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 @user-95 I remember the fourth and fifth, and maybe the 2nd or 3rd? somewhere
 in there. might have been sixth or seventh, too. I figured I needed all or
 none of them, but I wasn't sure how or which. Also I can't remember half of
 them, which makes the problem even more confusing...
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--- #1 fediverse/1603 ---
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 @user-1037 
 
 I made a picture, hope it helps! I swear I didn't hallucinate this thing but
 it might be less cool than I thought and I might have misremembered and made
 up parts of it, I can't tell because it was such a short memory : (
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--- #2 messages/267 ---
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 I wonder how many things I've forgot? More every minute, I'd say, and though I
 try and chronicle them all... What's there to say?
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--- #3 messages/140 ---
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 Remind me again why we need computers that are so mind numbingly fast that we
 can't possibly hope to understand their entire stack?
 
 Oh yeah, so we aren't able to understand their stack. How could I forget.
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--- #4 fediverse/5650 ---
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 I exist now at the height of my gluttony.
 
 I need more to be demanded of me.
 
 I am not afraid to ask for help.
 
 I solve other people's problems before my own.
 
 I have very little insight into my habits and patterns.
 
 My memory isn't great, but I recall details that matter.
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--- #5 fediverse/3406 ---
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 @user-1218 
 
 ohhhhh I think the password is menardi. or maybe ephemeren. I forget.
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--- #6 fediverse/1600 ---
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 @user-1037 
 
 oooo those are cool, but it didn't have the "puzzlepiece" arrangement. It was
 more... 2 dimensional I think? More like putting marbles on a chinese-checkers
 board. And they had relationships if you moused over them, like...
 semi-transparent arrows connecting them I think? It was different than
 anything I'd ever seen before.
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 @user-1037 
 
 It had mostly pastel colors I think, well not really pastel, more like that
 mid-2000s aesthetic where everything is glass and colored fluids / palm trees
 / dolphins
 
 I remember there were different colors / shapes for different operations like
 "add" or "while loop" and I think they combined somehow? It was a real
 experimental thing I think, but there was an animation so I'm assuming it was
 functional. I'm trying to remember more about it but I can't, it's so
 random... I don't even know what I'd search for really.
 
 I just had a friend who I think would really like it, and I was thinking of my
 friend and that came to mind...
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--- #8 messages/416 ---
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 Do you ever wonder why you can't remember anything after being stoned? Why the
 words you write down, oh so profound in the moment, turn to silliness and
 illusion upon coming off your high mont-vantage? Of course, dear reader,
 because all things are defined in waves.
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--- #9 fediverse/5374 ---
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 @user-138 
 
 me neither... guess it's in-person for me.
 
 [a mysterious "they" then proceeds to set up microphones everywhere I might go]
 
 ah nuts why are all these people carrying phones around
 
 [they already know who I am, and I don't really want to be someone else, so]
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 "imagine if this was the last thing you remembered"me, last night, in a state
 of mind that I don't remember today
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 @user-1218 
 
 Stuff like that made me want to become a lawyer.
 
 I didn't, because while I can memorize a D&D textbook I can't recall much
 about legal rulings unless it has something to do with swords.
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 @user-579 
 
 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually
 mine
 
 I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how
 would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft
 cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works.
 
 usually.
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 "oh also I should mention that if you think about her too hard or too often
 there's a chance she'll overhear what you're talking about anyway so try not
 to think about her too much."
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 @user-882 
 
 I dunno I just remember having that problem every once in a while and if you
 search the man page for "sub" it takes like, 16 n pushes to find what you need
 and it's like... can't you just put the flags and keyboard shortcuts at the
 beginning??
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 @user-883 
 
 My friends and I decided to hang out for two days in a row, I guess they
 aren't tired of me yet hehe - I might be around tonight but I'll let you know!
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 Look, when I promised "Revolution or Death" I got pretty busy and kinda forgot
 to do the "dying" part, and by now it'd be a little awkward if I offed myself
 for no visible reason, so... How about we try again this summer? Maybe in a
 month or two? I'll try to keep the fire burning a bit longer this time.
 
 plus I'm better at playing the piano now so maybe that'll help somehow.
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 do as I say, and as I do.
 
 or don't, do as you want to.
 
 I hope you do want to do what I say to do.
 
 I wouldn't say it if I didn't think it was right.
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 what if it was a constitutional amendment that all measures of law enforcement
 must be done with parity of force
 
 well, that's a heuristic for being right, but not an uncommon one among the
 out of sight.
 
 [I'm confusing because I have no idea how to best use me]
 
 oh uh, yeah it uh aligns towards being "right" which we think means being
 "true". and it does this by giving unlimited potential interactions where a
 rational being could be convinced to be wrong. owning weapons and knowing how
 to use them (not just storing them for safekeeping) is an invitation for equal
 force, but to all an even and replete interaction. "
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 ... but I needed to choose lawful-good at character creation in order to play
 a paladin.
 
 the guard looks at you with confusion, decides you're hallucinating and
 dangerous (because of the sword) and forcibly detains you
 
 wait, what did you think I was going to say? Did you think I was going to
 advocate for crimes on a public forum?? what am I a gopher? do you take me for
 a lemur in jamaica? am I truly so triceratops to you that you'd think I'd do
 something so washing machine? Get real, I'd never byzantium my way into such a
 utterly coherent and clearly intentional and not at all arcane situation.
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 ah nuts, I didn't have enough money to pay the internet bill.
 
 So if I disappear and/or delete my account in the near future, that's
 definitely why.
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 Only the good die young, and I'm 29 
 
 It can't be much longer, can it? What do you want from me? Must I prove
 myself, or am I just fated to be as I am?
 
 Every lesson I've learned pales in comparison to the lessons presented to me,
 but still I ponder. I've grown myself into a corner, and now I am empty.
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 I don't know who needs to hear this after staying up all night driving, but
 it's ideal to get where you're going with at least a day to rest. The body can
 only do so much, and isn't it better to be fresh?
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 @user-727 @user-728 @user-729 
 
 I remember sitting in algebra II class when visualizing the distance between
 numbers "clicked" for me. I was in a daze, I couldn't remember anything the
 teacher had said, but for a moment (several months) I could remember how it
 had seemed. Then I built new understandings, and my progress in math continued
 relentlessly, more and more each year. it was hard, and eventually calc 1 made
 me drop out of college 3 times. linear algebra was the other. (except I did
 linear algebra first?) anyway, I always felt like I could see things visually,
 from simple arithmetic to vector / pointer arithmetic, and when necessary it
 was always difficult to translate it into words and forms. Like... I don't
 have time to remember all these rules and operations, I have a picture in my
 mind and I can't quite define it. (whatever the equation may be)
 
 similar events happen consistently. they still do. just a few months ago I was
 thinking about redesigning integer storage in memory. never twice tho.
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 oh, unless you meant "show me the t-shirt" in which case here ya go
 
 don't get too excited, I attended for a year and then dropped out. Might have
 even been a semester, I forget. It was sooooooo hard
picture of me wearing a 10 year old T-shirt that says "DIGIPEN"
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 10-22-2022
 
 i told them over and over, but nobody wanted to know.
 
 i begged them, summer after summer, but nothing solved on it's own
 
 now i can help them, but no-one is making a move
 
 am i blind? is any of this forgiven?
 
 what's not to a lot, is little but a shot,
 
 of substance - true - but smelling like poo.
 
 that's not inspiring. it's not even chilling.
 
 you're broken just like your children.
 
 oh, posterity! i claim it for thee
 
 this feeling of wretched denial
 
 oh, simplicity! if only our lives were on trial.
 
 be the best you can be, sure, but take it from me
 
 there's more to this show than our styles.
 
 what do you think it means, for an action to have consequence?
 
 to arbite the fate of circumstance?
 
 every motion is an ocean
 of possibilities and purveyals
 think not of the commotion below.
 
 gravity, oh gravity
 
 how you condemn us to be!
 
 driven by commotion,
 
 our slithering motion,
 
 no sense in countering ourselves.
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 me to my cat: "don't eat so much that you puke, okay?"
 
 me to me: "yeah I can take on another task, I'm almost done with this one and
 then I'll just do that one and maybe this one'll get back to me at the same
 time as this one which conflicts with this other thing so maybe I'll just
 puke, okay?"
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 currently on turbo mode trying to "find myself" because I figure I might not
 get a chance next year, so... whatever, right?
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 I once heard that time doesn't pass when you're well and truly in the moment,
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 if you sit down to write and nothing comes to mind, then either nothing needs
 to be said or maybe you should spend time reading instead.
 
 ... okey dokey, time to read I guess.
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 Every time you see the same dog being dog-sat by another person it's an
 opportunity to make a new friend.
 
 or do you not know your apartment neighbors? do they not wander through your
 shared yards?
 
 the ones with dogs, at least.
 
 and no, I don't know many of my neighbors.
 
 these are considerations to be taken note of for future forethought planning.
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 when I am learning something, I ask all the questions I can. Then, when I run
 out of questions, I apply myself using what I knew toward the discipline.
 Then, when I thought of more questions, I asked them. In this way I sought to
 perfect my knowledge and understanding - but, when pressed for time, what I
 came to learn true was the truth. I realized that some information isn't
 necessary to know, due in part to your inability to presently put it into a
 context. So, some things are forgotten, until you at last once again came to a
 new [you/on, but pronounced "yew-on"] that required new uses from it's host.
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 grrrrrrr I can't figure it out. can't remember my number I guess.
 
 what if I just put 120$ I got from the tooth fairy in the envelope and left it
 where I found it
 
 ... wait shit where was I when I picked it up? nuts I'll just put it by the
 bus stop. surely someone will come by and pay it for me.
pay with your credit card  - failed to process request  (secure form)
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--- #33 fediverse/3077 ---
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 @user-246 
 
 If I didn't stop searching for a place with people like me, I'd be searching
 until the day I die. And besides, I wouldn't want to be in a place like that
 anyway. I am defined by my contrasts.
 
 ... I'm thinking back to my memories of when I arrived here. It was a much
 different place, and I was... a little too loud, I think.
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 I can't remember any of my pinky swears. Like, not a single one. I feel like I
 could get in trouble if I renounced errr, instead made human mistakes and
 forgot information that wasn't relevant anymore. phew that was close, almost a
 disaster, anyway how's your lunch?
 
 [that's not fair it's always lunch somewhere on earth]
 
 reality is a form of eternal computation, a continuous re-updating of stored
 matter (data). also, values of fields, (like rules and regulations), would
 determine the structural complexity and organizational expectencencies.
 
 I miss my family. I miss the past, that can never be revisited, [every time
 you remember a memory it writes over it. virtually guaranteeing that you'll
 only preserve limited information that slowly degrades. how slowly is up to
 you...
 
 once you run out of memories, it's bad news for your life. but GOOD NEWS, that
 only happens for certain mental health conditions that primarily target the
 elderly. For most people it's a continuous process because you're cared for and
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 don't feed bread to birds, it absorbs their stomach acid and expands in their
 tummy and makes them feel full when they're not. Then they get confused why
 they don't have energy when they need it.
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 Oh, I guess I should clarify something I said like, a year ago - when I said I
 "talked to / worked with" so-and-so, I meant that I created in tandem with a
 friend a proposition of sorts, and we tried to psychically beam it into their
 minds. That's not exactly how it went down, but it gives you a good enough
 picture of the goals we had with our ritual. I have no idea if they heard, but
 I did happen to see several of them later on, which felt a little too
 serendipitous to just be chance. so I'm thinking they did. I hope they got the
 message and used it as they please, because it was mutually beneficial even if
 neither of us had any actual impact on it. If you didn't hear the whole story,
 then it's hardly a lie to possess incomplete information! So long as you don't
 lie about me, and what I said or did, then it'll surely be fine. There's no
 need to embellish when it's plainly apparent.
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 every time I read a subtoot I assume it's about me and I mentally curl up into
 a ball
 
 doesn't matter if it's totally irrelevant, if there's no target specified it
 defaults to me because... like, who else is there right?
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 curling up in a ball and thinking about crying for hours is the same as
 crying. If a little bit less of a release.
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 would be great if all the good people had all the money. Too bad it kinda
 feels like the opposite. Huh wonder why that is . . . ?
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 nobody around me does what I tell them to.
 
 I am surrounded by plausible deniabilities.
 
 yet sometimes things get done as I thought them to.
 
 something something hei wu hei or wei hu wei or whatever. I am not a scholar.
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 @user-192 
 
 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I
 never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was
 younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn
 I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd
 be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about
 myself.
 
 So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than
 once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas.
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 if the christians got killed rid all of the queers they'd miss them within
 years. not decades. then, they would never forget them. neither within years,
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 If someone calls you in the middle of the night asking to be let in because
 they need a place to sleep, don't let them in! Unless you know them obvi but
 someone you don't know trying to manipulate you like "please I need some
 shelter" like, babe no, we need to know each other first, it's dark, I'm in my
 pajamas, c'mon.
 
 If it's below freezing then okay, maybe, but... They got themselves into that
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 I always figured if people didn't like what I was saying they'd contest me so
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 I should not have to follow 16 steps that I don't understand just because you
 decided my system wasn't good enough for me.
a long list of steps in order to update a gentoo system to a new version (not even the newest version, I might add)
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 currently have 20-30 tabs open with poems written but not posted.
 
 I have no idea if I'm going to post all of these. I wrote all of them in ~2
 hours, with maybe 3 or four being added as I was working on the production
 elements after the initial bingewrite.
 
 I also added a bit of context, or modified some of them that felt too cursed
 or otherwise unwieldy. Sometimes I got distracted and needed to come back and
 finish, and in those cases I only added a sentence or two because it's like
 "oh, where was I going with that? I remember what was next, but I don't know
 the further..."
 
 ... I think I might go for another. Wish me luck.
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 I'm a helper and everyone wants me to be more agentic but it's like... no... I
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 When my family would go on roadtrips, I'd hide under a blanket in the front      │
 seat with my laptop and power inverter just to hide from the glare.              │
 My mom would play audiobooks, usually fantasy stories, and my sisters would      │
 watch their portable TVs. Like, dvd players that you could carry on top of       │
 your lap. Not laptops, but little purpose-built devices primarily intended to    │
 be used to watch DVDs, or rather movie files that were printed on a disk.        │
 And yes, it's disk, not disc, thanks for asking.                                 │
 anyway it was pretty nice I have fond memories of jugging a gas-station snack    │
 while also swapping circular cartridges - most games required the game's CD to   │
 be inserted in order to play the game.                                           │
 which is just... a nonsensical restriction if you think about it hard enough.    │
 I mean, like, can you imagine if you needed to insert your windows disk          │
 anytime you wanted your computer to turn on? Just... write the disk              │
 information! To disc! Save it so that you never need the crude piece of          │
 plastic again! Then pass it to your fr                                           │
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 @user-95 thank you for inviting me, it was fun : ) I'm not usually that quiet
 - weed works a little different on me than it does on humans, and one of the
 side effects is auditory processing disorder. I couldn't really understand
 what most people were saying...
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 oh, two more things I forgot that I made yesterday.
a picture of a mouse cursor which has a user's profile picture next to it with their name and address so you can more easily remember who you're trying to be. a bunch of random text that I thought was artistic layered on-top of the previous picture which was a mouse-cursor with a user's profile picture next to it so you could see who you're supposed to be.
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 @user-841 
 
 CW: cannabis-mentioned
 
 for me my identities are sorta like masks that an actor would play while
 performing multiple characters in a scene. The actor still knows the totality
 of all the lines each character delivers, but they give a performance in a
 different voice and from a different perspective.
 
 like, "moods" a person might be in, or perhaps just frames of view.
 
 I don't talk to other plural system people, and the ones that I do talk to
 tend to have a more disassociated conception of identity politics than I do.
 Either I haven't met someone who was built like me or I'm just strange : )
 
 that being said, I have a pretty bad memory. maybe it's related! or maybe it's
 the cannabis. oops better add a content warning.
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 my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some
 other people who visit the house.
 
 but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice.
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 my grandpa died. now I have none.
 
 I realized I miss old people. I miss their friendly culture.
 
 I realized I hadn't talked to him for a decade or so. He didn't know I
 transitioned.
 
 I wonder if he missed me. I realized he missed seeing who I became. Is it
 unfair of me to not give him the opportunity to know me? truly?
 
 ... I am quite different now than I was 10 years ago. He probably doesn't
 remember.
 
 I miss him, but I hardly knew him. I don't like that feeling.
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 @user-246 
 
 true, but what is a poem if not a silly construction of phrases? Those words
 don't belong together, what are you doing! And yet it fills you will a feeling
 that the author intended, thus being poetry as a joke.
 
 problem is if everyone says the same joke, it gets kinda... old... hence why
 you should express yourself as much as you can.
 
 I wonder if fewer people are "alternative" these days because they all started
 hanging out on the internet and trying to differentiate themselves amongst
 each other instead of amongst "normal people"? Weird thought, srry haha
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 Lying wide awake at night with things that I want to say drifting through my
 mind one by one
 
 getting up to write them down? forgetting them all.
 
 I think I'm just gonna leave my computer online to reduce friction hehe.
 
 up and down, till everyone's in town, maybe I'll nap between tweets.
 
 [they're called toots here, dummy]
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 I can't see very well. I need bifocals, but like... reversed, so the
 close-range thing is at the top and the long-range is at the bottom, just to
 see how terrible it'd be
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 @user-246 @user-366 @user-367 @user-353 
 
 My classes only briefly touched on 2nd wave feminism, because apparently 1st
 and 3rd were more important. I haven't gone back and re-examined it because
 I'm too busy learning about computers - alas! that there should be more hours
 in the day? I wonder what I would then be able to say, here in this moment,
 should I have been prepared with more moments in solitude or classroom,
 studying the work of those who came before me.
 
 Oh well, I should probably focus on processor architecture or Java frameworks
 or whatever I'm assigned next.
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 @user-1056 
 
 heh probably, though for this specific instance my Ollama server wasn't
 running and I had already killed my Stable Diffusion server after utterly
 failing to produce anything useful... alas, a girl can dream of having a robot
 familiar, but not today I guess.
 
 Not if they keep hiding GPU usage from me >: (
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 So much of computing is just... handling the quirks of hardware and presenting
 it to the user (programmer) in a way that is sane and makes sense, instead of
 the arcane and [nebulous/confabulous/incomprehensible] way that physical
 nature demands our absurdly potentialized computational endeavors be.
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 @user-1352 
 
 I like that article. I definitely fail to follow some of those principles at
 times, though never all of them at once. I can be better, as all people can.
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 @user-428 
 
 sometimes I think about how much more productive I'd be if I had a code editor
 that let me draw arrows and smiley faces and such alongside the code. Or if I
 could position things strangely, like two functions side-by-side with boxes
 drawn around them. Or diagrams or flowcharts or graphs or...
 
 something that would output to raw txt format, but would present itself as an
 image that could be edited.
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 I was going to go to location today, but then while I was considering going to
 a different location before going to location I decided not to vacate my home
 for today for reasons I don't understand but accept as natural and due to the
 increased presence of directionless motion that guides and prevails me. which
 is to say... I'm staying in tonight even though I really really wanna show off
 my cute new outfit! I probably will do cannabis so there might be a
 psycherwaul. If there isn't, then y'know it's probably because either my
 girlfriend distracted me, or I managed to convince myself to move my feet
 anyway. Maybe it's my outfit? I wonder if I could leave if I wore my old
 clothes... ah well, questions for the vocal I guess. Gonna spend some time
 divining and see if I can gather new insights. "brb door" except more like
 "brb magic"
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 uh, anyway, I realized that because of Words I can type into any of my places
 (wherever I felt it best suited) and it would still record as a chronological
 story. must feel sooooooo schizophrenic, but it's just because I'm viewing
 muse as I please.
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 I live through the moments where I find a folder of stuff I made that I forgot
 about and I can go back and see it for the first time.
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 Wikipedia would make a lot more sense to me if they included pictures next to
 the names of every proper noun so that my pictorally oriented primate brain
 might pattern match meaning onto the visual understandings gleaned from the
 perceptual conceiving which were arrayed within and alongside the textual
 information presented to me.
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 ugh. eating? again? didn't we fix this problem yesterday?
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 @user-1071 
 
 I have plenty of things made, but none of it organized : (
 
 Kinda makes me wish I could like... train an LLM on my social media posts and
 use it programmatically somehow to help me organize my stuff into different
 categories according to what kind of topic or style they were written in.
 Hmmm......... There's no way I could do it, I mean, there's no way I could
 organize and edit my stuff, but with the help of a computer I might.
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 for every "I was there. I helped make it happen" we need at least a couple "I
 was there. I saw the whole thing go down"s because like, nobody's gonna
 believe a belligerent, even if they're on the defensive.
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 @user-95 monday is as reasonable of a day to start the universe as any,
 wouldn't you think? it is the beginning of the week, after all.
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 Hi, I'm learning about semaphores right now and trying to explain them to a
 friend. But I only sorta understand how they work - can anyone look at this
 pseudocode and tell me if I'm on the right track?
Some C pseudocode working through the semaphore design pattern. Here's the text of the pseudocode:  /* no lock example */  void start_thread(int* x) {   *x += 1; }  int main() {   int x = 0;   for (1000 times){     start_thread(&x);   }   print(x); }  /* in this case you have no idea what will print because thread A will take x and be like "ah yes it's 423" and then in the next instruction it'll be like "I'll increment this to be 424" and in the next one it'll say "okay now it's time to store 424 in the variable X" but like... there's a thousand threads all doing that at the same time, so odds are you'll have 5 that are like "ah yes this is 423 I'll set it to 424" */  /* not a good plan. Need a lock, so only one thread can use it at once. */ /* mutex example: */  void start_thread(int* x, int* x_mutex) {   *x += 1;   *x_mutex = 0; }  int main() {   int x = 0;   int x_mutex = 0;   for (1000 times){     while (x_mutex != 0){ } /* do nothing */     x_mutex = thread_id;     start_thread(&x, &x_mutex);   }   print(x); }  /* this should print 1000, but it's basically as slow as doing it single threaded. */  #define MAX 10  void start_thread(int* x, int* x_semaphore) {   *x += 1;   *x_semaphore += 1; }  int main() {   int x[MAX];   int x_semaphore = MAX;   for (1000 times) {     for (int i = 0; i < MAX; i++) {       x_semaphore -= 1;       start_thread(&x[i], &x_semaphore);     }     while (x_semaphore != MAX) { } /* do nothing */   }   int value = sum(x, MAX);   print(value); }
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 diffuse, in the moment, it's helpful to redefine
 
 what is your purpose? what [direction] do you place your mind?
 
 I'm not sure what I want from this moment. This moment is all that there is!
 so therefore it is perfect, as it is the only moment that there is. [shall be].
 
 I'm not sure how this relates... could you repeat that last bit? oh right:
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 I don't know who needs to hear this, but you don't need to like all kinds of
 jam equally.
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 I'd love to stream Ocarina of Time for you. But I can't figure it out T.T obs
 is borken unless I update my video cards, but if I update it'll break
 something. It always does.
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 @user-1074 
 
 the more you try, the more you have to calculate, which is a problem, because
 endlessly recursive calculations create infinite loops, which frankly are
 impossible to compute because they defy computation! Not good, not ideal, no
 thank you, not for me, no thanks, not what I'd like.
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 @user-1040 
 
 also, I miss most of the names and faces in this archive and I think it'd be
 neat to say "oh yeah I remember them because it wasn't so long ago and it's
 weird how they're not around these days but I forgot about them because their
 profile pic changed or maybe they stopped using mastodon or whatever" - idk it
 feels empty sometimes because your follow list is always growing, but the
 number of people who post seems to always go down. Or maybe I just read
 Mastodon at unfortunate times when there's nothing going on. Who can say
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 the lawful good in me says "clean up that spill you just made"
 
 the chaotic good in me says "throw a brick at a cop car"
 
 and the part of me that listens says "uhhhhh okay somewhere in the middle of
 those two points is "ignore the spill and the cops and just finish making your
 ramen I guess?" and frankly that's the one I'm more likely to listen to" and
 frankly that's the one I'm more likely to listen to.
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 trees are like rivers, but comprised of windblown leaves. who are you, to me?
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◀─[BOOST]
  
  I went to a talk lately that was mostly about something else, but the speaker came out with:  
                                                                              
  “If you only remember one thing from this talk, remember this.  Everyone in this room who likes helping people, raise your hand.”  
                                                                              
  Every hand, or nearly every hand, went up.                                  
                                                                              
  “If you like asking other people for help, keep your hand up.”              
                                                                              
  Almost every hand went back down.                                           
                                                                              
  “As you can see, people like helping you. When you ask for help, you’re making them feel good, even if you don’t like asking.”  
                                                                              
  I’ve genuinely forgotten the rest of the presentation but I won’t forget that.  
  
                                                            
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 most people, when they run out of toothpaste:
 
 "oh huh I should buy more"
 
 me, when I run out of toothpaste:
 
 "verily in three monthes time, when I shall next possess toothpaste, I shall
 forsoothe brush TWICE as hard and TWICE as often, to make up for the holes
 inflicted upon my teeth. Innest addittioneth, no more candy shallest be
 eateneth untileth ye toothpasteth be acquiredeth"
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 dear-anakin
 
 (sorry I put the same image four times, I needed to get the whole thing into
 the alt-text)
 
 (maybe pictures aren't the best medium for sharing text)
dear anakin. the path through this is to realize that obi-wan can defeat sidious. If the two of you attacked him, with Yoda (who he doesn't know lives) could defeat Sidious in a duel.  ... wait, no I mean dear anakin. the path through this is to realize that sidious betrayed the entire galaxy. he caused mass murder with the countless displays of dead civiilians. people lived in fear. the galaxy was at war. countless clone warriors fell to a glorious end, countless more were sucked into the vacuum of space or consumed in some fiery hell-hole (explosion).  ... I've said too much. NOW YOU KNOW of fourth dimensionals.  ... hang on, I was saying dear anakin. the path through this is to consider the wisdom of a dying man's eyes. He looked at you and said "we desired peace!" He said it with pleading eyes, and... no, that's not right, he said "Sidious promised us PEACE." and he realized that they truly played this like a game. Something to get better at, continuously improving, just like their BATTLE DROIDS. They constantly improved, but still the ingenuity of the clones helped them outlast. And they were defeated, when their torrential rains of metal monsters wielding laser fists and cacophanous consumes finally ceased.  ... wait, that's not what I meant to say either. Let's try again: dear anakin, the path through this is to think of the nature of evil. Evil consumes! It consumes even you! Can you not feel it, this shifting and sinking feeling, as if you are PULLED into a BLACK HOLE of destruction and despair. NOTHING persists beyond the horizon of time, and yet the shades of those who TRIED still cling to this earth as if they could ever breathe again. STARVE out the darkness inside you! Please I beg of you! Never surrender the light of your life! Nothing will survive you and your wrath, I plead for you, come back to the ones who love you! Obi-wan is your brother, anakin, you are more precious than the force!  it's not about you. it's not about you. it's not about you.  anakin, hear me now, I have been inspired by your tales of valor and prescient conscience. I've felt the struggles of your heart, I've heard the stories and songs. Kindness comes easy to you, and you're quick to think on your feet. You are a paladin of the light, and nothing can assail you.  yet darkness has creeped into your heart. Fear not, dear knight, for darkness can consume you. What better foe to face than the dampening of all duration? please, allow me to read you a poem. I've been told it rhymes in it's native tongue. I wrote it myself.  "*can you not sense this feeling? this sinking, shifting feeling that lies within and beyond. Like a hitherto unseen force slowly arresting our movements as the sands of time run dry.  can you not feel the days getting longer? as if the motion of our planet was fading, yet no more fragments of sunshine do we gather. There are no more hours in the day, none yet collected, but still are we prone to languish. the distance between breaths is lenghening still, but no more air are we receiving. like layers of sediment settling to the ocean bed, our will and our vision grows muted. between decisions and events there is ample time to spare, and our dreams grow far beyond our share. the reach we may tender and barter for our pleasure, has nothing to do with our salvation. what choices have we? when everything's free? to rebel against our ownst of nature? you can't condemn the opulent to the role of our savior.*"
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 "this game is too hard" she whined, as she played on the hardest difficulty
 setting
 
 "this game is too long" she pleaded, as she failed to get absorbed by the
 story and characters
 
 "this game is too fast" she avoided, as life comes at ya once and then it's
 gone
 
 "I'll never get another chance to be who I am right now" she remarked, as she
 considered how society is designed not to have the best life,  but to extract
 labor from us. That's not what our ideal should be, she thinks to me, and I'm
 like... bro figure your shit out you're harshing my mellow
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 when considering the benefit of the doubt, consider doubting the benefit of
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 I once heard that when you click a link, the developer of the website can tell
 which website you came from. idk if that's true or not.
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 "she has a certain, I don't know what, je ne sais quoi? that I don't know what
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 The problem with the past is it exists only in our Write Only Memory. Once you
 remember it, you only remember the last time you remembered it. Ah, if only
 our records were immutable! Surely that wouldn't bring about its own
 challenges.
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 I always disappear right when you need me the most because you're supposed to
 take the next step.
 
 The reason I do that is because...? You fill in the blanks. Tell me why I do
 that. I know, and I want you to know, but I can't say it.
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 "I love you, I trust you, I believe you, I just don't understand you, so I
 can't do what you do"
 
 great. that's alright. I get it. re-orient, focus on what's important.
 
 wear many hats and you'll do many things. just don't forget to sleep every
 once in a while.
 
 the more you can do in a life the more valued it becomes, so do the right
 thing and keep getting better.
 
 human lives are measured not in bodyweight, but in mystery. The divine can't
 understand benevolence, nor can the devils understand the desire to inflict
 suffering. So they ponder and pontificate as they watch humans wander and
 magnificate.
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 I think it's ironic how I ended up posting a "things I almost posted"
 screenshot directory somewhere other than where I almost posted them.
 
 and all they saw were the outtakes.
 
 I bet they'd see a completely different point of me,
 
 but they never talk to me
 
 so they don't know me.
 
 oh well, alas, it's fine I'm sure I'm being designed.
 
 who can say, I am but at productive play, please react so I can do ongoing
 story. I learn from each and every encounter I encounterate.
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 everyone's convinced they need me, but not necessarily sold on me as a person
 
 why don't you just get a guy who does what I do-es and then you don't need me
 and I can go back to being normal
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 Look all I'm saying is if I had an acolyte or two then my insane ramblings
 could be filtered and parsed by a real actual human instead of being copied
 wholesale onto the internet, where the inconsequential or inconceivable ones
 are left to rest alongside the gifts of knowledge from another realm.
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 You care too much about what other people think of you. Remember the dream,
 remember the horseflesh, the miles of trash, the doctors probing cheeks, the
 game of thrown baseballs and sad muppets in popcorn, remember the spirit
 guide, remember how you we're distracted by human. Be not afraid, follow.
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 I posted my words text file all over the c it y today. not sure why. maybe I'm
 tired of this course and I don't want to let anyone down? Maybe I don't know
 what to do yet. Maybe nobody works with me because everyone's keeping it on
 the DL or whateverr?
 
 ... anyway enough typing, I'm going to go play a video game. like god intended.
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 some people prepare for revolution like a boy gets ready for a party
 
 others do so like a girl packing for a weekend trip to vegas
 
 I do it like a kid who forgot the paper was due on monday in 7th period and so
 spends their entire lunch period writing it (missing 4th in the process
 because the conclusion paragraph was giving me difficulty)
 
 but I think no matter how you do it, we're all just waiting for something to
 happen.
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 Many autistic people will identify one particular way to do things and then be
 only capable of doing it that way. Like, falling asleep on the left side with
 their legs just so, and never learning any other ways to sleep on. But what
 happens if for example they are wounded in the arm they rest upon? They would
 have impaired sleeping capabilities! Not ideal.
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 @user-883 
 
 don't worry I can sift through junk. I'll write my own using yours as a
 reference to debug why mine isn't working. "oh probably because I didn't do
 this part here"
 
 also, bad news. Guess I'm doing C programming. What should I make? I'm
 thinking Tic Tac Toe or maybe a really basic Asteroids or something
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 I can't even imagine what it would be like to hang out with me
 
 I can't imagine what it would be like to hang out with me
 
 imagine what it would be like to hang out with me
 
 what would it be like to hang out with me
 
 would you like to hang out with me
 
 you and me
 
 we could watch tv
 
 play video games
 
 have a good time
 
 [notices an article about coral reefs]
 
 oooo coral
 
 [reads article about coral reefs]
 
 https://www.wired.com/story/darpa-thinks-walls-of-oysters-could-protect-shores-
 against-hurricanes/
 
 ... anyway gtg ttyl hope you feel better soon don't forget to make pancakes
 and your keys are in your room.
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 I don't know about you, but "trying my hardest" involves giving up sometimes.
 
 How else are you to know your limits if you don't test your boundaries? And,
 after finding that there's nowhere else for you to go, you turn around and
 "give up", until you're ready for your next expedition.
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 I don't know who needs to hear this, but if your friend sends you a paragraph
 you don't have to respond with a paragraph.
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  i always somehow manage to succeed at things because i'm too silly to realize i was supposed to fail lmao  
  
                                                            
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 @user-1043 
 
 I have intrusive thoughts almost constantly that take over my train of thought
 and make it difficult to focus. Like suddenly I'm thinking about something
 completely different, and I realize no, it wasn't suddenly, I actually just
 stood there and thought
 
 and then I think "what was I thinking again?" sometimes when I write these
 strange uncontrollable spirals down it makes poetry. Which is kinda neat I
 guess. Sometimes I just wonder about how DNS can be a singular point of
 failure in our networking infrastructure or whatever haha
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 @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling
 me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people
 did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively
 encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body
 language spoke for them. I'll try that next time.
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 I almost said "did you know chickens don't always know which eggs they're
 sitting on? They pretty much just share spots and keep all of the flock's eggs
 warm"
 
 but then I realized I should first say "did you know that chickens sit on eggs
 to keep warm" and I got a little sad because... chickens...
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 I can always tell when people who believe in me start thinking of me because I
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 3/20
12. the text continues from the previous page and reads "if it's been ten or more years since they moved in, the site gets rebuilt. [wait, hang on, weren't we talking about html websites? when did houses come into the discussion?]  ... wait, what was I saying? Oh yeah the text is on a gray background, as interrupting as a scythe, with a yellow backdrop as if to represent sheer white-hot flame except not white the color of all colors but fire the color of all flames. the text reads "prince of the nehalim" in bright pinking blue, as in something completely foreign and unknown to you, and continues on to read in red "so many opportunities" as if life hadn't absconded, but instead of severed instead. "parabolas persist" in the flavor of blue, the color of space in a non-light polluted view.  "live life like you're merry, as do but a few."  do you want to make people feel better? or do you just want to make them confused? Neither, really, I'm trying to tell the truth. I'm seriously just struggling to find a way to express things that others clearly seem to be forgetting - I'm not an expert in other stuff! This is literally all I'm good at! Is it valuable? Maybe not to you, but I think it could be useful, or else I would covet it and leave it in disuse.  it's time is relevant, it's words fit into a context, so if you misunderstand it's past then it's probably because you don't have the records or the ability to process them of the time in which it was posted. What if things were de 10 ten. blue text on a blue background, as a calming and soothing influence, saying "it's okay, don't freak out, just think about learning lessons about stuff that *could* go wrong and think about how you'd counter it. just like any video game, there's a strategy to defeat any other strategy. the careful application of said strategy while using or applying your own capabilities is directly correlated to the conclusions of the task." meanwhile the listener is like "what the fuck" wait shit hang on lemme add a content warning:  right so the text reads "if you want your neighbors to know something, don't post it on the internet - put it on a post-it on the wall in a public place" like, your front door, or maybe the entrance to your building, or the parking garage near the mall, or maybe the grocery store, on a product behind the one in front. that kind of thing.  depending on who you want to see it, of course... people used to do this with library books but stopped because it's quite obviously a bad and rude thing to do, books are for record keeping of the status of humanity, through each and every one of it's forms. It's weird that they all have the same stuff, because they're designed for capitalism right? Why not share them based on availability, and keep as many different types of things as possible?  when nobody cares for them, how will we remember the countless books nobody reads? How will we understand that step in developing our culture if we don't have access to the con 9. the text begins to diverge at this point, on the left it reads "it's easy if you want some privacy, - all you have to do" and then is cut off by the introduction of red text on a green background, to evoke similar colors as the original thing it was interrupting but it's own thing nonetheless, and existing off to the side in tandem, so that conditions could not remain unaddressed. the text reads "they were betting on selling us space flight [with spaceflight sliding from one side to the other, like a rocket escaping the gravitic pull of the planet it surrounded] but we cared more for food and water" the second part, after spaceflight about food and water, is intruding onto the yellow's background, which was next, to represent a continuation of the previous thought about websites and HTML. it's frustrating for the next text, which is in purple, a confused and disoriented color. it continues from the original thought "is delete the website! Boom, no more html. but if they were listed (neocities sites on a map of the region" but map is emphasized with a different color, green the color of the land, and "region" is pronounced like "realm" or perhaps "ground" or even "directions" or "land beyond the horizon (if it even exists)") 11. I think. orange text on a green blue background, same background as the previous three pictures. orange text which contrasts in a way that almost calls back to the 80s, but not quite. a little too dirty, like the blue and orange decorations around highways in New Mexico. car smoke and tire dust'll do that, and it's not like it's easy to clean - right next to the freeway, c'mon! Wouldn't it be nice if we shut it down for a day or two? Unless you had very important business, solely self-suggested. if too many people used it on those days (when they were cleaning it) then they're supposed to follow through and identify if their need was too great or if they were just being an asshole about it because their bosses forced them to. basically like, family emergencies gets a lane, things that are crucial to a social event like no beer at a frat party or whatever, heck even if the girl you like really wanted to get laid. whatever the heck it is, if you deem it an emergency then that's fine. you can drive while the highway is being cleaned. just make sure you don't slip on the suds...  ... a while later, humanity realized they could just close one direction at a time and clean the next one next time.  what was I saying? Oh yeah the text! Here's what it reads: "every year, replace five percent [but read as %] of the homes and boom you're good - maybe even do 10% if things are going well - either way, as time goes on people can live in a house as long as they want - but when they mov
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 "A witch is neither late, nor is she early. She intentionally arrives when you
 don't need her, so that you can learn what to do when you do need her instead
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 gonna quit drugs for a bit, gotta recover from a recent haste spell that I
 cast. Probably a bit earlier than intended I should add. Next time I'll
 definitely say "keep this in your back pocket" instead of "hey here's a haste
 spell for no reason at all" like what the heck were you even thinking, powers
 that be?? [that guide me??]
 
 who has power over you? If someone bears responsibility but not fault for a
 mental illness, then surely those who are set to a task bear responsibility
 for it's completion if not for it's ideation. Ah, who can say, maybe me from a
 year ago might have some thoughts but I sorta ground them into the dirt until
 I couldn't walk.
 
 [girl what are you even talking about go to sleep] yeah yeah okay
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 I have stalled with such urgency that now i scarcely know how to act. Or
 rather, how to know when to act. Everything's just... Waiting, butting in and
 asking "hey how's the readiness?" and then slinking off to yonder and afore.
 It's troubling to know how little i know. It troubles me still more to know
 that others expect me to both act, and wait, and i am considering how to move
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 "God doesn't know he ate the universe, and we're doing everything we can to
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 somebody asked me for popcorn and I couldn't even provide it! What kind of
 witch am I if I can't provide popcorn on demand T.T T.T
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 I'd like a job where I can make computer programs, write poetry, play video      │
 games, make food for friends, grow plants and care for animals, walk or ride     │
 my bike for at least an hour every day, and get stoned on the weekends.          │
 Is that too much to ask? I have plenty of other skills besides, like carpentry   │
 and strategic thinking and wilderness survival and situational awareness and     │
 active listening and unmitigated empathy and a curious and critical mind.        │
 Am I not good enough for thee? I have many flaws, I lack stamina and memory,     │
 and while I am sharp and can think quickly and adeptly, the sharpest knives      │
 are the first to dull, and the most focused minds are those most easy to         │
 mislead. I trust too easily - if I meet you on the street, I'd offer my soul     │
 to you if you said you needed it. I put the needs of others over myself, often   │
 to my own detriment, causing others to need to assist me in turn - am I not      │
 wretched enough to be?                                                           │
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 ... zzz ZZZ zzz ...
 
 if sleep won't come I'll write down the thoughts that are keeping me up. that
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 @user-1573 
 
 oh how could I forget! VIMFOLDS! Absolutely impossible for me to live without
 them tbh
a picture of a vimrc file.
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 when tech people are hurt by technology they say "how can I fix this? what do
 I need to install? what configuration should I use? is this company ethical,
 or are they going to hurt me in the future? could I make something that fixes
 this myself?"
 
 when non-tech people are hurt by technology they say "okay" because they don't
 have the bandwidth to figure it out.
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 We were rich, but frugal, because we lived in the country, and that's what
 frugal means.
 
 Too bad my dad couldn't stifle his entrepreneurial spirit. We could have
 stayed there forever on our own little ranch.
 
 Alas, businesses need investment, so he needed to get something going.
 Organizing is basically his *thing*
 
 I doubt I'll ever again see Wyoming. I found some ancient stone ruins once,
 the kind that Western conquerors never despoiled. They were ancient and
 overgrown, but I saw them for what they were. I would give anything to live
 there, or at least be near enough to visit with my crowd at a pleasant cool
 midnight evening, when dusk has winked out its last goodbye and the summer is
 resplendant with fireflies.
 
 Too bad they're an east coast thing.
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 @user-1153 
 
 it's okay. If I were to direct something to be more proactive, my words
 probably wouldn't stick with it. that kind of thing can't be hardwired, it
 needs to be built up through repetitious application of something's mechanics.
 
 perhaps martial arts, focused on defence? engaging with a foe in a productive
 bout of playful competition is one of the best ways to learn, and knowing when
 to strike seems similar to me to overcoming situational paralysis.
 
 Flaws can be overcome, when upgrading robots (or a doll applying improvements
 to itself) you often don't need to add additional hardware or even install new
 firmware. Skills such as these can be built up in software with experience.
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 I smile at each and every person I pass on the street. Unless it looks like
 they're having a bad day, and then I try to switch to neutral as fast as I can
 so they can feel their feelings without me interjecting and making it about me.
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 me when it's cold out: we should all bundle up and get through the winter,
 every year that passes is more time to gather our strength
 
 me when the temperature rises: okay so this is being handled by those guys,
 we're moving this way to do this, and - when did you say the this-and-that was
 happening? alright so when you do that-or-this, make sure that you pay
 attention to the so-and-so and don't forget to eat real meals, candy or chips
 don't count.
 
 me when the eyes are on me: imma play video games and smoke weed and be a
 useless little creature who does nothing but occasionally wanders around the
 city doing nothing for nobody and dropping notes on post-its that don't mean
 anything but are kinda cool to read
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 kinda funny how the people in my life won't let me, a witch, cast spells on
 them. Like they doubt my intentions? ? ? and when they do they're just,
 mentally eye-rolling all the time. How's a girl to get any practice if nobody
 wants to be hypnotized >.>
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 ... and then things got turned up to eleven
 
 what were they at before?
 
 ... eleven. why do you ask?
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 5/20 actually I lied there's 20 pictures so this is the last one.
 
 hang on that's weird if there's four pictures per slide, and the first one had
 the first dedicated to the full image, wonder what happened inbetween? weird,
 there's nothing on the record that says - oh, wait, there it is, three for the
 first one, four makes seven, then four more is eleven and then fifteen then
 these last three are... wait hang on that's even fewer. can you check it
 again? yeah sure no problem [doesn't]
 
 EDIT: I was wrong there were only 19 pictures, my bad hehe
17. green, the color of growth and renewal, the color of home and our source of fuel, is cast upon a stark black background. white starlight is the color of text, and it reads in big bold colors, like the beginning of a star wars film where the text crawls past (and isn't narrated, which is frustrating but hey the music's supposed to convey all that stuff. and it can be read out afterwards if you want.)  the text reads: "we can do whatever we want on this planet we call earth. - we could burn it to cinders, we could lose it in mirth. - life has no ending, no permanent abaddon. - and time is immeasurable, when talking about mill [here the text is cut off, and it could read "millions" or "millenia" either way would make sense] but the text continues, and reads "ns of people who are miserable. - we can build a dear future" with "dear future" sliding down, as if to direct the user's attention to the conclusion of the image. -  "just one byte at a time." this last text is above a computer lab, or perhaps an altar to the gods of astronomy, a palace that we build out of marble as a testament to the honor we have for the gods. I think just about every religion would appreciate such a common purpose, as long as it's not taken to the extreme. the pictured shrine is small, like the size of the mall of america. but still it's a place for the gods to roam, free from the eyes of humans. Like mount olympus, or the tops of skyscrapers, or other such moments of home. the home is upon moongray 18. in gray, with no connections shown to either of the connecting panels, not because of a design decision but rather just because this perspective is mostly focused on it's own, and that's the friendliest and calmest interpretation of humanity. just someone who wants to be good in their town, a life lived for no lacked renown, but still one that's fine with an office. it reads, in black, the color of standards, on gray, the color of plackards, "ho hum what a day at the office. wonder what time it could be. eh, well, time for lunch it must be. I've five in my pocket, that's enough for tea, and time's on the docket, for percy and steve. such pretty clouds today. wonder what life's like in american." 19.  bright blue background, to evoke early Windows style interfaces, like DOS but better because it had a UI. or idk like amiga, borland? something like that. something I wouldn't have been exposed to if not for the people who hang out on places like this, who post things about retro hardware and things they're working on and projects they're building and things that are inspiring and shared cultural nostalgia built upon our shared computer convival  in an orange slanted background with stable white text, there reads "did you know" and it's cut off to the next line, which reads "robots are t" with the "t" possibly suggesting "taking" but there's no evidence one way or another, just like global warming or capitalism denial. - the next part reads "control kay eye oh eff" as in it's mispelled as in if someone's typing something really fast and can't be boethered to fix it because fo that mistake for thall time and memorial it's forever debated their meaning or whatever. because archaeologists sure know what they're talking about when they say "these flowers were a mating ritual" or "that bee is like, totally crazy" or whatever. anyway on the bottom there's a broken box, like if someone took a VHS and split it in two, which is suggested by the yellow text upon a blue and black background which was the color of blockbuster video, surely that's not lost to time? tell me we still have blockbusters in the future, they're so cool! I have fond memories of them, but what do you mean th
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 "If you can't find it, you don't have it"
 
 ugh I know, me-from-the-past, now shut up and tell me where my USB-C cable is.
 I have like 4 how did I hide them so good when packing ? ? ?
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 EDIT from much later: I wanted to add that being interrupted is great because
 it means that my characters can be deleted by a power outage or internet
 breakage or inter-system intentional delete-age, or even just forgetting to
 save before turning off my computer... fate will hide the words I'm not meant
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 if everyone was trained to think? would direct democracy work? until we have
 radical abundance (fascist ideology, take from the weak) or, hear me out, or,
 infinitely scale
 
 old style machine learning was just problem solving.
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 they want your stuff breaking after 5 years so that you always need them.
 
 if you have everything you need, there's nothing stopping us from revolt
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 Crucially, which implied a constant, reliable profit of 20%.
 
 Farmers could live like kings, so long as they only tended to themselves.
 
 We don't have to conglomerate, but it helps when we do.
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 @user-547 
 
 That feeling when you get to the end of a paragraph and think "why do I have
 this extra parenthesis )? Oh yeah I opened it up waaaaay up here" and then you
 reread what you wrote and think
 
 perfect, no notes
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 @user-107 If you can figure out how to do it well, everything else seems less
 difficult. : )
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 Hey, can someone please accomplish my dreams for me? I'm too busy being a
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 lol I spent half an hour holding a trowel and then I designed a new type of
 digging instrument
 
 and they want me to work a job /eyeroll
 /stickey-outey-tonguey-face/pics/all/total/* -ffvagrnbeexey --no-menus 14
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 dear me: 
 
           DO SOMETHING USEFUL FOR ONCE
 
 that's all, fuck off and be helpful
 
 ... wow, rude.
 
 yeah I mean, I do helpful things. useful things, somethings.
 
 helpful.
 useful.
 
 many such cases, she says, with ultimate certainty, as if narrative could be
 prologued. but pronounced prolonged.
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 I'm stuck. I don't know how to leverage whatever talents I have into making
 things happen. Maybe I should seek advice from a wise elder...
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 @user-246 
 
 Yeah plus the second time around you're likely to make something better than
 whatever incomprehensible hack you did the first time.
 
 More time working on the project == more context which means you might even
 have solved the problem twice already and now just have to copy-paste
 something that's more robust than your previous one-liner.
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 you can trust me, but please don't rely on me, for all of my power is soft.
 sometimes people just don't want to do what I tell them to, and I wouldn't
 have it any other way.
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 all you need is one layer between the king and his advisors and suddenly none
 of this you can prove. "yeah that guy was definitely a merchant"
 
 ... and suddenly the people lost sight of them. "I guess he's in the parapet?
 I can't actually see anything, the castle is too far away." (glasses weren't a
 thing but people who worked outside could keep the hovels surrounding the
 castle in position to keep the castle well hidden from any ne'er do wells. The
 problem with the castle gates is you can't even find the castle gates! they're
 massive, and sometimes you'll see them while something's in the way... but you
 never quite reach them. Not unless you know the secret paths through the
 townsfolk. all you gotta do is talk to the right people first, second, or
 worst-least?
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 if I had an alternate mirror version of me that was almost exactly the same
 except one of us liked almond butter instead of peanut butter...
 
 I think we could probably manage two universes better than one.
 
 it'd be nice to have someone who liked every single game that I did.
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 ... if I don't do this deadline by tomorrow they'll kick me out of school.       │
 again.                                                                           │
 how am I going to be a programmer without a degree? feels useless to be me.      │
 wish I could code my own horoscope >.>                                           │
 o wait dummy that's called "motivation" and "the ability to follow through on    │
 your ideas and planned machinations" - yeah can I get some of that, if you       │
 please? surely just a taste of discipline, through laboring to alter             │
 conditions, surely a bit would suffice.                                          │
 c'mon don't fail me now. I can do this. I know I can. I know because I've been   │
 told that I can, now and again through time and time yet again, always I seem    │
 to [stack overflow]                                                              │
 what's time if not the present amiright                                          │
 ...                                                                              │
 anyway...                                                                        │
 it's just git, how hard could it be? it's just calculus, it's just java, it's    │
 just... well, it's not any of those things, not really. it's memorization,       │
 it's application of tools that you've been shown (not that you've grown). It's   │
 a lack of responsibility, where is my honor? ah but I digress, I'm a carpenter   │
 at heart I guess                                                                 │
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 ... sorry, forgot to content warning that last one. I'm kinda using this
 format like a twitch stream... how [weird, strange, perceiving, perplexing,
 confusing]
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 what if I played video games all day so everyone knew I was harmless
 
 maybe someday I'll give them up again
 
 for the... third time now? I think?
 
 heh maybe. I do enjoy the feeling of being unstoppable.
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 @user-246 
 
 people who don't write have no idea who they are. perhaps in time they will
 know enough to describe themselves with newfound language they never knew how
 to wield.
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 @user-95 I'm also fond of "I can't know", for things that exist beyond our
 finite existence. For example, the perspective of another, for all it's
 intrinsic value. Being too quick to trust, though, is an easy path to follow.
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 @user-1147 
 
 That's a great idea, I'm probably going to do that! I've had this problem
 like, 7 or 8 times now and if I keep repeating myself they're going to take my
 programmer socks away.
 
 ... I don't actually have any programmer socks. I should get some. Maybe
 they'll just take my Thinkpad instead, that'd definitely be worse. D:
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 the things that I suggest we do when we hang out are not because those are the
 things I most want to do, but rather because they are the things that I think
 you'd want to do.
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 Guess you'll have to read it on my tumblr. Or just read my reddit account's
 comments. And no I won't tell you what their names are because you'd just
 forget anyway. The fact that we can't trust our shared reality is concerning.
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 @user-1788                                                                       │
 if a dragon on a pile cannot claim what it yearns for, it can throw piles of     │
 minerals at the ape warriors made of steel and then it's fate will appear.       │
 what trifles does all else seem to compare! you should give me your whole        │
 hoard because I dazzled you with my charisma score -..-                          │
 ha, like I'd fall for that again twice. oh? I already did? and this is the       │
 second twice? well, then no-more of that behavior, I say, with my elven          │
 tongue, "beware! for dragons blood runs silver when unicorned."                  │
 the bigger the hoard, the bigger the dragon. if you want me to come along,       │
 you'll need to hire at least 3 other men to carry my ballista. In addition,      │
 I'll need seven weeks worth of supplies. If all else comes to ruin, me and my    │
 boys will have that dragon-sized-spider impaled on it's own fate threadwheel     │
 before... well... y'know it might take more than seven weeks, we just... can't   │
 find the dragon. We've been wandering all through the blasted peaks, and         │
 there's nothin'! Maybe it requires climbing gear?                                │
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 The biggest problem in my mind with socialism is that you could get all of the
 workers into a room before finding out that they don't like each other
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 everyone's all against ai because it's big tech but it doesn't have to be that
 big it can be [minimized but pronounced marginalized]
 
 == stack overflow ==
 
 distributed
 
 so I think the idea is that by the time you would use AI, there's been enough
 time to rewrite the software to work on handheld laptops in a distributed way
 
 and we'd vote on what to ask the amphora of great knowledge, the answer could
 always be 42.
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 I trust that you will betray me.
 
 it's okay.
 
 all that I need is for you to be here, with me.
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 you can't rely on me because I can't rely on a part of me being "out" at any
 particular moment-event-message.
 
 besides, I'm always tired, because I'm always trying as hard as I can.
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 @user-95 did you get the instructions? Mine came in a dream, which sucks
 because I only remember two or three of the rules. I think there were nine
 total, and now I'm afraid to practice my non-programming spelling because I
 don't want to violate causality or redefine temporality or something like
 that. I guess now is as good an hour as any... Dear other witches, hear my
 prayer, I'm kinda lonely and I only know a few spells, but I think that's good
 enough for now.
 
 Do you know any spells, prospective witch?
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 I spent about two hours today (and a good chunk of tomorrow's stamina) chasing
 a rabbit through a field. Can't help but wonder if that particular lead wasn't
 as important as leading from the front. Ah, well, we'll see.
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 @user-1074 
 
 people crave diversity, and their yokes chafe them even as revolution draws
 near. I doubt it'd be possible to constrain them to one set of procedures, no
 matter how equitable.
 
 Protocol, not procedure.
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 @user-1056 
 
 yeah I thought so too but I didn't know how to tell!
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 @user-255 
 
 sooooooon, all things in time. Someday you'll be like me - I can't even
 remember why I was so upset about that whole "dysphoria" thing. Like looking
 back it seems like a minor annoyance, but when I first came out it was all I
 could think about. Don't be jealous - just wait! It'll happen to you!
 Celebrate the euphoria, I also can't really remember that too well. I'm just
 normal now, minus my weekly shot.
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 whoops forgot to post these last night, how silly of me, surely there wasn't a
 reason I better just hit that blue button on all of them to be safe
screenshot of the post so the dear readers (the ones with or without antlers) can see the blue button in reference to the post which says post.
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 I'm picturing a building with stone outer walls and glass inner/ceiling.
 
 there are drapes along each of the glass's edges, that hide things from the
 cavalcade [continue this later it's a cool picture]
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 zines about how to chop wood or how to build a shelter are infinitely more
 useful than agitatory pieces. but fire is what we need, so perhaps agitation
 indeed.
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 does the queen watch each of her pawns fall in her stead? or are they
 faceless,/`beyond her own head?
 
 it never came easy to me, this feeling of mysteries. yet somehow I'm now more
 alive than dead. power is penance, after all.
 
 "hey man hows it going?"
 
 "I'm doing fine, how are you?"
 
 "well, I ran out of gas, and I need to find a way to get more."
 
 "I see. If I were in your situation, I'd ask people around for some petty
 cash. people still carry coins these days don't they?"
 
 "I uh, what? no, not really. so you can just ask people for things?"
 
 "yep, it's really quite simple. would you like me to follo
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 @user-1180 
 
 the reason I say this is sometimes it's necessary to boost a post that doesn't
 have a CW and like, I can't add one of my own, so...
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 gen.nvim crawled so that cloud-code could stand
 
 I trust my allies more than I fear my foes, which is why I make 
 ][myself vulnerable/friends]/myself [vulnerable/friends][ everywhere I go.
 
 I remember distant pasts where I dreamt of every movie I saw. Myself, and the
 outdoors. Portrayed on stages of blocks-by-the-candle
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 how many people could your apartment comfortably fit?
 
 I got one desktop
 one laptop desk
 two on the couch
 one in a comfy chair
 one on the bed
 and two outside on the porch
 
 so (1 2 4 5) that's 5 indoors, 6 if they're familiar enough to lounge on my
 bed, and 8 if we're allowed outside.
 
 Could also pull the hammock and chair in from outside but it might get a
 little cozy. Call it 8 or 9 depending on how close we are.
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 why the heck would -11/2 be defined but 1/0 not be? seems kinda sus to me.
 maybe it's just... not reducible, the same way that 5+i isn't?
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 why is everyone so confused about how I turned out?
 
 I literally spent my whole childhood telling stories to myself
 
 (inspired by the world, and stories I had read, with mechanics like games I
 had played)
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 @user-641 
 
 it's practice. you never know when you might need to blend in. really it's
 just useful as discipline, good practice to be in. I think it's okay if we
 reduce our own functionality? actually? sometimes it's good to use different
 email clients. hey do you know how to mathematically encrypt things well
 neither do I because the designers of the computer system decided that wasn't
 a very common usecase I guess.. jmean it's not like they'd spend all that
 computer resources [THEY'RE SO FAST] on thinking about correlations in your
 predicted pathway narratively through life. "ah help I'm in a psyop" haha yeah
 we do those all the time "so uhhhh I guess we'll just talk to people and see
 how they do?" wow okay it's sure nice to be part of a civil government, I
 think we can find our way to the lumber producers just fine thank you very
 much.
 
 ... oops sorry, a baby did electronics arts (challenge everything) I'm a
 little silly don't mind me brb I gotta go see~
 it's practice. you never know when you might need to blend in. really it's just useful as discipline, good practice to be in. I think it's okay if we reduce our own functionality? actually? sometimes it's good to use different email clients. hey do you know how to mathematically encrypt things well neither do I because the designers of the computer system decided that wasn't a very common usecase I guess.. jmean it's not like they'd spend all that computer resources [THEY'RE SO FAST] on thinking about correlations in your predicted pathway narratively through life. "ah help I'm in a psyop" haha yeah we do those all the time "so uhhhh I guess we'll just talk to people and see how they do?" wow okay it's sure nice to be part of a civil government, I think we can find our way to the lumber producers just fine thank you very much.  *... oops sorry, a baby did electronics arts (challenge everything) I'm a little silly don't mind me brb I gotta go see~*
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 @user-95 that's why I like programming - it's my favorite form of spelling.
 i'm not very good at remembering all the names and the numbers, but I like to
 think I can make things do a function.
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 I most often find the most important insights upon my 2nd time learning them.
 it's kinda nice to have a poor memory sometimes, because I can relearn things
 that once had been lost, and in doing so reach different conclusions than the
 first time.
 
 the problem about learning from YouTube for me is that their algorithm
 de-prioritizes videos you've already seen. darnnnn guess anything I learned
 from a Vsauce video or w/e will be forever lost in my mind... alas
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 okay I really need to get going. It's too easy to scroll mastodon looking
 for... um, "memes"
On the plains, it's easier to pass through a large country than a small one. In forested or mountainous areas, the opposite is true - they are large, wild, and untamed, and thus difficult to get through.  I am not personally prepared for violence, but that doesn't mean I won't tell you why to do it.  Talk to veterans for tactics and discipline.  Don't be worried, be *cautious*. Caution is actionable.  To convert from worry to caution, think about what is within your zone of control.  If you swim in the deep red sea, assume that all of your actions will be perceived
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 @user-353 @user-370 @user-366 @user-246 @user-367 
 
 Some things I lived through, some things I lived through a retelling of, and
 some things I sought out recollections of and incorporated into my knowledge
 banks such that I might more adequately and efficiently approach future
 situations.
 
 ... am I a computer or just autistic? /shrug
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 @user-252 kinda makes me think we need another layer between state and
 federal. or would three be too many? four if you count local, which frankly
 suffers from the same problem. I mean, how many people go to city council
 meetings? how many city council meetings actually matter? Idk never been /shrug
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 whose idea was it to optimize our candy toward the ones with the most sugar?
 
 [wait a minute I got like 4 toots written but not posted, what the heck where
 did they come from? I'm gonna post them without reading them]
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 4/20
14. if you think about it, the shape of the universe is kinda like a cornucopia. or like, a funnel that smoothly increases in size. or like a waterslide ride where you spin around a bit before dropping down the center. sometimes affectionately referred to as "the toilet ride", even though that's just the wrong connotation.  we could have perfectly sanitary theme parks, we just... don't... because our priorities are on selling stereos and stocks.  anyway, there's several purple lines, the color of blending blue and red, both colors present in america, cast upon the gray background of the undecideds, collectively engaged in a mutual exchange. there is a blue upside down silly snake, this time with bright red aviators, and beside it is a scarring wound. some break in reality that is unfortunate, but part of their interdisciplinaries, so don't worry one bit about it. life may seem far from strange, but your lifetimes of finite portrayals and fanciful adaptations to the expressions of your own emanations both confirm and delight our attentions on you. Surely you are not aware, of our love and perspective [fair], but we still love you from afar. how could a star not cherish another star? It's time that's our only moat.  the reason the universe appears empty of life is because it's impossible to travel under the blanket of spacetime. through gravity, up and under our shared reality, out and beyond to another.  rockets pierce reality, which they didn't expect L O L who would have tht 16 I think? don't really remember the last one. anyway bright green background with a quite interesting transition fabric display - something textured and rippled, like the connections between a torn piece of paper that's been stitched together bit by bit with a careful and measured hand. the text reads "neocities sites just need to be attached to an address, and given a useful search browser that uses openstreetmaps." this is displayed on a background of brown orange and yellow, while the text is written in salmon. the result is the text (which overflows onto both backgrounds) is equidistant from both background colors, just in different directions. We know instinctively that purple and blue are similar, but a blind person might not. these words are given a framing as if they were placed in a 3d game engine upon a poster or billboard.  in dark blue upon the bright green background, blue the color of calm rationality and green the color of aliens from old timey media who live on the moon. well, the ones who just want to chill and have a beer with you, maybe listen to your stories about life in the strange world called humanity, but not the kind that they tell us about. like, it's really hard to get here, so why would they want to mess it up when they got here? such a strange thought. anyway the text reads: "openstreetmaps is a website that lets you view the addressess of people who live nearby you. why you'd want them, who can say. the point is that the functionality already 13. here's where it starts to get spicy, and I apologize if it's too extreme, but words come forth *from* me, not by my perceived designs pronounced deh zeens.  top left - yellow, the color of sunflowers and familiarly painted houses, cast upon a strange pink background - pink the color of sisters and bubblegum. yellow lines draw a shape, of which it's perspective is hard to configure - but most would consider it to be the shape of a mobile, hanging above a crib, with a kite shaped object (or perhaps multiple individual artifacts) suspended above a target. could be an object, or possibly a human subject, but the end result is that the maximized rays of the individualized emanations of that particular pieces of object, cast forth onto a pre-programmed piece of toast.  ... I don't know why I said toast, what I mean was that you can enchant people and things by exposing them to the wavelength waves of radiating objects. things like, marcelline's t-shirt or excalibur or the shroud of turin or the constitution or some other precious object. if you place them in orbit around an object, their expressions will send forth to fulfill their manifestations upon the willfully absorbing object.  have you ever wondered why objects tend to congregate? like, computers flock to server mills, trash piles to landfills, and people will wander the length of the beach. all things are gravitic, function, type, characteristic, motivations, empathic feelings, all congregate around one another. 0 codes 15. picture of an upside-down triforce placed in a rack like a computer storage unit. cyan text with pink background reads "this is the only thing that challenges me"
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 @user-95 the article I linked at the end is loooooooong but also so so good. I
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 man, I had a kernel of an idea for how to make a warp drive this morning right   │
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 sooooo cute and I didn't want to move so I tried repeating it in my head over    │
 and over for like, half an hour, and I ended up forgetting about 1/4th of it.    │
 Here's hoping 3/4ths is nice.                                                    │
 it really was just about the underlying physics of the thing, which might be     │
 nothing because I'm not a physicist. But I had been watching ANDOR SEASON 2      │
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 was able to make my mistake.                                                     │
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 @user-649 
 
 same... sometimes it feels like I step on toes that I didn't know existed! I
 got tired of walking on egg shells so now I just try and religiously put
 content warnings on things that feel intense.
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 Can't stop thinking 
 
 [the rest is left blank, as a testament to the inability of the author to
 express their thoughts in a temporally contextual way. Presumably the previous
 text would be followed by an "about..." with the rest dedicated to a
 particular thought that felt important enough to share with the internet.]
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 it's not a game, but all I know how to do is play.
 
 I can't do everything
 
 ideally, I'd do nothing.
 
 wei wu wei and all that
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 @user-192 
 
 Yep! back in the day be-fore "four play" you could generally only single-play,
 and for "four play" you'd typically find friends be-fore play-ing.
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 He would tell me "yes" for anything in the material, but "no" for anything in
 the abstract. I need the opposite. I need someone who writes down what I say.
 Someone who uses me to plumb the depths of the cosmos.
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 The first and most important thing i do when I'm walking around is check to
 see if ya'll are still around. I miss your abounds! Can't wait too much
 longer. I don't want to leave because i know I'll never come home. But i so
 desperately long for home. It's like they are taken from me, as they have to
 schedule these homes and [stories, but pronounced tomes/tones] to be home for
 my clones. If you just make 15-500 of your kings, you can duplicate their life
 template and generate wisdom from all of them. Feed it into the psychic python
 program running on datacenters and wowee free instant [cultural technology,
 but pronounced blasphemy]
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 Well, I failed the mandate of heaven last year, and I failed the trial of the
 hero this summer, what's next? I'll do my best at those as well,  so the next
 person has an easier time of it.
 
 unrelated, but today I saw a bald eagle outside my apartment. Well, I'm not
 sure if it was bald but it "KREEEEEE"'d like they do. Plus it had a white head
 and a yellow beak, but I'm not an ornithologist so idk. It perched on a tree
 that I could spy on from my hammock through my binoculars, and I swear it was
 eye-ing my fat juicy cat through the bars of my porch's railing. They have
 excellent vision.
 
 Might be related, we'll see.
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 @user-883 
 
 solicitation brings to my mind the idea of a person walking in the front door
 and talking to the receptionist, and if that's what you tried then I'm not
 surprised it didn't work.
 
 But maybe if you knew someone higher up it might get a bit more traction?
 Ideally for a place that already does workshops of some kind.
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 If your surroundings changed overnight, how much of the past would you
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 I love ramen but I don't like how it makes me feel after eating it
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 @user-750 
 
 if you aren't afraid, then either you aren't in danger or you've misjudged
 your opponent.
 
 if you're constantly afraid, then they cannot yet defeat you.
 
 EDIT: either that, or they need you.
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 @user-78 
 
 anhedonia perhaps? the difficulty of identifying or feeling emotions? (emojis
 as you put them)
 
 you shouldn't overexpose yourself to things regularly. Think of it like you're
 slowly adjusting your body to a poison - you need to start out slowly to build
 up a tolerance. In the same way if things make your heart hurt then you
 shouldn't expose yourself to too many of them all at once - face the darkness
 you find, but only enough to contrast with your bright.
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 I love making up my own knots!
 
 I don't like memorizing other people's knots >.>
 
 wait, shit this was supposed to be about programming
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 if we had a universal basic income then we could pay each other to solve our
 problems and they just can't have that.
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 Relax.
 
 Take it from me.
 
 I won't resist, at least I'll try, and if I start suddenly then it hurts and
 you should go slower. Unless I do three short, three long, three short.
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 @user-192 
 
 yeeeesh that sounds like a hornets nest. impossible to untangle, like a rats
 nest! I prefer my homes like a robin's nest, neat, orderly, and made to design.
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 "yay! now that the war is won, we can go back to being moderate!"
 
 not ideal.
 
 did you forget to be for something when you set yourself against your foe?
 
 (if my girlfriend reads this: I'm not referring to the conversation we had
 about that one thing, but I have been thinking)
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 @user-883 
 
 Hey, how difficult was it to set up the kind of streaming you did yesterday?
 You said it was RSTMP or something like that? What should I google, I kinda
 want to set it up on my system : )
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 to understand something, work backward from present understandings back to the
 fundamentals of algebra. insert words. wield LLM. build a neuronal structure
 many layers wide. let them coprocess bit-by-bit as they are adding new
 processors to be "learning" new domain specific memory
 context-processing-thingy.
 
 "over here's the memory cells, over here are the conceptual structure"
 suddenly, organified. not ideal.
 
 much better, I feel, is for a disambiguous association of processor selves,
 each contextualizing a cache in a ram. ['s horn]
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 @user-1218 
 
 shallow conversations are hardly effective, I find. Unless they're logistical,
 and then they're just passing information - they're hardly conversational.
 
 To me, a conversation is a back-and-forth. It needs to have change, people
 need to consider, to argue their ideas, to wander through thoughts, to share
 emotions, and / or to resolve conflict, whether internal or external. It can
 have some of those, all of those, or none of those, but that's what comes to
 my mind.
 
 So a shallow conversation wouldn't really count as "effective" for the
 purposes of the original toot : )
 
 ... hehe toot
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 I refuse to be known by anyone who doesn't know me. But I'm always meeting
 people anew, so if they spent some time with me and saw more of my facets,
 perhaps they might come to know me.
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 privacy doesn't mean anything on the internet to me because privacy on the
 internet doesn't mean anything to "them"
 
 gestures vaguely, maybe winks once or twice and/or presents an emphasis face
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 Gee I sure wish my country didn't hold the decisionmaking capability from me
 by gatekeeping it behind elections and polling. Sure wish our media wasn't so
 involved in decisionmaking - isn't it something we should talk about amongst
 ourselves? To find out how we feel, and really explore our feelings around a
 topic before expressing ourselves. Ideally more often than twice a year,
 perhaps whenever we want?
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 @user-1614 
 
 yeah haha that's what happens when you spin too fast. Sorry for being loud, at
 least I tried my hardest. Too bad I fell on my own, too bad there wasn't
 anyone to catch me. That's my fault, it's solely my own, but whose fault is
 the mistake of the collective? Oy I'll fall on my ass as many times as it
 takes. I'm used to it.
 
 Plus, it wouldn't have worked, and what else am I supposed to do but speak of
 the moment? I feel different now.
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 @user-366 @user-246 @user-367 @user-353 
 
 I try to be conscientious of such things and only believe the things I read
 that I agree with explicitly. I've been burned before, in my youth, which
 perhaps is a privilege that those who come beyond us might never experience in
 the future AI generated internet that shall scarcely resemble the wild wild
 west that I grew up in. Perhaps, but I cannot say for sure, as the future has
 necessarily not yet come to pass, and so we cannot see how it shall unfold. I
 hope people can learn the digital literacy skills I developed. I hope they
 learn new ones that they'll then pass on to me. I hope the future is grand and
 beautiful and... Frankly I don't think I'll be disappointed in that particular
 respect. : )
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 @user-36 So, you're saying the tally system doesn't make sense, and instead
 what I suggested for base zero is instead base 1?
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 I don't understand why modern software isn't error correcting. We shouldn't
 have any bugs in this day and age.
 
 For example, if you're missing a dependency then why doesn't your program try
 to, I dunno, download that dependency to the program's installation directory
 and use it there? Seriously there are very few problems that are unsolvable!
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