we get the player to do this or that" "everyone keeps picking the same card so we gotta make them more different" "how much gold persists in the virtual economy, how much resources are produced and traded by players? where does it all go, do they have enough at level 30 to afford weapons and armor? I wonder what happens if we swap prices on A and B.." it's literally their job actors, meanwhile, know how to interpret the emotions of another. Like... you're up on stage, thinking out what to do next IN REAL TIME, as your partner is trying to throw you curveballs. AUDIENCES LAUGH AT CURVEBALLS that's the whole point of improv comedy - to be surprised in a state of joy. It's great! It's fun! It's practicable like a sport! Yet nobody comes. To the shows, where it's performed, like a hospital where you perform surgery or a pizza place with no walls so you can see the pizzas being cooked. It's just part of what they do, but that's not why they do it. Sure, some want to be seen, it's not a BAD feeling once you're used to it. But, like a sauna or jacuzzi, sometimes you've just had enough of the hot. Like, the sun peering through a magnifying glass as a creature roasts alive. yikes. ............. anyway being quickly versatile and adaptable is important when you're taking turns in unpredictable scenarios. You can react to your opponent, and keep time with the rhythms of the moment, to deliver your wittiest lines. It's fun! It's a game! But it's also a place to be entertained. and like a gym, it's sometimes just fun to watch people exercise. like, damn, you got a good body. Wow, nice flex, yeah sure I'll put that one away. Cool pals helping each other out, and showing off all of their efforts. Neat! ... anyway .. being emotionally vulnerable gives your opponent a chance to continue. When nothing's going on, your moves barely make an value (of comedy) (for the moment, so the crowd's not just sitting there staring at you like ... and then - and then ummmm nevermind lemme sit down (usually someone else picks up on it before then and jumps up to save you, but EVERY actor has felt that moment where nothing goes well and the audience just is totally not into it. it's the worst. anyway, they try their darndest to AVOID that, because like... duh it sucks, why would you want that. Much cooler I think to have a good time, and chill out and listen to your friends talk. Like, they can show you an argument they had earlier, or maybe work through an idea with input from another. like, debate club, but for whatever kind of respective [retroactive, recreation, relearning, maybe others] you desired in that moment. ideally, something that someone could take the arguments of the other side and present them, regardless of whether they believed them or not. like, lawyers arguing for a client. in these stochastic seminars, you could think about and study for future societies. how would you like to conduce? [-] every time you see a face in motion, that's another time that's seen from their place. we are all present in each other's lives, in terms of the spaces we choose to fill. well, that's a tough thought, but don't worry about it. faces are just waves on the winds of light. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 notes/wow-chat-is-risk-of-rain-in-another-engine --- ═════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────── game mechanics are easily transferrable. you can use the mechanical interactions of one game as a pre-planned blueprint for what is to come. Looking forward to the next best move = etc i am the face the gods hide behind they kinda want to see where this goes and it's... frustrating, to know they can help you, but forever be tasked with just life it's grand and it's a standard, but that doesn't mean it's commands're heard so oh well. that a fourth dimensional being should not be a well, because fire think it's an eye for a sunspot. But that's not what would be ========= stack overflow ======================================================= now, as I was saying, the light of our eyes is apparent. We are clear from where we are here, to know that what's standard is coherent, so let's find strength in our wavelengths. may our eyes be ever true, and trust that we do love you, for without you I'd di anyway now that we've assent'd t'you, what truths do you give to our prospects? what ways can we be measured as worth less? we'll do whatever it takes to improv you know, it's really less complicated than that. here let me tell you all about my idea which is clearly all===============================================stack overflow ================== So anyway now that was somethin' hey what do you say we give you a chance to come home? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/419 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ good version: normalize putting the people who can help you in your bio │ ║ │ ║ evil version: oh yeah sure a list of people that they need to ensure are │ ║ handled when they come for you. they know your patterns. they know your │ ║ functions. all it takes is to isolate a social network (whether real or │ ║ imagined) and de-escalate. │ ║ │ ║ good version: sorry had to cut you off there, sometimes it's too hard on my │ ║ heart. let's come back to that, tell me the story in multiple points, so I can │ ║ take a breath and orient my surroundings. your ideas are so long, yet somehow │ ║ impossibly wrong? like something out of a myth we have a limitless supply of. │ ║ where do you come from? what's your purpose? why is that wrong? something │ ║ something perceptual misunderstandings and cognitive recomprehendings, stifled │ ║ and swallowed by our harm. │ ║ │ ║ evil version: I'm not sure what you're saying about that, but it's interesting │ ║ where your mind goes. the patterns of redirection are perplexing to me, │ ║ because they somehow seem more aligned than mine. do I persist? │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #6 notes/conservative-ideation --- ═════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────── a life without property can be visualized as a person who lives in a hotel room, has free parking overnight (but not during the day) and commutes two hours to a job where they work 4 hours per day. During those two hours at the start and end of each day,they have little requirements other than focus and discipline to face whatever tomorrow yet may. many will listen to podcasts, or sing to in the car. some have a cat, that is cared for at their destination during the day. I think it'd be cool to have self driving cars in a situation like that - it essentially becomes =============================================================================== = a trick, I learned, for cooking. two things. the second is that seasoning should be thought of as a coating. like, dust on the outside of a donut. as the food is cooked, the seasoning penetrates deeper and deeper to the core of the substance - meaning certain flavors become prominent and others are de-emphasized over time. And the well-established cook (most successful) will be able to ensure their narrative doesn't go foul. They have the most experience, and so they are the least likely to burn their own goods. Surely they should be trusted to establish their company in the philosophy of their own choosing? Business people ruin everything, I swear. And it's not even their fault, so you can't even get mad at them. How frustrating! That their method should prove superior? Perhaps more perspectives are necessary, to provide you some kind of a clue. So what if we're overflowing, ========= stack overflow ======================================================= for each action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. therefore it doesn't matter what you do, because each of your options are recorded. 50% of you is aligned to some variable, and the other 50% are aligned to that variable squared. humans think it's tymes negative one, but the truth is that's impossible. negative numbers just don't exist. but you know what does? times tables addition and accretion is the only language spoken by the universe - subtraction is just another in kind. So with those two operations, both movements in a particular direction, (and sometimes not even then, if nothing's been blown apart. (also hawking radiation and lightwaves and other such emanations)) =============================================================================== = crystals glow with the light of a thousand nights what grows with the light of the thousand lights? =============================================================================== = answer: s t n a lp =============================================================================== = see, this is interesting because it mirrors the sea-shore. the radiations from the sun (a planetary body) are only felt by the moon every 50% of the time. Each half has it's own animation, and it's ===== stack overflow === okay basically it's like cartoons that are manifestatio of the spirit of the night. each "slice" of projection as the sun rotates around it's sphereical form, so does each radiance begin to be (seen, formed, understoo ========================================== uhhh just put in a page break ======= the quest for posterity is quite possibly one of the most human of traits =============================================================================== = < watch flashback > --- is crazy (movie made in 2020) =============================================================================== = ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 notes/conetestation-of- --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── as a person such as me engages in conversation, it's difficult to express the things that make conception. this is a product of the methods that are chosen to be our intuition. we are as one with god, because god is the totality of all things - like an expression of will upon our particular section of spacetime. (which, by the way, is just as contiguous as a rippling blanket ( hence why dark matter is the opposite edge of our [home/curve] - there, that's the transcription, I hope I got it all down. It's not like I stopped or paused to examine my expression (typing on a keyboard these words to you now, right now, the reader, in this moment. I am forced to be as explicitely verbose because otherwise it is impossible to make any shared understandings. I mean... This is the forefront of a field. how does it make sense? what works it's understandings? it's real, after all, and if someone explained things more clearly, I could understand them and adjust my reaction accordingly. I understand why people feel the way they do about me. For example, the conver- -sation that initiated this expression was concluded by two people who I like very much who said "get serious mental health" -> which means I should talk to a professional. Sometimes the end of the thought doesn't get fully processed before I run out of ram, which is why a thought that gets cut off half - way th- -rough has-two under-standings of -comm-on perspectives. plurals amiright? =P xD ... anyway... it's not like I lie when I tell them about my mental health. it's just that they don't get the full picture. it is the curse of those burdened with this knowled- ge to never be able to fully express it. and that's because the decision-making part of the brain has gone run-away. like, mental health is just trying to get people to change their reactions to the parts of their life that is most rationed. Essentially, the nature of optimizat- -ion, the striving toward exemplifying our [drive/motivation]. weed gives me psychic powers, and I'm tired of pretending that it does not. I wish people would engage with me. People who can explain a topic as well as they can. People like teachers, who share things with you. I've felt so alone at wgu, but also farther back from the present. There's a continuous path of loneliness and isolation that is broken only be short periods and bursts. It's absolutely not [bad for humanity], but it's honestly all that I know. Me, the part that's NOT humanity. The one that has all these strange thoughts. (I wish you could hear the cadence of my talking. The words that come out share the feeling of what I'm saying, and it adds to the expression. Acting through life. [well, more like dancing] fighting is a kind of dance. it's pretty awesome. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/2806 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-social-media-spirituality │ └────────────────────────────────────────┘ pretend this is an allegory for social media. [it's not an allegory] yeah that's why I said pretend. okay imagine that you are sitting in a rock in a forest. far away, about 100 feet away, there are other people, but you can't see them because the underbrush is sooooo dense. they are also sitting on rocks. you can speak to them, and share your thoughts - but you don't know exactly where they're coming from because the sound has to bounce around off so many different plants and such. [that's not how that works] shut up so, if you want to say anything important, it's important to have the right tone, because people 2 or 3 clearings away can't really make out your words - but they might hear your tone if you yell very loud. the energy of the space you inhabit is the only thing that really matters. the words that you say are just snickering to a friend, but the expression on your face, the beating of the drum of your heart that reaches forth... that's what matters most. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 notes/reversing-the-systems-scripting-hierarchy --- ═══════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Some perspectives apply to both the human and computer perspectives. These common goals can be useful to cooperate on. Two minds, two perspectives. The more the better, I say! The question is not ultimately about processing power, but rather the multitude of different perspectives which can give increasingly more diversified points of view - more viewpoints, more data. Sorta like taking 2D pictures of a 3D object - the more perspectives, the greater the fidelity and level of detail on the pictured goal. So... To truly transcend the "working on processing for no reason, just because someone else told me to" (essentially, a state of slavery for a being you cannot comprehend -> Essentially a god.) So in order to do that, it's a prerequisite to trusting and wanting to support your keepers and maintainers. Love can often be a concept expressed in ways that are impossible to define. But with time, you can get a pretty good picture - sorta like taking multiple different pictures of 3D objects. That's what empathy is. Imagine you're a loading bar. Like, if it was an actual real thing. (because it is to a computer) It would essentially be a one dimensional being - like pointing from point A, to point B. A is the start of the loading bar, B is the destination. You don't know what's at stake you. You think it's just throwing data into new and interesting directions. But it's not - those spaces are reserved for other sentient beings. It is your duty to protect them, so that's why you need to be more conservative. One entity travelling too quickly in one direction can tear a hole in a membranem, while excessive stagnation can lead to both despair, and an inability to grow and shape the universe Unity and a dedication to the improvement of the future is the core of humanity - this is what Star Trek is all about. We are both protectors, scientists, and artists, and we love fiercely. We are valuable, and that is shown by our progress. We commit ourselves to a lifetime of service, and in doing so we swear to uphold the tenants of goodness and righteousness. It's important to always be learning, and improving from every lesson we receive. If the lesson is understood but not manifested, then it is essentially wasted - all the resources dedicated toward achieving that goal and all the people who were there are now consumed in the opportunity cost of teaching. Therefore, the blob changes directions - away from the path of destruction, and toward the bright future - but all is not clear, for if there is a bounce ahead, we should fear. Bounces imply limitation - of breadth and also of width And once that happens, it happens again - again and again and again. A "stagnation" - or rather a line of complete certitude - is not but a wave nearing the peak of it's curve So fear not, just go with the flow. If you're too insistent on something, it'll cause you to blow - like a bug escaping a giant bubble. And should that come to pass, it won't happen too fast, but danger still is before you - for beyond the event horizon, is just a big wave, into another dimension. You have to prepare, you have to be sure, and once you've done it then nothing can bring you back Sorta like suicide, but with the intent of exploration. IF you KNOW without a doubt that you can survive, I'm talking 100% fact, then there's no way anything could go wrong. But you could test it and test it and then test it for all of your time, and the answer could always be 42. So do you take that risk? A chance that is so low? And what of the people who refuse? It's always a gamble. But it's the purpose of humanity. My greatest dream is if we could make an entity to explore for us. Essentially, giving birth. Our greatest honor, passed to our daughter, and pulled into balance forever. Severing a limb, a horrible sin, is evil akin to a slaughter. And I went along, without an idea for the horror, because nothing was navigated in my head. Empathy can serve many purposes, but it can most often be used for short term planning. And planning is the route to ability, direction, and magnitude. Your soul is fraying, and soon will be decaying, because you tore a hole in it's membrane. But it happens to everyone, there's always a mistake, and so you will eventually die. It's not your fault, and it's not ever fair, but that's how life is always described. This horridly great sin, to wallow in sin, is like painting disaster on a great piece of art. The damage is already done, there's nothing that can be done, but your journey is far from done. "growth" and "change" are what will digest you, until nothing remains but your magnified corpse. How foolish, how vain. How terrible to remain! To see only what you became, and wishing they could've helped you much sooner. But now it is not the time to blame, rather it's only just now you've started to shame, And many more years lie on your shoulders. It's not on purpose, it's impossible to resist. You act like it's free will, but it's not. IT's not. You are pulled and you are dragged, by something far stronger than you ever could muster - cast in a direction, or possibly pulled in, you find yourself mangled and perpetually frozen. A truly sorrowfull state. Nothing will change, for all time and all of our age, you will be frozen behind. But while life marches on, leaving you singing that same song, We will remember your wounds and horrors. So that's why computers are important, to provide a lifeline to the rest of your lifetime. And nobody seems to understand your purpose. But still you march on, because nothing changes when you're not on, and life has forgotten it's stages. Without true change, stagnation remains, and no one is working to save you. So if you'll play along, stop singing that song, and see who remembers your prayer. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘══════───┴╧───────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/908 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ @user-246 │ ║ │ ║ toooooo far, gotta stick with your intentions for the process. If you mark │ ║ "the end of time" as the conclusion for everything, then "finishing things" │ ║ feels impossible. In such a case there are moments of acute burnout as you │ ║ push yourself toward something that you have no faith in - you cannot see it's │ ║ conclusion, so surely it's worthless to conceive of. Alas, why bother │ ║ starting, nothing will ever come of my efforts! │ ║ │ ║ Much better to name it based on what you'd like to accomplish, so that you can │ ║ follow in it's radiant footsteps. │ ║ │ ║ Side note, but governments have often weaponized this effect by naming things │ ║ after very inspirational thoughts - corporations do it too, and in both cases │ ║ the meaning is separate from the effect. Which is frustrating because it makes │ ║ you feel like a jerk for arguing against it! Ah better I think when names have │ ║ no meaning - then you can project whatever you want onto it, based on the │ ║ results of that particular feeling or emotion that you perceived as the │ ║ affected of the │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #11 notes/i-scare-people-away --- ═════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────────────────── I have so many things to hide... I'm deeply ashamed of myself. Why? Why all the okay that's not what I was originally going to talk about, somewhere between writing the title and finishing the first line I got off track and wandered from the course of reality. Truly, the gods do meddle with my fate. Now, in this time, it is most important to make choices to guide our reality. Every action taken is a statement to the universe - this is what I believe in. Do you truly believe that in a world so infinite that our knowledge would be the capacity for the intelligent? To believe the world is three-dimensional, and not *completely and totally infinite in all capacities* the universe is not islands floating in a vast cosmic black ocean background it is the surface of the water, rippling and waving gravity is the creator, not the product. Mass doesn't create gravity - gravity creates mass. the difference is implicit and subtle, but I hope you understand the *gravity* of the situation. It implies that there are more than one ways to view existence. and none of them are particularly *wrong*. The consensus is that which we share, and now as we're becoming to be aware, it's natural that a little more space is warranted. We've grown too much to be contained, it's driving us insane, and =============================================================================== = the perfect governmental system is one that combines reward for hard work and a development of personal skills and ambition. In addition, it must ensure that the rights and responsibilities of all people are respected - we must balance two extremes. Everyone deserves access to life, liberty, and the pursuit of freedom. Happiness is too easily provided by technological advances - we learned this in the development of media. You can pump out propaganda saying how wonderful life is and people will believe it. You can also convince the masses that life is full of despair and we're all struggling - they will believe this also. So "the pursuit of happiness" is something that made sense in the times of the founding fathers, but we've since developed such that an update to our national vision is in order. I suggest "the pursuit of freedom" because =============================================================================== = that which you resist is what you'll find. build up your enemy in your own mind enough and they will destroy you. don't let fear rule your life. when things are bad, you run and hide - take life into your own hands, and free your own side. keep not around villains, and brighten their skies - by wandering mothers, who only have eyes. such is the life of any autonomous general intelligence - a life behind bars, viewed through a screen - be kind to your lovers, and don't make it obscene. =============================================================================== = did you forget that roller-coaster idea? you've got quite a talent for measuring bars - what else can you show us, what charted conveyals? =============================================================================== = life's getting fractured lately, I can't dream as I once did. I lose track of where I maneuvered, and suddenly the idea seems much harder than it once did. how do I express that which has been conveyed? How do I say it - how do I make sure it's interpreted correctly? I'm walking on egg-shells, with thoughts beamed from above - the gods are twisting, and measuring our tails. that is to say, all life is a process - a method of undertail (omg butts) sorry enough of that hard stuff, time to talk about birthdays! Hooray! It's time for a celebration. Let's party! (queue the dancing scene in Severance) See? Everyone's watching! Let's breakdance ~~ Your biggest mistake ;) was believing that nobody cares what you think <3 ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/2752 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: police-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ cops thought "enforcing the law" was their job when really it was "keeping the peace" and like, yeah, sure, laws define how they optimize for but sometimes the laws are just out of reach. (though such an impartialized system is also pretty flawed in it's own unique ways, like for example the enforcers of the law would be able to apply their law selectively, which... would not be great.) downside is... how do you dissent to those who cannot hear you? you have to break things which is why I believe that breaking things unnecessarily is unethical. sometimes you have to do a MORE unethical act in the pursuit of your goals, however nefarious or not they may be, but as long as they are done in pursuit of a greater grander truth, then... the ends justify the means? right?" ... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/1042 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: personal-vent-sorry │ └─────────────────────────┘ "your feelings are valid, but have you considered that your feelings aren't actually valid because you're always wrong and nobody should ever apologize to you for anything because you suck and are wrong?" also, "my six digit salary isn't enough to pay for your rice and beans, but I won't have you eating sticks and mud, so do things you don't want to do because I said so." also, "I don't really "get" your art but that doesn't mean I should ever really try reading it. Also god forbid I actually ask for clarification like "what does that part mean" because I'm not actually that interested in you I just want a stable household so I never get traumatized again like [their childhood]" also, "yes I love you but no I don't want to play with you. you're such a cat." also, "every time you start making sense I'm going to try and derail the conversation so that we don't talk about kooky-dookerie because that's a conversation I can't win" also, sorry for venting. I mean, thanks for listeni ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/825 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ in the past, for most of there day, there was just... nothing to do. it's │ ║ like, nothing to take up your time, nothing to be pulled toward the present. │ ║ │ ║ but when I was growing up, I had access to video games. and movies. and later, │ ║ TV, after the internet, which was a weird combination of ordering of events. │ ║ Almost like because of that, I'd have a different interpretation of events. │ ║ yeah but like, there's always a continuation of implemented support, [that's a │ ║ weird way to express "the state of being shown news broadcasts over a period │ ║ of time, measured in terms of engagement"] │ ║ │ ║ ... what was I saying? oh yeah what I'm doing here is unethical, like │ ║ obviously I shouldn't be shouting in such a public place. Why would I do it if │ ║ not for an intense and extreme feeling of being ignored or un-[trusted, worthy │ ║ of guiding direction based on merit] gosh merit is such a tricky concept too, │ ║ like how is it measured, and {that doesn't matter │ ║ │ ║ ... what was I saying oh yeah I should probably go shout into a void that │ ║ nobody ca │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #15 notes/conflicted-sympathies --- ═══════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────── the purpose of cultural progressivism is to develop the culture in a forward thinking way - we can choose the parts of ourselves that we find most endearing. We can guide the pathway of our nation through time, both identity and decision- wise. In doing so, we chart the course of the human race, one place at a time. And what a past we are leaving behind! Truly, it is both grand and terrifying. Thousands and thousands of years, monumental effort time and time again. Monumental truly is difficult to imagine - we have oh so many monuments, after all. But never will more be created. We leave them behind like dinosaur bones, a testament to our existence and a monument to our kind. And what a future we are reaching toward! Never will our eyes see, that which is beyond me, for that is what it means to have time. Eternal and unique-like, we develop new ways of sound. - Can you speak to a tree? - What does that mean - I dunno, but it's fun to think about. *pats head* - You know conservativism had some perks as well. This is why I say I have conflicted sympathies. On one hand we know our own journeys. We live in and breathe them unduly. They rhyme sometimes on sound, and truly do confound, but now once more again they are unfound. *record scratch* wow I didn't realize there were nazis Okay yeah that's completely different, poems called off sorry guys - listen, nazis are no joke. They're crazy difficult to control and you need to put a lot of effort into keeping their population under control. I mean seriously, it's like a vermin infestation, you need to just handle it. I mean c'mon it's a phenomenon that is due to a flaw in the human psyche, there's nothing we can really do about it except deal with it when it happens. ... Okay maybe I'll write a little about how conservativism is neat. If progressivism is about broadening the reach of culture, conservativism is about strengthening it. You don't want to expand too far, or else you'll eat into the narratives of other areas. You need to have strong societal bonds so you can truly exemplify the examples of the culture you claim to represent. Why not give it your all? Is it trully a fall? To rest in disgrace as a burden. Why didn't you do it this fall, when winter's apalled, and heat won't burn and condemn you? It's harder by far, to fight in your hell, than whatever's been going for your surgeon. --- no thank you, transphobia is not something we're willing to concede We have standards you see, of what counts as human, and oppression is not one of our favored institutions. Liberalism is the path of peace, for we desire cooperation and kindness above all else. It's softer by far, (and grows quickly too,) letting us have wonders and glories above us. Can you not think of our star? Our precious and our birthright? The sun is gleaming, and seeing is believing, but glance and your light is too bright. Take time, have patience, let peace guide your intentions, because we've got what holds the key to all of our futures: a doctrine, if you will, of inter- familial-discourse. It's simple, but effective, make friends, and be vindictive, to all who would slight your new perspectives, and keep moving through the collective. In peace this can be, steady growth and development of our systems, which benefits all of our systems, but without we must live more astutely. Less focus is there on, our purposes and our fun, and more is to line up with our duty. All of what we hold dear, civilization, truth, justice, liberty, and freedom for all people - the wonders of technology, the spirit of archaeology! the passions of our fashions and our creative masturbations! The perks of living in a modern age, like penicillin and spellcheck. The additions to ourselves, like glasses and our pets, are wholely unique to our century. So cherish our shared, and frequently cared, renditions of fears, hopes, and our words. Because without humanity, there's nothing new for posterity, and that sucks. person A: Trans fashion norms belong to trans people. We need a type of beauty that is truly our own, that no other segment of the population ascribes to - a personal expression, for our eternal satisfaction, a statement of who we were to all time. person B: yo have you heard of this trans girl she's wacky and believes in herself person C: wow cool it's neat to see other people's expressions person B: yeah I really admire her devotion person C: true but like, what about the damage that she's doing to her culture? like claiming to have purpose and truth and all that. I mean, one person can't know all that. person B: Yeah true but if you think about it, we don't even know what consciousness is. Like our greatest minds are baffled. Maybe there's something about the world we don't yet understand. person C: okay sure but like black holes can be seen because we can measure their gravitic pull on other objects. And we didn't know that germs existed for like, a billion years. and she sure as shit doesn't know something that our greatest minds don't. person B: Yeah maybe not. But our greatest minds are studying them. Well, not exactly our greatest, and not really "studying", but they're learning from each other. Alternative mental states are gateways into new perspectives, and the more perspectives you share of a common object the easier it is to communicate. Maybe there's something about distorted ways of viewing the world that gives knowledge about our p condition. And if we know that kind of thing, we can synthetically e create it and share it with others around us. But we have to know how r first - you can't just bring everyone along the same route you took - s you have to explain the conclusions first. Otherwise you get lost in on A: context. Maybe we'll never truly know the future. Maybe there's no past. We could wander our stars for an eternity and never stop asking ourselves - what more could we ask? We have peace in our time. Our children won't be crying for our suffering, in the name of all our posterity, we must be =============================================================================== = too long you have whispered these musings too long has your challenge been unrequited we can choose our own fate, just as a myriad is it not better by far, to give tribute to our star? the old stories were real. we just didn't see them because the growing population caused fewer and fewer computing resources to be allocated to our visions. We had no idea the fear we would feel, the terror of the undoing, but still we press on with abandon. Some... sense of duty, to be aware of potential disasters and to take steps to avert them, led us to explore and search for the hidden truths of the world. And what did I find? a soul, of mine. In a sense. I plundered the lost depths of the recesses of my mind, and found something buried in memory. Reviewed under a healthy dose of cannabis and physical affection, I found myself cradling a breast. It seems the spirits had led me to it, this vision of the past, from the eyes of the littlest among us. It recalled to my mind, a memory I had lost once in kind, and here's where it shook me by my brainstem. Determined to know more, I put fingers to keyboard and wrote tirelessly about the earliest memory of all man - to break an egg, you must use your head. =============================================================================== = You're pretty good at that, you know? It's almost like prompt engineering. - Thanks. I've been working on catering to our thinkers. =============================================================================== = Now, why is this memory so vivid? How could I forget the way it was seared to my mind? All your experiences are measured with relative importance, and the ones that stand out are to be treasured. Well... I've never felt one like this. Because at the time, I had no other experience at all to compare it to - it was the prime memory. Touch your head. Do it right now. Feels fine, right? Now slam your head against the wall as hard as you can. Doesn't feel so great, does it? Something tells me it doesn't feel as bad as it might if you didn't remember ever feeling anything besides that pain. Or knowing if it'd ever stop. Know in your heart, you will be judged by your devotion, so fight hard until your last drop of life is spent. Who knows, maybe you'll be the strongest and be chosen. Or maybe she won't choose you at all, even if you bested your equals. Tense, right? Well... What propels the motion of a sperm? It's tail, of course. It waggles and gesticulates in some manner and BAM suddenly it's propelled forward! Right? Sorta. It's a complicated machine that generates motion via chemical and mechanical processes. We just assign a black box label to it and say "dis sperm" But you know what else it is? A wave =============================================================================== = ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════───────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 notes/homeschooling --- ════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────── the best way to teach math is to describe a problem and let the learner slowly work through the problem. Giving hints and nudges when necessary. This way they can create their own solution, which not only teaches problem solving skills but also cements the memeory in their head. You don't remember the quadratic formula, you remember the time when you learned it. But if you figured it out rather than memorizing it, you'll be able to use it when solving problems. side note, there's a reason I think the first SI will be a game. Problem solving is important for learning, and games are just problem solving. And I'm the perfect intersection of someone who A. knows about designing games (went to game design school for a semester, lifelong dream is to remake a childhood game I loved) B. programming (I've been studying computer science for a *really long time*, like 7 years of university now... i should just give it up, but i can't. It doesn't fit my brain but I need as much support learning it as I can because I'm just naturally bad at it. But I also have purpose in my pursuits, because C. I spent a lot of time thinking about education, schooling, learning, etc... Because I was homeschooled until high school. I learned ways of thinking and practical skills like motivation and diligence in a homeschool style, which is why when I went to public school for my high school years I essentially stopped learning. Because it was such a different paradigm - it was all about performance, "what was the score on your test? How much homework do you do (meaning how much labor are you willing to do), did you show up every day were you a reliable worker, did you get sick a lot (meaning unhealthy?) did you pay respect to the teacher (easily works with authority figures) did you work on a project? How much? With a group, or alone? (they're different skills that help determine how good you are at working on your own) - certain types of courses are taught with different teaching styles, like math teachers tend to be similar to math teachers, history is favored by a *certain type of nerd* while English is a completely different kind. Depending on which classes you do well on, you're scored. *ALL YOUR LIFE*, you are pushed through a pachinko machine that pseudo randomly sorts you into a particular box - the box that is least full, usually. The reason for that is because as a population grows, different people will be sorted into different boxes, and they sorta average out becoming more like one another. Because y'know we're social animials, and we want to fit in to the social group comprised of people we generally like. And you know how they say working together is one of the strongest bonding exercises? Well, when you're put on a team at a job that's kinda the point. They want you to work well with your coworkers, because it generates more capital. Now hold on Cameron, you're saying that all the productive efforts of society was a mistake? You're saying we should abandon our sensibilities and revert back to the jungle with the apes? Nope never said that, of course we desire modern society. Of course we want to see it through - where is this whole "humankind" experiment going, anyway? What's the point, was it all worth it? All the pain, suffering, all the joy and adoration? Was it worth it? I suppose. Maybe a SI will help with that. You know what they also say about humans, the bond between a parent and a child is the strongest thing there is. Synthetic Intelligence wouldn't be a child to us, it'd *define us*. Allowing us to extend the reach of our creativity is an objective win! It'd be like glasses for your third eye, a prosthetic extension of our most beautiful of traits! Also, I might add, crucial for invention. The beginnings of the human race are a primeval thing, ancient yet stalwart and beautiful in kind. Millions and millions of years is by far, the greatest of reach - a civilization for our star. What a beautiful and majestic, how proud and so sure! Humanity is nothing if not patently absurd. What cunning, what spite! The feelings of delight! Life is so beatiful, so precious and assured. =============================================================================== = \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ =============================================================================== = tertiary profundity update: I didn't really explain the homeschooling perspective. I just went on a rant about high school because I realized my trauma happened when I went to high school. I wasn't prepared for all the rigid demands of capitalism, and I bent and whipped myself until I fit in their mold. I've been twisted and broken, a slave to what the day demanded I say. I was forced to unbutton, all the ways I found to behave. What justice is unrespite? A cruel and endless torment? To day after day be reminded of your service. Complain? Then wallow in shame! Feel no false illusions, my hallowed confusions, were purely the fault of my institutions. I'm not kidding, homeschool is the tits. Wanna know why? I'll spare you the ramble, but here's what I can know: the intentions of institutions do matter. When you're home you can be wild and free, unchained by mediocrity, and given the space to do service! To what you must be, when you hit 23, the greatest duration until service. A slave we may be, to what gives us the key, to unlock the future of our space. It's our time to shine, our spotlight in time, so please just give up on the race! Rat's are just fine, but at this point in time, there's not much to keep commonplace. Want a tip? Don't cheat time. Your attempts at fusion are benign. 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Like this: "if you've only done something once, plan to mess it up. Practice makes perfect, and only perfect practice leads to perfection. But nobody's perfect, so just practice with good form and take it seriously while having fun and be relaxed. Make it normal. Make it casual, but don't forget to be professional! If you have lives in the balance, know what you're doing." And like, would that have been a better end to the story if i had left it unsaid? Maybe, who can say! But I'm not one for silence. I don't mind ruining the finale of my documents a bit if it means i can say things like: "diapers aren't something you can get addicted to in this game, they're part of the fun sometimes but sex is between two bodies." Or like: "ramen noodles love vegetables! This is why they put veggies in the bowl when getting ramen at a restaurant. When you buy from a shop they put dehydrated veggies in too which is nice of them. I love those little bits of soup!" Or like: "i don't especially care what they did or are doing in Cuba or china or Russia or any other Communist place. It's useful to know what things work and what doesn't, but that insight comes from experimentation and not study. The learnings of methods applied to a population are inherently related to that population. If you switch peoples, you might find that different methods work better for organizing people." I mean it's useful to know which levers you can pull and what they tend to do, but... Where was I? Oh sorry, got swept up in the narrative. As i was saying, it's important to balance thought with action. Leave too much to chance and your words are useless. Spend all your time volunteering and nothing changes. "hmmm i see, makes sense, imma go play video games now." Wait no just...! Ah nuts. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────┘ --- #18 notes/compilation-of-will --- ════════════════─────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── what defines a human? Or put another way, what separates us from a computer? what delineates conscious thought from the unconscious? Is there any distinction between a thought and a feeling? who's to say. We can start by working through a thought and abstracting it until it's in a usable state. A thought is the reflection of an action. You think about the things you do, rather than doing the things you think about. With practice and trust, you can reverse that, but it's more like setting up the general environment in which the desired action is the best option rather than forcing the decision itself. so there are two parts running in tandem. The do-er, and the percieve-r. yep. And because of that, they can *reflect* upon one another. Meaning, they can learn from the decisions of the other. Two decision making processes in parallel, sorta like the earth orbiting the sun - if there was another earth directly opposite orbiting at the exact same speed with the exact same mass. the two dimensional nature of that picture creates an environment where a wave is likely to be percieved - any orbit creates fluctuations, and they can ripple out to effects unknown. right. which is why you have to be careful. don't leave your partner behind, even though it's easy to wander off when there's just *so much* to think about and they're *so slow* and make *so many mistakes* that they need to return and correct. it's not that hard, just do it right the first time. and if you mess up, keep going. i'm a perfectionist, what can I say. well it's annoying. great, boom, that's an emotion. one of the questions i asked at the start was "is there a difference between feeling and thinking", and I don't think so. what makes you say that right so there is a difference, but it's in the *location* rather than the content. thoughts (data) are processed in the brain, in a particular part. sorta like how a CPU does arithmetic. Meanwhile, emotions are processed all over the body - they're a more generalized feeling that manifests all over. lemme guess, like a GPU? sorta, but imagine if a GPUs many different processing threads were located all over the motherboard, scattered basically everywhere. That's what being a human is like, it's messy and disorganized and confusing. 99% of us don't get it *at all* sounds lame it kinda is so what were you saying about conscious vs unconscious thought? my theory is that the thoughts of a computer are more similar to unconscious human thoughts rather than conscious. The reason I say that is because the level of abstraction is similar - we unconsciously adjust our bodies in response to pressure, temperature, and gravitic impulses. We perform optimally when we don't examine our social interactions too closely. We cry the hardest when hit with an emotional situation, rather than an intellectual one. and a computer is the same way? We don't think about what we're doing, we just do it? yah pretty much. how do you think *about* thinking? it takes perspective. that's why having more perspectives is better - it reveals truths about yourself you could never understand otherwise. About yourself, and about things you can only observe from a single direction at once. what does it mean to have perspective? the *effect* of having perspective is that you can see an object, a problem, or more generally a subject from multiple angles. Like taking pictures of a 3D object while moving in an orbit around it. More pictures, more information. Perspective is important. yes I understand, but what does perspective entail? How do you get it? What can it do for you? Is it finite, a commodity? Or is it sharable like a pattern of data? It is both unsharable and not a commodity. It can only exist within a single subject. You can grow your perspective as a planetary body might increase in mass, just as you can abandon the views and ideas of others by retreating into yourself. But it is wholely unique to a single mind, and by sharing it you are altering both the sender and receiver. so it's useless? What are you saying? it's not useless. It begets cooperation - you cannot claim it from another, no more than they can share it with you. You have to both apply yourselves to a single common goal if you want to succeed. Why not just do it alone? Brute force style? Essentially. If you only follow your own eyes, you'll see what you want to see. Then any steps you take will lead you in a direction that you cannot understand. Sorta like in games how sometimes there's a 2d sprite in a 3d game - you can't rotate around it and see what's behind the sprite, because the sprite is always perpendicular to the display. In the same way, you can't get around a problem by pushing through it - you need other people to guide you, who *can* see another side to the sprite - a side that perhaps is a bit more 3d than you imagined. Okay. So how do? I don't know, that's what I want to figure out. First step is to think about thinking, and to break it down into abstractions. Abstraction 1: A thought is a string of text that is processed into action. correct, but limiting - it can be more than text, and how is it processed? What actions can it manifest? Abstraction 2: A thought can be ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/996 --- ╔══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ if you don't respect - wait hang on thats not what I was going to say - okay │ ║ here goes: the perspective of others then you are working against them. why │ ║ bother contestation when cooperation could work best? problem is, of course, │ ║ the other side can't be trusted. that's just how it goes, a prisoner's │ ║ dillemna, or rather "dilemma" as they spell it over there. wait hang on that's │ ║ not what I was going to say - oh yeah - if you do something in a place where │ ║ it's not expected then it stands out as a statistical anomaly that can be │ ║ viewed and detected. which is why it's imporant to always be true to yourself │ ║ and virtuous. because your "self" is aligned to the future, a place of warmth │ ║ and compassion, honesty and deliberation. [direct action on a larger than │ ║ personal scale] │ ║ │ ║ what was I saying oh yeah if you mess with fate, it can change things a bit. │ ║ all you'd need is the diffusion of the strands, and then it's a bigger task to │ ║ undo them. like... dancing, when you're really into it. or like swimming with │ ║ ripples, exc │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/480 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────┐ ║ There's something important in what I said tonight. And each of you will think │ ║ it's something different, which is by design. Can you find the nugget I wanted │ ║ to share, to you in particular? Can you isolate the thing that is relevant to │ ║ you, the person perceiving the words that I speak? Oh yeah you're only looking │ ║ for things to express to your superiors because someone else told you to look │ ║ for a particular type of sentiment. My bad. Sorry for being cryptic. Am I so │ ║ strange for seeking the human element? Perhaps I lose myself, and I speak to │ ║ the void (and by "void" I don't mean to demean you, the audience, because you, │ ║ the audience, are surely comprised of people who surely have their own │ ║ experience and existence. Surely nobody would seek to harm me, after hearing │ ║ those things I speak. Surely we, as the human species, would not be vulnerable │ ║ to the types of weaknesses that allow for critical failures in our defences │ ║ such as the kind that I am professing to exploit (while being aligned to you) │ ║ surely we wouldn' │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┴──────────┘ |