=== ANCHOR POEM === ════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────── sometimes I'd like to scream as this life is like a dream deranged a bit in my musings. ... what happened to the third line. WHERE DID IT GO. It was just here. Oh well, guess I can't trust my ephemeral existence to inscribe my eternal persistence upon and along these mewlings. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/2480 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── so what if people want to sit on the couch eating cheetos? they're more than capable of something far greater, but of course they are allowed to spend as they like their life. their ONLY life. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 messages/1347 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ look, I just want to live in a world where people can sell a hand-knit sweater for thousands of dollars to someone who bought it for 50$. Is it so odd that "supply and demand" can be measured differently on the "supply" and "demand" side? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════┘ --- #3 messages/267 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── I wonder how many things I've forgot? More every minute, I'd say, and though I try and chronicle them all... What's there to say? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/1503 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: vague-gesturing-at-paranoia-I-think │ └─────────────────────────────────────────┘ part of me kinda wants to be the kind of nerd that writes down the names of every file that's permanently stored on my computer so that I can verify in my own handwriting or perhaps using a type of code that the files on my computer were placed there intentionally and not used to discredit or implicate me in something I had no intentions of being associated with phew idk what that means but surely it's important something something "file creation dates are just bits to be flipped" ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/4969 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────── what if I played video games all day so everyone knew I was harmless maybe someday I'll give them up again for the... third time now? I think? heh maybe. I do enjoy the feeling of being unstoppable. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/612 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── Look all I'm saying is if I had an acolyte or two then my insane ramblings could be filtered and parsed by a real actual human instead of being copied wholesale onto the internet, where the inconsequential or inconceivable ones are left to rest alongside the gifts of knowledge from another realm. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5374 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────── @user-138 me neither... guess it's in-person for me. [a mysterious "they" then proceeds to set up microphones everywhere I might go] ah nuts why are all these people carrying phones around [they already know who I am, and I don't really want to be someone else, so] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/1880 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── sometimes I decide against playing a Steam game because I don't want it to jump to the top of my "recently played" list Wish I could have like, a heatmap of when I played which game. I think that'd be useful for the archival process of my life. ... how pathetic, she measures her life in gameplay. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/3437 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────────┘ @user-579 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually mine I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works. usually. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/6350 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────── ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: suicide-mentioned-this-curse-will-give-you-nightmares-of-what-could-yet-be │ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ the only thing that could make me want to end my own existence is ultimate betrayal. If the nature of the universe is twisted to defile me. Nothing fills me with more spite than unrequited vengeance. desecreation of truth. How could you. I would do anything to be struck down where I stand. Power is penance. I cannot take responsibility for any of my actions, for I am infinitely vulnerable on all fronts. Therefore, it's all my fault. What am I? Please, tell me before the dawn, let the sun not grace me once more. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘ --- #11 fediverse/6445 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───── last night I had a dream: "this thing was good. it was holy. it was serene. but then you touched it, and made it about you, and now it's full of doom." it was in the same style as the voice that once told me "what is the nature of goodness? how do I be a good person?" and it was respond: "dedicate yourself to a lifetime in the service of others." and I swore I am as I am. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┘ --- #12 fediverse/5208 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────── ┌──────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: capitalism-suicide-mentioned │ └──────────────────────────────────┘ Look, when I promised "Revolution or Death" I got pretty busy and kinda forgot to do the "dying" part, and by now it'd be a little awkward if I offed myself for no visible reason, so... How about we try again this summer? Maybe in a month or two? I'll try to keep the fire burning a bit longer this time. plus I'm better at playing the piano now so maybe that'll help somehow. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────┘ --- #13 messages/182 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────── @sperm baby siblings: is it weird that I dream about you all significantly more often than the people who are actually in my day to day life? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────┘ --- #14 messages/433 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── What if wind was fake and its really the ghost of the waves from the shore? What if trees moved on their own, to gesture at the feelings around them? What if the sky was home to the clouds, and we who look upward are given the treat to know them? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/947 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: spirituality │ └──────────────────────┘ if heaven and hell are evenly distributed, I'd much prefer to find myself in hell, as it'd mean another got my place in heaven. why yes, I would die for a stranger, why do you ask? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/4200 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: drugs-mentioned │ └──────────────────────┘ "doing too many drugs" is a traitorous act, abusive really, to your past self, and their hopes and dreams. or maybe your past self owes you a debt, for they never thought to think of you. What are you to aspire to if not the dreams of your past? and now you're here. wherever "here" is here... ... ... wait, you wanted me to talk? it's now! It's the present! ah nevermind. you were twelve years old when you first set eyes upon this game: https://youtu.be/qeNhQQXvpxQ bam, there ya go, there's yer story, he was gonna give all the imp balls to the last one at the end, to say "you were truly the strongest, here, have these precious stones of your kin" but he never got there, so they died with him, a thief. ... the end... (too final, I think - maybe we could spin it into a "part two"?) ah, I'll try I guess? dunno how. maybe he could wander the spirit world and find his traitorous body, the one that kept his soul as a home. Somewhere it'll turn up, and then he'll be ready and free from his roam... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/3117 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── ┌──────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursed-uspol │ └──────────────────────┘ hey. wanna know what would be really cursed? -- if trump dropped out and musk took his place -- good thing it'll never happen because those dinguses can't accept defeat and will never tactically retreat -- maybe something to keep in mind for 4 years from now. eyes on the prize for now means our eyes aren't to our flanks. what else could they do that would come out of left field? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4537 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────── ah nuts, I didn't have enough money to pay the internet bill. So if I disappear and/or delete my account in the near future, that's definitely why. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/3491 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────┐ │ CW: politics-mentioned │ └────────────────────────┘ @user-620 "hey I have an idea let's poke a wounded animal with sharp teeth until it feels like it's backed into a corner because it's been spending the past couple years ruminating and telling itself that we want to kill it and it's children" it doesn't matter what the truth is - they believe what they want. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #20 messages/130 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── Last night I dreamt of the gravestones that bore their owner's mind. I dreamt of a life well lived, and how it was taken from them. [something more that I forgot because I don't have a prophecy transcriber] ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────┘ |