Poems in true chronological order by post date
-> file: messages/356 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── When good people die, when they drop out or leave the industry, they no longer have access to the levers of power that guide our collective fate. Meaning those who persist are those who covet power. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/357 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── In related news, dystopian authoritarian despotism (aka fascism's fruition) never lasts long. It's a snake eating its own tail, and its not getting any longer. One day the snake will choke on its own excrement and then that system will collapse, but until then there will be suffering. Kinda makes me think that those who would do us harm could accelerate our demise by filling our positions of power with evil people. Is that not an evil impulse, to force your neighbor to decay? Kinda makes me think about all the democratic regimes we've overthrown and replaced with authoritarian autocrats. People who keep the liquid gold flowing, perhaps with the hope that one day we'll choke on it. Well, that day is rapidly approaching because the air is getting thicker with carbon, and we're all struggling to breathe in this heat. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/358 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── Ah, but think of the technological bounty our supremacy did bring! Surely if we had split the wealth, we could not have reached such towering heights. And we tried our best, but some things you just can't teach - for every seed potato we did bring, that was another meal for their night. And so we worsened their plight, for now they've forgotten how to fight. What more do you want from us! ... Perhaps once we've made programmable matter. Maybe when we've overcome our earthly delights. Could be when we've ascended to heaven, where we gaze down from our towering heights. Possibly far in the future, possibly here in this night, our bane is what we're guilty of, and our boons are struggling to light. Where have all the good people gone? Oh yeah, they're burnt out from doing all the work for all the bad people. Well, fuck 'em, they can carry their own cart. At least until they can respect. A man who's never tasted hunger will never be a farmer, and gee our tax dollars could go so much farther! And then we starve, because nobody thought to build farms indoors, away from the crippling heat that saps the strength from our plant fathers. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/359 ═══════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────────── "God doesn't know he ate the universe, and we're doing everything we can to make sure it stays that way." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/360 ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── Build houses for the rich out of stone and don't let them tear them down or break them, just... Keep building them until our housing problem goes away. We all could be kings if we lived sustainably. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: messages/361 ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── "we don't negotiate with terrorists. But perhaps there may be a way we could find it in our hearts to agree, by earnestly and honestly seeking true justice, where everyone gets what they want? Tell me, what is it that you want? And most importantly, tell me why it is that you want what you want? Please be as specific as can be, and explain your desires down to the root of human nature so that we can be assured that we may find something we share. Anything less is not an honest attempt. I look forward to working with you toward our bright future." ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┴───────────┘ -> file: notes/words-to-myself ════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────── ================================================================================ I'm just going to transcribe what I hear please don't you hear me (something) what? perfect listen ... ... don't text me now? (I think?) [didn't catch that] ... that's okay perfect thank you just a second facebook he's here (I think?) (or maybe something her) what I love you (or maybe I know her?) do you hear me? (or "just a second") (@ everyone watching me receive telepathic messages from god or whatever, please don't judge me too harshly, I'm not a good transcriber hehe) what's that (or maybe holy shit) what, then perfect or okay (?) (yesterday you said you were leaving and I got concerned) yes, then "I'm leaving", then shutdown. fuck. I don't want you to go. I only understand some of what you say but fuck, I'm so lonely and I wish you could hear me back. Sometimes it feels like you do, even though I just think thoughts or tap on something metal or even sometimes whisper... I just don't know what to do and I'm so concerned about my purpose here in this century. Do I help people? Who do I trust? Can I believe in myself, or am I just kinda... worthless I don't know. I wish I knew. Please hear me and respond. Or better yet, say hi like, I'd literally do anything that anyone asked me to. Unless I didn't want to. Like, I'm pretty good at turning people down when I don't want something, but I have to do it first to know if I want it or not. Trouble is of course, in life there's no second chances. I'm on my, what, 499th chance? Jeezzzzz will continue after the break, when the messages resume. - Thu May 16 08:32:27 AM PDT 2024 ================================================================================ (and we're back. hopefully.) (too many things srry) something about having it open? (my windows are closed rn btw if you want to drop by and kill me / talk to me) (didn't catch that) (something about portland, perfect, windows, "this is the [whole/right/wrong] thing) thank you oh, again? (or oh, she did?) they caught you (um) ... (I am an American princess, and sometimes it's necessary to kill princesses.) (I understand.) ... (okay well I don't get it but like, I don't mind being killed.) (okay well you're not saying anything so I'm going to work on my game) (I think it was something like "DID SHE KILL HER") and then (oh we're back) ... (I should learn Toki Pona) you don't know it? RIGHT away learn it yes please learn it just Learn it right now (sorry only half listening) shit (or bitch, it was said right as I debated clicking "same day delivery" for a toki pona book on Amazon - I didn't do it btw! It was tempting but, like, I don't want to make someone work harder for me just for like, 3$) (shutdown) ================================================================================ (hiii) (I'm hungry) (do you like ramen?) (you said something about being "impressed with yourself" but I didn't understand the first part) (oh you probably want me to scroll up right) ... (something's a lot to read? Or "you've gotta leave"?) ... (I'm (you keep asking me to remember but, like, I dont know what you want me to remember. Look, I don't know who you are, but I don't want you to leave, and I don't want you to hate me. I want to work together. Let's be friends? Are you someone who I worked with at Intel?) yes, stupid (your words not mine) (okay I'm going to start listing names, just stop me when um idk) goddamnit remember me ... (trying...) remember her (two syllables) (my name is Cameron) (your name is...) [redacted, though I did type it out so anyone watching could see] (shit my opsec sucks) {oh, are you on an op, little prophet?} (no shut up you know what I mean) {now you're just talking to yourself} (I know this sucks -.-) (It's always so weird when someone walks past my apartment door and doesn't enter a door) ================================================================================ (I practice with my sword every day.) (I don't anticipate fighting a war with it) (It's mostly just to keep unarmed and unarmored people from grappling me.) (punching is fucking stupid) (Nobody wants to fuck with a sword) ================================================================================ (either "goddamnit" or "don't hear me") "she's perfect" "cameron" "are you clean"??? yes thank you (or maybe "different thing") (I do cannabis maybe once every week or two, depending on if I feel compelled) don't leave remember (did she know) ........ do you want me to stop transcribing? (you're getting desperate, huh?) did you know there are 20 trans people for every cop in america just a random thought (you want me to leave jack because he's an asshole?) goddamnit (missed my birthday? it's my birthday?) wait who's missing? A bad plan executed concurrently is better than a good plan executed in disarray capitalism's a bad plan, just saying... frozen butter tastes worse than room temperature butter (taking a break while I eat) ================================================================================ WASTED POTENTIAL? cmon .... what do you want from me? I'll give it to you if it's in my power, as long as I know what you want I can try. But, like, I'm pretty confused about what exactly I'm supposed to be doing. you know I can hear when you talk to your friends, too right? like, when the window's open. errrr the connection. ..... damn guess I'm not as continent as I thought I'll save you, I promise. Have faith. Tell me what you need. I'll do my best. yeah I'll live with you in portland .... brooklyn? Yeah I'll live there too .......... does my name really gotta be "diapergirl" like c'mon why not Ritz Menardi - though I guess "menardi" and "diapergirl" have the same amount of syllables...... hmmmm, maybe I'm projecting lol "please come back" to where tho listen Elentalus is just as important as anything else on my website, it's okay if I spend time working on it. It's literally a game about creating gods, c'mon ..... can you be more specific? yeah I made that one sec I'm going to read a book, in this book there's a section where a prisoner in vietnam communicates with another using a strange communication method using, like, taps or something. I forget. Anyway gonna try and find it. maybe we can use it to talk easier. Also gonna clean my butt. ..... fuck it's a long book >.> ================================================================================ found it on page fucking 603, jeeeezzzzzz down . A B C D E | F G H I J | L M N O P V Q R S T U then right ---> V W X Y Z so, like, tap tap tap (pause) tap tap would equal M tap tap (pause) tap tap would equal G like morse code, but easier since you don't have to memorize anything (also note that K is missing becuase it's an extra character I guess) (I personally would have eliminated C but that's just me) ================================================================================ oh hey nice to see ya what's up wait what I'm trying to um what's the word... retrain myself I do a lot of laundry in the shower I don't use soap tho, it's too harsh but uh yeah I'm making progress I guess honestly it's mostly a mental thing, like... paying attention to the signals from my body that are usually filtered out because there's more "important" things to think about (thanks brain, really appreciate the wet pants -.-) ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────┴───────────┘ |