=== ANCHOR POEM === ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── Growing up, I started with 3 video games - Super Mario Deluxe, Dragon Warrior 1&2, and Asteroids. For the gameboy color. Then, a year or two later (what felt like forever), Super Mario 64 and The Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time. Classics. I was so lucky. Not because it was more expensive than my peers, but because I had the right games. Others joined later, Tetris, Mario Kart, Star Fox, etc... But having so few that were so good for so long made me adore them. I would play for about an hour a day, any more would cut into my imaginative play-time. I did not dream of games. But I craved their moments. These days, I play games for so long that I dream of them. In my most vulnerable moments I treat them like my baseline state, rather than a prescribed appointment of delight. I miss wandering around without thinking of my objective. The games seemed to change, rather than progress. They felt alive to me. I never beat them, because I didn't need to. I'll raise my kids the same way, if I ever having any... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/1189 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── @user-883 whoa cool 🤩 Dragon Warrior was the first game I ever played. When I was ~5 years old or so, my mother bought a gameboy color for me with two games before we went on a plane ride. I don't even remember where we were going, but the fact that she knew that a portable video game console with two games (Dragon Warrior 1&2, and Super Mario Bros Deluxe) would shut my autistic ADHD ass up enough to be respectable on an airplane makes me realize how much she saw me. Thank you, mom, I love you Anyway I was the eldest "brother" (I'm trans lmao jokes on you, family in the past) so if anyone deleted my save I would kick their ass :D It still happened once or twice and I did not, in fact, kick their asses, though I wanted to. Shame. Missed opportunities I guess Though to be fair it's not like anyone in my family ever expressed the slightest interest in anything I was into. Not like they'd want to play games because it was something they wanted, oh no - they would only do it to be close to me. Whatever >.> ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/3909 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── I don't really like singleplayer games sometimes a multiplayer game is too much effort to play with extra players, like Factorio where like anytime I'd play with other people they'd just kinda fuck off and do their own thing (whatever, I wanted to design a factory together, not play singleplayer together >.>) sometimes a multiplayer game has no players, RIP sometimes a multiplayer game has incredibly skilled players who shit on noobs and don't teach, RIP and sometimes a multiplayer game has no IRL friends that are into it, (personal RIP then) ... anyway, games are fun and we should play more of them. I wish I didn't have so much time to waste, but hey I guess that's where I'm comfortable, so... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/3722 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── @user-1218 playing one of my 4 gameboys, reading some of my books or journals, using their own brought devices, playing with my cat (she's not sociable but if you don't mind her claws she can fight and that's kinda fun) watching something on the TV, talking with other people, making / eating food, um... sleeping... and "sleeping"... idk what else tho. Drawing? Getting stoned? I have lots of bad edibles. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/2138 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── as a baby, I would sit and stare at the clouds. My parents took me on plane trips, and so I'd watch them as I drifted through the air. It was wonderful. Many hours of this are present in my baby-hood, the part I can't quite remember. But my parents do. I'd play with small, perfect toys, and I'd cry to myself when I lost them. To myself, of course. I'd also play video games. The first game I ever played was Dragon Warrior on the Nintendo Gamecube Color. Alongside Super Mario Deluxe. It was a blessed childhood. Or so it seemed to me. Things went wrong, as they always do, but a child's narrative doesn't often have room for the specifics. Swept along by the nature of fate, they have NO idea what's going missing. They still play, of course they play, in their strange new realities. They play because they are children, and children play. How beautiful, the stories they learn from each song. How cherished, their feelings derived from affection. Hy heart longs for them, as a bird yearns for her un-nested. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/3101 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── if you don't have a lot of time but still like games, like for example a new parent or if you're focused on your career or always traveling, I recommend the game Star Realms in the digital version, which can be played on a phone or computer, has a mode called "48 hour turns" where each of your moves has time to think for two entire days. Most of the time you won't need two days, but it gives time to work on other things. for people who enjoy this mode, it is not uncommon to have 3-5 games running at once. When they have time, they can play as many as they can, and as long as they're keeping up with it there's very little chance they'll lose time. kinda like words with friends, except space strategy. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/4586 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: video-games-mentioned-testicles-gestured-at │ └─────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ I just got the strangest urge to play Neverwinter Nights. Haven't thought about that game in years. Gee I'm sure glad I have the technology to check that game out. Sure glad I have the time to use the technology that I have to check that game out. Sure glad I have the tools and the know-how to use the technology that I have the game that check out. Sure glad that wage labor slavening hasn't struck my particular part of the peninsula yet. When those colonialisms come around the riverbend I'll handle it, trust me they can't get past me. I'm stronger than ten men. No sirree, you can count on me, it's just a flesh wound or some such thing. (nuts, I dropped my raspberries) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/4835 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── sorry for posting so much, I was trying to put on a show for my girlfriend "hey check out how many posts I can make in a 2 hour timeframe" by the way if you want to start talking to someone, just start playing the same game they're playing and see if they reach out. doesn't matter if you feel like it just fuckin' do it if they want to talk to you they might play a game you really like (but I get boooooored of games, I don't wanna play the same 200 all life long!!) ugh okay fine you can have as many games as you want, just... don't buy too many (how many is too many?) um. use your best judgement. (how much does a dollar cost?) ... okay I'll get you one every once in a while. (neat!) ... anyway so yeah use steam if you wanna get in contact with someone, sometimes it's just nice to say hi, yeah, like "hey how ya doin' okay ttyl" just catchin' up with the gals helps because you can sense changes in their demeanor (why does everyone always have an agenda) because they're secret agents duh. And I'm ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/2063 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ "No I haven't played that PC game before. Do you want to watch me play it for │ ║ the first time? We can have a laugh and eat cheetos as I die to the first boss │ ║ a hundred times. Maybe next time we'll get tacos and then perhaps we'll find │ ║ that we're spending so much time talking about things that we never really got │ ║ a chance to engage with the game. Until next week of course, when we'll │ ║ definitely spend more time playing. Maybe even with friends? I know a guy │ ║ who's into this game but I never really played it with him - maybe we could - │ ║ oh yeah sure totally we'll talk about that next week." │ ║ │ ║ "or maybe we'd unlock the secrets hidden in the narrative, and learn cool │ ║ lessons we could share with one another. Like two 12 year olds playing Ocarina │ ║ of Time together, working through each boss. "let me try this time" "yeah that │ ║ one got me too" "ah so close" "YEAH DUDE you nailed it" "this part is kinda │ ║ scary ngl" "wait shit when did we use that health potion" │ ║ │ ║ old hardware forced us into a different experience compared to z │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/2126 --- ╔═════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┐ ║ There was this great game growing up called Neverwinter Nights 2 - I never │ ║ really played it, but it was renowned for it's map-editor functionality. You │ ║ could join a person's "game", when really they were in the editor window, and │ ║ they could BUILD THE GAME RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. It was like, computer skill │ ║ performance gameplay improv. It was beautiful. │ ║ │ ║ I did, however, play a Warcraft 3 mod with all the same ideas. Except, it was │ ║ ONLY IN RAM. YOU COULD NOT SAVE. │ ║ │ ║ so it was a lot simpler, and O M G it was the coolest thing ever. │ ║ │ ║ I played it like, twice though. Nobody ever hosted it, nobody ever showed me │ ║ how. │ ║ │ ║ I tried to play it single-player, but I couldn't understand the mechanics. Not │ ║ simple enough for me, I guess. │ ║ │ ║ I couldn't help but think how many cool games a person could make if they │ ║ could do that with the Warcraft 3 editor itself. │ ║ │ ║ Because I did work with that, a lot, which was NOT in RAM, but instead stored │ ║ to the hard drive. │ ║ │ ║ Hard drives which I've since lost, of course, but drop me in and I know ho │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/1239 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┐ ║ growing up I frequently bought this magazine called "101 PC games" - it had │ ║ 101 video game demos on a disc taped to the front. It was the coolest thing I │ ║ owned. │ ║ │ ║ each edition had a different set of demos - there were over 14 published! That │ ║ means a minimum of 1404 video game demos available. Unfortunately, I only had │ ║ a few copies. Now they are precious to me, though I've long since lost the │ ║ discs. I can't seem to find a link or barely a reference to it online, so I │ ║ can't help but feel it was defining. │ ║ │ ║ I was given a taste of many experiences, but very few of them really resonated │ ║ with me. The others were good games, and I played them from time to time, but │ ║ my favorites were always my home. │ ║ │ ║ I had some full games, so I knew what I was missing, but still I looked out │ ║ for cheats. sometimes the writers would leave a hint or a clue to the solution │ ║ to a puzzle in the demo, just incase it was hard to continue. I dunno, I loved │ ║ it and it was special to me. │ ║ │ ║ I wonder if you can send radio waves through the earth? Like │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #11 fediverse/1968 --- ╔════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────┐ ║ ┌───────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ CW: alcohol-mentioned │ │ ║ └───────────────────────┘ │ ║ │ ║ │ ║ what is it with me and buying steam games for long-lost friends while drunk? │ ║ │ ║ I swear I'm not depressed about my upcoming new job, I'm just doing all these │ ║ drugs in such a short time period because I'm, uh... living for the the │ ║ moment? Yeah that sounds good, better post that on the internet where everyone │ ║ in the world can see it and read it and realize what a mess you are because │ ║ you've been traumatized by employment and are about to dive back into that │ ║ frigid pool after a lengthy break where you did nothing but heal and recover │ ║ which is not a boon that most people are able to afford │ ║ │ ║ lucky you, Ritz Menardi, lucky you for being so privileged. │ ║ │ ║ But hey, those long-lost friends surely will want to hear from you! Surely. │ ║ Surely you're not someone they're trying to forget. Surely you didn't hurt │ ║ them, didn't twist them into knots, didn't compel them to act in ways that │ ║ benefited you but not them, SURELY you're a good person, according to all the │ ║ things people tell you and the results of your act │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴──────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/2121 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── my wishlist is comprised primarily of "things I wish I could've played" like... "things I would have installed, but cannot afford" it's a good list, I wouldn't want it wiped out. I have enough games. unless you think of something specific that would appeal to me, or if I chance upon something really cool via fate. But other than that... I'm a not a big "gamer" even though I spend almost all of my day on the screen. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧══════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────┘ --- #13 notes/what-a-lame-movie --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────── oy there's nothing interesting happening SNOOZE oh I didn't see I was recording games games that's what I do play games all the day through I am a luck witch, you see, and things that I like are things that I can't foresee. Hence why games which are BALANCED and EVENLY DISTRIBUTED are most interesting because they show the most opportunities for players to express talent. And not innate talent, but the talents they've built up through gameplay practice art. because it is a performance, a game play for an audience (or perhaps for them- -selves) oy video games, amiright? I really like them because they are entertaining experiences that I can enjoy seeing and playing a lot. They remind me of feelings I've felt when I was learning. It's a good feeling, to improve, and I crave it because it's good for you. I wonder what we'll play next ... more cannabis I think, at least until I am ready to go think about things before bed. I need quite a few hours for that. We'll see. I've just got so much extra processing to do before the end of the day. Like... PHEW that's a lot of stuff to do. guess I'll just smoke weed and play video games instead of being productive okay ... listen I like games as much as the next person, but do you really know what's going on outside of your house-shaped shell? Are you listening, do you have your feelers to the dirt, are you checking out your neighborhood to make sure no bodies have been hurt? Are there meetings where people gather, just to chat, like, every week at a different city center (like a park or a monument or :O I forgot to play music!! I couldn't sleep what have I done that is worse I have not said a single word all night alas oh boy talking to random people I can hear with my eyeballs woooooo I am always sad when I win because it means we have to stop playing :( but I'm a juvenile loser so I'm going to play again!! okay now I'm going to bed because I'm not a prick who keeps their guests up late goodnight ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/3008 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── when I play games, the theme only matters when it's being sold to me. after, once I start playing, I stick around if the mechanics are good. hence, why I loooooove video games but spend like 30$ on them every 6 months ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/4914 --- ╔═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┐ ║ what if I just sat around and played video games all day │ ║ │ ║ life is so much more beautiful, but, well, life just seems to be mostly │ ║ pyrite, and I'm the fool │ ║ │ ║ nothing wrong with being foolish. │ ║ │ ║ once... │ ║ │ ║ I kinda like being blissful tho. why does it have to end? can I have my │ ║ peaceful life back? │ ║ │ ║ gotta move at the end of the month. I really liked living here. │ ║ │ ║ [ritz you've never been peaceful. your life is a constant battle of wills │ ║ between those who would compel you to do things for them and your desire to │ ║ design and be pretty like a flower. no matter what, you lose, so just handle │ ║ it please. don't be so whiny. or rather I should say "stop whining" and just │ ║ be cool] │ ║ │ ║ ahhhhhhh you go on Mastodon and it feels like we're winning and that's ending │ ║ the world, you go on Reddit and it feels like we're losing and that's ending │ ║ the world, you go on Facebook and everything feels fine like the world isn't │ ║ ending you just stopped being part of it, and if you go on ephemeren it feels │ ║ like being battered in the mind, damnit... │ ╟─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┴──────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/4880 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────── I remember being a game design student before "indie games" were a real thing they were like... flash games, y'know. just like, junk content, like memes or whatever. I had a passion for them, and I bookmarked the most well developed of them all. I probably played hundreds of games, no clue how many. Maybe even thousands, I did it for what felt like years. since like... age 7 until 11 or 12 there's nothing that can compare to it today. maybe itch.io but they're more involved typically. increases the barrier to enter, plus they cost dollars. we used to make this stuff in our spare time. where did all our spare time go? ah, right, that's what happens when you actually invest in computer education. you have kids running linux on their laptops. you get flash game designers. you get soldering junkies and electric engineers and networking and dev-ops security system facilitators and various other computer related things besides. ... what was I saying? oh yes when you invest in education, there's more to se ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/6449 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───── currently have 20-30 tabs open with poems written but not posted. I have no idea if I'm going to post all of these. I wrote all of them in ~2 hours, with maybe 3 or four being added as I was working on the production elements after the initial bingewrite. I also added a bit of context, or modified some of them that felt too cursed or otherwise unwieldy. Sometimes I got distracted and needed to come back and finish, and in those cases I only added a sentence or two because it's like "oh, where was I going with that? I remember what was next, but I don't know the further..." ... I think I might go for another. Wish me luck. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┘ --- #18 messages/240 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── I realized the reason it's so difficult for me to get into a new video game is because my perfect game existed at one point, but no longer, and all else pales in comparison. The make-believe games of children are without equal. They represent our inner truth and desires, cast upon the canvas of our experience through the outputs of imagination and physical exertion. I'd spend my time as a child wandering through the forest with a stick in hand, climbing on things and exploring. I grew up in Wyoming, and the forests there look like this: ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────────┘ --- #19 notes/thing-2 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── one of my favorite things to do is play overwatch nerf blast arena is fun, but not the same. different kind of fun. actually fun. overwatch was... practice, for different ways of thinking I liked to play Tracer and always put my distant target behind my main target. that way I was applying pressure to the frontline while also chipping away at a potential loop-around target. Always looking for angles on low-health-targets, while firing their pistols as often as they can. when playing as Mercy, I would do the same but inversed. I'd put my frontline between me and between the dps foes. usually, try and put my tank on-top of their dps, and put their tanks in firing range (but distant enough to not deal too much damage) (give space) have you ever heard of the kingdom of luminar? it was an ancient naaru (spirit) a moment of clarification in an eternal, pitiless dark. contemplation. sevastavan luminous it blue purple green ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/4733 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────── One of the first video games I ever played was Dragon Warrior 3 for the gameboy color. The game starts with god asking you about yourself in a dream. This was the first time I heard the word "gemini" - At one point, she asks if you are M or F. Me, being a child, thought she was asking if I wanted to go "medium speed" or "fast speed" and I'm like, hell yeah I wanna go fast that's it that's the whole reason I'm trans at one point in the game I became a queen of a faraway land and I couldn't leave the castle without the guards saying "no no miss you can't leave, it's too dangerous for a battle-hardened adventurer dainty flower like you to leave" (I think they say you have to renounce your claim to the throne if you want to leave but I would rather fucking die) so I never got farther than that. Sorry world, but I didn't end up slaying the demon king, I sorta just walked around the palace and cried because it felt like the game was over. kids, amiright? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧╧════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┘ |