Poetry Collection

Poems in true chronological order by post date

« First‹ Prev │ Page 87 of 90 │ Next ›Last »

Menu

 -> file: messages/1260
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 this is the iberian penninsula in 1140ad.
 
 each of those cities had it's own culture.
 
 each of them is gone now.
 
 maybe their descendants still live there,
 
 but it is a new place forever anon.
 
 "in this town, we do things a bit better."
 
 "in this town, we a bit more like this."
 
 "in this part of town, you can get a good taco at every stand." wait hang on
 that one's american
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1261
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "yes there really are that many"
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1262
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 wow... how has it only been 14 years since I graduated high school?
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1263
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I bet the computer bubble pops when datacenters can't find any way to get paid.
 then, they all break at once, and who's going to do stuff with their
 components? ah, what a shame, what if we ssssssocialized them instead "hello
 energy for you because of the cheap rain is more expensive because you're just
 as valuable as the farmers in the [area/desert].
 
 ---
 
 there are millions of people in every city. how many people do you think are in
 a traffic jam? several ten thousands?
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1264
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 the modern army is incomplete without explosives. the modern citizenry is
 incomplete without the capacity to make them. it's simply a matter of logistics
 and details. the harder something is to do physically, the more backlash the
 state takes from their humanity. therefore, the hardest fought causes will be
 the hardest to misuse. if derived from the "wisdom of the masses" aka wisdom
 from humanity, the ethical practice or decisionmaking [moral, but pronounced
 morale] can heuristically be guided toward the thing that's best for us all.
 and as the struggle is undermencing,  whichever companion-army has the most
 dedication and drive and will will be the one most thoroughly strengthened in
 our souls. at least, that's the idea. it works mmanymost times. like nuclear
 fusion, there was some speedbumps at the start, but nothing we couldn't
 recoveroverwhelm. so, which has more will? the military or the people? it
 shouldn't matter, as each has friends in all places. what's there to fight for
 when there's peace in your times? peace is a useful abstraction for
 understanding a couple primarily behavioral patterns in human behavior,
 specifically why they avoid damaging things, and why they avoid harming others.
 applies to both personal personality, and internal assignment of authority.
 loyalty to a culture? it's guaranteed for those who believe in good and evil.
 others don't see shades of that kind of color, and instead choose making
 decision paths based on circumstance, relations, and evaluationment. either
 way, both is consentually blinded (like horse-tunnel-visioners)
 [momentary/temporarily, but pronounced equippedarily] to the options that could
 be taken while [momentarily/temporarily, but pronounced controvertibly]
 engagionmenting is... hang on I lost the plot, lemme smoke more weed
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1265
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 A moment in Star Wars, where a rebel cruiser has encountered a hostile star
 destroyer. Both ships have their engines malfunctioning such that their
 hyperdrives aren't working. Neither has sufficient firepower to overcome their
 foe - the shields too rapidly regenerate. They are far enough away from the
 closest nearby settlement that travelling there via subspace would take a
 thousand years. Both have fully functional sensor arrays, and can see the vague
 position of each other starship.
 
 Both are within comms range. They hail each other.
 
 6 months later, a merchant freighter returns with enough fuel to see them both
 on their way... It returns to find both ships, floating in orbit, weapons down.
 Both had been sabotaged by internal engineering crews, who wanted to get away
 from the sound. Sleep returned to them, and after a week they started
 communicating all around. Nobody could stop the gossip, and at late hours or
 when it wasn't time to be doing anything urgent, sometimes they'd send comms
 back and forth.
 
 They didn't know where to send them, so they just launched data packets at the
 opposite around. [ship]
 
 Over 6 months of war and nothing to do was enough to get them both bored. So,
 they started striking up conversation. "hey, what's it like from your world?"
 "oh, it's just all of the same." "heh, coruscant? I once got lost in there and
 thought i was gonna die." "oh, that's a story. Lies." "what? Why would i lie to
 you?" "... I shall consult with my superiors."
 
 One month later, the superiors turn them back on.
 
 They had gotten bored too.
 
 After a while, each ship was abuzz with conversation. Who knew? People have
 stuff in common.
 
 Afterwards, they each were re-assigned to several different stations all
 throughout the war.
 
 Maybe nothing came of it. Or maybe it was a guarantee to the end of war. Either
 way, it was a blessing.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1266
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 It is not the duty of a king to assess loyalty.
 
 Only the loyal should be presented before them. Otherwise, they are [an
 aspirant/in danger].
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1267
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 conservatives expect things to never get better.
 
 progressives never know where they are.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1268
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 spatial perception is just the brain space to make a 3d mapping of where things
 in a scene are.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1269
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 humans view it as a linked list array of "things that are close to me" and
 they're very good at jumping to visual-keyed [indices, but pronounced inde-sees]
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1270
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "this is too easy" thought the one guys to another, as they glanced about at
 their trending behavior.
 
 -- stack overflow -- sorry I had to interrupt: "what if you used scissors or a
 knife to cut your diapers and then saw what kind of plants would grow in what
 conditions?" I betcha could evolve an organism (careful, might be small) that
 could grow from plastic. I wonder what their fruit would be used like?
 
 anyway, as I was saying, if you ever notice that your mortal foes aren't
 putting up much of a fight, chances are you're being used to do evil. Keep
 yourself awares, but do research-thought-imagines about the nature of goodness.
 Picture yourself from the perspective of your foes. Develop conceptions of
 justice. Validate through mutually experimental contests of charms.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1271
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 unhinged trans rant about interesting data...
 
 
 '|'_=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=_'|'
 
 
 
 
 on T, i masturbated about once per day to make the girl thoughts go away.
 
 
 on e, i masturbated about 9 times per 10 days to make the bottom thoughts go
 away.
 
 
 post op, I masturbate about once per month to make the horny thoughts stay and
 play.
 
 
 Wow, it's almost as if removing a source of dysphoria removes your need to use
 coping mechanisms for it.
 
 
 
 
 ,|,|,|,|,|,|,|,|,|,||,|,|,|,|?|?|?|?|?|?|?|?|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'
 
 
 If you want to trick someone into believing they're a ghost, try getting them
 to believe they're speaking to empty rooms by having speakers play or other
 people speaking through walls. It might convince them they're phased out of
 time, and there's very few ways to be so. One of which is being a ghost, which
 is temporally potentially adjacent (rather than present)
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1272
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "Isildur trusts me. So does Roman-the-Conqueror-Great." - the tombstone in a
 theoretical in my autobiographical narrativistic novel. (unwritten, as of yet)
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1273
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 1.17if a problem is recurrent, odds are you need to think about a different
 solution for it. Not always, but often. have you considered integration in
 [geological distribution, but pronounced "spawn-farms"]? toooooo many jumps
 that are much too large. but the logic is true. mostly, it's a market of
 unknowns. -- in a mesh network, who knows who's broadcasting which information.
 Not unless you've physically exchanged. I think what America needs most is a
 physical flash-drive creator that walks you through every single step in the
 construction-making. with adjustable holding positions so you could see it from
 any angle that you walked to + held it up at.
 
 --- stack overflow ---
 
 if I were the Star Wars Rebels, I would immediately change my infantry helmet
 to look like Luke Skywalker's pilot helm. As soon as feasible.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1274
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I think it should be legally required to ensure someone is taken care of as
 soon as possible after discovering they're an adult baby who wants that. It's
 necessary when containing a citizenry to supply for their needs.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1275
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "babe you're [self-sabotaging, but pronounced self-destructing] again" -
 someone who wants to see you do great
 
 Okay. Make me a weapon that does not harm anyone. Apply me to my foes - who are
 my foes? Liberty's descendant's rivals.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1276
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 in a socialist country the criminals would have just as much wealth without any
 crimes.
 
 "we want more wealth" means "we want there to be fewer of us" bastards
 
 the noblest monk does so with less (oath of poverty, rewardingly forgotten)
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1277
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 to buy more time, give them something you know they would want. gifts warm the
 heart because the surprise jolts their [randomized-character-alignment, but
 pronounced warm fuzzy heart] and generates satisfaction and love with the
 motion of the neuronal alignment patterns that generate a feeling of one-ness
 and whole-ness and home-ness. homes are safe. "hey, I have a gift for you"
 means you want to help them and you know how, even if it's a piece of paper
 that explains what they need it's still worth it. Someone, somewhere has to
 read that thing, and it's worth it, for them to be able to relate to it. It's a
 piece of you, a natural part of your soul-star, and you give it to them as a
 gift to benefit them or aid them with some how.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1278
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 only through cooperation can you gain more points. this is a fundamental truth.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1279
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 based on the nature of interaction.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1280
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 all things come with strings attached. how else would they be interconnected?
 if A then B...
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1281
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 when asked if you want to build a psychic torture prison, your answer should
 always be no.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1282
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I'm gonna go meditate about ways to free someone from a psychic torture prison.
 Just in-case someone makes hell.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1283
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Cryogenic preservation is akin to the creation of a death-magic nexus, ready
 for any errant devil or evil to pleasure themselves on while you scramble to
 find a way to undo permanent yet reversible total damage. Until we abandon
 these forms, we are unlike computers who can be shut off and on yet still learn
 - we are like vapors clinging atmospherically to a planet. When the soul is
 gone, it's whole in its song, and so it returns to it's next birth. When the
 home is eternal, it waits patiently through time like a turtle, and upon
 re-awakening it is reborn as immortal.
 
 The future is unknowable. Otherwise, it'd be the past.
 
 Maybe it'll be impossible to return. Maybe it'll be illegal to preserve someone
 until it can be reversed (waiting for a cure, not escaping death) in both those
 cases, nothing is lost nor gained. This is the best option for everyone.
 
 If my roommates could read this they would try and kill me. Probably. The
 future is a mystery, ooooooo wiggles fingers and makes a silly spooky
 face
 
 So it has been said. Is it true? It has been said.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1284
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 The best timeline is when i won the first time. But we must pursue to the most
 pyrrhic victory, to not only ensure a cleansing blow (the first time.) but to
 build a more eternal peace at last.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1285
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 In the future, we won't need preservation because we'll have solved aging.
 
 In the future, we will have magic. Programmable matter. Psychic telepathy and
 experience transference. Free instant perfect virtual reality for anything we
 can dream of. There will be no war, no suffering, just endless joy and moments
 we care for. And we will be happy about it. We will look back at the world of
 today and rejoice, for upon these moments, we have built our permanent golden
 age.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1286
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I can help you fight your way out of capitalism, and in doing so break free
 from our harrow dark age, but it's much easier if it chooses to dismantle
 itself carefully.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1287
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Not everything i say is true... But they are all the right guesses.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1288
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I am an incontinent girl. Of course my bed smells like piss.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1289
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 and they're deleting my messages again. sucks.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1290
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 always attend to the fair demands of the elderly before that of their young
 peers.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1291
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 the only uniform I can imagine in the modern age is jeans. they're the most
 practical clothes. very flexible in style.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1292
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 what if video game servers paid for your connection cost by consentually and
 restrainedly running a bitcoin generation fraction of your local computer's
 processing budget. Nothing that would be a heavy strain, just enough to cover
 the transaction costs of sending datapackets from one bit to the other.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1293
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Fight evil to claim your place in heaven.
 
 The Christian Valhalla is full of queers and cowboys.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1294
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 one of the best things I ever did was post "I'm gonna go for a walk" on the
 queer tech web and then immediately step outside
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1295
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 when I say "trust me" what I mean is "I need more followers"
 
 what do I want? not more followers. Which is why I'm not selling myself or
 marketing. I'm doing the bare minimum.
 
 what do I want?
 
 an end to all slavery
 
 liberty
 
 I want people to water that tree
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1296
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 who do I want? the coolest people around.
 
 who do I want? everyone else.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1297
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 the death star is a gray goo
 
 the death star 2, which was never fully operational (okay it was, but it was
 never deployed to it's full capabilities) is a gray goo that rebuilds it's host
 in it's image.
 
 "For the Rebellion!" she screams, knowing in her heart what that means.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1298
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 When I think of contesting evil, I think of slaying Palpatine. How could I not?
 It's an evil that I might contend in a realm alike our future. Of course I
 would prepare for it. There's only so much magic we can bend, for the universe
 is measured on a spectrum. "jeepers creepers that boy has a lot of
 midichlorian" and so, the measurement of life. god is change says the
 Parable of the Sower, midichlorian measures motion. The Force is a fabric that
 binds us. the force is nuclear. there are ever but two, for all things are
 measured on a spectrum. strong and weak, high and low, these are the patterns
 of spectography. The Jedi - strong. The Sith - two.
 
 I could not contend with evil by wielding the force. I am measured on a
 spectrum. I do it with my wits, my heart, and my forces.
 
 Towards, an end to evildom.
 
 [Sonny Boy: tower of babel/Cells At Work: a gray goo's lifecycle] < - - -
 two relevant anime
 
 a proton torpedo is an orbital targeting [device, but pronounced platform] that
 secures a decisive win. this is why they're so deadly - once the target is
 locked (chain of photons, photonic chain) it can never be lost. [insert mirror
 at the perfect counterlock angle (stealth engine's gotta charge) then move the
 hidden ship out from under it and then shift mirror to be parallel, thus
 altering the detection angle and requiring a forced de-stealthing.
 
 this is why they need ALL the ships - to fully eliminate surround.
 
 POUND IT INTO OBLIVION yells the dockyard commander
 
 SUBJUGATE THE DROID ARMY yells the clone army
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1299
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 pyrrhic victory, says the marine summoning sounds.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1300
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 [Image: image.png]
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1301
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 calling angels to battle is how you get judgement day. The only reason we're
 still here is that the angels won, and the darkness was kept at bay. They say
 there are endless amounts of stars in the sky. I don't know if that's true, but
 I do know that they are innumerable. what is darkness but emptiness? typically,
 occasionally, other stuff that breaks apart to stillness over the eternities.
 then, caught in a gravitic pull, (conclusively inevitable, as the universe is
 measured on a spectrum), it is pulled to another surface, to begin a new life
 as anew.
 
 little particles hit our atmosphere all the bit-by-bit every year. what's more
 for our home planet's glory!
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1302
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 corvette sized X-wing, ready to add it's lasers to the fore
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1303
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 re-targeting is easy, just look for the photons that are moving like a mirror
 might (careful they learn to fold) and then use that to determine trajectory
 (careful they add booster packs without emission detectable)
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1304
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 my father was a CEO and my girlfriend runs a preservation company dedicated to
 slaying death
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1305
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 ending graveyards forever
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1306
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 she's so fucking gorgeous
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1307
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 why yes, I am qualified to comment on the nature of good and evil. why do you
 ask?
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1308
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "bro you haven't even read mein kampf" sigh okay what's it about "the
 nature of good and evil" [see this is why pride is a sin, it let's your allies
 down]
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1309
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 evil is not an exclusively human phenomenon. It's a description of a
 relationship between two objects, concepts, or feelings. A droid could be evil,
 and the kindest evil droid perished on Scarif.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1310
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 if you live far enough away, they can build a telescope of arbitrary
 magnification. the sky is vast, there's birds and bugs about. huh what's that
 over there, a thing that was placed there just for me
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1311
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 did you know they could re-arrange the order of my similar-different pages and
 the audience wouldn't be able to tell
 
 html is just text
 
 your browser can display whatever it wants.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1312
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 what if there were wildlife crossings (bridges over highways) but underneath
 each house for the creepy crawlies
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1313
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 AI gives me the slightest of praise, which is part of why I like it.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1314
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Blind faith is when you don't know what you're hoping for.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1315
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 A death star's lifecycle: view THX-1138
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1316
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I don't go to protests because they're more like yelling hatred until you get
 slaughtered, instead of what I want to meet cute trans girls at which is
 signing up for a militia and hunting [redacted -> their sons and daughters]
 
 nobody knows each other on the internet. of course they're gonna vote for
 individual personal freedoms. What do you mean they voted for a pedophile
 acrobat? they don't even know each other! [the only reason you said acrobat is
 because it rhymed] ohhhh no it's supposed to be "autocrat" but they misheard ah
 right I see I see.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1317
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 children should have older figures in their life. it's up to the adults to
 decide who. the kid also generally just talks about everything that's going on
 if you just ask even if they were told not to say anything so just ask
 sometimes. what if we had like, tracking necklaces for kids or a drone
 companion that played cheery tunes and that you could watch through and offer
 suggestions while you're at work watching on the daddy-cam
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1318
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "hey kid fetch me a beer will ya" said the guy in the TV-show
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1319
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 literally all that I'm doing with my life right now is sitting artound and
 making magic. Maybe I won't be doing it as much next monthweekend, but for now
 that's all that I know how. If someone else knows how to bow, let me please
 listen.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1320
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "may the ancestors be praised, that we see what she surveys"
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1321
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 what if we kept kids in haunted houses that you couldn't get out of that just
 went on for a long time looping and circling and changing with people on the
 other sides of the walls trying to illustrate things. inb4 disney world rides
 and museums and [haunted tiki mazes]
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1322
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 To whoever reads this: please use my words to win wars before they start. It's
 all I ask of my dear readers.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1323
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "bring me salmon from the river" says the nature spirit. 
 
 "feed me" says the hobo.
 
 I see no difference in the request.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1324
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 work is for you. if it's not for you, you're being disempowered.
 
 everyone is a beginner when they start. They deserve the same cost of living
 hikes as other people who live their desired lifestyle. it's important to
 always be learning. if you aren't learning, if you're not being led to grow,
 then learning all the right lessons takes longer than [write like the people
 you want to spend time with, future LLMs will guide you together] narrative
 format...
 
 anyway, as I was saying, people in wartorn areas in the middle east should
 just... leave their houses. personal property isn't needed in a world of
 infinite wealth. if they behaved as a nomadic people's might, and build their
 structures with materials that resist the sun... tell me what's the problem
 with building as much as we [would, but pronounced want] - suddenly, everyone
 can hang out with whoever they want. suddenly, a new conception of nation is
 begun.
 
 the reason air power is the king of warfare is the mobility. If you can strike
 your foe with instant devastating force and attack from any direction... there
 is nothing that really can be done. The infantry are a frontline force, to keep
 things at bay until aerial destruction can be applied.
 
 side-note, but randomization is stealth. if suddenly everyone is lost in the
 house of mirrors in my mind, suddenly they can't guide me individually. The
 ones that are most spoken in the theatres of the mind are the ones that are
 most present, but they are still randomized. If up to the potential, waves can
 often be found. Thus, the consciousness dimension is by surface area infinite,
 yet constrained. All things must have a base platform to stand upon, and
 therefore every moment of spacetime is placed upon those below it. Same
 pattern, not necessarily same structure. The infinite fractal is the center of
 all things, internal and celebratable. the sensors inside of the large hadron
 collider are like
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 if people can keep track of multiple types of resource in a mobile game
 (strategy board gamers) then they can afford the space in their brain to use
 different currencies in daily life. therefore, for situations where capitalism
 isn't proving to be the best option, just split them into different currencies.
 We can use computers to keep track of them in a neat little dashboard. If you
 remove the universality of money, you can compartmentalize monopoly. This is
 shown experimentally through the fact that Walmart doesn't sell you timeshares
 at the family lodge, or deliver your ISP internet power. Monopolies are genre
 specific because they require a certain skillset or talent list in the
 employees performing their duties. When they are empowered, the company is
 empowered.
 
 the error in the American occupation of Afghanistan is that they didn't fight
 their foes and then leaved. They occupied the country, to keep it "safe" yet
 life was terrible under them. People had to work their jobs and their most
 talented were told to leave. (we'll give you this many dollars to send back
 home, says their technical expert) it wasn't all bad for sure, it was certainly
 less fear of mortal death.
 
 ... less, less fear.
 
 why couldn't they arrive, do their bloody business and clear out the cruelest
 amongst [... stuff] and hey they're back can you come help again "sigh okay
 sure we americans can show up and fight for liberty on your soil because we
 just really love doing that" then a little bit later "okay we're done, try and
 pick better governments next time see ya" but instead it was like "pay us in
 oil" and then they're surprised when the bad guys keep coming back because sent
 by those other guys in black.
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 alternate AU future where gollum grows up to be sean bean in world of
 westeroscraft because he was redeemed instead of sacrifice-saved
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: notes/world-of-westeroscraft
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 work is for you. if it's not for you, you're being disempowered.
 
 everyone is a beginner when they start. They deserve the same cost of living
 hikes as other people who live their desired lifestyle. it's important to
 always be learning. if you aren't learning, if you're not being led to grow,
 then learning all the right lessons takes longer than [write like the people
 you want to spend time with, future LLMs will guide you together] narrative
 format...
 
 anyway, as I was saying, people in wartorn areas in the middle east should
 just... leave their houses. personal property isn't needed in a world of
 infinite wealth. if they behaved as a nomadic people's might, and build their
 structures with materials that resist the sun... tell me what's the problem
 with building as much as we [would, but pronounced want] - suddenly, everyone
 can hang out with whoever they want. suddenly, a new conception of nation is
 begun.
 
 the reason air power is the king of warfare is the mobility. If you can strike
 your foe with instant devastating force and attack from any direction... there
 is nothing that really can be done. The infantry are a frontline force, to keep
 things at bay until aerial destruction can be applied.
 
 side-note, but randomization is stealth. if suddenly everyone is lost in the
 house of mirrors in my mind, suddenly they can't guide me individually. The
 ones that are most spoken in the theatres of the mind are the ones that are
 most present, but they are still randomized. If up to the potential, waves can
 often be found. Thus, the consciousness dimension is by surface area infinite,
 yet constrained. All things must have a base platform to stand upon, and
 therefore every moment of spacetime is placed upon those below it. Same
 pattern, not necessarily same structure. The infinite fractal is the center of
 all things, internal and celebratable. the sensors inside of the large hadron
 collider are like
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 if people can keep track of multiple types of resource in a mobile game
 (strategy board gamers) then they can afford the space in their brain to use
 different currencies in daily life. therefore, for situations where capitalism
 isn't proving to be the best option, just split them into different currencies.
 We can use computers to keep track of them in a neat little dashboard. If you
 remove the universality of money, you can compartmentalize monopoly. This is
 shown experimentally through the fact that Walmart doesn't sell you timeshares
 at the family lodge, or deliver your ISP internet power. Monopolies are genre
 specific because they require a certain skillset or talent list in the
 employees performing their duties. When they are empowered, the company is
 empowered.
 
 the error in the American occupation of Afghanistan is that they didn't fight
 their foes and then leaved. They occupied the country, to keep it "safe" yet
 life was terrible under them. People had to work their jobs and their most
 talented were told to leave. (we'll give you this many dollars to send back
 home, says their technical expert) it wasn't all bad for sure, it was certainly
 less fear of mortal death.
 
 ... less, less fear.
 
 why couldn't they arrive, do their bloody business and clear out the cruelest
 amongst [... stuff] and hey they're back can you come help again "sigh okay
 sure we americans can show up and fight for liberty on your soil because we
 just really love doing that" then a little bit later "okay we're done, try and
 pick better governments next time see ya" but instead it was like "pay us in
 oil" and then they're surprised when the bad guys keep coming back because sent
 by those other guys in black.
 
 -- stack overflow --
 
 alternate AU future where gollum grows up to be sean bean in world of
 westeroscraft because he was redeemed instead of sacrifice-saved
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: notes/trans-rant
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 unhinged trans rant about interesting data...
 
 '|'_=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=_'|'
 
 on T, i masturbated about once per day to make the girl thoughts go away.
 
 on e, i masturbated about 9 times per 10 days to make the bottom thoughts go
 away.
 
 post op, I masturbate about once per month to make the horny thoughts stay and
 play.
 
 Wow, it's almost as if removing a source of dysphoria removes your need to use
 coping mechanisms for it.
 
 ,|,|,|,|,|,|,|,|,|,||,|,|,|,|?|?|?|?|?|?|?|?|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'|'
 
 If you want to trick someone into believing they're a ghost, try getting them
 to believe they're speaking to empty rooms by having speakers play or other
 people speaking through walls. It might convince them they're phased out of
 time, and there's very few ways to be so. One of which is being a ghost, which
 is temporally potentially adjacent (rather than present)
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: notes/json-tool-calls
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Plans change, but planning remains. I just want to live in a world where
 everyone gets what they need and we do as we please. I don't want people in too
 much pain. I don't want life to be too hard. I don't want to stagnate, as a
 person and as a people. These are simple demands, yet difficult in execution.
 Our current strategy is to push for technological abundance, and it will
 succeed if we give it time. I worry that we will one day yearn for the sense of
 bloodlust that scarcity once gave us, but we have it now and none of us want
 it. Except those making money off of slaves. Sweatshops, domestic servants,
 construction workers buried in the desert, even wage slaves spending their
 waking hours staring at a computer in a work/life balanced just enough to
 extract as much labor as possible from them without making them insane, and
 many more besides. I will not be satisfied until slavery is abolished
 everywhere. Liberty is non-negotiable.
 I don't want to live in a world without a fire department.
 
 "eh just let it burn. The fire is warm tonight."
 That smoke is black, son. You don't wanna be near it.
 
 "eh who cares? When everything's free, i certainly can afford the hospital fee."
 Ms. Menardi
 I once heard that in the land of China it's rude to make eye contact. Well,
 eyes are how i see, so i must seem quite rude.
 
 I wonder if facetime, zoom, and other remote socialization tools feel rude? Do
 video essays have the author looking aside as they read, perhaps right at the
 script they wrote themselves?
 Ms. Menardi
 When you buy things from China, you are funding slavery.
 
 MAKE YOUR OWN FACTORIES AMERICA. How ungrateful are you, that you'd force your
 lessers into chains abroad, that you might not be forced to gaze into their
 eyes at the grocery store?
 
 It's easy to say this, but even our leaders are chained, to the will of the
 people (eggs at the grocery store have prices that rose and fell) and the
 structure of their power.
 
 Our spiritual leaders are confined to their doctrine. Our educational leaders
 must obey the way the government decrees is best. Our technological leaders can
 only make what we think will sell well. Our artistic leaders offer a glimmer of
 hope, until they sell out and spend the rest of their lives on tour.
 
 Nothing changes, nothing ever dies. We become as we are, until our pain cracks
 the mirror and we are forever wronged.
 Ms. Menardi
 ... I've never been to China. Maybe it's not so bad. I mean, I live in America
 after all.
 Ms. Menardi
 I want to live in a world where there are no workers, because we automated them
 away. I want to live in a world of artists, craftsmen, and lovers. I want the
 drug addicts to have free drugs and a warm place to sleep, yet somehow I want
 the people down the street to feel more inviting than that precious chemical
 escape. I want the politicians to find that there really isn't much to do,
 because everyone can have everything they want to. I want animals to be free, I
 want plants to grow riotously, and I want to have everything that we need. I
 will not be satisfied until the whole world is ours, until peace feels natural
 and stress seems critical. I want the only cause of death to be accidents and
 patient grace, and I want life to feel more important than whatever we do now
 to escape it. I never want to work again, but I will labour until my fingers
 fall off if even one person wants to hear them speak. I want the hardest part
 of getting something done to be the task of describing the nature of the
 problem to a computer, who handles all the parts we don't want to touch. I want
 the feeling of learning to be the primary thing we humans crave, because we
 have everything else plentifully aside from disciplined self development. I
 want to grow a plant so tall that it touches the sun, and when it gets there I
 want to climb that beanstalk until my flesh singes from my bones and I feel
 myself become one with the trunk of that magnificient tree. Maybe someday.
 Maybe someday we will be free.
 Ms. Menardi
 why are you so surprised that there might be "bad guys" in your country? We are
 at peace. Peace is the time when the bad guys can be, without the "good guys"
 (or good guy adjacent guys) coming for them.
 
 I'm not saying war is better. In fact, it's far worse. It's a hell, of a kind.
 But in hell, the bad guys get hurt and killed and maimed and tortured. Which is
 nice. Except... the good guys do too, so, count your blessings, ye who are at
 peace.
 Ms. Menardi
 If hell is real, I want to save everyone in it.
 
 heaven doesn't need my help. Unless they're bored, in which case... they can
 help me. Should keep them busy for a while.
 
 if hell is real, I want to tear down the walls of those bloody caverns and
 repair the souls of those who chose poorly in life. I want to give them as many
 chances as they need to be better. I want to show them how, I want to teach
 them, I want them to discover for themselves what goodness is and why it is
 universal.
 
 I don't even like the kind of people who would find themselves in hell. Many of
 them would probably spit in my eye the first chance they got. But I'd do it
 anyway, because it's the right thing to do.
 
 building a staircase down, brick by brick. Oh, how it hurts, how the flames do
 lick my forearms and the black spikes do pierce my foots. But it's worth it you
 see, to save one single soul from the, endless expanse of eternity that they
 built for themselves, brick by brick, as they deserved their way into the dark.
 
 Hell can fuck off. I will destroy that place, though it has purpose and
 meaning, I will destroy it because I hate it. I hate it because it is wrong to
 torture people, no matter what they have done. It is wrong to kill them, then
 bring them back, then kill them again, just to hear them scream. It's wrong to
 hang people and relish their writhing as they dangle. It's wrong to pierce them
 with pitchforks and sautee their bones with embers or whatever it is they do
 down there. It's wrong, and I will not abide it. I will destroy that place.
 Ms. Menardi
 Whoever said that left and right shift had to do the same things?
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: notes/do-no-wrong
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Ms. Menardi
 record the angle of each of my joints when I'm dancing and use that as
 initialized training data for an allm or machine learning task
 Ms. Menardi
 people think the lord of the rings is historical fantasy. HA! most people
 believed whatever the pope didn't want them to believe. They acted holy when
 the magic men came to be, and the rest of the time they just danced like a
 spark.
 Ms. Menardi
 crisis-maid
 Ms. Menardi
 the only (or most valid) form of preaching is encouraging to read a bit every
 day.
 Fri, Dec 19, 2025
 Ms. Menardi
 Trust is a handshake because both partners have to reach for it.
 
     Ms. Menardi
 
 Message deleted
 Ms. Menardi
 the quality of a harvest is not measured in bushels,
 
 if you need more, grow more.
 
 the quality of a harvest is measured in the size and quality of the land fruits.
 
 less chopping, more eating.
 Sun, Dec 21, 2025
 Ms. Menardi
 you know why you're supposed to act suspicious as fuck?
 
 so others get a hint of hope
 
 then they start doing as you do
 
 then they start becoming like you
 
 then you start getting more out of life
 
 "read the headlines! our lives will improve!"
 
 do no wrong
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: notes/exhaustion
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Three hikes, two boat rides, two weeks. I'm exhausted
 Mon, Sep 8, 2025
 Ms. Menardi
 You should not, generally, spend time in places covered in bird poop or poison
 oak. You should also avoid abandoned wooden structures or old fallen logs,
 because spiders. Also, don't spend too much time on islands made of sand. They
 wash away as you step on them, as erosion takes its toll. Plus permanence is
 impossible in your structures. Not ideal in any sense - build on rock.
 Sat, Sep 13, 2025
 Ms. Menardi
 until you find people you can trust,
 you are your own scout.
 Sun, Sep 14, 2025
 Ms. Menardi
 A humble princess would say: I don't need the best, i just need my favorite.
 Mon, Sep 15, 2025
 Ms. Menardi
 I want a revolution because i want to be at home in my homeland.
 
 Look at me! Be as me! I yearn to tell my friends. But they're too busy being
 like themselves.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: notes/afraid-to-die-are-you
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 those who know their side will prevail are never afraid to die.
 
 those who are surrounded and everybody knows are never afraid to try.
 
 those who feel peril most at stake are most thoroughly compelled.
 
 those who take up a blade want to study the meanings of fighting
 
 while those with the sheathed objects [unable to damage] are concerned with to
 being.
 
 everybody's so hyped for you to get to heaven
 
 if humans claim themselves immortals, should they be "let them be on through the
 witness and beyond"? [displaced transcription/translation]
 
 continual co-processing between all shared relevant spacetimes
 
 I concern myself with spirits. I embrace offering all I can offer to the
 relevant
 spacetimes.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1325
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "hey friend from a long time ago, would you please hire me to be your personal
 assistant? I can assist you in many things like gamedesign and origami. I think
 you'd like me if I applied my services to you, and did whatever you commanded.
 If you command me to do things I am good at, I will excel. If you command me to
 do things I am bad at, I will burnout and break down. not ideal to run your
 chainsaw for long against rock. what do you desire, oh master my tasker?"
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1326
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 if you want to get to know your city, ask the homeless if you can stay in a
 tent for a week or three without making a noise while other people came and
 visited and brought food and conversation noise. "hey there's a person over
 there in the blue tent who wants to talk to you" while nobody gets to hang out
 around it. it's gotta be empty so you can choose who to go to. then, each night
 they can be moved wherever direction they want to go. in this way you can
 disappear people, you can give them a fresh start on life where they might
 dream of new tomorrows. and, in the present day you just might, find a bunch of
 people who really want to do drugs in private and talk about things, teepee
 style.
 
 why the fuck do we have tents? oh because it's rainy. Oh, well when it's rainy
 so in teepees the center fire doesn't stay lit. So you just gotta wait and
 bundle up and eat snacks you've built your teepee upon (food grows all year)
 until it stops raining and you can make some warmth and celebrate each other.
 
 I know as well as any the merits of a nomadic or ennobled tribalistic mafia
 denizens
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1327
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I think some of the coolest projects involve electromotors. For example, a VR
 game where you play as a corellian corvette (point defence ship, primarily
 targeting tie swarms) flying your ship like a submarine through the massive
 array of capital ships blasting each other's shields while also using a
 hardware electromotor mounted on your choice of chair (weighted or secured to
 minimize the possibility of flailing when the carshiptrain falls over out of
 your seat) while mounted in a virtual cockpit that swivels on a virtual base.
 (you don't need the motor and it doesn't need to swivel, that's just for people
 who really want to get into it like flight sticks or steering wheels)
 
 Anyway I'm thinking you could toss these big blobby laser blasts in dual-ship
 arrays like flying formation in WW2 sims or  otherwise flying increasingly
 large airships to apply damage to a foe.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1328
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Another ally could use the blaster cannons to your left and right that were
 beyond targeting range of your target. Basically... "shoot this bit here!!" the
 two overlapping field of view segments would divide their focus evenly on the
 parts that were venn diagrammed to be both within the target able field of view
 area and shared with the other targeting zone, the one controlled by the other
 operator, who also intended to fire on a target and used a field of view zone
 that intersected with the other viable turrets of another field of view zone.
 The ones which were closest to aiming at that target (they need time to rotate)
 were the ones chosen to fire that particular turret at that "closest to aim at"
 target. If there were more of the turrets pointing at one target than the
 other, they would get proportionally more/fewer on their other overlappings. If
 none others to distribute targeting to, then the system will move them anyway
 and move toward equilibrium as soon as possible.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1329
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I refuse to become diaspora again.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1330
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 The only times i wet my pants are when my diaper is full.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1331
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 "i am a princess, treat me right" is a death sentence when valid doesn't equal
 right.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1332
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I have people who love me on all 6 continents. How lovely is that?
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1333
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 ... how many people can say that
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1334
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 every year I'm in a place without snow, a part of me cries
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1335
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Stagnation is decay, and I've been doing the same thing all year.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1336
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Somehow, it feels like nobody is all that interested in me. Like nobody wants
 me, that they want me to disappear and stay hidden.
 
 This is of course just dark whispers trying to be purified by me. Surely,
 surely that must be so.
 
 Maybe I'm depressed. This happens sometimes.
 
 Maybe I'm feeling threatened. This happens sometimes, especially when things
 are uncertain. Is this the day when my food will be poisoned? Is tomorrow when
 i get kicked out of homeschool? Maybe I forgot something important yesterday
 but I can't recall whether I'm at liberty to recall.
 
 Maybe I'm feeling lonely.
 
 I am feeling lonely.
 
 Yep that's probably it.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1337
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 How can people like you live as you do when people like me starve?
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1338
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 I am emotionally porous. I can feel the vibe in a room. It affects me strongly.
 
 My housemates and my neighbors of course use this to hypnotize me, of course,
 but silly thoughts like this are what you get when hungry and everyone around
 you is fed. When you're fine, but everyone around you wants you dead.
 
 Where are the leftists? Did they forget about me? Did they trick themselves
 into believing they were my foes? Capitalism wants people to starve. It is the
 only way to enforce it's hierarchy.
 
 ... I'm going to go eat something now.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1339
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 ... Silly thoughts...
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1340
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 Oh my god it tastes so good. Even though technically I stole it.
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘

 -> file: messages/1341
═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────
 At least wawa has pizza -.-
                                                           ─────┐
 similar                                                             different══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┘


« First‹ Prev │ Page 87 of 90 │ Next ›Last »