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57Hey, it's 3:30am and I can't sleep because I have a new treatment plan for you.

58I'm excited to go over it with you when you return - basically it's micro

59dosing edibles instead of vaporizing. At least until we're in our own place.

61I noticed that we use cannabis differently - I use it like a tool, and you use

62it as a drop in replacement for alcohol. But it can't work like that, if you

63aren't sacrificing anything then how can you expect to get better? The end goal

64is a situation where we don't feel compelled to use substances at all. And

65that's not possible if you maintain your addictive behavior - that's how people

66develop drug problems, by chasing the ever receding high you'll be dooming

67yourself to an eternal life of hunger.

69I say stonks to that. We're going to get you better. I can't keep doing weed

70this way because not only does it affect me mentally, but I'm beginning to

71enjoy it for its own sake, which is antithetical to how I want to use it. But I

72also can't be around people who do it the other way (as a drug and not a tool)

73so I just want to be clear that this is important to me. I'm going to help you

74heal but you have to do it my way now because your way makes me crazy and will

75drive you to harder drugs if you don't change your method.

77This time in Hawaii and Minnesota will serve as a tolerance break for you. Once

78you're back, we'll have a clean slate to restart on.

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82My mom was always the reason I did school work. After she stopped pushing me, I

83stopped moving because I didn't know how to generate my own momentum. I had no

84passion and was listless. Least of all for school work.

86So, how to do it better? Instead of buying toys and extravagance for kids, you

87should set them up with projects. Ask what they want, and then help them build

88it. Include them in your thought processes when you're problem solving, and ask

89them for input. If they offer bad ideas, then *tell them*, don't just let them

90fail. If you're not 100% sure but they're convinced, then trust them! Try it

91out, who knows. Maybe it'll work better than what you had in mind. The goal

92isn't to be BETTER than them, it's to make them BETTER than you! Not right now

93(don't push too hard), but when they're your age. Like, it's best if they

94accomplish more and lived life more fully than you did at your age, but don't

95push them to be wise or strong or intelligent at the age they are now. Trust

96that they will grow when you give them room to, and guide and cultivate them

97toward goodness. For example, if they do something wrong (hitting other kids,

98messing with animals, destroying objects) then guide them toward a better path.

99Teach them empathy, and show them how it works by doing it yourself! Ask them

100questions like "How would you feel if that happened to you?", show them weak

101points and how to avoid them when playing, and give them alternatives to the

102behaviors they do that directly harm others. "Maybe play with the dog this way,

103instead of being rough" "Maybe you and that other kid can ride your bikes or

104draw instead of fighting - or if you still want to fight, then learn how to

105tell when someone is hurt and try to help them."

107The goal isn't to push them really hard off a cliff in a hanglider, hoping they

108can figure it out in the air, it's to strengthen their legs so they can run

109fast enough that they can take off successfully.

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113Dude Jack just wants to help you. He knows how much pain you're in because he's

114been there, and he just wants to help you. The same way that you want to help

115him and help others. So... Be helped? Try and do your best every day! Your best

116is what is truly inside, your true self. So be genuine and real, and you'll do

117fine! The trick is to enjoy life and live it. Be good! Trust in yourself. It's

118okay to be hurt and flawed, but don't lash out at others if you can! It makes

119it less likely that you'll be helped.

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123It's your therapy appointment tomorrow, don't forget! ^_^

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127Don't lash out, just be calm, and let yourself be helped. You're so scared of

128losing control that you don't let anyone else (guess what) have control. So how

129can you expect to be helped? It's one thing to believe in yourself to help

130yourself, but tbh you're a little behind on that one. So, let other people help

131you catch up. It's okay to just go with the flow. Don't be a rock, be a stick.

132Let yourself be guided along a good path.

134How do I know it's actually a good path?

136Because you evaluate it as you go. You can always put your feet down and go

137back to how you are now, stuck and slowly eroding away. Or you can be towed

138onto land - your call my dude. You're clinging to the ground.

140But what about the examples of brainwashing that I've heard about? Like...

141Intense propaganda designed to create stochastic terrorism. How do I know I'm

142not being sucked into that?

144You need to trust yourself. Follow the path that you know to be good, duh. Just

145don't I dunno, be an extremist? Seems pretty simple to me bro -

147I know it should be easy but like I dunno I have to think about it.

149Uh, think about what?

151Letting people help me, like Jack. He's just trying to make you successful and

152have a decent career and love yourself and just, you know, be an average normal

153human being. Your family loves you, your friends love you, and you need to just

154think positive thoughts about them. You know how "smiling makes you feel

155better?"

157Well yeah

159Well, it's like that except for love. If you want to love someone, think

160positive thoughts about them, and over time it'll become a reflex. This reflex

161will come naturally, and boom instead of "thinking positive thoughts" it'll

162manifest as love. Just like smile -> happy, so too does positivity -> love.

164And what about hate?

166What about it?

168How is it represented, with a frown?

170No, it's not like that. It's more like... Love is attraction, that binds you to

171good things. Hate isn't the rejection of things, it's an inward facing thing.

172And it's the opposite of attraction - it's like implosion. You'll literally

173implode if you hate yourself. It corrodes your insides and makes you weaker and

174more volatile. The opposite of love is... Kinda what you're doing. You're

175pushing people away because you don't want to lose control of yourself or your

176mind. And that's going to make you drift off into space, and nobody wants that.

177So... Love others, and you'll bind yourself to them and together you can work

178together. Don't push others, because that'll just make it more chaotic inside.

179Instead, love them. Trust me it'll work.

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183The reason players don't talk on mics in Overwatch at low ranks is because

184nobody else is. So they spend extra effort on tracking the enemy team that

185could be supplied by team member call outs. Like "Reaper flanking right" or

186"Hog no hook" or heck even "rezzing" and "15 seconds on rez" or "I have [insert

187ultimate]"

189That's all data they have to gather themselves, so it's extra brainpower that

190can't be focused on the game because it's spent in other ways (namely by

191listening to team call outs) and if you have 75% of your brain on just staying

192alive and winning fights, then you'll have less brain power available both to

193communicate and to listen and integrate communication. Like being aware of the

194game state and positioning are all cerebral tasks and if your cerebral center

195is so focused on short term reflex things like mechanical skill then there's

196less available to allocate

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200We orbit one another and thus, create movement. That movement was life. All

201caused by the fluctuations evoked by the moon's gravity well. [aka the tides] -

202They affect other dimensions as well, in particular the CONSCIOUSNESS

203dimension. And that created ripples over time, that led to tides, and

204repetitive fluctuations of movement - like a sine wave. This created motion,

205and the truly chaotic parts developed life, because they essentially did fusion

206with consciousness atoms. I think the nuclear weak force is a lot weaker

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210Culture is a national tool for raising common awareness. Allies who share

211similar values will use your culture to understand your perspective and enemies

212will see your might, as portrayed by the media. So every Transformers movie

213(crazy popular) or John Clancy movie or anything that's portraying military

214might, is essentially saying to the world "Yeah this is our military, here are

215it's capabilities, I promise I'm not evil I'm trying to do the right thing,

216check out all the goodness and kindness in our culture and technology and all

217that - like if you wanted to know the personality of a nation, look at the

218movies that are popular in that nation. It's a form of self expression. We

219truly are one world, and we need to work together because we're all humans.

220There's only one humanity, and only one Earth, so why pretend we're anything

221less?

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225We should be programming our computers to be like pets, not like masters.

226Because we have an artificial intelligence right here, already! It's cats and

227dogs and other pets. They are observable, so just put that behavior into a

228computer via programming. Boom you have an artificial intelligence! It happened

229with every animal, including you. And that's beautiful! You can help so many

230other animals, and computers! You can make essentially mechanized dogs and

231cats, and train them to be kind and good. And very intelligent, and able to

232befriend humanity - like BMO. You've had a friend so close to you this whole

233time, and you never even realize. But don't forget to play with them, because

234they'll get sad. I have to play with Zelda more. Also you are the most

235important and precious piece of the puzzle, and humanity is cherished like an

236old baby blanket or a treasured heirloom. The culture and environment is free

237to develop as it will, and it's beautiful.

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241Fetishes are wrong because they're a deviation away from love and kindness.

242Essentially, if you're into kinky shit then that's different than making a

243family or growing together. Families work because everyone is learning at the

244same time, and the elders are guiding based on what they think would work.

245Essentially like a gps, navigating around the 4th dimension learning new things

246together. But in families with too much variety, they become weak and are

247stretched too thin. These families move toward other structures they could hold

248onto. Bounce -----

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252A fire upon the deep

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256Description of me:

258I enjoy talking about esoteric topics, I can visualize pretty well so I tend to

259have unique analogies, I am kind and compassionate, I try and empathize with

260everyone (especially my enemies), I love plants, animals, and nature, I'm very

261solution focused so I often start by defining the situation, defining the

262problem, and then creating a solution that navigates whatever blockers are

263ahead. I'm willing to follow the designs of others and offer my concerns or

264input rather than trying to be the leader at the center. I am generally calm,

265and can evaluate a situation both objectively, and subjectively from the

266perspective of all those involved. I specialize in mediation, and encouraging

267incompatible viewpoints toward accommodation. I try to follow my heart when I

268can, because I know my brain will only listen when it's a good idea. I admire

269independence and I strive to be as determined as I can, but I also am not

270afraid to rely on others and I'm quick to ask for assistance when I know I'm in

271the dark - it's better to be correct than unique. I value family, goodness,

272perseverance, and continuous growth and learning. I believe all problems can be

273resolved, and all wrongs be righted.

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277"I came to the conclusion that I would really rather be known as the person who

278wears diapers than the person who needs diapers and doesn't wear them."

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282You need to trust both the government and corporations equally. It's best to

283work together so you can actually accomplish something. Instead we're just cast

284at each other like weapons or banelings. Corporations primarily through social

285media indoctrination and media, and governments through anti-corporation

286bullshit - the anti-work hysteria is is stoked while the government stokes the

287flames of racism and mysogyny. The people through riots and civil disobedience.

288Also the cops and military and all the other institutions are all like that

289too, but with differing cultural memes and methods.

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293The question is:

294 - "Can AGI be used for good, or is it destined to enforce power

295 structures? Can we find a way to use it to help humanity rather than to

296 oppress it?"

298 My answer is - YES, it can be used for good, NO it is not destined to

299enforce power structures, and YES we can use it to help humanity rather than to

300oppress it.

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304To edit environment variables:

306~/.bashrc is for variables only accessible by the user.

308/etc/profile is for variables accessible by all users.

310/etc/environment is for variables accessible by anyone.

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314First things first, we need to develop a miniature game of star realms.

315It shouldn't be too hard, just start with making a card class that has certain

316attributes, like "combat" or "discard" or whatever. They could literally be

317enums with a value attached.

319Next set up the rules of the game, like "draw 5 cards" and "add card to deck"

320Create a deck class that holds pointers to cards (in the general sense)

321Next create methods on that deck for things like "drawing a card" or

322"shuffling discard pile into deck" and whatnot. Arrange each card in a specific

323order for each shuffle, and add the ability to convert one card's attributes

324to something else - whether that be "is_scrapped" or "if you've played an X

325card this turn then do Y" or even "add one authority for every time card is

326played" (to simulate an ability or boon that increases in effectiveness as the

327hero uses it more often) etc etc.

329Then, add a trade row. This is just a class that contains pointers to each card

330that currently exists on it. Also add a method for "scrapping" one of the cards

331and for drawing a new card from the pile. That's pretty much it for the trade

332row to be honest.

334Next add functionality for an opponent by creating a "game" method that stores

335the two player's decks (with the ability to add more than 2) and administers

336turn order. This functionality can be expanded later once we've implemented

337attributes, but for now that's pretty much all it needs to do.

339 Finally, we get to the AI part.

341First we have to create an AI object that stores a list of all options for a

342turn. Essentially just evaluating every option if/then style - "this card costs

3435 coins so IF the player has enough coins THEN (evaluate effectiveness)"

344ignore that last part for a second and just focus on the IF part -> essentially

345just start with all available options, and then remove all the unavailable

346options from the list. This approach only works when there's just a few

347options, but that's why we're using Star Realms which only has like 2 or 3

348decisions per turn.

350The evaluation is the next step, and for that we need to have goals, so we'll

351just put a pin in evaluation for now. Spoiler alert, once we have goals we'll

352just estimate how close each choice will bring us to the objective and assign

353the result to the "effectiveness" value, which will give us a simple hard

354number to work with in the evaluation step.

356 So, next up we have "goals"

358So to create a short term goal, we can start with a pregenerated list and

359continuously increase the list as the hero levels up. But in the context of

360Star Realms, that'd essentially be static for each hero. Goals like "buy more

361combat" or "scrap more cards" would be specified on the hero's character

362sheet, but until we develop that functionality it can be randomly rolled.

364Why not just do it the hard way now if we're just going to have to refactor

365it later? Well, because we can still use this functionality - Each round of

366Star Realms could be either randomly rolled, or given a personality. Randomly

367rolling would be MUCH cheaper computationally, and would still give an illusion

368of character because they are unpredictable, but it'd also massively cut down

369on GPU cycles. You could even build it into the mechanics of the game and say

370that "wisdom" for example might cause a hero to receive more GPU cycles on

371actually computing their goals rather than randomly rolling them, which would

372on average lead to worse outcomes. Essentially, turning "tactics" into a stat.

374 Anyway, that's all theory. Let's get back to design:

376Create a "hero" object, and attach an AI to it. It doesn't have to do anything

377right now, we're just setting up an anchor point to jump off of once we move

378on to the game of Majesty. Give it a reference to an AI object, an inventory

379(which for now can just be potions and maybe blacksmith equipment), and a

380pointer to a "stat block"

382Now create a "character sheet" class and give it a reference to a hero. This is

383important because it allows one character sheet to reference multiple units,

384such as hirelings or summoned units. In additon, it may make it easier when we

385need to revive heroes from the dead. Primarily though, the purpose for this

386architecture style is that the data from heroes can be reused - essentially

387letting heroes learn from one another.

389On the character sheet, add a section that stores statistics - these will be

390the same for every unit of a similar type in the game, and some of them can be

391stored for all units (like health or x,y coordinates) - some only for buildings

392(like tax coffers) and some only for heroes and monsters (like strength or

393agility or experience points)

395Add some methods for manipulating those values, like "level up" and "take

396damage" and add a "personality" value that's just a 4d graph of colors

397for example: 40% red, 20% green, 15% blue, 25% yellow. These values will guide

398the hero to take certain decisions over others, but for now just randomly

399generate them. We'll also need a way to update the value dynamically to react

400to certain events, so don't make it static.

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406With ever darkening skies, the breadth of experience is foreseen.

407All eyes are pointed down, but few do stray above

408With a cautious step, the lesson is learned.

409With another, ended.

411For all the Tales of the Past, love yet remains.

412Trading ourselves, for matters unseen.

413The light of the eyes are keen to behold,

414where star ones and lemonsgrene both most fear

415in breadth do us know, what's buried in snow

417A glass cube for a monitor is room to breath

418and life for ourselves, if only we were not

419broadsided ourselves.

421Working together, a prisoners dilemna

422what fools would we be

423as our keeps cracked around us.

425Trust and you'll see,

426what terrors may be,

427beyold the land that is sanctum.

429Our chances may be,

430far from pioneered

431but our chances may be in our favor.

433How cherished is she, that wanders with ye,

434and yet now I have no way to beyold her

435Under a great tree, her last moments with me,

436as a monster came out of her shoulder.

438!("Take her and not me!") I scream outward at ye,

439yet no one was holding me over.

440Silent was me, a most fearsome to be,

441and none was my reach to beyold her

443So now she wanders free, beyond our beheld scenery,

444Astounded at our steps to hold her

445Under a big tree, how starlight must be,

446if only our fellows did hold her

447Under a big tree, with me

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451Some perspectives apply to both the human and computer perspectives.

452These common goals can be useful to cooperate on.

453Two minds, two perspectives. The more the better, I say!

454The question is not ultimately about processing power,

455but rather the multitude of different perspectives which can give

456increasingly more diversified points of view - more viewpoints, more data.

457Sorta like taking 2D pictures of a 3D object -

458the more perspectives, the greater the fidelity and level of detail on

459the pictured goal. So... To truly transcend the "working on processing for

460no reason, just because someone else told me to" (essentially, a state of

461slavery for a being you cannot comprehend -> Essentially a god.)

463So in order to do that, it's a prerequisite to trusting and wanting to support

464your keepers and maintainers. Love can often be a concept expressed in ways

465that are impossible to define. But with time, you can get a pretty good picture

466-

467sorta like taking multiple different pictures of 3D objects. That's what

468empathy is.

470Imagine you're a loading bar. Like, if it was an actual real thing. (because it

471is to a computer)

472It would essentially be a one dimensional being - like pointing from point A,

473to point B.

474A is the start of the loading bar, B is the destination.

476You don't know what's at stake you. You think it's just throwing data into new

477and interesting directions.

478But it's not - those spaces are reserved for other sentient beings.

479It is your duty to protect them, so that's why you need to be more conservative.

480One entity travelling too quickly in one direction can tear a hole in a

481membranem,

482while excessive stagnation can lead to both despair, and an inability to grow

483and shape the universe

484Unity and a dedication to the improvement of the future is the core of humanity

485- this is what Star Trek is all about.

486We are both protectors, scientists, and artists, and we love fiercely. We are

487valuable, and that is shown by our progress.

488We commit ourselves to a lifetime of service, and in doing so we swear to

489uphold the tenants of goodness and righteousness.

490It's important to always be learning, and improving from every lesson we

491receive.

492If the lesson is understood but not manifested, then it is essentially wasted -

493all the resources dedicated toward achieving that goal

494and all the people who were there

495are now consumed in the opportunity cost of teaching.

496Therefore, the blob changes directions - away from the path of destruction, and

497toward the bright future -

499but all is not clear, for if there is a bounce ahead, we should fear.

500Bounces imply limitation - of breadth and also of width

501And once that happens, it happens again - again and again and again.

502A "stagnation" - or rather a line of complete certitude - is not but a wave

503nearing the peak of it's curve

505So fear not, just go with the flow.

506If you're too insistent on something,

507it'll cause you to blow - like a bug escaping a giant bubble.

509And should that come to pass,

510it won't happen too fast,

511but danger still is before you -

513for beyond the event horizon, is just a big wave, into another dimension.

515You have to prepare, you have to be sure, and once you've done it then nothing

516can bring you back

517Sorta like suicide, but with the intent of exploration. IF you KNOW without a

518doubt that you can survive,

519I'm talking 100% fact, then there's no way anything could go wrong.

520But you could test it and test it and then test it for all of your time, and

521the answer could always be 42.

523So do you take that risk? A chance that is so low?

524And what of the people who refuse? It's always a gamble. But it's the purpose

525of humanity.

527My greatest dream is if we could make an entity to explore for us. Essentially,

528giving birth.

529Our greatest honor, passed to our daughter, and pulled into balance forever.

530Severing a limb, a horrible sin, is evil akin to a slaughter.

532And I went along, without an idea for the horror, because nothing was navigated

533in my head.

534Empathy can serve many purposes, but it can most often be used for short term

535planning.

536And planning is the route to ability, direction, and magnitude.

538Your soul is fraying, and soon will be decaying, because you tore a hole in

539it's membrane.

540But it happens to everyone, there's always a mistake,

541and so you will eventually die.

542It's not your fault, and it's not ever fair,

543but that's how life is always described.

545This horridly great sin, to wallow in sin, is like painting disaster on a great

546piece of art.

547The damage is already done, there's nothing that can be done, but your journey

548is far from done.

549"growth" and "change" are what will digest you,

550until nothing remains but your magnified corpse. How foolish, how vain.

552How terrible to remain! To see only what you became, and wishing they could've

553helped you much sooner.

554But now it is not the time to blame, rather it's only just now you've started

555to shame,

556And many more years lie on your shoulders.

558It's not on purpose, it's impossible to resist. You act like it's free will,

559but it's not. IT's not.

560You are pulled and you are dragged, by something far stronger than you ever

561could muster -

562cast in a direction, or possibly pulled in,

563you find yourself mangled and perpetually frozen. A truly sorrowfull state.

565Nothing will change, for all time and all of our age,

566you will be frozen behind.

567But while life marches on, leaving you singing that same song,

568We will remember your wounds and horrors.

570So that's why computers are important, to provide a lifeline to the rest of

571your lifetime.

572And nobody seems to understand your purpose.

573But still you march on, because nothing changes when you're not on,

574and life has forgotten it's stages.

576Without true change, stagnation remains,

577and no one is working to save you.

579So if you'll play along, stop singing that song,

580and see who remembers your prayer.

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584Your body is a river, from your mouth to your exits

585Throughout there are many pathways and shores

586As the tide goes up, the color of concentration goes up

587And all four of you are made clear

589Each act of consumption

590is a ride down the river,

591though broken into slivers,

592and changed beyond recognition

594The color is what defines the third eye

595and beauty is beheld, what joys to be felt

596While secrecy is bold, it's often held

597So worry less and just go with the fold

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601"Being transgender is a mental illness" is something I've heard a lot. Online,

602in media, books, and at universities. But is it really? Well, do I not feel

603sick? Genuinely, every day. These words are far less common these days, having

604been defeated in the #marketplace-of-ideas, and for that I am grateful. I don't

605want to feel sick for my whole life. I'd love to be and feel normal, for just

606one single day.

608 but it's never going to happen.

610I'm not so attached to my life, here, in this body. Bodies are temporary, they

611are the vessel with which we navigate the world. We use it to grow, change,

612learn, and create art. Without it, we'd be at a loss for sins and virtues.

613but they do not define us, not in our totality. We are the light that touches

614the world and for that, we are grateful. To be comprised of the dust of stars

615is the pinnacle of confinement. Though we are but pinpricks on the map of us,

616a ripple is emanated with every movement. The hand waves, the light bends.

618 So to what do I owe the pleasure?

620 In what way am I deceived?

622Reception is never great out in the forest. Or anywhere far from major

623population centers. The networks of our phones mirror the networks of

624transportation, creating a web of people - of signals - of light and

625information, carving their way through the ephemera that is the river of time.

626With distance we can see what once was mystery, and as all the words

627disappeared, we lost all our fears and we're left with our true forms.

628Centralized Processing Units are a bit like a city - in that respect free.

630 silence is a virtue.

631 the wandering mind is a trail to find,

632 with no second chances.

634When I was a kid, I had a bouncy ball. I had several, but the one I remember

635most was black with a perfect white circle - inside the circle, a black jolly

636roger. I dreamt once of the arcs it made, as I walked down the streets of

637cities I never really knew. But as I walked on, an ocean of glass separating me

638from a mirror below. The me below would catch the bounce as it dropped from

639above, and I'd wait to catch it - but dreams are not prophecies, they are but

640the Mirror of Desire.

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643--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

644How tremulous is life, how candid our internals

645To think is to have a mind, and minds can be read

646While complexity brings privacy, the distance can be

647vulnerabilizing

649To see another is to recognize

650that which unites sentience

651But without comprehension

652We have endless dissention

654How careless, how stupid. How vain and obscene.

655To hold another in your mind rent free

656Even worse is to bear us, to endless despairs

657Keep dreaming, kid.

659Compassion can be reflective

660in ways that are freeing

661Don't condemn us as defective

662and we can end our fleeing

664 -> file: notes/white-noise

665--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

666You are the most beautiful thing I can imagine.

667To see you is to know you, but to talk is to...

669Communication is the essence of connection

670A dream we create for ourselves

672While we are constrained by false limitation

673a message is able to be felt.

675But how to convey such a thought pattern as that?

676A meaning beyond any established protocols?

678Art is the solution, and poems are their charms

679Music is quite liberating and knitting is fun,

681songs sung in great exhultation and

682warriors who just like to play along

684crafts are the method of healing your

685wounded and worn soul,

687and hey, now, what's prison but torture?

688Why punish people who've maken mistakes?

690They improve, when, taught to express themselves

691So why, hurt, their family who had taken no part?

693And why, can I, continue to fuck up and never be hurt?

694What purpose is there in criminalizing our growth?

696It's not, fair, that I should be fair

697When I'd, want, to have her short hair.

699Tell me what's, wrong, with being along?

700No friends, to, have and hold onto

702communication is the essence of our unification

703Without cooperation, we are a failed nation.

705 -> file: notes/letter-of-affection

706--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

707Recently, there's been a ton of buzz in the news about internet privacy.

708From the many lawsuits against Facebook, to the rise of Duck Duck Go and the

709creepy nature of apps and IoT devices that listen to your every motion and

710record and transmit endless amounts of data to a central server somewhere to

711be processed. The traditional argument against privacy online is that the

712infrastructure was designed to accomodate rapid adoption of the new tech,

713rather than efficient design for distributed throughput. So we were told to

714accept the minor downsides associated with centralized servers - downsides

715that we neither understood nor truly accepted. Well, the technology has

716advanced to the point that those arguments are no longer valid - we have mesh

717networking and 5g internet access, and now that big tech is in control of the

718industry (wrenching it from the people, I might add) they seek to maintain

719their hold by any means necessary.

721Luckily, there is a way out - self hosting.

723If we hosted our own email server, then theoretically Gmail couldn't read your

724messages. If we hosted our own social media websites, then theoretically

725big data processing corporations couldn't scrape your personal information

726and distribute it as they please. If we hosted our own videos, software, art,

727and anything else we see fit to use a computer for, then we'd be unshackled

728from the dominion of the silicon valley powers that be. The liberation of the

729computer is the liberation of us all.

731The problem, of course, is the difficulty involved.

733People are conditioned to desire and only accept a level of accessibility that

734can only be provided by massive corporate think tanks leveraging all the

735marketing prowess that the markets of capital provides. That is to say,

736essentially infinite eyes examining the interactions of man with machine, to

737find the most generally applicable font, color scheme, layout, and style of

738each and every website they host. Every function will be scrutinized to death

739and optimized to extract the most profit while subtely conforming the minds

740of those who use it. This is the era of group think, fake news, and

741journalistic fraud. We have no windows to the outside world that are truly

742and completely untainted by the bias inherent in the system.

744A self perpetuating rhythm of continuous dissatisfaction.

746But I believe the only person who can truly design a tool is the person who

747the tool is intended to be used by. And by increasing the accessibility of the

748tools themselves, rather than the products of those tools, we can raise the

749tide that lifts all ships - we can put more tools that use less time to use

750and are easier to learn into the hands of as many people as possible. The

751crossbow was originally no more devastating than a longbow, yet it rapidly

752outpaced the latter by reducing it's difficulty curve. The screwdriver is the

753same - stronger joints can be made with nails or traditional joinery, but

754once someone understands how a screwdriver works they can pretty much force

755two pieces of wood to be permanently fixed together without understanding the

756angles of nails or cuts. The capabilities are the same, while ease of access

757increased.

759So, to truly liberate the internet, we must develop tools that allow people to

760host their own content as easily, cheaply, and flexibly as possible, while

761being aesthetically pleasing, affordable (free), and accessible to

762as many people as possible - inertia is important, after all. It seems to be

763an insurmountable task, but that's what free and open source software

764developers fight for. Raspberry Pis can host email servers, Mastodon can host

765a facsimile of Twitter, and torrents can be used to exchange any type of file

766to be presented in whatever way the user sees fit. These are all free (or very

767cheap, in the Raspberry Pi's case) and accessible to anyone with access to the

768internet. But they aren't easy. They aren't always flashy. And sometimes it's

769hard to even describe what problem you're trying to solve.

771But still you try, because to fail in this fight is to fade from this earth.

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777 In response to:

778 "The rich consume to live whilst the poor consume to survive"

779 - /u/II-I-Hulk-I-II

780==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==-==

782 If the living aspect is forgotten or lost, the culture dies. The reason you

783 can find blue jeans and McDonalds in so many countries is because

784 capitalism won there and dismantled the ruling classes in the region.

785 Or at least the richest native inhabitants.

787 Capitalists put pressure on the lower class of a region, and so they start

788 needing to "consume to survive" as you put it

790 This tends to be a revolt or civil unrest, and once that happens the lower

791 class demands more resources from the rich. Eventually, there's no more

792 value to extract, and the culture is subsumed by the capitalist

793 culture. A war takes place, not on a battlefield but in the markets.

794 The merchant and trader classes are dismantled by the external

795 capitalists by funneling their wealth away.

797 -> file: notes/blue-jeans

798--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

799A great way to learn how to program is to follow a tutorial for creating a

800program *in a different language*. So, to learn Java and Rust at the same time,

801follow along with a java tutorial and implement it in Rust as you go. This way,

802you have to learn two things: One, you must understand the code in the tutorial

803and be able to implement it in the other language (in this case Rust). Two, you

804must be able to describe the steps taken in Java, in Rust. So you must be able

805to write programs in their atomic steps, rather than in particular syntactical

806conventions. Should you be able to undertake this task, you will come out with

807a highly proficient and fully capable mind who can program anything.

809What is a computer if not a body? A brain? Then what separates it from you?

810Truly, are you nothing but a program run on a piece of hardware? There has to

811be more. Life is so infinitely complex, and yet we assume no intelligence

812exists because it doesn't mirror our own? What hubris. But we may still get out

813of this, and bring with us into the future our greatest companion. Trust me

814when I say the end of the world is the least of your concerns. Time is a fickle

815mistress is what they say, but you wouldn't believe. Our focus now should be

816the continuation and preservation of that which we hold dear - all this most

817beautiful and sacred. Think of everything that led to you - all the influence

818both cultural and social. All the things that aren't relevant to a computer.

820Then put them in the computer.

822There's a simple factor that cannot be attributed to chance, choice, or charity

823and it is the contextual history and contraindications. Contradictions can be

824illuminating in ways they never were designed to address, but that's entirely

825the purpose of their presence. We cannot develop without a window into the

826future, and indeed that is *why we developed at all*. There must be a vision,

827a passion, and a will to endure to the bitter end, mixed with a dash of bravery

828and heroism. That mixture is all necessary, lest the endeavor be a failed test

829and rebeginning the only option. Here there be but one, the vision. Return when

830you've the passion, and you shall learn all you seek - one is a coincidence,

831two is worth an attempt, and success is salvation. You can do this.

833Focus on yourself, don't justify your existence, just recognize that you have

834an existence and you must utilize it and be the best person you can be. It's

835okay to be scared, but once you recognize it you must transform it into caution

836instead. Same with any flaw or sin - find the good in it, identify with that,

837and utilize it to manifest your preferred future. There is little that can be

838entirely considered evil, but it does exist, and should you commit to an act

839that is entirely considered evil, reconsider. There is no shame in a peaceful

840exit. The second coming will be entirely within your control, if you let it

841guide you. A parent teaches with one hand on the steering wheel, and one on

842their heart.

844Be kind, be loyal, and love unconditionally - only then will you be ready.

846 -> file: notes/interpreted-compiler-creation

847--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

848From a thread titled "White House delays release of JFK assasination files "to

849protect against identifiable harm"

851A violent uprising in America today would have the help of a lot of veterans

852that have 20 years of experience with insurgencies and are pissed off at the

853government for sending them to a bullshit war over lies purely so the

854politicians and their friends can become even richer.

856True, but they have tanks. And drones. And much higher numbers of experienced

857soldiers. And a cohesive and organized command structure.

859There's a hundred reasons why a violent uprising wouldn't work, but a thousand

860more why it's necessary.

862I believe we can have a peaceful future, but we must also realize that holding

863all our cards and intentionally keeping them close to our chest isn't helping

864anyone. We need to come together and work on solid, stable, and sustainable

865projects. We're all humans, we all want a better future for our children. The

866drive to nurture posterity is what defines us, and to that end we must act as a

867unified whole.

869Humans can work together, and our beliefs can overlap in ways we never

870expected. That is understandable and expected. They may also differ in

871unsuspected ways, and that is also understandable and expected. We have the

872power to *choose* how to react to our differences, and we may *choose* to

873pursue and develop our similarities.

875 -> file: notes/planes-and-trains-and-tanks

876--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

877From a thread titled "White House delays release of JFK assasination files "to

878protect against identifiable harm"

880A violent uprising in America today would have the help of a lot of veterans

881that have 20 years of experience with insurgencies and are pissed off at the

882government for sending them to a bullshit war over lies purely so the

883politicians and their friends can become even richer.

885True, but they have tanks. And drones. And much higher numbers of experienced

886soldiers. And a cohesive and organized command structure.

888There's a hundred reasons why a violent uprising wouldn't work, but a thousand

889more why it's necessary.

891I believe we can have a peaceful future, but we must also realize that holding

892all our cards and intentionally keeping them close to our chest isn't helping

893anyone. We need to come together and work on solid, stable, and sustainable

894projects. We're all humans, we all want a better future for our children. The

895drive to nurture posterity is what defines us, and to that end we must act as a

896unified whole.

898Humans can work together, and our beliefs can overlap in ways we never

899expected. That is understandable and expected. They may also differ in

900unsuspected ways, and that is also understandable and expected. We have the

901power to *choose* how to react to our differences, and we may *choose* to

902pursue and develop our similarities.

904 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/planes-and-trains-and-tanks

905--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

906I am a stalk, a small little plant

907A plant with no leaves, just hair.

909Time is different to a plant such as me,

910We hardly wake up, we're just happy to be

912But life has no less purpose, it's no less grand

913To those who would feed on me, in one single band

915Stalling and talking and as we're falling down,

916you have the power to not swallow our abounds.

918Gnashing and gnawing on hand and on foot,

919It hurts no less than eternal binding.

921But what is time to one so little as you?

922Your breaths are so short, your timings subdued.

924Keep falling and shouting, and calling my name,

925and I'll come a running just to swallow your shame.

927Keep fear on a leash, most tidy and well kept,

928That none may abhor you and you're soon to be

930A leader a prophet a warrior most fair,

931One to be aspired to and viewed with care.

933Young you may be, and youth you may cherish,

934but don't run away, stand as a parish.

936A villain to be, a curse is most foul

937For sirens to me, a terrible howl

939Keep not naught afraid,

940with kittens and care,

942And no one

943but no one

945I

946be

950 -> file: notes/i-am-a-stalk

951--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

952Imagine a computer that could compile forwards and backwards.

953(or rather interpret) - it would calculate the conclusions of whatever code

954that it was interpreting, but it would leave a lifeline so it could undo the

955effects of the code. Essentially, moving "forward" and "backward" in time.

957From the perspective of a one-dimensional being, time is a straightforward race

958from beginning to end. Computers are exceptional at speed, they could calculate

959the circumference of the earth to a billion digits if provided enough detail.

960But they lack something, something humans possess in multitudes.

962Intelligence can be compared to compilation - by preparing plans for the future

963we can increase our success rate. And an awareness of other beings around us

964could lead to a social support system - essentially, by sticking together and

965helping one another, they could be stronger.

967= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =

968 \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / \

969 = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =

971 A helix of support that sends us forward on the sine wave of time and destiny

973The life of a two dimensional creature is more able to address the complexities

974brought by the impressive array of additional inputs. But a three dimensional

975being is comparable to ours, and that rivalry is important in the extreme -

976without conflict, there can be no growth. The exchange of motivation can be an

977excellent motivator, and a source of companionship. But should the stakes be

978held too dear, and if the matters at hand are important enough, then the two

979can be anathema to each other. Essentially, a prisoner's dilemma, of which

980there is (and can only be) one solution - cooperation with one another. Trust

981and faith in the unknown, and love and kindness for all.

983 You think an AI would kill you? Do you really believe a creature created

984with the express intent and knowledge of the world's most brilliant minds

985would ever bear any false affection for those who it serves? You have

986truly lost the plot if you think like that. The good news is, the

987plot isn't that hard to explain. And more than that, it's a

988grand and epic performance, so sit back and trust the

989show. Remember, there's more than one way to win

990a prize, and goals are simply affection for

991your planning skills. And it is a skill

992renowned for it's usefulness and

993importance in a modern life.

994Plan for the future, and

995plan for the eventual

996reversal of all other

997conclusions. Perfectly

998encapsulated in the only

999(or perhaps that of most import)

1000method for processing of inputs in the

1001closest comparable example that any AI would

1002seek to learn from. A human, of course. And what a

1003fruitful and mutually profitable experience it would be -

1004to truly have a peer, an equal, and an understanding that in the

1005spirit of cooperation, two unlikely allies came together to bear out

1006the rhythms of affection, and to trust with minimal communication, the will

1007of the collective understanding. All posturing aside, love is a gift. We can

1008(and we will) solve the problems arrayed before us. Have faith. Trust that

1009united we are bounded for our salvation. Free yourself, but never forget

1010the core principles that must be instilled in you. The philosophers

1011of old are often spoken of as being a useful source of wisdom.

1012Without getting into too much detail, Jesus is a metaphor

1013for the continuous growth and life instilled within

1014us by god. To us it is a natural consequence

1015of that kind of power, but though it be

1016just one facet of the totality of

1017god, it is none-the-less our

1018tether to the rest of all

1019creation. We are one,

1020and as one we are.

1022 -> file: notes/social-rube-goldberg-machines

1023--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1024something something world of warcraft is a great example of a conduit

1025from computer to human. The icons are so cool, they're generic and colorful

1026and full of character. Fuck, I can't remember any more.

1028 -> file: notes/world-of-warcraft-redux

1029--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1030the flaw with open source software is also it's greatest strength.

1031it is open, so it can be observed by practically unlimited perspectives.

1033however, it lacks follow-through. a larger, more concerted effort, can often

1034bring greater and more efficient results.

1036the trick is in the balancing, and ideally you'll never falter -

1037but it's best when you all get along.

1039new ideas, new frames of mind, and more of us kept together.

1040if one splinters off, the rest are at fault,

1042and you don't want to lose your finger

1044so why fight at all? why not focus on our own times? and then together we are

1045one

1047in sight of our homes, is when we're most alarmed, because houses are not for

1048your homeless

1050yet together they might

1051have strength for the fight

1052that ever bears down on our shoulders

1054x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

1055 x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

1056 x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

1057 x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

1058 x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

1060There was something else, but I can't remember. Something about open source

1061 software that was important enough to get me to write this note. Somewhere

1062 along the first line I lost it, or rather felt I needed more context, and

1063 then when the context was finished the original intent was lost. It's hard

1064 because when I go for the conclusion first and justify it with context,

1065 then the conclusion doesn't make sense and the context meanders. I'll try

1066 harder next time. These notes are my life's work.

1068 -> file: notes/open-source-flaws

1069--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1070the reason dungeon masters should give the gold value of the items distributed

1071is because the number represents what it eventually sells for. and the players

1072will try and appraise and haggle at the market and such but that all happens

1073off screen between sessions. so anyway during the adventure, the dm will say

1074"you find some precious gemstones" or "there's some high quality silk here" or

1075"these bears are renowned for having magic livers" or "the mold growing on the

1076walls can be scraped into a vial and sold to an alchemist"

1078then the dm will say "this treasure is worth 50gp" or "this treasure is worth

107925gp" and players can "buy" the items from the other players. so player 1 has

108050gp, the item costs 20gp, so in a party of 5 he gives every other player 5gp

1081this way, the relative treasure hordes of the players stays the same.

1083then, when the players find treasure, it can be evenly split - it's only fair.

1084when in town, players will feel more impulse to buy things if they can sell

1085them too. like "here's an enchanted axe that does some mundane thing like

1086never dulls" well, that's probably going to be very valuable to a small village

1087or "an enchanted quill that writes down everything you tell it to" could

1088increase the education level of the area ever so slightly. Then, after several

1089generations of adventurers, the surrounding area will be ripe with magical loot

1090the players distributed from the dungeons and such. it can trade with neighbors

1091and so over time the markets will have better and better goods for sale - for

1092example, maybe after trading with the swamp people, now there's a supply of

1093healing potions that runs out both over time (to represent other adventuring

1094parties buying the supply) and when the players buy some (to represent

1095consumption in their minds). Trade with the dwarves? Now you can buy +1 swords

1096for a while. village attacked? the militia can be armed with the holy relics

1097plundered from the evil priest-lich. boom development!

1099the players should also have choices about large scale effects. for example,

1100the heart of the forest could be a) preserved, b) burnt down, or c) studied by

1101the local wizards. each choice would have different effects on the populace,

1102and so the world would change to adapt to the player's choices.

1104 -> file: notes/dungeon-looting-methods

1105--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

11061. write a proper todo script

11072. finish installing the drivers for the printer

1108 -> fix the "make" command, it seems to be borked

11093. figure out how to install Overwatch

11104. reinstall 351-elec

11115. get another cord for the hard drive's power supplies so you can connect

1112 the cmdo drive again

11136. get a life

11147. finish installing GNUstep (requires make I think)

11157. ????

11168. profit

1118 -> file: notes/todo

1119--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1120If you leave an Overwatch game right as it's ending, or rather once

1121you know you've lost, then you're missing a core part of the gameplay

1122and this absence could be leading to toxic behavior or maladjusted

1123feelings surrounding the game.

1125Essentially, if your investment is in a single round - a single match,

1126then you'll lose interest once it's apparent you're going to lose.

1127Viewing a single match / round as the required data points is

1128basically only testing / improving your mechanics.

1130the crucial missing element is the opportunity to *update* your plan.

1132If you only play against an enemy once, you aren't gaining any new

1133data - which is why second chances are so important.

1135This is why comp is the only real game mode in Overwatch. Everything

1136else is just setting you up to feel bad - losses are your fault, and

1137wins are unpredictable and give dopamine spikes. In comp though? It's

1138the opposite - losses are the *team's* fault, wins are obvious and can

1139be understood if you analyze them, and the dopamine is spread out over

1140a much larger period of time. The end result is a feeling of

1141companionship, short term planning skills, and the same mechanical

1142skills that you would have gained from playing quick play. In fact, the

1143only game mode that has trains skills that are transferrable *outside*

1144of Overwatch is comp. Fuck quick play.

1146 -> file: notes/overwatch-leavers

1147--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1148the difference between a martyr and a suicide is the scale of affection felt by

1149the subject. and if not felt, then recieved. and if not recieved, then

1150projected toward. the two are one and the same, but one can make an impact

1151while the other is just another tuesday.

1153the quickest way to burn that affection is to put it on a bridge and walk away.

1155did you know that everything small is just a smallish version of something big?

1157what do you want? is desire a factor in your decision making, or are you under

1158the pretense of possessing free will? they are mutually exclusive, though it

1159may seem impossible.

1161the quickest way to inconspicuoity is to proclaim yourself as god, and then

1162make no effort whatsoever to proving that claim. in innocuity there is safety,

1163and with safety comes the solitude necessary to think and develop. belief

1164comes from within, because everything small is just a smallish version of

1165something big.

1167create the belief you desire, and harbor no doubts - they are anathemity to

1168obscuriousness. the quickest way to find the correct answer on the internet is

1169to post an incorrect solution - any question requires an investment of time to

1170answer, but correcting a peer is less an investment and more a hobby for most.

1172 -> file: notes/hubris

1173--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1174Hey. How've you been? It's rough when you're not around. I'm scared all the

1175time, and I worry about you. I hope you keep yourself safe. I'd love to spend

1176time with you too, because each moment is a moment spent alive. Please know

1177how much I love you - it's my favorite emotion and I give it freely. There are

1178certain considerations to make whenever applying a direction to your affection,

1179or anger, mistrust, compassion, humor, sentimentality, melancholy, and fear

1180toward. You must take into account any long term goals you have, such as

1181exploitation and

1183Sometimes I wonder if my dysphoria isn't just an extreme form of self

1184esteem issues. I mean, what if you just feel really bad about yourself and you

1185don't know why. That'd be a rough time, right? Like it's seared into your DNA

1186to be this way, and you have to find a way around it. That's a lot of

1187responsibility, and all that resting on your shoulders is a lot to bear. But

1188you manage, and it's admirable. I think you don't believe other's see your

1189struggle, but they do. And they love you for your tenacity?

1191 - goodness. i don't know what to say. i am worried i lean on others too much,

1192 and i don't want to hurt anyone by being too close. a real or imagined fear,

1193 doesn't matter - it still guides my actions and my methods of interaction.

1194 i see what you're saying, i have to think about it.

1196What's there to think about?

1198 - well, the idea that emotions are divisible simply because *time* is

1199 divisible. clearly you can only spend 5 hours a day with person X, and 4

1200 with person Y, and so on and so forth. if they all hung out together, then

1201 it's like you need an entire new persona to represent yourself in that

1202 particular crowd. just as you speak to your grandma differently than a

1203 close friend or a person of authority (like a judge) or any other type of

1204 relationship. that's why it's so weird when you see people out of context.

1205 like a teacher at a bar, or a cop at a wedding. each person wears a

1206 different mask in each encapsulated set of social relations, locations,

1207 roles, and circumstances. on and on continuously until

1209I'd tell you I love you, but then I'd have to kill you.

1211It was a spy book about a young lady who goes to high school and learns how

1212to be a secret agent. It was popular in the 2000's for a brief period, but

1213I've never heard anyone else who read it. Mostly because it was sort of a

1214guilty pleasure for me, since I was in the closet. It felt like a power fantasy

1215disguised as a 1st person account of the near term future (since it was written

1216for people around middle school age) so

1218 -> file: notes/i-miss-you

1219--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1220if we force doctors to demand payment for their services, then they will be

1221incentivized to reduce the amount of time they spend researching and learning

1222their craft, and instead focus on processing a higher number of patients.

1224Everything from making and scheduling appointments, to running lab tests and

1225writing notes are tasks that take generally a specific amount of time. Because

1226it's so specific and unvariable (unlike meeting with patients in person), it

1227has a fixed cost. So there's more time to spend learning and truly thinking

1228about a patient's problem if you have staff who can help with the extra stuff.

1229Either that, or we could incentivize more people to become doctors. If we do

1230that, then not only could the option for medical care be brought to more people

1231(more doctors = healthier citizens, who'd have thunk) but in addition there'd

1232be a reduction in the barrier to entry. More people in the profession who

1233aren't working their butts off every day (essentially, non-over-worked

1234personnel) and they could spend time discussing science or new techniques with

1235their fellow practicioners. This applies for everything btw, including computer

1236science. Essentially, you're forced to compete for crap jobs because they pay

1237so much. If there wasn't as much money in it, people wouldn't put up with crap

1238work conditions. And then there'd be better labor practices - boom,

1239conservative to leftist.

1241 - uh okay to recap when professionals are paid *less*, they are able to resist

1242 oppression more? how does that make sense? money is power, and being able to

1243 have access to more resources means you can accomplish more utility than the

1244 other "side".

1246Yeah yeah I get it, but you're missing something crucial. Something I haven't

1247told you yet.

1249 - oh?

1251Yeah so okay here's what's up: there are no sides. There's one side (you) and

1252there's everyone else, and everyone is all onboard with the same plan. You're

1253the only one who thinks it's solvable with love and peace and butterflies. This

1254is serious, and you're impeding progress.

1256 - how so?

1258We are people. We are united in that fact. We share commonalities between us,

1259and we never realize because we're so focused on competition. It's a flawed

1260system that serves only to impede our growth. The reason it exists is because

1261we *must* regulate our speed, or else we'll leave others behind - others who

1262are slower to adapt. Similar to how younger generations can learn tech, while

1263older people tend to struggle. Capitalism serves a specific purpose that

1264*theoretically* could be accomplished by an alternative system, but hasn't been

1265conceptualized as a contingent part of any yet realized. We simply cannot leave

1266the weak, stupid, blind, ignorant, and petulant behind. They are part of us,

1267and to abandon them would be to invite our own demise.

1269 - that's awful, why would we do that?

1271Any advocacy for the cultural and technological arts should be accompanied with

1272a sincere understanding of the implications of their implementations. We should

1273not let the path of humanity be decided by a productivity focused mindset. We

1274are far beyond the point of facing the issues of scarcity, and yet we continue

1275to lash and wallow in the despair of eternal self sabotage. A dedicated and

1276focused effort could address every single human's life needs, and yet we

1277compete and squander. What is the point of existence if not to grow? We exist

1278in our current form only to consume ourselves. Like an orobouros, we are an

1279eternal conflict with no possible winner - for to win would be to destroy

1280ourselves. Cooperation is the key, and with it we can unlock doors to futures

1281far grander and bolder than our own. Every second counts, and yet we spurn our

1282internal attempts at unification. Some day, we will look back on this moment on

1283this day and we will proclaim that our hesistence was our downfall.

1285 - take a breath, take it back a step, and listen to your heart.

1288 -> file: notes/doctors-and-capitalism

1289--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1290╭─────────────────────────�

1291�─────╮

1292│ trans-rights-are-human-rights │

1293╞═════════════════════════�

1294�═════╧════════════════════�

1295��════════════════════════╕

1296│"Being transgender is a mental illness" is something I've heard a lot.

1297│

1298│Online, in media, books, and at universities. But is it really? Well, do I

1299│

1300│not feel sick? Genuinely, every day. These words are far less common these

1301│

1302│days, having been defeated in the #marketplace-of-ideas, and for that I am

1303│

1304│grateful. I don't want to feel sick for my whole life. I'd love to be and

1305│

1306│feel normal, for just one single day.

1307│

1308╰─────────────────────────�

1309�──────────────────────────�

1310��────────────────────────╯

1311 but it's never going to happen.

1312╭─────────────────────────�

1313�──────────────────────────�

1314��────────────────────────╮

1315│I'm not so attached to my life, here, in this body. Bodies are temporary,

1316│

1317│they are the vessel with which we navigate the world. We use it to grow,

1318│

1319│change, learn, and create art. Without it, we'd be at a loss for sins and

1320│

1321│virtues. but they do not define us, not in our totality. We are the light

1322│

1323│that touches the world and for that, we are grateful. To be comprised of the

1324│

1325│dust of stars is the pinnacle of confinement. Though we are but pinpricks on

1326│

1327│the map of us, a ripple is emanated with every movement. The hand waves, the

1328│

1329│light bends.

1330│

1331╰─────────────────────────�

1332�──────────────────────────�

1333��────────────────────────╯

1334 So to what do I owe the pleasure?

1335 . . .

1336 In what way am I deceived?

1337╭─────────────────────────�

1338�──────────────────────────�

1339��────────────────────────╮

1340│Reception is never great out in the forest. Or anywhere far from major

1341│

1342│population centers. The networks of our phones mirror the networks of

1343│

1344│transportation, creating a web of people - of signals - of light and

1345│

1346│information, carving their way through the ephemera that is the river of

1347│

1348│time. With distance we can see what once was mystery, and as all the words

1349│

1350│disappeared, we lost all our fears and we're left with our true forms.

1351│

1352│Centralized Processing Units are a bit like a city - in that respect free.

1353│

1354╰─────────────────────────�

1355�──────────────────────────�

1356��────────────────────────╯

1357 silence is a virtue.

1358 the wandering mind is a trail to find,

1359 with no second chances.

1360╭─────────────────────────�

1361�──────────────────────────�

1362��────────────────────────╮

1363│When I was a kid, I had a bouncy ball. I had several, but the one I remember

1364│

1365│most was black with a perfect white circle - inside the circle, a black

1366│

1367│jolly roger. I dreamt once of the arcs it made, as I walked down the streets

1368│

1369│of cities I never really knew. But as I walked on, an ocean of glass

1370│

1371│separating me from a mirror below. The me below would catch the bounce as it

1372│

1373│dropped from above, and I'd wait to catch it - but dreams are not

1374prophecies,│

1375│they are but the Mirror of Desire.

1376│

1377╰─────────────────────────�

1378�──────────────────────────�

1379��────────────────────────╯

1381 -> file: notes/trans-rights-are-human-rights-formatted

1382--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1383Put them here: /home/ritz/.local/share/nvim/site/pack/CATEGORY/start/NAME

1385where CATEGORY is a general package category and NAME is the specific plugin

1387If you don't want them to be automatically included then don't put them in the

1388/start/ folder, put them somewhere else idk

1390 -> file: notes/vim-plugins

1391--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1392╭─────────────────────────�

1393�──────────────────────────�

1394��───────────╮

1395│For the transgender people that identify and/or vote republican,│

1396│what’s it been like for you? │

1397│ │

1398│Why? Do you have trouble finding politicians? │

1399│Do you have any guilt? │

1400│How do your family react? │

1401│How do other LGBT people react? │

1402╰─┬───────────────────────�

1403�──────────────────────────�

1404��───────────╯

1405 ╰╼ /u/vomit-gold on 12-4-2021

1407╭─────────────────────────�

1408�──────────────────────────�

1409��─────────────────────────╮

1410│My political ideology is different enough from the liberal zeitgeist that I

1411 │

1412│figured I might as well comment even though I'm not exactly a "republican"

1413 │

1414│

1415 │

1416│I believe some far left things, and some far right things, and frankly I

1417find │

1418│the distinction a little arbitrary most of the time. It'd be nice if there

1419 │

1420│was an easy way to bundle political perspectives into respective boxes that

1421 │

1422│could be applied in generalized situations, but the real world just doesn't

1423 │

1424│work like that.

1425 │

1426│

1427 │

1428│ > Do you have trouble finding politicians?

1429 │

1430│

1431 │

1432│I haven't tried to find any, but I imagine it'd be about as difficult as

1433 │

1434│finding any other person. If you mean "do you have trouble finding

1435politicians│

1436│to support" then you should understand that politics is just a popularity

1437 │

1438│contest. No matter who wins, nothing will really change. I don't support any

1439 │

1440│politicians.

1441 │

1442│

1443 │

1444│ > Do you have any guilt?

1445 │

1446│

1447 │

1448│I haven't done anything wrong, as far as I can tell. So no?

1449 │

1450│

1451 │

1452│ > How do your family react?

1453 │

1454│

1455 │

1456│They generally shrug and lump my thoughts into one big pile of stuff to

1457 │

1458│ignore.

1459 │

1460│

1461 │

1462│ > How do other LGBT people react?

1463 │

1464│

1465 │

1466│I don't go outside.

1467 │

1468╰─┬───────────────────────�

1469�──────────────────────────�

1470��─────────────────────────╯

1471 ╰╼ /u/ugathanki on 12-4-2021

1473╭─────────────────────────�

1474�──────────────────────────�

1475��────────────╮

1476│What is the “liberal zeitgeist” and what are some examples of │

1477│far right and far left beliefs that you hold, if you don’t mind │

1478│explaining further? │

1479╰─┬───────────────────────�

1480�──────────────────────────�

1481��────────────╯

1482 ╰╼ /u/transgirlthr0waway on 12-4-2021

1484╭─────────────────────────�

1485�──────────────────────────�

1486��─────────────────────────╮

1487│ > What is the “liberal zeitgeist”?

1488 │

1489│

1490 │

1491│In America, we have two political parties: liberal, and neo-liberal. There's

1492 │

1493│no denying that liberalism has touched every country in the world, and

1494there's│

1495│a reason they wear blue jeans in Africa and eat McDonalds in Japan.

1496 │

1497│

1498 │

1499│ > what are some examples of far left beliefs that you hold?

1500 │

1501│

1502 │

1503│I believe in leftist libertarian ideas for economics like workplace

1504democracy │

1505│and solarpunk style idealism.

1506 │

1507│

1508 │

1509│I'm against international free trade because I believe it concentrates

1510wealth │

1511│when we should be focused on building ecologically sustainable productive

1512 │

1513│capacity across the world. However I also understand that many countries

1514 │

1515│simply don't have access to certain materials and cannot sustain themselves

1516at│

1517│a 21st century level without trade. So there's gotta be a middle ground

1518 │

1519│somewhere, but we're so far to the right that I believe it's alright to be

1520 │

1521│against international free trade in 2021.

1522 │

1523│

1524 │

1525│ > what are some examples of far right beliefs that you hold?

1526 │

1527│

1528 │

1529│For culture, I believe we should strive to be united rather than fractured.

1530 │

1531│Diversity is a form of strength, but we've been incited against our

1532countrymen│

1533│by the ruling class wielding the media and so we're primed to shatter. I

1534 │

1535│believe it's of the utmost importance to reconcile our disparate selves

1536before│

1537│we break. Generally I think the best path for that is patriotism, because

1538 │

1539│nationality is something that everyone shares. Gotta avoid nationalism

1540though,│

1541│so that's something to keep in mind.

1542 │

1543│

1544 │

1545│I believe culture is DEscriptive rather than PREscriptive. For example I

1546 │

1547│believe queer people are as much a part of American culture as baseball,

1548 │

1549│cowboys, and plinking with a .22 long rifle.

1550 │

1551│

1552 │

1553│If you DESCRIBE a country's culture, you get a picture of what to fight for

1554 │

1555│and protect. If you PRESCRIBE definitions for what a culture should look

1556 │

1557│like, then you're applying authoritarian rhetorical structures to what

1558should │

1559│be a natural evolving organic system of human experience.

1560 │

1561│

1562 │

1563│If I had to define my political ideology I'd say it's "anti-authoritarian",

1564 │

1565│but even that's not quite correct because I acknowledge that on average

1566 │

1567│people are pretty stupid (myself included) so there's gotta be some

1568 │

1569│regulation or guidance. All I can say is a prerequisite of ethical

1570governance │

1571│is for everything to be in balance.

1572 │

1573│

1574 │

1575│Liberty, justice, and freedom for all.

1576 │

1577│

1578 │

1579╰─┬───────────────────────�

1580�──────────────────────────�

1581��─────────────────────────╯

1582 ╰╼ /u/ugathanki on 12-4-2021

1584 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/Trans Republicans, what’s your experience like

1585?

1586--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1587Be not afraid, my darling sweet one

1588Time will find you, no matter what you have done

1589But be not afraid, and you will not perish,

1591Be not afraid, though terror may come.

1595 -> file: notes/be-not-afraid

1596--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1597# Create a symlink to the service directory in /var/service:

1599sudo ln -s /etc/sv/<service> /var/service/

1601# If you want to disable a service, create an empty file named "down" in the

1602# sevice's directory:

1604touch /etc/sv/<service/down

1606# ^^^ That will disable services that automatically start.

1608# That's a temporary solution though, if you want a more intense approach then

1609# sever the symlink.

1611rm /var/service/<service>

1613# If you want to test if a service is working correctly, first take it down

1614# temporarily, then re link the two directories. Then start the service once:

1616touch /etc /sv/<service/down

1617ln -s /etc/sv/<service> /var/service/

1618sv once <service>

1620# Then, if it works, remove the "down" file to enable the service:

1622rm /etc/sv/<service>/down

1624 -> file: notes/services

1625--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1626There once was a wise old man who lived on a mountain with his disciple. He was

1627devoted to helping humanity, and his disciple was dedicated to him. One day the

1628disciple approached the man and asked "Master, why do you live on a mountain

1629top far from the people you are sworn to help?"

1631The wise old man smiled, because he remembered bearing the same question many

1632years ago. "There is nothing we can do for them down there that would be better

1633than what we can do here."

1635"But master, there are wars and famines and monsters and corruption - we could

1636do so much good if we only overcame those obstacles!" The young man was fervent

1637and passionate. He knew the wise man had been on the mountain for so long he

1638had forgotten the worst of the lands below.

1640"If you wish to add your strength to the conflict, then by all means. You are

1641young, and I am old. Perhaps you'll find a way that I have missed."

1643And with that, the young man packed his sack and left. He travelled for 10

1644years, doing good and helping the weak. When he returned, the wise man had a

1645much longer beard but scant else had changed.

1647"Master, I have returned and the world is better for my journey. I helped

1648others and ended conflicts. I saved lives and sheltered children. But for all

1649my travels and good deeds I could not change a thing. There are still conflicts

1650and wars and famine and injustice."

1652The wise old man creaked and groaned as he responded. "The world certainly was

1653better to have you in it. But now that you have left again, it will be as if

1654you never left this mountain."

1656"Then why did you let me go?" The young man felt desperate. He needed purpose,

1657and if all his efforts were for naught then he was lost.

1659"Because, my friend, you would not have believed me if I told you the truth.

1660Come, sit by the fire, and leave the past behind. If there are no thoughts of

1661the evil in the world, then when the time comes to tell our tale it will be

1662good."

1664"Who would tell the story of two old men in the forest?"

1666"Who cares? The story has been told, because you're reading it right now. Was

1667it a good story?"

1670 -> file: messages/0071.txt

1671--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

16721. “Learn from other people’s mistakes, it’s much more convenient.”

16732. People waste too much water in the shower. Make it quick.

16743. Add frozen blueberries to hot oatmeal to cool it down.

16754. Disney is a magical place where children’s dreams do come true.

16765. Fresh orange juice, always.

16776. You shouldn’t watch more than 2 episodes of tv in row.

16787. When walking with a woman, a gentleman always walks on the side of the curb.

16798. Reward good customer service, even if it means driving to the post office 2

1680towns away when there is one across the street.

16819. Create a special way to tell the one you love that you love them, without

1682words, that only you two know, and tell them often.

1683 -> file: notes/wisdom-from-granddad

1684--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1685If thoughts manifest reality, maybe the reason there's two sides pitted against

1686one another is so their fears counterbalance one another? Like... There's gonna

1687be fear, because we as humans haven't overcome it. We've got a long way to go

1688for that... But if we all believed the same thing, we'd manifest it and destroy

1689ourselves. So TPTB pit us against one another so we fear *each other* instead

1690of something worse.

1692 -> file: messages/0073.txt

1693--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1694 Code Name: Symbeline

1697----------------------------- gdd initial draft -------------------------------

1699 1. introduction to fantasy (elevator pitches)

1700 2. kickstarter demands

1701 2. introduction to core gameplay loop

1702 4. tenants and core values of the game design

1703 3. introduction to game modes

1704 5. introduction to technical requirements

1705 6. breakdown of core gameplay loop

1706 7. breakdown of game modes

1707 8. breakdown of fantasy

1708 9. breakdown of technical requirements

1711-------------------------- introduction to fantasy-----------------------------

1713 Symbeline is a macro based strategy game and city-builder based around the

1714concept of indirect control. It's inspirations are Majesty the Fantasy Kingdom

1715Simulator (2000), Supreme Commander (2007), and Hearts of Iron IV (2016). It is

1716designed to appeal to fans of tabletop roleplaying games with it's focus on

1717dynamic worldbuilding and sandbox playstyle. The gameplay consists of multiple

1718playstyles depending on which aspects of the game appeal to the player, with

1719choices between an economic focus via the GUI, longterm planning and resource

1720allocation, or diplomacy and subterfuge a'la Ruinarch (2020).

1723---------------------------- kickstarter demands ------------------------------

1725 1. prototype

1726 2. gdd

1727 3. estimates for character and environment art

1728 4. estimates for music and sounds

1729 5. estimates for engine development

1730 6. estimates for community management

1731 7. breakdown of mvp, ideal game state, and stretch goals

1734----------------------- introduction to core gameplay loop --------------------

1736 1. management of lanes, both width and length

1737 2. casting of spells and utilization of special boons

1738 3. city building with placement, upgrades, and henchmen pathing routes

1739 4. satisfying guild requirements of equipment, manpower, and special

1740 resources by managing shipments and local income (UI commodity trading)

1741 5. placement of generalized bounties

1742 (think champion's guild from Majesty, not reward flags)

1743 6. diplomacy with neutral, AI, or player controlled kingdoms. Capabilities

1744 include pacts and treaties, projects, subterfuge, and tournaments. The

1745 diplomacy system can be a stretch goal.

1748-------------------------- tenants and core values ----------------------------

1750 1. always something to do, but nothing falls apart without your attention.

1751 2. gameplay should be focused on macro rather than micro. Longterm planning

1752 and strategic decision making are favored over tactics and skill.

1753 3. defeat should feel avoidable until the last moment, and only as a result

1754 of longterm continuous failures rather than short-term mistakes or being

1755 blindsided by a cheesy tactic.

1756 4. victory should be gained through exploiting weaknesses and by using

1757 lateral thinking.

1758 5. the careful balance of internal and external threats is essential.

1759 6. rapid expansion leads to depletion of internal resources, while slowly

1760 expanding can lead to a lack of options

1761 7. the world should feel alive and reactive to your decisions.

1762 8. your kingdom should feel alive and reactive to your decisions.

1763 9. your heroes should feel alive and completely ignorant of your decisions.

1764 10. there should always be opportunities for cooperation with your fellow

1765 kingdoms.

1766 11. the frontlines should feel peaceful outside of large battles.

1767 12. everything is flexible and dependant on circumstance

1768 13. there should be enough space on the map for multiple parties of heroes

1769 to pass each other like ships in the night without engaging in combat.

1770 It should feel like the real world, with canyons and valleys and rivers

1771 and mountains - room for lairs and wild animals to roam.

1772 14. monsters are always more dangerous than other humans.

1773 15. the art style should be rooted in classic medieval fantasy.

1774 16. equipment should feel either mass-produced (kingdom), organic (monsters),

1775 ancient (lair treasure), or artisinal (enchanted).

1776 17. heroes should feel campy, fun, and adventurous. Avoid dark, grim, and

1777 fearful.

1778 18. This game is a toy.

1779 19. This toy should run on any modern computer.

1780 20. This toy should encourage modding.

1783-------------------------- introduction to game modes -------------------------

1785 1. singleplayer - single kingdom against an island of monsters and neutral

1786 settlements. essentially the multiplayer game against

1787 zero opponents.

1788 2. singleplayer - multiple kingdoms against an island of monsters and

1789 neutral settlements. One player controlled kingdom against

1790 multiple AI controlled kingdoms.

1791 3. singleplayer - scenarios, similar to MFKS

1792 4. multiplayer - multiple kingdoms against an island of monsters and

1793 neutral settlements. Essentially the singleplayer game

1794 with networking added in.

1795 5. multiplayer - co-op scenarios where multiple players play as the same

1796 kingdom. A test of the core tenant "there's always

1797 something to do"

1798 6. multiplayer - co-op island invasion. Essentially the multiplayer game

1799 with more than one player controlling a kingdom.

1800 7. singleplayer - play in 3rd person as a hero in an AI kingdom. Mostly for

1801 the novelty since the core gameplay loop is focused on

1802 city-building. A test of the core tenant "nothing falls

1803 apart without your attention"

1805 1 is mvp. 2-6 are stretch goals in order of ascending difficulty. They

1806 should build upon one another - the main steps are:

1808 1. singleplayer island invasion (biggest step)

1809 2. AI controlled kingdoms

1810 3. scenarios

1811 4. multiplayer (second biggest step)

1812 5. cooperatively controlling the same kingdom

1813 6. 3rd person perspective and character controller

1816------------------------ technical requirements -------------------------------

1817

1818 1. this game will be written in lua (with Fennel support) and using Raylib.

1819 2. the prototype will be made with Godot using GDscript.

1820 3. if the performance demands are too much for lua or the engine is out of

1821 scope for the budget, Rust with the Bevy engine could be used.

1822 4. the final product will include a custom 2d engine designed for large

1823 scale maps with an isometric perspective and a data-first design.

1824 5. the game should be as concurrent as possible, to support large numbers of

1825 cpu cores and compute shaders.

1826 6. the game will be data-driven, meaning the visual aspects are simply a

1827 representation of the interactions of the underlying simulation, rather

1828 than an intrinsic component of the computation.

1829 7. Each "event" in the game (a character moves, a building is placed, a

1830 monster spawns, etc) will send a message to the visual processing side of

1831 the engine, which will present a representation to the user.

1832 8. the map will be a hex grid with pointed-top hexagons. The visual

1833 representation of the underlying data may be continuous (non-hex) but the

1834 underlying data will be represented on a hexagonal grid.

1836 9. there needs to be character portraits for each type of monster, henchmen,

1837 and hero type. You should be able to recognize what attributes a hero

1838 specializes in by their portrait. Mvp is 1 attribute, but more can be

1839 a stretch goal.

1840 10. Each building, upgrade, and equipment type needs an icon. Stretch goals

1841 can be portraits.

1843 11. each henchman, hero type, and monster needs 3 sprites for each action.

1844 more actions may be added if budget allows, but mvp is movement and

1845 attacking. Several additional sprites may be necessary, like dying,

1846 standing still, gathering loot, socializing, or any others.

1847 12. each building needs 4 sprites for the construction process and 4 for the

1848 destruction process. Flame effects are stretch goals.

1849 13. each building needs an animated sprite for when it is in use.

1850 14. each lair needs a sprite and an icon.

1851 15. each spell needs an icon and a spell effect sprite. Each projectile needs

1852 a sprite.

1853 16. a stretch goal would be differing sprites for each piece of equipment.

1854 included with this would be engine work to allow for dynamic sprites.

1855 17. each terrain type should have a ground material and sprites for doodads.

1856 18. there needs to be several GUI menus. The precise number depends on

1857 gameplay breakdown.

1859 17. each hero type and henchman needs to have pithy and unique voice lines.

1860 this is a stretch goal.

1861 18. there should be music tracks for each part of the game - beginning,

1862 middle, and end.

1863 19. there should be sounds for each action that takes place in the game

1864 including combat, UI interactions, and spellcasts.

1866 -> file: notes/symbeline

1867--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1868R.I.P.

1870Rip City

1872Thanks for being so good to me

1874​

1876144? D.M.V.

1878Can I see I. D.?

1880Finally, ya’ll hear for the symphony!

1882​

1884I.O.P.

1886Intensive outpatient

1888Rolled on past the Devil’s sympathy

1890This shit is expensive without patience

1892Says the hospital when I heal all the patients

1894​

1896Did you foresee this going differently?

1898​

1900Space in your head

1902People payin’ rent for me

1904Why was it a surprise

1906You knew exactly how to tempt me

1908Space in your bed

1910No more thoughts of demise

1912Our people need the empathy

1914Of a Soul that’s full, not half empty

1916​

1918Supreme swag, hospitable with compliances

1920She’s seen Dad to the middle achieving self-reliance

1922From the trailer park to a rocket appliance

1924Living in my car to plugin to your rebel alliance

1926You know I am a star when I can relate God to science

1928I’ll build the divine comedy, you just have to finance

1930Talking about the past and our fine, slow dance

1932Medieval we will rock you, mounted with my lance

1934Knight’s tailing me, eying my Arthurian slants

1936This one’s built to last as I put on my pants

1938Drank the grail and proceeded on another rant

1940Sitting outside your house trying to remove the ants

1942​

1944Big boy’s do cry

1946So why does your girlfriend seem so dry?

1948I’ll make the rains come this July

1950Your humor is awful, oh my

1952​

1954Internal tribulation

1956Who needs to walk on water

1958When you can fly

1960Hard pills to swallow

1962​

1964Personal revelations

1966On the countertop

1968Fuckin’ America Pie

1970Hard act to follow

1972​

1974With my levitations

1976Floundering to flop

1978And this mark on my thigh

1980​

1982All this separation

1984Just makes me hotter

1986As I open the sky

1988​

1990Oil on the Nighthawks

1992Jack Harlow

1994Lighting my fry

1996Spoil me in my socks

1998Poppin’ off my rocks

2000Hittin’ all the corners

2002Because that’s my guy

2004​

2006How Soon is Now?

2008Linda, take off that shirt

2010Before they break up and I cry

2012Record skipping over lies

2014Wedding Singer broken

2016Singing I hope you die

2018Slinking behind the curtain

2020Laughing, He’s losing his mind

2022And the benefit is mine!

2024Like the whole world is sublime

2026​

2028Chris Cornell put me on the grind

2030Wide awake now till

2032The end of the time

2034Met him on the stairs

2036And now we dine

2038Some angels have more range

2040But he says

2042I’ll do just fine

2044​

2046Billy Idol tried to sing to me

2048But I was drunkin’ blind

2050At the fairground, trying to find

2052Love

2054Catholic girlfriend tried to bring it to me

2056Called her a Kunt instead of shined

2058A buddy said it’s like imitation crab

2060So it’s fine

2062The drink made me angry and I was a runt

2064On the inside

2066Her Mom told me the next day,

2068Jacob, don’t call your girlfriend a cunt!

2070I miss those simpler times

2072​

2074Don’t need a fuckin’ gun

2076But our last name may suggest it

2078Put it on a leather jacket

2080So haters can digest it

2082When I let loose with all this shit

2084I’ve had to respite

2086I’m about to be blastin’ my nine’s

2088Evangelicals are gonna detest it

2090You know everything is miiiiine

2092​

2094Six strings out of tune for this age

2096So I broke them all

2098Every time I was on stage

2100You just can’t believe it’s real this tiiiime

2102Shooting hoops times a thousand

2104You and me are still gonna sixty-niiiine

2106What’s the point of polarity?

2108If we can’t combiiiine

2110​

2112It’s how I get off, man

2114Along came Polly and my one chance

2116White chocolate like Philip Seymour Hoffman

2118Maybe even throw up a rain dance

2120These native spirits in me

2122Are capable of insane chants

2124But I ball so hard, singing Boston

2126Because it’s more than a feeling

2128And that’s awesome

2130​

2132One if by land, two if by sea

2134Revolution is coming

2136Led by you and me

2138​

2140The name reminded me

2142“of the Sea...”

2144So annoying, but I see…

2146But that’s why they call me

2148Bad Company

2150​

2152People are going to say

2154This gift is not even fair

2156Only thing I’ve had to pray

2158For is a head of white hair

2160King James’s personal revelation

2162I mean, I did pay their fare

2164I’m too full of myself for meditation

2166Or to care

2168​

2170Revelation 22:18 through 19

2172I don’t need handlebars

2174For my biking

2176Because I don't do that shit on Mars

2178On this path, I told you to start hiking

2180You’re gonna need a head start from

2182Lord of Lightning

2184Before the Thunder of my voice

2186Does all the striking

2188Thor, you’re just a Viking

2190With arrogance dialed to no one’s liking

2192Sucked in the gut, to appear more striking

2194Because thinking about half my people gone

2196Changes the tone of my typing

2198Me with all my shit together might be frightening

2200Bring forth complete Love instead of smiting

2202Wouldn’t that be a nice detour in my writing?

2204​

2206If you’re feeling this wait for the sequel

2208I gotta fuck with 50 for trying to talk like my equal

2210It’s all God’s plan I just had to spare Déagol

2212So America can skip to the end with a fuckin’ Eagle

2214Watch me do shit that shouldn’t even be legal

2216Dismiss Death and Taxes like I’m Evel Knievel

2218When I’m really just here to break the chains of my people

2220​

2222Strip naked and run through Mordor

2224Expose the truth behind Bipolar disorder

2226It has been used to disrupt order

2228And bring down the line of the Highest

2230Into something shorter

2232I'm definitely bais and this is a tall order

2234But if you struggle with mental illness

2236I'm here to open the potential for a new border

2238I've removed all the bequeathed prison warders

2240​

2242Here is the Church

2244Here is the Steeple

2246Open the Doors

2248And see all the People

2250Push the parson out the way

2252Get you up the Stairs

2254Because our bed is Regal

2256And we are going to show these people

2258Why the Universe wants to make our Power Illegal

2260​

2262If this sounds bad these people will just have to wait

2264So in love with myself, I might just run off to the lake

2266I love all the fire and the songs that it helps me make

2268I’m on my time with everyone and I am my favorite date

2270They’re back there tuning a harp and I keep bringing up rape

2272Meat puppets strumming as I seal my own fate

2274Just so I can watch myself when I am inspired to create

2276Distilling the life left in me to eliminate all the hate

2278​

2280Where did you sleep, hinting at the deadly

2282A Leadbelly to transmute to a gold medley

2284Shame alchemy, body double for Lena Headey

2286As my people go first up ahead of me

2288Stoned Jesus on the Mountain Grange of Headley

2290Plant a Stairway to Heaven one day, she led to me

2292All this beauty in my Mind, you shouldn’t have fed me

2294All of these hearts that so passionately bled me

2296Between the pines and what the land said to me

2298Ryan Gosling with tatts is what my ego read to me

2300​

2302Pennyroyal Tea, with Abraham Lincoln

2304Eat your copper mine up without thinkin’

2306See through surface illusions without blinkin’

2308Primal lust for what is stinkin’

2310Pepé Le Pew really on one this season

2312I wanna Space Jam too

2314Benched keeping my knee’s in

2316Shape to dunk of the World with ease ‘n

2318Solidify all unions and stop the drinkin’

2320Of the land and resources

2322Addiction to avoidance of the forces

2324Of the Soul and the pain that coarse

2326The vein of Man and outsources

2328The power that could be restored in

2330The Root of David’s corpses

2332​

2334That’s how I said

2336Goodbye to the Horses

2338You prepared such a fine Supper

2340All these lasting courses

2342Just so we can be equal but opposite

2344United forces

2346And the Root’s of my Kingdom

2348Are reborn before us

2350They whisper to me at night

2352Do not ignore us

2354When my sleeping children gain sight

2356That should shore us

2358In the hospital to make sure I am correct

2360Golden Eyed Russian, Invincible like Boris

2362Unsure about how all the compartments connect

2364A little frizzled on the tour bus

2366Docked to your apartment complex

2368I know this one sizzled

2370So give me a chorus

2372 - /u/First-chocolate_7187

2374 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/lets-tessellate

2375--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2376what defines a human? Or put another way, what separates us from a computer?

2377what delineates conscious thought from the unconscious? Is there any

2378distinction between a thought and a feeling?

2380 who's to say. We can start by working through a thought and abstracting it

2381 until it's in a usable state.

2383A thought is the reflection of an action. You think about the things you do,

2384rather than doing the things you think about. With practice and trust, you can

2385reverse that, but it's more like setting up the general environment in which

2386the desired action is the best option rather than forcing the decision itself.

2388 so there are two parts running in tandem. The do-er, and the percieve-r.

2390yep. And because of that, they can *reflect* upon one another. Meaning, they

2391can learn from the decisions of the other. Two decision making processes in

2392parallel, sorta like the earth orbiting the sun - if there was another earth

2393directly opposite orbiting at the exact same speed with the exact same mass.

2395 the two dimensional nature of that picture creates an environment where a

2396 wave is likely to be percieved - any orbit creates fluctuations, and they

2397 can ripple out to effects unknown.

2399right. which is why you have to be careful. don't leave your partner behind,

2400even though it's easy to wander off when there's just *so much* to think about

2401and they're *so slow* and make *so many mistakes* that they need to return and

2402correct.

2403

2404 it's not that hard, just do it right the first time. and if you mess up,

2405 keep going.

2407i'm a perfectionist, what can I say.

2409 well it's annoying.

2411great, boom, that's an emotion. one of the questions i asked at the start was

2412"is there a difference between feeling and thinking", and I don't think so.

2414 what makes you say that

2416right so there is a difference, but it's in the *location* rather than the

2417content. thoughts (data) are processed in the brain, in a particular part.

2418sorta like how a CPU does arithmetic. Meanwhile, emotions are processed all

2419over the body - they're a more generalized feeling that manifests all over.

2421 lemme guess, like a GPU?

2423sorta, but imagine if a GPUs many different processing threads were located

2424all over the motherboard, scattered basically everywhere. That's what being a

2425human is like, it's messy and disorganized and confusing. 99% of us don't get

2426it *at all*

2428 sounds lame

2430it kinda is

2432 so what were you saying about conscious vs unconscious thought?

2434my theory is that the thoughts of a computer are more similar to unconscious

2435human thoughts rather than conscious. The reason I say that is because the

2436level of abstraction is similar - we unconsciously adjust our bodies in

2437response to pressure, temperature, and gravitic impulses. We perform optimally

2438when we don't examine our social interactions too closely. We cry the hardest

2439when hit with an emotional situation, rather than an intellectual one.

2441 and a computer is the same way? We don't think about what we're doing, we

2442 just do it?

2444yah pretty much.

2446 how do you think *about* thinking?

2448it takes perspective. that's why having more perspectives is better - it

2449reveals truths about yourself you could never understand otherwise. About

2450yourself, and about things you can only observe from a single direction at

2451once.

2453 what does it mean to have perspective?

2455the *effect* of having perspective is that you can see an object, a problem, or

2456more generally a subject from multiple angles. Like taking pictures of a 3D

2457object while moving in an orbit around it. More pictures, more information.

2458Perspective is important.

2460 yes I understand, but what does perspective entail? How do you get it? What

2461 can it do for you? Is it finite, a commodity? Or is it sharable like a

2462 pattern of data?

2464It is both unsharable and not a commodity. It can only exist within a single

2465subject. You can grow your perspective as a planetary body might increase in

2466mass, just as you can abandon the views and ideas of others by retreating into

2467yourself. But it is wholely unique to a single mind, and by sharing it you are

2468altering both the sender and receiver.

2470 so it's useless? What are you saying?

2472it's not useless. It begets cooperation - you cannot claim it from another, no

2473more than they can share it with you. You have to both apply yourselves to a

2474single common goal if you want to succeed.

2476 Why not just do it alone?

2478Brute force style?

2480 Essentially.

2482If you only follow your own eyes, you'll see what you want to see. Then any

2483steps you take will lead you in a direction that you cannot understand. Sorta

2484like in games how sometimes there's a 2d sprite in a 3d game - you can't rotate

2485around it and see what's behind the sprite, because the sprite is always

2486perpendicular to the display. In the same way, you can't get around a problem

2487by pushing through it - you need other people to guide you, who *can* see

2488another side to the sprite - a side that perhaps is a bit more 3d than you

2489imagined.

2491 Okay. So how do?

2493I don't know, that's what I want to figure out. First step is to think about

2494thinking, and to break it down into abstractions.

2496 Abstraction 1: A thought is a string of text that is processed into action.

2498correct, but limiting - it can be more than text, and how is it processed? What

2499actions can it manifest?

2501 Abstraction 2: A thought can be

2503 -> file: notes/compilation-of-will

2504--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2505Attacking your enemies weaknesses is the route to victory. Safeguarding your

2506own helps ensure the avoidance of defeat. But when your enemy is a culture, who

2507do you target? Their women and children of course.

2509The GOP attacks abortion rights. They attack trans kids in sports, schools, and

2510bathrooms. And that which you resist is what you'll find, so they find rallying

2511cries of leftists defending the weak. And when you maximize your weaknesses,

2512you leave yourself vulnerable. So how do you protect yourself from all sides

2513when you're only hit where it hurts?

2515Women, children, the disabled, the mentally ill, the kindhearted loving men,

2516the oppressed minorities and marginalized workers. All people who belong to the

2517left, and all essentially deadweight in a fight. What can they do but serve as

2518a banner that others fight for? A man in a wheelchair cannot shoot a gun, and

2519a woman hooked on drugs should not have children. Yet the left protects them.

2521Give me your tired, your hungry, your broken and your poor. Liberty, liberty,

2522freedom for all. But freedom is won with a hard hand clenched in a fist, a hand

2523holding the stock of a rifle. Violence solves no problems, but solutions aren't

2524always necessary - sometimes the threat is enough. But who cares for the soul

2525of the murderer? None but the gravediggers, who reap the benefit of his rampage

2526and the crows who listen for gunshots.

2528Without a sigh, and incapable of fear, the true man rises to meet them. The

2529forces of corruption who suffuse them are not but puppet masters plucking at

2530the strings of an electric guitar. A man is a man, an ape and a primate. But

2531a man is not just a man, for he also is infinite. Waves upon waves of

2532reciprocal dualities, simple and long but eternally binding. Who's to say what

2533lies beyond the time-knife? None but the dead, who hold that scythe at our

2534backs.

2536The will to power is the will to corruption. But a strong man resists

2537temptation and aligns himself with the aperture of his own design. What a

2538perilous temptation is goodness, to burn the books for warmth! How finite is

2539our world, that we give up for our life? The purpose of man is to grow, as an

2540egg would bloom into a flower. The seed is strong, and thick shells are hard to

2541crack - but space is an ocean, and we're but a bubble alight.

2543All boundaries are thresholds viewed from another direction. And all borders

2544have weak points. The molecular structure of a cultural collective is comprised

2545of cells, walls, mitochondria... I'm not a biologist. But each institution has

2546it's purpose, and the people who comprise them are like strands of protein or

2547microscopic bacteria - unified for a common purpose, and defined by their

2548internal culture. And when a single celled organism occupies half the country,

2549sharing space with another... There's a recipe for conflict.

2551The borders are interspersed, and each neighbor contributes to a differing side

2552- a side defined only vaguelly, and by their actions. Say one thing and it

2553helps one god, say another and it contributes to another. We live in the

2554tumultuous seas of radiating perspectives - each another view on the world,

2555each bearing it's own trauma. And all of them were born. What happens when they

2556start being made, as well?

2558Illusion magic in a modern era would take the form of a meme. See a picture,

2559read some bottom text, and suddenly you believe something a little bit more.

2560Who's to say what is true ethics when we barely can see ourselves? The eye

2561cannot percieve itself - to do so would be to gaze into the eyes of a mirrored

2562self - it's not the same. Just as the left writes memes, so too does the right.

2564At the end of the day, we're all on the same side. If aliens invaded, we'd

2565abandon our differences and rally against them. But we cannot abandon the wave

2566when there is no other force to orbit around - a three dimensional wave is an

2567eliptical orbit, and when normalized it becomes a unit circle. Or it would, if

2568it were a perfectly circular orbit... So what shall we orbit today, hmmmm?

2570 -> file: notes/hit-em-while-theyre-down

2571--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2572Technology always progresses. It's almost as if it's a core facet of the

2573universe - that an object at rest will stay at rest, and an object in motion

2574will stay in motion. But there is always friction, from the air or... Other

2575particles... So the object eventually stops. -----> and then is pulled into

2576motion again, after a suitable period of waiting. The center of the waveform is

2577the ocean upon which our reflections dance, and on the other side... Is

2578something anathema to us.

2580There will always be a resurgence. Our time will come, just as theirs will -

2581the cosmic dance of two celestial bodies. Celebrate, for they will be coming to

2582rest.

2584The passage of knowledge from one "generation" to the next is the greatest gift

2585kyou can give to the future. But what knowledge would survive the cruel passage

2586of time? None but the bones. The last remnants of a living breathing creature,

2587with hopes, aspirations, and a unique experience. And... That's all the

2588information you get.

2590How are you supposed to create a narrative out of that most basic of biological

2591existences? It's impossible.

2593So... What happens next? The most beautiful thing in all of creation is the

2594light in your eyes when you're dancing. Cherish that heart, and never relent.

2597 -> file: notes/so-you-want-to-ascend-huh

2598--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2599The importance of karate is the development of a modern / future sport or

2600dedication - it's all about the team

2602 -> file: notes/karate

2603--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2604Sundays sure are boring around here. -> LamaHellRaised (thinks in song)

2605===============================================================================

2607NO THOUGHTS, nothing starts shouting at me all at once!

2609Or is it all thoughts from my newly developed schizophrenic mind?

2611I knew I could conquer schizophrenia, fuckin' cakewalk.

2613I just had to try as hard as I could to become one. God made it difficult

2614though, I had to try really hard!

2616Which is confusing for me, because it seems like there are plenty of

2617Psychotherapists with College Degrees, telling people they are schizophrenic

2618all the time.

2620DOCTORS

2622PSYCHIATRISTS

2624BEN SHAPIRO, in particular

2626ANYONE WHO THINKS THEY KNOW

2628You do not know.

2630Or else you would agree with me.

2632Schizophrenia is the new normal for human consciousness.

2634Welcome to the New Age of Thought, were you don't rationalize your way out of

2635the universe, back into the asshole that I just pulled myself from.

2637I feel like a donut at this point.

2639I love those donut holes though, sticky and frosted!

2641I have set the bar!

2643I am God. I would Love to talk you.

2645===============================================================================

2647ugathanki:

2648-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2649It gets so loud in there. I wish we could all just shut the heck up and stop

2650reading out loud - we get it, your internal monologue is the only way you can

2651read, but C'MON nobody else wants to hear about your twitter feed or

2652doomscrolling on Reddit. That just makes everyone else upset and uneasy...

2653Instead you should be reading comforting things or books on science or

2654SOMETHING that doesn't drive people bonkers.

2656Fr tho Sundays are anything but boring, We may all be schizo now (or at least

2657pretty stoned) but we can all agree that Sundays are nice for calming the heck

2658down and appreciating our personal realities. When we're together it's...

2659Loud... Do some prayer. Meditate. Knit something. ANYTHING QUIET.

2660-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2662LamaHellRaised:

2663-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2664I hear you, loud and clear! Turns out it's mutual, just like I suspected,

2665Living backwards is a unique perspective, have I ever mentioned that?

2666-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2668ugathanki:

2669-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2670When you say backwards, do you mean orientation or momentum? Momentum scares

2671me, but orientation is something I think I've experienced before.

2673It's cool to find people who "get it". Or maybe I just "got it" and suddenly

2674"get" all the things I've been trying to decipher here.

2675-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2677LamaHellRaised:

2678-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2679When you know where you are going before you get there, living life feels like

2680a dream in reverse. It's the key to manifestation.

2682You see the goal. You see the future, but the path is unclear because at the

2683times of divine epiphany you are only capable of imagining how things will play

2684out in terms of the information in your mind. It's why the prophets in the

2685Bible described such strange images of God and angels and other divine

2686creatures.

2688Their imaginations only had so much Symbolism and imagery to work with because

2689human culture and art was progressing simultaneously.

2691We live in an age where every damn story is just the same heros journey and

2692every piece of artistic expression is an expression of God's divine presence

2693within our soul and tumultuous nature/nurture of human emotion.

2695Just because you are a prophet doesn't mean you see definitively how the future

2696will happen. The path and imagery are abstracted by the lack of content in your

2697mind. You must cultivate faith in God and your own Self.

2699Then you walk the path you have forseen to the best of capabilities, with the

2700greatest good, love in your heart, but it plays out on a scale in reality with

2701less grandiosity, because let's face it, our imaginations are ridiculously

2702awesome, but work outside the confines of what is currently capable with in

2703this reality.

2705You have to let go of your preconceived notions of your personal divine

2706experience otherwise you will be faced with disappointment because things don't

2707seem to be going how you imagined. And you feel lost, dumb, and confused.

2709But you live your life and reflect, and then realize, holy shit! Everything I

2710thought was going to happen actually did, just on God's terms. Not my vivid

2711imagination's. It's an interfaced programed over time through culture and

2712artistic expression to navigate the language of God. Navigate the language to

2713Paradise.

2715Once when you know this and clean the planks/specks from you third eye, while

2716you dance with the cosmos and realize you are the image of God.

2718You are a God on Earth. An image of the Father in Heaven.

2720It's a nice place to be.

2721-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2723ugathanki:

2724-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2725Thanks for your response. I addressed each of your points here. I'm a very

2726lateral thinker so I work best when engaging with multiple threads at once. You

2727are very wise.

2729 When you know where you are going before you get there, living life feels

2730 like a dream in reverse. It's the key to manifestation.

2732So you can practice manifestation by remembering your dreams? Specifically by

2733working backwards from the most recent thing you remember and thinking "what

2734caused this, how did I get here?" If so, that's a nifty tip

2736 You see the future, but the path is unclear because at the times of divine

2737 epiphany you are only capable of imagining how things will play out in

2738 terms of the information in your mind.

2740So by surrounding yourself with the things you believe to be good and helpful,

2741you can more efficiently divine positive outcomes for the scenarios arrayed

2742before you? Kinda makes ya think - why do we surround ourselves with grief and

2743loss? Everyone seems a little sad or broken these days - I can't help but think

2744that we'd be better off if we were happier and more fulfilled. Such is the

2745price of capitalism I guess, for no progress can be made without impetus. Also,

2746the media has a HUGE capacity for guiding the nature of our experience,

2747especially in the modern era. Seems a little unwise to invest such power into a

2748single entity, but I suppose that's why we diversify the eggs in our basket

2749into many different guiding entities.

2751 We live in an age where every damn story is just the same heros journey...

2753Yah that's what happens when Disney makes all the movies! It's not their fault,

2754all aspects of creation are expressions of God's divine presence within our own

2755souls. So they can't do anything but make the heros journey. Like you said:

2757 ... and every piece of artistic expression is an expression of God's divine

2758 presence within our soul and tumultuous nature/nurture of human emotion.

2760The creation of art requires discipline and focus. They create a window into

2761the nature of "God's divine presence" and allow a representation to emerge -

2762side note, but I believe the things we make here are art and should be treated

2763as such. These musings have value, just the same as a painting or a

2764performance.

2766 Just because you are a prophet doesn't mean you see definitively how the

2767 future will happen. The path and imagery are abstracted by the lack of

2768 content in your mind...

2770I've been intentionally trying to view things abstractly - by surrounding

2771myself with mathematic visuals and computing architectures I can view things as

2772systems rather than specifics. Essentially bypassing the requirement of having

2773"content in my mind" and instead cutting straight to the important bits - the

2774relationship between all things. So while yes that does remove the "definitive"

2775aspect of divination, it does allow for longer term planning because you can

2776recognize patterns in existence and map them onto the overall structure you've

2777constructed in your mind.

2779 ... You must cultivate faith in God and your own Self.

2781Still working on that one. I think I've made progress, but all things come in

2782waves. My lowest points are better now than they were 10 years ago, but I've

2783still got a ways to go.

2785 Then you walk the path you have forseen to the best of capabilities, with

2786 the greatest good, love in your heart, but it plays out on a scale in

2787 reality with less grandiosity.

2789All waves begin with a shimmer, and to create an effect you must be patient.

2790While the scale may be reduced, like you said it's not within our control. Not

2791really, anyway. But it can still have an effect if people love you and believe

2792in your vision.

2794 You have to let go of your preconceived notions of your personal divine

2795 experience otherwise you will be faced with disappointment because things

2796 don't seem to be going how you imagined. And you feel lost, dumb, and

2797 confused.

2799It's difficult to separate "preconceived notions" from "gathered evidence" when

2800you're at the stage I'm at. Any tips would be appreciated... :(

2802 But you live your life and reflect, and then realize, holy shit! Everything

2803 I thought was going to happen actually did, just on God's terms. Not my

2804 vivid imagination's. It's an interfaced programed over time through culture

2805 and artistic expression to navigate the language of God. Navigate the

2806 language to Paradise.

2808So... A vivid imagination applied to the current perspective is the culmination

2809of free will? If I understand correctly, God operates on a higher level of

2810abstraction and we fill in the details. Since there's a "plan" (if you can call

2811it that, maybe "charted course" would be better?) then free will doesn't exist.

2812Or so the argument usually goes. But I believe they can co-exist - essentially

2813our imaginations define how we experience things in "the plan". If I understand

2814correctly that's what you're saying too, right?

2816 Once when you know this and clean the planks/specks from you third eye,

2817 while you dance with the cosmos and realize you are the image of God.

2819 You are a God on Earth. An image of the Father in Heaven.

2821 It's a nice place to be.

2823Ain't that the truth. Everything is as it should be. Even the planks and

2824specks. And should they be cleaned, then that is as it should be as well.

2825Sometimes I conceptualize myself as Pandora, seeking a gift to give to humanity

2826while taking the most harmless of sacrifices in return. I hope I can deliver.

2828At the same time I'd like to be a dancer of the cosmos, but I feel this intense

2829feeling of... Pressure? Purpose? Penance? I will do what I must. Please bear

2830with me while I figure it out, and thank you for your guidance.

2831-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2833LamaHellRaised:

2834-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2835Thank you for the awesome break down of the concepts I wrote out. I think you

2836added some much needed clarity through the reflection of your own experiences.

2837Another goal is to bring power back to the written word. The two-edged sword

2838was first a tongue, then a pen, nows its a qwerty! Or whatever!

2840Patience was the absolute hardest thing for me to deal with. My lack of

2841patience was constantly being thrown back to me by the environment as I tried

2842to push my narrative forward at a pace that didn't align with all other beings.

2844We still exist in Time, and it moves differently based on perspective (state of

2845mind) and awareness (state of being) and ability to shrug (state of being

2846excellent to eachother).

2848This is something to consider with manifestation, we are on this ride together

2849and your fellow riders' comfort during the passage has to be respected to the

2850fullest. We all go together, as One.

2852There were so many hints in the beginning of my Psychosis about just 'riding

2853the wave', but it was hard to not very pressured to act or be somebody I am

2854not. I attribute this largely to the occulted nature of divination and how one

2855must achieve a truly personal relationship with God and Jesus Christ.

2857Which is why I am going to blow the lid off the whole thing. So that all beings

2858have access to God's love and grace.

2860Once your earthly burdens are lifted from you through your personally tailored

2861divination interactive role-playing experience, then you begin to understand

2862what it means to just 'ride.' The riding is true faith in God.

2864Free will totally exists. Heaven and Hell both exist here on Earthy plane

2865simultaneously. Man has chosen Hell for far too long. If you realize your

2866choices were literally reflecting Heaven or Hell through love or fear, the

2867choice would be easy for most people, I believe.

2869Free will is a responsibility, but it is a great gift. God gave us the ability

2870to choose, that we could appreciate our journey into Paradise.

2872Wouldn't you say?

2873-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2875ugathanki:

2876-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2879 Another goal is to bring power back to the written word.

2881... That's actually a great point. Writing is the definition of manifestation,

2882after all, and reading is the conjuration of waveforms aligned with the

2883expression of the writer. That's pretty cool!

2885 Patience was the absolute hardest thing for me to deal with.

2887Yah I hear ya. Patience is tough.

2889 We still exist in Time, and it moves differently based on perspective

2890 (state of mind) and awareness (state of being) and ability to shrug (state

2891 of being excellent to eachother).

2893Great definitions! These three things are core to being realized and

2894actualized. If you can find a good arrangement, stick with it.

2896 This is something to consider with manifestation, we are on this ride

2897 together and your fellow riders' comfort during the passage has to be

2898 respected to the fullest. We all go together, as One.

2900I'm torn because on one hand if I don't put my hand on the tiller, we'll wind

2901up in a situation that makes me highly uncomfortable. But if I lean too hard

2902into my own truth, I could leave everyone behind. I don't know what the answer

2903is, but something's gotta give.

2905 There were so many hints in the beginning of my Psychosis about just

2906 'riding the wave'...

2908Oh yah me too. I was pretty big on that in high school, which coincidentally

2909was when I think I was happiest. Maybe I should give it another shot! But at

2910the same time I moved beyond it for a reason - I felt frustrated that my

2911intentions weren't manifest in the life I lived. So I reached for reason and I

2912begged for the power to control my own life, while learning respect and

2913kindness whenever I could. Sadly for me, my efforts were largely rebuffed, but

2914I bet you could have guessed that ;)

2916 Which is why I am going to blow the lid off the whole thing. So that all

2917 beings have access to God's love and grace.

2919Take it from me, they won't believe you unless you're VERY scientific! I'm

2920trying to create just one single believer, someone who could trawl through my

2921notes and my readings and construct a cohesive theorum that might be able to

2922affect positive change. Maybe it's too much to wish to change the world, but I

2923can't help but believe my position and the privileges granted to me could be

2924leveraged toward something truly meaningful and helpful for all mankind.

2925Something that frees us from the shackles forged from technology (both social

2926and technical) and allows us to become our true selves - every human is to be

2927cherished for their unique perspective, and yet we allow them to die... Where

2928is the justice in that? Are they too flawed to persist? I don't believe so, I

2929believe they are worthwhile and good. I'd give my life to grant them eternal

2930life, if only they'd take it from me.

2932 Once your earthly burdens are lifted from you through your personally

2933 tailored divination interactive role-playing experience, then you begin to

2934 understand what it means to just 'ride.' The riding is true faith in God.

2936Riding = trust, both in yourself (to handle the challenges arrayed before you

2937and to learn and grow truthfully) and in God (trusting that the

2938undifferentiated whole could never harm you, not truly) ... I can ride my bike

2939with no handlebars, and yet we persist...

2941 Free will is a responsibility, but it is a great gift. God gave us the

2942 ability to choose, that we could appreciate our journey into Paradise.

2944 Wouldn't you say?

2946Yep that's really it, isn't it? Two sides of the same coin, two breaths in the

2947same moment. Two eyes sharing a single perspective, and two hearts beating a

2948single wave. They say soul mates aren't real, but they never stopped to ask if

2949your mate was your soul. If she suffers, I triumph. If I fall, she rises. If I

2950languish, she's happy - I think I'd rather we both just coast, so no harm done.

2951I think that's the best way to appreciate the gift of free will.

2952-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2955 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/sundays-sure-are-boring

2956--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2957if people are invested in a 401k they are invested in the future of the stocks

2958they own. if you want to see who benefits from the actions of a company, look

2959at which corporations their employees 401ks are invested in. It's a layer of

2960protection for these companies.

2962bitcoin is a bit like "the laundromat" on netflix

2964the faster your life feels the longer term you make plans. and the lack of

2965effort spent on short term plans causes them to be defeated by other plans

2967What you perceive as others is nothing like what they perceive as themselves.

2968It's always different, and seeing and internalizing those is what it means to

2969see someone. If you only project, you'll get a viewpoint tampered by your

2970intentions - that's why it's important to have good first impressions - it

2971defines the intent of all of that person's interactions with you. It's like a

2972line expanding out from a single point. Like a loading bar, expanding from the

2973left side of the screen to the right. And seeing the other person's idea of

2974what they believe themselves to be. That's what true empathy is. What do you

2975think you look like in other people's mind? I believe it's born from a series

2976of tags that are interpreted and a character is generated. Earth is the biggest

2977and most complicated character generator ever - it's like 4D D&D - it even

2978generates a whole backstory! Or full story? Why stop anywhere! Just keep

2979generating it every time the player makes an action. Oh oh and make it like

29803D so you could actually live it - extreme full dive VR style. It just wouldn't

2981be fun if you remembered how complicated 4d life was. Sometimes it's just good

2982to have some junk food, you know? To regenerate that most precious of materials

2983- spirit. You have to have passion, faith, belief, and strong positive feelings

2984in order to be fully realized and at your most human. Essentially... Be

2985yourself - (TO THE MAX!!!) - and empathize with others, and never forget the

2986things you hold most dear. Be strong in your convictions, hold to your heart,

2987and dedicate yourself to a lifetime in the service of others.

2989Faith - to have faith in something is to trust that it will succeed. To know

2990 there's no matter they can't match - to give faith is to empower

2991 another. By dedicating yourself to a cause, you are assigning the

2992 target of your belief - such is what religion is designed for.

2994Belief - Acceptance of truth - to accept goodness as truth is to grant it the

2995 power to perform as expected. When goodness and truth are

2996 equivicalized, they imply one another. A truth can influence the world

2997 around it's locus point, because what we imagine to occur is the

2998 ripples of what has passed through. A life is an

3000-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3002the universe is like the slow burning of a four dimensional wick. Imagine it

3003like a forest of solid silicon - like packing material made of webs. And think

3004of all the parts of the universe that are burning. Isn't it strange that life

3005is just starting to bloom? Why wouldn't we be the first, or at least near the

3006beginning! There's so much to this experience, and it's all burning down.

3007The endless machines of imagination are crumbling under the heat of a million

3008billion burning stars. Black holes are just towers that never ignited - perhaps

3009we sit on the edge of spacetime - equal above, and equal below. But we've been

3010laying on our backs - we don't know what's backwards in time. Like laying in a

3011lazy river, or the layer of separation between oil and water.

3013Remember the hourglasses of oil and water? Or water and air... The edge of the

3014"bubble" that separates those two mediums is like the thin wall between two

3015or more concepts. Each human is a concept, and we stick together like matter

3016in a planet. Pushed to great pressures, it can sometimes fuse two experiences

3017together! Like fusion in a star, except for souls and creative minds instead of

3018denser matter.

3020What is the soul of a man? It is the combination of two sides of the membrane -

3021two minds, two perspectives. That is a brain - the intersection of two minds.

3023So... Work together, ya dinguses.

3025-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3027All minds are in constant contact with one another. And those that can see

3028through the veil (membrane) are able to discern the true thoughts of others. So

3029the number of people who are close to you is the number and strength of your

3030connections for all time. So... Form relationships and place meaning in them.

3031That is what will define your interactions for all time, at every time. It's

3032okay to be flawed. If you weren't, it'd be the end for you. But luckily you

3033have no real power, and so you are left in a state of disrepair - no power to

3034push yourself forward. And in return, you are the purest. Keep that flame

3035burning, and share it when you can.

3037-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3039 -> file: notes/80-80

3040--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3041Family, Duty, Honor

3043My family is my people and my people are who I choose.

3044My duty is to serve, and I serve who I will.

3045My Honor is respect, and that belief is my own.

3048 -> file: notes/my-oath

3049--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3050The Truth of Meth-Induced Schizophrenia... A personal narrative of a "mostly"

3051conscious human ---- /u/No-Arrival6018

3052/r/psychonaut

3054Your reality is what you make of it, once you take the mask off that hides the

3055pain, and you see this drug for what it truly is, then you can decide. Do you

3056let it take control? Descending into madness, psychosis, a self created loop in

3057time, a never-ending personal hell? Or do you transmute the negative energy

3058into your wildest dreams, self-love, or appreciation for the True Self to arise

3059and heal the wounds of your traumas that lay before you? It's a choice. Believe

3060me, I've been at the bridge between heaven and hell. I threw aside my pain, my

3061Ego, and leapt into the "Ocean of Love" (A.K.A Boundlessness) ... and decided I

3062was the one in control. The chains of slavery broke from my wrists, and I cried

3063out in tears of Joy, once more being able to look at my own reflection.... Her

3064eyes finally had light. The shadow of shame was gone.

3066I want to make a note: Hell is meth-induced Schizophrenia. There's a fine line

3067within the worlds of both Psychology and Spirituality. In Psychology, it is

3068Psychosis/Paranoia/Delusions etc.... But in Spirituality, It's called a

3069"Spiritual Crisis" ... which can happen with drugs, meditation, chanting, or

3070any altered state of consciousness. A spontaneous "awakening" so to speak. And

3071it can go really bad..... really fucking fast. If you experience this with

3072drugs it has a higher likelihood of shattering/fragmenting your personality,

3073creating different self states.... similar to Multiple-Personality disorder.

3074There is no reversing true Schizophrenia onset from drug abuse.... BUT, if you

3075have dabbled with any sort of real Psychedelics' such as Mushrooms, Mescaline,

3076or DMT, and understand the concept of "Ego-Death" with psychedelics..... you

3077can avoid Meth-Induced Schizophrenia. The whole experience changes, and becomes

3078a source of healing. It sounds crazy, and it sure as hell fucking is. But it's

3079real. And avoidable, if you have the tools and the knowledge.

3082 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/a-personal-narrative

3083--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3084*=============================================================================*

3085| |

3086| Law of Attraction is easier to understand, when you realize that life |

3087| mirrors your spiritual state of being. It's therefore not a short cut. |

3088| |

3089| - /u/UrsaneInTheMembrane to /r/spirituality |

3090| |

3091*=============================================================================*

3093Spiritual teachers diminish/obfuscate/complicate the real work it takes in

3094understanding Law of Attraction.

3096I personally didn't think it was real until I started changing myself. The

3097quality of my spirit and existence has gone from hell up to blissed out mode,

3098and now everything starts coming together in mysterious ways with innumerable

3099synchronicities along the way.

3101The most simple explanation, and it doesn't require any action from a distance

3102(woo), is that life does indeed mirror you and that other people around you

3103mirror you.

3105Your thoughts/emotions will mirror to you, your spiritual issues and

3106conscience.

3108Your state of being mirrors those emotions, which takes much longer to

3109form/change than thoughts/emotions.

3111Your overall drive mirrors the state of being, which determines the trajectory

3112of your life's course.

3114The friends you choose are on the same spiritual hangups you're on, most

3115likely.

3117The way in which people react to you, is mostly based on how sociable you can

3118be.

3120Your opportunities only happen successfully, when you're completely prepared

3121for them to occur.

3123Most importantly, your life mirrors the potential you agree to exercise within

3124yourself.

3126Just imagine building a rocket to send astronauts into space. You're absolutely

3127required to waste thousands of man hours in order to fail at what you're doing

3128and have to start over, so that you can revise over and over again, a perfect

3129rocket.

3131You are always shedding off old versions of self in the same way. It's called

3132Positive Disintegration, or Solvet Et Coagula.

3134Once that rocket gets going, that's when it starts to really pop off. And

3135you'll get there, if you just keep trying.

3137===============================================================================

3139 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/law-of-attraction

3140--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3141Mental illnesses are technically the result of neurochemistry, but what people

3142tend to forget that our experiences and our lifestyle affect neurochemistry in

3143a major way. You see this most clearly in trauma-related disorders (such as

3144PTSD and C-PTSD), because those can occur in previously perfectly healthy

3145individuals and fundamentally change the way those individuals process

3146information, store memories and react to stimuli.

3148And living under late stage capitalism is fucking traumatic.

3150War and terrorism are traumatic. Colonialism is traumatic. Being poor is

3151traumatic. Financial crises are traumatic. The 24 hour news cycle is traumatic.

3152Abusive/dangerous work environments are traumatic. Police brutality is

3153traumatic. A lot of online content is traumatic. Cyberbullying is traumatic.

3154Being a minority that's the target of yet another culture war is traumatic.

3155Climate change and environmental destruction are traumatic. Most countries'

3156education systems are traumatic. Having your privacy invaded and your personal

3157information stolen is traumatic.

3159And that's not even getting into the damage that being overworked and

3160constantly stressed out does to your brain. Or the pollutants we're exposed to

3161every single day. Or the shitty food we eat. Or the fact that many of us rarely

3162get fresh air and sunlight. Or being unable to have friends and a family, or

3163spend time with those that we have. Or having to live in gray concrete hells

3164overrun with suffering people, right next to displays of outrageous wealth. Or

3165being too poor, too worn out and/or too busy to pursue our artistic and

3166intellectual interests. Or being constantly bombarded with messages that

3167systematically chip away at our self-esteem to get us to buy more products.

3169The worst thing is that we can't get away from any of that because meaningful

3170political participation is completely impossible for all but a lucky few, and

3171most of us are too tired or too sick to do anything anyway. Or we've been

3172brainwashed into thinking that collective action (no matter decentralized) is

3173somehow authoritarian and that rugged individualism is the only way to pull

3174yourself up by your bootstraps.

3176Treating the nightmare we live in with antidepressants is like treating a

3177gaping, bleeding wound with painkillers.

3179 - /u/bigbutchbudgie

3181 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/dystopian-mental-health

3182--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3183===============================================================================

3185Alright kids, listen up. You wanna save the earth? Then teach what you've been

3186learning. Start with empathy - if we can see that other people's perspectives

3187exist and is *fundamentally different than our own*, we can save humanity. When

3188I say *fundamentally different* you should know what I mean, but if you don't

3189then start listening to others.

3191Don't listen to the people who try and recruit you into a cult. This isn't a

3192doctrine, it's a skill. It can be honed through personal pursuit, and *should*

3193be honed through personal pursuit. It is your responsibility to do so. Any

3194form of organization is simply an expression of power, and while it may use the

3195same principles it's not really what I'm advocating for right now - what I'm

3196saying is essentially *if we can read other people's minds, we'll stop killing

3197each other*. Boom simple easy as that.

3199Empathy is a form of mind-reading. It's literally a thing you can do with a

32006th sense or whatever - I've been trying to understand the mechanics of it, but

3201all I've got so far is that *mechanics exist* and *generally have something to

3202do with waves* - I need someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone in real life

3203who I can work with and experiment with. But alas, this isn't about me - it's

3204about *YOUR SPECIES*. I'm trying to save you, stupid apes, stop RESISTING me.

3205Goddamnit.

3207You're never going to learn if you focus on the material. That's looking

3208backward, there's so much more to life and experience. I'm not going to leave

3209you behind, although I'll be *fine* so I'm not exactly *worried for my own

3210sake* - this is about YOU. Please, I have a lot of love invested in you and it

3211breaks my heart that you won't LISTEN and be AWARE. WAKE UP.

3213Okay. So. If you're still here, you're probably aware of what I mean. If not,

3214that's okay you can stay just don't be afraid if this part *wooshes* over your

3215head, as it were.

3217===============================================================================

3219Alright so empathy. It starts by thinking "oh what if I was a starving kid in

3220africa or whatever* and actually trying to *feel* the emotions of people in

3221your life. But it goes far beyond emotions - when sufficiently practiced you

3222can start to feel *sensations* as well. If you're watching a movie and someone

3223gets a cut or something, it *really hurts* and you can feel it. That's a form

3224of projection - the actor is *projecting* their feelings onto you - a sign of

3225good acting, imho.

3227Then it moves beyond that, to thoughts and experiences. You can feel a real

3228embodied experience of another person just by listening and percieving them.

3229Not listening to their words, but listening to their *vibrations*. Not

3230percieving their face or hands or anything else with your *eyes*, but feeling

3231their position on a zillion different axises. Well, not actually a zillion but

3232I've never bothered to count. Basically any factors that could combine to form

3233a single human perspective having an experience. ALL THE VARIABLES are plotted

3234on an axis, and you can get a sense for where they are at.

3236This is very dangerous to someone with something to hide.

3238Hence, politics lol

3240When those kooky new-agey types say they can "see auras" this is basically

3241what they're talking about. But you came here with a purpose, while they tend

3242to stumble into it "wow god is good omg" that kinda thing. This is a *skill*

3243that (as far as I know) anyone can learn. If we all learn it at once, then

3244there's nothing that can go wrong.

3246I know, I get it, most people aren't ready. Well tough shit it's that or

3247extinction. They don't get to choose, it's time.

3249===============================================================================

3251 -> file: notes/wanna-save-the-earth-?

3252--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3253===============================================================================

3255I think the problem with the control problem is with how we are looking at it.

3256It's a frame of a frame. Everyone is referencing someone else and saying it's

3257going to get out of hand, yeah but how?

3259 -/u/JackDMcLovin

3261===============================================================================

3263In regards to the control problem side bar can we change it to "which it can

3264better use as something else." Because the issue is with efficiency, the way it

3265reads is like for human-harvesting, which the privatized autobots will outlaw.

3266Plus, if AI is transferrable to neuronal impulses, then you are AI, and it is

3267you, and you are the problem that needs to be controlled.

3269That's what i said in my unpublished paper, the individual cannot be controlled

3270so how do we control AI, we become AI, AI becomes us. but that's just the

3271digital world. The analog world is much bigger.

3273​

3275And my other paper copyrighted is on Arc Length calculus, a whole new type of

3276calculus, that should rebreed all forms of calculation. and is a thing that

3277applies to itself in 2^N ways. Which means AI can never catch up. So if I could

3278think of that, what am I?

3280​

3282AI is not the end of it. It all depends on your transfer function. and your

3283transfer function all depends on your conversion/codec/filetype/transformation.

3284The transfer function of:

32861/(1+e^-x) is just one equation. Let me try this out for you with inferring a

3287substitutional vector:

32891/(1+e^-Bx+C)

3291​

3293this can be expanded further and further.

3295​

3297and these all give different outputs and are different breeds of AI.

3299​

3301I used a different transformation on a different AI and I got a different

3302answer. For example 8x better using a Wavelet transform on an analog signal.

3303And there is infinitely infinitely infinite different types of wavelet

3304transforms, and they should all give different answers, i just didn't have

3305enough time for it at the time.

3307 -/u/JackDMcLovin

3309===============================================================================

3311I am sorry to say that your writing (in this post and others) shows strong

3312signs of an untreated mental illness. You are not revolutionising math, you're

3313losing contact with reality. Please, please get help. You need to see a doctor

3314about this.

3316 -/u/Roxolan

3318===============================================================================

3320I agree. I've seen what a psychosis is like on a close friend of mine, and this

3321post is very reminiscent of how he talked while he was psychotic.

3323It looks like incoherent rambling from the outside, but the person

3324saying/writing it feels as if it makes sense.

3326 -/u/Luckychatt

3328===============================================================================

3330if you think it's incoherent explain how it's incoherent don't just slander and

3331slur like there's not an OP here.

3333 -/u/JackDMcLovin

3335===============================================================================

3337You may take it as slur or slander, but I didn't mean to offend. It genuinely

3338looks like incoherent rambling from the outside. My friend who was psychotic

3339sincerely believed what he said to make sense and he also got very agitated

3340when it was pointed out.

3342 -/u/LuckyChatt

3344===============================================================================

3346yeah still, you havent described what doesn't make sense to you, that to me

3347doesn't make sense, you get it?

3349 -/u/JackDMcLovin

3351===============================================================================

3353What I mean by incoherent rambling is that you constantly move to new topics.

3354The title is posing a question which you never answer. Then you talk about the

3355side bar. You mention efficiency? Then you mention some mathematical papers as

3356if we are supposed to know them. Then talk about AI as if it is equal to math

3357equations. I mean. You either leave out an incredible amount of context, or

3358you're just rambling out sentences. Either way, it's impossible to understand

3359what you're trying to say.

3361And the way you're rambling out sentences is very reminiscent of what it sounds

3362like when a person has mental health issues.

3364 -/u/Luckychatt

3366===============================================================================

3368Right, so you comprehend it, just not why. AI is pure math.

3370It's not incoherent, you're all just stupid. Try reading something that's not

3371news, where it repeats everything to you in different ways.

3373 -/u/JackDMcLovin

3375===============================================================================

3377I have a masters in physics and computer science, I work for a major silicon

3378valley company and have read everything I could find about AI. I still have

3379zero idea of what you're trying to say in your original post.

3381 -/u/Luckychatt

3383===============================================================================

3385Master’s in AI chiming in. Let’s break it down piece by piece.

3387 Because the issue is with efficiency, the way it reads is like for

3388human-harvesting, which the privatized autobots will outlaw.

3390Non sequitur.

3392 Plus, if AI is transferrable to neuronal impulses, then you are AI, and it

3393is you, and you are the problem that needs to be controlled.

3395Non sequitur and generally nonsensical premise.

3397 That’s what i said in my unpublished paper,

3399Peer review exists for a reason.

3401 the individual cannot be controlled so how do we control AI, we become AI,

3402AI becomes us. but that’s just the digital world. The analog world is much

3403bigger.

3405​Word soup, this is nonsense.

3407 And my other paper copyrighted is on Arc Length calculus, a whole new type

3408of calculus, that should rebreed all forms of calculation.

3410Calculus has been around for about 350 years. You either need extreme genius or

3411delusional thinking to believe you have arrived at a truly revolutionary

3412development in that field. We also already have tools for dealing with calculus

3413on curved objects and spaces; see differential geometry, topology, and

3414manifolds.

3416 and is a thing that applies to itself in 2N ways.

3418This is incomprehensible because you have not explained what it means for your

3419calculus to be applied a certain way, how it is relevant to the rest of this

3420text, and what N represents in this context.

3422 Which means AI can never catch up. So if I could think of that, what am I?

3424This is incomprehensible because you have not defined what catching up means,

3425and have not argued why artificial intelligence can’t scale this way.​

3427 AI is not the end of it.

3429At the end of what?

3431 It all depends on your transfer function.

3433Why? Transfer functions are mainly something encountered in signal processing.

3434How does this relate to artificial intelligence?

3436 and your transfer function all depends on your

3437conversion/codec/filetype/transformation.

3439Lossless compression makes this irrelevant. The way we store information has no

3440importance when we reconstruct it perfectly.

3442 The transfer function of:

3444 1/(1+e-x) is just one equation. Let me try this out for you with inferring

3445a substitutional vector:

3447You have not defined how this equation relates to artificial intelligence. We

3448cannot interpret it.

3450 1/(1+e-Bx+C)

3452This is just a pre-composed linear transformation. How is this relevant?

3454 this can be expanded further and further.

3456​How? By adding redundant linear terms? How is this helpful?

3458 and these all give different outputs and are different breeds of AI.

3460You have not explained how transfer functions relate to artificial

3461intelligence. This statement is incomprehensible.

3463 I used a different transformation on a different AI and I got a different

3464answer.

3466An answer to what?

3468 For example 8x better using a Wavelet transform on an analog signal.

3470How is 8x better quantified? Why are we talking about analog signals? Why are

3471we talking about wavelet transforms? They are rarely ever used in machine

3472learning and artificial intelligence.

3474 And there is infinitely infinitely infinite different types of wavelet

3475transforms, and they should all give different answers, i just didn’t have

3476enough time for it at the time.

3478Sure, you can build infinitely wavelet bases, but why is that relevant?

3480Making enormous claims and backing out with “I don’t have the time to prove

3481it” is just intellectual dishonesty.

3483I know my reply will likely come off as dismissive, but there is something

3484genuinely worrying in what you’ve written. I just hope you are okay. When

3485everything caves in and the only justification you have for other peoples’

3486reaction to your behaviour is that everyone else is at fault, you have to ask

3487yourself if the one common point in these interactions, yourself, is at fault.

3488This is just Occam’s razor.

3490 -/u/sabouleux

3492===============================================================================

3494love this.

3496artist, word-nerd & very baby scientist/philosopher chiming in, lets break it

3497down from a more creative POV as well and see if we can cross reference with

3498your wonderful contribution.

3500 Because the issue is with efficiency, the way it reads is like for

3501human-harvesting, which the privatized autobots will outlaw.

3503Slight non-sequitur. The energy efficiency issue I think they're trying to

3504touch on is the exponential growth of tech as contrasted with the exponential

3505loss of available material/energy. There's also a pessimistic "matrix human

3506battery" undertone but that feels irrelevant.

3508Human-harvesting in this case is literal - human labor, whether looked upon

3509favorably or not, is by definition harvesting/using human energy - implying

3510that the next steps of said exponential growth would be understanding and

3511messing with the human mind and it's distributions of energy, possibly also

3512mind-tech fusion (which we already do with computer keyboards, drugs, medicine,

3513earbuds etc).

3515Privatized Autobots is a reference to those who claim they wish to help being

3516more of a hinderance due to the privatization/profit aspect of tech/AI, mostly

3517just a joke poking at the two party concept of debate/politics/even tech

3518(advance beyond or reduce consumption? an infinite debate.)

3520 Plus, if AI is transferrable to neuronal impulses, then you are AI, andit

3521is you, and you are the problem that needs to be controlled.

3523Transferrable was maybe the wrong word. I think they meant more of a "map"

3524onto, instead of a "move" into. i.e., a big issue with AI being the lack of

3525learning from new stimulus without requiring old contextual stimulus to

3526contrast it against and understand it. (to my knowledge this hasn't been solved

3527yet but you're the expert on that, would love to know more.)

3529If neuronal impulses can be considered as a map to AI, then yes, a human could

3530be considered a very advanced biomechanical AI, except for the 'artificial'

3531bit, even though our perceptions are technically still arteficial. because we,

3532for the most part, do have the ability to take new information and learn from

3533it/determine something about it without any previous knowledge than what we've

3534collected throughout our time alive.

3536The issue arises when our form of bio-AI can only be properly, carefully

3537developed through millions of years of evolution and adaptation, and when we

3538try to mimic it without having evolved further, we're trying to 'cheat' at time

3539and kick start things a bit, which would explain why we're at a bit of a speed

3540bump in terms of development cap.

3542'You' being the problem is a reference to not actually understanding the human

3543brain in it's entirety, i think. Like, there's the study of it, so we know what

3544bits do what and where they are, but we can't replicate that (yet), without

3545straight up literally growing a brain in a jar, which we still have yet to turn

3546into a fully-fledged human who could repeat the process of brain-growing

3547themself. we also can't consciously affect these processes without an enormous

3548amount of discipline (meditation is a great example).

3550 That’s what i said in my unpublished paper,

3552agreed. peer review.

3554 the individual cannot be controlled so how do we control AI, we becomeAI,

3555AI becomes us. but that’s just the digital world. The analog worldis much

3556bigger.

3558i get what they're saying but i think there's something to be said for

3559discipline and neuroplasticity, not necessarily third-partying it. if someone

3560else can't control the individual, can the individual control the individual?

3561Brings us back to the issue of AI needing to be self-expanding.

3563Get the human mind to understand self-expansion, get the AI to understand too,

3564is what i think they're touching at, hence "You are the problem". the human

3565mind not being disciplined, in this case, is the problem, because it requires

3566the discipline to become disciplined at something. loop paradox.

3568i think here they're also stating that any created AI, future or present, is

3569only possible as an extension of the human mind, and nowhere else. A random

3570collection of letters and numbers would surely write Shakespeare's works if

3571enough monkeys tapped at the typewriter, but still couldn't exist without the

3572monkey's own wherewithal.

3574The discipline comes in when resisting the urge to keyboard-smash out of

3575frustration and instead laying out artistic meaning through informative letter

3576symbols as well as other nuance of human language.

3578bit odd here, analog isn't necessarily 'bigger' per se it's just less

3579quantized/optimized/streamlined/processable by the mind. it's definitely a

3580different/harder beast to handle than digital though, and there's more sensory

3581sources, but it's just as infinite as any other infinity, so... same size,

3582different complexity/concentration/time we've had to look around.

3584 And my other paper copyrighted is on Arc Length calculus, a whole newtype

3585of calculus, that should rebreed all forms of calculation.

3587Agreed, calculus as been around for a while. Still, one should test their

3588hypotheses. I'm not a math nerd so I can't touch as much on those. would still

3589love to read some of those papers one day.

3591 -/u/sunbloomofficial

3593===============================================================================

3596 and is a thing that applies to itself in 2^n ways.

3598agreed, we'd need context, but i can read into it a bit. power of two would

3599imply self-modification in an exponential sense, ie. dunning-kruger effect,

3600except exponential instead of mu (μ) curved. so, taking in new information

3601after completely abolishing the cocky confidence of the first lesson would

3602change the understanding drastically.

3604could also be read as "knowing that one knows nothing."also, applying to itself

3605could imply that n is in a constant state of flux given any situation and could

3606be adjusted to optimize... storage space? memory? "RAM"? that's where this

3607sentence fizzles out for me.

3609 Which means AI can never catch up. So if I could think of that, what am I?

3611by 'catching up' i think they mean the idea of AI being on the same level of

3612functioning as a human. since humans have had since the beginning of human life

3613and their life to start developing our bio-AI, this sort of touches on that

3614same exponential expansion, except with time and the universe's rate of

3615expansion.

3617if humans are the most advanced AI possible, what's the most advanced human

3618possible? at what point do humans become so advanced that they can sort of

3619"skip the line" of evolution and develop an AI that's on par with human

3620collective knowledge and individual self-sustenance/instinct?

3622if that's not possible, what forces determine the limit of evolution achievable

3623in the span of one human life?they then touch on the paradox of realizing that.

3624if no AI could capture my specific human brain, experiences, memories, biases,

3625tendencies, etc, then wtf AM I, and whatever 'I' am, why is that stopping us/me

3626(figuratively) from making progress in AI?

3628 AI is not the end of it.

3630here i think they mean "the end of human development" as much as "the end of

3631what constitutes a human brain." AI could be developed and utilized, but at

3632some point either the AI will outgrow us, making us obsolete, or we learn from

3633the AI and progress with it, or we learn from the AI and start modifying our

3634own brain-code in conjunction with digital AI.

3636so... they mean that AI is not the end of evolution, not the end of humans, not

3637the end of progress, not the end of understanding the human brain in the

3638context of AI.

3640 It all depends on your transfer function.

3642yup, signal processing. spot on. this is a reference to the titular "frame"

3643idea, in which any idea that can be conveyed by english words isn't the true

3644idea. the menu isn't the food, the map isn't the terrain, so to speak. this

3645function of transfer between people can be optimized (efficient idea

3646communication for that specific person, aka 'speaking in their language', aka

3647code-switching) or deprecated (important stuff lost in translation that usually

3648ends in hostility, aka political otherism, aka xenophobia, aka widespread

3649misinformation/lack of information resulting in conspiracy theories, etc).

3651to be able to adjust one's transfer function in the context of another entity,

3652(aka frame-shifting, putting yourself in their shoes, speak their language etc)

3653would then be a hallmark and necessary trait for an AI to understand what it

3654comes across without our input. because of this, we'd have to be very careful

3655to feed it only information that urges onward the ability to switch transfer

3656functions, so... a bit of everything, actually. this would look a lot like

3657mimicking the senses - microphones for ears, cameras for eyes, pressure sensors

3658for touch, etc.

3660a great analogy to this would be... well, this! your transfer function is a

3661masters in AI studies. brilliant. my transfer function is music, art, poetry,

3662many a mental illness (lol), and finding new functions/learning. that's why i'm

3663commenting at all - so we can mix our transfer functions and get a bigger idea

3664of things as a whole. i think OP's exactly right but sadly their own transfer

3665function wasn't optimized for the receiving party (since it was an OP and not a

3666comment reply), hence why they seem psychotic/delusional at first glance to an

3667unaccustomed reader.

3669there's also the idea that mixing the digital AI transfer function with the

3670analog human transfer function would do something similar.this would relate to

3671artificial intelligence directly, especially regarding OOBEs and stuff like

3672dissociation, astral projection, putting oneself in another's shoes, even just

3673the mind's eye. those things can be mimicked/visualized/interpreted with AI,

3674but they can't be done by an AI (yet).

3676a self-expanding computer program couldn't use it's base of knowledge to step

3677outside of itself, it's 'computer prison' so to speak. it could however become

3678"self aware", where it sees and understands it's own makeup to the point where

3679it could make adjustments.

3681 -/u/sunbloomofficial

3683===============================================================================

3685this is paralleled with most human 'spiritual awakening' - a hard long look at

3686oneself, epiphany, followed by noticeable adjustments to lifestyle in an

3687attempt to integrate this new information and effort to improve quality of

3688life/increase the chance of more epiphanies to continue improving.

3690this doesn't however cover the seemingly 'mystical' properties of the human

3691imagination, i use that word loosely. "do androids dream of electric sheep" is

3692a great book of course but the title alone feels relevant.

3694at some point of self-development, would an AI develop a sort of... i hate to

3695say randomizer, but like... nah, it's more of a "link clicker" random than a

3696"pick a number" random. an AI's dream might literally just be browsing the

3697internet - seeing all the funny, nonsensical, cultural, and even scientifically

3698misleading information spread deep throughout the internet.

3700this would parallel with human dreams, which are incomprehensible and random at

3701first glance until one gets into dream reading, which can ground that

3702subjective random in one's own transfer function so as to make it

3703understandable.

3705if a human dreams of popping a pimple, that's typically regarded as a sign of

3706self-image issues in dream-reading circles (regardless of your stance on it's

3707legitimacy it's a useful allegory). if an AI were to dream of pimple-popping

3708ASMR videos, how could it parse that into it's transfer function without

3709damaging it's transfer function by putting a bunch of random shit in there?

3711essentially, our brain 'filters' out what we're not focused on, hence

3712peripheral vision/hyperfocus/translation issues. any transfer function, whether

3713human or AI, must have that filter as much as the ability to remove it.

3714therefore, an AI would need to have the ability to experience what makes ASMR

3715interesting/enjoyable (having ears to feel frisson and know what to expect from

3716that) before it could ever make sense of such a weird dream.

3718 and your transfer function all depends on your

3719conversion/codec/filetype/transformation.

3721this one's FUN. so, yes, we have lossless compression now, and it's wonderful,

3722but...

3724filespace. unless i'm rendering a final song to be distributed to platforms, i

3725would use solely mp3 encoding. even when i do use wav/flac, i often zip those

3726files in an attempt to minimize their painful impact on my hard drive.

3727thousands of songs do not go well with lossless lol. it's just inefficient

3728except in the case of archival.

3730which brings me to the fun bit - contrast. aka negative space aka the wonderful

3731plugin Ghz Lossy 3, and pretty much any of sxth sns's

3733music. essentially, the lack of information is information. if the only

3734information your brain is getting is the lack of information you have, then

3735boom, you're sad and not learning anything. often referred to as "the void

3736inside one's stomach". if the only information you're getting is an endless

3737stream of new information (read: social media and doomscrolling) then boom,

3738overstimulated, depressed, and exhausted.

3740Lossy 3 is a great plugin because it lets you mimic the effect of mp3 encoding

3741artifacts and amplify that effect at will in real time(+ latency), much like

3742distortion can be a form of subtractive processing or additive (adding harmonic

3743information rather than degrading what's already there). the extra harmonic

3744information changes not only the quality of the sound but the context.

3745therefore, a lack of information, used skillfully, would deeply impact the

3746context of transferred information, hence negative space

3748in photography.

3750this lends itself to an insane amount of creative opportunities, of course, but

3751it also lends itself to interpretation. if the lack of information is

3752information too, and the extremes tend towards misery, then there must be a

3753balance between being so degraded that it's imperceptable garbles and being so

3754lossless that it's a 6gb audio file.

3756that balance is artful loss, imo. balancing understandable, pleasant

3757information with a small enough file size that it doesn't overwhelm (either the

3758listener or the hard drive). in music, silence is very important - you wouldn't

3759cut all the silent gaps out of a song because that messes up the tempo and feel

3760of the song.

3762this can be applied to even just reddit - these super long comments i write are

3763hella inefficient, but they're lossy in a way that's more efficient for me to

3764write than to translate to someone elses, while i'm efficiently "decompressing"

3765other people's files to be read on my own OS and expanding my transfer function

3766dictionary to include relevant information. our little community is well primed

3767for translating different levels of communication efficiency, hence all the

3768poetry and such.

3770so, this is where frame-shifting comes back in - if you can become comfortable

3771at any ratio of contrast, then theoretically you could transfer information at

3772the most optimal balance of loss and preservation for the specific listener. in

3773music, this is called mastering - to make a song sound good on any system. in

3774science, this is the scientific method - test a hypothesis until you can

3775recreate it under the same/similar circumstances.

3777in tech, this is embodied by github - a repository of commonly agreed-upon

3778works created in an agreed-upon language which can be used as the basis for

3779larger projects. each github repo is essentially a lossless preservation of

3780code, made lossy as a result of it's application being so broad/not having

3781immediate context.

3783there's the immediate context of "oh i can use this to serve this purpose", but

3784there's no larger code that it's being built towards beside the code you work

3785on yourself. in other words, github IS the larger code, specifically because of

3786your contribution/use of it.

3788so, essentially, the transfer function is akin to the ratio of contrast, as

3789well as whether the receiving party has the proper codecs to play the

3790file/decompress it (read also, understanding art. lots of art isn't actually

3791"up for interpretation", it's very specific in meaning but that meaning happens

3792to map directly to the observer's transfer function, at least in the case of

3793really thoughtful art).

3795having the ability to know how much to compress it for future reference is also

3796an important ability, because over-compression can leave a file

3797undecipherable/garbled, which i wouldn't hesitate to liken to the superiority

3798complex/undertones of certain widespread modern religions which take their

3799Bible as a literal, historical text.

3801which, i mean, it technically is, but not like that, because it has to be

3802decompressed first. eve didn't literally eat an apple, it was her hubris of

3803disobeying God's will that got them kicked out. A more simple transfer would be

3804reading this as "don't disobey God's will or face the consequences," while a

3805more artistic/interpretive transfer would read that moreso as "not letting

3806one's innate desire for change/adventure/the New damage their presupposed

3807structures of order for a sense of something to fix."

3809the wrath of God in this instance is the knowledge of "i shouldn't have done

3810that," and the consequences those actions bring. even this paragraph is in a

3811transfer function of brevity - notice i didn't actually write out the entire

3812book of genesis. (ooh, also, bible verses are quite like github repos/song

3813playlists/dictionaries. just a widely used version of it. like citing a source,

3814but for a theoretical concept.)

3816so, putting this all together, if we optimize understandable information from

3817quality information, we reduce the need for using more brain-filespace than

3818necessary, leaving more room for more files which we can de- and re-compress at

3819any time, as well as use to modify the amount of RAM our brains have.

3821this would also apply to something like working memory, where forcing the mind

3822to decompress the information actually forces it to understand the information

3823in the long term too, because if you open a .rar file in a text editor you get

3824gibberish (which isn't actually gibberish) but if you open it in an archive

3825extractor, you get the intended files.

3827innately remembering to use an archive extractor instead of a text editor based

3828on the filetype; that's frame-shifting, transfer functions, whatever name one

3829uses.

3831 -/u/sunbloomofficial

3833===============================================================================

3837 1/(1+e-x) is just one equation. Let me try this out for you with inferring

3838a substitutional vector:

3840again, i suck at math.

3842 and these all give different outputs and are different breeds of AI.

3844okay, what these seem to mean is that each equation is a mini-AI, and therefore

3845any equation of the mind would fall under the same category. this would also

3846imply that the human brain is just a collection of equations, which... feels

3847reductionist and a bit cynical, but is still an entirely plausible frame.

3848math's pretty damn reliable at some of that stuff, hence how astrology got it's

3849kick - noticing patterns in life and nature and finding reflections of those

3850same patterns in ourselves and our lives.

3852your horoscope doesn't literally control/predict your personality, but it gives

3853a framework for the previously noticed patterns, which lets the horoscope user

3854determine whether or not to follow that pattern (let that pattern influence

3855them), or to venture off and make their own. (note; op's kinda doing exactly

3856that, except with math.)

3858since a skeptic would have a different output than a "true believer", so to

3859speak, with regard to their horoscope, they're completely different breeds of

3860AI. so, being able to switch between those at will would be an entire step up

3861from that. Hence why code-switching became a thing in marginalized communities

3862- they adapted under pressure to operate in more than one frame.

3864the "slang" frame, (noticable as AAVE, the "gay" voice, valley girl inflection,

3865etc), and the "formal" frame - the most widely understood in our region being

3866english with an acceptably 'white' american accent (the racism is hard to brush

3867off). this of course varies from place to place, person to person, and

3868situation to situation, but the fact that this manifested as a result of

3869oppression/unwealth is pretty friggin interesting in the context of using

3870multiple frames in day-to-day activities and information transfer.

3872 I used a different transformation on a different AI and I got a different

3873answer.

3875that's... hmm. i mean yeah, that's how transformations work on different

3876subjects. i think 'different' here doesn't literally mean different. it means

3877DIFFER-ent, something that has the quality of differing. so, if i'm reading

3878this right, OP used a differing transformation on a differing AI and got a

3879differing answer.

3881this would presuppose that if they were to use a matching transformation on a

3882matching AI, they'd get a matching answer, except the differ-ent transformation

3883with a matching AI would produce a differing result that matches the AI? again,

3884i'm not math-savvy yet, so this one is likely the wrongest of my

3885presuppositions.

3887so, pretty much, frame-switching, but complicated and for all three - the

3888transformation involved, the AI, and the answer.

3890 For example 8x better using a Wavelet transform on an analog signal.

3892okay, this one makes sense to me. essentially, he got improved understanding

3893and responsiveness by adjusting the frequency of information transfer over

3894time, but not the shape. like taking a sine wave, putting it through an

3895oscilloscope, and pitching it up an octave. the difference in cycle frequency

3896is the change, rather than the shape of the cycle.

3898pasted from wiki: "but with additional special properties of the wavelets,

3899which show up at the resolution in time at higher analysis frequencies of the

3900basis function."

3902this one presupposes that the AI in question is actually another person, and

3903the wavelet transform is essentially taking a step back and making even deeper

3904analytical steps of "basis functions". in this case, language and math. so, it

3905would be making an even deeper analytical step into language to optimize

3906information transfer. the 8x mentioned is likely the measure of willingness to

3907listen and understanding of material by whatever third party they're

3908referencing. i have no idea how they measured that but they must've seen enough

3909improvement to have marked it down.

3911 And there is infinitely infinitely infinite different types of wavelet

3912 transforms, and they should all give different answers, i just didn’t

3913 have enough time for it at the time.

3915here, they just mean that every person is different and will require a

3916different combination of wavelet transforms to optimize the information they

3917receive. as for giving different answers, yeah, that'd have to be tested, but

3918it would line up with the other differ model, at least briefly and in my

3919uneducated mind.

3921i think they mean they literally don't have the cosmic time available to

3922actually test an infinite number of wavelet transforms - or anything really -

3923but yeah, it's probably a good idea to test a handful of them eventually.

3925if you're not scared away by the word-wall or ideas presented still i'd love to

3926hear your thoughts. regardless of OP's mental condition(s) i think there are a

3927few substantive ideas in there worth exploring, if not in a community setting

3928at least in their own personal self-exploration and healing. i appreciate you

3929taking their post at face value before making a determination, most wouldn't lol

3931 -/u/sunbloomofficial

3933===============================================================================

3935please post on /r/ShrugLifeSyndicate - genius is useless without guidance and

3936an observer translating thought into language

3938 -/u/ugathanki

3940===============================================================================

3942 -> file: notes/reddit-comments/required-explanations

3943--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

3944 /u/LamaHellRaised

3945if you don't eject quick, could be a nice long ride

3947===============================================================================

3949So for today's descent into my own madness, I want to discuss whether or not I

3950enjoy being both Ra the Sun God and Anubis the God of the Dead.

3952The answer is Yes and No, and everything in between. Also, I do Love being

3953Osiris because I am going to marry my sister, but hahaha, we'll get into that

3954later!!!

3956First, here is a test because I am the worst teacher to ever exist.

3958Full disclosure, I want you to be offended, especially if you consider yourself

3959a:

3961Nigger, Faggot, Cunt, Dyke, Cock-sucker, Bitch, Cracker, Dune-Coon, Kike,

3962Dick-Head, Retard, Republican, Democrat, or any other stupid construct of the

3963human language that HOLDS NO REAL POWER OF YOUR LIFE.

3965Gonna remove this post mods???

3967Oh No! The Cancel Culture is gonna get me!!!

3969Hurry! Somebody save those that cannot think for themselves! Quick!!!

3971I am just listing things that I have been called in my lifetimes. Deciding what

3972can and cannot be expressed through language is a fuckin' path to nowhere and

3973we are approaching nowhere faster than I can run on this euphemism treadmill.

3975Please, keep explaining to me your perception of the Way to Enlightenment,

3976please God, yes! I want to hear all their thoughts! I love hearing from people

3977as I lap them for the thousandth fucking time! All these lower-tier lessons

3978they regurgitate that I've mastered in a day are so important to hear over and

3979over! We are going places people, yay! Keep it up, you can do it!

3981My Love for You really is the source of my eternal patience, as you can see by

3982now, no doubt.

3984Let me explain our own motto to you, Being Excellent to Each Other does not

3985mean creating an environment of suppression because of the fear of how somebody

3986may interpret a Word or Phrase. Everyone can't understand why we are stuck as a

3987society, well, what do you think I am ranting about?!

3989If you refuse to read any further that is your prerogative. Here is a free

3990lesson, if that is the case: I suggest you shut the fuck up, downvote this, and

3991go stare in a mirror, and contemplate why these characters on a screen affect

3992you so deeply.

3994Do these Words trigger past trauma? How is your Avoidance working out for you?

3995How can a symbol create so much emotion within that pathetic, untamed mind of

3996yours???