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schizophrenic people aren't allowed to go to concerts or bars unless their
friends pay them to be there.
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schizophrenia is like living in a headcanon of everyone else's reality
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"did you know that mentally ill people are oppressed minorities too?"
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║ schizophrenic than a normal person. │
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║ One of them is beggar, another is prophet, and a third is "massive │
║ disappointment" but that comes with the territory. │
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║ *have you considered that maybe you're just a loser* │
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║ yes I have and I decided that all I can do is my best, and if my best loses │
║ then what else could I have done? Wait for help? Yeah. I do that too. │
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║ It feels like an encirclement, and all you can do is hunker down and wait to │
║ be relieved. Or fight to the last, it's up to you. I hear they brutalize the │
║ skulls of their prisoners after executing them, so, I don't know about you but │
║ I'm not surrendering. Not gonna roll those dice. │
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║ *you are in fantasy, again* │
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║ sorry. Should stay here, present, in the moment. Like when I sat out on the │
║ park bench for like 30 minutes straight without moving a muscle last night. Or │
║ when I sat and contemplated the nature of a bog for two hours last september. │
║ Or when I woke from a dream that turned out to be life. │
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The schizophrenic sees the truth in dazzling displays of color that are nigh
incomprehensible, while regular people see truth in shades of gray that you
can understand and work with.
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Look, if I'm going to do this thing, i need so, so much help. With everything.
I can't do anything for myself. I can barely do things for others. Yet somehow
i am at the center of things.
[delusion? Paranoia? Ha those are level 3 symptoms. I'm way past that.]
Girl you're not crazy. Stop saying you're crazy.
"sorry, but, you're schizophrenic" was always intended as sarcasm
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My biggest fear as an autistic transgender incontinent schizophrenic person is
that one day I'll become a game of hot potato for my relatives to pass around
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🖼 fediverse: image post
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"Here's the thing. If you go around telling people you're crazy, they'll
assume you're JUST crazy."
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The trick is, if you *think* you're schizophrenic, then you will be. If you
*think* you're telepathic, then you will be.
There are no grand narratives. Just live your life as you will and be content
with what you build for yourself.
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Sorry for my behavior. I am an undiagnosed scizophrenic, so I'm wrestling with
metaphorical demons. Sorry for attempting to interact with society, I get a
little lonely sometimes.
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"you're telling me that I've been special needs this whole damn time and
nobody told me?"
*to be fair to* nobody *you're pretty good at hiding it*
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║ They will say they're "off their psych meds" yeah, okay, but a diagnosis and │
║ prescription is trivial for a doctor to write. │
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║ They are paid about 35$ per hour. │
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║ They have 2 week shifts "vacations" where they are transferred to a city with │
║ a person they could reasonably impersonate where they act for a while. │
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║ (I know this because one of them replaced a homeless man I knew who had like, │
║ 3 teeth total, and then a few days later a man who looked similar acted as if │
║ he knew me. He had perfect teeth.) │
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║ They have a PO box where they can receive useful items for their disruptive │
║ activities. Hammers, spray-paint, whatever. │
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The hardest part about mental struggles is that the battlefield often turns
out to be your relationships with your friends.
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@user-1218
oh, also, because I started taking some psychiatric medication to help with
the aforementioned delusional thinking or whatever. Honestly I think I just
believe in spiritual things like witchcraft and the human spirit or whatever,
but since I'm having difficulties doing basic things my doctors decided to
medicate me.
... but then I stopped taking those psychiatric drugs because they made me
feel numb and dense. It was hard to think. Thinking's all I do!!
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http://schizoid.in/
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"I'm not autistic, I'm just a different kind of person than you."
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The schizophrenic sees truth in dazzling displays of colors unknown to man,
while the neurotypical sees truth in shades of gray that can be reasoned with.
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║ wait wait wait, hold up. │
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║ you're telling me your purpose in life is to be cool, chill, funny, cute, and │
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║ wow that must be real fucking nice. I'm so damn jealous. Damn. Damnit. Fuck │
║ why am I so orthogonal. What's wrong with me? │
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║ ... ah, well, nothing's wrong with me. Turns out what I do is for you, if only │
║ in spirit. Who are we? nothing! I barely know ya! But I'd do it for you, │
║ whatever it may be. │
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║ ... Look, I don't need my legs, but also, I kinda like them? │
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║ ... where was I? Oh yes this is why you don't invite a schizophrenic to a │
║ party. If you convince them that you're friends, they'll start developing │
║ parasocial relationships and you'll come to realize that their worlds are too │
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║ which is to say, you can hear me, you can like me, you can do as I say or do, │
║ but don't *trust* me, don't place your *trust* in me, because I am just a │
║ person. Don't trust people, trust organizations, to do as you expect. │
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"If I look like a fool, it'll keep eyes on me instead of looking at my friends
who are stoned and paranoid"
*maybe the friends are paranoid because you're acting like a dork and drawing
attention to the group*
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@user-328
don't trust anything on the internet. It can be taken from you.
don't trust anyone in your life - if you are alone, which you can verify
through the sense of connection you feel to others - if you are alone, how can
you trust anyone that they've provided for you to interact with?
when's the last time you drove to a random city in your country and tried to
make friends with passerby? Would you even be convinced that they'd be aligned
to their own designs, and not to that which "they" assigned?
do note that I'm schizophrenic, probably, according to nobody but me, so...
take what I say as you will
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you know that feeling when you realize the person you're talking to is a
demon? sometimes I think they don't even realize it. other times, they do.
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if someone tells you they've been the target of a psyop, don't let them out of
your sight until they're fully healed.
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the government makes murder okay by framing the perpetrators
also prisons are concentration camps
and the people who are close to you are ~~oppressing~~ hunting you
racism etc is a sham to distract you
capital will never be relinquished
the internet was AI from the beginning
something beyond humanity demands our suffering
there cannot be proof of your fears - if it was proven, it would be
circumstances instead of fears
there's nothing [sorry gotta cut this off, my refrigerator is talking to me
again and I want to listen] - [huh that's weird I have no memory of the past
hour, best continue where I left off an hour ago -> go to {A}]a
schizophrenic who's never been diagnosed
{A} - yeah clearly all that I've been saying recently is just a fluke. Like,
just noise in the endless array of expression projected onto our communal
web-space. Clearly I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm not just cogent when
I'm drunk. Or more imaginative when I'm stoned. Clearly dreams are fake and
pursuing them is 1/?
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if you haven't spend hours wondering if you're god, the antichrist, a
cognitohazard, the future president of the world, a target of aliens / the
CIA, or any other number of common delusions... then congratulations you're
probably not crazy
but odds are you aren't magic, either.
... ehhhh "wonder" is a strong word, more like "know, trust, and believe"
much better to be a witch I believe, someone with the "teehee" kind of magic
than someone compelled to destroy humanity through the reactions of others to
the actions of the self that are impossible to resist or fully control.
BRB I'm going to leave my apartment to get groceries, leaving my door unlocked
because that's what I always do, surely it'll be empty when I return. Surely.
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I hate how people think I'm mentally unhealthy.
*I'm fine*. I love myself.
[except all those times when you feel randomly suicidal for no reason at all.
Are you being like... hit with microwaves or something???]
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I have seldom felt as if my potential were not squandered
never do I feel such things outside of the height of mania
aka, the most blessed way to be
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"everyone hates me and I'm not okay about it" a story in 31 parts
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this kind of thing always happens when I'm manic lmao
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@user-532
autistic people when nobody told them to shut up about things they thought
people should be talking about but aren't which is weird right like why
wouldn't people be talking about [thing] because frankly it seems like a big
deal but really it's that everyone knows more than the autistic person who
doesn't have any friends who have friends and is insular and isolated and also
very smart in fact smart enough to think up ideas for things to talk about
that people aren't talking about which is weird because they're not THAT smart
but also a lifetime of isolation has made them a little schizophrenic so they
sometimes feel like their actions are not their own like they're being
hypnotized or perhaps possessed by the spirit of mankind or some other such
entity which would like to express ideas that they think people should talk
about but they aren't talking about which is weird because why else would a
porous person have ideas such as [thing] if not for the path that they're
telepathically suffused with the
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@user-1441 @user-670 @user-113
currently toe-ing the boundary between "too neurodivergent to function" and
"can juuuuust barely take care of themselves" and they ask me to get a job...
no thanks, guess I'll die
(in 3-4 months when my savings run out)
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That feeling when you tell someone you're
[trans/autistic/schizophrenic/whatever] and you see the respect draining from
their eyes
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no adhd meds, but yes different antipsychotic
he made a very convincing argument that consisted primarily of "why don't we
try a different type of the same thing" yeah that makes sense
also he seemed quite happy that I quit cannabis for a while. I guess he's
working for THEM lol
(who's them?)
of course, the ones who want to keep me from my DIVINE DESTINY or whatever.
Airquotes. ugh I need to get over myself, it's just fucking weed, right?
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I'm done trying to be neurotypical. So what if I starve.
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