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 I build myself up on my own.
 I spend myself on work.
 
 To move forward, we must go back
 
 ("to monke?") no to babe ("or to pile-of-rocks") yeah sometimes my spirit
 animal is a boulder
A twitter screenshot.  A much better way to explain "autistic burnout" is an apparent cognitive decline. The longer I spend in an overwhelming environment, the more disoriented I become. That's why employers often tell me it's like I've regressed, even though I've worked for months.  I'm not unfocused, I'm not anxious, I'm not unmotivated, I can no longer process information coming through my sense or in my brain. I will not necessarily meltdown from this. I will just stop moving and communicating.
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=== SIMILARITY RANKED ===

--- #1 fediverse/1841 ---
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 curling up in a ball and thinking about crying for hours is the same as
 crying. If a little bit less of a release.
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--- #2 fediverse/112 ---
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 I live through the moments where I find a folder of stuff I made that I forgot
 about and I can go back and see it for the first time.
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--- #3 fediverse/2881 ---
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 "never lose your totem"
 
 I only lose things when in motion. at rest I know where everything is.
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--- #4 fediverse/4697 ---
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 I want to pee in your pants and throw javelins at visions of bad guys while
 climbing on boulders and gazing to the horizon
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 how it started: "I want to get stoned and play mechabellum (shit, drugs
 mentioned (shit, cursing mentioned))
 
 how it's going: [see attached picture]
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 me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?"
 
 me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and
 then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same
 time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just
 puke, okay?"
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 I want to drink mai tais on a beach T.T
 
 alas, it's winter, and I'm poor
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 @user-620 
 
 "hey I have an idea let's poke a wounded animal with sharp teeth until it
 feels like it's backed into a corner because it's been spending the past
 couple years ruminating and telling itself that we want to kill it and it's
 children"
 
 it doesn't matter what the truth is - they believe what they want.
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 what if we made cat little boxes with stable "pillars" or "platforms" that
 rise just barely above the sand level so their feet don't sink into the
 litter, thus reducing the amount tracked onto the carpet
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--- #10 fediverse/2911 ---
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 and now for my unrepentant littlespace arc! Look at me I'm SoOoOoOo silLY 🤪
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--- #11 fediverse/2480 ---
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 so what if people want to sit on the couch eating cheetos? they're more than
 capable of something far greater, but of course they are allowed to spend as
 they like their life.
 
 their ONLY life.
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 whenever I look away they put more work at the end of my to-do list. or
 sometimes in the middle. It's like they care less about the destination and
 more about the continuous arduous prolonged manifestation of articulation.
 >.>
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 "I'd give my life for a rational voter"
 
 oh yeah well here's 2% of mine, what can you do with these moments I'm handing
 off to you for you to do as you please
 
 "is she talking about class again? must we always repeat old mistakes?"
 
 all for all means all
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 Can you imagine 
 
 Going to your tribal shaman 
 
 Saying "hey you gotta pay rent"
 
 ... Shamans are fine on the street. I should learn. >.>
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 lol I spent half an hour holding a trowel and then I designed a new type of
 digging instrument
 
 and they want me to work a job /eyeroll
 /stickey-outey-tonguey-face/pics/all/total/* -ffvagrnbeexey --no-menus 14
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 if you sit down to write and nothing comes to mind, then either nothing needs
 to be said or maybe you should spend time reading instead.
 
 ... okey dokey, time to read I guess.
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 i type too much, gtg to sleep.
 
 my cat yells at me whenever the click-clack starts to bother her ears.
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 I only take things that aren't mine if they're in the trash. Or near the
 trash. Or in a store.
 
 so weird how the store won't let me leave until I give them some of my
 dollars. This quartermaster drives a hard bargain!
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 okay, uhm, I'm back again because someone told me to forward this to relevant
 people
 
 relevant link so google doesn't have to know that you're all googling the same
 thing at the same time...
 
 http://naeb.brit.org/uses/
Finally, trying to pivot towards Pacific northwestern native perennial plants (and self-seeding annuals) for food, medicine, and material; they're much more adapted to this region as far as sunlight, moisture, bungalow, microbial, avian, insect partner, and soil types are concerned, and that's not only take less work now to instigate and tend, but are much more equipped to handle the fungal infections, droughts, genetic biodiversity collapses, and fluctuating climates that are inbound.  the BRIT ethnobotany database is helpful in that regard, and given that it's based out of Texas and has gynecological herbs, it would be a really good idea for some of the tech queers in our community to duplicate a redundancy of it.
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 @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling
 me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people
 did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively
 encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body
 language spoke for them. I'll try that next time.
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