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-> file: fediverse/4544 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────┐ │ CW: cursing-mentioned │ └───────────────────────┘ I can't cancel my internet because I use it to work, which almost pays enough to cover rent, and nothing else. It's hard to avoid spiraling when you run out of money. Every time this happens to me I start feeling things like... am I good for society? Society doesn't want me, clearly, because I don't have any money. And currency is how you measure demand, right? It's literally a measure of value. But then I think of all the homeless and poor people and, like... I value them, so what if they don't have dollars? It's literally just paper. Or bits in a mainframe that nobody knows how to program anymore. So if they're valuable at least to me, yet me, with my 67$ in the bank and 127$ internet fee, is not valuable to me... Then what's the discrepancy? I'm not trying to be hard on myself, it's not my fault that I bleed money, but I still feel terrible. It's like a common cultural persuasion, if you run outta cash you better kill yourself fast. Fuck that. Oops cursing mentioned, one s ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: fediverse/4545 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── @user-1698 hell yeah, can you improvise? I played as a kid and subsequently forgot it all. But now I'm trying to relearn, but only by just... playing until I find something that sounds good. No lessons, no tutorials, no sheet music (which I can still very slowly read) just me and my piano with it's keys. I usually curl up with Magic Survival before bed, or if I'm waiting for something else to happen and I want to calm down. It helps to have my brain working on my character's build rather than... whatever it is that worries me. I recently sacrificed games though. Haven't played any in like a week. Which is super weird for me because usually it's pretty much all I do. I can't help but feel that all I'm good for is strategy, and games let me practice that. Suxxx ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: fediverse/4546 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── oh no she's in one of her bipolar moods um. I'm just gonna log off till it's done, ttyl ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/650 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── I've had multiple people close to me who don't read my writing tell me that "you can't overthrow capitalism with poetry" and... Yeah maybe they're right. I have zero reason to believe that anything I've \ever\ written has \ever\ had an actionable impact upon the struggle. I have no reason to believe that people are more radicalized, motivated, or otherwise inspired. I have several reasons to believe that all of this was just an exercise in my own narcissism and delusion. So I'm deleting my Mastodon account, and moving forward I probably won't update my website very much. Everything I do will be localized, regional, and hopefully more useful. It feels like I'm abandoning the idea of a nation in exchange for a tangible village. I'm fucking depressed about it. \I like nations\. But I like people more. So if you'd rather I keep my thoughts to myself and instead feed the homeless, aka a bunch of people who aren't gonna take up arms against our foes and instead will consume our time and resources while we practice organizing on them, then yeah sure fine whatever. I'll do it. If you'd rather I keep posting \content\, ugh, fucking too bad, should have done something about it while I was active. If I'm ever rich I'll hire an editor to turn whatever the fuck I've been making into a book that I'll give away for free. I probably will never be rich though, and instead will burn every bridge I can get my hands on and suffocate on the soot. Alright. Bye forever. Don't think about me again. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/comms-box ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── there is a requirement for a simple, easy to set-up, and easily replacable system which can be used for comms. Specifically running a variety of different services, such as fediverse instances, matrix for text-comms, VoIP, and distributed computing using Chapel or DistCC or other such capabilities. In addition, it should be able to run a file-server and a web-server which hosts an HTML page for the user. All of this functionality should be operational out-of-the-box, with minimal configuration required. No more than adding a checkbox to a config file in order to activate each individual service. This box should be cheap, and easy to provision. An image must be made, and some bash scripts should be written to easily configure it. In addition, there should be rudimentary programming capabilities included, just in-case a user is left with no other options. It should come pre-configured with SSH access out of the box, so it can be remotely controlled, and the languages included should be: C/C++ Python Lua Bash Rust Chapel This should cover most surfaces in terms of programming capability requirements. In terms of hardware, it need be little more than a SoC such as a Raspberry Pi or other such hardware. It needs at a minimum an ethernet port, and USB ports. The box itself should cost no more than 40$, excluding provisioning and the cost to pay back whatever capital investments are necessary to create such a thing. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/651 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────── People in blue states: "yeah we can fucking kick their asses, let's fucking do it, I'm sick of these assholes" People in red states: "jesus fuck stop STOP please oh god fucking please god no" there are no cowards amongst us. Only those who need rallying. be their banner, guide the hopeless, and fear not - for fear is what consumes us. and remember. They are only filled with fear. They will do terrible things in the dark god's name, yet you have the power to forsake your chains. For the good of all mankind, you must slay the beast that is fascism. The dragon stirs, and a shining sword rises to meet it - who shall wield it? Will you? Or will you cower in fear? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/652 ════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────── I wish I could remember how this was phrased, but...: Constant theorizing or contemplation without commesurate practice is an uneven display of affection and appreciation. It creates an uneven environment where nothing is ever good enough because the "discourse" has moved past the practice. It's a bit like applying uneven heating to a pan on the stove. Some bits are gonna get overcooked while others are bordering on raw. Y'all are so afraid of spies but like if everyone just... Showed up... Then they'd have far too many people to listen to. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────┴───────────┘ |