=== ANCHOR POEM === ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────── I don't really need to know if people like me. It's nice, but it doesn't help me. I do, however, desperately want to know *if I'm helping*. Knowing this would help me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴───────────┘ === SIMILARITY RANKED === --- #1 fediverse/4075 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── *maybe if I "be myself" so hard that there's nothing left to keep secret, they'll like me??* ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #2 fediverse/6236 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────── I legitimately think everyone in my life is just as cool as me they just... don't know how to know it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧───────────┘ --- #3 fediverse/2855 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────── I refuse to be known by anyone who doesn't *know* me. But I'm always meeting people anew, so if they spent some time with me and saw more of my facets, perhaps they might come to know me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #4 fediverse/4822 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── everyone's convinced they need me, but not necessarily sold on me as a person why don't you just get a guy who does what I do-es and then you don't need me and I can go back to being normal ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┴───────────┘ --- #5 fediverse/1989 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── I don't care who you are, but if others aren't fighting to be in your life, then do they really belong there? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #6 fediverse/2481 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────── on one hand, conversation to spark insight. on the other, being connected to me. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #7 fediverse/5597 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: MH---, sui ideation │ └─────────────────────────────┘ @user-1370 If you don't have the energy, then people need to take care of you. Maybe they do anyway. If you're anything like me, and in this regard I think we might be similar, having people take care of you is *important*. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┴───────────┘ --- #8 fediverse/1738 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── ┌───────────────────────────┐ │ CW: re: mh-, embarrassing │ └───────────────────────────┘ @user-889 perhaps you need a community, rather than a friend? just a guess ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #9 fediverse/5544 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────── when people *need* you but don't *believe* in you, it's easy to find it difficult to get out of bed. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────┴───────────┘ --- #10 fediverse/3075 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────── @user-246 I have a lot to say. If there's no room for me, I'll make room. If they don't want me, they should say so, and break my heart a little bit. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #11 messages/546 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────── I always disappear right when you need me the most because you're supposed to take the next step. The reason I do that is because...? You fill in the blanks. Tell me why I do that. I know, and I want you to know, but I can't say it. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #12 fediverse/1730 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────── the best way to make friends is to be open and honest to them ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #13 fediverse/3300 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────── @user-1052 @user-192 I'd rather be unhappy and useful than happy and a burden ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #14 fediverse/5700 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────── it's okay if you hate me. Please don't have me and not tell me... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┴───────────┘ --- #15 fediverse/5686 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────── my friends tell me stories and I build my ideas for relationships based on their pain. I am always haunted by questions they don't want to answer. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┴───────────┘ --- #16 fediverse/1099 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: @-someone-who-doesn't-listen-/shrug │ └─────────────────────────────────────────┘ you opened up about your feelings so I started telling you mine. And apparently that's not a good thing to do when you're feeling negative things. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #17 fediverse/6027 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════────────────── some days I feel like someone else's lesson and that can be hard. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─┴───────────┘ --- #18 fediverse/4055 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────── I'm pretty sure the people who live near me are repulsed by me ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #19 fediverse/3130 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────── "are you helping or hurting?" I'm speaking. I'm sorry. Some works hurt some and help others. Honesty and being true to yourself is important, but there's a time and place for some words. I'm kinda bad with timing, if you couldn't tell... ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #20 fediverse/2614 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────── literally just... if you want to connect to me, come hang out on my wavelength. or like, invite me to join yours, and I'll do my best to show how I feel about the things you share. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #21 messages/925 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────── but also, somehow, the coolest, kindest person you know. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════────┴───────────┘ --- #22 fediverse/1381 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────────────── ┌────────────────────────────────────┐ │ CW: death-mentioned-nuts-mentioned │ └────────────────────────────────────┘ I'm a bit of a narcissist because I had a lot of... alone time as a kid, and I was a bit starved for attention. but I'm also afraid of rejection so if you have anything to say I'll listen for hours and try to be what you need me to be and give what you need me to give so that you don't leave me. Also, nobody has ever hurt me. And so I trust wholely and completely and absolutely. I get logically why that's not a good move but frankly I'd rather die than be cooperative. ah nuts better add a content warning. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #23 fediverse_boost/281 --- ◀═╦═════════════════════════[BOOST]══════════════════════════────────────────────┐ ║ ┌──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┐ │ ║ │ Everyone needs to learn the difference between going through something │ │ ║ │ with someone, and someone putting you through something. │ │ ║ └──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────────┘ │ ╠─────────┐ ┌───────────┤ ║ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╚═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════────────┴───────────┴─▶ --- #24 fediverse/3462 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────┘ "*why didn't you say anything? why didn't you ask for help?*" because then you might have done something about it, and don't you know I deserve to decay? ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #25 fediverse/3761 --- ════════════════════════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────────── *trust that your friends enjoy you* ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #26 messages/1514 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──── just because someone is giving you what you need doesn't mean they'll help you when in need. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧════════───┘ --- #27 fediverse/4806 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────── i've been told to be more direct. I haven't been told to be more quiet. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────┴───────────┘ --- #28 fediverse/1430 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── if you don't like me anymore, and then you hide yourself from me instead of telling me, I'm going to spend the rest of my life wondering if you're still alive. It's a curse you bestow upon me, and it's worse than saying goodbye. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #29 fediverse/2786 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────────────────── the best way, I find, to be deserving of trust is to do the best that you can, and be honest when you cannot do more. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #30 messages/300 --- ═════════════════════════════════════════════────────────────────────────────────── Who would have thought, that those who need the most help best know how to help people ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧══════════════════════════════════─────────────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #31 messages/1148 --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════───────── Sometimes i see a lot of my people, sometimes i see very few. This periodic cycle actually fills me with hope. It means they're working together on things just outside my view. I love to be reminded. I love to be loved! But even more, i love to know they're busy. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧═══────────┘ --- #32 fediverse/3434 --- ═══════════════════════════════════════════════════──────────────────────────────── ┌─────────────────────────┐ │ CW: mental-health-minus │ └─────────────────────────┘ me: "I don't care what anyone thinks as long as I'm a force for good" also me: "if anyone doesn't like me ever I'll throw myself off a bridge" also me: "hey watch this" *dissolves into a puddle of acid* also me: "the most important thing is to be good and learn lessons" *what lessons are you learning from this post?* "um. that I shouldn't?" *... shouldn't learn?* "no, shouldn't post" *-.-* ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧════════════════════════════════════════───────────────────┴───────────┘ --- #33 notes/my-people --- ══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════─ I have never met one of my people. we never talk. we just don't. I have no idea what they might want from me, so I just do as they won't. And as I want. the result is... borderline catastrophe, but missing, only just. ┌─────────┐ ┌───────────┐ │ similar │ chronological │ different │ ╘═════════╧═══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════╧═══════════┘ |