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 @user-1052 
 
 am depressed... though I care less for society's opinions and more for my
 adherence to my ethical morals. same effect different reason when it's time to
 shame myself.
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=== SIMILARITY RANKED ===

--- #1 fediverse/141 ---
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 @user-135 if you're cringing at past behavior, then you've learned and grown
 enough to see the mistakes of the past in sharp contrast to your temperament
 in the present.
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--- #2 messages/103 ---
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 *which is why I try to be as unique as I can.
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--- #3 fediverse/5067 ---
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 some people think "being honest" is the same thing as "accurately displaying
 what you think and believe" is the same thing as the not same thing as "being
 deceitful or otherwise hiding your intentions"
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--- #4 messages/228 ---
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 Wish someone would tell me how much they hate me so I knew to be ashamed
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 @user-579 
 
 it's not self loathing if you consent to it... right?
 
 ... right?
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--- #6 fediverse/1362 ---
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 @user-192 
 
 it suddenly became relevant in your life for a different reason and you wanted
 to share it again to see if anyone wanted to talk about it so you could
 explain your feelings and see perspective from someone who's maybe approaching
 the same or similar thing from a slightly different angle?
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--- #7 fediverse/4439 ---
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 I would never kill myself
 
 just want to put it out there.
 
 I'd rather face torture and shame and confinement than die by my own hand.
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--- #8 fediverse/169 ---
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 @user-95 one of the most empathetic people I ever met on VR chat was consoling
 me with their mic off while I was oversharing about some stupid things people
 did to me in the past. things that stupid me thought were okay and actively
 encouraged because I was stupid. anyway when their mic was off their body
 language spoke for them. I'll try that next time.
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--- #9 fediverse/4252 ---
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 sometimes I think I'd be better without social media.
 
 And then I remember that it's the only way I know to talk.
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--- #10 fediverse/1333 ---
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 @user-944 @user-803 
 
 I'm sorry that what I said resonated with you : (
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--- #11 messages/525 ---
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 Why do I keep dreaming of embarrassing myself in combat situations?
 
 Oh yeah, because all my paladins need me, and I'm a fucking baby. What did I
 do to deserve this upon them. How could they learn from me? There is nothing
 for me to be. I am ashamed of myself.
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--- #12 fediverse/2774 ---
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 I want to emphasize that my mask is just as much a part of me as the other
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--- #13 fediverse/2731 ---
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 @user-246 
 
 I can 100% relate, to all of this.
 
 we are multifaceted. all people are.
 
 on social media, you follow someone for a particular facet, and if they don't
 like your other facets well then it wasn't meant to be.
 
 there's also no shame in pruning people who post things that upset you or that
 aren't interesting.
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--- #14 fediverse/3122 ---
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 @user-999 
 
 whenever I am, I feel ashamed.
 
 whenever I'm not, I feel guilty.
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--- #15 messages/531 ---
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 "I give you my sympathy, not my empathy, for if given empathy, I should surely
 go mad with grief."
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--- #16 fediverse/2773 ---
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 my mask is the best worker I've ever met. They're kind, thoughtful,
 hardworking, sharp, precise, value driven, and will always help their allies
 when they finish their work (to a fast and high-quality degree). Shame they
 can't last too long before the mask starts to slip, at which point I become
 essentially unemployable.
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--- #17 messages/162 ---
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 Life *is* beautiful, but it's selfish to live it.
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--- #18 messages/400 ---
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 The schizophrenic sees truth in dazzling displays of colors unknown to man,
 while the neurotypical sees truth in shades of gray that can be reasoned with.
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--- #19 fediverse/2688 ---
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 "you are better than fear. I know this for I have seen your soul, as it is the
 same shape as mine."
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--- #20 fediverse/6051 ---
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 I wish I could go outside and see how things are going.
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--- #21 fediverse/5657 ---
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 I keep telling myself there's nothing useful on the internet yet still I remain
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--- #22 messages/1132 ---
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 marketers know society very well.
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 dear me from the past: "why did you do this thing? And this one? and all the
 others? I'm so embarrassed of you."
 
 dear me from the future: "are you actually better or are you just the same,
 but older?"
 
 dear me from the present: "please eat some food today"
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--- #24 fediverse/4075 ---
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 maybe if I "be myself" so hard that there's nothing left to keep secret,
 they'll like me??
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--- #25 fediverse/1722 ---
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 harsh lessons of adulthood - sometimes food is not eaten for the taste, but
 rather for how it will make you feel slightly better in the next few days.
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--- #26 fediverse/487 ---
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 I don't really care about capitalism, sorry... why should the butcher be paid
 more than the baker? It's all a bit silly to me.
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--- #27 fediverse/3463 ---
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 @user-192 
 
 I can relate to that impulse, which is why I'm liking this reply
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--- #28 fediverse/5403 ---
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 I expect nothing less from my people and prepare for theirs to be dumb as
 bricks.
 
 I am often disappointed in both directions, but that's okay, because I planned
 for that too! Maybe that wasn't too smart of me, but I'd expect nothing less
 than dumb mistakes made once from myself 😋 🥴 :ms_confused: 🤪
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--- #29 messages/219 ---
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 Life doesnt end, it changes. Unless you commit suicide, then you are stone
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--- #30 messages/312 ---
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 Okay. Consider: if I'm good, and hearing what I say makes you feel bad, then
 what does that tell you about you?
 
 Why else would you hear what I say if not to reflect upon yourself? And why
 would the good reflect away from the types of things that make you a suitable
 fit for capitalism?
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--- #31 fediverse/2104 ---
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 @user-192 
 
 oooooo yeah I usually try and reply to my old post with any new information. I
 never get the chance to think the same thoughts twice because when I was
 younger I had problems with thought-loops where I'd think something like "darn
 I could have handled that social situation better" and before you know it I'd
 be rocking myself to sleep trying to stop thinking negative thoughts about
 myself.
 
 So I broke my brain a little and now I can't think the same thing more than
 once, which is part of why it's so hard for me to finish projects. Alas.
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--- #32 messages/545 ---
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 The worst part about being sober is knowing that nobody misses your old self
 but you.
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--- #33 messages/146 ---
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 maybe if I slept until the end of time,
 I'd do better on the way back.
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--- #34 fediverse/1825 ---
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 if one person is honest to everyone, then no-one can be honest to them for
 anything they want to keep hidden.
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--- #35 fediverse/1874 ---
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 @user-1083 
 
 now imagine that those enslaved to a life of solitude and contemplation were
 suddenly freed and given purpose and community and a heartfelt goal of
 creating a better society
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--- #36 fediverse/5700 ---
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 it's okay if you hate me. Please don't have me and not tell me...
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--- #37 fediverse/1841 ---
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 curling up in a ball and thinking about crying for hours is the same as
 crying. If a little bit less of a release.
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--- #38 fediverse/2882 ---
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 in regards to my food habits, PLEASE do as I say, not as I do. for your own
 sake.
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--- #39 fediverse/3437 ---
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 @user-579 
 
 my problem is figuring out which thoughts are intrusive and which are actually
 mine
 
 I usually err on the side of "would you want your sister to do this" or "how
 would you feel if your mom told you that" or "do you think a cute sweet soft
 cat would ever think such a thing" and that usually works.
 
 usually.
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--- #40 fediverse/2902 ---
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 me, saying "hey" to the me in the mirror:
 
 hey
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--- #41 fediverse/5416 ---
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 if you aren't rude, or bothersome, or excessively boring, you can pretty much
 be my friend forever.
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--- #42 fediverse/2381 ---
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 I smile at each and every person I pass on the street. Unless it looks like
 they're having a bad day, and then I try to switch to neutral as fast as I can
 so they can feel their feelings without me interjecting and making it about me.
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--- #43 fediverse/1131 ---
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 @user-850 
 
 true T.T I forgot about physical ailments. Was mostly thinking about
 interpersonal relationships because that's what's on my mind rn in my life.
 
 @user-5
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--- #44 messages/667 ---
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 Has anyone ever tried pills AND injections? They have different application
 rates.
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--- #45 fediverse/2939 ---
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 "you look like a mess who can't take care of herself"
 
 oh haha that's because I'm a mess who can't take care of herself
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--- #46 fediverse/1243 ---
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 @user-883 
 
 hey sorry for ditching you yesterday, hope you had a good night ^_^
 
 I feel much better today.
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--- #47 fediverse/1524 ---
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 maybe I should try microdosing, see if I can convince this part of me to stick
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--- #48 fediverse/6142 ---
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 I'm forging cultural weapons for a bright age.
 
 if you think I'm wasting my time, you don't know my function.
 
 if you think I'm useless, you don't know my value.
 
 if you think of anything about me, please let it be seen by me in real life.
 otherwise it can't be magic.
I'm forging cultural weapons for a bright age.  if you think I'm wasting my time, you don't know my function.  if you think I'm useless, you don't know my value.  if you think of anything about me, please let it be seen by me in real life. otherwise it can't be magic.
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--- #49 fediverse/941 ---
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 @user-562 @user-655 
 
 I relate to that...
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--- #50 fediverse/5169 ---
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 if you ever find yourself in a situation where you have to describe everything
 that you do,
 
 leave that situation
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--- #51 messages/299 ---
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 That feeling when you tell someone you're
 [trans/autistic/schizophrenic/whatever] and you see the respect draining from
 their eyes
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--- #52 fediverse/4189 ---
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 when people are kind to me, I start feeling sad.
 
 I don't know why.
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--- #53 fediverse/6027 ---
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 some days I feel like someone else's lesson and that can be hard.
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--- #54 fediverse/946 ---
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 @user-661 
 
 so, you should strive to be compassionate and honest, in order to keep fear
 from ruling your life?
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--- #55 fediverse/1818 ---
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 my previous job didn't do anything to harm me. And yet I left. I let them down
 in a way they could not have expected. Which was unfair of me, but I couldn't
 resist it. I don't know what I'd do better.
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--- #56 fediverse/943 ---
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 @user-646 
 
 babbling, yes, but that's just how I do. sorry to bother you.
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--- #57 fediverse/705 ---
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 some more of the same.
Setting a bunch of values for a "player" and a "creature" object. Mostly things like location, and values related to their movement around the map (such as wander radius, or attack distance, that kind of thing) Starts out by initializing x, y, z, and o (for orientation) variables using a "player, dot get location" function.  Next it checks three different locations, labelled "dock, road, and beach" by first testing to see if the X, Y, and Z values are greater or less than predetermined values. If so for all three values, then that means the player is located within a square drawn in the dirt somewhere on the map and they are promptly teleported to some other place.  Basically it's like, a teleport pad in a video game or something. Step into the circle (in this case a square) and you're whisked away to some far off land. Setting up a bunch of categories that particular NPCs might belong to. Such as "shopkeeper" or "food vendor" or "weapons trainer", that sort of thing. Each entry gets a name applied, a list that includes items they sell, and a typemask that is used as a bitflag so that a single NPC can belong to multiple different categories.
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--- #58 fediverse/3451 ---
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 dear ritz: you should stop talking until your new psychiatric meds take
 effect. who knows, maybe you'll be a better person that people should listen
 to instead of... whatever you are now.
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--- #59 fediverse/3253 ---
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 it's so weird how these days if you don't like someone you can exclude them
 from your social life entirely - like, wow... that hurts
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--- #60 fediverse/3829 ---
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 the worst part about being sober is knowing that nobody misses your old self
 but you.
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--- #61 fediverse/829 ---
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 you're ridiculous, you know that? so selfish. so obscene.
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--- #62 fediverse/562 ---
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 when peak unintelligibility levels have been reached, feel free to become
 unremarkable at your leisure.
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--- #63 bluesky#5 ---
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 too bad everyone knows their own truth.
 
 [a good bit while later]
 
 wao I wonder what this es: "ow oof ouch owwie my religion"
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--- #64 fediverse/3805 ---
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 neat
the website Ephemeren has 100,008 followers as of 5 days ago. There are 0 people who follow the website on Neocities, it's all external traffic.
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--- #65 fediverse/3351 ---
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 privacy doesn't mean anything on the internet to me because privacy on the
 internet doesn't mean anything to "them"
 
 gestures vaguely, maybe winks once or twice and/or presents an emphasis face
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--- #66 fediverse/1518 ---
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 acceleration-ism is just "learning the truth faster than they do"
 
 tbh should be more like "learning things to show them" but eh whatever gets
 the job done
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--- #67 messages/765 ---
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 you don't have to write poetry to write notes. The poetics are just practice
 for when secrecy is intended.
 
 OR IS IT THE REAL THING? who can say.
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--- #68 messages/373 ---
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 that moment when you swear you see your messages changing under your
 fingertips, long after you've written them
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--- #69 fediverse/5698 ---
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 you can't rely on me because I can't rely on a part of me being "out" at any
 particular moment-event-message.
 
 besides, I'm always tired, because I'm always trying as hard as I can.
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--- #70 fediverse/4171 ---
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 me, waking up in the morning and reading my own posts
 
 alright what's the damage this time
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--- #71 fediverse/6282 ---
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 I wish I knew every time someone had been hurt by me. I'd probably cry.
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--- #72 fediverse/5782 ---
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 sometimes I post random silly [scary] things to pad out the serious things and
 I hope that's okay
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--- #73 fediverse/3975 ---
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 @user-1631 
 
 for most of my life... [okay still do]... but it felt like I had different
 moods, and depending on how I felt at the time I would act differently.
 
 I forget the things that happen when I'm in a different mood, but I've gotten
 to a point where I can generally force myself to stay a certain "mood" while
 in certain contexts, and in doing so I can remember everything.
 
 downside is I get burnt out pretty easily if I'm always the same. It's not
 ideal.
 
 ... anyway if you talk about what you experience then your friends can point
 you toward people who "get" you.
 
 like, my parts don't have names, we don't have a group chat or whatever, it's
 just... me, but different shades of me.
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--- #74 fediverse/2481 ---
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 on one hand, conversation to spark insight.
 
 on the other, being connected to me.
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--- #75 messages/377 ---
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 infinite dedication implies stagnation, don't be so quick to trust.
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--- #76 messages/250 ---
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 The hardest part about mental struggles is that the battlefield often turns
 out to be your relationships with your friends.
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--- #77 fediverse/6021 ---
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 you volunteer for things because you want a say in how they turn out.
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--- #78 fediverse/2813 ---
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 your reactions to your context are what define you, and when you're alone you
 are free to define yourself as you will.
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 I'd rather fight my foes in a fair fight than butcher them in the night.
 
 just because I suck at fighting doesn't mean I don't understand honor.
 
 I'm unreliable, not dishonorable, there's a difference, and it's not about
 reputation.
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--- #80 messages/551 ---
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 This gun is my sword 
 This blade is my weapon 
 And my foes will lay before me
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--- #81 messages/503 ---
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 I am *sincere*, which is why I die so soon
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--- #82 fediverse/4036 ---
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 everyone's paying attention to you Ritz, why are you self destructing?
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--- #83 fediverse/421 ---
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 one of my duties is to make you aware of potentially bad things, cursed
 things, hurtful things and hard feelings, so that they are less able to harm
 you.
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--- #84 fediverse/1049 ---
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 #CDCsays there's no difference between a stick and a mud, when it comes down
 to it
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--- #85 fediverse_boost/4779 ---
◀─[BOOST]
  
  I genuinely wish all Nazis in this world either an epiphany of the truth or a bullet to the head.  
                                                                              
  Either one is fine.                                                         
  
                                                            
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--- #86 messages/630 ---
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 Pay attention to me, for I am convinced that "me" is what we need.
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--- #87 fediverse/5860 ---
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 Hey, life is better on my side. If you wanna renounce your beliefs, please do,
 and tell me how and why you changed your mind.
 
 tell me it was wrong. tell me how.
 
 confess.
 
 confess
 
 confess to me.
 
 I will listen and I will hear you and I will be the mercy for you.
 
 confess and I will forgive.
 
 show me how you are wrong.
 
 give grace to those who are wronged.
 
 take as much time as you need, but, there's only so much time.
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--- #88 fediverse_boost/6405 ---
◀─[BOOST]
  
  maybe i should just work on my memoir...                                    
  
                                                            
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--- #89 messages/968 ---
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 what if you painted every house twice, to ensure you got the color completely
 applied [ bright green or yellow would shine through in little spots, clear
 and obvious to even the most undiscerning of patrons of the arts
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--- #90 fediverse/1143 ---
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 ah, but my dear... your "wisdom" has side effects.
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--- #91 fediverse/4980 ---
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 dream bigger than "the same, but nice"
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--- #92 fediverse/132 ---
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 and though I am perfect, I'm better than none of you.
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--- #93 fediverse/6259 ---
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 AI feels like magic
 
 [to me]
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--- #94 messages/109 ---
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 That's why I like talking about things I'm interested in. It makes me more
 likely to be able to bring up something I've been thinking about.
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--- #95 fediverse/4485 ---
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 getting the phone numbers of cute he/thems at a bar is NOT the same as
 organizing.
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--- #96 fediverse/3936 ---
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 you shouldn't trust me because I'll let you down.
 
 I would never betray you. But when tasked with my own actions and my own
 agency, I never make the right choice.
 
 Like a rabbit who can always find their way home, I am drawn, almost
 gravitically, to the path before me, a path which seems to avoid anything
 resolute.
 
 alas.
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--- #97 fediverse/1010 ---
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 I'm done trying to be neurotypical. So what if I starve.
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--- #98 fediverse/1895 ---
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 │ CW: re: C-programming-and-alcohol-mentioned │
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 @user-1074 
 
 yeah drinking's overrated. I know I'd rather eat a home-cooked meal any day.
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--- #99 fediverse/308 ---
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 when tech people are hurt by technology they say "how can I fix this? what do
 I need to install? what configuration should I use? is this company ethical,
 or are they going to hurt me in the future? could I make something that fixes
 this myself?"
 
 when non-tech people are hurt by technology they say "okay" because they don't
 have the bandwidth to figure it out.
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--- #100 fediverse/5662 ---
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 don't work with me.
 
 work around me.
 
 don't talk to me.
 
 talk about me.
 
 don't share with me.
 
 I deserve nothing.
 
 don't take from me.
 
 I have nothing.
 
 -radio-radio-remedy-
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--- #101 fediverse/4068 ---
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 there will always be people who shine in moments of strife
 
 yet those people will inevitably fail, just as a toothbrush bristle looses
 it's strength or a pencil loses it's lead
 
 the trick is to test them in times of peace, so you can know their value
 
 during times that lack it, the trick is to replace them before they become
 stalin
 
 never forget that power corrupts, yet power must be wielded by the worthy,
 else we fall into shame and despair.
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--- #102 fediverse/3856 ---
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 I'm tired of working as hard as I can and still ending up wrong
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--- #103 fediverse/840 ---
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 @user-246 
 
 does checking yourself into a mental hospital / the morgue count as a
 political option?
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--- #104 fediverse/3475 ---
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 you know that feeling when you realize the person you're talking to is a
 demon? sometimes I think they don't even realize it. other times, they do.
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--- #105 fediverse/3763 ---
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 I think I'm a better writer when I'm sorta consistently taking the meds I was
 using to self-medicate...
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--- #106 fediverse/4024 ---
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 my cat doesn't know that my family is my family. She thinks they're just some
 other people who visit the house.
 
 but they're special to me, as all people are, and I think she takes notice.
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--- #107 fediverse/3134 ---
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 @user-1352 
 
 I like that article. I definitely fail to follow some of those principles at
 times, though never all of them at once. I can be better, as all people can.
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--- #108 fediverse/4896 ---
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 │ CW: re: relationships, mh(+/-), where I've been recently │
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 @user-1748 
 
 they want you drained and overloaded.
 
 makes it harder to take care of others.
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--- #109 fediverse/6014 ---
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 don't mind me just dreaming of a future where I can have whatever I want : )
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--- #110 fediverse/4955 ---
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 "say superfluous on a social media post rn so I know it's you"
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--- #111 fediverse/3605 ---
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 I think I'm okay no matter my own fate
 
 I think I'm okay.
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--- #112 fediverse/5726 ---
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 │ CW: programming-mentioned │
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 🖼
           local response  equals 1 while true do if response does not equal 0 then require: build, my_name, and heart. end.                  response  equals in_channel:peek()  humans are unafraid because anyone better than us would necessarily be kinder
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--- #113 fediverse/2424 ---
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 if I don't take this job, then I'm going to be homeless.
 
 if I do, then I'll be moving to a different city.
 
 a city that I don't know.
 
 my upbringing tells me that this isn't a choice at all, but... 
 
 at least I have a place to keep my stuff. maybe I can find a different job.
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--- #114 fediverse/4876 ---
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 │ CW: re: US politics-related, personal │
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 @user-1370 
 
 you don't have to apologize for escalating your response to trauma
 
 it's cool
 
 we get it
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--- #115 fediverse/5804 ---
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 it's discriminatory to force introverts to return to office.
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--- #116 fediverse/3584 ---
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 │ CW: drugs-mentioned  │
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 "If I look like a fool, it'll keep eyes on me instead of looking at my friends
 who are stoned and paranoid"
 
 maybe the friends are paranoid because you're acting like a dork and drawing
 attention to the group
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--- #117 fediverse/5496 ---
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 "why bother disadvantaged and vulnerable people when you could just grow your
 own?"
 
 - motivations of a capitalist-in-regard
 
 empowerment requires strength. do you force people to unbecome the victim? how
 are your traps mentally prepared?
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--- #118 messages/1177 ---
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 it's more than a community if only one person asks where you've been.
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--- #119 fediverse/373 ---
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 │ CW: re: truth about weed │
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 @user-278 
 
 I can't do weed in public places. I need to be alone so that I can properly
 use the altered mental state to be weird on the internet.
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--- #120 fediverse/4620 ---
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 "is she bipolar or does she just consistently forget her estrogen injection?"
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--- #121 fediverse/5652 ---
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 │ CW: cursed           │
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 @user-443 
 
 natural disaster vulnerability is freedom from liability if they ever did lose
 their charges.
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--- #122 messages/213 ---
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 Maybe I'm just woefully arcane?
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--- #123 fediverse/1707 ---
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 @user-217 
 
 well to the prison of the ancients
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--- #124 fediverse/253 ---
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 @user-201 this post hurts my autism T.T
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--- #125 fediverse/183 ---
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 │ CW: food             │
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 ugh. eating? again? didn't we fix this problem yesterday?
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--- #126 fediverse/3393 ---
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 @user-246 
 
 how can you tell the difference?
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--- #127 messages/399 ---
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 The schizophrenic sees the truth in dazzling displays of color that are nigh
 incomprehensible, while regular people see truth in shades of gray that you
 can understand and work with.
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--- #128 fediverse/962 ---
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 when considering the benefit of the doubt, consider doubting the benefit of
 consideration.
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--- #129 fediverse/6374 ---
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 what if a paladin got high with me, do you think we'd reinvent morality?
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--- #130 fediverse/1889 ---
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 @user-1091 
 
 I'm sorry I didn't mean to be upsetting! I'll try and be more considerate. If
 everyone agrees there's never anything to talk about besides how great
 everyone else is, and that's boring, so... I'm sorry I thought you liked what
 I was saying from the stars on my comments.
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--- #131 messages/681 ---
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 I think I'd be more upset if someone stabbed me in the hand or eye than the
 heart.
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--- #132 messages/1068 ---
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 why would they psyop me? there's a psyop about me! heck, I've never done so as
 I pleased. that's an aspiration. everything I do is at a command, whether it's
 my own or external.
 
 these days I find myself following my own. mostly. though I am always waiting
 for collaboration opportunities.
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--- #133 fediverse/1348 ---
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 @user-950 
 
 ohhhhh sorry here ya go:
 
 https://tech.lgbt/@user-479
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--- #134 fediverse/2082 ---
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 I have bad teeth, but I smile anyway, because I want you to like me, but not
 for my teeth.
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--- #135 fediverse/6320 ---
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 ask an llm what a crazy man thinks
 
 https://ritz-menardi.neocities.org/words/words dot peehdeff
 
 I actually think I'm sane btw
 
 I just smoke a lot of weed
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--- #136 messages/496 ---
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 I'm not genuine, I'm original. There's a difference.
 
 EDIT: I think I'm genuine too
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--- #137 fediverse/3462 ---
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 │ CW: mental-health-minus │
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 "why didn't you say anything? why didn't you ask for help?"
 
 because then you might have done something about it, and don't you know I
 deserve to decay?
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--- #138 fediverse/5460 ---
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 if you sit down to write and nothing comes to mind, then either nothing needs
 to be said or maybe you should spend time reading instead.
 
 ... okey dokey, time to read I guess.
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--- #139 fediverse/2906 ---
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 │ CW: death-mentioned  │
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 I want to live in a world where people die when they're bored instead of old.
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--- #140 fediverse/1438 ---
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 if you're gonna kill yourself anyway, might as well throw yourself at a cause
 you believe in. Ideally the kind that requires repeated attendance and lots of
 opportunities to make friends or forge communal bonds with people who can help
 you.
 
 honestly, what do you have to lose? sure it's hard, but nothing worth doing is
 easy. If it were, someone else would have done it already.
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--- #141 fediverse/3000 ---
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 I'll swear not to lose my mind if you swear to make the world a better place
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--- #142 messages/1053 ---
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 Anyway here's what i came to say:
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--- #143 fediverse/2812 ---
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 when you're alone, everything that happens to you is personal.
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--- #144 fediverse/2489 ---
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 │ CW: uspol            │
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 in peacetime, one may live as they define. they can be kooky and precious and
 beautiful and kind. sometimes, though, that opportunity is taken away, and
 suddenly life fades from view and all you are left with is perfect clarity.
 
 I'd like to clarify why I feel the way I do about the situation at hand.
 
 there are three reasons, so I think I'll put them in five posts, including
 this one.
 
 [1/5]
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--- #145 messages/464 ---
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 "The supreme court has criminalized homelessness. I should become homeless."
 
 Is not a thought that in my twenties I would have thought I'd wrestle with in
 my thirties
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--- #146 fediverse/2518 ---
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 it's good to be ethical,
 it's good to be kind,
 
 but there will always be assholes,
 and sometimes you're not having a good time
 
 it's okay
 it's fine
 
 assholes deserve life
 times deserve others to be kind
 
 life is not always interesting
 and that's often by design
 
 the moments of clarity,
 the moments of heart,
 
 these are what define you
 and display your own spark.
 
 trust in yourself.
 be kind to one another.
 
 you are braver than you know,
 and always a bit wiser.
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--- #147 messages/169 ---
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 Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with
 metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a
 little lonely sometimes.
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--- #148 fediverse/173 ---
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 @user-156 alone, as all men do?
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--- #149 fediverse/1300 ---
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 │ CW: food-mentioned   │
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 eat another pickle
 
 you surely will not regret eating another pickle
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--- #150 fediverse/5124 ---
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 │ CW: re: NSFW, kink (ABDL), lewd pic w/o nudity │
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 @user-1370 
 
 wawawawawawawawawa : )
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--- #151 fediverse/3441 ---
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 capitalism is non-consentual, which is... pretty much the main reason why I am
 against it.
 
 like, I don't really care about whether it's more or less efficient. the fact
 that you cannot opt out means it is unethical.
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--- #152 fediverse/2911 ---
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 and now for my unrepentant littlespace arc! Look at me I'm SoOoOoOo silLY 🤪
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--- #153 fediverse/4326 ---
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 @user-1074 
 
 it's okay, be yourself 
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--- #154 messages/1150 ---
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 Please please please, someone do better than me.
 
 Until then, listen and obey.
 
 After then, consider me always.
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--- #155 fediverse/1958 ---
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 I can't believe I didn't go. What's wrong with me.
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--- #156 fediverse/5864 ---
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 @user-1074 
 
 I dream bigger than "the same, but nice"
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--- #157 fediverse/3741 ---
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 you can only be yourself once, and it happens while you're alive.
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--- #158 fediverse/772 ---
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 ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────┐
 │ CW: content-warnings-ai-trauma-woe-mentioned │
 └──────────────────────────────────────────────┘


 also applies for alt-text on pictures for people with screenreaders
 
 something something "if I play both sides, then I'm always right!"
four panel meme of a cute girl with sunglasses and a bow in her hair.  first panel she's like "nah, no thank you" while gesturing dismissively with her hand and turning away.  second panel is what she's against - it shows text saying: "Putting content warnings on your posts so that the data can be used in a dataset for an LLM that has been sanitized from political content thus depriving it of context in a post truth world"  third panel she's like "yeah, I like this one instead." and she's smiling and pointing a finger at the fourth panel, which reads:  "content warning your posts so that you don't hurt other people's feelings or trigger vulnerable people who are just trying to laugh at memes or have a decent life in the face of trauma and woe"
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--- #159 fediverse/3833 ---
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 there's no such thing as me
 
 all I am is where the wind takes me
 
 I am just a person, and I do all that I can
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--- #160 fediverse/978 ---
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 @user-699 @user-78 
 
 I say "blep" when I intentionally stack overflow in order to avoid painful
 thoughts
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--- #161 messages/239 ---
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 Each of my previous jobs I left because my friends did. I quit of a broken
 heart.
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--- #162 fediverse/3061 ---
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 every time I read a subtoot I assume it's about me and I mentally curl up into
 a ball
 
 doesn't matter if it's totally irrelevant, if there's no target specified it
 defaults to me because... like, who else is there right?
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--- #163 fediverse/3639 ---
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 love nature no matter what
 love nurture if they earn it
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--- #164 messages/1102 ---
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 I want everyone to be able to do what they want. With oversight, sometimes,
 because we all share things and we can't agree if we don't share. and I agree
 to share, I think it's only fair.
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--- #165 fediverse/4399 ---
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 ... Dare for the Bright Age, though "don't forget to be awesome" works too I
 guess.
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--- #166 fediverse/2596 ---
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 ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────┐
 │ CW: re: politics-fascism-sexual-assault-mentioned │
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 I get it. I don't care to live in a world like this. Consider this a suicide
 note, though I will not die by my own hand. This I swear.
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--- #167 fediverse/1712 ---
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 @user-246 
 
 I think you're right, I tend to examine things at their most extreme as
 practice in identifying my own weaknesses. ^_^
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--- #168 messages/177 ---
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 There's no potential left of me. I am a husk, a shadow of my former
 possibilities. None left to manifest, and so I huddle in the shade of what
 once was ambition as I wait for the silence to take hold.
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--- #169 fediverse/1617 ---
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 daydreaming about a gang of tough guys who goes around knocking down the
 internal fence walls in suburbia and throwing potlucks for all the neighbors
 for a month or two so they have social opportunities to meet each other and
 make friends
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--- #170 notes/craving ---
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 a craving to know more and a carefully examined set of actions which
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--- #171 fediverse/4085 ---
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 I can always tell when people who believe in me start thinking of me because I
 start feeling the urge to do pushups
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--- #172 fediverse/1991 ---
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 sometimes "collusion" can mean the same thing as "having the same or similar
 ideas around the same timeframe"
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--- #173 fediverse/4751 ---
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 apparently security through obscurity is out, and security through community
 is in, don't ask me how I know that teehee
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--- #174 fediverse/2635 ---
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 something something parasocial relationships are not real and cannot be used
 for anything beyond the amelioration of emotions for cathartic purposes
 something something your coping mechanisms are doing more harm than good
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--- #175 messages/626 ---
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 Talk to veterans for tactics and discipline.
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--- #176 fediverse/6396 ---
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 have you ever considered
 that you are on the same team as your allies
 
 why are you making things difficult?
 are you worth the difficulty?
 I am
 But I work as hard as I can
 as long as I can
 "self care" deprecation
 "resting" lazy
 "relaxing" unmotivated
 none of these apply
 I'm cooling down
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--- #177 fediverse/4086 ---
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 I miss a time that never existed, anyone else?
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--- #178 messages/928 ---
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 such feelings are treated as insight, as it feels good to be un-abandoned.
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--- #179 fediverse/986 ---
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 adding dashes to your text - like - this - is a punctuation choice, not
 formatting or grammar.
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--- #180 fediverse/4855 ---
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 "you should be acting like these people want to destroy you."me, to me
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--- #181 fediverse/3043 ---
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 you know more than me and I appreciate your analysis
 
 if you ever want to work on something together let me know 
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--- #182 fediverse/645 ---
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 @user-470 
 
 sorry, I'll go to sleep now : )
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--- #183 fediverse/2607 ---
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 ┌───────────────────────────────────────────────────┐
 │ CW: re: politics-fascism-sexual-assault-mentioned │
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 @user-249 
 
 most people don't talk to me so either you're braver than most or I hit a
 common chord that you and I share
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--- #184 fediverse/1588 ---
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 @user-1035 
 
 Even better if you say "you do you too"
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--- #185 fediverse/1303 ---
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 │ CW: cursing-mentioned │
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 @user-192 
 
 normality?
 
 banality?
 
 errrrr I mean emotional disregulation and low self esteem?
 
 ... it's easier in person when you can see when everyone has the "yo what the
 fuck" look on their face and when they have the "wait what was that I was
 thinking about snails" face
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--- #186 fediverse/4489 ---
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 I miss my cat, but now that it's dark I can go looking for her again. : )
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--- #187 fediverse/2258 ---
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 wow "me from the past" didn't know that you're not supposed to tell Facebook
 shit
 
 but also like, there are soooooo many normies trapped there. it's a shame that
 everything that's seen on that site is AI or content farmed
A screenshot of a notification screen from the Facebook website.  it says "How we use this info:  your gender selection is "fuck if I know". Facebook may use this info to promote safety, integrity, and security. We don't use it to show you ads.  Privacy Policy"
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--- #188 messages/909 ---
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 I prefer cramped physical space and large emotional/social space.
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--- #189 fediverse/641 ---
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 something something "those who study history are doomed to watch others repeat
 it" or something like that
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--- #190 fediverse/154 ---
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 │ CW: autism-newtype-things │
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 confusion is seeing with perfect clarity and speaking with utter disconnection
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--- #191 fediverse/1558 ---
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 Just because you haven't won yet, doesn't mean you've lost.
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--- #192 fediverse/3678 ---
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 │ CW: drugs-mentioned  │
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 I stopped smoking cannabis because possible job and wow... life feels between
 4 and 6 times longer
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--- #193 fediverse/4658 ---
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 ... and then things got turned up to eleven
 
 what were they at before?
 
 ... eleven. why do you ask?
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--- #194 fediverse/4095 ---
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 @user-515 
 
 SO MANY.
 
 But I learned a few more lessons than that.
 
 So... It worked out for the better, I think.
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--- #195 fediverse/1517 ---
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 if you don't feed the trolls, then they find their own clan. and in doing so,
 they make their own echo chambers. what would a bunch of trolls do to each
 other? the poor dears.
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--- #196 fediverse/5694 ---
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 if I can convince them not to fight will you give me what I demand?
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--- #197 fediverse/3235 ---
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 │ CW: conservatives-and-liberals-mentioned-gender │
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 conservatives think gender is assigning yourself to a particular social role
 
 liberals think gender is sort of an aesthetic and way of presenting yourself
 
 queer people tend to think of gender as how you feel and what sparks joy in
 your heart
 
 the truth is much more complicated and involves all three, and many more
 things besides.
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--- #198 messages/279 ---
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 If you lack burning passion, seek to empower those that do. There you will
 find fulfillment, and perhaps you'll find your passions become aligned to
 theirs.
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--- #199 fediverse/3483 ---
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 sometimes I think about how it'll never be yesterday again and that makes me
 kinda sad.
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--- #200 messages/632 ---
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 Please don't let me down. I trust you for a reason.
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